What You Really Want Is Love

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By Raphael Awen

What you really want is love.

Things we call ‘attachments’ are only placeholders that parts of hold onto as love until something better shows up. Who can blame parts of us for doing that. We are made for love.

A child being only willing to eat french fries and chicken nuggets is because he found love and comfort in them and they landed in a place that only feels like the absence of love.

As adults, so much of our routines in habit, diet, feeling states, relationships that we keep or don’t keep, are all so full of these ‘attachments’. Another part of us that we all have until they are felt and healed is an Inner Punisher, and this part is connected to another part of us that holds deep shame. This sets up a punishment-shame cycle dynamic that is meant to protect us and keep us safe which is hard to grasp at first begging the question of ‘why would we do such barbaric things to ourselves in the name of safety?’ The simple answer is that in our subconscious we hold deep memory of feeling love’s absence and a deep culture shock from when we first landed here in the human domain, and felt how non-heart-resonant the hearts of our caregivers were.

Now, it’s up to us to feel how so much self-improvement and problem fixing energy in our lives is actually the problem, not any kind of solution. You are not a broken person needing fixing. You are a profoundly beautiful being made of love and by love and are coming to terms with the love that you are. Part of this acclimatization to love is your willingness as a soul to come to a place that feels like ‘not-love’ in order to afford you an awakening process to the love that you are as a profound soul growth. Your existence and the essence of your being is so much more than than what you and I know and feel in the 3rd dimensional reality of time and space here on Gaia.

So, instead of running yourself through the ringer with feeling and trying to change a persistent negative and harmful pattern or behaviour, what about instead feeling the part of you who needs that pattern or behaviour and why they do? What about getting to know this magical part of you stuck in their french fry and mcnuggett world? They are your portal into the more that you are and are longing to feel and be. They are ‘attached’ to what they know and feel as love. It’s up to you and I to lead with something more, rather than substituting one attachment for another.

Raphel Awen
www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Want some help with living into a new reality? I offer personal spaceholding and a magical process of transformation through getting to know and feel parts of yourselves at a price and a pace and rate that works! You can read more about that here: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Gifts And Challenges Of Life-Changing Energies Coming In

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by Kalayna Colibri

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It’s okay to let go of your handrails…

In fact, it may be time to do so. The love you have waiting for you is what you’re letting go into now. The unfamiliar will become familiar, will become more known to you as you move forward. The fall is not long once you’ve let go. Parts of you anticipate and think it will be, but that’s not the plan at all. There is so much more to let in once what parts of you grip hard to is let go of. It may be a process of moving one single finger at a time as the grasp loosens and the next step forward into the changes coming in is stepped into. This may be what’s needed and that’s fine… charging through change can create more chaos than you may need right now, but in another way, that may be just what you need too.

These foggy changing times bring momentum but invite us to stay in the moment… these energies coming in now are supporting us to feel our next choice points and to feel all there is to feel in the process of making these choices, inhabiting these changes, and finding our way into this newly emerging life phase and overall timeline. It seems these shifts can be subtle at first, but then once that first step is taken, it can feel suddenly like you’re riding a roller coaster or even a speeding car. I should qualify that and say that parts of us feel it this way, while our soul actually has a deep trust that is leading us. There can be a difficulty in the surrender to it all… there are attachments on different levels of our being and in different parts of us, to how things have been up ’til now, whether or not our life’s circumstances are ideal in many (or any) ways.

We do NEED change. It offers us grist for more self-discovery and healing process and celebration of how far we’ve come too. It offers us more ground for growth, especially if we seem to have ‘mastered’ the old ground, to the degree that we can feel how maybe we’re outgrowing it now – it has become too comfortable and kNOwn, perhaps. You may feel consciously that you are a big fish in a little pond too. Change presses what’s uncomfortable, wounded, in distrust, in pain, in separation, up to the surface to be felt and held. It has a way of creating a chaotic windstorm at times, that can be made much more intense by parts of you that are in a panic and either don’t want to be felt or cannot be felt by you for some reason. Change is really the best catalyst to encourage us to feel ourselves. The smoothest transitions in life usually come when there is a whole lot of surrender to a lack of ultimate control, while still paying attention to and moving along your own chess pieces in each step, though even doing this very thing can still bring up surprises and more to feel.

Trusting the rumbles that love wants to send through our life and our current relationship to people, geography, ourselves, the Divine, and even life and love itself, is the biggest invitation and the hardest to inhabit for parts of us. This is when a process becomes so valuable, as we allow in these energies that want to move us into our next places and phases of growth and expanding LOVE consciousness… we cannot always control the depth of change that is being invited into our lives, but we can control the degree to which we are willing to look at the whole picture, to feel all elements of it, to be with the challenges and the bonuses, and to find our way through by allowing ourselves to be IN ourselves and our hearts around it all.

These times of feeling like a whirlwind has picked you up and it’s hard to tell where you’ll land, are some of the toughest phases and also the biggest opportunities for expansion of our consciousness and our overall scope too, it challenges how we see and inhabit life and also how we see and inhabit and love ourselves. There are many gifts here, though the reality of the challenge needs to be felt deeply too. In fact, one feeds the other and when they are allowed to dance inside of us in this way, that is when we pop out the other side, feeling so sacredly different than we ever could have before. We’re on our way, no matter what, to a higher dimension in every way.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: High Vibe Energies Bringing Us To Compression Points

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By Jelelle Awen

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It’s a phase of compression points right now….not sure completely what I mean by that. I don’t think it is something that our minds can track at all, yet you may feel it on a physical and emotional level, especially, right now. The compression point relates to the high frequencies of love and light that I (and so many others) have been talking about, especially coming in since the beginning of the year.

High waves come in and if you are sensitive to energies and have awakened this capacity in your soul field, you become highly attuned to this happening. A ‘raising UP’ sense happens inside of you….your connection with your guides deepens. Your sense of being part of the All or Oneness expands. Your experiences during meditation are more profound and meaningful. Your yoga practice goes to a whole new level. Your relationships are becoming more soulful and vulnerable. Your leading edge of BEing is watered, lit up, and illuminated by these energies.

Yet, also, as these waves come in, they push UP lower vibrational frequencies and energies within you. They show you what in your life is still based in 3D frequencies of separation, fear, unfelt emotions, codependence.  Your trailing edge of BEing is watered too, by love, and so is what has been put in shadow. The fear-based energies that parts of you have taken in your whole lifetime here and from other lifetimes in your Metasoul line too are starting to come through and are leaking out. That which has been previously felt too ‘painful’ or repressed or suppressed in your emotional body can now receive the air of your consciousness to BE with it as your growing soul and heart hold the space for this exploration.

The compression point is the shifting that happens as you’ve maxed out on the lower frequency energies and the new, higher ones are still finding their grounding inside of you. The higher frequencies haven’t quite integrated, so then you may be feeling like you are being compressed by this shift. Like it is pressing DOWN on you from above in some ways. You haven’t quite completely turned over into the NEW, AND you are feeling the OLD coming UP to take some space too. BOTH of these movements are going on at the same time, which sort of drives the mind crazy (in a good way) as it cannot track what is happening nor is it meant to.

These compression points can seem to trigger then cellular memories in your body too, that flush out toxicities stored there and present in ‘ascension symptoms’ ranging from headaches to hot flashes to nausea to deep chest coughs and colds. The body is sort of ‘stuck in between’ in these moments, it feels like, as it transitions….one cell at a time…..from carbon-based to crystalline. The body then is like a vehicle that is in the ‘shop’ getting upgraded and fixed up with all these new gadgets and, really, a whole NEW operating system. Light body is going to probably eventually run on whole new fuel sources too, going from food to more love and light frequencies.

Surrendering into these compression points seems to offer a way to move through them with more ease and grace. Surrendering relates to a sense of trust that comes from your higher heart or cosmic heart that is BEing activated and opening during this process with more connection to Divine Source. This higher heart consciousness can bridge to the parts of you in your emotional body that are scared, resistance, and fearful of the process. You can BE with these parts of you, especially your Inner Child and Inner Teenager, to hold their hands through this process. You NEED them actually, as these energies are a very key aspect of your 5D sacred human ‘violetprint’ coming into BEing. If these energies and parts inside of you are attempted to be bypassed or dismissed as ‘too negative’, they will anchor your frequency with unfelt emotions, undigested ‘past experiences, and in many other ways. You will mostly see this manifestation in your physical life that may not match in certain areas what your soul most wants to express and BE in.

You BEcome a bridge for yourself during these compression points, from you to ALL aspects of you. These points seem to be a necessary aspect of the process as SO MUCH foundational change and transformation is happening on so many levels right now. Yet, becoming your own bridge from your heart to your fear…… rather than resisting resistance that comes up…..does seem to lessen the experience of pain and trauma during it. You can receive so much support from your higher self, your angelic guides/aspects, your ascended teacher guides/aspects, who are there to provide support on ALL levels as you undergo this process. They cannot rescue or save you from it, yet they can BE there to witness and guide you through, as you tap into your soul’s wisdom and love and, therefore, embody and BEcome these frequencies more and more. We also provide supportive space holding through private and group sessions, plus community, in SoulFullHeart. You can read more about that here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

Compression points are a sacred aspect of the journey and if we can hold them as such and respond with love, so they move through watered by this love that just wants to return us to love again!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

‘How Much Love Are You Ready To Let In?’

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By Raphael Awen

‘How much love are you ready to let in?’

This question came to me last night as I was out walking the dog in the evening cool and quiet. I tune the question back in now and ask Metatron for some more around this question. He responds with a ‘we’ voice evidencing that he has already been where we are and feels where we are wanting to go, and that he is also going with us as we do….

‘It’s not a question of how much love can you find, but rather how much love can you let in? The setting of the love story that we ARE is set in a setting of an evident lack of love and a competition for that limited and scarce love, but the essence that we ARE is the fullness of love. The real challenge is not to find love, but rather to let in the superabundance of love that surrounds you.

‘We chose the setting of apparent lack to contrast with the love that we are in order to see the love that we are and in turn expand our being with this infinite love. In other words, we needed a finite setting in which to see and contrast the infinite love that we are.

‘We are the story being written to ourselves, for us to see and feel, and in turn be moved by. Though the story is made up of many characters, a big piece of the discovery in understanding the meaning of the story is coming to see that every single character is actually me and you. There is actually only one of us. We are already one, though we’re just awakening to that, and letting this reality sink in. The appearance of an apparent individuality, of there being a separate me and a separate you isn’t true in the way we’ve perceived it. We are one being having an experience of individuation as part of our awakening and learning to realize the deeper one that we are.

‘More for you can’t actually be less for me if we are already one.

‘Because this is the deeper reality, any love that you take into your being, any wounding that you feel and heal inside of yourself IS healing the all. The gift you give yourself can’t be distinguished from the gifts you give to others. Self-love is the same as love for the all.

‘Love is the source and sustenance of every material and non-material thing there is, even hatred and fear are given their lease by and through love. Love is all there is. Hearts and circumstances that lack love are only opportunities and places to let love into.

‘All that is required is your choice and willingness to be vulnerable to love…to admit that you want more love, to admit you have parts of you that can’t yet digest love and need your help. This is all there is to letting in love, though for most, this can still be incredibly difficult. This is why most would rather maintain and be committed to their lack of love picture, wherein they can continue to resist love for a while longer under the illusion that love is lacking.

‘Even this resistance though is also contained in love. We all needed our illusions for as long as we did as part of our awakening. Nothing can be outside of love. It’s all sacred and it’s all love. All that’s left is to let it in.

Thank you Metatron, Wow, okay, this leaves me in a deep heightened awareness and QUESTions of ‘how much am I in this moment resisting love or letting it in?’ and ‘What are my next places to gift myself (and the one being that we all are) more of the infinite love that I already am?’

Raphael Awen
www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

I offer spaceholding sessions to others in their awakening to love process and you can read more about that here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

‘You Can Have Whatever You Want’

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By Raphael Awen

‘You can have whatever you want’.

These words come to me as I stare into the setting bright orange sun last night as it dips slowly below the ocean horizon and lights up the underside of the cloud cover in a stunning display of color. I feel the voice is from Metatron who is a favoured guide. I awake the next morning and the words are still fresh and here, still lingering audibly in my space.

Do I really believe that? Could this be true? I can have whatever I want. My mind takes it on first. If my friend owns a bakery and I drop by and he generously says ‘have whatever you want’, that’s easy and linear to grasp. He owns the bakery and I’m welcome to simply take a handful or two of whatever I want.

But it’s not that straightforward to apply when my higher self or a spiritual guide tells me to ‘have whatever I want’ and to feel how that translates to, say, a trip to the auto dealership for a desired new car.

It doesn’t compute. There’s obviously some missing pieces here, some more to the story, or, I’m just off into some nonsense and need to return to reality.

I chose to return to what I heard in the sunset. ‘I can have whatever I want.’ I ask ‘Metatron, can you help we with the missing pieces that my mind will need to be able to feel this with you and what you are trying to get over to me?’

Metatron waxes metaphysical and my heart and ears open:

‘Your desires and your ‘wanter’ is something that is tied to the center of your being and the center of the universe. There isn’t actually any difference between the two. They are one and the same. When you really own a desire and purify that desire inside of yourself to where it is really true, that pure desire is all you need to manifest that desire into the dimension you wish to experience that in. In fact, this is already true, you just find it difficult to see. Your life as you presently know it is a manifestation of your desires. Desire has created your present reality.’

My mind begins to reel with his expansive words and energy that he is juicing me with. Questions arise in a whole bunch of directions. I’m hesitant to focus on a single question when there are so many. I sit in the juice he is vibing and silently invite him to continue when he feels I’m ready. We sit together in the expansive silence and then he continues where he left off.

‘What you really want is the most sacred thing about you. It’s the secret that’s been manifesting your life as you know it. You just haven’t been as conscious of it up till now. As you find the courage to accept this truth, this secret becomes a normal everyday working practical knowledge that you can apply to your life. Now, you can begin to see where your wants have been in conflict, and what you have manifested is something between the two. This is still however a perfect manifestation, providing you with a sacred learning ground of coming to terms with what it is that you really want, especially in the presence of conflicting desires.

If this resonates for you and feels true for you, then the mind’s resistances of ‘that’s just not possible’ change to ‘I don’t quite understand it yet, but I feel it to be true.’ This is you accepting responsibility for the present creation of your life. This is you maturing into your next phase of consciousness awakening.

As you feel this as your reality more and more, your mind will come to track it all plainly, but the mind is only a tracker of reality, not the creator of reality. The mind’s refusal to accept a new reality is a barrier to that new reality arising, but the mind is here only resistively acting as the agent and protector of the heart. It is from the heart that courage flows to let in a new reality, to live into a new culture of reality. It is your heart that is your center of being, your center of reality, powerfully shaping your experience of life. Let the heart take the lead and the mind will follow’.

I pause to refill my tea, and to let in more of Metatron’s heart and energy. The questions are still here, but they don’t feel as clamorous for attention somehow. There is a trust that the questions are sacred and they will all be answered in time, a necessary part of this process of incubating a new reality. I consider how I am being offered a process over some kind of instant transformation into a new reality, yet the new reality is already here at the same time. Wow. Lots of ‘wow’ actually. I turn my attention back to Metatron knowing that I’m near full, but that he usually has one more thing to say to help containerize all the goodies he’s just given me.

‘Raphael, share this with others. Find others who are ready and wanting to shift their reality into new and arising places. Beacon it out. This isn’t a Lone Ranger deal. You will make this your reality more and more as you give it away while you embrace it. These new realities don’t belong to any one person, other than the one person that you all are. It’s held and arises and shines IN commUNITY. Plant the seeds you have, and then you’ll get the next batch of seeds to plant and live into’.

Okay, wow, thank you Metatron. I’ve got my heartwork cut out for me again. I can have whatever I want… I want more of this!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The INvitation Of Our Truth

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There can be nothing more difficult yet relieving than owning your own truth. This can be a truth that has been illuminated about yourself by some outer reflection, or it can be a truth in relation to another. To come to these truths can be a process for some, an open flow for others. Our truth, which is really about our needs and desires, may be grounded in an unhealed aspect of ourselves but that does not make it any less authentic or real for us.
 
It is letting that truth out into the space of expression that allows us to really feel how that truth resounds in our hearts and in others. This is where parts of us may balk at this truth-telling as it has many rippling effects. It can hurt hearts and shatter self-image. It can lead to suppression in the name of care-taking, which is far from Love. Love of self and of others.
 
If there is something “off” about our truth, or if it does hurt, we can be with that in the aftermath, in a way that is held with compassion and self-forgiveness. It is about taking responsibility for it in what ever way that means in a given situation. But to disown our truth, no matter how hard it is or how afraid of it we are, is to disown the part of us that holds that truth. That is to disown ourselves as being alive and real.
 
Being honest with truth has been one of the hardest parts of my process. It IS the single most important aspect to ascension in my view. By not fully feeling and expressing what is true for us, including parts of us, we are only bringing a limited version of ourselves to the Grand Ballet of Love’s Infinite Dance. Matter of fact we can’t really get through the door with only this version. We can’t really get to see ourselves and what it is that is still in our healing path to be felt. Without BEing in our truth we are still separate and ultimately in suffering. Not on the recipe card for Unity Consciousness.
 
Feeling the parts of us that relate to truth-telling from a fear place helps to unlock the doors of our deepest and truest self. It does not come without consequence and self-reflection. It is being with any guilt or self-punishment that may arise, knowing that if you are committed to being in your heart every step of the way, your truth will always lead you someplace that it wouldn’t have just sitting in the wells of your inner terrain.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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BEcoming Service Of Love With Self And Others

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By Jelelle Awen
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As you serve more love as the focus of your life, you BEcome service of love. Service of love with yourself and all the parts that need you. Service of love with others for a phase of time in mutual respect and reverence. Service of love with the Divine to help move the ascension process into Love forward for ALL BEings.

BEcoming service of love in all moments is possible when the personality doesn’t exist in the same way that it used to and the 3D conditioned self has largely dropped away. The attachments to roles and playing as mother, daughter, father, husband, wife, son, healer, teacher within 3D consciousness…..these roles are let go of and then it is just about serving the love that flows out of you and WITH the other person. It becomes about what can transact in love and what is based in fear and offering MORE love to transmute the fear. You arise beyond the past associations and are in the Now together, serving love together.

BEcoming service of love is possible when you have truly felt, connected with, and are loving ALL aspects and parts of yourself that have played these roles and worn the masks. As you love them, then it becomes safe for these parts of you to let go of playing anything or performing anything or hiding who they really are. The YOU that shows up to love all these aspects is then without roles or masks or performances. This YOU is just love and you WANT to serve yourself love as you feel how this is what you were missing and why parts of you put on their masks and personas in the first place.

BEcoming service of love arises as you heal the inner relationships between parts of you, feel the inner codependence and stickiness INside. As the LOVE YOU comes in between, for example, your Inner Punisher and the corresponding shame that can come up in reaction, you shift drawing this as a reflection in relationships with others. As the LOVE YOU separates the Inner Protector from fiercely watching over your Inner Child, the frequencies of magical joy and wonder from your Inner Child can flood your BEing…..which you can then come into your relationships with others. You also experience relationships with a much less guarded heart as your Inner Protector rests.

Serving love WITH others as a space holder, facilitator, healer BEcomes not about saving or fixing anyone. It becomes only about the love flow and serving their expression as Love WITH love. It is not about ‘you’ in that way as you are channel of expression of them as love, a mirror reflection for them until they inhabit and embody themselves as love more and more. You are not attached to them as love doesn’t attach in this way. You are, however, deeply committed to the service of love with them as it arises in mutuality. You are a guide in the service of love journey as you have journeyed it yourself and so invite them to come along. Healing and feeling the aspects of you that identify as a ‘healer of others’ yet actually don’t even LIKE people very much is a way to serve love to yourself, to be REAL about what you feel in order to allow more love flow when are you are called to serve love with others.

Service of love with others is WHY counterpart soul mates come together, especially during this phase of Great Shift and transition. You experience the overflowing love waters of union in ALL areas of heart, body, mind, and soul with an other who is WITH you in many other lifetimes and expressions as Metasouls connected deeply. This deep well of higher consciousness expression (and karmic things to heal too) provides a source of support for the service of love and MORE service of love. Relating to a sacred union from ANY other place than to serve love to yourself and with others is parts of you that are clinging and needing (which you can then love and be with once you feel it.)

I feel this shift in myself into BEcoming service of love in ever deepening ways every day after many years of parts process work on the emotional body level from this life and other lifetimes too. I am BEcoming this service of love as my purpose here and showing the way, BEing the way, for others like you to BEcome this too. My relationship with Raphael is based in service of love, yet, it has taken many years of parts process to be inhabiting this more and more lately together. As this service of love flows between us, however, MORE love is available for others AND ourselves. This service of love is even happening during our love making, where we can feel how we are connected in a quantum way to ALL women and men in those moments. We are serving the pleasures of our bodies AS we are also serving the collective healing.

BEcoming service of love IS a state of BEing with a natural balance of DOing too. It takes energy to BEcome it as you let go of what ISN’T serving love, yet rather is based in fear. As you BEcome service of love more, fears and tensions drop away, anxieties too, as you trust in the purpose and reason you are here and you draw MORE service of love opportunities and less healing fear experience. You live in a transacting overflow from your ready and healing heart to and with others, that plays out then, over and over, in an Infinite Loop of Love Possibilities! 

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Peek-A-Boo You Coming Out Of Hiding During Awakening

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By Jelelle Awen

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Peek-a-boo you….. you can come out of hiding, you can open your eyes beyond the edges of fleshy covering-up-full-view fingers.

Peek-a-boo you…..you can BE without masks, you can feel the air of the real on your unobstructed face.

Peek-a-boo you…..you can venture out of the closet, you can let your soul’s light open ALL the doors that have previously felt closed.

Peek-a-boo you….you can open your heart to intimacy in moments with others as you claim it with yourself.

Peek-a-boo you….you can take it ALL in without fear of being consumed or doomed or shamed as you learn to receive and to give.

They taught you to hide yourself because they felt more comfortable in the hiding. They gave you a mask to wear because they were safely tugged away behind their own. They transmitted energies of fear to you because that is what they inherited. They wanted you to close your heart down because theirs had been shut.

Yet, none of this is who or what they OR you really ARE. It is what has been taught and sought, sold and trained in the 3D world experiment. The currency of fear, non-vulnerability, protection, suppression is NOT the actual gold of anyone’s true capacity as a sacred human.

Seeing life with full vision. Feeling life with an opening heart. Awakening to life with your beaconing soul. This is YOU beyond the peek-a-boo games with life that ask you to hide. This is YOU beyond the masks that everyone seems to wear. This is you face-to-face, heart-to-heart, soul-to-soul, raw to life, and taking it ALL in without layers or false skins. This is you AS love without anything in the way of your experience of experience….this is you BEing the love that you ARE.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Gifts Of Exploring Conscious Romance

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Our intimate relationships are sacred grounds of getting to feel and see ourselves.  We GET to experience what is rumbling inside of us that has been kept at bay in our subconscious.  These parts of us that have been living is a safety zone of incognito through the protection of our comfortability.  When our deepest desires begin to ring out into the cosmos, the mechanics of manifestation begin to offer their services.  But when they do, it is meant to bring up what is needed in order to let in what is wanted.

We aren’t completely aware of what lies in the space between what we feel consciously and what is in our unfelt wounding until we enter the arena of conscious relationship.  In unconscious unions, there are many reactions and emotions that are left untouched and unexpressed in our part’s desire to maintain image and safety.  These are sacred unions in there own right as they are meant to serve us into a new dimension of relationality when we have chosen that other sacred journey of growth and deepening.

These conscious relationships will manifest in ways that may or may not come in the ways or forms parts of us may have expected.  They come to us to help elucidate the woundings and projections that are still residing inside of us that, when held in conscious relationship inside of us through parts work, can bring us to new depths of both inner and other intimacy.  However, there can be a LOT to feel and integrate along the way.  There can be a tendency for parts to exit, to go back to what was more comfortable to them before.  This is a point where, if true growth, self-love, and intimacy are the ultimate desire, we hold these parts within us and feel what the fear is truly about.  What experiences in this or another life are contributing to the need for retraction?  These can be difficult yet necessary to feel if we are to continue on our way to more authentic, conscious, and intimate transactibility.  The way to Love!

Our vulnerable truth in any moment is our guide in this dance.  There is no guarantee we won’t step on our partners toes and cause some pain.  We aren’t meant to be perfect or “right” in the way we reveal ourselves.  In these moments, we cross bridges previously left uncrossed to change the timelines of the old and create something new.  It may not be pleasurable, yet it could lead to something more pleasurable than what parts of us were expecting or ironically afraid of in the first place.  For if the bond deepens and rises, what more is there to experience and how far might we fall as it keeps going?  This is what is really at stake for these parts of us.  Being left with the pain of being hurt once again.  Yet with a true sense of an authentic, centered self, we are big enough to feel and hold our way through the process.

Conscious romance is the next frontier for our evolution as a species.  Both inner and outer. It starts inside of us first and extends outward.  It is why we are here in many ways.  To explore this deepening and expanding that can create a new world of possibility, creativity, and aliveness.  Whatever happens in the process you can be guaranteed that you will experience and discover more about You and what it is you really want from Life and Love.

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Moving Out Of Comfort Zones In Relationships And Livelihood/Jobs/Careers

Published on by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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Time to move out of comfort zones…. Comfort zones are those places that have become familiar and perhaps beloved to parts of you and, so, are limited to offer the growth that you need and desire. Settling into a place that you feel comfortable CAN be about an ease, a sense of just being ‘you’ and seeing that reflected back to you. It also CAN be about shrinking yourself to fit in with your environment, relationships, jobs, the energies around you. This is more what I mean about ‘moving out of comfort zones.’ Shrinking yourself INside in order to feel more comfortable with the frequencies that you are experiencing on the outside is a sign of being in a comfort zone.
One of the biggest ways staying in comfort zones shows up is in relationships, especially with birth family, long-term romances and friendships. You may have an awareness of a ‘role’ you are playing, a mask you are putting on, an energy that comes up from inside in order to respond to these relationships. You may notice that you are hiding or obscuring or maybe even lying about your budding awakenings, spiritual perspectives shifting, emotional body realizations. It is like you are in the ‘closet’ and parts of you just aren’t ready to come out yet, as this closet has become a comfort zone. You may avoid conflict or confrontation with others who are becoming no longer resonant with you in order to stay in a comfortable place on both sides.
A comfort zone can also be about staying in a lone wolf phase rather than moving into more experience of resonant and supportive commUNITY. Parts of you become comfortable with being on your own, especially if you have disconnected from 3D-based relationships with family and friends. This phase may be a sacred and necessary one for you and yet, also, the deeper desires for resonant soul tribe commUNITY can be buried under the sense of comfort and safety that sets in from being and doing life alone.
In romantic relationships, there can be the deepest ties and binds of comfort zone relating. Even if there is a lot of conflict and tension in the relationship, THIS can become comfortable and familiar to parts of you. This seems to especially be true if these were the frequencies your parents’ relationship was in and you became used to it. Or, maybe in the relationship you have settled into a brother and sister connection where the hotness, body talk, soul resonance, mentally stimulating each other, hearts vulnerably sharing….all these frequencies have been shut down or greatly modulated or maybe never really were transactable in the relationship. Staying in a long-term romantic relationship for which you no longer feel in love with your partner in ALL domains of body, mind, soul and heart is one of the BIGGEST ways that shrinking into a comfort zone can manifest. Feeling the parts of you that are in the relationship and why can help to identify the deeper reasons and motivations for staying in it rather than moving on.
During the flash and crash of the Dark Night stages of awakening, it may become VERY obvious to you what has become a comfort zone for parts of you and what needs to be changed around that in relationships. The clashes start happening when parts of you can no longer show up for the make believe dance with others or hide what you are really feeling. You may burst out suddenly with your truth, long suppressed, and create shock waves in your world. Or, you may cut off suddenly with newly energized boundaries that may be long overdue. Or, you find a soul family group that supports your authentic self and seem to suddenly ‘overnight’ come out of the spiritual closet to all your friends and family.
In whatever ways this unveiling and moving out of the comfort zone in relationship happens, it seems to be a sacred and necessary aspect of the ascension process. As you ‘walk out’ of the old frequencies with others, you are actually inviting them into the NEW with your movements through the heart chord you share with them. The boundaries that you need to set become a compassionate and merciful invitation to ALL for exploration into a healthier and more mature ground of resonant connection. You are inviting them into the REAL and to be REAL about what they feel along with you, whether they can or are meant to show up for this or not. Your movement into this moves ALL as we are ALL connected in the Web of Life.
Higher vibrational relationships based in soul and heart resonance are not about getting comfortable and staying stuck there. They encourage and inspire you to keep growing, to keep arising, to keep BEing who you most authentically are. They are mirrors providing you with a sense of desire to share love, be vulnerable, go into deeper places of intimacy. They encourage emotional risk taking and do not ask you to shrink who you really are to ‘fit’ them. There is a sense of reverence in every moment about them and they are not ‘taken for granted’ or just assumed they will always be there. They arise anew as YOU arise anew or they complete when and if the ground of transaction runs out.
Another area where comfort zones can develop and limit your growth is in careers, businesses…whatever means you earn your livelihood from….. Even living off of disability or financial support from others (whether former spouses, parents, or the government) can indicate a shrinking going on and settling into a comfort zone. Because money can bring up so much anxiety for parts of us and lack of trust, they can cling at whatever means provide a steady stream to assuage that anxiety. Long-term careers and businesses that are more based in 3D frequencies are maybe obvious to you and you may even be consciously unhappy or unfilled in them with desires to change them. However, even spiritually-based income earnings for which you are sharing your gifts can become comfort zones if they are not challenging you anymore to grow and it is more ‘part of you’ that is doing and performing them rather than your authentic self.
Not earning any money or very little and being supported by others (especially if this requires you to shrink to keep the spiritually non-resonant relationship going) is another way this can show up. There is a sense of being disempowered to support your own needs and a deep codependency can develop here, especially for those souls who need to ‘move back home to live with parents’ for a phase. It is challenging in this situation to FEEL and BEcome your authentic self and embody more your higher self as you may be constantly feeling capped by a sense of now being dependent. Even if you don’t consciously feel this, it might be worth it to dig deeper to connect with the parts of you that no longer want to be in this situation and feel ‘capped’ by it. You might even decide to go ‘get a job’ just so you can move out on your own again or into resonant soul tribe commUNITY and on to the next phase of your growth.
As you FEEL what your soul purpose is here to serve love and you trust more that ALL your needs will get met in serving this purpose, you begin to feel how the previous ways and means of supporting yourself financially may be comfort zones that require you to shrink. Money is love energy so whatever way you are receiving it, that energy impacts you and your ascension/awakening process. Higher vibrational livelihood comes from aligning with your soul purpose to serve love here. Feeling in an abundant overflow of love from inside that overflows then in what you experience as outside abundance. Serving your soul’s vocation and sharing your soul gifts rather than ‘doing an occupation’ is a shift into higher vibrational expression that leads to much more joy, fulfillment, and growth.
The HIGH frequencies of love and light that are washing, flooding, and coursing into Gaia’s and our inner atmospheres are supporting these movements out of our comfort zones. The higher frequencies just can’t MOVE in the denser energies of codependence or shrinking to fit 3D vibrations. We aren’t meant to be in zones as those are just another form of compartment and our INFINITE LOVE energy wants to spread, to fly, to soar, to MOVE, to BE without limits. All of the zones that parts of us have created eventually become flooded with love, inviting us to move into our next places of challenge, risk, and growth….over and over until it is more about responding with the leading edge of our BEing to the next growth place rather than needing to move out of a previously trailing edge one based in a comfort zone.

 

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.