Category: Free To Be Call Series

Inviting Your 3D Self Into Healing

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by Kalayna Solais

In order to be in, live in, navigate 3D, parts of you have had to form. They’ve also formed in reaction to traumas you’ve experienced in the density of 3D. These traumas sometimes have slipped under the radar, actually, and not necessarily been experiences of overt abuse. Sometimes even just not being heard or seen is traumatic. Not feeling loved is traumatic. Not feeling like you belong on this planet is traumatic.

The 3D Self is pretty complex yet when you meet your own with love and open-hearted curiosity, the parts that make it up respond to that, come forward, and a bond with them is created. This is not about ‘eliminating the ego’ as some other offerings may teach, yet rather, loving the ‘3D ego’, if you want to call it that, and appreciating WHY it’s had to form. This helps you find your way through the pain and into the harvest of deep inner gifts and soul bigness that have been buried underneath it out of necessity.

Without loving the 3D Self deeply, your life cannot shift on deeper levels. What needs to be let go of in order to let in MORE love in Divine/multi-dimensional ways becomes more challenging to walk out than it necessarily has to be. There’s a necessary burning away of the masks that have kept you in fused states to your 3D Self and its many ways of expressing in your relationship to others and yourself in general, and your relationship to the Divine, to love, to spirituality.

If this resonates and sparks some interest in you to go deeper, Raphael and Jelelle Awen offered a by-donation group call yesterday about this very topic that you can still donate to receive the recording of. It’s part of the 6-week Free To Be 5D Series so your donation will get you access to all recordings from this series so far and the Zoom link for the other 4 calls coming up. You’ll hear teachings from them on and also engage in a powerful guided meditation. Gabriel Heartman and I also share a bit about our own experiences with this process.

More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupseries

Much love to you and your precious 3D Self! ❤
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing The Warrior Within Group Call Recording & Completion of Free To Be 2 Series (w/recordings available!)

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By Jelelle Awen

What a wonderful energy to complete our Free To Be 2 group call series on today! Our final call of the series honored the warrior within (and all the expressions of it) and invited it into more experience of Divine forgiveness/compassion to become the Ambassador.

Thank you SO MUCH to all of you who joined us for this call and for the series in whatever ways and degrees that you did. You are helping us to seed and plant SoulFullHeart into the world and the collective grids, radiating there for whomever is drawn and resonant.

BIG thank you to Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Solais for your contributions and sharings in every call and for holding such lovely and deep space for the Saturday follow up calls!

You can purchase ALL of the recordings in this series and in the previous ones at our soulfullheart.org/shop or via paypal by donation at paypal.me/jelelleawen. (please make a note of what you are donating for). We went to some powerful places during these series and laid out some foundational teachings too so I highly recommend them.

ONWARD to the next series, which starts on Wednesday July 15th through August 19th…Free To Be 5D, a group call series focused on deepening the content that is covered in my new book Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out. You can purchase the book and get more information about this series at soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries.

Also coming up is my Sacred Feminine Exploration women’s group call teaching about and offering a guided meditation to connect with healing the motherhood wound to let in more Divine Mother is on Sunday, July 5th at 10:00am PDT. Open to all women over 18 by donation. More information at: soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

We hope to see you for the next series and future calls!

love,

Jelelle Awen and Raphael Awen

process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about a free consultation call and 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kalayna Solais, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

From Warrior To Love Ambassador Group Call June 24

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by Jelelle Awen

The new hero/heroines will not be those that fight, yet rather those that can be an ambassador of love in any situation.

It is time to pick up the lantern of illumination, and put down the sword.

Time to go toward peaceful solutions, rather than to battle.

Time to raise the white flags of surrender, instead of new declarations of war.

Time to seek out ceasefires on all battlegrounds, rather than new fronts to defend.

Time to transform from being a warrior, to being an ambassador of love.

Time to gather parts of you that have been polarized, and sign the inner peace treaties that lead to more self worth and love.

Time to let go of being against anything and moving into being FOR LOVE in all situations.

Time to honor the strength in vulnerability, rather than only in the capacity to fight.

Time to rest the vigilance, the guarding and the defending….and rise into trusting, allowing, and flowing.

Time to let the Divine Mother into your inner feminine/masculine’s hearts, to receive Her ready forgiveness.

Time to let the Divine Father activate the transition from wounded to sacred masculine!It is time to transform from being a warrior, to being an ambassador of love…from the inside out.

~Join Raphael and I tomorrow, Wednesday June 24th at 10:00am PDT for the final group call in our Free To Be 2 series: Navigating The Matrix Collapse To New Earth Transition where we will share about the transition from Warrior to Love Ambassador and offer a guided meditation to bridge to and feel the warrior within you AND the love ambassador energy as well. Should be powerful support in the collective for the shifting of these energies with so much going on right now. You can join live or get the recording by offering a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen.

More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about a free consultation call and 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kalayna Solais, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

The Divine Invitation To Move From Warrior To Love Ambassador

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By Jelelle Awen

The impulse to fight is so strong. Ingrained in our very and every DNA, going back to our roots and the 3D battles, galactic wars and the ancient ones too. The urge to ‘battle against’ and ‘fight for’ has been a way in 3D and 4D timelines to show your strength of character and a way to demonstrate what you love, your loyalty, and the depth of your love and passion for your country/family/king/ruler.

We have all had so many 3D and 4D timelines of fighting, battling, and BEing the warrior. Not just men, yet all of us on a Metasoul level choosing this expression in different forms and shapes. A sword, gun, whatever weapons in our hands….or using words as the weapon…or energy thrown about and at whomever we have deemed to be the enemy.

This battling is in our DNA. It is also a galactic consciousness inheritance from our Star Family in the timelines where galactic wars have been and are a reality. Our 3D culture/current timeline is all about battling…good vs evil, light vs dark. All of the biggest blockbuster movies are based on this premise with battle scenes being the climax of all of them.

Battles lead to more battles with always a cost of some kind on both sides. The biggest cost is the energy that it takes and that has to move through us in order to engage in this way. The desire to battle comes from mostly unhealed wounding/traumas in which we have been both victim and perpetrator. These unhealed wounds have a vibration/energetic frequency that expresses, then, as rage. Rage in its essence is passionate truth telling that has been suppressed to protect the more vulnerable feelings of hurt underneath.

The parts of us that can be a warrior (such as the Inner Protector and our Gatekeeper) and have had to be are becoming more weary, tired, and just done with all this battling. They are wanting to move into a new phase of ambassador where trust and forgiveness lead over mistrust and grudges. You can feel this part of you as your Inner Protector and connecting with them can help to transition them into this new phase with you. As this part of you shifts their focus from fighting, they can put their energies toward opening up Metasoul timelines/lifetimes, your soul awakening, and becoming a channel for Divine love.

The warrior archetype can be deeply expressed in your Metasoul….many lifetimes of choosing to fight for God, for country, for King, for belief systems. There is much ‘soul burn’ from these experiences as they so often led to violent death and killing/murder, the densest energy frequencies of trauma. These lifetimes can bleed through into your current experience of life, attaching to traumas this-life that are similar in tone, even if not as intense or extreme in content. There is also trauma from being on the receiving end or victim of these fighting/killing energies. And, so many of us have been on both sides of this…both victim and persecutor/perpetrator.

Connecting to your Gatekeeper as the guardian of your veil of amnesia and channel to Divine Love allows you access to these lifetimes to feel and heal the warrior/fighter within them. You offer a balm of love and forgiveness along with the Divine to them and a beautiful gift exchange occurs as you become a love ambassador to your own soul. I have experienced this myself many times and in session space and it is a beautiful working and movement that has quantum and exponential results.

We are being invited as a human species to evolve beyond our instinct and habit toward fighting. We are being invited to embody and inhabit an ambassador’s consciousness and a diplomat’s deep desire in 5D to find a peaceful middle ground of negotiation. We are being invited to become the service of love with ourselves and others as the Ascension process into Sacred Humanity continues to unfold.

The new heroes/heroines of the New Earth/Gaia reality will be those who can bring peace in any situation. It will no longer be the warriors who receive the recognition and admiration, yet those who can offer forgiveness to even the darkest-feeling energies, beings, and situations. This ability will become so important as we move deeper into collective disclosure of 3D/4D Matrix realities that will be difficult for so many souls to digest and accept. Those who can offer authentic objectivity and compassion toward all sides will be very valuable as models and templates of ‘New Gaians’.

New Earth invites us to find and discover resolutions that come from finding common grounds of ambassadorship, which are about being able to feel and be compassionate toward someone else’s perspective. Not wanting to do harm even if the means of harming could be justified by a temporary resolution of the conflict.

The Divine Mother invites us to move into our compassionate heart of neutrality toward all aspects of ourselves and toward others as the next phase of our conscious evolution as a species here.This capacity to be an ambassador of love starts from within, from one part of you to another, from one Metasoul Aspect to another, from one relationship to another.

It is a process of becoming a forgiving and compassionate energy to all of your emotions/reactions/triggers. No longer judging some as bad or ill or a disorder or sinful or needing to be fixed. No longer bypassing the most unsavory and uncomfortable ones in order to just be in bliss. Yet, instead, embracing all of your emotions as portals inviting you into a rich and deep ground of endless self discovery and growth.

It is a process of inviting all parts and Metas to put down the sword and replace it with a lantern…offering illumination out of the darkness and shadows. It is leading with curiosity to light the way rather than condemnation, which only keeps things hidden in suffering loops of shameful secrecy.

~ From Free To Be 5D, New Book by Jelelle Awen

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This is an excerpt from my new book Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out available NOW in PDF, e-book, and print editions. You can read more with links to purchase here: soulfullheart.org/books

Join Raphael and I for the final call in our Free To Be 2 group call series on Wednesday June 24 at 10:00am PDT for teachings and a guided meditation about navigating the transition from warrior (and however that expresses within your soul) to 5D Love Ambassador or receive the recording for any donation amount at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen

Raphael and I will be starting a new six week group call series on July 15 called Free To Be 5D that is an accompaniment to the book as well offering teachings, personal sharings and guided meditations to create a deeper experience of the content in the book. More info at soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

Connecting With Your Gatekeeper Group Call June 17

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By Jelelle Awen

I first felt the energy of my Gatekeeper aspect in 2008. It didn’t feel like a guardian angel, a guide, or any part of myself that I had contact with before. There was something so familiar in the presence though, even as I could also feel ‘his’ angst and some deep sadness too that I couldn’t understand. I was going through a Dark Night phase during that time and we were in acute need of each other, having left a spiritual community and teacher that had been very meaningful to me. My Gatekeeper revealed himself to me eventually and over the years as the guardian of my veil of amnesia, able to modulate access to other lifetimes and timelines/soul activations and more, and having awareness of ALL of my lifetimes within the fourth dimensional space for which he existed outside of linear time.

Over the years since then, I have spoken with many (probably hundreds) of Gatekeepers inside of people in sessions, and they are always fascinating, magical, mysterious, and holding deep access to soul terrains that previously have been blocked to us. They very often show up as a Wizard (like Merlin or Gandalf) and have that same frequency of magical wisdom. They often test you for a while to make sure that you are ready for the realms that they have access to open up for you. They especially need to feel that you are emotionally mature enough to process and digest the soul patterns and themes that reveal themselves.

In collaboration with your Gatekeeper, you are able to have free flow access to your soul (or Metasoul as I’ve been guided to call it.) With their cooperation, you are able to connect in a much deeper way with aspects from other lifetimes, heal each other, and exchange soul gifts together. This process of exchange activates soul unification, what had been severed is able to begin coming together. There is nothing quite like the feeling sense of your soul fragment reunions moving into more of a unified Divine Self expression!

Raphael Awen and I will explore this ground tomorrow during the fourth call in our Free To Be 2 series at 10:00 am PDT. We will teach and share more about our personal process experience with our Gatekeepers and how we have experienced a transformation of them that allows open access to your soul fields. And we will co-lead a guided meditation to connect with your Gatekeeper.

You are welcome to join us live and/or you will receive the recording for ANY donation amount that you feel to offer. You will also receive the recordings from the previous calls and access to attend the remaining ones. You can offer a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info at soulfullheart.org/freetobe2

Now is a time in which the veils are particularly thin as the Matrix collapses, more souls awaken, and the time for remembering deepens!

More about the Gatekeeper and a meditation to meet yours here: https://youtu.be/-IZQYBoE6Cg

love,
Jelelle Awen

I share much more about the Gatekeeper and other 4D Aspects, ongoing Ascension process, and even writings on this current global awakening process in my new book Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out. More info here: soulfullheart.org/books

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about a free consultation call and 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kalayna Solais, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

Metasoul/Karmic Healing Brings Clarity To Your NOW

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There are so many timelines that are in play right now. Taking a Star Being’s-eye view, it almost looks like the multitude of tree branches coming out from a central trunk.
That trunk feels like our essential unity. The core of who and what we are in our nature. Our Divine/Galactic connection. Yet there are multiple offshoots all leading to an eventual termination point.

These can be seen and felt as Metasoul timelines that have a varied impact on the Now. These timelines have an effect on what is happening both inside of you and outside. All these personal soul narratives coalescing and merging into one powerful human lower 4D soup.

To feel these timelines, or Metasoul aspects, it gives you a personalized relationship to what is happening on the world’s stage, and the turmoil that it may be causing within. When ‘this life’ trauma and reaction are coupled with ‘other life’ trauma and reaction, there is a large personal power suck that happens.

It is like the energy from the trunk gets moved to the branches rather than the supportive core itself. The trunk loses itself and its holding power, and then can collapse by the energetic weight of the branches.When your branches (parts and Metasoul aspects) are brought inward, toward your trunk (our higher heart and soul expression), the energy can then be transmuted and integrated into your core. This more solid You can then begin to see and feel what is authentically yours and how you want to authentically respond and act.

In our next Free To Be 2 group call, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be talking about the Metasoul, Karmic healing, and the Gatekeeper. They will provide a guided meditation to help you meet your Gatekeeper, who is akin to your personal guardian and guide of your Metasoul. The Gatekeeper is an important aspect to become acquainted with when desiring to do a deep dive into soul karma, trauma, and pattering.

By feeling your personal soul relationship to any external circumstance whether it be global, social, or intimate, it can bring a whole new consciousness around the pain, fears, and reactions to so many things. It has been a huge gift to me on my journey and has really helped to get that Star Being’s-eye view as well as a grounded relationship (roots) to what my needs, desires, and clarities are.
For more information please visit: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2.

If you are interested in a free consult with myself, Raphael, or Kalayna you can go to soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info as well.

Much love to you during these trying times.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Matrix Deprogramming & Divine Recoding Process (video) |Raphael and Jelelle Awen

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The Matrix is collapsing during this global awakening event and we are becoming more aware of programming we’ve received from it on 3D and 4D levels with opportunity to let in more Divine recodings as we deprogram. This video provides quick excerpts of teachings from a Free To Be 2 group call on June 3 with SoulFullHeart Teachers Raphael and Jelelle Awen sharing about the programs that we receive in birth family relationships, education/indoctrination, food and body, false light, and more. Raphael and Jelelle also talk about how Divine codes are differentiated from programs and how to let them in more.

SoulFullHeart Facilitators Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Solais also share in the video about their process of unplugging from the Matrix and their experiences in the guided meditation during the call that offered a connection to part of them that may still be receiving programming.

You can purchase the FULL recording of this group call recorded on June 3 (which includes 40 MORE minutes of teachings, two guided meditations and full sharings from Gabriel and Kalayna) and receive the recordings of all remaining calls (or zoom link to attend them live) in the series through offering a donation at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen

Here is information about joining live and/or receiving the recordings for our this group call series Free To Be 2: Navigating The Matrix Collapse To New Earth Transition: https://www.soulfullheart.org/freetobe2

For the latest writings, videos, and information about SoulFullHeart community events and group calls, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org.

For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Solais, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Money donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange to support SoulFullHeart to continue providing free offerings such as this video series. You can donate through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen.

The Suffering And Healing Of The Inner Teenager

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Tomorrow in our next SoulFullHeart Free To Be group call, we will be diving into the Inner Teenager part of us that has a lot of wounding, BUT a ton of power and creativity. Right now the Inner Teenager may be coming out in a rebellious nature toward some of the ‘rules’ that are being implemented right now. There may also be a compliance as well. I know I had both in me in my teen years and struggled in the conflict between the two.

This conflict showed up as a desperate need to do well in school while being heavily into alcohol and smoking. I had a lot of mom/sister issues that showed up in my relationship to young women my age. It felt like an all-round hell zone for him in many ways. Trying like hell to fit in but not knowing which ‘in’ was really his.

As I feel him (his name is Chris, my birth name) from this vantage point, I can feel a soul that was winding down the 3D experience and struggling to reconcile that. Until of course he met Jill (aka Jelelle Awen) in college and the journey of self-discovery and authenticity began. It was a lot for him to let go of all that he thought he identified with (family, friends, relationships, conditioned ideas, etc).

He is very much into art and creativity and this too was a conflict as well with deep perfectionism that caused a lot of suffering. A battle between the masculine and feminine waged within. I feel him much more rested in with my inner teenage feminine and they seem to be in much more balance and harmony together.

In him there is a rebellion that just wants to go his own way without a fight. He doesn’t need to get angry anymore or judge others as this was always a judgement of himself. I feel a relief in him for no longer being in those days while still honoring all the process. There were lots of good times among the suffering. Those are what are now left in the memory banks when we look back.

Still much to heal around romance, intimacy, and sexuality but those are on their way with each passing day. Working with Chris in the early stages of my process was one of the most touching and healing parts of my journey. You don’t realize how much you are our teenager until you start to work with them.

If you are interested in connecting with and knowing more about your Inner Teenager, please join us for the next group call tomorrow at 10am PST. You can find out more info here:
soulfullheart.org/freetobe2 or purchase the link and soulfullheart.org/shop

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc. 

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Bigger Picture Of The Covid Global Awakening Event

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The weeks continue to be catalytic and expansive. This one no less than any other. We began the new round of Free To Be Calls with the topic of Money and that set of a firestorm of process for all involved. There were many digestions, awarenesses, and movements as a result. We also continued to feel the current energies of the Coronavirus and the New Moon on May 22.  You can read it here. 

Featured this week is a piece from Jelelle Awen. In it, she takes an eagle’s eye view of the Global Covid Awakening Event and what different timelines are presenting themselves and how compassion is an important aspect of these times:

All of us who came to Gaia at this time have chosen to experience a phase within this 3D Matrix consensus reality for the growth it offers to go through it and emerge out of it. Some of us became more bought into it than others and sometimes have been deeply plugged into it for multiple timelines. Before you would judge and condemn others who are still ‘asleep’ or label them as ‘sheep’, you can feel with compassion the parts of you that needed to go through that phase too and WHY they did. For many awakening souls, it is possible that they STILL have parts of them that are plugged into/corded into this 3D Matrix (for example in birth family relationships, mateships, and jobs). You can lovingly invite these parts of you to be felt and help them unplug through healing the emotional/soul traumas that may be keeping them stuck and plugged in.

The next ‘Free To Be’ group call series begins this Wednesday, May 27th @ 10am PDT. The second call of this series will focus on the Inner Teenager and his/her relationship to what is currently happening in the world today. With the shifting times, there is an opportunity to share your truth and that can create waves in your social world that may trigger the ‘black sheep’ part of you that has experienced social rejection for being different. We will share about how to digest the trauma around this invalidation experience from this life and other lifetimes. You will connect with your Inner Teenager in meditation to open up negotiation and collaboration during these shifts. 

You can offer a donation at any time and receive the recordings and also the link to attend any of the future calls live if you can or want to. More information at https://www.soulfullheart.org/freetobe2 

In this week’s edition of our Museletter, there is a sample of the last group call as well as the series overview for those that may have not seen it yet. There are many new articles and audio blogs from SoulFullHeart Facilitators/teachers Raphael and Jelelle Awen, as well as SoulFullHeart Facilitators Kalayna Solais and Gabriel Heartman. SoulFullHeart Collaborator and Facilitant Deya Shekinah has two very potent writings based on her personal process and growth of her parts during these times. 

Check out our ‘Quotes of The Week’ section for some quote cards you can save and share! If you can, please do tag us whenever possible.

If you are interested in a session, we begin with a free consultation for 30-45 minutes over Zoom with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for you to learn more about the SoulFullHeart Process, what happens in sessions, mutually determine if the process is a fit for you at this time, and if so, which Facilitator to work with in sessions. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information.

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Healing!

You can offer a donation to SoulFullHeart via PayPal here: paypal.me/jelelleawen

You can subscribe to our Museletters here: soulfullheart.org

Check out the latest Museletter here.

Deeper Intimacy With Self Through The Explorations With Money

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By Deya Shekinah

Wow, what a topic money is. I feel so many layers and parts wrapped into the explorations with money. One of the things that Jelelle Awen offered in the SoulFullHeart Free To Be Two group call about money this week, was how some can relate to money as a false god. This landed straight away as what I experienced within my family, how earning money gave meaning to life and felt like the only meaning to life as there was no spirituality or religion in my upbringing. I feel how my Inner Masculine, David, took this on and how my Inner Child, Yazzy, was stifled by this. Since she was always so multi dimensional, she didn’t believe this to be true, but as there was no one bringing any other meaning, she became capped by that.

I remembered a time when a male family member said to me that ‘money is the only thing that matters in the world’. At the time, I was blown away that anyone could believe that. As I feel it now, I feel so much density in that picture of our world, the lack of joy or spaciousness in it. As I feel David, I sense this energy within him as the conditioning he received from birth family members. 

Right now I am in a transition into a new way of being and earning money, that is bringing light to David’s relationship to money.  I hold and feel a lot of trust around money after years of transitioning and exploring money. This transition has grown into a deeper awareness and understanding of a greater meaning of life, as well as what abundance looks and feels like to me. 

I have learnt that abundance is many things. Not only money, but time, connection, vulnerability with others, space to BE. These all feel like abundance to me. I am coming to know and feel that my inner feeling of abundance is what draws abundance on the outside including financial abundance, even as that is still growing. For David, I feel him seeing this abundance coming in and seeing money coming in for offering my Soul Gifts, but he still does not FEEL abundant.

The group call has helped me feel this with him, his reality more of distrust and lack that he has been in and learnt throughout this 3D experience, sure that has been the 3D experience. One of the core beliefs I feel held in David is, ‘there is never enough money’., I see how much this creates that reality for us because he is so focused on ‘there is never enough’. He cannot appreciate or acknowledge it as it is coming in. I feel how it is the ability to be grateful for what IS, in the moment, that draws more of that thing to you, which of course is a journey, not something you can create through bypassing feeling the lack of gratitude. 

I feel how this lack of money belief is actually a cover up for lack of love, connection, communication and boundaries, it feels like. Money becomes this huge focal point when there is no other meaning to life. Money has become this huge elephant in the room, where we think about it, worry about it, are anxious about it, but we do not really honestly talk about it, at least in my experience and in this culture of my current geography. The shame, the guilt, the resentment around money is of course going to make it heavy and joyless. This feels like it creates blocks to, and a push/pull within us and our relationship to money, as well as abundance in general. 

I feel the lack of joy the Inner Masculine can hold around life in general, which then seeps into his relationship with/to everything else in life. I feel David feeling joyless, I feel him longing to experience joy as my other parts do, his sadness that he cannot seem to meet them there. Yet I feel how no one has ever asked him what he likes, what the meaning of his life is, and how he has been disempowered throughout this 3D experience too.

So now there is this new ground to walk out with him, where he is included and wanted, where he gets to feel and heal too because he is valued by me through this process. So this is where talking about money leads us, perhaps not straight away to more money, although I feel that coming in but to deeper connection, understanding and intimacy with our parts, and with each other eventually too.

You can purchase the recording of this Free To Be Two group call about money and attendance at/recordings of future group calls in this series by offering a donation of any amount. More information at soulfullheart.org/freetobe2.

Love,

Deya & David

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc