Author: Gabriel Amara

I am a facilitator and space-holder for SoulFullHeart Healing and Community. I serve both men and women in their healing journey to embody more of their Sacred Humanity and Divine Self in all areas of life. My blog is meant as a bridge to the process and paradigm. For more information, please visit soulfullheart.org.

Mid-Year Energy Update: CATalytic Sirian Gateway Creates UPsurge And Clarity

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Half of 2020 is ‘in the books’. This roller coaster of a ride feels like it is honestly just beginning. From what I understand from an astrological perspective is that this is something that may be a ‘new normal’ for some time to come, through next year possibly.

When I tap into that from my guidance as well, it feels very true. The amps have been turned up and the field we find ourselves in is quite catalytic and rumbling. What I saw in meditation was a lighthouse among an onslaught of waves that was being influenced by an intense energy field. I made an image to represent the feeling tone of it.

I feel we are entering a 4D upsurge. The Subconscious, concurrent timelines, and archetypal dynamics are all making their way to the surface of our waking and/or physical reality. It is causing waves, both inner and outer.

This Sirian Gateway is adding to that overall mix. It is quite a potent time to be here now. If there is any guidance, it IS to Be Here Now. To find the lighthouse within. To connect to the Sirian energies of clarity, boundary, purpose, and play. They give us the ability to stay focused, be real, and be fluid.

The Lighthouse represents how I want and need to be during this times. I feel more solid than ever in my soul’s purpose and heart’s desire to serve, however that manifests itself. If there are others that feel to be tossed and torn during this time, I feel to offer my heart space or at least my own clarity of what is happening collectively.

This can be hard to navigate these waters alone, especially if you find yourself further from the shores you once called ‘home’. A lot is changing and will no longer be the same. We are all in a birth canal in one form or another. Finding a life preserver along the way is not a sign a weakness, but a sign of willingness not to suffer in the storm.

Beginning July 15th, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be offering the next Free To Be 5D Group Call series. This will be focused on Jelelle’s book of the same title. The series will be a great opportunity to connect to all of the parts and aspects of you that are in trauma and/or confusion. It aims to be the Lighthouse in the storm. Opportunities to digest the calls and to connect with others will offered by myself and Kalayna Solais on Saturdays beginning July 18th.

For more info visit: soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

For info on Jelelle’s book: soulfullheart.org/books

I also offer a free 45-minute Consulation Call to feel if and how SoulFullHeart can serve you during these catalytic times.

Sending much love to you and all that you are navigating at this time.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Ahimsa: Healing The Inner Violence To Feel Our Non-Violence

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Ahimsa. It is a Sanskrit word that means β€œnon-injury” or β€œnon-violence”. In my recent process of diving into sexual and emotional trauma as a young boy and teen, I have been able to access the more innocent and essential aspect of me.

This In-Essence, I am calling it, is so very sensitive yet strong and enduring. When I tap into it, I feel how much violence I have learned to be with this life, and many others. This is true for all of us when we get to this very kernel of our Being. When I go outside, I am aware of the violence all around. Things that I would not have deemed as violent before. Sounds, words, actions, thoughts, energies, etc.

Now, going down that awareness road could lead me to just hold up in a cave somewhere and never come out. Of course, that is not what I want (well, maybe a part of me would be okay with that for a short time). What I want to feel is how I can practice Ahimsa in each moment with myself, with Other, and with the World.

The first thing for me is to be aware of the violence within and hold it with compassion. From a SoulFullHeart perspective this violence can come in the form of an Inner Punisher and/or our inner unworth. One parcels out the violence the other acquiesces to it. Holding space for both brings them into relationship, into forgiveness, and into healing.

The more we can heal the violence and unworthiness within, the more we become aware of what is not Ahimsa for us in each moment. That which did not seem violent yesterday may seem much more so tomorrow. The thoughts we have, the things we eat, the way we eat, the way we have sex, the way we talk, the things we say, the feelings we have, the expression or suppression that ensue. The list goes on.

It is Consciousness loving Itself in the most subtle of ways. Compassion is the bridge that takes us there. We cannot find ourselves in a vacuum devoid of violence but we can choose what we are a part of and/or how we respond to situations. Ahimsa becomes a momentary mediation on Love, just as much as holding the part of us that doesn’t feel it has ever really known it or deserves it.

Take a moment to be still and feel Ahimsa. Feel what is not. There the healing begins.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

SoulFullHeart Space-Holding Testimonial

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Sweet testimonial from a new facilitant of mine that I felt so share for a sense of what this work, that I love, is doing for others. If you are drawn to learn more about how the process may serve you please check out soulfullheart.org/sessions. I am feeling a renewed sense of service and heart-opening to assist others in their own healing, ascension, and self-empowerment process. πŸ™β€οΈ

“Gabriel has been such a GOD-SEND! Some heavy emotions around past trauma were resurfacing and I was lead to SoulFullHeart, and to Gabriel.

Being a healer myself, I have gone through many trainings – Reiki, hypnosis, and many other modalities – and I can say, I have seen a dramatic shift in my energy in just 1-90 minute session with this Metasoul parts work.

This parts work that I’ve delved into with Gabriel has opened my eyes and heart to a whole new way of seeing my life. I’ve met parts of myself that I never knew were there and with Gabriel’s precise and powerful guidance, I’ve felt such big shifts and integration of those parts. I am just starting this miraculous journey of meeting my inner parts (Inner Teenager, Inner Child, Inner Protector), but I can already see the huge benefits of it. The sacred space that is opened to feel into is so precious to my inner child, who just wanted to be seen, acknowledged, and felt.

I have also been receiving huge downloads related to my life’s mission as a result of this clearing…and again, it’s only been one session!

I would describe Gabriel as a sacred masculine guide who deeply feels and intuits your experience in the most beautiful way. I have felt held, safe, and as though I needed this experience with a masculine figure to recalibrate my past experiences with toxic masculine men.

I’d recommend working with Gabriel if you are being drawn to heal aspects of yourself to become more fully integrated into your authentic, 5D expression. He is a gem! As is the rest of the SoulFullHeart community!”

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Dearest Daughter: A Loving Message From Divine Mother To Heal The False Mother

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A very catalytic week post-Solstice and Eclipse! Lots of rumbles and clarities arising in the Now. SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle and Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Solais share about those energies and more in writings and videos from the week all gathered together in one place below in our weekly museletter.

We also share about upcoming events, including a women’s call with Jelelle on July 5th and a NEW six week group call series Free To Be 5D starting on July 15th, based on Jelelle’s new book of the same title that you can purchase at soulfullheart.org/books

You can subscribe to receive this weekly update museletter automatically every Monday via email at soulfullheart.org.

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart!
You can offer a donation to SoulFullHeart via PayPal here: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Check out the latest Museletter below:
https://mailchi.mp/970fe8934a38/soulfullheart-muselettera-loving-message-from-divine-mother-to-heal-the-false-mother

Reclaiming The Lost Boy Of Our In-essence

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As a sensitive boy growing up, I could feel so much around me yet had no real guidance on how to interpret, digest, and integrate it all. This is really true for most if not all of us. The biggest piece I am revisiting now is the depth of my sexual trauma as a boy moving into manhood.
Confronted with so many images, energies, and conditionings around sex and sexuality, this boy in me found himself between a rock and a hard place (pardon the pun). There was the desire for innocence to be the name of the game. To dance with the essence in both the boy and the girl. Like a journey of discovery and playfulness.

Instead it was about fitting in to the dominant culture of woundedness. Girl became an object of my need to be validated as a man in the world. Her yoni a portal back into the womb of The Mother. But Girl was wounded too. She was looking for her own needs to be filled…so to speak
Now Boy is caught between fulfilling the needs of both the wounded masculine in his power over the feminine and the wounded feminine in her need to feel some hook into the masculine. Both invulnerable and unable to really see each other in their innocence or in-essence.

I reconnected with that boy in me again and replayed those days while feeling the innocence in contrast. The pain of what this boy packed away in order to survive in that world was heart-wrenching. I could feel the toxicity and pain swelling in my cells. All of the trauma that I never categorized as trauma because men don’t do that in what is just ‘those teenage years’.
If, as men, we were to really feel where we lost our innocence, we would really get to a core of who we are as a man. Why we have done, and to some degree still do, the things that we do. If we can ‘come to Jesus’ with this Lost Boy inside of us, we would find the root and beauty of our masculine innocence. Something we packed away a long fucking time ago.

In that innocence we also find the warrior who has fiercely protected him. The warrior who has both shadow to heal and truth to tell. Between them both is the Man who has a vulnerable heart and a willingness to call bullshit when he sniffs it. He is willing put his heart on the line but not his power. He is willing to seek forgiveness but not condemnation.

There has been no greater process for me than the one I am currently in. This Lost Boy in found again in my heart. I am loving him with every once of it that I have access to. It is my current sacred bromance. It is this process that activates and unearths more of my King or Sacred Sovereign Masculine Self. It is this process that leads me to more self-love and ability to see, feel, and relate authentically to the feminine within and without.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Loving The Spiritual Warrior Into The Spiritual Ambassador

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Since the Solstice/Eclipse I found myself flying high in the sky to then falling toward the ocean like Icarus in the Greek myth. An outer trigger that constellated another layer of my wounded masculine and feminine.

It illuminated the ways in which they are both still working out their relationship to each other. As my own ascension and maturation process continues, I reach more subtle areas of my wounded and shadow selves. Then the subtle becomes more obvious and like an elephant in the room.

The awareness I felt was that parts of me still look outbound for validation rather than inbound and from me and the Divine. Before this SoulFullHeart work, I would respond to this awareness by trying to ‘improve’ myself or take care of my ‘shit’. This only brought in more frequencies of self-judgement rather than self-compassion.

Through connecting to my inner world of parts and Metasoul aspects, I have become more clear about who I, Gabriel, is as the ‘eye of the storm’ sort of speak. I am becoming more clear of my Essential self, that Me that is the spark of the Divine.

As I connect to that energy more, I can start to see the architecture of my wounding more and be able to hold the parts of me in vibration and pain. I am the Ambassador of my own ascension. My trailing edge wounds are a part of who I am. I cannot go very far without them. Their ascension is my ascension.

So in I go. Feeling. Reflecting. Compassionating. Loving. Owning and Growing. This is the path of Spiritual Ambassador, not the Spiritual Warrior. Even the warrior is held in Love and not in spite. It has enumerable gifts that are the fuel of our devotion to Love for all humankind and for ourselves as human souls.

For more on this topic of 4D Warrior to 5D Ambassador I highly recommend today’s call with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. They will be bridging these energies through teaching and a guided meditation to bring in more compassion, forgiveness, and self-love. It will be available as a recording as well. To get the details go to soulfullheart.org/freetobe2.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Solstice/Eclipse/’Father’s Day’ Sacred Masculine Codes Illuminating Shadow Masculine

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Whew! Well, we made it through that portal! This week in the SoulFullHeart Museletter there was a lot of digestion about this weekend’s Solstice and Ring Of Fire Eclipse.  You can read it here. 

Featured this week is a piece from Kalayna Solais. In it, she talks about how the eclipse and Solstice brought in sacred masculine codes that can highlight the shadow masculine: 

As Divine Father/Masculine energies come through, you’ll feel illuminations of your own shadow masculine expressions in this life and others. You’ll likely feel the grab at old relationships to others, to soul purpose work as well that your masculine has needed for a sense of β€˜worth’ in the world. You’ll feel the outrage of your masculine and even masculinized β€˜warrior feminine’ coming forward in some cases, wanting to set fire to everything in your life and to the 3D systems still collapsing.

Related to the Solstice/Eclipse is a video by Jelelle Awen who talks about her take on the Ascension energies during this portal as well as a meditation to connect with the codes that are meant to activate and illuminate any messages for you at this time. 

The last β€˜Free To Be 2’ group call is this Wednesday, June 24th @ 10am PDT. The last call of this series will focus on moving from Warrior to 5D Love Ambassador. Moving from warrior/activist/rebellion leader frequencies to an Ambassador of Love is an aspect of what is being offered as a deeper embodiment during this transition to New Earth. The guided meditation will connect you to the part of you that most needs you to help them move out of these warrior energies and into an Ambassador of Love frequency.

You can offer a donation at any time and receive the recordings and also the link to attend any of the future calls live if you can or want to. More information at https://www.soulfullheart.org/freetobe2 

In this week’s edition of our Museletter, there is information on Jelelle’s upcoming call on July 5th for women about healing the mother wound to let in Divine Mother. There are many new articles and audio blogs from SoulFullHeart Facilitators/teachers Raphael and Jelelle Awen, as well as SoulFullHeart Facilitator Kalayna Solais and Gabriel Heartman. Check out our β€˜Quotes of The Week’ section for some quote cards you can save and share! If you can, please do tag us whenever possible.

If you are interested in a session, we begin with a free consultation for 30-45 minutes over Zoom with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for you to learn more about the SoulFullHeart Process, what happens in sessions, mutually determine if the process is a fit for you at this time, and if so, which Facilitator to work with in sessions. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information.

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Healing!

You can offer a donation to SoulFullHeart via PayPal here: paypal.me/jelelleawen

You can subscribe to our Museletters here: soulfullheart.org

Check out the latest Museletter here.

The Alignment Of Love And Light Within The Shadow

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There is no doubt we have reached a new level of awakening. More Light is coming in and we will be going through an alchemical portal the next few days. What happens during these times can be conscious and unconscious. That which we are conscious of we have the ability to meet it with courage and intention.

Light doesn’t always look or feel loving. Light is meant to show. To reveal. Activate. Awaken. Our Shadow, both collectively and individually, is being brought into more consciousness. You can run, but you cannot hide from it. You can fight it, but you cannot defeat it. It can only be confronted, embraced, and loved.

In The Shadow are all the things that have been packed away, repressed, suppressed, and forgotten for very good reason. We even pack our bigness and truth in The Shadow. Pain and Pleasure both. It is a bubbling well of death and rebirth. Destruction and Construction. You can hold the course the best you can, but this is usually a part of you that is navigating the chaos by just getting through it. Or there may be a part that thrives in chaos to the detriment to the parts of you that are not too thrilled about being on the rollercoaster.

Social relationships and body reactions are big indicators of whether Love and Light are in cahoots with each other. Love without shedding Light on what real is Transcendence. Torching the Light without Love is Violence. In the middle, is sacred humanity.

When you take time to breathe and feel yourself in the midst of the Fire, you may feel many conflicting energies that can create a multitude of emotional and physical reactions. The Heart and Body never lie. The question is, are they talking to each other?

If you feel a wobble and procession with these energies, it may be time to find a source of stability where you can grab hold of a center. This can be done by accessing the parts of you that are in pain, reaction, and dis-ease. By relating to them as a part, you increasingly become the center pole, capable of more than just weathering a storm. You are transmuting and reclaiming the Power and Lovelight that you are at your core. The weather patterns begin to calm with each movement and your outer world can’t help but to need to reflect that.

I have been through many of these deaths and rebirths in my process during very intense energetic times. I offer my heart and experience as that center pole for a time until you feel more of yours. I am a part of a community of others who are doing the same, so you are not on your own on this. You get support and recognition for who you are as an emotional, spiritual, and physical being.

If that sounds like an interesting invitation and would like to explore more, please check more about our free consult calls with myself, Raphael Awen, or Kalayna Solais at soulfullheart.org/sessions. There is also Jelelle Awen’s new book Free To Be 5D that lays out the whole paradigm and process at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books. There will be a group call series about the book beginning July 15. More info at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

Many blessings to you as we continue this continued ascension and maturation process.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Gatekeeper As An Essential Part Of Our Awakening And Ascension

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The timeline gates have widened. Gaia is continuing Her ascent. Love is doing its Work. It is not pretty or neat. It is real. What has been in Shadow is coming to the Surface. It will continue to do so. There is no more ‘normal’. There only navigation, surrender, and self-love. As chaotic as it appears, it is necessary so we can find ourselves again.

The ‘past’ is finding its way to the present. That ‘past’, or other timelines, are weaving in and out of each of our fields. A great final act is underway. So how can you navigate all of this intensity and increased Love Bath at the same time?

The Gatekeeper is an aspect that holds many keys to our emotional and spiritual healing and ascension. It is the Purveyor and Guardian of your deepest traumas and gifts, both. Through access and relationship with the aspect of you, you get a wider view of what is going on inside and outside of you. How does your soul story relate to what is happening now? Where does all the pain, fear, anxiety, depression come from?

This is where your Gatekeeper can be a guide alongside your humanity. Many times we can fuse to this energy and it is INTENSE! More than our human bodies and hearts can handle at times. A deeper connection and separation from them can help to feel your sovereign self among the chaos.

I made the top image below to represent what a Gatekeeper may feel like to some. This is how he came to me in the beginning stages of my process. With much work and inner process he has changed quite a bit to a more angelic presence. They do, and can, hold many varied frequencies. For more info on this aspect you can read this great article here:https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Metasoul/Karmic Healing Brings Clarity To Your NOW

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There are so many timelines that are in play right now. Taking a Star Being’s-eye view, it almost looks like the multitude of tree branches coming out from a central trunk.
That trunk feels like our essential unity. The core of who and what we are in our nature. Our Divine/Galactic connection. Yet there are multiple offshoots all leading to an eventual termination point.

These can be seen and felt as Metasoul timelines that have a varied impact on the Now. These timelines have an effect on what is happening both inside of you and outside. All these personal soul narratives coalescing and merging into one powerful human lower 4D soup.

To feel these timelines, or Metasoul aspects, it gives you a personalized relationship to what is happening on the world’s stage, and the turmoil that it may be causing within. When ‘this life’ trauma and reaction are coupled with ‘other life’ trauma and reaction, there is a large personal power suck that happens.

It is like the energy from the trunk gets moved to the branches rather than the supportive core itself. The trunk loses itself and its holding power, and then can collapse by the energetic weight of the branches.When your branches (parts and Metasoul aspects) are brought inward, toward your trunk (our higher heart and soul expression), the energy can then be transmuted and integrated into your core. This more solid You can then begin to see and feel what is authentically yours and how you want to authentically respond and act.

In our next Free To Be 2 group call, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be talking about the Metasoul, Karmic healing, and the Gatekeeper. They will provide a guided meditation to help you meet your Gatekeeper, who is akin to your personal guardian and guide of your Metasoul. The Gatekeeper is an important aspect to become acquainted with when desiring to do a deep dive into soul karma, trauma, and pattering.

By feeling your personal soul relationship to any external circumstance whether it be global, social, or intimate, it can bring a whole new consciousness around the pain, fears, and reactions to so many things. It has been a huge gift to me on my journey and has really helped to get that Star Being’s-eye view as well as a grounded relationship (roots) to what my needs, desires, and clarities are.
For more information please visit: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2.

If you are interested in a free consult with myself, Raphael, or Kalayna you can go to soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info as well.

Much love to you during these trying times.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.