Feeling What Is Real On Mother’s Day

By Jelelle Awen

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Mother’s day….this one can be sticky, as relationships with mothers are. Sticky as in connecting into a sense of duty and obligation, a 3D conditioning picture that activates the 3D self inside you to ‘show up for mom’, often at the expense of what you authentically want. And even if you want to celebrate your birth mother today, the questions you could ask are, “What is my emotional truth about my relationship with my mother?” “What do I (and parts of me) really FEEL about being with her?” “Is it a part of me which is ‘doing’ the role of son or daughter?” “Does my spirituality and my truths about reality get put aside when I spend time with my mom and how does this make me feel?”

Even if you consciously feel that your relationship with your mother is a good and healthy one, I offer that unless you BOTH have done personal healing work plus awakening soul frequencies to connect around, healing the karmic frequencies of your soul legacy together…..it is a bond that is mostly based on lower frequencies, codependence, usually buried deep in the subconscious and emotional body. To be REAL about this relationship and how it has impacted you is the start of awakening beyond it.

For women who are desiring to embody their sacred femininity, deconditioning from the templating of their birth mothers is KEY to the process. Deconditioning looks like feeling inside yourself how her templating around what it means to be a woman (which she inherited from HER mother and so on) LIVES inside of you and influences you. Also, feeling the ‘ideas’ that she has modeled to you or said to you or energized to you about femininity. Connecting to your inner mother as a part of you can be VERY illuminating as well, as you separate her frequencies so your more authentic essence can arise.

For men, the way that they currently relate to women and within relationships can hugely be connected to their relationships with their birth mother. This can play out in parts that are pushing away from ‘the source that they came out of’ and esp. if they have an overly dominating or invasive mother. OR a part playing the role of ‘good son’ or ‘dutiful son’.

On Mother’s Day, I feel appreciation for the crucible of growth and reflection of my shadow side (and some leading edge sides although not much) that my birth mother offered to me. It has been my healthiest and highest choice not to be in relationship with her for several years as we went on different paths around emotional body healing and soul awakening (which I chose deeply, following my soul purpose here.) I feel love for her on the soul level and can connect there with her higher self in moments even as we are not in relationship here.

I feel appreciation mostly though for myself and my commitment to HEAL what was wounded and harmed (all my choice on a soul level) by the dysfunction and toxicity represented in this relationship. I became mother to all parts of me who so needed nurturing and support and comfort and so was able to hold space for my own healing. I held my inner child especially around this, until her wounded and hurt frequencies transmuted into magical 4D and eventually 5D crystal light energies.

My gratitude and appreciation also goes toward the Divine Mother and all the frequencies for which She offers Her heart and comfort to heal these woundings within us around these relationships. It has been the Divine Feminine that has provided and templated for me what it means to be a sacred feminine woman here during this intense time of transition and invitation into our sacred humanity. And it is to Her for which my deepest sense of daughter extends.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with Raphael for men…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Carrying “Home” With Us Always: The Yin Of A Visiting Sea Turtle

by Kalayna Colibri

 

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Sitting on the beach, feeling and discussing sacred feminine energies with a new connection was magical enough… yet in the next arising moment, a giant mama sea turtle came wandering up onto the beach, likely looking for a place to nest. I stood back while others scrambled to watch her and take pictures from close-up. I was struck by her beauty and power and felt tears welling up in my eyes as I took her in from a distance. I felt concern for her safety with the crowd around her, yet she took care of herself and went back to the ocean. This wasn’t the time for her to come ashore. Her task of laying eggs could wait a little longer.

She beamed with a natural stillness… a willingness to slowly make her way to her next chapter of laying eggs. For us, this is like embracing the process of going inside, planting seeds when it’s time to outside of us without forcibly making our way, and taking good care of ourselves and our inner-seedlings in the meantime. Time is something that doesn’t exist in the animal kingdom/queendom. Their sense of “timing” comes from making sure they can continue doing what they know innately they are here to do. Maybe they have a sense of their own mortality, but maybe they don’t need one to encourage them towards living life, because they are so in the moment at all times and not married to any sense of days, minutes or hours. Life arises for and with them again and again.

I feel a strong template and a connection to the Divine Feminine in this turtle. She had a stillness in her beauty and a beauty in her stillness. There was no need to somehow construct a self-image that would make her appear more attractive. She had a natural course of action, a path laid out for her by her very nature. She was beautiful because she was HER unabashedly… and not trying to be anything else. And, she took care of herself. She was vulnerable to human harm and yet strong and determined in her vulnerability. In her Yin way, she carries her home with her always. A place to retreat INside to whenever she needs, especially for safety and comfort. We have this too and with process we can get to this place of also carrying our homes with us ALWAYS….

During this time of growing desires for the mates we really want to have in our lives, nature is giving us a lot of clues. It feels like there is a NATURAL fit for everyone and sometimes that fit is simply YOU for as long as it needs to be. In this way, there really is NO competition. This feels true for life paths and soul purposes too… the days of competition are coming to an end as those who are ready to serve out of a deep love overflow inside of themselves from doing immense work there, step up now in all of their strong vulnerability and natural them-ness. We are all learning to arise for ourselves in ways we hadn’t realized were possible and we thus we’re starting to arise for each other too!

THIS is the beauty of collapsing constructs and systems and ways of being… once they have collapsed INSIDE, then the rewards come forward and the pure joy of being able to serve and BE love in a much purer form than before can really fill us up!

To this strong, stunning part of Gaia in sea turtle form, thank you for showing up when and how you did yesterday at the beach… I am still digesting your visit but wow, you’ve already taught me a lot… and I look forward to more. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess.Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Embodying Sacred Feminine Frequencies

By Jelelle Awen

 

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Painting by Robin Chance

 

The sacred feminine, the divine feminine embodied, the woman living more and more from the place of fifth dimensional (and higher) consciousness….She can be a mystery, an arising question to live into more than about clear definitions or set answers. There is a sense that her energy invites and draws others as she serves love WITH in all areas of her life and in most moments. She lives from a sense of personal integrity and authenticity, having embraced her inner shadow with love and courage, and inspires others to BE the same. She leads with vulnerability, her strength coming from bringing what is real in her heart and soul. She invites others into a possible resonant ground that reflects a mutual truth possibility rather than contending or trying to prove that she is right. She is able to take action on what is necessary to be done in order to serve love as an expression of her soul purpose and connection to Divine Source.

The sense of what it IS to be an ascending and awakening human in female form seems to be a deepening, spiraling, non-linear process. There are curves and turns, offering the next layer of discovery or another ‘round’ of experiencing a pattern or loop repeating itself and offering another piece of our puzzle. As we awaken, and especially in the 4D transition phase, we may become less polarized in our gender expression as we burn away and let go of what is not who we really ARE in feminine expression but rather what we have been conditioned to be. We are invited to feel what is NOT actually authentic femininity, what seems to come instead from a wounded masculine expression or place of BEing or aspect inside of us.

Holding space for women and my own process around embodying my sacred femininity, healing the emotional body, awakening the soul, integrating karmic aspects from other lifetimes has offered me a higher perspective on the patterns and themes that often play out in this process. The word ‘sacred’ is important as a key marker of movement in this process is from being SCARED of the inner feminine to being SACRED with it….. holding it with an increasing sense of reverence and curiosity.

A key differentiation place in this process is to become conscious about the template we received from our birth mothers, other significant female caregivers, and birth sister(s) relationships. It can be very illuminating to ask the questions: What was the templating I received from my mother around what it means to be a woman? What templating did I receive from other female caregivers and from my sister(s) around what it means to be a woman? How does the energy and messages of this templating impact me now in all areas of my life? How does this energy express in my relationships?

Connecting with your ‘inner birth mother’ can lead to great healing and separation. A simple way to do this is to write a letter (and outloud during meditation too if you want) to your inner mother telling her how you experience her energy in her life and invite her to write back. You then begin a written dialogue together with you asking her questions about herself and discovering more about this energy that lives inside of you as you ‘took it in’ like a sponge your whole life. As you connect with your inner mother, you will begin to ‘defuse’ or separate from this energy, allowing for more objectivity about it and with more arising of your authentic essence. It may not be possible for you to embody your authentic or genuine frequency of femininity while in relationship with your mother and a phase of taking space from the relationship may be necessary to experience more clarity, perspective, and growth.

Another key aspect to the sacred feminine embodiment process can be connecting with wounded masculine energies that you have taken in and embodied. This can especially present itself in an inner protector aspect, a usually masculine feeling and looking energy that expresses as a guardedness and uses weapons of protection such as energetic shields, swords to jab and pierce (internally and toward others), etc. Negotiation with the inner protector allows for more authentic gender expression of femininity as this aspect often guards the inner feminine and conscious negotiation with it can lead to deeper embodiment and access.

Connecting with energies of the Divine Feminine in different frequencies as Ethereal guides provides a new templating to replace the ones you are letting go of. I have mainly experienced connection with Divine Feminine guides showing up in the energies and forms of Mother Mary, Magdalene, Kuan Yin, and Kali/Dark Mother. Experiencing these guides (and however She shows up for you) during meditation allows for an infusion of multidimensional yin frequencies of comfort, nurturing, creative alchemy, sisterhood, stillness, healthy sexuality, passion, desire, and much more. These frequencies serve as healing balm to the places inside that experienced the wounded feminine and still suffer around it.

Another aspect of embodying the inner feminine is connecting with and healing karmic and archetypal wounded feminine soul themes such as non-vulnerable priestess, pious nun, matriarch/queen, warrior, medicine woman, witch, and more. Karmic playouts can express in persecution wounding experiences (both as the persecuted and the persecutor) that greatly suppress or impact your ability to express your soul gifts as a woman teacher, way-shower, and healer, for example. Or another examples is feeling how sisterhood wounding or traumatic experiences from other lifetimes may influence your relationships with women now. The push away from or the surrender to patriarchy is a big one for most of us with ways that it energizes and plays out in the now and impacts our gender expression.

Embodying the sacred feminine is holding space for the emotional reactions and previously undigested emotional frequencies that come up from the emotional body during the awakening and ascending process. It is also making space for and surrendering to the ‘rumble’ of death and rebirth of the feminine that wants to move through your life and clear out what no longer serves you or serves love. Rebirth can only happen with death or with letting go. Letting go of frequencies that don’t match you anymore in all areas of your life, making changes at a rate and pace that is self loving WITH negotiation with parts of you if possible allows for the blooming of your inner feminine from a small seed to full, ever arising expression of your BEing in female form.

This is the ground that I cover with women in SoulFullHeart Group Calls (there is one on June 17th and July 15th) and through SoulFullHeart facilitation sessions (and for women around 30 with Kalayna Colibri): soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

She Is Blooming: Poem For The Inner Feminine

By Jelelle Awen

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She is blooming, fertilized by a rich inner world of self discovery

She is inviting, inspired by the Divine to be a beacon of light for herself and others

She is discerning, guided to hold boundaries with love and take space when needed

She is beautifying, attuned to the exquisite possibilities around her

She is serving, called by love to share her heart and soul gifts with others

She is holding, created from a container space inside to bake on what needs to be felt

She is expanding, integrated with her multidimensional, cosmic self and star seed origins

She is arising, drawn to embody her authentic and vulnerable expression

She is BEing, energized beyond busy mind to experience life from stillness

She is the inner feminine (for both women and men)….feeling her with open heart, open mind, open soul invites her forward to play, to dance, and to LOVE….more and more, to BEcome

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This is a NEW video with Kalayna Colibri and I discussing the sacred feminine, healing the inner feminine and the wounded masculine INside, separating from feminine birth family templating, connecting with the protector part, healing the archetypal sisterhood frequencies, working with Divine feminine energies/guides and MUCH more. Most of this I have not heard offered anywhere else quite in THIS way, which comes through our personally embodied processes for many years that we share about too.

This video gives you a good sense of what our group call for women will be like on saturday April 15th at 11:11am, which will also include a guided meditation with me to connect with your inner feminine, identify your protector who ‘guards’ your inner feminine (which allows WAY more access), and some Divine Feminine guide frequency connection too with Mother Mary (and maybe others). This call will also offer an opportunity to connect with other resonant women with regular calls scheduled monthly in the future (the next one is scheduled for May 20th.)

For more information about the call on April 15th, go here:https://www.facebook.com/events/210818762733437/ or to soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls. To offer a donation (no minimum amount) to come to the call, go here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

For more info about sessions with me for women and with Kalayna (for women around 30 years old): soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

To watch an intro video with Kalayna and I talking more about the sacred feminine: https://youtu.be/gkjwI_9BAi8

 

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Sacred Femininity Video With Jelelle Awen And Kalayna Colibri

By Jelelle Awen

I AM excited to be sharing a NEW video with me and Kalayna Colibri discussing the sacred feminine, healing the inner feminine and the wounded masculine INside, separating from feminine birth family templating, connecting with the protector part, healing the archetypal sisterhood frequencies, working with Divine feminine energies/guides and MUCH more. Most of this I have not heard offered anywhere else or quite in THIS way, which comes through our personally embodied processes for many years that we share about too.

This video gives you a good sense of what our group call for women will be like on saturday April 15th at 11:11am, which will also include a guided meditation with me to connect with your inner feminine, identify your protector who ‘guards’ your inner feminine (which allows WAY more access), and some Divine Feminine guide frequency connection too with Mother Mary (and maybe others). This call will also offer an opportunity to connect with other resonant women with regular calls scheduled monthly in the future (the next one is scheduled for May 20th.)

For more information about the call on April 15th, go here:https://www.facebook.com/events/210818762733437/.

To offer a donation (no minimum amount) to come to the call, go here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

For more info about sessions with me for women and with Kalayna (for women around and under 30 years old): soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

To watch an intro video with Kalayna and I talking more about the sacred feminine: https://youtu.be/gkjwI_9BAi8

Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Guided Meditation Video To Soothe Ascension Body Symptoms, Connect With Mother Mary And Metatron, Comfort The Inner Child

By Jelelle Awen

The process of ascension, of moving from 3D frequencies and consciousness states into 4D and beyond can be challenging and intense for our physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual bodies. The body symptoms that arise as we move from carbon based to crystalline can bring up overwhelm, disruption to our usual routines, and even emotional trauma. I have been feeling the intensities off and on in my body (increasing in the last few weeks) as there is a sense of fast tracking going on for those of us called to be wayshowers and love ambassadors during this time of change and transition. I write more here about the physical body changes and needs:  https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/03/22/i-want-to-come-along-the-transition-from-3d-to-crystalline-light-5d-body/

With the great sorting through and personal choice point that is going on at a galactic level (as I write about here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/04/01/a-time-of-great-choosing-fear-or-love-happening-in-the-now/), those of us choosing love through the ascension process are being offered support to hold space for ourselves with self love and care. Coming out of an intense head and neck pain experience, I was led during meditation to a pool of soothing water with Mother Mary. Mary offered loving comfort as I submerged in the waters and felt them enter into all of my chakras. I could also feel a residue in my inner child who is in transition from 4D to 5D crystalline (after many years of emotional process work with this energy), who needed Mary’s love and comfort and reassurance that all was going to not only be OK but MAGICAL and wonderFULL too.

This was such a soothing experience for me that not soon after, I felt a desire and encouragement to create this guided meditation to share with others. I created a brief outline for it before recording but most of it is ‘in the moment’ as I connected with the collective experience of those souls choosing love through the ascension process. I have been leading guided meditations during several group calls and this one puts together MANY elements that have come through during those calls that people have found helpful, comforting, powerful, and moving (and me too!).

Both Mother Mary and Archangel Metatron ‘show up’ in this meditation to provide a balance of feminine and masculine frequencies. The feminine frequencies of Mary help to balance out the intense more masculine activation tones that are coming through from photonic light rays. More about that here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/03/30/divine-feminine-energies-coming-in-to-balance-masculine-activations-sacred-feminine-blog-series/

It is experiencing and tapping into this balance inside that helps to sooth and ease the ascension symptoms. During this meditation, we also activate, clean, and purify the ascension chakras – including others beyond the main seven ones, bringing their frequencies of galactic connection through the stellar gateway, soul memory and other lifetime connection (plus connection to your Metasoul line or soul group) through the soul star chakra, causal chakra (back of the head, helps with dissolving the reptilian brain stem and activating the pineal gland) and others. As this energy moves through all of the ascension chakras, it is grounded into Gaia and purified by the loving waters. We also activate your violet flame/sacred human/5D human column or ‘violetprint’.

Offered here too, in this meditation, is space for the inner child, its healing and reactions, and connection with your emotional body. Mary especially holds space for this healing which is an important aspect of the ascension process….to not leave the inner child or other emotional body aspects behind yet to invite them into healing and integration as you rise. The invitation is about BEing open to feeling your feelings and reactions and not bypassing them or using higher vibrational frequencies to cover them over, yet to FEEL what is REAL in your emotional body.

Hope you enjoy this meditation and it brings a sense of Divine support from within and in connection with other too!

Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about joining us for group calls (and live guided meditations, plus teachings and individual sharings), space holding sessions for individuals and couples, individual and group retreats to Puerto Vallarta, Mexico, writings, and more.

Music is from the Soothing Relaxation You Tube Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCjzHeG1KWoonmf9d5KBvSiw

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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

INside Starts The “Day”

by Kalayna Colibri

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THIS is the Yin-in time

before the penetrative sun

blazes high and hot

giving heat and depth to activations

of all who keep from blocking it

out.
 

This is the “time”,

the phase of a “day”,

when waves are gentler along the beach.

As we rise from sleep

We feel our first rumblings

of a day blessed

and starting from withIN.
 

How will we choose

to begin our inner “day”

“today”?
 

Sand love, ocean love, pigeon love,

SELF love…

ALL surrounding as I enfold myself

in me and in Gaia.

BEing in quiet…

except for the writhing and steady ocean waves

(the Yang needs to be here somehow

and so does the more penetrating aspect of Yin).
 

Words float in

on the wings of fluttering feelings.

An opening out of heart

after a few “days”

of cave-IN process,

BEing and FEELing some buried-ness

inside.

Providing a Yin nest for thrashings

wailings

tiring, running-out-of-ground

life strategies,

old, beating, relationship to self

that must be burned away now

to let in the balm

that was always waiting

with soft, warm blankets

and silk pillows.
 

I feel MY love.

I feel HER love

and HIS…

and I dream of a “his” love

that’s on its way

as he continues to find love

in himself

and me

in myself.
 

We wake up every “morning”

yet we wake throughout each “day” too…

in triggers

joys

ups, downs, flatness, no-thing-ness…

sleepiness, weariness, nappy-ness,

LOVE-ness…

ALL BEing-ness!
 

Invitation and love and ness

and THRIVAL beyond SURVIVAL,

sharing intimacy THROUGH self

WITH others.

No victims,

only powerful choices

with outcomes

and INcomes…

welcome and not

yet always, ALL ways

frought

with all we need

to enter a new birth

of renewed life

and rediscovered

recovered

LOVE! ❤
 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

To Be With Mother Mary/Divine Feminine Energies: Sacred Feminine Blog Series

By Jelelle Awen

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She waits for me by a pool of water, surrounded by a soft pink light, the rose quartz light of soft heart energy. Her ‘typical’ heavy robes and cloak around her head have been replaced with crystalline folds of light and she feels both naked and fully clothed. She has arisen above “Mother Mary”, certainly above the religious picture of her….yet, she is OK with being called Mother Mary for now and for me to call Her this as I have been for many years now.

To be with Mary is to be with comfort, with nurturing, with tender possibilities of healing. She feels both our humanity, our very human heart, AND our soul and transcendent aspects. To be with Mary is to feel the innocence of our BEing as it lives in the heart of our inner child who heals from wounded, 3D expression to magical 4D to crystalline 5D integrating in with our adult expression more and more. To be with Mary is to feel instantly and completely forgiven for our shadow and for our fears.

Today, by the pool, Mary cups her hands together and offers me a drink of the glowing water. I sip from it, feeling the energies of rejuvenation, purification, and stillness too somehow move through me. I feel the energies soothing and inviting me into my feminine capacities and expressions that Mary represents, that Mary IS, and that I AM too.

In this flow of Divine Feminine energy, I can feel the places in me that have been energized by a good kind of activated masculine energy (by taking in sun codes, by connecting with Archangel Metatron and merging with his energies AS he activates my angelic aspects more and more). I am soaking in the restfulness AND the stillness. It is like they are wrapping around each other from within, as they do in the dance with my beloved Raphael Awen. Moving into my passion expression and serving love has brought in a necessary masculine energy of activation balancing with the feminine.

I also feel Mary inviting me to feel ‘the cries of women’ as I am feeling the ‘cries of the world’ without suffering over the suffering that is felt. I write more about that here as an aspect of awakening and open the cosmic heart:

This feeling of connecting with the ‘cries of women’ is an aspect of the activation of the higher heart and higher frequency, more crystalline cosmic heart. Since I have a specific purpose to serve love with women in the exploration and expression of sacred humanity in the form of the feminine, it is important that I am connected to the cries of women even if I am in a different place emotionally from what most women probably experience of life.

The cries of women are moving through me and I feel the frustrated sadness at the heart of the ‘cries’…so many desires for MORE, so much sadness when it doesn’t come. It feels like a vast swirl of energy and Mary holds me while I dip a consciousness toe into it, offering that we will feel more together as we go in response to women and also whatever I need to have illuminated for myself for which there is still something left to heal and feel.

To be with Mother offers a new template of nurturing mother…without stickiness, without grab, without codependence, without HER needs dominating the space. She offers healing for our birth mother woundings (which we ALL have) that were passed on to us through the unhealed emotional bodies of our mothers. She brings in a new frequency of mother, offering women especially a clearing out and purifying of their mother experience and their own capacities of motherhood toward themselves and others.

This is to be with Mary….BEing open to feeling and healing, both on a personal level and for those drawn to serve love with others to also feel the cries of the world and the cries of those for whom you are drawn to serve. Feeling the cries, hearing them and yet not Becoming them allows you to offer a way and BE a guide to activate the remembrance of the soul and higher self.

Many years ago, Mary offered me an updated prayer, ‘Hail Mary’ to do with her….a more esoteric prayer/invocation freed of religious tones to connect with Her energies. I found it very comforting and helped me to connect with Her energy as I recited it during meditation:

“Hail Mary, Full of Grace

The Divine is with Thee;

Blessed art thou amongst sacred women,

And, blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother God

Pray for all of us lovers

At the hour of our death and rebirth

Amen” ~

Mother Mary is one of the guides that it feels like will be coming in during the guided meditation portion of the women’s group call on April 15th. Go here to read more about it: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Whispers Of Yin

by Kalayna Colibri

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This stunning image is an oil painting by Pablo Picasso

The free-flowing

free-to-BE feminine.

 

In ALL her curves

uncontained, untethered, unchained

a Yin fireplace with no cap

a place for energy

to locate and rumble through

before it too flows onward

through the passageway

of allowance

encouragement

empowerment without icons

of false power.

 

To be worn loosely

without control

yet with the most exquisite

movements of unknown choreography.

 

There is no plan to the Yin dance.

No prediction so correct

no way of being so learned,

so educated, so minded, and bound…

 

Only free words on a page,

and unsaid in the air

in the energy of true lovers

in the worship and reverence

of the light between soul friends

sisters

student-teachers, teacher-students

brothers

and those kin who find their way.

 

The Yin is a journey

without beginning, end or in-between.

An arisement of forever ISness

and LOVEness

Lovely and beloved

yes

but also tepid, intrepid

curious, passionate

fiery when necessary

yet soft and supple at its

coreless, corsetless

core.

 

It cannot be packed into a bottle

or locked in a cage

wild and not

tame and yet still not

but an IS that cannot un-BE

and shall forever reign

rain

living, loving and dignified

in each self that claims

an arising desire for more of IT

for more of THEM

for more of that garden

of growth

and forever softening stillness.

 

The dance’s dancer, yes.

The musician’s music, yes.

The way of the no-way

and the inward-bound traveler

of perpetual flow

movement

and onward spiraling

in a circle of circles

and never-ending cycles

that change and upend

and give unto the weary

a renewed ember

of climbing fiery light.

 

There is no kNOwing, only kNOWing

this energy of all no’s and yes’s

that bring it all together

in any way it pleases

and any way it wishes

in support of your deepest

heart

and all it holds within it.

 

I am in your music.

I am in your words.

I am the co-creator

and the unknowing, unknowable

eager experimenter

wanting to help you SEE

what you can’t…

 

I am that energy you yearn for

quite often in your own mothers…

The inspiration, the beloved love

the core of all you wish for

I hold WITH you…

 

You are the one I call

each moment of awakening

waking up to see and feel

the intangible yet very real

YOU – Arising! Claiming!

BEing!

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Divine Feminine Energies Coming In To Balance Out Masculine Activations

By Jelelle Awen

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Solar geostorms, sun spot flare ups, photonic light waves beaming down through sun rays…..all this outside activity of stirring and churning, blaring and flaring. It is a fiery picture, isn’t it? A rather masculine energy. Many souls are tuning into this activation energy that ignites and wakes UP as it stimulates our light bodies, our emotional bodies, our mental bodies, our social bodies (new one for me to name, yet feels SO TRUE). All these bodies are like planets in our inner galaxy rotating around the orbit of our soul and the sun of our heart and the moon of our unconscious. All this stimulation can bring up symptoms and unease and detox in all of these bodies too as the 3D self and unaware ego resist, release, and ultimately let go at a rate and pace negotiated by the higher self.

In the physical body as it transitions to 5D light body UP can come the residues of what we have chosen and lived on a cellular level. The toxicities and energies we have taken in of eating BEings that have been killed; the frequencies of chemicals and foods made in laboratories; the exchanges during sexuality that weren’t based in love but something less; the habits and patterns that lead to less vital experience of body, INdigestion. And again, the 3D self can amplify these symptoms, make them worse, grab onto them, suffer or linger in them and the love of the growing higher self embodied YOU invites a moving on, holding space, yet, keep moving on into love.

The emotional body is releasing pain as the higher self YOU is activating love codes, PURE love messages, NEW messages of love to hold space for the movement of what has previously been subconsciously stored to move into the light of your consciousness. Suffering is a tone that maybe you (and parts of you) have gotten USED to, yet it is NOT the tone of Golden Earth, 5D frequency. It is not the tone of the higher self-embodied sacred human. It is not the tone that Gaia emotionally wants to feel anymore. BIG changes may be necessary to move suffering out of your life, to say ‘no more’ to suffering in the emotional body, in the mental body, and in the social body. BIG changes navigated with those PURE love messages coming in, creating a NEW reality where big changes are navigable at a rate and pace that you can BE with.

I feel a Divine Feminine ray, a softness, is beaming down TOO….to balance the masculine activation frequencies, stronger than I have felt Her before as more clearing has happened in the outer grids and in the collective and in souls to allow Her to come through more. It felt foggy to offer Her for all these years as it was bright inside of me and in my soul. She seemed to be shrouded in veils and mysteries in terms of outside perception of Her. Yet, more and more, is Her brightness coming through to be seen and felt and remembered.

The four energies of the Divine Feminine that I was awakened to in 2010 after remembering reiki energy still feel relevant to me as a way to connect with Her as you also embody them more and more AS YOU….this can be for both men and women. The four energies are the Mary ray of pink and blue energies offering purity, innocence, compassion and forgiveness. The Magdalene ray of ruby red offering sisterhood, queen mate, sacred sexuality (with partner or with self). The Kuan Yin PURE white ray offering nondual frequencies, beyond the mind, beyond the body, stillness, and BEing in the Now. The dark, black as night ray of the Dark Mother offering death as a form of rebirth, inviting embracement of the shadow, the necessary dark to go with the light.

It came up yesterday on FB that you can physically see these energies of the Divine Feminine (and Divine Masculine) in photographs when you place yourself in front of the sun and take pictures with a digital camera. What is in your auric field will then revealed to you. The orbs or rays of energy show up in different tones and colors and you can connect with them to feel what they are trying to tell you. Take a moment to feel, hear, and see what these energies are offering to you, what She is offering to you….write down the messages, speak the conversations out loud, bring Her energy into your meditation space. Ask to connect with one of the faces of the Divine Feminine I have mentioned above during meditation and one of them will show up for you…the one you are most needing and wanting in the moment. Or maybe MORE than one…

These energies of four seem to infuse and offer a balance of our femininity within (again, yes, men too). Each one of the ‘faces’ of the Divine Feminine is a reflection of our faces. Each one of their energies offering a mirror to our energies. Like the seasonal shifts, I have felt each one connected to a specific season too even as they are ALL of them. Mary has felt like autumn or fall; Kuan Yin like winter; Dark Mother like spring; and Magdalene like summer. This has worked for me in activating and connecting with them….use what works for you.

 

The Divine Feminine is HERE to balance out the masculine, is needed, and while in more polarity sense now in the mostly still 3D collective consciousness….She moves more toward subtlety as the frequencies raise up. Bring Her into your heart to remember and to bring love into the wounded from birth mother places in the 3D emotional body. Bring Her into your soul to remember and to bring love into the wounded soul frequencies from patriarchal dominance and other lifetime experiences of persecution, hiding soul gifts, suppression of the Divine Feminine. Bring Her in and experience Her reflection of the love that you ARE…

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.