Letting In The Magic Of Life

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By Raphael Awen

There is a strange thing we all do with life… and that is how we normalize our reality. Whether our reality is really good or really bad, or somewhere in between, we have a way of normalizing it in order to BE in it, and to BE with it.

Yesterday at midday, I was on our local resort town beach, with a beautiful woman in a bikini (Jelelle Awen) at my side, with the sun’s temperature and angle just right, with lots of bird and pelican activity, with tea and good eats and I felt in that moment how I felt it all as ‘normal’. This is strange because I can look back to a time where such a setting and opportunity would be pure heaven to me, and here I was, yesterday, in pure heaven, only to find that I had ‘normalized’ it. As I felt into this, I could feel the magic of the moment too, and the stunning reverence for the moment, but I could also feel how I was ‘muting’ the experience at the same time.

We all do this and we don’t just do it when the beauty is more than we can handle. We do it with the routine and the mundane of our lives. More accurately, the routine and the mundane feelings are the result of taking the magical and making it the normal. We find it difficult to stop ourselves from normalizing experience. Experience is the magic of us as essence having awareness. This simple awareness is so much magic that we need to normalize any and all experience as a part of us is afraid we simply can’t handle it.

But I’d like it if I could bear more of the simple magic, and not normalize it so much… How about you? Isn’t this the reason we seek spiritual and emotional experiences? We know there is more to feel and experience than we are currently letting in, more than we are currently able to feel.

Why would part of us work so hard to limit our experience when we consciously want to remove the limits? My truth is that parts of us don’t trust that we can bear the magic and these parts of us have worked hard to energetically seal us off from knowing and feeling simple wonder and magic. Many times the only way for people to get past these defenses is to use a drug or alcohol, or any of the millions of things we can turn into a go-to, feel-good medication. The reason all of these can be so addictive is that they give us experience of what we are really meant to feel. But the ‘side effects’ of these lifestyle medications is that we are not attaining these states of joy in a healthy way, but are instead suppressing parts of ourselves in order to get to a place of feeling good. Not all of us then is actually present to the good time.

I have experienced that when a part of me is normalizing my experience, and thus limiting my experience of the magic of all experience, I can feel and negotiate with that part of me. This healthy process in turn allows a defensive part of me to rest into my deeper trust and immediately a natural ‘high’ of life becomes my experience more in that moment. This is the process we offer to others in SoulFullHeart work and community. As others around us feel and process their own parts of themselves who normalize the magic of life and let in more love, more life, more wonder, this in turn offers all in the community another real life story to live deeper into the same ongoing process for ourselves.

This doesn’t actually feel like any kind of one time ‘enlightenment’ process. We are infinite beings experiencing the infinite love that we are. No wonder then that parts of us reel from all this magic. No wonder then too, that as we experience more love and goodness, that we need to renegotiate with parts of ourselves to in turn let in more love.

I’m out looking for more love. That’s the real and only secret to life I feel. We are love out to experience love. Feeling how this is true for you is the magic you seek. Feeling where and how you can do this more and be this more is fulfilling your deepest life purpose and calling.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling Your Inner Princess Or Prince To Experience Sacred Union

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By Jelelle Awen

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The prince and the princess….so many images and associations come up when we feel into these archetypes and energies. The princess wanting and waiting for her ‘Prince Charming’ to come and claim her, the prince going on grand adventures and ‘fighting evil’ to find her…..this frequency is so IN our collective consciousness. I feel it represents a deeper desire and longing within us for sacred union with a courageous mate who truly claims us (not binds us, yet bonds with us) on all levels of heart, soul, mind, and body despite whatever fear-based obstacles come forward to get in the way. And, our souls and heart seem to know that this is not just a fantasy, yet IS actually possible to experience and is our birthright as sacred humans to experience too.

The Inner Prince and the Inner Princess, from a SoulFullHeart perspective, represent the parts of us that we were as teenagers and our feelings about romance and sexuality. Often, this has idealized tones inside of us (the grand romance scenario) until disillusionment sets in based on what these parts of us actually experience of relationships ourselves personally and what is templated and modeled for us by our parents’ relationships. How our parents respond to our budding sexuality and our growing curiosity about sexuality (either overly energizing it or under energizing it) also impacts if it blooms and flourishes inside of us (is watered by healthy love) or if it is suppressed.

There is something preserved in the soul it seems until this phase of ‘great disillusionment’ during teenagehood for most of us, that it also feels like is a form of Dark Night of The Soul before a deeper sense of amnesia sets in. This disillusionment pushes up feelings of depression as we realize, on an existential level, that we are ‘stuck’ here in 3D life and even a grand romance (which we are beginning to feel is highly unlikely and maybe even impossible) is not going to make it bearable to be here.

Rebellion kicks in too during this phase as parts of us may try to push away from 3D conditioning that we receive in schools and in our family cultures. The push away usually just leads to more suffering, though, and acute shame and unworthiness as parts of us just feel ‘bad’ or ‘wrong’ for being so different from ‘everyone else’. At this point, a strong Inner Protector energy may come in to create a buffer between us and the world, to help us fit in and survive being here, and start creating 3D-based personas and masks to ‘get us through it.’ The rebellion, disillusionment and especially the original seeds of hope and dreams for romance get pushed far away into the emotional body and the Inner Protector stands at guard over them, over the heart, and over the soul too.

It then becomes likely that it is our unfelt Inner Teenager who is underneath the way that we engage in romantic relationships as we get ‘older.’ This leads to emotional AND sexual immaturity, regardless of how much life experience we have in relationships. This immaturity is what can manifest push-pull, abuse, toxicity, codependence, suffering patterns, being in loveless and sexless marriages, and even being a lone wolf/monklike/celibate for long periods of time. The Inner Protector goes into ‘lock down’ around sexuality and romance, not allowing for the prince and princess energies to mature into the Queen and King that they are meant to BEcome.

I have felt these energies in facilitants and in myself over the years, connecting with and working with various teenage aspects and ultimately allowing my Inner Princess to receive the water of love that she needed from me and from the Divine to bloom into my queen. Being in sacred union with Raphael Awen, who has done similar process and feeling work with his Inner Prince, allows for the FULL expression of my mature Queen and his mature King and the deeper healing of any immaturities in both of us. I feel that without this ability to connect with parts of ourselves that are usually subconscious to us, we would probably not be able to show up for this relationship and the frequencies of deep soul, heart, body, and mental resonance in a mature way as parts of us would probably block it or sabotage it.

Connecting with your Inner Prince or Princess is such a tender and wonderful ground of exploration. We have tended to look down against ‘teenagers’ and our own teenage experience especially can be suppressed and denied, put away or ‘locked away’ because it is too painful. Going into it, exploring it, remembering it, feeling it allows us to get back in touch with our hopes, dreams, riper soul frequencies. BEing the loving energy that these parts of us have been waiting for opens up the possibilities that this can then be experienced with a mate who is engaging in the same process!

Raphael Awen and I will be teaching more about the Inner Prince and Princess, our experience with these aspects of ourselves and also offering a guided meditation to connect with your Inner Prince and Princess, plus space for individual sharings during a Sacred Union Group call this Sunday at 11:11am CST if you would like to join us for a $11 min. donation:www.facebook.com/events/275463096260878. If you can’t join us live, we’ll be sharing a recording of the teachings and meditations here on FB.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Arising Journey Of Opening Your Heart

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by Kalayna Colibri

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When your heart first starts to open, you can feel the edges. You can feel the aperture widening, letting more light out and in, moving love to and fro in waves and perhaps in stops and starts. You can feel the emotions that come up as part of this sacred process, the protests inside from parts of you that may have fears about your heart opening and the ride this will take them on. You will begin to FEEL your parts, maybe for the first time, and all of the storms they’ve weathered in the name of ‘love’ as they’ve ‘known’ it to be or thought it to be, or assumed it to be based on their conditioning and experience. They may be unsure that love can be clean, can be pure, can be something that keeps flowing without end.

As your heart opens more, you feel the healing that allows it to do so. You feel a celebration of the work you’ve done to get here, though it may also feel as if you have pretty far to go, especially as more oil is brought up from parts of you to be felt deeper still. You begin to trust this process more and that this flushing out is important for you and your life yet also for the world too. Your higher/Cosmic heart, your Christ Consciousness starts to become activated in this way, though it may still remain somewhat out of your reach, especially as reactions bubble up not only in your heart but in your very soul. The sacredness of this can be felt, though maybe not strongly just yet, for so much of this pain you’re feeling through can keep the programming of ‘mess is NOT sacred’ alive thriving within your being, still. This is the hardest part in a way, because the mess is what you need and on some level you surrender to that, though consciously you feel as if your world is turning upside down and you’re questioning so much about who you’ve been so far in this life and how you’ve related to everything and everyone in it. This is your emotional awakening phase, even though spiritually you may have awakened long ago. The bridge between these two strata of being can start to be made conscious, yet the lines seem stark in contrast because you are having to FEEL so much in YOU that may have long been buried and even covered over BY the spiritual…

Then the aperture of your heart widens still more… you begin to notice that your ‘messes’ created by parts of you that are needing them in order to be felt more fully and deeply, make way for more joy and that the joy seems to last longer and longer before more oil comes up to be felt and moved through, if not healed. The sacredness in every millimeter of process is becoming more obvious to you and allowing yourself to be IN process feels like the best sort of ‘me’ time you can give yourself the space to have. You feel celebrations as your movements inside of you begin to shift the world outside of you. You draw relationships that are more aligned with who you are and are becoming, though maybe these relationships don’t feel totally like ‘soul family’ just yet… or maybe they do and you’re drawn to go in deeper with them in conscious community or at least sacred bonds. They’re likely doing the same work you’re doing, feeling parts of themselves, healing deeply, taking the time and space needed in order to breathe, be, become, and above all, feel, heal and grow. You could also be drawing potential romantic partners along the way, with more heart and soul resonance with you than you’ve experienced thus far.

These new relationships are the end to your ‘lone wolf’ phase, though you still need and want the time for YOU and your parts and soul aspects that have now become so beloved to you and you to them. As you say ‘yes’ to community and intimate bonds with others, you feel this begin to widen your heart even more, sometimes to the point where it feels about to burst with colour and light and LOVE. You feel oil come up still, yet this time it feels different, because you’re noticing it more consciously, being with it sooner, and you have these relationships around you with so much powerful love transaction between you that their reflections of you go into you and really help you see where to go next inside of you at a manageable rate and pace that before this time, may have been overwhelming in moments. Sometimes the hardest processes are actually about letting more love in from and with others in this space you’re in now. You’re connecting with yourself, with guides, with your beloveds regularly and your spirituality integrates more and more with your daily life, lighting you up with soul purpose and soul gifts that have come alive for you in a new way. This leads you to more oneness experiences, that you now get to feel through a greater sense too of Conscious Duality and why we need both the dual and non-dual as our awakenings open out and our growth keeps moving forward. Ascension becomes not a struggle, but an embraced and beloved process too, intertwined with all of this, this entire process and all you ARE.

The journey never ends from here, though it always deepens as new phases of BEing open up and move you through challenges. You have become the sacred human you’ve always wanted to become, somewhere inside of you. And you wouldn’t trade this journey for the world, for it has become so YOURS to claim and you do so with a love flow in your heart that couldn’t have come to you before. Feeling and claiming your sacred YOU space brings you back to you, your true home and the one place you can ever fully belong. The one place where it ALL can heal, and where your former sense of separation and abandonment wounds can be transformed, transmuted, healed. Welcome home…. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Owning Your Truth And The Changes That Brings

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By Raphael Awen

Try as we may, none of us can live long on someone else’s truth.

As the events of our lives unfold, the universe calls us to claim our own truth, to stand in that truth, and to accept and take responsibility for the consequences that come with holding and living out that truth.

Vulnerably and heart open, we can now say, ‘this I believe with all my heart’, or ‘this is what feels the MOST true to me and this is what feels the most true FOR me’, while we acknowledge that we could be ‘wrong’ or that we might change our truth on any subject at any time in the future. We are simply saying ‘This is near-as-I-can-tell for me, for now’.

I began my adult life holding to an ‘absolute truth’ picture. ‘My truth’, (though I wouldn’t have called it that then), was that ‘thee truth’ was all that mattered, and anything other was the evil of ‘relative truth’ or truth without an anchor in reality.

For many, this is a necessary phase of consciousness evolution. We begin by seeing the world as outside-of-us reality that is in need of concrete, correct and safe definition. We need the world, and some form of ‘God’, and ‘God’s truth’ to be bigger than us, so we can then safely and humbly surrender to this ‘God’ (that we are actually crafting in our own image, but can’t yet see that and take responsibility for that).

As a young man, I chose this absolute truth picture as my truth and lived into it deeply, I inevitably came to the place where my truth was forced to evolve. I came to know in my own truth that ‘God’ had no insecure emotional need to have ‘subjects’ in obedience and compliance to ‘himself’. This then led to call into question one belief after another that could no longer be contained in my absolute truth picture. My entire social world that was built upon this same foundation crumbled as I shared my truth which in turn brought me to entire new vistas of life.

In this way, life takes us to the heart of our chosen beliefs and faces us with a truth telling mirror and invites us to feel what we believe and why we believe what we do. We see in this mirror a reflection of our actual maturity level and next places that life and love is wanting to take us. We come to feel and see that underlying every single belief we hold dear is a reflection of what’s true in our emotional body. Then we see this truth reflected out perfectly in our relationship playouts as life then gives us the opportunity to courageously own our emerging truth and live into the changes this brings.

Beliefs are about a ‘contest’ of 2 or more opposing ideas; a ‘dual’ if you will, based in the ‘duality’ of more than one possibility. While our highest upstream soul reality is a ‘non-dual’ one, where there is only oneness and no need or basis for any duals and contests, we chose to enter this world and expression of duality for a profound reason. My truth is that all duality eventually leads us back to complete and total oneness. However the path to this naturally maturing oneness is through discovering and claiming our individual truths and taking the paths that our truth presents us with. Now, we come to the very enlarged place where we realize that all is love, that every difference is contained in love, and this enlarged place is somehow so very much more than even the oneness place we began this journey from.

What is your truth? What do you feel about life, and love and the universe that isn’t any kind of a convenient copy and paste of other people’s beliefs, or perspectives on life? Are there things you deeply believe, but feel to keep to yourself in a given relationship or situation? What would no longer hiding your truth self-lovingly look like?

This then brings the question too of ‘What opposing beliefs do parts of yourself hold inside of you?’ Can you feel each one of these parts of you and their reason for holding their truth as they do? What would ending this civil war inside look and feel like going forward?

How would your life change if you vulnerably ‘owned’ your truth and accepted the consequences and changes that brought to your life?

Your truth is wanting to move you into new places and relationships to life in many profound ways.

The way, the truth and the life is contained in you.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

You Literally ARE Infinity

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By Raphael Awen

You literally ARE infinity.

As a being, you constantly express this infinity that you are, whether you are aware of it or not. This infinity manifests in you as both the desire for all things as well as the deep gratitude for all things. There is nothing in the universe that is not you.

Even the apparent created reality of a separate and distinct self, a finite self, is a created reality that we dialled up from our infinite self, to learn within.

Even the relationship of lack with life that parts of you have made their waking conscious reality are also a powerful manifestation of the super-abundant reality that you ARE. You, AS INFINITY, dialled up an all too real feeling storyline of lack in which parts of you are the main characters living out something so far removed from the super abundant infinity that you are.

Your soul knows that the letting go of the conscious awareness of this super abundant infinity of being in order to enter an amnesia and subsequent awakening/re-membering process IS where the true gold of being is found….where each of us is reborn into something so much more than we were, even compared to who and what we were before we chose the amnesia.

Many dream of winning the lottery only to find that those who do cannot digest the instant rise to super abundance as they have not had a process of acclimating themselves to the wealth. The dream of ‘having it all’ comes from a subconscious knowing that they already ARE and have it all, and the inability to hold the all (lottery winnings) also comes from the subconscious deep storylines of lack.

If you and I already possess it all, but we are living in a self created story of something less than the dawning realization of that, then this present story is the present creation of our super abundant infinity.

And if we created this and are creating this, then we did this in order to awaken to THAT, and to feel all there is to feel in relation to this present created reality. Like a movie producer and story writer, we gave ourselves these dramas in order to feel the things that we as a soul knew we needed to feel in order to realize what we set out to realize. We are out and about realizing the infinity that we are.

If this is true, then we have our work cut out for ourselves. The ‘work’ has up till now gone on even in our unawareness and unawakened state, as we now awaken to an ever more conscious state of choice, intention and effort towards inhabiting what we most deeply want.

We’ve been given the seeds, the soil, the sun and the water, and now, the awareness that we ARE the gardener who is growing the garden of self, of love, of surrender to the divinity and infinity moving within our souls.

Our mandate now is ‘just feel what there is to feel’ and thereby to let-in the transmutation of our being that we are living out in each moment.

Each of us has new and powerful story lines awaiting our choice and appetite to step into. We chose this. Infinity itself is watching you with wonder and awe at what you will choose next.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Letting Go To Enter Sacred Union

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By Raphael Awen

A ‘Sacred Union’ can be simply defined as a sacrificing or giving up of your reality to make way for a new and arising reality.

Jelelle and I like to say that we are in a Sacred Union bond, and we feel that this is powerfully true, but there isn’t any spiritual ‘Sacred Union board of governors’ who can certify that this is or isn’t true. What makes it true for us is the sacredness and reverence that we bring to the bond as individuals, that then transacts mutually and opens out a bliss that we only dreamt of previously in our imaginative reach for what we most deeply desired. It is simply, our deepest dreams coming true, and then as that happens, continuing to dream deeper still.

This is the sacred sacrifice…the willingness to feel into your deepest desires and imagination of what your deepest bliss of a Sacred Union could look and feel like…in as many ways as you can imagine. The sacrifice comes into play as you are willing to let go of what you presently have (or don’t have) in favour of this deep inner all-consuming yearning.

Men are more wired (so we’re told) to do this sexually, and for men, that’s as good a place as any to open the imagination. What would heart and mind blowing sex look and feel like to you, and then because there are another 23 hours left in the day, what would being in life and love and that drippy sex glow look like and feel like to you? How willing are you to admit that you really want THAT? How willing are you to be ‘pierced through with your own desire’ and to pursue that… in real life, in real time, with a real woman? Only in that willingness are you willing to sacrifice your present reality to own and enter and alchemize a new one.

As a woman, what would it feel like to be with a man who is so into you, as the woman of his deepest dreams, who fully claims you and your arising life together that nothing comes a close second to the bliss of your Sacred Union bond?

Can you feel how you are the creator here? Sacred Union is not some spiritually attained place that you somehow pop into and suddenly you are hereafter declared enlightened. You ‘enlighten’ your path here one grounded and ever so fulfilling sacred step at a time.

When others look at Jelelle and I with admiration, they may feel a contrast between where they are at and where we are at and see us as having what they want, but this is them projecting their own heart and soul bigness onto us temporarily for safe keeping while they ‘go-in’ to their own heart and soul work to make the choices and feel all there is to feel to take this journey. The exciting thing in all of this is that once you begin that, you are on the Sacred Union path that IS the bliss, even if you are single, regardless of what your ‘attainment’ is or isn’t just yet. The humility and reverence you bring to the opportunity to be in this mutual reverence is what brings the ongoing deepenings.

You’ll have plenty of your own ‘out of this world, and don’t quite know where to file them’ kind of experiences soon enough, along with deepening healing challenges as well to invite you deeper into Sacred Union. You’ll need the conditioning too of these first initial courageous claims of what it is you most deeply want, to be in shape, so to speak, for the next steps. You are entering and choosing the domain of taking the sacred responsibility of manifesting your deepest dreams, knowing this is your sacred calling in the universe.

Can you think of anything more fun than that? Even whatever hell you need to go through to get here pales in comparison. You, in Sacred Union bliss are worth it all!

Sacred Union looks so good in you and on you!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Only As We Are Willing To Be Hurt Can We Let In Love

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By Raphael Awen

The shell that protects us from being hurt is also the same shell that keeps love from coming into our lives.

Only as we are willing to risk being hurt, can we open ourselves to love.

This is because our self protection mechanism that prevents us from being hurt and that protects our heart is the same mechanism that energetically blocks love from entering our lives more and more.

It’s not that we are so fragile that we can’t handle being hurt, as much as it is that we have a backlog of unfelt hurt in our energy field that a part of us is convinced that we cannot endure getting in contact with. This part of us will work tirelessly in what it feels is a love motive to protect us from being hurt any further in our lives. What this part of us cannot fathom however is that this valiant protection is also what is keeping love at bay as well.

But wait!… If I AM love, MADE of love and SOURCED in love, how could it be that I am also IMPERMEABLE to love at the same time?! How is it that I struggle to feel the love that I am? Why would fear of being hurt be stronger than my surrender to love?

The magic of who and what you are in your love essence doesn’t mean that this is what it feels like to be living life as you know it, or more accurately, as parts of you know life.

This is the sacred journey we are given of re-MEMBERing ourselves back to love, where our experience of life is brought more and more into alignment with the essence of life and love that we ARE. These parts of ourselves who fear love and its inherent risk of hurt are the first ones who we are invited to seek their re-memberment back to the love that we are.

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Putting Your Energy Towards Creating The NEW

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By Jelelle Awen

Creating the NEW takes energy to happen. It takes conscious choices in every moment….to BEcome more conscious if you have slipped out or into something of the old. Conscious of when fear is going unfelt inside of you. Bringing in the NEW to yourself, your world, is like cutting trail, bush whacking and weed pulling….it is seeing a path where there wasn’t one before and DARING to follow it without kNOwing where it is going, yet only that it leads AWAY and into something NEW.

Sometimes creating the NEW is crawling through mud, one millimeter at a time with seemingly LITTLE sense that anything is changing. The NEW beacons you on though, in these moments, it reminds you in your soul what is possible. It pings and rings of the truths that your heart kNOWs. And, at times, there is only the surrender into the collapse of emotions that have to come up and out…the fears and their tears, the substance of so many previous experiences. Holding space for these emotions to come up also creates the NEW because it cannot be paved over an undigested foundation of the emotional body. It wants to be purified as the ground is laid.

SO much energy has been invested in the 3D world….the choices to be in the ongoing experiment of it by so many souls. To BE something NEW, to offer New Earth now frequencies of higher vibrational consciousness needs a force of energy too from you. Because you are going against something even as you are just BEing in stillness AS the NEW too. It is NOT just reading about it or passively taking it in or letting your mind contemplate or learn only. It is NOT just meditating and doing yoga. It is ALSO energizing what you feel that it IS and understanding what your ROLE is in the creation of the NEW. Energizing through choices to serve self and with others. And through claiming your responsibility to heal, feel, transform, move INTO in ALL areas of your life serving love and the NEW. Making CHANGES that reflect the NEW back to you.

Parts of you are connected deeply into 3D energies…they ARE these energies, as they have had to be in order to survive here. These aspects are conditioned to be protective and guarded and to ultimately be alone and survive alone (no matter how many others may be in your life.) SO much energy invested in protection…it may be the number one energy created in 3D living. BEing with the part of you that is protective, getting to know your inner guard who is on alert at ALL times to ANY threats….allows for the NEW to come into your life and into your heart. It allows access to the Inner Child frequencies of innocence, joy, magic, self worth, connection….all frequencies that are often stuck in lower vibrations of shame, depression, sadness, shyness, flatness, lack of reverence, unworthiness, disconnect. These frequencies change as the guardedness drops more and the ALIVEness can come back in. NEW can come in from the emotional body then.

BEing the NEW takes energy to BEcome it. To experience relationships that are based on soul resonance and heart vulnerability takes energy to show up for because it is SO unknown to our 3D world. To CHOOSE these kind of relationships over those based in fear and comfort takes energy too….sometimes a whole lot of inner power and strength to let go and move on, especially when no others seem to be with you in that desire for the NEW. To choose a NEW CommUNITY, soul tribe coming together, leaving behind your lone wolf existence (even, again, if you are surrounded by other people), leaving behind being maybe the ‘biggest soul’ in the room…..all THIS takes energy.

There is SO MUCH support from the Universe and Divine Source to energize the NEW inside and with Gaia. You can re-energize yourself, fill up again by letting these frequencies of love and light into your heart and soul. By connecting with the aspects of you that are afraid of the NEW (both from this life and other lifetimes), you are able to more deeply let these PURE Divine energies in more and more, like the LOVE sponge that you ARE. As you energize this choice for NEW every moment that you consciously can (and self lovingly accept when you haven’t), you draw those souls that can support and BE with you in the NEW too. You find each other….across miles, across continents, across language barriers…..you find, discover, CREATE the NEW, your energizing of it exponentially impacted by the coming together of FORCES for change….all in service of the NEW that is based in LOVE.

 

Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Wants, Desires And Needs: Essential Aspects Of Our Ascension

Published on by Kasha Rosa3 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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My ever-healing heart and the energy of Mary Magdalene, want to share this invitation with you today…

You are so beloved…why are you afraid to desire?

You are created for adventures… why have parts of you, soul aspects of you, decided that it’s safer, cleaner, not to claim your needs and wants?

Do you, arising sacred human heart, feel how this is what keeps you from entering the processes you most need and want to, in your soul? Those sacred upheavals of emotion and soul bursts that show you what you need to feel and heal next? These feelings of ‘I will never get what I want’ are actually a shout crowding a gentler whisper that says, ‘I’m afraid I actually might get what I want…’.

Want. Desire. Need. These are loaded words, oft kept in a box, labeled ‘danger!’ and rightly so… this Pandora’s Box is a life changer, the love you eventually can’t ignore though parts of you may try so hard to do so. There is nothing wrong with the delay of feeling what you most want, for you are wired to want MORE anyways. You are in gratitude for what you have, yes, yet this gratitude needs more space for breathing too, for expanding into a bigger heart container that also holds desires for more depth of relationship, a more suitable geography, an impeccable soul and heart romance, soul friendships within conscious community, challenges to just keep going, moving, healing, diving in… Gratitude cannot really be used to suppress your desires, but can instead be used to enrich and enliven them.

Your most sacred terrain of change is in your healing heart. No true and lasting changes can be made on the outside without the inside leading the way. New wants, needs and desires rise up from process, as an aspect of feeling parts and soul fragments of you, as something to keep you heading along your path. They are meant to shift and change as you are, yet this shifting and changing need not be a dulling of your sharpness of wanting, your ability to create and co-create. If anything, it sharpens you further, clarifying with greater depth and breadth what it is you most deeply want NOW and NOW. If you are feeling yourself, if you are in a healing process, you need not worry about your desires being over-indulgent or false or harmful. As your heart heals, so do your motivations in every area of life, until life has no ‘areas’ or ‘segments’ or especially ‘compartments’ but is one life lived in and according to LOVE… where does LOVE want me to flow today? What does it want to illuminate for me in this phase, in this very moment?

The deeper fears of desiring and wanting, live under the resistance to feel them… they are the vulnerability of feeling that nothing in life is guaranteed and yet if your heart truly wants it, the path aligns to make it happen WITH you, not for or to you. The desire is the beacon, the light at the end of the sometimes long, long tunnel. It is the picture, the double-vision you can hold fast to while walking among hot coals of sometimes shadowy process grounds. It is the warm voice beckoning you to keep moving onward by turning inward, seeing for the first time that this voice is yours.

We are full-up of expectations from others that have somehow become our own. We are passed down legacies of withdrawal from life and ultimately from LOVE. We are given only the tools necessary to keep being safe and sound and secure, not loving ourselves through vows of cherishment and self-awe. This means deflecting that which doesn’t match a much duller picture, sacrificing dreams for ‘knowns’. Gratitude comes in the moments we realize that we are exactly where we need to be while on the path of the adventure to what we most deeply want. Gratitude is covered by inherited brambles when we wait alongside the path and don’t choose to step out onto it. Synchronicities send over invitations to keep walking, moving, remembering, letting more love in, yet we will only accept the invite if we are ready to recognize that this messenger is who we’ve been waiting for.

What is it that your heart most desires and needs for you and from you in this moment, on this day? Feel this, bring it inward to your heart with curiosity and love, as a parent to a growing child or a gardener to a blooming rose. Let yourself be taken, fascinated by your wants and needs. Allow in some moments of feeling all there is to feel and see what new places, on this very next step of your burgeoning, ever-ascending life, open up for you next. ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Freedom Comes From….

Published on by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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Freedom comes from feeling and BEing beyond self consciousness, self judgement, unworthiness….healing beyond the frequencies and energies that parts of you received from 3D life that created the binds and strains, the limitations and the doubts, the dampenings that these create INside. The self made prison of inner criticism, trying to live up to ideals of perfection creates a constant ‘not good enough’ message that forms walls and barriers to letting in love with self, with others, and with the Divine.

Freedom comes from realizing that YOU hold the key to unlock the prison doors. The key BEing your heart and its capacity for self forgiveness, self compassion, discernment WITH love, humility, and gratitude. NO ONE else can set you free and no one else can actually imprison you either. You are the creator of your prison and you are your liberator too.

Freedom comes from the sense of soul coming through…from living a life of purpose connected to serving love WITH others and WITH self. As you let go of self image-based needs for money earning, for material gains, for ‘proving and showing’ anything to anyone…..as you let go of conditionings that teach you ONLY about lack and scarcity…..as you realize that abundance comes from serving love in whatever ways and means YOU are here to do and BE…..freedom comes from this letting go in order to LET IN this soul purpose and align with it in each moment.

Freedom comes from feeling the Unity consciousness that connects us all together……feeling how you were never really separate, even as you sovereignly chose as a soul to experiment with that reality as an “I” here. Your independence day comes as you realize and feel the ways that parts of you have become OVERLY independent and self reliant. You are moving out of lone wolf, “I need to be alone and do it alone”…. more into commUNITY even as you are responsible for self in a deep way and your impact on yourself and others.

Freedom comes from BEing the LOVE that you ARE and aligning all of your life to and with love. So, you are free and so, you realize, you always WERE.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.