I am a long-time healer, teacher, student, and facilitator of souls and hearts. My awakening journey really began in my early 30's in 2004 when I started a process to connect with and integrate parts of myself from this life and other lifetimes/timelines as well. I have been engaged with and offering 'parts process' work ever since then! I also awakened over the years to my multidimensional spiritual gifts, capacity to be a bridge to the Divine Feminine especially, galactic ambassador abilities, and intuitive empathic capacities to 'feel' the emotional body, energy chakras, and soul field.
I offer 1:1 sessions with women, group facilitation and teaching experience with me through a monthly group transmission over Zoom with Raphael. More information about virtual and in person sessions and groups with me at divineselfembodiment.com
I am also a writer, Soul Scribe and author of five books: Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out; Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension; Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality; And Keep Waking Up!: Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond. All are available now as PDF, ebook, and print editions at divineselfembodiment.com/books. My writings can be found on divineselfembodiment.com and my facebook and IG feeds.
This hum moving through…it’s yours, yes, AND it’s mine now too. You gifted it to me with your kingness coming into my bodily castle and easing into the throne next to and within mine.
It’s the vibration of US, tenderly toned together with life, with love, with fears, with tears. Was that yesterday that I felt such sorrow and you were there then too….just as present in the pleasure as the struggle.
This signature of our voices rising…….coming together in languages from other lifetimes, dialects of heart, spoken by our tongues, yet felt most deeply by our souls, and beyond words too.
The paradises and struggles, both, of other lifetimes move into this now with us. They snuggle into this bed and offer us both loss and gain, bliss and pain.
These other lifetime aspects play us the scenes of those previously forgotten experiences so we can now remember what we have been and ARE together and all that we might yet become.
How deep we go! How much we share and have shared together! How much more we have to experience! The Infinite Possibilities of this Infinite Love speak of ALL these truths in our common moments.
This is NOT just ours, it is not something that can be owned. It desires to be shared, so that others too can awaken to the siren song of sacred union within that draws to them THEIR frequency of heart, soul, body, and mind mate….adding their unique tones together to the Hum of Universal Oneness.
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For my BEloved counterpart soul mate Raphael Awen…..it makes part of him a bit shy when I write and share in afterglow but, also, I believe he LOVES it too and what better inspiration is there?! Β This photo of Raphael and I reminds me of our Lemurian Metasoul aspects and their life together, which is coming through in the now…Rae-Na and Rae-Nor, beautiful energy, beautiful union, much to teach us….more about connecting with Metasoul aspects with your counterpart soul mate here:Β https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/06/07/bridging-to-our-metasoul-aspects-through-sacred-union-within-and-with-our-counterpart-mate/
Sometimes I share about current energies and it is a download from my higher self/angelic aspects/Divine Source that describes more of a collective experience. I am more like a NOW caster, sharing what MAY be happening for many souls on the ascension and awakening path at the emotional body, soul, and physical levels. With these messages, it is not always personally happening for me as I may have cleared those aspects in my Metasoul field already or healed it in my emotional body. It’s not that I am ‘done’ with healing, it’s just that I am in a different phase perhaps having been on this path for awhile and starting ‘ahead of the curve’ in some cases, signing up to be an early adopter.
Yet, THIS phase of where the energy seems to be bringing many of us, I AM also strongly feeling and experiencing myself. I spent yesterday in space holding for myself and some healing and BEing with one of my core wounds that I haven’t felt triggered in awhile yet life set up the perfect storm of situations for it to come up. I didn’t come to our group call yesterday to BE with me and the Metasoul aspect that seemed most connected to this wounding, Mareeka, who is an Atlantian aspect. Her Atlantis timeline and my current one are bleeding through to each other in ways that I have not experienced before (another aspect of what these energies are offering us.) So, the core wounding for me in my emotional body AND as a Metasoul theme for me is around ‘rejected daugher’ or ‘unloved daughter’ for which my soul gave me plenty of opportunities to feel this life…I have been ‘working’ this one for many years in many layers and ways and I was grateful to be able to move another piece of it yesterday.
Through my personal experience and what I’m witnessing in others, I feel THIS is a phase of going into these wounds in a more ‘real’ way than many souls may have before. I offer in the video below about how these high frequencies of photonic light, intense cosmic activities, and PURE love waves are pushing up woundings in our emotional bodies and Metasouls to be felt, healed, and LOVED and how to BE with all this through parts work.
This process is continuing and seems to be accelerating. MUCHO accelerating. CORE wounds are different than energy tones and that we might identify as emotional reactions or emotional moods. I believe they exist in our emotional bodies and our individual, personal Metasouls yet, also, in the collective emotional body and Metasouls.
CORE wounds run DEEP…..very deep. In my experience, they cannot really be made into a part or subpersonality as we do with other frequencies such as depression, rage, anxiety, control, etc. They are visceral, without language, they ooze OUT and WITH the frequencies for which they have been formed. They are beyond the mind, cannot be talk therapied or hypnotized or cleared through energy sessions (although these things can help.) The main way to heal them seems to be the continual connection to the outer and downstream expression of them, which is the persona aspects such as the Inner Child, Inner Protector, Inner Punisher, Inner Teenager, 3D Self, Inner Matriarch/Patriarch, etc.
It is connecting with these persona aspects and getting separation between them and YOU (your soul self, authentic self, higher self coming into body) through verbal dialogue, written journaling, creative visualization that then clears enough ‘out of the way’ for the CORE wounding to come up. This is the process SoulFullHeart facilitators bridge to you during sessions and the ‘work’ you do on your own as differentiation only happens INside you and not through others, although a guide through this murky and sometimes difficult terrain, who is going through it themselves, can be critical.
As this separation happens from these persona aspects…..THEN you can begin to feel the CORE wounds that lie beneath. Deep pools of oozing CORE unworthiness, disconnect, abandonment. These words don’t really suffice as descriptions, yet they are the closest that we have. When these CORE wounds finally come up after much self love holding space AND differentiation/negotiation with the persona parts, there isn’t much that can be DONE but to feel and BE with it. There may be stories and scenes associated with these CORE wounds coming up but, often, there is not. There may be connections to this life, childhood experiences with birth family and especially parents, but this often the surface stuff.
The deep dive into this CORE wounding is what we seem to be supported to GO INTO with these high frequencies of loving light. With a more palatable sense of our ethereal guides/aspects, we are able to feel more safety to go there then we have before. It was easier to be distracted before by the ‘surface stuff’ of reactions and triggers and projections. Still, many souls are being distracted by these things and NOT going deeper to feel how this lives inside of their emotional bodies. Yet, for those who are open to going within, THIS seems to be the time and phase to do so and there are MANY rewards for doing so, the biggest one being the OPENING of your upper heart to receive and give love with self and others.
I feel that these CORE wounds can be bypassed and often ARE by many, even those who are teachers and WAYshowers. And, that’s ok, in a way, because there is still service of love coming through the parts of them that are ‘in charge’ of the BEing and aren’t ready or wanting to go there yet. I’m just here to bring and offer a bridge through SoulFullHeart to these deeper spaces and especially to and with those souls that FEEL there are woundings in them that they want to FINALLY feel and heal in their emotional bodies and Metasouls and want to offer this healing to others too. Β The feeling is usually that a ‘ceiling’ of some kind has been reached on awakening and especially related to the emotional body.
ALL this talk of CORE wounds does not mean that we are broken or need fixing. We HAVE wounds, yet we are NOT actually our woundings. It can SEEM that way when they remain hidden away, yet exist as an underground operating energy in so many areas of life, impacting so many areas of our lives. Our Infinite Love essence can illuminate and hold these woundings and invite them to integrate and into the light of Love that we ARE!
Many worlds you live in and walk in and BE in. Many versions of you show up for each of these worlds. There are the masks to slip on and wear as needed….each ‘world’ requiring something different in energy, tone, response. You ‘put it on’, you wear it even as it wearies you more and more to be worn like this. You are like a quick change artist, perhaps shifting without consciousness into new OUTfits many times a day.
All these different worlds leave you stretching over the gaps between who you really ARE and what they EXPECT you to be. The formfitting happens from parts of you that know so well how to do this and have become experts at conforming in this way. Part of you has become a camouflage creature, able to become just like ANY environment that you are in. You can become the color of the social scenery around you, blend right in. This was the order of the day to survive; this is 3D life that requires a heightened sense of self preservation that is about NOT being yourself, yet about being like EVERYONE else.
You start to wake up from your sleep walk. You start to SEE through each of these worlds. You visit the sets and stages. You begin to recognize the props and costumes that you are required to wear. You feel where continual suffering is the badge of entry in and the energy needed to remain. You see the others that were once close to you start to fade from your interest as they stay invested in these worlds and you begin to pull out. They may grab at you and you may go back, in a push-pull and mixed feelings conflictual dance with many things learned on both sides.
Sometimes, you feel like a ghost walking once familiar and comforting hallways that can no longer provide you a place to BE in solid form. Sometimes, you feel like a bull dozer, purposely collapsing these worlds and your place in them….clearing the way for the NEW. Sometimes you are a phoenix…rising from the ashes of all this fiery wreckage to BE reborn without constraints or limits. Sometimes you are a little child, just sobbing in the corner as you wait for a parent to take your hand and show you the way home.
There are no straight lines to follow or linear directional paths to navigate this shifting and sorting out of your worlds. Increasing LOVE for yourself and with others and with the Divine provides heartlines that you can use to navigate in the lost moments. The heartlines disappear at times too, as they are meant to as these are the moments where you inner strength truly grows.
You are free falling into the abyss of lost self identity as the roles fall away, along with the attachments and the rules and expectations too. Yet you begin to trust more and more that you will land on the soft soil of your own soul’s kNOWing and into the arms of the Divine. You begin to find your home. You more often return to love as THIS is the world that offers the most nourishment. And, you start to remember how always will you return, eventually, to the love that you actually ARE!
Note: You can see the crop circle here:Β http://www.cropcircleconnector.com/2017/cleyhill/cleyhill2017a.html
βWe are ascending through a collective experience of disclosure that grows from within.β I was offered THAT during meditation recently by my guides. I was in a pretty high UP place energetically in which it becomes difficult to mentally track what I am experiencing and being offered. It becomes challenging to even remember much of what Iβve experienced and, very often, I pass out/crash nap as some kind of βrewiringβ is going on to really let it in beyond my conscious mind. ALL of this makes it challenging to write about and share what comes through, so Iβm going to ask for help from my guides to help me out here and clear through the fog.
I started this meditation/journey by focusing on and letting in the latest crop circle that appeared in England sometime during the night of July 17, 2017 to be discovered on July 18th. Of course, this date βpingsβ for us as it offers a sense of portal or gatewayβ¦..7/17/17β¦.THAT is a lot of seven energy. Rather than go google what that means, I felt to check in with my guides about the crop circle, the message it offers us, and the significance of the date when it was offered to us.
I felt myself swirling around in the various sacred geometric shapes offered in the crop circle and I really FELT them and let them into my heart rather than tried to mentally understand them. I had a wood cutting of the flower of life figure on my third eye with an amethyst to help with this experience and a metatronβs cube cut out on my heart chakra with a rose quartz on top of it. I like the physicality of these shapes on my body and feel them much more this way in combination with the energy of the crystals. I havenβt βreadβ anywhere to do this, itβs just what has felt natural and good. Whatever works and doesnβt harm anyone is my sense about these things. NO real RULES in meditation or when connecting with guides and higher self guidance.
The pyramids in the crop circle felt like alchemy, change, death and rebirthβ¦..forces of change peaking UP and coming through. They also felt like gateways that can be βactivatedβ from within and of course represent the going UPward of our consciousness as what happens during ascension. The merkaba is the spirit light body, the vehicle to multidimensional travel and such a well-known symbol of the ascension process. When I felt the one in the crop circle, it was a collective merkaba, one that is available and possible for ALL of humanity.
The collective merkaba offers the sense of our multi-dimensional essence and aspects, including Star BEing and angelic aspects/guides. The message came in strong then (fortified by the flower of life) that ascension is for ALL of humanity. Not just a select few choosing a higher timeline reality. Not just for those polarized toward love and light. It didnβt seem to mean that we NEED all of humanity in order to live New Earth in the Now as that is each of our individual choices toward love and not fear. Yet, the invitation seemed to be to remember that we are ALL ONE, so even when it feels like we are going a different way from so many souls in mainstream consciousnessβ¦..on another, higher level, we COULD all go together, we are ALL invited to come along, and we ARE all ascending if even one of us is.
The symbols that look like eights actually turned into the infinity symbolβ¦.elongated and stretched out, seeming to offer an invitation into our Infinite Love and Infinite Awareness sacred human essence. The infinity shapes (six of them) are side by side with six circles. This felt like a representation of the Infinite Circle of Life that lives in each of us and for which we are connected and sourced from. Along with the infinite possibilities available to us ALLβ¦.again, the energy was of a collective invitation to experience this sense of the Infinite inside of each of us as the Source of our existences.
And then, Metatron says, βThereβs my cube!β or a modified version of it anyway and seemed proud of this and surprised. I asked him then who offered this crop circle to us and he replied, βSome friends. And friends of friends,β and then winked at me. I got the sense that the gift and message of this circle was not just from benevolent Star BEings/ETs who are waiting for us to BE more ready as a collective to begin the disclosure and connection processβ¦.yet, also, humans who are in the βknowβ with the star BEings and working with them toward this end. Iβve heard this called by David Wilcock as The Alliance, so it could be that.
The sense of humans and star BEings βworking togetherβ was a sweet one. Metatron shrugged a bit at the awe these crop circles produce as, in another way, itβs fairly βsimpleβ technology from a Star BEing perspective that creates them. Like that movie, The Gods Must Be Crazy, where the natives go crazy in awe over a coke bottle since theyβve never seen one, so we humans βgo crazyβ when presented with something in our 3D reality that is NOT explainable by current science or the prevailing worldview of five sense reality filtering. At the core of us lives the indefinable mystery for which we are made and long to return and a deep sense of curiosity gets triggered by βunexplainableβ things like crop circles.
I LIKE that we can be awed though and I felt how much LOVE was in the offering of this crop circle too. The use of such obvious sacred geometry is like a bill board loudly announcing that the process of disclosure of Star Being reality is accelerating and collective ascension is continuing to be underway in the NOW. The main energies I felt were hope, Infinite Possibilities, and a deep, abiding love for humanity spiced with an acute eagerness to begin the collective collaboration process that WILL change our lives for the better and for all of the galaxies too!
I feel that this crop circle is also an invitation for each of us to meditate on it and hear, feel, see the message from it that we are meant to receive. It could be deeply personal for you in this phase of your ascension or it could be more a collective message or vision, as I received. No messages are βrightβ or βwrongβ. The main sense is to trust that whatever comes is what you are meant to receive from your higher self and multidimensional aspects as you feel into ascension through the collective experience as it continues to bloom and grow from within.
Feeling raw in the moment…thought I would write when I am raw rather than when I am ‘clear’ and see what comes through. The rawness is the after effects of a deep emotional body movement yesterday. The rawness is how it feels after a purging that comes from so DEEP within that you wonder how could ALL THIS have possibly existed inside of me somewhere? It has been truly fascinating to me over the years HOW MUCH can actually be IN us, stuck in us, stored in us, and how deep and vast the emotional body and our subconscious actually ARE.
STRONG tears came through for me and I sent a lifeline request out to one of my most precious Metasoul sisters/guides to hold space with me for it. Her love, combined with my embodying higher self’s love, held the space while the pain moved through. When such strong tears come through….those body wrenching sobs, it is like when we throw up. It feels uncomfortable, uncontrollable, and we just want it ‘to be over’. We just want to be ‘on the other side’ and the mind is trying desperately to make sense of it all even as it COMPLETELY transcends the mind (as it is meant to.) We can’t contextual it, it doesn’t matter what the ‘energies in the cosmos’ are doing or not doing or what astrological sign we are moving through. The TRUTH is only in the tears and what is coming through and, in these moments, we are completely present to ourselves and this is the gift of them.
Life brought me recently the perfect situation and trigger to push this oil up, this residue of wounding from a chosen legacy of rejection by older women (starting with my birth mother) who don’t ‘see’ and also resist the LOVE that I am offering them and serving to them. This came to a head yesterday for me as I am bridging what is manifesting of my gift expressions in the virtual to the physical now. I could just be a teacher/waySHOWer, writer, facilitator remotely and virtually (so many are and this is good service)….yet I’ve known and felt for a long time that I am here to co-lead a commUNITY, to be IN relationship with many BEloveds, and to feel the specific love energy that we call SoulFullHeart to spread to many others. This invites others into my world and I am called to bridge where I am at in consciousness (which seems to be mostly anchored in 5D since the first of the year) with others. To allow the fluidity of our hearts and vulnerability to LEAD in every moment is the new paradigm leadership. I’m only qualified to lead in this New Earth energy to the degree I am willing to be vulnerable and transparent about what I am feeling.
I INVITE triggers into my life and emotional purges like this too. I WANT to feel ALL that there is to feel inside of myself. I haven’t had a big movement like this in several months as the goodness and flow of service has been my primary experience with seemingly not as much to feel on the emotional body level (after MANY years of focusing on this ground inside myself.) I felt something so GOOD about the movement and I’m sharing today because maybe it will inspire you to make SPACE for these movements in your life too. To work whatever triggers or emotional reactions life gives you and GO IN to feel whatever there is to feel with the parts of you that need that.
Our 3D culture is all about drugging and numbing these movements and our emotions. Tears are hidden and covered over. Being vulnerable is NOT acceptable and we are felt to be ‘weak’ if we are. Even in spirituality, there can be a push to bypass the ‘negative’ or darker emotions in favor of ONLY love and light and positive all the time. The problem with this is that we didn’t actually EXPERIENCE as humans here just light and love so how can approaching our own healing that way possibly heal what lives inside of us? Being open to ALL of it with love to hold it is the way I have found brings the most transformation, healing, openings, and death-rebirth DEEP transmutation. There are no rainbows without rain is the metaphor that comes to me in the moment.
I DO feel that a very important aspect of New Earth/5D reality is the complete embracement and healing of our emotional bodies, and the energies coming in seem to be supporting this exploration in a big way. We could see it as the ‘next frontier’ to our evolutionary path as moving into our sacred humanity. And this frontier is SO natural to us that once we stop resisting it, we receive the bountiful gifts that our emotionality has to offer us….and feel the beacon it is to ourselves and the entire Universe as well.
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Join us on saturday for a group call with me and Raphael Awen offering teachings about bridging to your emotional body and your spirituality and a guided meditation to connect with your emotional body (plus individual sharings): https://www.facebook.com/events/271320303342295
These HIGH energies are moving us through so many places in such a quicker pace than we have ever known or felt before. Timelines and REALities are collapsing AS the new is coming into manifestation. This overlapping is happening more and more with what is collapsing not even consciously known sometimes before it starts to shift and change.
Perhaps just as you are feeling there is something to let go of here, you are beginning to feel the rumbles, you are preparing to mourn……then, the NEW is already coming in and starting to manifest in your life. There used to be more gap in this process of death and rebirth, it seems…more ‘time’ for the process of it all. NOW, this gap is seeming to be greatly narrowed where in some cases JUST as you realize that you need to change something, the NEW is coming in to take its place. Just as you are feeling a need to shift and change something, the opportunities and possibilities are coming in through synchs and connections leading to quicker implementation of choice points. I am seeing and feeling this happen in my own life and in the lives of others in our SoulFullHeart community.
The inner negotiation around ALL this becomes so important. To bridge all this change (even as it is into the good, for your good, and for your growth) with the parts of you that (of course!) are feeling resistant, afraid, tense, and anxious about the transition. The Inner Protector especially is ‘charged’ with making sure you don’t experience harm and to warn you of any ‘threats’ coming. The NEW can feel like a threat to the protective part of you, even if YOU deeply want it. You showing up to negotiate with your Inner Protector can allow for more fluid of a transition and processing of the previously harmful experiences that occurred in the past. The protector can then rest more and allow the NEW to come in at a rate and pace that YOU want and then you able to let in the goodness that is coming to you in a deeper way too. More about the Inner Protector and a guided meditation to connect with this aspect of yourself here: https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc
The NEW can bring up previous trauma experiences stored at the cellular level, to BE with as the water of love that washes out the ‘oil’ of what has been stored in your emotional body. As the cells UPgrade to crystalline they release the toxicities and lower frequencies absorbed through 3D experience AND in the Metasoul line too. This can be A LOT of stored toxicity and it doesn’t seem to make much difference how physically healthy your body is related to how much has to come up…..although being physically vital can help. As you move into the NEW from the OLD at a more rapid pace (as what seems to be happening right now), your cells can vibrate faster and it’s like a wet towel that you whip around in a circle…….the faster you go in your circular motion, the more water flings off. The more love in the form of NEW coming into your world and at a faster rate, the more is released that needs to be.
The Divine is offering SO MUCH trust and support in our capacity to handle this accelerated rate of death and rebirth and this increased cycle of cellular release of toxicity. As so many of us are being fast-tracked right now in this ascension process to lead the way, we can lean into the Divine to surrender the outcomes and preconceived ideas parts of us might have of what the NEW might look like, even as we hold our desires and wants with tenderness and care!
Leaning into the Divine in whatever forms work for you can bring so much ease and grace and trust in the overall process and the increasingly rate and pace of it. Trusting the feeling how, indeed, ‘we are never given more than we can handle (even of the good!)’ and that it is ALL held with much LOVE!
The family dinner table….you adjust to the awkwardness, the things left unsaid. You learn to hide the REAL feelings that come up as you pass the ‘this’ and the ‘that’. You ignore the tensions that ride and glide under every unspoken truth. You hope to remain unseen and safe in an effort to just ‘get through.’
So much you cannot share here…..as there is no room! You put it back in the closet then, far away, as it has no ‘place’. Your truth, your essence cannot be worn or shown. The food has more room then you do as it serves to distract from the disconnect that seems to season everything with flatness.
No wonder parts of you struggle to digest and to eat! No wonder you never really feel full! No wonder you are left wanting SO MUCH more than what you received! No wonder parts of doubt if you will EVER really get what you most want and really need!
So many meals left with rumbling heart still aching for the food of LOVE. So many meals sat with unexpressed fears and unshed tears. So many meals started with hopes and desires only to be left disappointed. So many meals with unacknowledged elephants sitting in the chairs.
Conforming and ‘fitting in’, putting on the mask and learn to wear it well…..avoiding anything ‘deep’ or ‘too heavy’, helping to steer the conversation away from the real or the true or the difficult to say out loud. Parts of you become experts at this dance and this ‘game’ because they HAVE HAD to be. This is survival of the ‘fittest’, those who can perform in this play acting out, those who can BE on this stage….. have the best chance of ‘making it’ and ‘succeeding.’
Yet, oh how WEARY of this are the parts of you that have shrunk to this place for so long! The masks are slipping off, half gone, one side unstrung and hanging loose. Your soul bright light is starting to SHINE through. Your truth is starting to BURST forward. You don’t want to be passed around so lightly any more You don’t want to be passed over. To be disregarded or seen without curiousity is becoming no longer interesting to you.
You are pushing away from this family dinner table. You are reaching your hand out to help parts of you leave it too that are ‘stuck’ there, even if it has been many years ago. You are opening your heart to hold the fears and tensions and anxieties that come up from leaving the ‘safety’ of this game. You are letting go of reacting to what other’s judge or think or feel about you.
You are open, now, to finding the table of your soul tribe. To taking in the meals of nourishing love in every bite, every exchange, every moment of BEing in the real. All is spoken out, revealed, and shared as THAT is what is most nourishing and, ultimately, most natural. Curiosity and reverence are passed around as the currency that spends between this family. All parts of you come forward to be seen, to be felt, and to be acknowledged.
THIS is the new earth experience of ‘family dinner’, of the gathering together where we offer new energy to a common ritual. THIS is the transition from the old and what so many of us have known and INTO the NEW, where realness is the spice and love flavors every bite.
July 15th……this day is special to me because it was a year ago on THIS day that Raphael and I moved from the remote, off-grid ranch we were living at into the city here, Puerto Vallarta, to join Gabriel Heartman andKalayna who had already left and here working. A year ago this day, Raphael and I were crossing a pretty high river with the three dogs (one of them, Canela, tucked into an Ikea bag!), with all of our belongings stuffed into our van. I remember it so well because it was a huge movement out of our comfort zone…not knowing how it would be to live in town again after 18 months living so remotely (and the move to the ranch from Canada had also been a major thrust out of our comfort zones!!!!). Not knowing how it would be live all four of us together (we had to share a two bedroom apartment for a month or more)…we had $40 on us as we drove the two hours into town with some sense of income coming in from Gabriel and Kalayna teaching English online (which was the main reason we moved back into town), but no real idea how we would be able to afford to live here.
I had received a ‘PING’ from the Divine about six weeks earlier that it was time to leave the ranch. We just couldn’t reach and draw the community that we wanted to living there. We couldn’t serve love the way that we wanted to without steady internet access. I had spent 18 months planting seeds in my organic gardens and I wanted to start serving others again to plant THEIR own seeds to bloom and grow. I had written two books during our time on the ranch, went six weeks once without leaving it or going online….I became ONE with nature in a way that I had never before and had many awakening experiences there (which I share about in my book, Keep Waking Up!: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books)
Parts of me had been humbled by the bugs, by the heat, by the simple house we lived in, by the rural Mexican locals who were so grateful for anything, by the rumbles and unpredictability of nature. We had experienced a swarm of flying termites (SO intense!), massive thunderstorms, scorpion bites, dog and personal injuries, and dramas with others living at the ranch too. We lived on $150 a month at one point and ate about 40% of our food from fruit trees and what we could grow in our gardens. We built a small hut out of clay, mud, straw, and sand, enjoying nearly every moment of it and amazed at what our own labor and VERY little money could create! This experience humbled me AND inspired me and gave me much renewed clarity and purified desire around my soul purpose here…… which wasn’t actually to be a gardner (although I sure was open to that one and parts of me would have preferred it!)
I kept seeing myself leading a group of women even though I HAD no women in my life for a certain phase there. I kept writing even though no one was reading it. I kept SEEING people living with us even though no one else seemed to be interested in doing that. And, I kept healing and working with my own parts even though I wasn’t serving anyone else in working with theirs.
It is amazing to feel that it was ONLY a year ago that we moved here to Puerto Vallarta, started going online, and began sharing our writings and videos and other offerings with the world. A year later, and we have other souls coming here with us living near us in community andΒ others who are coming too for visits and to potentially stay here. We’ve been offering group calls since January with growing numbers of souls showing up for those and taking in what we are offering. I have had many sessions with amazing women since about September when I began drawing them. In this moment, I have six women that I am meeting with regularly and some have an interest to become facilitators in the future. We are offering a five day retreat in November with people actually planning to come π I recently got notice from FB that I have received 38,000 LIKES on my posts that I’ve written during the year! I have shared over 50 writings on Love Has Won, many writings also on in5D.com, many videos on the Higher Self and Receiving Love You Tube channels, some with over 3,000 views on them……AND published a book (Sacred Human, Arising Wonder).
THIS has been a truly amazing year and it SHOWS, I believe, what happens when you follow your heart, guidance, your soul purpose, your reason for BEing here. When you are willing to let go of comfort zones and go into the unknown because you SEE and FEEL what you are meant to offer and you can negotiate with the parts of you that are afraid. It shows, I feel, what love manifests when you are in service of love and how the Universe supports the next and the next….bringing you exactly what it is you most need.
THANK YOU to all of you who have taken in my offerings in the last year…in whatever ways, means, and depths you have. It is an exchange that is VERY meaningful to me and I just see it growing, expanding, and deepening over time. All THIS happened in ONE YEAR…I can’t even IMAGINE what will happen in the next. Well, I can envision some of it, and I def. have some glimpses of the timelines unfolding and they are feeling really GOOD!! Trust your dreams, what your heart most WANTS, what your soul feels that you are HERE to BE and do. Follow all of that and it WILL come into BEing! β€β€
I’m sharing a video below talking about how the high energies we’ve been receiving are pushing up reactions in the emotional body….as they are meant to….and how to BE with that. This process invites you to have compassion toward the fear and resistance that is coming up, not pushing it away or bypassing it or ignoring it. The higher self aspect of you that is coming into the body and into your heart WANTS to hold space and respond to this fear WITH love. Wants you to hold space for the fear rather than go into distraction or diversion.
These ascension energies are offering a purging of the emotional body too…if you’ve focused mostly on your spiritual awakening and development, then you will be FEELING this coming up as, again, it is meant to. Your soul holds the space for the emotions that maybe you haven’t focused on as much. High LOVE frequencies are wanting to move you into choice points such as leaving relationships that you aren’t happy in and your soul frequencies aren’t matching in. This is an example of the kind of choice points that are being brought to you, along with geographic shifts, moving from occupations to vocations, etc.
If your emotional body hasn’t been felt in a deeper way, such as through what I feel is the most effective way…..parts work, then THAT is what is coming up around the choice points. On one level it is just a choice about leaving a relationship or job, etc. but on another level what hasn’t been felt in the emotional body is fixated around the choice point. Push-pull, mixed emotions come up then….if you can’t navigate with parts of you then you aren’t going to be clear. You CAN be clear. You CAN identify and differentiate. You can then go to the root of the feelings rather than being just in reaction about the situation.
ANY reactivity of fear is parts of us, not our essence, not our authentic self. This can really help with the feelings sense of “I’m going backwards” in my awakenings because I am feeling so much right now and reacting to so much right now. Rather, actually, the soul awakenings are making MORE safe space for the feelings to come up. You are getting bigger as a soul in the body so the Inner Protector and persona-based parts are allowing more parts’ feelings to come up and out.
There is always a ‘good reason’ for the resistance. As you become your own love detective, so you find this out for yourself what those reasons are and the WHY of them, which clears the emotional wounding and reactivity. Your capacity to show up for your process here is key and to reach out for help for bridging of this parts reality with YOUR reality.
More in the video below……MUCH love from my heart to yours and an offering of energies of trust in the process as it unfolds!
Today, I am digesting a touching experience of reunion with Rae-Na, a Metasoul aspect/sister of mine from Lemuria or Mu. Mother Land. This is how it feels to be there with her, as if I am coming home to Divine Mother as represented in a physical place and instantly embraced in Her natural womb. It feels like the most amazing tropical vacation paradise that we have tried to recreate here in our timeline. It is not about the fancy condos and expensive homes near the beach but rather about the energy of paradise that we are longing to experience again, which may be connected to our Lemurian lifetimes and wanting to go βbackβ.
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Rae-Na IS here in the nowβ¦.not a past life yet, rather, living in the Lemurian timeline that is not βancient pastβ but also in the now. This is hard for the mind to track but when the heart leads the exploration it just FEELS like the now. As I connect with Rae-Na, she has access to ALL of the memories and experiences of our Metasoul line that we share together. She can connect then with all of the Metasoul aspects that I have previously accessed and she can see how her timeline MAY unfold. She is not shocked or reactive to βseeingβ Lemuria collapse. She is a βwise womanβ to her people and often shares her intuitive visions with them (similar to what I am doing in my now!). She tells me that she is βthereβ to help her people transition along with Lemuria.
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βThere is no reason to be afraid of transitions,β she tells me. We communicate in both English (which she understandably doesnβt like) and in Lemurian Language (it sounds very native to me, Hawaiian too, lyrical and beautiful). βIt is only when we cling to the body, to the current reality, that we feel fear about transitioning out of it. When we are not our fear anymore, then we can see the freedom that we have in all momentsβ¦.whether in the body or out of it.β
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Rae-Naβs energy is very soothing and calming. I feel great wisdom in her that I now get to bring into my daily life. She introduces me to her mate, who feels immediately like an aspect of Raphael‘s Metasoul. This is what happens with counterpart soul mates, we keep βfinding each otherβ in other timelines and discovering new frequencies of pairings and matches in this connection, plus, also karmic binds that call for us to heal them. I also meet her two beautiful children who feel like very old souls. Her daughter asks me about the tears streaming down my face as she is confused because they feel βhappy sad.β I tell her, βYes, I am both happy and sad to be reunited with you!β Metasoul reunion always seems to feel like this for me the first time as I rejoice at what has been forgotten and am also sad that I didnβt get to βhaveβ it sooner.
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Rae-Na tells me that she is very interested in our SoulFullHeart work with others and would like to open her heart more, which is touching to me. As has been my experience many times with Metasoul aspects, it is this βgift exchangeβ aspect that offers so much nourishment to both sides. Sometimes, there is much pain and suffering in a Metasoul aspect of yourself and you are needing to be with that for awhile (with boundaries) until it moves over time.
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Our human heart connected to this present age with our openness to βfeel and healβ is a gift to other timelines where this has not been so much the focus. Many of my Metasoul aspects (from Atlantis, Avalon, the pleiades, etc.) have commented on how much they admire us for being in such a DENSE environment and being able STILL to transact love and be so committed to healing our hearts and souls. This awe about us is a common frequency I have felt many times with Archangels, spirit guides, and Ascended teachers as well. Unfelt unworthiness can block their awe from going into us and we then βelevateβ these BEings beyond ourselves when, actually, we are all equal to each other AND they ARE an aspect of us as well.
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Lemuria has been on my radar for awhile and I have been open to connecting with any of my Metasoul aspects from there. I feel that the Lemurian energy is now in my field because we received a gift of a Lemurian plug from Laurian, who joined our community here last week. The Lemurian plug emits energies from that timeline that change the spin/vortex of the environment in your home, your food, your plants, your electronics, etc. We are starting to notice a rosy and soft energy moving through our home and I think it helped bridge to Lemuria for me today. You can read more about the plug here: http://www.thelemurianplug.com/
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Atlantis had been coming up for me more lately, as Iβve been sharing in my writings about connecting with Mareeka, my Metasoul aspect from the βtimeβ of Atlantis falling. Mareeka is now sailing to the βnew worldβ as we changed her timeline together by feeling her attachments, fears, and previous resignation to her fate. Mareeka came in briefly today to meet Rae-Na and they both felt eager to have contact with each other in the future. You become a bridge for your other Metasoul aspects to connect and bond, resulting in more gift exchange that benefits your entire Metasoul and the collective as well! I write much more about my experiences with Metasoul awakenings in my book, Keep Waking Up!: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books and more about the Metasoul at our blog: soulfullheartblog.com.
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The veils of amnesia that previously shrouded our abilities to see clearly our other lifetime experiences are so much thinner now. Thin and, really, when we are ready, are now non-existent. You donβt need traditional past life regression therapy or even hypnosis to access them. All you need to see and feel is available to you with an open heart, mind, and soul. You lift the veils up, you feel how they are ready to be gone and you are ready to let in and feelβ¦..so, then, it is so that you can remember and DO and ARE this remembering! And you get to experience so many gifts in this process that heals both yourself AND the collective too! I am definitely feeling those gifts in this NOW moment as the lovely energies of Lemuria flood my BEing and light up my soul….
We offer a bridge and process to your remembering of your Metasoul aspects AND your emotional body aspects through SoulFullHeart sessions with a facilitator: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.
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