By Jelelle Awen
By Jelelle Awen
by Kalayna Colibri
5/11 energies feel significant today… portals opening into self-forgiveness. Higher Self connections are possible between you and those you’ve known in the past. Old relationship debris gets to clear away as you feel the tears of remorse for what’s happened in these relationships and what didn’t happen too. It’s an opportunity to own the role you’ve played while feeling the Higher Selves of others own their own roles too… ripples of deep self-forgiveness are possible in this today as well as forgiveness of others.
This is a powerful way to complete old timelines and embrace the imminent, highest timeline that is possible for you. So much movement happens when forgiveness is genuine and not simply said but felt. True gratitude can bloom from this too, as you feel these portals open and close, and feel the lessons and growth you and parts of you gathered from each and every experience.
This is beautiful to feel in words but even better to experience when parts of you are ready to let go into this space. It is a true and deep gift to be able to feel how all relationships have been connected for a reason and how you are a part of the trajectory of so many others. This is true oneness and connectedness. This is what unites us in higher, more porous dimensions for the healing of the collective inside and outside of us. This is powerful and poignant healing and ascension, a true moving on and moving up.
Being in this space with your parts if you can feel them while leaning into the space holding of higher-dimensional aspects of you is the invitation today. Experiencing this for myself and the movements inside are touching, expansive, and above all, loving to the nth degree… ❤️
Lots of love to you and WITH you!
Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, speaker, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
By Jelelle Awen
We are entering into some ‘craziness’ timelines recently of heightened polarities and clashing dualities. These craziness timelines can bring in frequencies of distrust, suspicion, manipulation, and anxiety for us to see and feel on a collective level as they play out and yet personally too in our emotional bodies and Metasoul lines. This craziness is not judged as bad or evil by the Divine, just a reflection of the shadow that LIVES in us all as a by product of this 3D experiment into separation that NEEDS to heal and be felt. The Divine Feminine especially aches for us to heal this craziness inside of ourselves and in the collective too.
One of the ways craziness manifests is when your emotional reality inside doesn’t have a place to land in your external reality. Part of you, especially the Inner Protector, then create barriers and blocks to suppress your emotional reality, to cap your reactions from flooding into your life and with others. Part of you (what we call the Inner Punisher) can then judge your emotionality and your multidimensional capacity too as ‘being crazy’ which DOES create a sense of being crazy inside you that is reinforced by 3D culture and relationships. You are then comPARTmentalized inside and as you relate with your life, where certain expressions are deemed acceptable or unacceptable depending on the environment as parts of you adjust yourself to ‘fit in’ and ‘shrink in’ with 3D frequencies.
The Mother codes that recently activated with the two Supermoons in January want you to reconcile the craziness within yourself that has been created from the suppression and compartmentalization of your vulnerable feelings, authentic truth, expansive capacities, and genuine essence. She wants to hold space for your inner reconciliation of all aspects and energies of yourself WITH love.
Reconciling comes as you sometimes need to clash and bash into this craziness within relationships with others that draw these energies out, putting them ‘in your face’ for you to respond to and digest through them. You may have noticed an increase of craziness in your relationships lately or a sudden heightening of this frequency and drawing others that project this energy on to you. There is often a lot of unconscious projection going on here, where the other person is not conscious of what you are triggering within them or who you are actually representing for them from their ‘past’ or seeing that their reactions are a mirror of themselves. You may not be aware either of the depth of projection on your side, yet, as you connect more with parts of yourself it becomes easier to feel this and source it. You can then ask parts of you what is ‘really going on’ at the deeper emotional body levels (and soul timelines as well) that are coming forward and being triggered by the other person.
As you become clearer about this as connected to parts of yourself, you can then hold space for yourself, separate from going onto and analyzing the other person’s ‘side’ of things (which is usually a diversion from feeling yourself), and feel what is real for you. You can separate the craziness frequencies inside of you that are just parts of you that want and need your love and attention. You can feel if you want the other person to be in your life or not; what is healthy for you and what is not; what serves your self love process and what takes away from it. More about parts that we connect with in our SoulFullHeart process here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
Healing the craziness polarity offers the balance of feminine frequencies of intuition, stillness, compassion, and forgiveness WITH masculine frequencies to take action, advocate, and set healthy boundaries. This is a HUGE healing that is necessary on a collective level as feminine and masculine have so long been ‘against’ each other rather than in dance with each other. This ‘against’ on the inside is another source of craziness.
This sacred union process begins from within and is sourced from the inner polarities healing between one part of you to another as you become more conscious of this. Your inner masculine drops the judgements, the guardedness, the defensiveness as it becomes more compassionate action, clear boundary setting, and wise guidance. Your inner feminine can then lean into this masculine without being diminished or suppressed in any way.
The beautiful dance of healing polarity from within offers unification and goodness…a lived in sense of wholeness and your BEing expression of Infinite Love in sacred human form coming into more and more balance!
Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life and offers space holding sessions with women. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
By Jelelle Awen
Anxiety and distrust rumble in the belly, in the third chakra, in the solar plexus of the physical, and the gut of the emotional body too. They can burn and churn there, feeling like a constant tension that rarely eases or loosens its grip. Or anxiety flares up when love comes in and floods the usually well guarded places….when love ‘sneaks in’ beyond the Protector and the risk of getting hurt increases greatly. Anxiety can just BE so consistent inside of you, your emotional body, your chakras, that you don’t really feel it anymore or are conscious of it anymore. It just becomes like a background noise that you hardly ever notice.
Current ascension energies of light, of love, of illumination, of surrender are pushing up these frequencies of distrust and anxiety to the surface to be felt and healed and moved. These energies are making you notice also as they rumble through the old timelines of your life and start shifting you into the New. You may be experiencing a fresh flow of this and wondering, “Where is this tension coming from? Where is this anxiety coming from?” These Divine energies (especially from the Divine Feminine) support the asking of these questions and the answering of them too.
The answering can come from going within, to feel the sources of anxiety within your Inner Protector, who may be maintaining a near constant vigilance ‘against’ life bringing other parts of you any more hurt or harm. In this anxiety-fueled protection though, love can also be filtered out and the healthy digestion of the Divine’s love that wants to come into your BEing and water all parts of you too (including the Protector!). Here is a guided meditation to connect with your Inner Protector:https://youtu.be/7ciJIvrn0xA…
Your Inner Protector also may be keyed into and connected to persecution frequencies in your Metasoul field that are playing out in other timelines. These are not ‘past lives’ at all but energizing in the Now. These timelines can create a constant tension in your energetic field (again often centered in the third chakra) as an energetic bleed through moves through of the battles, the persecutions, the betrayals, the violence….whatever storylines your Metasoul (Higher Self Soul Source) is playing out and involved with. We call this aspect of the Protector that remembers and knows about your other timeline aspects, the Gatekeeper. More about this part here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeeper
It can be challenging to connect with anxiety because the vibration of it often can’t settle down enough inside of you to receive love and connection. Situations and relationships in your life may push up MORE anxiety (in ongoing suffering/anxiety producing loops) and the whole ‘system’ repeats itself over and over. To connect with anxiety is to extend BIG self love to the energy of it, to feel the part of you that holds it and why, to become BIGGER than the anxiety and distrust. You become then a bridge for Divine frequencies to flood in, bringing more trust , surrender, and love to all the tense places.
I can feel anxiety quite easily in others and acutely, due to many years of healing mine through parts work integration and Metasoul aspect unification. I can feel the vibration of it in others, it is a distinctive tone….because I have felt it in myself. The first part of myself I connected to that had acute anxiety described herself as “Being as tense as a long-tailed cat in a room full of rocking chairs.” THAT described perfectly the extreme tension that lived and breathed in this part of me that had ingested so many volatile frequencies during my childhood that often led to harm and abuse. Through feeling her and many other parts that held anxiety (also Metasoul aspects that live in highly stressful and dangerous timelines), I have been able to relax so much more into trust and surrender to the outcomes of life and trust that Divine love was holding it all.
It’s feeling like the current energies (which seem to have a Dark Mother or catalytic death-rebirth vibration to them) are illuminating what the sources of anxiety are in your life and inviting you to let them go. I have discovered that the biggest source of distrust comes up within relationships of all kinds. Our original hurt and wounding happened in relationship and anxiety stems mainly from the fear that hurt will happen again and the distrust in any sources of love with the projection that they will hurt you again.
The timelines formed around relationships, especially those you are consciously unhappy about, are being rumbled with love so that they will collapse and you can move into the new….with the relationship intact or not. THIS can certainly push up anxiety too as it can be challenging for parts of us to trust that letting go of something will actually lead to something good and different.
The Divine Mother can hold beautiful, still space for anxiety to finally rest inside of you and Her energies are strongly here and have been since the start of the year especially. Calling on a connection with Her brings a soothing balm. Anxiety just needs love ultimately to allow for more trust and surrender for the ongoing navigation of all this shifting, changing, and growing into MORE love.
Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!
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By Jelelle Awen
Timelines merging, veil is SO thin, and what has been called ‘past lives’ is NOT past, yet these energies are in the now. There is so much bleed through of other lifetimes that then triggers our emotional body reactivity and ‘hidden’ woundings. It creates a ricochet effect that can be confusing and intense. These eras and legacies and civilizations (Atlantis, Lemuria, Avalon, etc.) are energizing and ALIVE in the now. The mind (and part of you) might want to make them the ‘past’ so that they don’t have as much impact and influence as they actually seem to on your experience of reality and your emotional reactivity and outward manifestation.
Our definition of what is ‘real’ and ‘reality’ is being hugely altered, shifted, and turning upside down from what 3D has said and taught that it is. Our hearts ‘get’ it as they are not linear and they feel every moment as the now….they get stuck sometimes in a moment or scene and need us to help them move beyond it again, to become fluid again…to free up the flow of love, compassion, gratitude, and goodness. Our hearts are what is needed in this now, with so much crazy making (this is a TRUE mind fu*k! reality) realigning of our realities.
Energies of Atlantis are coming in and offering us a storyline to go down that comes alive with our openness to feel and heal it with the aspects of us that are living it out. The ‘fall of Atlantis’ is a wound in our personal and collective consciousness. We are experiencing this in deeply personal ways in our processes in SoulFullHeart, and Raphael and I too in our relationship. There is the Raphael-Jelelle timeline of usness experience and there is the others, the counterpart matings and pair bondings that span planets, species, and timelines. The Atlantis ones seems to be the most intense with themes of sovereignty, separation, power struggles, matriarchy vs. patriarchy playing out. Sorting through what is what through the terrain of the heart with the higher mind helping too (yes, I believe there is a higher vibrational frequency of thought and that the mind is not bad, just can vibrate at different levels of consciousness). This can be a tricky process with self love and compassion AND for other needed to hold the space.
This can feel like a ‘soup’ to navigate yet the process of parts work and metasoul aspects helps in such a huge way. It provides a life line and a heart line too….and a soul line too actually. It is the way we live our lives and what we offer others too, and how we led yesterday during an all day group session with some very touching and important and DEEP process happening for all that were there!
Be open right now to what has previously been labeled as ‘impossible.’ Be open to letting in energies of what you may have felt were not ‘relevant’ or ‘in the past’. Open your heart to all the aspects that need you…..even if (and especially if) they exist in another timeline. As you are open to this and curious, you become more able to ride the waves, experience the gift of them, and integrate it ALL into your wholeness expression.
Read more about parts work process and metasoul aspects here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
By Jelelle Awen
HIGH frequencies of light and love are coming in right now, offering an increasingly visceral and real sense of your highest timeline expression of your soul through your humanity. The NEW timelines don’t just happen to you though. They don’t just appear suddenly AS your life. It is the choosing consciously, the energizing consciously, the healing consciously, which creates the NEW. It is sitting in the Now and accepting it with gratitude as it IS. It is accepting WHILE desiring the NEW to unfold. You can feel both inside of you because that is where they live until they manifest as your outer reality.
As parts of you have settled for the current situations, present circumstances, life as you’ve known it so far….as this happens, so this is your choice. You ‘fuse’ to these parts of you and their emotional realities (usually subconscious) and so you ARE them. Even as your awakening self, your authentic self, longs and desires for MORE and for NEW. Other parts of you may suffer over what you want and what is not yet. Or feel at times hopeless or powerless or that the NEW is impossible. Or judge that what you want is not acceptable or that you are not worthy to have it. Or shut down possibilities with concerns, anxieties, and fears over being hurt or hurting others with your choices. So this creates a ‘push pull’ inside of you and very mixed feelings around the NEW and actually pushes away or stalls it from unfolding. And, this may even be happening at a mostly unconscious level for which you aren’t even aware of it.
These parts of you have been conditioned by a 3D world that operates on limiting, controlling, finite, and stuck energies. The prevailing worldview (esp. In Western cultures) is toward the external and the ‘out there’ thinking, orientation, and focus. It pivots self worth off of material gains, attainments, academic and mental achievements. It operates on constant distraction and numbing of feelings. Relationships are hot beds of codependence, clinging and binding, distancing and pushing away, shrinking and settling. All of these frequencies are sponged into you as you adapted and conformed to the environment you were surrounded by and raised in.
You may have mostly left this 3D conditioning and world behind in significant ways yet, inside, it has not ‘left’ the parts of you that been so deeply ingrained and impacted by it. You can see and feel how it shows up in your life when you look at it from a certain way and through the lens of not just a singular “I” or you at the center of your life, but rather many aspects and parts of you influencing and expressing in many different ways in your life. There is more about parts and subpersonalities (formed ‘this life’ and also soul aspects) that we work with in our SoulFullHeart process through sessions and within community here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
Even as YOU awaken, you remember more and more the soul reason and purpose you are here, and choose more based on this…..so do parts of you live inside that are still in 3D reality, 3D conditioning, existing and freeze frame stuck in a 3D vibrating emotional body. These aspects act as anchors to your ascension and your soul awakening. They draw situations and looping patterns within relationships from your ‘trailing edge’ of wounding. To the degree these parts remain in shadow and suppressed or undifferentiated, then so do their frequencies draw more of the same.
This is possibly why even those who are very into the law of attraction, thinking positively with intensity, are still drawing circumstances that aren’t what they most want and desire. They have a conscious self which wants to draw the new reality by thinking about it, yet that isn’t actually only what draws the NEW but rather the emotional body and the state of its health too. So you can ‘change your thoughts’ and yet at the deeper level of the emotional body, nothing has actually changed or shifted. So, you will you continue to draw what you most need to see and feel related to your own healing and growth. This is not ‘life’ or the ‘Universe’ acting against you when It doesn’t bring you what you want, but rather it bringing EXACTLY what you most need to heal and parts of you choosing not to look at that or go into it.
Even as you awaken and choose more from your soul self, there are still areas of your life which reflect the trailing edge or wounded frequencies. This may be in your relationships, with a partner that doesn’t ‘get you’ or isn’t awakening with you or where hot romance has been replaced by friendly brother-sister energies. Or it may be in your birth family and friend relationships, with them reflecting judgement at your soul choices and how you are changing, or them feeling abandoned by you or ‘left behind’. This may be in your career or job, your means for earning livelihood that isn’t connected to your higher purpose serving love here yet, and parts of you consciously suffer in this job. Or you ARE offering your healing service with others, but it is not enough to provide you with what you need and want and you are compromising in some other way, such as living with birth family, returning ‘home’ after you have left a 3D based livelihood.This may be in having physical illnesses and diseases and injuries that don’t seem to resolve even with holistic and alternative means of therapies.
BEing with, feeling, and connecting with these parts of you with MUCH love and curiosity moves their stuck energies into the NEW. Your awakening self forms a bridge to these aspects, bringing them higher frequencies of love to help them move out of 3D and into the Now. They integrate into your awakening self eventually; their energies merging in with yours. Your love of self grows exponentially as these previously suppressed and hidden aspects of you receive the goodness of your love. Your Inner Protector and Soul Guardian can then ‘release’ the floodgates of love to flow into ALL areas of your life, which then attracts soul family, soul mates, soul purpose-based livelihood, vibrant health, and whatever else is the expression of your NEW.
The ultimate surrender sometimes is to feel that what you are drawing in this now IS your highest timeline as it is the one that you most NEED for your own growth in the moment. EVEN AS the Universe and the Divine holds what is your most authentic and highest expression. Your higher self embodies this too, who you BEcome more and more as you separate from the 3D aspects that lower your vibrational frequency.
We are being invited into our highest timelines and manifestation of our highest purposes here to serve love. We are being offered HIGH frequencies of light and PURE love to serve this movement, this ramping UP, into the expression of our highest self in human form, our sacred human. We are receiving much support and guidance from higher dimensional BEings and our Metasoul aspects in many galactic forms, whatever forms that we most want and need and are ready to let in. In our willingness and openness to GO IN and BE with these aspects of ourselves do we BEcome what we ARE already, an expression of Infinite Love in sacred human form.
Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .
Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
By Jelelle Awen
Shifting realities, shifting timelines….sometimes in the same afternoon and even, same hour! Shifting in the clouds too, the ocean, the sun…..today I was at the beach with Gabriel Heartman and we drifted into a zone together of theta waves and no mind, yet not quite asleep. When we first got to the beach, there were quite dense clouds in the sky and when we ‘woke’ up it was clear and bright with very wispy clouds only. I don’t know how much ‘time’ passed but it could not have been long. And the water was glistening, shining, crystalline when we ‘woke up’…my sense (beyond what the mind could ‘know) is that we collapsed a timeline and went into another one. The weather patterns helped us track it but it feels like this is happening ALL the time and more and more as the photonic waves come rolling in and the solar winds too.
So many things like this are happening too during dream states which feel more like astrally ‘working things out’…..clearing karma from other lifetimes AND, I got the sense the other day, actual cellular memory of EVER movie, tv show, song, etc. that we have taken in coming up during sleep to be released. The energy of all these things we have taken in is stored in our cells and has to clear out. I have watched, listened to, taken in A LOT of intense things in my past, so even though I no longer do and am very careful about the energetic frequencies of what I take in….so many years of denser frequencies now needs to come out. You might find this too and probably why we’ve been guided to be very sensitive to websites, tv shows (haven’t watched any in a long time), movies (only porous or good energy), music (solfeggios and meditation music mostly, high frequency)….THIS does feel important as we already have so much clear out, why add more to it?
There is some powerful energy waves available ‘out there’, yet I’m not feeling to subscribe to the sense some others have shared that things are going ‘crazy’ and that many spiritual people, lightworkers, etc. are having a difficult time or falling under the influence of negative entities, lowering their vibrations, etc. I guess I just don’t follow that timeline anymore. I feel SO MUCH love in all this activity….venus in retrograde, solar winds, equinox coming soon….these are shiftings which offer MORE love as support to hold and feel what needs to be felt. Responded to with love (and not anxiety or fear or judgement) does so much to help in the acclimation to it. Sort of like…if you THINK all of these things ‘out there’ will cause you extreme difficulties emotionally, spiritually, and physically then they WILL.
There is much to feel that is in shadow, stored in the 3D pain body, has been numbed out, for many people and within the collective consciousness and unconsciousness. Yet, held with love, at a rate and pace that you can bear, woven with goodness moments and gratitude, it can be navigated with grace, even if you need to ‘hold space’ for difficult things that come up. The willingness and practice to go within, to create a safe and self loving space to feel, will help HUGELY with this process of feeling and healing.
We can serve that process with you too, if you feel that you need and want that. We hold space in SoulFullHeart for the process of feeling and healing the parts of you (both 3D pain body from this life and also soul aspects from other lifetimes) that have pain, fear, suffering, anxiety, depression with love along with serving you to connect with your higher self, angelic and star being guides and aspects…more to read about that atsoulfullheartwayoflife.com.
I just took you into my timeline with me with this writing. Sometimes I wonder how I can even write one word after another when I am not in linear reality. Wish I could go on a ‘wonder walk’ with you, as I call it, where 5D (and probably beyond) consciousness is the lens for which we wonder experience everything we see and feel. Not to bypass feeling but to serve and fill the container that holds the reactions and feelings. You can take yourself on wonder walks though by being in the moment, slowing down, letting your inner child lead, letting your star BEing aspects come in ‘visit’, letting angelic frequencies soar inside, letting time not exist.
Also, what is happening ‘outside’ and ‘in the cosmos’ offers a wonder walk too. It invites a wonder walk on the inside mostly and THEN this shifts and changes what you experience on the outside as the lens is of wonder and infinite possibilities. The shifts in the cosmos are then taken in from this wonder lens too. The timeline of wonder is a WONDERFULL one…I highly recommend it.
Do you see the wonder in this photo that I took of the sky? There is a man, a figure that feels angelic without the wings, in the lower right hand corner where the two orbs are actually. Like the orbs are coming from heart chakra! WonderFULL! AND there is so much more too, whatever you want to see, wish to see, need to see, and are open to see. And in the shape of the sun, which looks like sacred geometry as the rays come through the portal….
Love to you, love to us ALL….we have so much goodness possibilities available in every moment. Believe it and so it IS!
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc