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Allowing Emotions To Come UP Through Connecting With Your Inner Protector

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FEEL. Just feel. Let the textures of your heart come up to BE. Allow what needs your attention to claim your space and hold it with self love. In this feeling, allowing, holding space for yourself, you create NEW possibilities of healing and transformation.

The parts of you that need you…the little girl INside or the little boy INside, the HUGE warrior, the guard on duty, the controller/manager, the punisher/critic, the teenager…..ALL these aspects and their emotional reality are pinging and ponging from within you. It doesn’t really work to ignore this, although you can try and part of you may try VERY hard to suppress all this emotional activity from coming UP and out.

All these parts came and formed when feeling was not OK, when there was no space made inside for them and with them by those meant to care and guide, your caregivers and parents as they didn’t have this either. There was no space for feeling what you were feeling WHILE you were feeling it and so the energy gets stuck. It is stuck in stories, scenes, and moments that your mind brings you back to often, trying to help your heart heal yet unable to do it. Your mind brings you ‘back’, yet these moments live in the now of the emotional body, continuing to play out and influence you. These moments need your heart presence in order to be ‘moved on’.

In sessions lately, I have been hearing more from people who do not remember very much about their childhoods. Or they can’t remember after certain traumatic and painful events happen or before these events. This is not actually a matter of memory of the mind, but rather, the Inner Protector which has ‘shut down’ access to the memories because they would be too painful for you. The Protector becomes worried and concerned that you couldn’t ‘handle’ to remember and emotionally digest it.

In the SoulFullHeart process, we support the authentic You to arise that CAN handle and wants to feel, to remember in order to heal, and to BE with the stuck places and parts that need you. You begin to remember it ALL (including other lifetimes with increasing clarity) AS you negotiate with the Inner Protector and Soul Guardian aspect. Negotiation with this part allows for the pipeline of memory to open and trust grows that You can handle what comes as a result. Your Protector may still ‘see’ you as a child and as you connect consciously with them, they start to lean into you and rest, feel you as more of an emotionally mature adult. As the Protector rests, this opens up your heart, body, soul, mind in often HUGE and new ways. You can read more about that here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts.

Here are teachings about the Inner Protector and a guided meditation to connect with this aspect of you during a recent group call: https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc

FEEL. Just feel. It’ll be OK. It’ll be Beautiful even when it is necessarily painful. So much support is coming from these bounding and bountiful energy waves right now to hold a space for the feeling of feelings. So much support WITH love to go where love wants to go and couldn’t go in the moment, yet can in the NOW…..moving, transforming, and offering so much more possibility of love as you feel and, so, heal. ❤ ❤

 

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Intense Ascension UPgrades Happening Now

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The intensity of the energies in the outer cosmos are undeniable in their impact on the INNER cosmos. I spent many hours in meditation/float/drift and sleep space yesterday, connecting in, UP, and out. I couldn’t really DO anything else, so it was a surrendered into the ‘here but NOT here’, space yesterday for me. I have been in service of love with others mode for awhile, so the going within felt wonderful. Archangel Metatron was a constant presence, his comforting fatherly energy guiding me, ‘working on’ me, and showing me what he would like me to share and bridge to you as you undergo your OWN individual processes of ascension and awakening to your sacred humanity during this intense upgrade phase.

Yes, it’s an ‘upgrade’ phase. UPgrade to remember what you have put in purposeful shadow about your soul’s experiences in all the projections for which it exists and lives in the Now. UPgrading to feel that rather than ‘past lives’, ALL these soul energies impact you Now and are ‘bleeding’ more and more into your present life. Unexplainable emotional reactions, karmic clashes (especially with romantic partners), those dramatic surges that your mind can’t track or fix to ‘this life’ reasons……..THIS is the soul coming through and showing you some of your stories as they live and breathe in your Metasoul line.

Timelines are becoming more transparent, meaning less delineation between the ‘current’ one that you are living and the others that share the same Metasoul source as you. I have experienced my life in this multidimensional way for many years, yet still, it is amazing to me how THIN the boundaries are becoming (not that there ever really WERE any boundaries). In every moment, I am feeling into what is ME this life and what are Metasoul sister aspects reactions and SOUL realities coming through. This is not too difficult for me as I have cleared so much of my emotional body parts (stuck energies) from this life and other lifetimes, YET it could be very challenging to sort it out if this a newer experience for you. I’m wanting to validate that it is crazy making at times to feel these surges and energies that don’t feel like YOU, yet they are from SOMEWHERE else, some OTHER time or era or planet even. This can show up in very intense dreams too where you may even wake up sobbing or feeling very deeply.

Wanting to UPgrade, too, is your emotional body. Your emotional body may be anchored by undigested experiences from this life AND other lifetimes (the emotional body spans timelines, I’m beginning to feel there is a shared emotional body for the entire Metasoul line!) This lack of digestion of traumas and woundings leads to the formation of what we call in SoulFullHeart “parts or aspects”. These parts are mostly conditioned and connected to 3D frequencies, and create personas, masks, projections around you and AS you. Who you THINK you are may, at this moment, may LARGELY be these persona aspects until you differentiate and separate from them. The wonderful opportunity in this is that you BEcome your authentic self more and more as these layers are felt and integrate. This is the process that we hold space for in SoulFullHeart through sessions and group calls, more here about that: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

UPgrading too is your carbon-based body to contain and BE more and more light. Your body may be ‘kicking into’ something that is not quite understandable or trackable by your mind right now. You may be feeling extreme sleepiness too and sleeping much more than usual right now or really wanting to. More diet adjusts as certain frequencies contained in foods no longer match the fuel that your body most wants and needs. It is shifting from needing food at ALL, living more on light and love. I am back to a mostly eating fruit phase to ‘clean out’ again and allow for lighter digestion, which seems to help as the body is going through so many upgrades. Muscle tensions and soreness (especially in your head and neck) can flare up, along with head pains as the pineal and pituitary glands become more active. This is a meditation that I did with Mother Mary offering soothing of ascension body symptoms that may help with the surrendering process around the body changes: https://youtu.be/nkTbTJBBlHE?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvL3_HIusq0GwJO4ziwlmioz

For your chakras, UPgrading means functioning at a higher vibrational spin, new color spectrum, more crystalline feel and energy to ALL of them. As the ascension chakras are becoming more activated, new frequencies are coming in from the Stellar Gateway chakra (about two feet above your head), your Star Chakra (one foot above your head), your Clausal Chakra (behind your head) running down your main chakras and to your earth chakra (about a foot below your physical feet). This energy flow creates a 5D sacred human column, a ‘violet print’ (higher vibe than a blueprint) for your 5D energetic body. I’ve been shown pictures of this, yet it is difficult to describe in words. You can visualize your auric field as a very bright violet white tree, with branches expanding up, reaching up….and then, the trunk as your body with roots then extending down to connect with Mother Gaia.

Surrendering to this UPgrading process is BEing open to NEW experiences of reality. To let go of the mind’s need to understand and track all of it and the ways that it manifests in your life. To reassure the parts of you that may be fearful or resistant to the transformation process. Your body/heart/mind/soul are leading the way here, along with increasing merging with your Higher Self. You can trust that you are in VERY good hands and hearts here as your Angelic and Star BEing aspects/guides/family are helping out, witnessing, and supporting the process as well. You don’t even have to consciously connect to ANY of that, it is just happening organically as it is meant to right NOW during this phase of BEcoming Infinite Love in Sacred Human form!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

In Your Heart Gaze: Poem Celebrating Sacred Union

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Nine years ago, I wrote this poem as I was newly falling in love with BEloved man, my Counterpart soul mate Raphael Awen for which I am so blessed to arise into life with and who celebrates the day of his birth today!

For you, my love, my joy, I am SO grateful for you and for US…..I am still falling….


You said: “How uncluttered our playground,
Swept clean by the unknown and
Free from the grasping that secures love,
But closes the heart.”

As you said, in your fashion that gives
Way to a rising flight of desire
Inside of me

And in your heart gaze, I feel delicate as
An orchid’s fastly fresh season

Between us,
The quiet is
So loudly gentle, a heat-filled
Riot of alive silence

And in your heart gaze, I feel still and strong as
The tide’s force on water

My love, I ache to wrap around you
You in your leading,
Without any contortions
Or otherwise obvious struggle

I am claimed, not caught,
Free to finally let go into
A woman’s legacy of leaning….

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Bliss Mess Of Feeling Your Emotional Body During Ascension

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High pressure systems of energy, like what we are experiencing in the NOW and for many days/weeks/months, push up INTENSE feelings of what has been previously suppressed. Sometimes what has been judged by the part of you that judges as ‘ugly’ or ‘messy’….those often disowned tones of rage, despair, disdain, disconnect, depression, drama, self loathing….all those parts that have probably been deemed as ‘not fit for company’ or ‘put away in the inner closet.’

Explosive sometimes, these feelings can come up. Triggered by relationships, by situations, by just more moments made for them and by going within. The soul awakening can’t be bubbled off from the emotional body for long….eventually what has been let in (the frequencies of love and light) wash through and push UP reactions. Your Inner Protector may come in then and shut that process down with ‘no feelings allowed!’ messages, or certainly not any ‘negative’ ones that it thinks are NOT ok to see the light of your day.

Somehow it seems like the message has gotten highjacked by the parts of people that don’t want to feel anything difficult, messy, or ‘negative.’ When actually the HIGH frequencies of light and PURE love are what make it SAFE to feel these things. They are being provided by the Divine to ALLOW us to go into our emotional body in a way that we haven’t before as a species as THAT Is the ground that needs the MOST healing and of our attention.

We have been Star BEings, Oneness consciousness, much MORE than we have been human BEings. We are HERE to experience the bliss mess (yes BOTH) of FEELING. The bliss mess, the highs and lows, the ups and downs, the suffering and the joys, the tears and the laughs.

Oh, this is our humanity in ALL its glory. Angels and Star BEings are watching us, admiring us, merging with us (when our consciousness and emotional body are ready) more and more to experience this emotional experience of reality through and with us. They are not judging our emotional states, yet do hope for the end of our suffering over suffering and for us to heal from the karmic patterns that can unconsciously haunt us so that we can merge with them some more and create something completely NEW.

Our hearts are the beacon that shines across the stars and draws attention from around the galaxy….this I have been offered over and over.

As an emoto-spiritual forecaster (like weather forecaster, yes, that fits….of inner and outer heart and soul energies), I feel it’s important to offer a bridge about what is happening OUT THERE in the cosmos, in the grids, in the galactic spaces TO what may be happening inside, in your emotional body, in your reactions and experiences. Without that bridge, it can be challenging to feel how what is happening in the galactic ascension process has much meaning to your daily life as you are living it as the human BEing that you are.

I struggle sometimes when I am reading an energy update from someone to feel how it would relate to the pain, suffering, confusion, fear that I feel coming up for so many right now (and for parts of me for so many previous years too.) Or, if the energy healer/teacher does offer something about emotions, it is usually to just ‘be with them and allow them to move’ and they will ‘release’ somehow. While, yes, holding space for emotions is important and they can ‘move’ this way, in my sense it is just the surface level off gassing frequencies that move and most likely NOT the deeper root causes and origins that live in the emotional body AND in the soul field.

The emotional body has been my playground, me ground, and service of love ground for 10+ years (almost 15, I think) and it offers SO MUCH clarity, relief, and transformation to just DIVE into it rather than ignore it, suppress it, bypass it, spiritualize it, etc. The soul legacy ground/body has been the same for me and with others…..and it offers SO much richness of integration of soul gifts, soul purpose, archetypal healing to remember, to relieve, to feel, and to go there.

Yes, but, how? How to dive in? This is an important question, it really is, because BEing needs form to follow for awhile so that it can arise, which it will eventually if you are authentically going into the emotional body and the soul body too. The how I have written about many times and ways and you can read much more about the SoulFullHeart process that we offer at soulfullheartwayoflife.com. The main how is through connecting directly and with deep love to different aspects of yourself that LIVE in your emotional body and the ones that energize as ‘other lifetime’ aspects in your soul field too. SoulFullHeart Facilitators (including me for women over 30) then hold the space for this deep dive WITH you, yet it is led by you and your discoveries of SELF through journaling and meditation journeys primarily. And we offer a community of others engaged in this same process to provide support, powerful mirroring, intimacy, and connection through group calls, process groups and retreats in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico, and a private online group. More of the how is here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess and here soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts.

That’s my how anyway, maybe yours will be and is different. Yet, the importance of going into the emotional body seems difficult to deny when you feel the state of emotional maturity and health in our world and culture. This is like our ‘final frontier of exploration, along with our soul legacy (which was previously shrouded by a necessary veil of amnesia until we are ready). It offers a moon walk of emotional mystery, a bliss mess experience of US that unfolds in unexpected yet magical ways that ALWAYS seems to lead back to the experience of MORE love.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energetic Pressure Cooker Of Love Supports Self Healing

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In this energetic pressure cooker turned UP to its highest ‘LOVE’ setting, your heart bakes on the aches that have been previously suppressed. Simmering now, you are BEcoming what is POSSIBLE when love is the waters you are swimming in. BEing more in the now, with others who resonate and marinate along WITH you in love’s juices.

UP come the fears. UP come the doubts. UP come the distrust. UP come the resistances held by the protective parts, the guarding parts, that have just wanted to keep life safe for you. You invite these parts of you to put down their weapons, their self judgements, their reticence. You ask them to confess to that which has before been left unsaid and so release the burdens of their concerns to YOU. You pass the tissues to collect the tears that can finally be released. You become the role of confessor to your own heart and soul, with deep compassion and genuine curiosity in response to ALL you hear and feel.

In this letting go of previous pain and traumatic story through feeling it with ALL parts of you, your emotional body becomes CURRENT. It can vibrate in the frequencies of the NOW rather than from the past. It can vibrate heart health and soul integration rather than from from ‘long ago’ wounded and ‘didn’t heal properly’ frequencies. It can become more STILL in natural rhythm with the Universe’s heart beat, tuning more and more to the galactic HUM.

THIS is what all that reading about spirituality was for. This is what all those hours of meditation sets the stage for. This is what the yoga classes were for. This is what all the letting go of the OLD life and boundary setting has been for.

ALL of it has been supporting the soul self to arise. To become BIG enough to hold all this undigested REAL reality. To become your own parent, your own BEloved, your own angel, your own spirit guide, your own God and Goddess. Your own Divine Source that can hold the space for ALL aspects of you, from your roots to your wings, from Inner Child to Ancient Inner Divine Muse and so BE whatever you are MOST needing in EVERY moment.

In this energetic pressure cooker turned UP to its highest ‘LOVE’ setting, it is finally becoming safe enough to go where it was once deemed off limits, to go where it once felt impossible. In this process of GREAT self enlovenment, you discover that you HAVE no limits yet ARE Infinite Possibilities of Infinite Love in human form returning and remembering what you have always been.

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Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com
More writings like this in my NEW book:
Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

We offer space holding sessions to explore this ground of integration of the emotional body with your spiritual awakenings through parts work via individual sessions, group calls, etc., visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information.

Healing 3D Aspects Of Yourself To Draw Your Highest Timelines

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HIGH frequencies of light and love are coming in right now, offering an increasingly visceral and real sense of your highest timeline expression of your soul through your humanity. The NEW timelines don’t just happen to you though. They don’t just appear suddenly AS your life. It is the choosing consciously, the energizing consciously, the healing consciously, which creates the NEW. It is sitting in the Now and accepting it with gratitude as it IS. It is accepting WHILE desiring the NEW to unfold. You can feel both inside of you because that is where they live until they manifest as your outer reality.

As parts of you have settled for the current situations, present circumstances, life as you’ve known it so far….as this happens, so this is your choice. You ‘fuse’ to these parts of you and their emotional realities (usually subconscious) and so you ARE them. Even as your awakening self, your authentic self, longs and desires for MORE and for NEW. Other parts of you may suffer over what you want and what is not yet. Or feel at times hopeless or powerless or that the NEW is impossible. Or judge that what you want is not acceptable or that you are not worthy to have it. Or shut down possibilities with concerns, anxieties, and fears over being hurt or hurting others with your choices. So this creates a ‘push pull’ inside of you and very mixed feelings around the NEW and actually pushes away or stalls it from unfolding. And, this may even be happening at a mostly unconscious level for which you aren’t even aware of it.

These parts of you have been conditioned by a 3D world that operates on limiting, controlling, finite, and stuck energies. The prevailing worldview (esp. In Western cultures) is toward the external and the ‘out there’ thinking, orientation, and focus. It pivots self worth off of material gains, attainments, academic and mental achievements. It operates on constant distraction and numbing of feelings. Relationships are hot beds of codependence, clinging and binding, distancing and pushing away, shrinking and settling. All of these frequencies are sponged into you as you adapted and conformed to the environment you were surrounded by and raised in.

You may have mostly left this 3D conditioning and world behind in significant ways yet, inside, it has not ‘left’ the parts of you that been so deeply ingrained and impacted by it. You can see and feel how it shows up in your life when you look at it from a certain way and through the lens of not just a singular “I” or you at the center of your life, but rather many aspects and parts of you influencing and expressing in many different ways in your life. There is more about parts and subpersonalities (formed ‘this life’ and also soul aspects) that we work with in our SoulFullHeart process through sessions and within community here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Even as YOU awaken, you remember more and more the soul reason and purpose you are here, and choose more based on this…..so do parts of you live inside that are still in 3D reality, 3D conditioning, existing and freeze frame stuck in a 3D vibrating emotional body. These aspects act as anchors to your ascension and your soul awakening. They draw situations and looping patterns within relationships from your ‘trailing edge’ of wounding. To the degree these parts remain in shadow and suppressed or undifferentiated, then so do their frequencies draw more of the same.

This is possibly why even those who are very into the law of attraction, thinking positively with intensity, are still drawing circumstances that aren’t what they most want and desire. They have a conscious self which wants to draw the new reality by thinking about it, yet that isn’t actually only what draws the NEW but rather the emotional body and the state of its health too. So you can ‘change your thoughts’ and yet at the deeper level of the emotional body, nothing has actually changed or shifted. So, you will you continue to draw what you most need to see and feel related to your own healing and growth. This is not ‘life’ or the ‘Universe’ acting against you when It doesn’t bring you what you want, but rather it bringing EXACTLY what you most need to heal and parts of you choosing not to look at that or go into it.

Even as you awaken and choose more from your soul self, there are still areas of your life which reflect the trailing edge or wounded frequencies. This may be in your relationships, with a partner that doesn’t ‘get you’ or isn’t awakening with you or where hot romance has been replaced by friendly brother-sister energies. Or it may be in your birth family and friend relationships, with them reflecting judgement at your soul choices and how you are changing, or them feeling abandoned by you or ‘left behind’. This may be in your career or job, your means for earning livelihood that isn’t connected to your higher purpose serving love here yet, and parts of you consciously suffer in this job. Or you ARE offering your healing service with others, but it is not enough to provide you with what you need and want and you are compromising in some other way, such as living with birth family, returning ‘home’ after you have left a 3D based livelihood.This may be in having physical illnesses and diseases and injuries that don’t seem to resolve even with holistic and alternative means of therapies.

BEing with, feeling, and connecting with these parts of you with MUCH love and curiosity moves their stuck energies into the NEW. Your awakening self forms a bridge to these aspects, bringing them higher frequencies of love to help them move out of 3D and into the Now. They integrate into your awakening self eventually; their energies merging in with yours. Your love of self grows exponentially as these previously suppressed and hidden aspects of you receive the goodness of your love. Your Inner Protector and Soul Guardian can then ‘release’ the floodgates of love to flow into ALL areas of your life, which then attracts soul family, soul mates, soul purpose-based livelihood, vibrant health, and whatever else is the expression of your NEW.

The ultimate surrender sometimes is to feel that what you are drawing in this now IS your highest timeline as it is the one that you most NEED for your own growth in the moment. EVEN AS the Universe and the Divine holds what is your most authentic and highest expression. Your higher self embodies this too, who you BEcome more and more as you separate from the 3D aspects that lower your vibrational frequency.

We are being invited into our highest timelines and manifestation of our highest purposes here to serve love. We are being offered HIGH frequencies of light and PURE love to serve this movement, this ramping UP, into the expression of our highest self in human form, our sacred human. We are receiving much support and guidance from higher dimensional BEings and our Metasoul aspects in many galactic forms, whatever forms that we most want and need and are ready to let in. In our willingness and openness to GO IN and BE with these aspects of ourselves do we BEcome what we ARE already, an expression of Infinite Love in sacred human form.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

HIGH Energy Waves Offering NEW Timelines, Collapsing Old Ones

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HIGH energy frequencies today coming in, like a ‘blizzard’ of them……I checked in and saw Archangel Metatron struggling to walk (not that He walks) as the energy waves like gusts of wind pushed him back (not that they really could). But, in his semi-comical way, he seemed to be offering that the photonic light waves and PURE love waves (along with the tug of the full moon) are intense right now that are coming into Gaia’s atmosphere and into our soul fields.

This can lead to feelings of being sleepy, not quite HERE and not quite THERE either. Also, envisioning of timelines coming in that seem more REAL somehow than the present. This is beyond fantasy or daydreaming….you can see, taste, touch, experience, feel what it is like to LIVE in this timeline NOW. I feel that we are given these experiences to give us a sense of hope and possibilities even during this, at times difficult, personal and global transition from 3D life to much higher consciousness experiences, lifestyles, shiftings, and transformations.

In this space, it can be hard to stay in the present moment because the ‘future’ timelines seem to be energizing so many possibilities. Each connection and interaction with someone (especially soul family and soul mates, which is also coming in SO MUCH stronger lately) seems to hold so many possibilities that it can be overwhelming and challenging to just stay in the NOW.

Or, the timelines between and with others are just collapsing, sometimes suddenly, with much REAL grief to be felt within the emotional body and by parts that have been attached. These gusts of energy kick up previously hidden desires and longings and the authentic self feels safer to emerge out from the cocoon that has been created by the Inner Protector and Soul Guardians too. With the authentic self coming forward means real world shakeups, completions, geographic shifts, all that.

I am already feeling the sand at the beach calling me, to bury my feet in a pile of sand and ground into Mother Gaia. To feel the ocean breezes ‘clear’ the air and the waves crash against the shore. It is rainy season here now and cloud cover so no sun codes, but I don’t think they are needed right now! Being in nature can help with these intense energies or just being in a quiet setting…probably NOT driving a car or being around lots of people or intense situations. Resting, relaxing, feeling, BEing, floating…all feel better and good as we ride these waves of loving light!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Letting Go Of The “Idea” Of Twin Flame To Focus On The Inner Mateship

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I had not heard of twin flame relationships (where two people share one soul ultimately and are masculine and feminine expressions of that soul) until about a year ago, even though I have deeply been in spiritual awakening ‘circles’ for many years. It just didn’t cross my path of awareness until then. In many ways, I am glad that I didn’t know of it or what it offers before, as parts of me would have grabbed at it with previous partners before Raphael and I came together nine years ago. Part of me would have made every man I was in relationship with who shared soul frequencies with me or karmic binds or hot body talk or ALL of it into THE twin flame and I feel that much personal suffering would have resulted in believing that truth.

This can be a precious thing to parts of people, this sense of someone being their ‘twin’, so I want to say that I am offering an invitation to feel it differently and to let in a new perspective in order to bring some AIR and metaspace into it. In my feeling sense of it through what I have seen online and also in my work with people through SoulFullHeart, many parts of people use the idea of someone being their twin flame to loop in patterns of suffering, drama trauma, toxic codependence, and just overall to justify much push-pull in the relationship. By feeling that someone is your ‘twin flame’ and holding onto this very tightly, you are messaging that ONLY this person can truly see and get you. ONLY this person can truly make you happy and allow you to fulfill your soul purpose. ONLY this person can meet and match you. Yet, at the same time, when this person doesn’t show up for any of these things or maybe only some of them, they are proving that they are actually not the ONLY one and in fact NOT the one at all, yet parts of you then are in denial of this using the twin flame idea to hold on to the illusion.

The twin flame picture also focuses so exclusively on the CAPACITY of the bond and seems to ignore the ACTUAL transactability of the relationship in the very important domains of heart, body, soul and mind and also related to everyday living compatibility and just overall experience of goodness. It also focuses on needing the ‘twin’ as a mirror rather than the mirror that is offered of self BY self and through embracing your own healing and transformation ABOVE all else and ABOVE what any romantic partner can offer you, which is what feels far healthier. There is an advocacy for codependency in the twin flame idea and, also, that if it doesn’t work out immediately you are justified to wait for your twin for as long as needed until it does!

Romantic relationship, I feel, is THE most challenging ground to navigate with emotional maturity because it so triggers our deeper, unfelt subconscious wounds from childhood AND our soul karmic partners from other lifetimes. ANY mate for which there is the capacity to experience transaction in heart, soul, body, and mind domains is going to trigger and push up very strong projections from any unhealed frequencies inside of us. If parts of us are looking for the ‘ideal mate’ (usually this is connected to our heartbreaking and harmful experiences with our parents), then anything will be used to prove this point even when actual experience is not showing or offering us this.

I prefer instead to offer an invitation into sacred union grounds with a counterpart mate, which I feel is someone for which you share many other lifetime chapters and experiences as Metasoul aspects or Metasoul brother and sister expressions. I also am very open to that we have MORE than one counterpart mate and, also, to live fully into the experience as it is happening to us, as I do on a daily basis with Raphael. I write more about more experience of this with Raphael in this article: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/06/07/bridging-to-our-metasoul-aspects-through-sacred-union-within-and-with-our-counterpart-mate/.

This is how I defined counterpart mate souls and the process of connecting with different Metasoul pairings within the bond, “Counterpart souls share many timelines together with corresponding Metasoul expressions in opposite gender pairings during these lifetimes. One seems to ‘choose’ masculine expression and the other feminine. Each connection with these Metasoul pairings infuses our this life relationship with expanding frequencies of soul connection, soul purpose clarity, healing of karmic binds and patterns, and can be linked to emotional wounding expressions from this life too.”

Whether you call it Twin Flame or Counterpart Soul Mate, though, it all comes back to the relationship that you have to the relationship. How are parts of you relating to the relationship? Is there a strong projection of dad wounding and dad onto your partner? A strong projection of mom wounding and mom onto your partner? Is there a grabbing and clinging and shrinking energy from parts of you onto your partner? Is there a sense of suffering over suffering in your experience of the relationship? Are there push-pull energies between you and many phases of openings and closings?

The answers to these questions reveal where the next places are for you to go within yourself and are actually NOT about the actual transactability or even capacity of the bond at all. The focus can be SO outward, parts of you perhaps fixated and even obsessed with the partner and being on ‘their side’ so much. This happens in order for part of you to divert you from going within, to distract you from going to where the pain is ACTUALLY originating from, which is NOT from your partner but actually from INSIDE of you. ALL relationships offer a mirror in that and an invitation to go within, whatever they are labelled or felt to be. The challenge comes in actual accepting and going into the crucible INSIDE that is offered from relationship as it is much ‘easier’ to focus on the partner instead.

Our most truly nourishing sacred union partner, ultimately, is ourselves. It is the partner that will never leave us and the one for which we are most meant to BE. It can take much process to feel that way about ourselves and the aspects of us that have formed into a usually subconscious partnership inside of us. Yet, as you become conscious of the inner partnership, as it matures through differentiation and feeling of yourself, so does the richest and MOST nourishing mateship arise from INSIDE. And then can this self generated nourishment and union of self connect with OTHER in a dance of two healthy “I’s” exploring the rich ground offered to them by their USness.

We offer spaceholding sessions in SoulFullHeart to explore these inner grounds of mateship AND with couples as well, please read here about this: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Moving Out Of The Dark Night And Into The Dawning Of The Day

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By Jelelle Awen (with Archangel Metatron)

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The sunlight from the Great Cosmic Sun is emerging over the horizon. It is cresting NOW into our world here with Gaia – spreading its light across all the darkened lands, seeming to melt away with its heat all the shadows that remain. Its rays are illuminating that which has been cloaked and unseen. Light is coming in now, offering clarity on that which has seemed like such a mystery, unsolvable, unknowable, and unreachable.

The sunlight is our healing hearts, our compassion, the BEST of our humanity beaconing out AND going in. The sunlight is our healing souls, our bigness, the BEST of our divinity coming in. We, our sacred humanity, is rising as a NEW day of the soul dawns offering possibilities to each individual soul and to us ALL as a collective. We are rising as we remember our capacities of both heart and soul, how BIG we can BE and ARE that takes no power from other, yet is WITH them and comes from within.

Warmth, too, is coming back to us after so long in the cold. Warmth comes with new tenderness for ourselves and with others. Warmth comes with new, genuine kindness for ourselves and ALL aspects of ourselves AND with others. Warmth comes with new compassion for ourselves and WITH others. Warmth comes with expressions and desires for a much deeper and REALER intimacy with self and with others.

It seemed sometimes as if the Dark Night would last forever. The murkiness of being lost would define us and we might never be found. Parts of us feared that we might remain as shadow people, unable to see through the fog of our own amnesia or the veils we placed over ourselves. We worried that our battling, our urge and need to defend, would destroy us and Gaia. We wondered if we would only be defined by suffering, unable to access the joy of our Inner Child or the goodness of our worthiness or the lightness within our souls.

Yet, the Light Day is dawning. With this dawning comes the invitation for illumination of SELF, to clear the fogs and to lift the veils. The invitation is to put down our arms, our weapons, our shields, our battles, our wars, our conflicts – happening on both the inside AND the outside. To meet and greet our inner battles, to feel and heal the aspects that feel suffering and so bring more suffering into our lives. To DO and BE all of this with love and so transmute it ALL into something NEW.

The Light Day brings disclosure of that which has been hidden. That which has been packaged becomes unraveled, no longer able to sustain its false edges. That which has been hollow or superficial is invited to go deeper, to move into an expanded consciousness that the light of awareness can bring.

I feel Archangel Metatron forming these words with me (and AS me). So his divinity is shining through my humanity. I feel His hopes and desires for humanity. He longs to have more relationship WITH us, together, seen more and felt more as equals because there are NO hierarchies in the higher dimensions because ALL are ultimately One and return to Divine Source. He feels admiration for all that we have experienced in our Dark Night journey and he offers a hand to us now to pull us through, up, out, of what we have known and into a NEW world with Infinite Vistas of possibilities.

It is an EPIC phase for humanity, in this NOW of transitioning from Dark Night to Light Day. The epicness will play out in ways that may be difficult, painful, mean more temporary loss….as the old gives way for the new. So much support is BEing offered to us by angels such as Metatron, Michael, Magdalena, and many others. And by our Star BEing Metasoul aspects and Star family too, who are helping us with this transition on a cosmic level, yet also will be assisting us on a practical level too as we transition from the outdated modes of 3D lifestyle and into the higher consciousness ways of the light. And, we can find comfort and support in each other, in coming together as soul communities as an aspect of our Dark Night was feeling that we HAD to do it alone and that we were separate.

As we move, now, out of our collective Dark Night, so do we also honor the darkness and what it offers us, what it teaches us, the brinks it brings us too and the edges and the cliffs of our consciousness. We are learning that we can SURVIVE this darkness and that we are NOT it, even as it has been inside of us and needed to reign for a while. We are learning that the substance of us is LOVE and always was even when it felt like it wasn’t. We are learning that what is REAL about us is that which cannot be destroyed or claimed, yet just IS, arising and dawning as easily as the sun greets the day every morning. And so IT is and so are WE, dawning into what we were always meant to BE!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

 

 

The Capacity To BE What We Have Most Been Missing

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By Jelelle Awen

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What are the scenes of your soul’s despair? What are the scenes of your this life traumas? And what do they tell you of your Now? What do they show you that connects to your Now? What do you feel as you enter them with your heart open and ready? If you are open to looking, to feeling, to viewing, to connecting to this, it can move out of freeze frame and into liquid motion and fluidity again. It becomes unstuck, sprung back into life with all the energy it formerly occupied being freed up.

This is the time to BE this kind of self investigator, detective, inner journeyer to discover what there is to feel, see, know, remember. Avoidance hasn’t been working anyway, as the tension of it shows up in some way. Resistance cannot cover over that which persists, calling for your response. The part of you (that has been guarding and protecting over these ’emotional scenes’ because they don’t want you to feel any more pain) is getting TIRED. Their weapons are getting dull anyway. They don’t really want to fight or battle or guard anymore.

Much love is available for the going in now. It won’t be like before. You are much more able to hold it and feel it than parts of you may imagine that you are. Your human heart has such a deep and powerful capacity to feel and offer compassion to yourself. Your human heart is unlimited in its capacity to respond to whatever most needs your love inside of you.

This is what we are called to respond to that has been ‘left behind’ before or overlooked or suppressed or just not able to be addressed. We have the capacity now in our arising sacred humanity to BE what we have most been missing. To form our own bridges between what needs us most in our emotional bodies and in our soul legacies. Now is the time for this healing of self that is the manifestation of ALL our capacities. ~

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.