Prayer is not something that I have felt connected to often in my life. Usually when a life is on the line or big global events happen.
I was involved in a vehicle incident where I hit someone in a very freakish accident. It happened out of nowhere in my consciousness. The moment dropped me into a deep well of grief and all I could do when I got home was pray. I pray for the injured person, for my family, and for myself. I prayed for hours and hours.
I found out the next day that the women made a remarkable turn around when the prognosis wasn’t good when she arrived. I was elated to say the least but still very affected by the whole incident. It brought up so much around being responsible for another’s person’s life. This goes back deep into my soul. It goes deep into the collective soul as well. How much we have been responsible for and the layer of guilt and shame that can come from that.
I am finding myself years later sitting in deep prayer again. As I have been healing the layers of my own guilt, fear, judgement, and unworth, I am feeling a renewed relationship to authentic and genuine prayer. It is not for things to be made better per se, but to send Love in all directions, to all of humanity, not just to one side. It is meant to be in stillness to receive understanding and guidance. It is to be in communion with the Cosmic Divine inside and to connect it with all that surrounds me.
I have let go of putting my faith and energy in our current institutions. They are in a death cycle. It is time to start praying on and with the New. I feel my prayer holding space for that death and rebirth both globally and, more importantly, personally. For if we cannot die and be reborn individually, how can we expect the same to happen collectively.
There is much we can all do outside of prayer that requires an action. We need both. What that action is and the energy that it is held in comes directly from that prayer state. I am grateful for this reacquainting with Divine prayer. It lives in me differently and more authentically. I trust its service and it purpose, just as I trust the Love that holds us. I do not pray FOR others as much as I pray WITH others.
May this be its own prayer with you in whatever you are moving through during these times.
Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.