Category: Inner Punisher/Critic

Energy Update: 2018 – A Mega Year For Revelations & Shiftings

Published on by Jelelle Awen7 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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All those toasty and roasty codes coming in still through the portals opened wider on 11/11. All that physical, emotional, chakral detoxification and purification to receive the UPgrades. All that shadow coming into the light on stages of Hollywood, political and governmental too. All those merging and overlapping timelines as the veils continue to thin INside as our every living cell is activated to vibrate higher and higher.

The continuation and extension of this offering seems to be through 12:12 specifically yet, also, ongoingly as we transition into the ‘year’ 2018. What I’ve been offered about 2018 from Archangel Metatron and my Metasoul/Higher Self Aspects is that it is going to be a ‘mega year’ with many revelations in 3D mainstream culture that will rock and shock many people. This is the year that many people’s every day lives and lifestyles are going to change, at the very least internally in how they relate with reality.

The curtain will be pulled in sometimes quite dramatic fashion to reveal the ‘powers that have been’ and their fear-based agendas and manipulations. Those leaders who have looked like clowns or ‘bad guys’ will be revealed to have been working actually to overthrow those that have done great harm and abuses. Everything will feel upside down in many ways. It will feel like a movie to those souls who hadn’t woken up to all of this information before now. It will feel surreal and to some like their worst nightmare coming true.

It feels like surprising structures will fall too, even some known or perceived as ‘spiritual’ and of New Earth. What cannot be denied is the higher heart’s truth and as more souls embrace their Higher Self in their body, they will see clearer and feel more deeply what is genuine and what is not. The shields and defenses of the Inner Protectors (needing to be created to survive 3D incarnation) will feel more obvious. The judgements without love of self and of others from the Inner Punishers will become more abrasive. The hypocrisies in action (not walking your talk) performed from a place of emotional immaturity will become less tolerable. The overlay of falsity that comes from spirituality that only embraces the light, that is avoiding the integration of the dark and the emotional body, will also become more evident.

If you have already woken up to this reality and are digesting/integrating it in your emotional body, you become an asset to those who are newly awakening. You become a light through the shadow lands of death that they will feel as their 3D self and its entire world come crashing down. You are a beacon to them of what is possible on the other side of the valley of shadows and death, even as you may still be traversing it yourself. You represent the rebirth that emerges as you let go of the false to embrace the real and authentic. You become an example that you CAN survive having layer after layer peeled away and that what emerges is actually more love in embodied form.

You will also need support to navigate through these transition times. Your 3D Self was born and bred and fed on 3D reality. As much as you have learned and grown and brought your soul into your consciousness, there still may be aspects of you anchored to 3D reality. These anchors pull and tug more as you vibrate higher. You feel the drag more and how it lowers you. You notice it in repeated patterns of suffering and pain. You may go ‘in and out’ of the 3D timeline still, especially connected to the holiday season and your birth families, long-term friendships and romantic relationships. It is often the social area of our lives which is most anchored into 3D reality.

Support for you comes in the continual choices toward love and realness. Toward no longer settling and shrinking in your relationships. Toward claiming, naming, and focusing on your service of love purpose here – even if it is to heal yourself, serve love TO yourself in order to overflow in a genuine way to others eventually. Toward no longer hiding your light under anyone’s perceptions or expectations of you.

Support also comes in the deepening and expanding of your connection with the Divine, your Ethereal Guides, and your Metasoul Aspects (especially those that vibrate at higher frequencies and can infuse you with frequencies of Unity Consciousness.) Support may come in the from of space holders to go into the 3D Self grounds with you, especially the emotional body, to offer a bridge there to the Metasoul and awakening self….this is what we offer in our SoulFullHeart process through sessions:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

The ascension process is shapeshifting in the New both collectively and personally as we continue to let go of the old on ALL levels. It feels like our shapes will continue to shift (even more dramatically) in 2018 into MORE heart, MORE vulnerability, MORE intimacy with self and with others….MORE realness. MORE love in sacred human form!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

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The Intricacies And Relationships Between Our Parts

Published on by Raianna Shai3 Comments

By Raianna Shai

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We had a group day here in Mexico yesterday, and I didn’t expect much to come from my process when it was my turn given that it felt to a part of me like I was stuck and not much was moving in me. Boy, was that an underestimation.

Even just acknowledging the feeling of being stuck or not moving moved SO much. I shared some moments I had with my Inner Teenager, Ariana, where she felt an expansive view of the love that flows through absolutely everything, or at least that has the potential to flow. As soon as I felt the sweetness of these tears, a fear flooded in me about losing that feeling, losing what I have right now, of losing myself. At first, I associated this with Ariana and how she had felt so cynical about the world up until that moment and it was vulnerable to feel the beauty of it instead.

But after digesting it more in group, we discovered that it was actually my Inner Protector’s fear. He spent most of my life protecting Ariana and her big heart and vulnerability because there was also a Punisher frequency within me, judging her for it and trying to squelch her magic.This punishing energy I often associated with my Protector, making him feel like he was the “bad guy” trying to bring down my Teenager, even though he was just trying to help.

Getting to this place felt so relieving to all of my parts. They could finally be seen and felt for who they really are and I could finally understand them to let them in and appreciate them. It made me realize how intricate and important this parts process really is! Even projecting a certain energy onto one part when it’s really another puts a lot of pressure on them to hold something that they don’t need to. And a big part of this fear of losing love and what I have, is my parts being afraid that they will lose me. But connecting with them so deeply and as much as I can makes me realize that they will always have me, and I will always be here. So no matter what happens as a reflection of my outer reality, I will always have them and they will always have me. Until their jobs are done and they can integrate into my being in their highest frequency forms and finally rest.

I left the group feeling so full up, like it’s not just me alone in my apartment. That I actually have a full on family within me all the time. All with their own fears, gifts, pain, and joy. My love for them increased exponentially, now that I was able to differentiate them and further myself from being fused to them. The SoulFullHeart process is never dull, and when it is, there’s always something to feel around that. The polarities, the realizations, the tears, the connections. It’s hard to imagine anything else that gets to the core of my being the way that this does, with as much love and support as I’m given.

 

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, retreats, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Being With The Inner Punisher/Critic

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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‘Parts work’ is one level of what we offer in SoulFullHeart. It is the foundation of our healing practice and path. It is what inspires us to keep going IN… into ourselves for more nourishment and love that comes from this work, and into relationships that will always be a reflection of our inner universes. There is so much inside of each of us as humans in transition, learning to remember who we really are. We are fractured to a certain degree because we have needed to become this way in order to cope with 3D reality and the heaviness of what we came here to grow through and alongside. We ultimately cannot really be fractured or broken or anything BUT whole, yet, ask any part of you and they will likely say that this is their experience of life – separation, disconnection, suppression.

There are so many parts of you that call to you in this work. One of the most powerful ones to work with is the Inner Punisher/Critic. This is the part that is so prickly and often hard to be with… the hardest part to really love, for they throw so much at you and at others too in order to keep love out. The more love you let into your life, sometimes the harder they clench their fists. They are so often afraid. Afraid of letting go of the comforting discomfort of how they feel about you, about others, and ultimately about themselves. They judge harshly, starting with you, and sometimes act stealthily, hiding themselves somehow, often amongst the din and cries within you.

Their feelings about your body, your relationships, your job, YOU and any aspect of your life, become normalized frequencies inside of you. It becomes normal to think of yourself in certain ways and you may not even catch the vitriol that comes from you towards others, even in the form of ‘friendly’ teasing, that really has a bite underneath it. After working with your Inner Punisher/Critic in the many layers they come with, your desire to be around any energy of criticism, ‘funny’ or not, especially from you to you, diminishes in a big way. Often it is these harsh inner frequencies and judgments that bring friends and birth family members together. It is familiar to feel this way, so the idea of questioning it may feel ludicrous at first. Yet what if something more were possible in all of your relationships and especially in how you feel about yourself?

The Inner Punisher/Critic can be hard to stay in the room with. Often when you begin feeling them directly, they hurl insults at you, rolling out pages and pages sometimes of how they feel about you and about your life. As your outer world reflects your inner world, you begin to see and feel how this energy has leaked out to others you interact with and informed your approach to yourself and to any area of your life. It can play out in themes of workaholism, exercising only for the sake of your self-image and ‘how you feel about yourself’, and abuse (the definition of which deepens as you work with this part and begin to heal these frequencies of self-abuse, however they show up).

The journey to genuine self-love must involve feeling the Inner Punisher/Critic. This energy cannot be transcended, only transmuted. The work and the room you must walk into inside yourself in order to start being with this part is worth it. It becomes like holding a kicking, screaming teenager who just needs to find their tears of release from all the energy they’ve held and the life molds they are struggling to fit into. This part does soften and change eventually. Yet they really need your help to motivate them with love, with an ongoing promise that you will be there for and with them, and that you will always hold that they are so much more than this job they have given themselves for very good reasons.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.