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From Victim To Ambassador Amidst An Apocalypse

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By  Raphael Awen

Seeing stories more and more of what only looks like concentration camps 2.0 in the name of protecting people, it strikes a fear chord inside of me.

How far is this thing going to escalate? How prepared is prepared?

What shall I do? How will I know what to do and when?

I gave these feelings and questions some heart space inside of a Divine Mother and Divine Father womb space this morning and was invited to feel some larger awareness around it all.

When we see the polarity increasing between two sides of any conflict, we are antsy to find the right side, and once we feel we’ve achieved that, we tend to expound the virtues of our side over the enemy’s side. We become virtuous warriors regardless of the side we’ve chosen.

Regardless of the conflict, if you feel into the energy of both sides, a quite surprising common denominator is seen. Both the designated perpetrator and victim are feeling and acting out of a place of fear of losing something precious to them. Though they are at polar opposites as to the solution of the crisis at hand, they are totally cut from the same cloth when it comes to what is motivating them.

If that’s true, then I need only look at myself to get a window on what’s going on deep in the heart of my enemy’s camp.

Deep at core, I don’t want to lose my life. I may feel I’m higher consciousness about this than I was before, even realizing that my true being can’t actually die, but only change forms, but still I’m not outside of this deep core motivation to preserve something precious and avoid something feared in the here and now. And in those somethings, is where I was told this morning, that we find resolution, both personally and collectively.

Now, I can only possess these kinds of fears if there is still ground in me of distrust towards my outcome, without which, I could be rest assured of a good and pleasurable future.

Is this the exact same world that my enemy lives in, regardless of our perceived and chosen oppositeness?

It feels to me to be the case.

This whole polarity world is maybe no better pictured than in our relationship with money. I must have money to survive, or I can’t be of use to anyone, let alone myself, unless I survive, so getting and obtaining money comes first. Period. Me first, you second, in a world of scarcity and separation, that is in the domain of money as we know it.

This perception of the world skews our relationship so deeply with all of life, and really gets backlit when there’s a perceived active threat.

Then this week, as I’m seeing the ugliness getting uglier, I can’t help but ask, ‘who are the real lords above all this conflict’? It takes one into the science fiction realm of off-planet realities and beings who would appear to possess a consciousness level higher than ours, able to pull strings and levers to get their way.

But if these beings are not science fiction, then what might really be motivating them?

Well, what motivated all of us to create factory farms, the concentration or containment camps for the animals? I say ‘we’ because if you’ve ever eaten an animal, you have a share in the whole endeavor. That includes me and you and that’s a ‘we’. We perceived ourselves to be of a higher consciousness than animals, so we felt and found a way to obscure any arising pang of guilt towards the whole operation.

But when the Nazi’s did the same thing with humans, that was ‘wrong’?. Well, not to them it wasn’t. Then there were the people’s countrymen who turned on their neighbors turning in the lessers to the new superiors, amidst all the chaos of the deeply polarized traumas. People were forced to take a side.

But what forced them? It seems to me that what really ‘forced’ them was not any outside authorities, but rather this shared common denominator of unconscious need to preserve oneself.

When you feel that both victim and perpetrator, (regardless of which side you perceive yourself to be on), both share this identical motive ground, you step up to the table of resolution and true ambassadorship.

First owning how deeply it lives in you to survive, and where your own fears of death lay, or fears of a diminished future, live inside of you, you are now able to see your enemy for who they really are.

They are you.

Now, the judgments and polarities are able to be resolved, because the sacred purpose of those judgments and polarities are completing. Their purpose was to bring us back into remembrance with ourselves, which is one and the same with bringing us back into being re-membered with one another, and putting behind us our necessary dismembered phase of consciousness.

The whole point of the polarity that we all signed off on was to leave oneness, so we could return to it, and expand it in the process, to give love a chance to see itself that it didn’t have before. Time was needed. Space was needed. Drama and trauma was needed. But we never lost this essence of being love, and that’s what haunts our fears of loss.

We know way beyond any kind of mental knowing a deep knowledge of being divinity, and when parts of us feel like they’re stuck in anything less than divinity, it strikes this chord of fear and anxiety. Will I ever get to return to really knowing and feeling what I truly am? This is the shared ground and it is called vulnerability. No matter how protected or powerful, no matter our chosen and championed side, we can’t escape this vulnerability.

These vulnerabilities are the portal doors back to full rememberance that we all must journey through in our glorious and awaiting experience of being re-membered with love.

Love really is this big of a deal and it needed dramas this freaking large to come to know itself.

If you remember, we all remember, as we are all inextricably connected, even as we journey through a necessary phase of perceiving ourselves as a separate self.

Love this separate self, get to know it and love it, find out how and why it ticks, toks and talks. It is your personal path of full discovery, full disclosure, complete reconciliation and total revelation.

My guidance circle said to me this morning, ‘Though it contains some needful apocalypse, I assure you that nothing could be more rewarding, fulfilling, fun, than this homecoming. It is the future that is filled with good things and you are well programmed for it, quite beyond any imposed ‘enemy’ programming’ or highjacked matrix reality.

Much love, I hope this helps you in some deeply inner way, but also helps to answer the many practicalities and choice points you are feeling, just like the rest of us.

If you feel I could be a resource to you, I offer 1:1 session space and would love to hear from you. There’s also 3 more of us facilitators here at SoulFullHeart who might also be a better fit for you. More info here: SoulFullHeart.org/sessions.

Also, Jelelle and I are embarking on a daily video series release come January 1 for 31 days, that I invite you to bookmark if you’d like to get acclimated to us a bit more. You’ll find that in the new year at https://youtube.com/c/SoulFullHeartExperience and a lot more is there in the meantime.

Much Love,

Raphael (and Jelelle )

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Meeting Your Divine Self – Our Journey From & Back To Source

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By  Raphael Awen

The farther we journey from source, the greater is our return to source where we are enabled to experience it for the first time.

This is the homecoming that you and I are now in, even as parts of us feel like the separation is growing.

It’s no longer the separation that’s growing, but rather your awareness of it that is increasing.

This week has been marked for me with another reunion with my Divine Orphan self that was triggered by some arising life circumstances, inviting the conditioned-to-this-life parts of me to feel and see this divine orphan self. I’m finding the beholding of this part again to be so moving and deeply rewarding, that answers the deeper questions at hand about the feelings of separation.

We were all initiated out of divine source into experience itself, and this experience needed to begin with what was not source. All of the fears, anxieties and depression we carry hearken back to our being birthed out of our divine bliss/oneness/source essence.

In this, we all were implanted with a great core wound, a wound that would underlie everything we would come to label as neurosis, things wrong with us. All of our attachments and quarrels within and without stem from this wound. But this pain and burden we carry is not only a wound that hurts, it is also an opening, a portal back, back to our true essence.

Your true essence is not conditioned by the conditionings of fear and lack that were needful for the experience journey. Your essence hasn’t participated here in the hijacked, 3D, matrixed, realm. Your essence remained untouched and protected from all of that.

The godhood you long for, you actually still possess and never lost. You just took on the experience of forgetting and of losing. In experience, you did lose divine connection and it hurts like the hell that it is. In essence though, you never lost a single thing. You are both experience and essence. More correctly, you are essence that took on experience.

You set out not to discover faraway lands, but to leave the land of your origin, so that you could return to it and discover it for the first time. As essence, you couldn’t know or feel or appreciate that essence and bliss. Bliss was left wanting to be known and felt and experienced. It was a risky endeavor, but your soul and the divine’s decided to fund this great discovery journey into reverence, awe and wonder.

As the increasing awareness of this separation rumbles in your life, you feel a fever pitch of everything coming apart at the seams. Everything you’ve worked so hard for to make experiential life bearable or even good comes now at this stage to be found to be not enough. In reaction, you may work harder as I have on gratitude and whatever other host of self-prescriptions to attempt to right your relation-ship with life, only to find they are not at all effective like they were before.

What the hell is happening?

You are beginning the return part of your journey home. You are sailing in the opposite direction. You are returning from where you came and the way you came. The return voyage has been negotiated through many lifetimes and so many experiences and you are ready now, equipped and prepared for the return.

The conditioning of lack and scarcity that you onboarded in your journey into experience is still here, and at times feels strangely and troublingly magnified. But this is all to be expected as you are called to feel and reconcile all the parts of you that are adjusting to returning to source – such a different experience than journeying away from source.

Now, you begin to get a sense of how sacred this forgotten core wound opening is. It is the one thing that would guarantee your return to divine source experientially. Your messed-up-ness is actually your perfection expressing and calling out to you. Each arising pain and ache is an intrinsic part of  the ongoing guidance as you restore to each part of you the pieces of their birthright that they are ready to feel.

Your preferences for pleasure over pain are a key part of your being human and of restoring your humanity with your divinity. You are invited not to bypass them any longer in the name of some kind of medicative spiritual practice. You chose to experience. You chose to want and to need. Those wants and those needs will need to be courageously owned and embraced if this voyage is to be completed successfully and on time (and in time).

As you witness the great fever pitch of insanity unfolding around you, ask yourself if you can think of any greater contribution to such a distress call than that of saving yourself, deeply choosing and embracing your own return journey home.

As you continue your return journey home as one being, you are reminding the oneness that we all are and share of this remembrance journey. Those around you in the forgetting phase will need your example when the time of their remembering comes, just as you needed it from others.

May we each embrace the perfection that we are amidst all that seems and feels so imperfect. May we set up a heart home with a great hearth of the warmth that will allow the fullest remembering.

Raphael Awen

SoulFullHeart.org/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Energy Update: Christ Codes Supporting Forgiveness, Karma Clearing, Deep Feeling

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by Kasha Rokshana

The codes that activate your inner Christ Light are coming in now and my sense is that they will intensify throughout this corridor of 11/11 to 12/12. They are tender, loving, yet bear an intensity in their illumination. 

They invite you, with so much care, into feeling and processing on deeper levels that will support you to clear karmic binds to other souls, arise more and more into your bigness/vastness, and truly experience unity within and outside of you. At the same time, the access to pure joy is also available and supportive, like bliss waves moving through every chakra, especially as you free up the access to them from deep inside of you.

You may feel these Christ Codes emotionally and spiritually especially, as if a portal is opening up within you and there’s an uptick in your porosity and sensitivity, yet you may also feel them on a physical level as love comes in to permeate and cleanse every cell. How you relate to and hold yourself on all of these levels is being illuminated and invited to shift into a new depth of self-love and acceptance.

Christ Codes are an opportunity for deep healing and reconciliation within, yet also with others. The process of forgiveness is potent and very real… one that happens in layers, with taking the space to feel all parts of you in their triggers, by feeling all Metasoul aspects who have been persecuted, harmed, or worse, in other lifetimes and helping them reconcile what has happened to them. True forgiveness is a high frequency not easily achieved or conjured, yet it can be felt into when you feel ready and guided by your Divine Self to go deeper.

Christ Codes are very much a “come as you are” invitation into the lap of the Divine, where everything you feel is welcome and every part of you is safe and held. They are here to help you feel whatever is REAL even when you feel waves of genuine rage, unhappiness, dissatisfaction, or even fear. They support you to fully inhabit, not diminish, the power of your depth of feeling, all the while guiding you toward those choices that will awaken and enliven you and everything within you that you’re here to do, become, and offer. 

Christ Codes activate and nourish the seeds planted in us by our experiences of being a part of the Magdalene/Essene lineage which you may resonate with deeply. They are constantly being watered, even through adversity, conflict, and the challenges of living in this day and age, through this messy phase of our Ascension. This time of year, especially around 12/12, you will likely feel them even more so, perhaps steering you in a new direction, opening your heart (especially to yourself), piquing your curiosity about yourself and others, and bringing you a new sense of context and the reasons WHY you are facing all you are.

Christ Codes remind us of our humanity AND our divinity and how they are not mutually exclusive or ever completely aligned, enlightened, and perfect. They are an invitation deeper into your own Christ lineage and unique Christ Light within. Your soul valiantly chose to be here, to experience all it has and bring that to the fore, and to find ways to express and inhabit your soul gifts.

Christ Codes are a reminder of the love you came here to embody, and the love that is supporting you always to embrace everything you are, feel, and desire too. 

May the love of these powerful Christ Codes be felt within you today and ongoingly… as you feel your unique process of letting them in, of allowing them to guide you inward and live into more soul-led, love-based choices during this next phase of your sacred journey.

Love,

Kasha ♥️🌹

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Surrounded By Love

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By  Raphael Awen

We are so surrounded by love, full of love, made of love, that we needed the ongoing experiences of stepping outside of it, and then returning to it, as a way of perfecting perfection.

Love was willing to create a deficiency of itself, a shadow partition to cordon off some of its overbearing light to afford itself; and you and I actual experiences of this love.

We couldn’t experience love were it not for a deficiency of this love. Love couldn’t flow if love was the all in all, filling all things to the full. Flow and experience required a vacuum, something missing. Love ventured into an experiment with experience, for experience was another thing it couldn’t know, feel or have inside it itself.

Every desire, anxiety, joy and fulfillment that moves and shapes your life is part of this vacuum.

Love ventured into the business of lack and harm and wounding because any step outside of itself would require an opening, a portal, a wound.

We live and carry these wounds. They are our greatest challenges. We carry them personally, in our relationships with ourselves, with every other we’ve ever known or will come to know, and we carry them collectively. These portal wounds are everywhere. They not only remind us of our seeming separation from love, but also invite us to return to love at any moment. The access to this love is beyond instantaneous, for not even an instant is required to make its connection. It just is. You are it. You never lost it.

The duality we find ourselves in is the way home. I am, therefore I want. I am, therefore I am vulnerable to not having my genuine needs met or fulfilled. I am, therefore I am afraid. I am, therefore I need.

To not have need is to not exist in this experiment of experience. You get to be needy. You get to admit your vulnerability. You get to feel how deeply you yearn for fulfillment. You get to admit what you like and what you don’t like.

You get to return fully to the love that you are, where all the costs and outstanding liabilities on this balance sheet of duality will be reconciled.

You and I literally are this reconciliation, as well as the separation, both.

Love to you and through you,

Raphael Awen

SoulFullHeart.org

Pic above: Jelelle and I got to enjoy 3 magical sunny days on the coast here in Portugal last week, while making the trip to pick up Raianna Shai from the aeroporto.

Please consider joining us for our intimate and upcoming group call Saturday, November 7th. Sign up info in the comments below.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Dear You…

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Dear you…

What comes up from that deep well of your soul inside of you can feel like so much to hold sometimes.

It can feel like you’re going crazy trying to understand it.

It can feel like your heartbreak is so soul-deep that you’ll never overcome it or move through it; like you’ll never see the shoreline for the waters that surround you, that feel like they are drowning everything inside of you.

So, how is it that you’re still swimming, still breathing, even when it all feels like it’s rising above your head?

There’s a voice, whispering, telling you of your strength, even if you cannot consciously hear it; even if all other voices (many that aren’t actually yours) tell you that you aren’t going to make it (because they never did, did they?).

You’re writing a new story for yourself now, especially as you feel and begin to heal the parts of you that have been formed from so much Matrix trauma, so much birth family legacy and influence, so much 3D conditioning that has been layered over top of your big, big soul and naturally open heart.

You are offered only what you can carry. You are given a mirror only for what you can look at; what you have the power to see, digest, and even heal.

To opt-in for the feeling-way, the way of the heart, as a means to reconcile the many layers of necessary falseness, is humbling but also freeing.

It is an empowered sense of surrender even in your most disempowered-feeling times.

It is a tender way, always, to welcome in Divine Love and Support.

Dear you…

It is time to awaken and remember that the bright shoreline is just as real as the rough waters; that you know this terrain in ways you don’t yet realize; that even in the highest of highs and the lowest of lows, you will always be given what you need… and no more than you can possibly carry.

Love,
Your Divine Self

Take in the recording in Kasha’s voice

*****

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

What We Think We Own

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By  Raphael Awen

When we fight, push and press to own something, that thing possesses us. What was gained by force must be maintained by force.

Nothing can really be owned in this way without it owning us. The energy of the currency we used to buy it, is then the current that flows into our relationship with the thing. We possess the thing and the thing mirrors that possession back to us.

It breaks down and demands maintenance or it refuses to work. It threatens us with being stolen and calls for more time and energy to protect it. It gets neglected and then shames us for spending all that and not using it like we intended too.

How could something be called ours and not be owned in this way?

It begins with realizing that you already possess all things. You are the thing. You can’t actually be separate from anything. The vendor and buyer are playing a game of forgetting, thinking that one can rightfully own something at another’s expense and that this other must pay a ransom to transfer that ownership. Many others join so deeply into the game that it becomes a reality of its own. Thieves, police, prisons, security systems and so much more support this illusory game.

Then there’s realizing that any material thing is in its essence matter. It came from Gaia, our matter/mother. Our mother provides all things necessary freely without price. All matter is mother. Gaia is the original and only rightful owner.

Grasping to own Mother Gaia doesn’t work. It’s like trying to own love. Love can’t be owned, only let in and received. The one who receives her does just that.

And if something came from Gaia which is conscious, then a thing formed and framed from different bits and pieces of Gaia, retains that consciousness.

And consciousness wants to be experienced, known and felt. There’s no such thing as an inanimate object with this deeper awareness of what life and matter is.

All of this invites us into new feelings of reverence and appreciation, feeling how provided for we actually are, how our grasping is a resistance to that infinite and quite scary provision.

It invites us into feeling how ‘things’ want to be held in our open hands and bring their goodness and abundance to us. Things don’t like being passed on from rightful slave owner to rightful slave owner, they want to be free where they can be and express all they are.

Owners become stewards of living things and nothing more, being gifted with the relationship exchange of care, blessing and goodness (god-li-ness, god-like-ness) that the thing brings.

I’d so like to keep experiencing this more and more, letting go of chasing money, chasing things, chasing more spiritual sounding practices of ‘how to attract abundance’, when abundance is trying its best to find a way into my heart and life.

Raphael Awen 💚

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

“Miss Without Possession, Hold Without Grasp” | Jelelle Awen

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By Jelelle Awen

Authentic and higher dimensional Divine Mother and Father energies can “miss without possession, hold without grasp, and claim without ownership.”

This message came through during a recent session where I felt Mother Mary/Divine Mother offering this in contrast to what most of us have experienced as parenting and co-dependence in relationships. This was our role models in 3D of relationships from our parents…and also programmed to us by the Matrix.

The distinctions of these frequencies (missing versus possessing; claiming versus owning) become real to us as we experience them from the inside FIRST. From one part of us to another, we feel and heal the polarized and fearful dynamics that lead to grabbing, clinging, and controlling. Our inner masculine and feminine can find a balance, a celebration of differences, a common ground.

To move out of False God experiences of projected, fear and trauma based relationship with the Divine and others is a very challenging, long-term, process. There are SO MANY layers here from this life and other lifetimes within the Matrix to move through, connect with, process, and heal. We need to be willing to go into our deepest shadows, lift the protective veils, move through our most stubborn resistance, feel our most acute pains. Letting go in order to let in more love can be the most difficult aspect of the journey. We need a lot of resonant support and LOVE for this process….from the Divine, from our Divine/Higher Self, and from others.

The SoulFullHeart process and way that we have lived our life in community and been in relationships for over ten years is the WAY we offer to navigate this ‘cleaning up’ within and with others. You increasingly experience a healthier ground of relating to yourself, to your soul aspects, to your beloveds, and to the Divine that can commit, can be intimate and vulnerable, can let their love IN while being real about the resistances, shadows, and fears that come up in response to that.

You can experience the SoulFullHeart frequency through many videos, group calls (next one is happening on 11/7 with recordings available of previous ones), and books…especially my recent one Free To Be 5D which is an overview of the process. 1:1 sessions with a SFH Facilitator offer the deepest ground of initiation into this way of experiencing yourself, your life and others. More information at soulfullheart.org.

Here is my recent guided meditation to music offering a high frequency of healing and relaxation on physical and emotional levels w/Mother Mary:

Love,

Jelelle Awen

The Sacred ‘Pregnancy’ Of Humanity During This 10/10 Passage

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by Kasha Rokshana

I feel the ‘pregnancy’ of this time we’re living in. So much urgency to respond to as things shift and change from one moment to the next and there’s an apt restlessness in that experience too. You might also feel a push-pull within as parts of you sway and toggle between feeling like they are truly ready to move on from the ‘old, known normal’ and also like they want to cling to every last bit of it that they can. Every aspect of life as we’ve known it has been shaken up in the last couple of years and like expectant mothers and fathers, we know intuitively and logically that life can never go back to the way it was in humanity’s ‘youth’, before the added sense of responsibility for our own collective and individual shadows entered the birth canal.

I feel this year’s 10/10 passage as a Divine opportunity to respond to what’s real and to lean into guidance and Divine love too. It’s a gift… as even the hardest times are. We aren’t being caretaken or coddled by the Divine on our growth journey right now, though at the same time, we’re also being gently cradled as we experience the grief, tears, mourning, purging, in our letting go of a reality that was once precious to some parts of us… and resented too, by others. In humanity’s young-ness on a consciousness and galactic level, we were afforded certain ‘passes’ for a time. We were given the grace to ‘grow-up’ on our own accord and make choices that have now led to our Great Learning/Awakening. But now… now we’re in the pressure cooker of our own evolutionary story and being asked to truly take it seriously.

The truth always remains that Divine Love is holding us through it all. Even during these times where we may feel energies/lifetimes in our souls crying out and feeling anything BUT connected to this reality. The Divine is as ‘pregnant’ as we are, holding our hands and hearts in Its own. We are the parents, the stewards of what’s next and what’s new and as-yet unknown, just as we are also being parented and stewarded. This collaboration with the Divine is as sacred as sacred can be, and an invitation to feel our rebirth is being invested in at all times.

Though the dark and darker agendas keep coming to light, we are being empowered to look at them with the divinely discerning eyes, to let in all the textures of reactions and response to the truth of what’s emerging. We, as sacred humans, are not all ‘one-note’ after all, and this emotional range, our capacity to empathize and to care deeply about ourselves and others, is being called upon to help leverage and launch ourselves into the newly arising chapter that can only come out of the ashes, the incredibly humbling learning and re-learning experience that ‘life’ has been and continues to be for us ALL here on Gaia.

Divine love supports us all, surrounds us all, holds us all now and always. Letting in your own Divine connection however you feel to and can, is, as always, so vital to what’s real now and what is becoming real for all of us as walk out this 10/10 passage.

Join Raphael and Jelelle for a by-donation Zoom group meditation call this coming Sunday on 10/10, focused on Divine Love and deepening your own Divine connection. More info here: soulfullheart.org/events

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Living In A Deeply Altered Reality

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By  Raphael Awen

We all live in a deeply altered personal reality that we have needed to normalize to a large enough degree to make it bearable and doable.

We added a balm layer of amnesiac forgetfulness to help this altered reality hold together.

The specific location of this altered reality does have a location and coordinates on the larger map of reality, but even that larger map is yet another altered reality.

All realities are sub realities/royalties of love. Love created infinite number expressions of itself in a bid to know and expand itself.

You and I are one infinitesimally small expression of that, while at the same time holding all of the infinite fullness of that grand endeavor, being and expression.

As awareness of our origins arise for us in felt, feeling toned experience, we make more and more conscious reconnection with that origin. That is coming to know and feel our divine love essence. This is the update of love that is experiencable and felt, a ‘to:’ and ‘from:’ kind of love, like in valentines, not just a love ‘isness’ that just is, but can’t be transactionally known outside of itself. Love stepped outside of itself to know itself. You and I are that outed love kind of reality.

Even though we were outed from love, we never lost that connection to love, nor did we lose our essence of being love, for it was impossible to lose. So impossible was it to be lost, that love needed to go to these lengths to create make-believe realities mixed in with so much forgetfulness to allow for these places of experiment, discovery and expansion.

In it all, we all suffered from feelings of being cast out, of falling from grace, of assuming a personal guilt for such a felt tragedy.

These were experiences the divine was unable to have within itself were it not for you and I as modified expressions of the divine capable of this layer of creativity, forgetfulness and even suffering. But what is the point of this suffering, if not as the spiritual texts refer to, ‘a greater glory to be revealed’ in us?

As all of this is coming into our awareness, we are invited to reopen our quest and questions from a new place of childlike reverence, awe and wonder.

We can certainly see when we look at one another, or look at divergent parts of ourselves, how each of our personal realities is a specific sub reality, and all of that within a larger shared reality layer here on Gaia. But what if this Human/Gaian/Earth reality is only yet again, one of innumerable other realities, and other locations?

We can also see and feel how this ability to create sub realities is so embedded in each one of us, and how we do that from moment to moment, or from phase to phase in our lifetimes, and soul history.

If any of this feels true, then it really invites us in our awakening to humble ourselves to this background reality generating dynamic within to become reverent and curious about what it is doing and why.

How could we possibly awaken to its workings and invite it to go into new directions that our heart and soul wants to consciously take instead of living out the realities dropped on us from our environment or past conditionings?

How could we love, feel and bridge to the past conditioned realities in a way that completes them, and moves them from fear to love?

Are there ‘portal moments’ where we are ripe and ready to shift realities? How do we recognize and embrace those kinds of moments?

How do we relate to those who we have so deeply shared and created a reality with when they don’t seem done at all with the reality like we are?

Is the asking and living out of these questions possibly the return trip back to love, the completion of love’s experiment and expansion?

You are love where you are now, where you were, and where you are headed. Try as we may, this is one essence we can’t shake, for it is the only essence from which all other essences arise.

Even your shame, fear and anxiety are all a part of this expansion, experiment, experience, seeming departure and return to love. So is your unbounded joy, desire, delight and love of life, the divine and one another!

Deep, rich, unfathomable love to you,

Raphael Awen

Please join us for our 10:10 Divine Love Transmission Group Call on Sunday, October 10.

https://www.facebook.com/events/2992100991003079/

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Deep Rich Unfathomable Love

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By  Raphael Awen

Deep rich unfathomable love surrounds you and I at all times. This love is infinite, profound and isn’t based on anything you can do or not do to make it real. It is because you are.

So great is this love, that we need a resistance to it in order to make it experiencable. Like a submarine is built to withstand the greater atmospheric pressures of the deep ocean to prevent it from collapsing under the pressure, so are you and I built to withstand love, given how deep we are submerged in love. It’s like the love is too real!

We don’t want to withstand it totally; we just want to take it in, in measured ways that bring life instead of harm.

Each moment is a negotiation between the resistance and overwhelm of this love with our need and desire for this love. It seems parts of us are still functioning on old programming to resist the love with a tenacity that isn’t true or needed anymore for where we are now.

We are actually ready and need to let in a lot more love than we could in the past.

As we feel this yearning for more love, we are able to ask love to help us deal with the resistance, to un-engineer it, if you will.

We get to see and feel why love didn’t feel safe before and how we built deeper resistances to it; how we settled to live on less; and create a world with less and less love. That worked for us while it did and actually felt like love, security and safety to parts of us.

But that’s not what’s true now. Our digestive systems are upgrading to live on a lot more and higher frequencies of love. We actually feel worse when we resist love like we used to, like we needed to before.

Each time we negotiate with a resistive part of us to ask for and receive love, we experience love, tears, a good kind of collapse, that assures us deeper of this love surround. We also see that love couldn’t feel like love were it not for the resistance, being without anything to compare it to.

Love in this way is experiencing itself through you. It needs a you with needs and resistances to have an experience of itself. Love didn’t have this when it just existed in its bliss state of oneness, when it was all there was. Here is where we get to reconcile our darkness with our light, personally and collectively.

What resistances are you feeling inside? How and when are they expressing in your life, in what circumstances? How can you recognize these as portals and opportunities to receive love?

Love,

Raphael

Please join us for our 10:10 Divine Love Transmission Group Call on Sunday, October 10.

https://www.facebook.com/events/2992100991003079/

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.