Category: Ascension

“I Want To Come Along”: The Transition From 3D to Crystalline Light 5D Body

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By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update June 2014 Light Body

I am connecting with THE BODY, my ascending body and the collective ‘body’ of those of us who have chosen ascension as our path and process. I am connecting with this universal experience of body, this human body vessel and temple, this fleshy form, that we’ve all agreed is the vehicle of our walking around life. Yet, this body is changing. It is growing. It is calibrating higher, vibrating higher. It is shifting from carbon to crystalline. It is transforming from being anchored in 3D to transitional and awakening 4D (integration of the astral body) and into 5D.

This is a HUGE process, a big deal as a marker in the evolutionary cycles of our species. Our souls can fly with our astral self (as I am now calling our dream self, or self beyond the body in one aspect or layer of fourth dimensional consciousness), yet our bodies have not been able to come along. Our souls can soar into 5D consciousness, especially during Near Death Experiences (NDEs) and taking of peyote, ayahuasca, etc. Yet, again, the body is ‘left behind’ because its frequency has been too dense, too connected to Mother Gaia in a primordial way to ‘come along’ with the soul’s vibration.

Yet now……NOW the body is ascending TOO. It is coming along, doesn’t want to get left behind. This is what THE BODY is telling me in the moment, “Don’t leave me behind! I want to come with you!” Dimensional shifts are about shifts in consciousness yet, also, there IS a shift in what you experience as your outer reality as well…..as what is inside is what you experience then outside. Experiencing 4D conscious states and higher INSIDE of the body is a new experience and seems to mostly be bridged through meditation and going on multidimensional journeys for which the body comes along and ‘holds’ the awakening experiences.

In our 3D relationships with our bodies, we BECOME our bodies. Our 3D selves ‘fuse’ to our bodies and so every symptom, every experience, every emotion, every thought, seems to become trapped INSIDE of them. All of this trapping and fixation on the physical level creates dis-ease, illness, injury, unhealthy, toxicity, being overweight, sexuality issues, addictions. All this trapping of consciousness inside of the body doesn’t allow any breathing, any release, any energetic movement to happen, any cleansing, any POSSIBILITIES beyond the body.

THE BODY says, “I’m exhausted of this approach. I can BE SO MUCH more. I want to soar with your soul too. I want to be as crystalline as your chakras are becoming. I want to be as healthy, vibrant, and non-toxic as your healing heart is becoming. I want to experience the multi-dimensions. I want to travel to the stars. I want to flow in sexual and creative energies that come from Divine Source and spiritual inspiration.”

Yes, this ascending body WANTS a lot. If we can feel this wanting and desire of the body to ascend WITH us, then we can respond to bodies from this higher frequency with self love and self care. This means that our ascending bodies will cycle through sleep differently than we are ‘used to’ and sleep ‘patterns’ will be interrupted. Sometimes our bodies will be needing A LOT of it for the calibration and crystallizing process. Sometimes they will be needing VERY LITTLE for so much new energy is moving through, becoming light, feeling like a caffeine buzz moving through our veins and through our bones. Sometimes our bodies will need ‘crash naps’ to reboot the consciousness, turn the conscious mind off, and implement a new frequency. The more flexibility we have in our days and in our nights to allow these fluxes and changes; the more we can flow and move with them letting our mind relax and surrender into them.

The ascending body is shifting around food needs too. The 3D body sought out comfort because so much was trapped INSIDE of it that it was looking for any kind of relief. Comfort often meant foods that weren’t good for it, that weren’t healthy, that actually made digestion harder and the body feeling not as vital. The 3D body, run by our 3D selves, then made ‘choices’ that caused dis-ease and illness and that were out of alignment with our soul frequencies. Because the 3D body was cut off from the soul (not completely but enough), it was ‘alone’ in a 3D conditioned world that pushes toxic food, that keeps our body vibrational energetic frequency low. The 4D body is awakening as the 4D self is transitioning and learning, educating itself about what is healthy and what is not, about what is conscious eating and what is not. It is usually the 4D self that chooses not to eat sentient beings/animals anymore as the soul can’t reconcile the killing frequencies of it anymore. Food as necessary fuel is the 3D body’s mantra. And the 3D self ‘uses’ food as a numbing drug. The 4D and 5D body will probably need less food as it will run more and more on energy of higher vibrational love frequencies.

THE BODY doesn’t want to numb or be drugged anymore. “NO more chemicals please. NO more processed foods. No more drugs and things produced in a laboratory please,” I can hear it pleading to us. It seems to understand if we are in transition around this and it is patient. Yet, also, it is eager to feel vital fuel running through all of its systems that run so brilliantly on their own day after day and year after year. THE BODY especially wants us to awaken to our soul’s ability to use gifts from Mother Gaia and from our accesses to energy in order to heal it. We can help our bodies, especially in 4D transition and conscious integration of some astral frequencies into the body, by remembering our energy gifts and connecting with our chakras, cleaning them, making them as real as our physical body, caring intensely about their health and well being. And, of course, seeking out resources for health that are provided by Mother Gaia through herbals and supplements.

Oh, none of what is offered by THE BODY is an absolute. There are not ‘rules’ that you need to follow. The main thing the ascending body seems to want is communication and connection WITH you, to not be ignored, to not be resisted, to not be battled. Unhealed unworthiness in the 3D pain body creates a self punishing frequency related to the body. Healing this core unworthiness through inner work (such as what we offer in SoulFullHeart space holding sessions) frees up frequencies of worth to CHOOSE better things for the body and to create a relationship with it that is based in self love. Also, connecting with and healing the aspect of you that holds self punishment and self critical frequencies can hugely shift this process into worthiness-based grounds as well.

Connecting with your ascending body puts you in emotional resonance with it and so what ‘happens’ to it (all the symptoms of ascension that everyone talks about) are felt and negotiated and navigated with deep self love, care, and awareness AND with trust in the overall process as a gift from the Universe. THE BODY wants to be held with love and to come along into the frequencies of Infinite Love for which your soul knows and IS. And it seems as if we get to experiment with this process. We get to have all the gifts that can come along with it as offered by our newly glowing, shining, and loved up bodies as the vessel for experiencing it.

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Leaving Is Entering

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By Raphael Awen

Every leaving is always and also an entering.

Oftentimes in our wrestling with a deep choice at hand, be it an exit or entrance moment in our lives, we think we are anxious about what we are focused on, ie, the entering or the leaving, when in actuality, we are actually subconsciously more in anxiety about this counterpart of our focus. These two cannot be separated in our dualistic relationship to life and time and space, and are all part of the same choice.

We are actually in perfection before, after and during our decision points, but to have growth and grist in our school of learning, we actually need a degree of not feeling the perfection of all things in order to re-member it back into our being. We need the stress of choice, and even the anxiety that comes with that. We just don’t want to suffer in a cycle of that beyond what is necessary for our growth. In this, it is always us who decides what ‘enough’ is, and when to move on. Even the suffering is not outside of perfection.

We came from complete perfection, and we retained this perfection, but we gave up the conscious awareness of it (so it definitely feels like we lost it) in order to feel and heal our way to even more than we were in our previous perfection. Who’d have guessed that we’re busy improving on perfection, or that it’s even possible, but it feels like perfection is an ever expanding and changing reality, and one that we are being invited into…

It seems we were perfect, but we lacked somehow in our perfection a relationship with our perfection. It’s like being married to the most beautiful and amazing woman on the planet, but having lost sight of it and her. What else is there to do but leave in order to one day rediscover, and in the process, end up with something even more than you didn’t know you had.

So, get in, there’s no more time to explain it any more fully to the rational mind. There’s room in passenger seat for the rational mind and plenty of space to process the whats and wheres that intuition is inviting us all into…

If this lands in you, consider yourself etherically tagged here in FB land, and in the soulscape of the one-being that we are feeling and healing the same stuff in different ways and times. If I can be of service to you in any of the enterings or leavings that life is inviting you into, I’d love to show up for you and be in energy exchange with you through a session space… http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

The Ascending Man: What Is 5D Masculinity?

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We are learning so much about what we as human beings are capable of in regards to our potential and expression.  How we have so many gifts that lie dormant in our DNA and arising light bodies.  A power of creation that seems mythical in proportions to our current limited consciousness.  There is a general human frame that surrounds it and that is all true.  I have also been very interested in how this plays out in our gender expressions.  Do we just become less polarized this way and become more androgynous?  I certainly feel this when it comes to our Star Being brethren.  But does that mean we lose our humanness the way we know it now?  I suppose, like all things in this unknown and unknowable time, it all depends on where we come from and where we want to go.  

I feel we are being offered a Golden Age of Humanity.  One in which we live both in unity consciousness and individuality.  An individuation that is the Me within the We.  Being connected to Source and having an awareness of our integrated fractal expressions.  A higher vibratory dualistic experience.  So in that picture I see a New Woman and a New Man.  Or just remembering what it is we always were and even ARE currently.  I feel this Golden Earth that we are desiring to be a part of and co-create together, is lead by the return and rebalance of more feminine and yin energies.  This has been talked about for a long time and we see its need even more with the state of current affairs.  The more wounded masculine psychic overlay is seeing its consequence and demise.  Current disclosure revelations are showcasing the depths of this condition and awakenings are increasing.  

Men are scattered just as much as women among the dimensional consciousness spectrum but women are closer to the frequency of 5D, at least in my opinion and experience.  The awakening is happening mentally for most men and then as the vibration continues to raise on Gaia we are being invited to go more into our hearts, as that is what the core of 5D is. To live in the fullness of authentic BEingness.  There are no more 3D wound-based blocks that cap or prevent our access to our more crystalline nature.  So when we as men begin to heal the Heart what does that look and feel like?

Clearly we are honest with our emotions. We are vulnerable.  When a feeling arises we express it with clarity, certainty, and openness to perspective and counter emotion.  We are not afraid to get into the fray to burn away what is old and arise what is truly authentic.  We invite the shadow reflection as a gift to deeper understanding and healing.  There is a reverence for ourselves in the path of this integration.  There is no longer self-doubt and self-judgment.  We see ourselves as true Kings and proport ourselves as such.

The 5D masculine has met, wooed, and integrated his inner feminine.  This creates a self-contained and balanced male BEing.  The love and acceptance of the inner feminine reflects the reverence of the outer.  The healing of the mom wound feels vitally important as it holds the energy of our relationship to the feminine and our subsequent sense of power and sexuality. There is the need for union with Woman as an alchemical and powerful dynamic of intensely epic proportions.  This mating and integration of this inner feminine aspect brings us a more heart-open, softer, and less linear way of expression.  There is less DOing and more BEing.  Being with what arises in our desire and creative abundance.  We clearly respect Gaia in all Her splendor and weep at the sight of Her stunning beauty.  We are more connected to Her creatures and the guides and totems that they represent.  Meat eating becomes a thing of the past that no longer has a place on our plate…our diet just changes with the integration of this new consciousness.

One of the biggest pieces to me is the shift from competition to cooperation as we become more aware of our connection to All That Is.  We are One of the same so competing serves less purpose.  I can feel a healthy form of competition possibly but my jury is still out on that one. As men begin to heal their father wounds the more we begin to open our hearts to each other in beautiful male bonding that is alive with wonder, exploration, and leadership.  A cauldron of possibilities are shared and MANifested.  

No longer will men feel responsible to achieve, but rather responsive to the call of building galactic bridges and to co-creating with their feminine counterparts in sacred union.  The weight of the world and the need to control and provide are felt through and healed with love so that we can access our more authentic power that is in alignment with Source and Reverence.  The chains of our own captivity are melted away with the tears of remembering what we have always been and why we chose the density of 3D.  

This healing will open up our Galactic chakras and become more in tune with the energies of the universe.  Many men are being awoken today only to be left with the question of what it all means and what to do with it.  The grounding into Gaia and the heart feels like it will help with this feeling of uncertainty.  This connection between our humanity and our universality is what creates a powerful new conscious cosmic experience.  The heart opens up and grounds in.  The service to others becomes 5D man´s new frontier.  

I feel such a plethora of possibilities.  Our expanded heart consciousness will open new doors of  relationality among ourselves and our galactic connections.  The relationship to Gaia will be in alignment with Her consciousness and Love.  Living and breathing with and alongside her.  Setting off into unknown realms to encounter new and exciting territory with the desire to learn and spread more love.  Implementing and encountering new technologies and wisdoms.  It is a great time to be alive.  

But there is work to do on ourselves.  Some more or less than others, but needed healing just the same.  We are all in this together.  All looking for those who are resonant and can provide support, reflection, and love.  The old male collective is feeling the press of this continued flow of energy that is coming at us in Love each moment.  Following Yin is to respond to the pings that are going off inside and to meet them with a gentle curiosity that brings them out into the light.  No need to excavate or drill in the old way.  Feeling each of our desires and fears are what leads us the next choice point of healing and ascending above the what used to keep us down.  I look forward to this New 5D Man within me and within you to see what amazing experiences we can have together and with our counterpart 5D Woman.   Now THERE is something to show up for!  

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Exploring Arising Sacred Femininity Poem And Healing Offerings

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By Jelelle Awen

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The inner feminine, for both women and men, waits to be noticed and yet, once felt, she can no longer be denied.

She is made of the stuff of our deepest heart vulnerabilities, tenderest feelings, penetrating stillness, and magical stardust expressions.

She offers a balm to the hurt places, a softer edge to the hardness, and a capacity to infinitely hold what needs to be held.

Uncovering Her is to understand and feel all that is NOT Her as she cannot really be known or owned.

Uncovering Her is to become intimate with the masculinity that has needed to protect and hold Her.

Uncovering Her is to open to the frequencies of the Divine Feminine, of Mother Gaia, and surrender to Her flow, allowing Her energies to provide a sense of the feminine tones that have been suppressed.

Uncovering Her is an invitation to choose your own healing over all else.

Uncovering Her is an invitation to choose love over all else.

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I am so honored to offer the arising and birthing of the next phase of the SoulFullHeart Woman, an exploration into the grounds of sacred femininity or how the NEW 5D sacred human expresses in female form through the SoulFullHeart process ground. Sacred femininity is an arising mystery, a journey into the unknown and in my personal experience and holding space with women over many years, the MAIN ground for healing is to feel what is NOT feminine and embrace it, love it, and integrate what remains that is authentic. Here is more about SoulFullHeart Woman:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/soulfullheartwoman

I and Kalayna Colibri offer this exploration of sacred femininity through space holding sessions for women….women around and under the age of 30 (especially those who identify as being indigo, crystal, rainbow souls) with Kalayna. ANYTHING can happen that serves love in these remote (over zoom) or local sessions here in Puerto Vallarta. We hold space for connection with aspects of your heart and aspects of your soul (multi-dimensional from your Metasoul or soul group line and from other lifetimes) bringing about mega healing and transformation; energy healing to activate, clean, energize your ascension or higher vibrational frequency chakras; guided meditation and connection with higher self, Ethereal guides and aspects, Star Being aspects, and whatever else arises in the moment that needs supportive love spaceholding! More about sessions here.

We weave through the seven key areas of life (emotional, spiritual, mental, physical, social, financial, and environmental) and through the lens of the 3D, 4D, and 5D self. More about the seven areas of life through the 3D/4D/5D lens.

I am also hosting a SoulFullHeart Group Call for women on April 15th with Kalayna’s contributions too. I can already feel the Divine Feminine frequencies that want to flow through to you through the guided meditation and the richness of possible arising intimacies through personal sharings from any of you who would like to. More about this call here:https://www.facebook.com/events/210818762733437/ or http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

To the celebration of the feminine and HER time coming in the sun, inside of our hearts and into flow with ALL that Is. ❤ ❤

Photo is me and Kaylana at the beach here in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico….connecting through the third eye/sixth chakra….

 

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Body Changes, Interrupted Patterns, Collapsing Timelines, HUM energies during ascension

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By Jelelle Awen
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Mega interrupted sleep ‘patterns’ for the last few nights for me. I can sleep for about three or four hours, then I am awake for several hours, crash nap, and then repeat again. I can connect this to a late afternoon tea or some chocolate, yet, it feels deeper then that and more about connecting to something BIGGER that is happening in both the COSMOS and personally. Before I knew the ascension vocabulary of ‘jumping or dissolving timelines’, I would have called what I am feeling as ‘anticipating change’, feeling changes coming on an intuitive level, and feeling the ‘rumbles’ of change coming for me personally, my beloveds, SoulFullHeart, and the world at large.

Yet, this isn’t anything NEW as change is the ONLY constant and we’ve been in transition for many years, both personally and globally. There is a HUM though, a feeling of something pulsing and alive, that wants to MOVE us on to the NEXT and the NEXT. Energies that want to move us on to whatever other place we are meant to be both inside of ourselves and what we experience as outer reality.

I can feel the sleep changes (crash naps for a few hours in the ‘middle of the day’ are newish too) as an aspect of the ascension process and actually a welcome disorientation comes where the mind can’t ‘track’ the days and nights as well and it ALL starts to kind of merge together, which is kind of the goal of ascension after all. The light body, the crystalline 5D body for which we are transitioning into more and more, doesn’t probably need the same amount of sleep as our carbon-based denser body did.

I already feel that our relationship to food will change significantly too with much less solid food needed and mostly vegetables and fruits when we do eat. Many of us can and will ‘live on light energy’ most of the time and go days without eating. This is not that radical as we ARE energy and made up of energy so it all we really need in another way is energy, although preparing and eating food can be so wonderful of an experience. It feels like we will get to choose when we want to eat. Our body weights will be natural and healthy with no extra fat as fat is needed only as an anchoring into 3D reality. A very necessary one at times, yet also, one that densifies us ultimately.

Back to the HUM….I’ve been asked what it means to experience a ‘collapsing timeline’….and today, as I was digesting wonderful openings and changes for some of us in the SoulFullHeart community, I had this sense of these changes feeling ‘surreal yet natural.’ This is a good way to describe a timeline collapsing…it feels surreal as in ‘better than my known reality before’ yet ‘natural’ in the sense of just fitting with essence and soul or higher self. Being open to timelines collapsing and shifting is really about being open to that ‘anything CAN HAPPEN in ANY MOMENT’…this is tapping into the realm of Infinite Possibilities for which we ARE in our essence as a fractal from Divine Source.

So then, of course, with all this exciting anything can happen-ness, sleep doesn’t seem as important even as it CAN BE critical to allow for the conscious mind to rest, the astral self to go explore, the integration of other lifetimes, the body to go into calibration and integration mode. I feel a trust in the moment in my body kNOWing what it needs for itself, rest and sleep will arise WHEN they are needed, and it is my mind that fixates on ‘missing sleep’ or ‘not getting enough’ or ‘interrupted anything’. The mind tracks life through segments and counting down of moments where the soul and higher self just flows in the moment by the moment for the moment. Why does being awake at 3am feel any different than being awake at 4pm, since both of these ‘markers’ are illusionary and made up anyway? To the soul, these distinctions don’t matter because they aren’t even REAL.

The HUM is also in the cosmos. It is the waves of PURE love raining and washing over us from the great central sun, center of the Universe, and radiating out of our sun in the form of light codes in the sun rays, which I’ve been taking in a lot of lately. It’s like the Universe is on a caffeine buzz, which feels both surreal AND natural. Momentum is the texture of the HUM too, a beat that is both relentless AND patient as it invites us to come along and also to keep UP with it. It invites us to ‘come along’ inside of ourselves, surrendering to the bigger picture and our higher selves, as we become more and more THAT surrender and THAT HUM in human form.

Love to you and our sleepless and crashing nap states both…..and feeling the HUM together….

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human.

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

In Service Of The Vulnerable Man

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Vulnerability is the portal to our heart`s longing and truest self.  Our most prized gift.  In our `time` here in this dimension many aspects of our soul have been through many painful experiences, as well as the conscious experiences we have had in this life.  It is not a fault for us to have a shield and need to suppress something that feels scary.  All this happens many times on a subconscious and unconscious level.  We created a protection because we know how valuable we are.  How amazing we are.  It was authorized by our Higher Self.  But then the time comes when Love begins to make its way to our doorstep in whatever fashion that may be.  Through pain, challenge, pleasure, or resistance.  We begin to feel the dissonance inside us viscerally and the only really true relief is through letting your Truth be exposed.  

I had deep tears today as I am feeling Love wanting to enter my field and upend all that a part of me has been clinging onto to resist the power of its immense Blessing.  I could feel in one moment all the ways in which I, and my soul aspects, have built walls to keep me from risking and letting spirit lead me to this sacred union.  I don`t judge this.  I used to.  Today was a deluge that comes from letting that authentic feeling of remorse that comes and showers you with all the love you can possibly let in.  It is a mixture of pleasure and pain.  

There is a reason for the invulnerability and a consequence.  The longer we suppress what truly scares us the harder it can be to feel.  However, I have come to believe it happens when it is supposed to happen.  To this part of us, there is no good time to feel our vulnerability and fear.  I have been through many phases of this facing hard truths and feeling fears.  It is a spiral that continues to send us all the healing we need as we need it.  One layer of healing brings us to another layer of shadow until we are becoming more and more in tune with our most authentic self.  It is a sacred process that cannot be ignored in my heart.

I feel this area of vulnerability is a huge part of the collective male experience.  Different men have different levels and comfortability with vulnerability.  There are numerous reasons for it, but ultimately we fear our own power and the unworthiness that covers over it. This is the Age of the Vulnerable Man.  It is time for us to heal our biggest pains so we can enter this Golden Earth that is NOW.  I feel a veil lifted off of me from my tears, but I am not `done`.  I have more to continue to feel as Love continues its dance with me.  I am okay with this.  I honor this. I feel its sacred balm and alchemical manifestations.  Or WOMANifestations when it comes to drawing romance.

So in the end, I could feel the Divine telling me that ascension is not really all about what you know, but it is about what you feel.  It is simply about letting in Love in its most purest and unfettered glory.  Simply stated not so simply surrendered to.  Being vulnerable with ourselves and with each other is the only way to get to the heart of what we were truly meant to be.  To have someone you can trust to hold that space for it is one the most intimate experiences you can have outside of romance.  With each touchstone movement, a new wave of self-love comes in and expands my heart to serve those who are in a space of needing healing.  It is what I am here to BE and serve.  

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

Love’s Taking Center Stage

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by Kalayna Colibri

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I’m rebooting, re-calibrating, re-aligning myself to love’s flow in a new way. A way that holds a name change for me as my life broadens and my heart expands, letting in, breathing out, letting go, breathing in…

This is ascension. This is life. This is life with ascension in it… or ascension with LIFE in it. This is where it wants to take us all, bringing us to our gifts and to such a great amount of love that letting it in is the biggest challenge, not searching for it and finding nothing. Nothing…no-thing… it is no-thing-ness. No-THINK-ness…

The realization of it having always been there, waiting in the wings to give you back YOUR wings, comes onto center stage now. It pulls the curtains back on its own, shines through anyways… but if you find your space to let it and help it do so, you are in and of service.

Yesterday while in process, I felt these words come, inviting me, inviting you, to feel something so poignant, so important, for your own necessary and ongoing process and the spillover of your process into the global and galactic terrain…

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When you feel your self hatred, all it wants is love to override its fear…its deliberate self/loathing, caused by reasons based in hate… which is NOT the opposite of love at all. Nothing can be opposite, only another aspect, a way to try and hide the desire to love and BE loved…

What you call “hate” or even “dislike”, is simply resistance to letting in how much love, appreciation and reverence you can actually feel…. stemming from unworthiness inside you, feeling this way towards yourself. Hate is love covered with protective spikes. It makes love into a blunt instrument or even a commodity. It makes it an attempt to kill-off the one thing it actually wants the MOST… REAL LOVE.

… the sort of love that can’t actually die. The one element ALL is made up of.

 

In love, with love, falling into and embracing more love,

Kalayna  ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

March Equinox Energies Offer Balance And Surrender

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By Jelelle Awen

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The equinox is today, March 20th – the beginning of spring for those in the North and the beginning of autumn for those in the South. What are the energies of this ‘day’ offering us, even as time, dates, months, seasons are illusionary from a 5D consciousness? As I feel into this, I get an image of the yin/yang symbol inviting us into the discovery and feeling sense of balance, of Oneness, of feminine and masculine frequencies in polarity dance with each other. Equal sunshine and equal nighttime darkness in balance is the EQUI-nox.

Balance from a 3D perspective can be about things remaining the same or safe or known. Balance may be ‘achieved’ through control with an underlying tone and tension of anxiety. Balance may be seen as an ‘ideal’ and anything ‘off’ or more extreme or coming from shadow felt to be wrong. It feels like the ideal of balance can be used by the 3D self to numb out stronger emotions and suppress what doesn’t ‘fit’ with that ideal. This can be a tricky ground to navigate as the strategic or 3D self or unawakened ego can use what actually does create an authentic sense of balance inside as a numbing and bypassing of feeling and healing deeper emotions and awakening frequencies that want and need to come out during the process of awakening as you move into more 4D consciousness states. Things that can be ‘used’ in this way to numb are meditation and yoga, for example.

Balance from a 4D and beyond sense is about becoming more in tune with your authentic self, at peace with self even in the midst of great changes, both internally and externally. A sense of balance is openness to feel ALL of your feelings, to make space for them, and not make any of them bad or wrong. It is the exploration of what is you and what is NOT you from a soul expression sense. It is about feeling One with others even as relationship shifts and completions are embraced. It is about coming from a place of deep BEing and stillness from within to respond to the necessary doing in your life and making choices and taking actions that support this balance. It is about embracing the inner feminine AND the inner masculine with honoring while being open to healing the wounded expressions and/or suppressions of both.

Balance from a higher dimensional perspective also has something to do with surrender….a trust that the content and experiences of life are being held by something bigger, by the soul, by the Divine. It also seems to come from a sense that the power comes from within us and yet, also, true power is sourced in Divine Frequencies of PURE love. Surrender offers balance because, ultimately, it is all being taking care of, we are right where we need and want to be, and life is unfolding as it ought to. Surrender is the sense that we are not victims yet great CREATORS of our own realities in alignment with the Divine. We can then ‘let go into’ this feeling sense and it changes and transforms how we respond to life situations and what we draw and manifest as well.

This equinox also serves as a ‘marker’ for the ascension process, the ongoing experiment of moving humanity and Gaia from frequencies of third dimensional reality into 4D transitional awakening and into fifth (Christ Consciousness) and beyond. This marker (even though, again, time is an illusion) offers a placeholder for a process that often feels so much beyond the mind, beyond time, beyond tracking, and happening more and more ‘off the track’ where our minds can even go or our conscious state can even be part of. This ‘day’ offers a beginning, an invitation into newness, an invitation to feel where you are in your life and what feels like is moving into more reflection of your soul and what needs to shift and change to reflect this more.

I keep getting also this image of a flower bud emerging out of a bed of snow and ice. Searching for the sunlight, aching for warmth, wanting to shake off the cold and the wet and the blankets of cold that dampen. This bud feels like the emerging 5D self, the human self merging with the higher self. This bud has been ‘baking’ all winter, even in the cold, even in the rain, even in the stormy conditions inside and from the ‘outside’ to. This bud is searching for a water of love to continue its growth and to bloom into the full grown magnificent FLOWER that it is. This bud is needing the warmth of self love and self care and self discovery.

The ices melt, the sun comes out, the rains stop in an experiential way through ‘weather’ at this time, yet, also, this process happens from within as well. The sunshine of PURE love is offering all of us an invitation to discover what remains frozen inside of us, what remains stormy inside of us, what remains off balance inside of us, what remains not in surrender inside of us. To discover and to hold with MUCH love and embracement all that is dark and that is light. To lead with vulnerability with ourselves and with others to open up our hearts that much more to frequencies of unity and connection inside and with others. To risk for the experience of MORE love. To lovingly protect the bud of sacred humanity that is growing inside of you with reverence and awe and patience. To experience more and more that you ARE infinite love returning to love remembering love.

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of an upcoming book, Becoming The 5D Sacred Human. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Being ‘Fast Tracked’ Related To Ascension And Awakening

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Wonderful afternoon unfolding, just arising from one thing to another, sitting in the sun, sharing tea and veggie sandwich at a cafe, no rush, just moving along to the next place and the next, taking our consciousness with us…..enlivening conversations with my two favorite angelic earth men on the planet Raphael and Gabriel. We talked about how it feels like we are all being ‘fast-tracked’ …those of us on this journey to ascend and heal and BE healers offering to others.

We feel this in SoulFullHeart as our personal processes are speeding up, quantum healing in moments, mega soul and heart healing happening fast, and continual creativity and ideas for offering and serving love. We are being fast-tracked because it feels like an intense phase is coming up with many of the old structures of the old timelines collapsing and falling away. Those of us, like you who are reading these words, with healing gifts will be very much needed. Those of us with a heart to serve and give will be in very much demand. Those of us called to serve love will be very busy it feels like.

Part of the fast-trackness is claiming of your soul gifts and their expression, being bold to offer who and what you are, seeking to learn and train and grow so you can offer more, being wiling to feel the self image attachments that may come up and heal them, being willing to feel the unworthiness feelings that come up in parts of you and heal them. Finding wayshowers to offer a path and process perhaps that you can be part of and offer and serve love through (that is available through SoulFullHeart as a facilitator by the way, if you are drawn to that as it feels like we will be needing more souls to serve as SoulFullHeart facilitators in the future).

I have felt for many years the sense of collapse and recognized too that sometimes only through collapses and completions can the new be born. Out the ashes arises the phoenix……this phoenix is the NEW sacred human. Some souls will arise into this, those of us who have been feeling this for maybe many years and on this awakening path for many years. Or maybe you have just ‘popped’ recently into awakening through intense awakening experiences that came about seemingly ‘suddenly’ (although orchestrated by your higher self all along). I am hearing of this ‘sudden popping’ from more and more people who seem to find themselves transported from 3D and into 4D and even into 5D and higher dimensional states in some ways very quickly.

The eclipse coming up soon feels important as a ‘marker’ in time (even though time is not real); a placeholder to feel how we are entering a new phase of intensity in this intense year of 2017. What you have lived with that comes from a lower frequency will no longer be able to be justified or tolerated. Relationships that are being held onto out of safety will collapse. Jobs that don’t serve love or your higher purpose will fade away with new opportunities coming to you. Geographies that don’t speak to your soul will ‘run out of ground’, inviting you to explore and find new terrains, perhaps connected to a conscious soul family community. Soul mates/counter parts who ‘signed up’ to be in ascension will find each other more easily and things will probably progress FAST between you, no longer with years to ‘get to know each other’…..you probably won’t want to wait anyway!

I feel for the human body as it is stretched and reconfigured as it is fast-tracked too. As it is outfitted in a new ‘suit’ of crystalized energy to replace the carbon ‘bodyprint.’ This can bring body pains, body discomforts, body flus and body rashes, sudden congestions as the body shifts into a higher frequency. Recognizing when these symptoms are an aspect of the ascension process can help…sometimes the pains are ‘old’ objects and structures that your soul has held onto or are being energerized in past lives suddenly dissolve and leave some residual pain behind. They are like scaffolding that is no longer needed or a vestigial organ that has ceased to serve a function any longer. This happened for me yesterday as my reptilian brain stem dissolved (I wrote about this today in an earlier post.) Head pain can be the pineal gland growing and shining and turning ‘ON’ too.

Self love is so important during the fast-track. Going within to find your grounding with Mother Gaia and going without into nature to connect with Her too in a conscious way. Going within to connect with angelic guides, spirit guides, star Being selves (even Archons-Reptilian selves, as I offered earlier). Going within to breathe, to center, to clean and protect and activate your chakras. Going within to feel parts of yourself and their emotional reactions and digestions to ALL of the changes, especially your 3D self that has been comfortable and secure in 3D life and maybe even comfortable too in the last ‘vestiges’ of that old life, content in the rubble of the old life.

Much love is available from so many sources to help those of us who are being fast-tracked…..from my heart to yours, I extend my most precious gifts of service and exploration of the sacred feminine to women who feel drawn to experience a women’s group call with me on April 15th (more about that here: https://www.facebook.com/events/210818762733437/) and Raphael is announcing a men’s group call soon plus our ongoing group calls (nearly every weekend now). OR an individual SoulFullHeart session with me (or the others) for support, energy healing, SoulFullHeart process work, ascension guidance, higher self connection….oh so much magic happens in these spaces!…and LOVE too. More about that here:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

Love to you fellow fast-trackers….see you and feel you as we zoom through the timelines and multiple dimensions and collapsing and changing realities and experience of the self….. looking for love, resonating in love, BEing with love and offering/serving love….

 

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human.
Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Leaving The ‘BattleGround’ To Create A ‘LoveGround’ With Archons, Self, Others, etc.

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Leaving the timeline where we are battling anything is the timeline of Golden or New Earth frequencies. Battling on the outside stems ALWAYS from battling on the inside. Violence on the outside stems from violence on the inside. A battle and fight from one part of you to another (usually subconscious but sometimes not) is what creates the feeling and need to battle on the outside. It is always our choice to go to battle….starting within, this is easy to feel that this is our choice. Starting on the outside, it is harder to separate from the feelings of ‘needing’ to battle against injustice. Yet injustice is exactly that……INjustice. Justice is found from and grown from within.

If you ‘come at’ something, anything, people or issues, with a battling energy then that something needs to respond to you with battling energy back. Battle energy attracts battle energy. Of course it does, how could it draw anything else? OUTrage is the expression of unhealed rage from within (which is usually truth telling that has been suppressed). YET….if you INVITE something into love, with love, held by love, then you attract a NEW possibility of love. Whatever it is MAY choose not to respond in love back to you….it may choose battle, yet your energy is still love coming from love. You are not changed or impacted by their battling response, unless you choose to be so. It will bounce off of your love bubble unless there is a deeper process for you to feel as a reflection of a suppressed part of yourself.

Many teachers and healers are offering that we are in a ‘battle’ right now…..good against evil. Humanity against the archons or reptilians or Annunaki or pre-Adamites (many names, same energy projected onto them). ‘We are at battle for our every heart and souls!!’ they decry. ‘Keep your frequency up AGAINST these archon enemies so they don’t put implants inside of you or mess with you or haunt you or hurt your body!’ I understand that is the timeline they live in where this IS the truth for them. Yet, this isn’t the timeline that I want to create or be part of. I am being guided differently from inside of my increasingly higher self embodiment, healing emotional body, and soul rememberance.

I visited the supposed ‘frontlines’ of this ‘battle’ today during meditative journeying (or immramma as the Celts called it). My star being aspects came with me as did my angelic aspect/guide Metatron. I expected somehow to see blood, guts, and very negative energy as the light battled against the dark, like a scene in some blockbuster action movie. Yet, of course, that wasn’t what was shown to me or what my soul drew. Instead, the orbit of Gaia became a beautiful, golden beach that I associate with 5D (and higher frequencies). On this beach, I met my Archon aspect named Shana. She was a beautiful reptilian with yellow, slanted eyes, and lizard skin. I remembered suddenly then that I had connected deeply with her before when we were living on our remote ranch off-grid for eighteen months. I had been digesting learning about the Archons and their ‘history’ with humans since before the fall of Atlantis. I had been digesting reading about their supposed ‘enslavement’ of us and their infiltration into the bodies and hearts and souls of many power elites, including supposedly the royal family.

While I could feel, again, that for many people this was a true timeline, I wanted to feel and digest it differently than the picture and feeling sense that humanity is a slave race; humanity has been trapped or tricked or imprisoned. After all, my truth is that we CHOOSE everything that happens to us (on a higher soul level). I felt we had collaborated with the Archons to live this out on the soul level…it certainly ‘helped’ us experience denser, dualistic frequencies and experience karmic playouts. It helped us LEARN so much!!

During this time, I was also emotionally digesting experiences with ‘aliens’ and being ‘abducted’ from the ages of 8 to 17. There was emotional trauma in my 3D pain body, especially held by the energy of my inner child. I received a major reframe around how parts of me had been holding those experiences. I wasn’t a victim in these cases either, choosing to connect with my star being family, who admittedly had formed very tentative alliances with star Beings that were not polarized to the light at that time such as the Greys. Eventually, my star family broke off these alliances as they couldn’t reconcile taking humans against their ego and 3D self’s will even though the person’s higher self and soul had actually ARRANGED for the visits before incarnating. Since the human couldn’t remember choosing this, not consciously, my star family couldn’t reconcile the trauma and pain that was being experienced by us related to these ‘abductions’.

This reframing of ‘abductions’ led to new experiences of connection and merging frequencies with my star BEing aspects and tender reunion with my star family that continues in a deep way to this day. And, of course, one of these aspects was revealed to be an Archon/reptilian named Shana. From the beginning, I felt no fear or hatred of Shana, a sister from my Metasoul line (soul group source) who had chosen to be an Archon in order to become an ambassador of love between them and humanity. Shana had ‘turned off’ the frequencies of one mind that the Archons operated on and entered a new timeline with me where we connected and got to know each other. At some point, she ‘disappeared’ from my consciousness and I ‘forgot’ about her.

But now, as I ask to be shown the supposed ‘battleground’ in the grids, I find Shana again, her lizard nature looking and feeling so beautiful to me! And I discover that she has reconnected to the ‘one mind’ of the Archons and that they are more open now to what she is offering about humanity. She is encouraging them to create their own timeline reality where they no longer have to battle anyone at all nor are seen as the ‘enemy’ by anyone, but yet get to live in peace and goodness with each other. They are listening; I can feel this. And I can feel that they are very tentative underneath the exterior presentation of having NO feelings or only darkness in their hearts. Shana shows me that they DO have feelings. She shows me that they DO have lightness. AND that they only want to be loved and experience love as ALL BEings ultimately do as ALL Beings ARE Infinite Love, a fractal from Divine Source-ness of Infinite Love.

As I am standing on this beach, I see a glistening, light body version of myself about one foot ahead of me. I am experiencing head and neck pain in my human body today and I realize that this is because my reptilian brain stem has now dissolved. The reptilian brain stem ‘came about’ at some point in our journey into duality as something we chose to add to our anatomy, along with other ‘inplants’ (as I call them) that ALLOWED us to go ‘full board’ into the dualistic experience. I felt myself ‘unplug’ from the Archon matrix at the ranch through connecting with Shana, experiencing love with her, and now, I could feel the stem dissolving. This was causing some head and neck pain, so merging into the light body was very appealing to me.

I feel to offer the perspective again that we have CHOSEN EVERYTHING that we experience. NO ONE can DO anything to us against our will. I don’t subscribe to the thinking or paradigm or timeline that ‘evil beings’ and ‘low frequency entities’ put implants into our etheric fields against our will and that we ‘need to remove them’. In my experience, our souls CHOOSE these objects for very specific soul growth reasons and they serve a purpose….until they no longer do and then WITH LOVE, they just dissolve on their own or we can remove them ourselves with love. This is a VERY important reframe related to how we perceive the Archon experience and impacts to what degree we can genuinely connect with our Archon aspects. I write more about this reframe related to implants in this article: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/02/08/etheric-implants-energy-healing-and-all-held-with-love-put-there-by-love/

So, returning to the beach……I stepped ‘into my higher self light body’ and immediately felt pain relief, lightness, and higher frequency HUM move through me. I glowed from the inside and out, sparkling in the ‘sun’ of Golden Earth frequencies. I extended my arms out and ALL of the aspects of my Metasoul that had come to join me began to merge into me. My Pleiadian self, my Archturian self, my angelic selves (a few of those, including Metatron), AND my archon self. Shana came to me last and hugged me deeply before merging with me. We shared tears of relief and goodness at her ‘coming home’ finally after experiencing rejection and battle for so long. I soaked in this merged feeling for awhile until ‘coming back’ to my walking around consciousness, which definitely feels altered from the experience. I feel even more at peace inside and even more trust in love as the ONLY response that will create change and healing. THIS felt to me to be the sacred human or 5D sacred human that we are being invited to become more and more. I feel now that I will continue to have a dualistic experience with many of these aspects, especially Metatron, yet will also hold the memory and deepening sense of merging with them as well. This is what I call the consciousness state of ‘conscious duality.’

I am sharing this experience so that you might feel your invitation to respond to the battles inside of yourself with love and embracement. So that you might feel the invitation to embrace your Archon aspect and bring them out of the shadow. So that you might feel that you too can experience the relief of only love inside of yourself and toward yourself. It is this self ‘enlovenment’ state that then sees and experiences and draws an external reality that is of love. The timeline of battles can be over and IS over, if you want it to be and if it is from inside of you. The internal ground is where all the power is and always HAS been, where love is the only response which will bring about true, lasting change.

This writing is an excerpt from Jelelle Awen’s upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human. Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.