Let’s Fall

by Kalayna Colibri

 

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It’s that threshold

before the further step.

 

A feeling that there is something

MORE

if only

we tip over.

 

Let’s tumble down this hill

for a jumpstart

while the edge is right here.

 

I want those scraped knees

and grass-stained jeans.

Those ripped up shirts

that tangled hair.

The one way

to tear down curtains

over those layers

that need revealing.

 

I want the melting heart

knee-buckling feeling

of an opening coming out

from deeper within.

From outstretched arms

held tightly

around an us

that can hold it all

somehow…

find ways to be in it

trusting

that the ways it leads us

often unknown

will show the silver-lined paths

of newly trodden soul circles

leading back to the heart.

 

I want the air of it all

the sea breeze

and the moving shorelines.

I want the ease of connection

worked for

contended for

and loved for.

The commitment from inside

that brings it all out

through these filters

no longer hidden

but now faced

and fitted

and trod out.

I want those memories

pinging between us

of lifetimes

still lived

and seeping through.

 

Yes,

I want a lot.

I want it all.

And when it’s here

that downhill tumbling

heart fumbling

reality of its power

will move all the while

within me

As I walk hand in hand

with you

and we find our way through

together…

 

Let’s fall

and rise back up again

over and over

as we have never done before

and bring it all out

to be felt

held

cherished

in the eyes and hearts of each other

and the Divine

sacred love

that holds every moment

and movement

with ever-expanding hands

and ever-healing souls.

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Emotional Ascension: Saying Goodbye To Say Hello

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For those that are awakening to their own soul yearnings, it can be a somewhat bitter sweet experience.  The sweet part is feeling how life is so much grander and limitless than the one you had been previously subscribing to.  Or a least a part of you was.  This part of you, your 3D self, was made necessary to interface in this density to survive and yet also grow.   Different souls have been awake or awakening a long time, while others are just now being popped into it by some special circumstance that may be still a mystery.  Either way you are here and life in 3D, and maybe even 4D, just isn’t jiving with  what you know INside to be what you want or were meant to be.

You can be involved in so many things that are meant to help open up more in your soul domain.  Yoga, meditation, retreats, reading, etc.  And they most certainly do! I know I would not have the context and tools necessary to continue my soul growth if it wasn’t for them.  But as you continue to enlighten your soul, there is also the reality of the Heart. You can only fly so far when you are tethered to an emotional pain.  As much as a part of you would love to transcend or simply release the internal struggle, the truth is it just won’t until we face it with a willingness to feel it.

This can show up mostly in our relationships, or lack thereof.  Relationship to mates, family, friends, work, community, geography, and even ourselves.  The list of our emotional connections is wide and vast.  When you desire to really go ¨all-in¨ to your spiritual ascension you will inevitably be confronted with the reality of these relationships.  If you are to really thrive and be in joy, as your soul really wants for itself and you, it becomes harder to be in the energy that once kept you down.  Kept you small.  Because now you are waking up to your bigness.

Since we are all energy, the energy you find ourselves among has a great effect on your ability to raise it…and for good.  Not just for a brief period of time to get over certain humps.  The hard part is that you may find yourself then realizing that some of those around you may have to be let go of if you are going to truly grow and feel alive.  This includes all possibilities…even your children at some point.  This is not talked about often as there is so much energy tied up in the binds that hold us together.  Whether it be conditioned, familial, or karmic.  The sacred cows of our emotional pasture.

The power of this bind is grounded in fear.  A fear that you will hurt someone irrevocably and the guilt felt by a part of you.  A fear that you will get a harsh reaction and a rejection.   A fear that your self-image will take a big hit.  I remember this all to well in my early process and can feel the same energies if I were to have to complete a relationship that no longer served my growth.  It is a difficult process to enter into but one that ultimately leads to the best for all involved.

IF what you really desire lies beyond what the state of what your current relationships offer, then it is the most integrous and loving thing to do to see where the ground between you and another can deepen or complete.  You get to honor all of what as been between you AND invite for something more.  Otherwise you are just keeping the same energetic tie in the same frequency that no longer brings you the joy you are wanting.  I say this with the knowing that it is not easy to come to these realizations, as I have had to do the same.  I advocate for feeling this as I know what lies on the other side of this most challenging of crucibles for the part of you that is so very attached.

This is a negotiated process that is held in compassion and not just lightly felt.  It is a one-felt-step-at-a-time journey.  Getting to know the part or parts of you that have their own reasons for not wanting to bridge the emotional and spiritual gaps that are currently in your space together.  This is honored and felt.  Your large heart and soul hold the space for this walking through.  As you emerge from these exchanges a freer and more authentic version of you gets to inhabit all those soul gifts you have been accessing and watering.  You begin to take flight with a more healed heart and a new timeline that will hopefully include the ones you had to cut ties with as they too see what growth you are expressing.  In that way you have just made some quantum effects.

This was inspired by all those that have been moving through these crucibles and those that are in the midst of them.  It was also inspired for those who are feeling the struggle within and can sense change is on the horizon as you can no longer stay in the status quo any longer.  I honor all of the choices as ones that are meant for this moment as they lead us to the very next one.  SoulFullHeart is here to offer the heart space to make these epic changes a bit more sane and with as much love as you can possibly let in.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Healing Our Way To Sacred Romance

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There are times when we need love to not be so ¨nice¨ and instead be very direct and real. Matter of fact, true love shuns nice, as that is only a cover to something that is trying to avoid what is real and protects self-image. Love can be compassionate and gentle, but that is not the same as nice. When offered a mirror with direct love and advocacy of self and other, we are able to see what lies unseen and unfelt by our very own heart eyes.

It is an awkward moment and can press on a lot of other buttons that can only serve a shut down. When this reflection is held within a larger container of a desire to grow and let in more love then we can be with that reaction in a way that moves us from closed to open. From fear to more love.

As a man exploring and choosing to inhabit sacred romance, the layers of what holds resistance come to the surface in a way that is no longer avoidable if you no longer want to continue doing the same things that have kept real love from entering your kingdom. We have to be willing to face some hard reflections but how we are with those reflections are what set us in a new direction of openness instead of contraction. It is the old way of how the patriarchal parts of us have related to intimacy. As each one of us chooses to go in and heal that part or parts of us, then we in turn heal the patriarchy itself.

I do not come at this with judgement toward myself or others. That only continues the cycle. I hold this with an open heart and a desire to let go of what has, and no longer does, serve my desire to heal and see my inner King. I am very grateful to the women in my life who have helped me to see this and to the one man I have met that has so boldly gone where most men fear to tread. This is a new day for me as I go forward into the deep waters of what Love was always meant to be like.

Today I AM in a sacred union mateship with another beautiful female soul that has the courage and passion for the same. And THAT is what I have been calling for. Time to let that in and see how much fun can be had beyond what parts have believed is possible.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

In This Now: Poem Celebrating Sacred Union

By Jelelle Awen

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For a BELoved man Raphael Awen that I get to explore sacred union with, originally recited in bed

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In this now, my female form wrapping around and yours seeking mine….

In this now, your furry everything is meeting mine in urgent embrace….

In this now, my reaching out finds another expression of me in finding you….

In this now, ALL womankind and ALL mankind can fit in this intimate space between us…

In this now, portals to other galaxies open in our bedroom as the language of the stars spills off our tongues….

In this now, I am complete as I listen to your heart beat tell me the rhythm of mine….

In this now, our bodies, heart, minds, and souls exploring our ever expanding expression of USness….

In this now, there is no belonging to each other, yet only BEing with the arising together…into this moment and BEyond where Love discovers itself in other over and over….

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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book to be released on June 1st, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Entering Conscious Intimacy

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Entering into new intimate relationship, whether romantic, soul friendship, or with a community, there is an immediate rush of excitement and healthy fear.  There is an awareness that life as you now know it will not be the same.  Our soul knows this and advocates for this as it is never meant to stay in stasis.  We may have been praying for this for a long time consciously, or sometimes it just hits us out of the blue (at least to our conscious self anyway).  When it does and when it is something that is truly meant to be a game changer, there is inevitably a rumble that enters the emotional body that brings up layers of resistance even among the excitement and curiosity.

For some this is a time to walk along the river bank, noticing its terrain, and its taking in the rivers’ waters.  Stepping on each stone with reverence and caution.  Maybe at some point one hits that certain stone and just slips right in and away they go!  For others it is a full-on dive into the unknowable and letting each twist and turn arise with what they need next for their growth.  Either way something sacred is being entered into and will assuredly change us in ways that we can never fully know.

The guide here is our own vulnerability.  That is the life vest.  It keeps us current of each step, and of each turn.  The more we are able to bring our fears and resistances, the more we are able deepen our relationship to ourselves and others.  To be in a process ground and community like SoulFullHeart, you are given handrails and heart support all along the way.  This is through both human and ethereal relationship.  It is a brand new paradigm for our protectors to let in that we are not in this alone.  That even in the fear of losing everything, the greatest gift is feeling that all the way to its core to find the You that is holding it.

This new conscious intimacy that makes way for more ground of deepening and expanding is a magic in itself.  Those that have started this process can attest the epic ways in which life has been forever shifted and changed.  Those that have just begun can tell that this is unlike anything they have ever encountered and are taking each new step as they come.  And there are those who walk along the bank waiting for that moment when it feels safe enough to enter.  All is part of the process set in motion long before we had any awareness of it.

I felt to take stock of what this conscious intimacy has been leading in my life and the life of others as we enter other unknown group call. What new depths will others become aware of?  What new connections will be made?  Who will be guided to answer the personal call for healing and community?  Or who will be enjoying the rushing waters of the SoulFullHeart energy and feel for themselves what their next steps are?

This all part of the dance of intimate relationship and how it has the power to make great changes no matter how far one ventures to walk.  It is Love that is leading the way and what ultimately happens is all in service to that Love we find ourselves so aching to feel.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

BEing with your inner masculine to arise your feminine: Message From Magdalena

By Jelelle Awen with Magdalena

 

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We are sitting on a beach, Magdalena and I……a Golden Earth 5D frequency feeling beach with golden hues and tones around us, golden sparkly everything around and through and AS us. Magdalena is the high vibrational frequency aspect of Mary Magdalene; She feels like an archangel offering a template of our inner queen; the feminine aspect of the inner union.

She offers a caressing energy to us, like the water that nudges gently at our toes and then recedes again. She can crash too like the waves, stirring up our deepest desires even as She invites us into the stillness frequencies of our inner feminine core. I feel gratitude for Her templating of what it CAN BE and IS to embody our sacred femininity.

This is the message from Her today, for this NOW moment during this transition into New Golden Earth for our inner feminine and our inner masculine to take in and receive, to resonate in the ways it is meant to and can…… :

You are BEing. You are a BEing who is BEing. This is your natural frequency, your home. You do not need to ‘return’ to this as you already ARE this.

Your doing arises from this BEing base. It activates from the swell of this pool yet doesn’t really move in another way but rather ARISES in response. You cannot know the difference I am speaking of here; you can only experience it; you can only BEcome it.

Your questions of ‘how?’ related to the manifestation of your deepest desires are meant to arise from this BEing place. Doing wants to answer this question of how, yet it cannot. Doing can only come up with more questions! Only BEing can answer this how question as it DRAWS the answers to respond to and receive.

It is in RECEIVING that the ‘hows’ happen. Receiving the gifts that come from your BEing, from your going within, from your connecting to your soul purpose as BEing service of love. Receiving the love that comes from your BEing-ness as it undulates out in a high frequency broadband signal for all those souls tuned into it to feel and hear and respond to it.

BEing receptive can only come from this BEing home frequency. If you are outward so often, if you are seeking and searching….your capacity to RECEIVE what wants to come to  you is blocked by this energy of going out so often.

Parts of you (your precious male guardian and protectors especially) want to provide what you want to you. They want to seek and gather it so that your deepest yin desires can be met. Yet, their energy of guardedness and protectiveness can only draw the same back again on some level.

BE with these male guardian aspects and your inner matriarch (who is more masculine too.) BE with them in love, with your stillness, offer them this BEing of love to sooth their edges out, to relax them, to allow them breathing and rest from doing anything at all. I, Magdalena, can help with this if you call on me and especially if your inner guardian calls on me as he and I are connected already even though he has probably forgotten this connection. Jelelle, too in her service of love through SoulFullHeart and her Beloveds who offer this, can help with this inner connection process to allow more BEing.

As your inner guardians rest, so your BEing has more room and space to arise, to receive, and to respond as the service of love energy that you ARE. As you are open to feeling your inner guardians, to really LOVING them with all your heart as you would a BEloved mate, so then do their energies BEcome BEloved, cherished, respected, and adored. Their energies become cherishing, respecting, and adoring WITH you as the inner mating happens. THIS is what your inner guardian has really always wanted…to feel this way WITH you rather than ALWAYS being concerned about your safety and if you will be hurt again or not and if he has been protecting you well enough or not.

As you love this masculine within you, as you are patient with this process because it is not a ‘how’ and there is no time limit or deadline on it……then so do you have more access to your BEingness. It is by BEing with that which is NOT BEing that you can then receive MORE and respond MORE As BEing….this makes heart sense, yes?

Love this masculine inside as your BEing wraps around him and so, on a quantum level, you are healing the wounded masculine, the overly protective masculine, in the collective too. As you ARE your BEingness more and more, so you BEcome a BEacon of possibility to ALL women too that they can BEcome this too!

I love YOU so MUCH as you ARE in this moment and for what you will BEcome more and more too as you arise into your BEingness! Please call on me as you need to as I am HERE to serve love with you and I AM you too!

Yours IN love, Magdalena

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I’ll be teaching more about this, connecting this process with the work I (and Kalayna Colibri for women under 30) offer to women during SoulFullHeart sessions, leading a guided meditation to connect with Divine Feminine energies such as Magdalena and your inner protector during a woman’s call this Saturday, May 20th if you’d like to join your BEing with ours!:https://www.facebook.com/events/1083484598423538/

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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Grand Love Affair AND The Everyday Moments Both

By Jelelle Awen
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The GRAND love affair, yes, the sweeping up moments of bliss, physical desire so strong, racing and responding heart beat, heart chords forming, souls remembering the legacies of your other Nows….
The GRAND love affair that sweeps aside previous plans, beloved geographies, current attachments….as it invites you into NEW grounds that feel like a moon walk of unexplored terrains.
The GRAND love affair that transforms previous ideas and understandings of romantic notions, blows them away to dust, as the actual grounds of heart, body, mind, and soul realms form a solidifying kingdom and queendom.
The GRAND love affair is this sacred union and yet, also, it is the everyday moments, the simple moments, the practical moments. The moments of ‘this is our life together’ and buying groceries, sharing and talking over ALL that you are experiencing of life, cooking and eating, taking care of pets and maybe children. These moments based on a compatibility that bring good will, yet not stasis.
The everyday moments hold the GRAND love affair from the ground up, yet do not flatten or make it mundane. EACH partner is alive in personal exploration of their inner worlds, bringing the tales of their inner journeys to each other. Checking in together, comparing notes from the ‘road’, and then going back IN again.
The GRANDEST love affair of ALL grows from within, happening as your inner feminine and your inner masculine connect and are felt and collide together. Your falling in love with SELFness and with the heroes inside you and the heroines too. Your everyday moments of self love and connection, paying attention to this inner love affair, watching it deepen and grow.
THIS self love overflows to your partner in life, the BEloved outward mirror you have chosen to BE a reflection of your inner transformation and to share the GRAND love affair and everyday moments of self love and soul awakenings WITH you.
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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Your Own Love Shack Seeds Sacred Exploration

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Walking the tender ground of exploring sacred union is ultimately a journey to Self.  It is opening the inner vaults of our deepest and most fragile places.  Seeing and feeling things that we have hidden both in our bigness and our not-so-bigness.  It is taking responsibility for our own personal vulnerabilities and landing them within ourselves first and then to our partner in this dance.

The gift of our inner work assists this ebb and flow of excitement and fear.  We have a container that we have etched out for ourselves to be with all the energies and emotions that arise in each moment.  But no matter the amount of previous inner processing, the grist of one-to-one romantic relationality accentuates things about ourselves we may have known, and new ones that pop there heads out when divine timing helps it along.

Beyond ourselves though also lies an experience of other that reflects so much about who and what we are.  That is awesome and scary shit!  What does love what us to see about ourselves through the heart eyes of another?  There is a treasure of trove of goodies to unearth and experience.  The only ‘success’ that is to be found in this exploration is how much were you willing to feel, be real, and let IN.  

This is where our own personal Love Shack comes in.  This is created by meeting and feeling all the parts of ourselves that hold fears, resistances, and despair around love itself.  We go into that Love Shack with the intention of healing our blocks to experiencing the kind of love we were all meant to experience from withIN, to be overflowed and then received back again in ecstatic communion.  As long as the fire in your Love Shack continues to burn and shine, the outcome of any exploration into union is all a part of the path back to Self that never really started and never ends.  

I look forward to digesting more of my exploration as the time feels right.  For now it resides in my own personal space of digestion and experience.  There is a journey to this mate ache that occurs prior to this emerging exploration and I offer my heart to those men that are feeling the rumblings of wanting to come out of romantic hibernation and set the sails toward claiming their own desire for union, or reunion, with their Queen.  It is a very sacred process and one that is held with reverence and compassion.  
Please join us for a group call this saturday, May 13th at 11:11amCST with Raphael and I exploring this ground of sacred union through teachings, a guided meditation (to connect with your sacred feminine and masculine frequencies within and with the higher self of your sacred union mate), and individual sharings: https://www.facebook.com/events/1320873934656373/orsoulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

BEing Called Into Sacred Marriage Union From Within

By Jelelle Awen

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You are called into the sacred marriage. You are called into the union from within.

From within, you can feel the aspects of you that are masculine energies of activation and pursuit, guarded at times and defended. These aspects created out of the void of birth father, as he can only give what he has healed from within himself. Without this healthy father, the void of a lovingly protective father to lean into, parts of you BECOME the father you need even as they grip too tight, protect too much, guard too fiercely, becoming overly critical of self and others. And, if you are a woman, these masculine aspects too much BECOME your expression in the world which then is leading with this masculine energy even if you ‘seem’ feminine.

From within, you feel too the aspects of you that are feminine energies of stillness and receptivity…often covered over and layered over with matriarchal frequencies which are, again, masculine in feeling tones. These aspects created out of the void of birth mother, the void of a nurturing responsive mother to hold you, so parts of you BECOME the mother you need even as they control too much, are overly protective, go on the ‘side’ of others too often. The authentic inner feminine is uncovered and revealed through negotiation with all these aspects that have been protecting her…in both women and men.

You are called to connect with Divine masculine and feminine guides and energies that offer a higher vibrational frequency of sacred gender expression. The Divine Feminine frequencies – such as with Mother Mary/Mother God, Magdalena, Kali, Kuan Yin, and others – provides templating and modeling as She emerges out from the patriarchal shroud. The Divine Masculine frequencies – such as with Christiel/Yeshua, Metatron/Father God, St. Germain, Merlin, Buddha and others – provides templating and modeling as He arises from the claiming of his inner feminine and healing of the wounded masculine.

ALL this inner work, this inner marriage that occurs as you re-unionize the gender frequencies from within you and connect with Divine Masculine and Feminine guides…..this overflow of self LOVE then can draw a sacred union with your sacred union mate to your experience and into your world. As you separate and differentiate from the wounded frequencies and expressions of gender inside, so you can BE with the polarity dance with a partner in a very NEW way.

You are called to go within, as ANY shift in your external experience originates from this inner ground. Focusing outward, fixating outward on ‘drawing a mate’ can serve as a distraction and diversion from this inner work. ALL relationships that you have experienced are a reflection of you anyway, often the aspects of you that have been in shadow and that you have suppressed…..both your bigness AND your trailing edges of being.

SO MUCH LOVE is needed for this inner work sacred union dance. Love to hold the exploration from within, to not resist what seems to persist about your previous relationships. Love to allow the healing that is needed at the emotional body level and in the aspects of you that had the experiences that were intense and often traumatic too. Love to have you see YOURSELF in your current or previous mates and re-own, re-claim, re-lieve the aspects of you that have been previously disowned. Love, if you choose, in the form of a spaceholder to help guide you through the inner terrain (such as what we offer in our SoulFullHeart sessions: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions)

You are called into the sacred marriage. You are called into the union from within and then, to experience the union WITH OTHER that comes as a result. It is this inner union for which the sacred human can arise in a beautiful, high vibrational twining of masculine and feminine expression in gender form.

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Raphael Awen and I now offer sacred union sessions for couples! Read more here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sacredunion

Please join us for a group call this saturday, May 13th at 11:11amCST with Raphael and I exploring this ground of sacred union through teachings, a guided meditation (to connect with your sacred feminine and masculine frequencies within and with the higher self of your sacred union mate), and individual sharings: https://www.facebook.com/events/1320873934656373/orsoulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book,Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Rushing Heart, Patient Soul, Aching Body

by Kalayna Colibri

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Hurry, soulmate, hurry here…

Though the rush is only in my heart

and my soul that knows no waiting, says,

 

“Meet me in this place as soon as life readies you,

and the ripening of old personas prepares them to fall away,

baring only the branches of your truest self

standing naked as an apple tree in winter…”

 

I remember you as I remember me.

I feel the lifetimes of scarcely feeling one another

yet knowing each other just the same,

though fears and avoidance called us apart

in geography and deeper claim

of everything we wanted to have…

 

I’m not missing you this time around, love.

My dance continues as you gaze in the windows

with your higher self at the helm of your dreamworld.

…it’s not a dream though.

Everything you see, feel, touch, taste, smell

is me

is us

is what we’re here to have and create together…

 

I will NOT miss you this round, love!

You will know my lavender call and rose-light glow

of timeless age and accustomed wisdoms

bringing in love-dance energies,

calling out your realest name…

 

Our bodies will know the exploration

of the deepest caverns among flourishing wild flowers.

My femininity longs for the touch

of a masculinity found through the yin of him…

the feeling-space container of a long unbidden love force

now unleashed and unbound.

 

I won’t remain un-found by your searchlight

streaming outward

reaching into the places inside my honeycomb tresses

and vines of sacred unity.

 

We will speak of it all, love!

Of those things we’ve tried and tested

and consciousnesses that have bested us

so far.

It’s a strapping down into a straight-up bolt

of lightning fire creator gifts

launching our ways into the worlds of now

and the expeditions of all kinds

inside these places we have still to rediscover.

 

I’ll lie awake and think of this, love!

Only this.

Even as I serve and move forward and bring it all back inward.

In these dark nights on my own

and yet not alone.

With the firm grasp of imaginings dawning and breaking

upon the body, heart and soul

that waits and creates for you…

to bumble out a careening new way

WITH you

inside US

and into this endless upward thrust

of upending, ascending existence! ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.