By Jelelle Awen
She waits for me by a pool of water, surrounded by a soft pink light, the rose quartz light of soft heart energy. Her ‘typical’ heavy robes and cloak around her head have been replaced with crystalline folds of light and she feels both naked and fully clothed. She has arisen above “Mother Mary”, certainly above the religious picture of her….yet, she is OK with being called Mother Mary for now and for me to call Her this as I have been for many years now.
To be with Mary is to be with comfort, with nurturing, with tender possibilities of healing. She feels both our humanity, our very human heart, AND our soul and transcendent aspects. To be with Mary is to feel the innocence of our BEing as it lives in the heart of our inner child who heals from wounded, 3D expression to magical 4D to crystalline 5D integrating in with our adult expression more and more. To be with Mary is to feel instantly and completely forgiven for our shadow and for our fears.
Today, by the pool, Mary cups her hands together and offers me a drink of the glowing water. I sip from it, feeling the energies of rejuvenation, purification, and stillness too somehow move through me. I feel the energies soothing and inviting me into my feminine capacities and expressions that Mary represents, that Mary IS, and that I AM too.
In this flow of Divine Feminine energy, I can feel the places in me that have been energized by a good kind of activated masculine energy (by taking in sun codes, by connecting with Archangel Metatron and merging with his energies AS he activates my angelic aspects more and more). I am soaking in the restfulness AND the stillness. It is like they are wrapping around each other from within, as they do in the dance with my beloved Raphael Awen. Moving into my passion expression and serving love has brought in a necessary masculine energy of activation balancing with the feminine.
I also feel Mary inviting me to feel ‘the cries of women’ as I am feeling the ‘cries of the world’ without suffering over the suffering that is felt. I write more about that here as an aspect of awakening and open the cosmic heart:
This feeling of connecting with the ‘cries of women’ is an aspect of the activation of the higher heart and higher frequency, more crystalline cosmic heart. Since I have a specific purpose to serve love with women in the exploration and expression of sacred humanity in the form of the feminine, it is important that I am connected to the cries of women even if I am in a different place emotionally from what most women probably experience of life.
The cries of women are moving through me and I feel the frustrated sadness at the heart of the ‘cries’…so many desires for MORE, so much sadness when it doesn’t come. It feels like a vast swirl of energy and Mary holds me while I dip a consciousness toe into it, offering that we will feel more together as we go in response to women and also whatever I need to have illuminated for myself for which there is still something left to heal and feel.
To be with Mother offers a new template of nurturing mother…without stickiness, without grab, without codependence, without HER needs dominating the space. She offers healing for our birth mother woundings (which we ALL have) that were passed on to us through the unhealed emotional bodies of our mothers. She brings in a new frequency of mother, offering women especially a clearing out and purifying of their mother experience and their own capacities of motherhood toward themselves and others.
This is to be with Mary….BEing open to feeling and healing, both on a personal level and for those drawn to serve love with others to also feel the cries of the world and the cries of those for whom you are drawn to serve. Feeling the cries, hearing them and yet not Becoming them allows you to offer a way and BE a guide to activate the remembrance of the soul and higher self.
Many years ago, Mary offered me an updated prayer, ‘Hail Mary’ to do with her….a more esoteric prayer/invocation freed of religious tones to connect with Her energies. I found it very comforting and helped me to connect with Her energy as I recited it during meditation:
“Hail Mary, Full of Grace
The Divine is with Thee;
Blessed art thou amongst sacred women,
And, blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother God
Pray for all of us lovers
At the hour of our death and rebirth
Mother Mary is one of the guides that it feels like will be coming in during the guided meditation portion of the women’s group call on April 15th. Go here to read more about it: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.