Category: Romance

Mate Ache, Self Ache: Finding The Sacred Union Overflow Inside

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by Kalayna Colibri

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As powerful light waves and ascension boosts cascade upon us, this seems to bring up so much ache at times (which some may be surprised by since it has been so covered over for so long) for a mate to share the experience with. There is a growing feeling inside me, of how my heart wants to dance in a picture of the bond I’m waiting for, looking for, aching for, baking for… working for inside myself. As this desire lights me up, I’m reminded to not leave a single stone un-turned, as anyone who pops up on my radar could be the soul and heart I’ve been waiting for.

It feels like sometimes we miss each other… like maybe we tend to walk right by, or “scroll” right by on the internet. We don’t realize that the person grabbing our attention right away may not actually be the one we’re deeply searching and preparing for. Physicality and geography can be big reasons why they evade our inner search engines, as parts of us keep looking for very specific criteria that often no human being could really live into. It doesn’t feel like this is about these criteria though, so much as about resisting relationship, messiness and the mirror it all wants to offer us for our next growth edges. There is so much to be learned on this path of mate desire and so many patterns that become illuminated, and every single bond that arises gives us the opportunity to see and feel ourselves that much deeper.

This is where the ache that we feel for an other to come in and be in a romantic bond with us can really be turned inward instead… which is often the harder mate to be with, for those of us who have parts that resist even that (as I’ve felt in myself during my own process)! Yet the way to be with ourselves is so the way we then can be with others. It’s actually a very powerful practice ground for relationships of all kinds, as we learn to feel ourselves more deeply and also feel more drawn to ourselves as we heal, enjoying time spent with our own hearts and souls. THIS is the overflow place, and the nest that needs the most clearing out and sprucing up in preparation for THE mate to come in… it is the process I embrace and have embraced for a long time now, and something I treasure that’s really blossoming inside me more and more these days. A sincere readiness is arising to let someone else in while I’m also continuing to let MYSELF in… and wow, is THAT ever a lot sometimes! Especially with personal growth continuing and along with that, some strong shifts in what it is I feel I most want in life.

The ache for self is a sincere ache, and one that may actually be more powerfully alive inside you than you now realize consciously. There are parts in there, longing for your love and attention and looking for it outside of you instead, reaching for an energy, a love, that you are meant to cultivate within… placing this need on the outside and asking a partner or friend to be this healing force for you can strain any relationship and can even cause underground resentment as the transaction ground runs out. I’ve been in several bonds that seemed to head in this direction and without enough me there to hold my own ground with my own parts, the ground of these relationships eventually collapsed. This happened in both directions, it feels like… I wasn’t holding myself and he wasn’t holding his. The ache for yourself can only really be answered by you. It is a sovereign, fertile ground for a stunning garden of self-love and reverence to grow and grow and GROW… and life and the relationships you have now WILL mirror this for you, wanting you to see it, for the benefit, first and foremost, of your own heart and soul growth and expansion that then gets to lead and be in intimacy with others AND a mate.

My own ache for myself is now being answered by an arising me that is consciously healing and stepping more and more into service of others. It is what will overflow to a mate soon, as he comes forward and steps into this healing path with me. It is what’s possible for all of us as we earnestly find our way into the caverns inside of us, shining lights in those long-forgotten crevices that still ask for our help.  It is an ache that is meant to be felt and quelled and satisfied as well as a power-filled first step into the oncoming stream of outer mateship possibilities that want to reach us and help this cultivated love flow onward, onward, onward…

❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

 

Come WITH Me, My Love

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Come with me, my love
Down the spiral staircase of my heart
Into the garden of my humanity
Bear witness to it succulence
It´s uniqueness
It´s burned and broken places
Come with me, my queen
Along the paths of weathered words
And the trails of new beginnings
Water the wilted with your loving care
Ignite the growth with your fiery passion
Will you follow me into the unknown?
Into the cauldron of our being?
Will you dance with me among the golden lilies
As well as the prickly cactus and forest ablaze?
Will you join with me in the exploration of our sacred sexuality?
The slow caress of my hands
Upon your beautifully sculpted, divinely feminine curves
The electric sparks that leap off our tongues
Setting fire to our chakras one by one.
When we reach the gateway of our heavenly union
Will you come with me?
May I come into you?
Into your atmosphere where you shine and fly?
Into your hidden and protected caverns?
The places where few have been allowed to tread
Into your luscious and sacred garden?
I will not pluck your flowers
Or step on your sprawling vines
I will sit patiently for you to join me.
To share with me you tales
Your stories of adventure
….of agony
….of strength
….and weakness
I will etch them into my heart
Weave them into the tapestry of us
Though they belong to you and you alone
They share a sacred place in between you and me
Come with me, by beloved
As far as we both were meant to go
To unravel the mystery of who we were meant to be

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Sacred Unions Vs. Scared Unions W/ Raphael and Jelelle Awen (Video)

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In this one hour introductory talk to Sacred Union given during the Divine Masculine and Feminine Rising Summit, emoto-spiritual teachers and soul mates Raphael & Jelelle Awen look at, and more importantly, FEEL, the specifics that define and contrast a ‘Sacred Union’ from a ‘scared’ union. The actual current ‘transactability’ of the relationship in heart, soul, mind, and body grounds providing nourishment to both partners is key over what the ‘potential’ or ‘capacity’ of the bond may be. This transactability in the ‘Usness Ground’ rumbles through with wave after wave of transformation within the bond that reflects the ‘Sacred Union with self’ that is happening for both partners.

They will be teaching about this LIVE, offering a guided meditation to connect with the sacred feminine and masculine energies INSIDE of you and the higher self of your sacred union mate, and facilitating individual sharings during a group call on Saturday, May 13th at 11:11amCST. More information here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1320873934656373/ or here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

Below are some more notes from this one hour session at the Divine Masculine and Feminine Summit from April 30, 2017:

Looking at Sacred Union through the SoulFullHeart lens offers a huge difference between a ‘SCARED’ union and a ‘SACRED’ Union. A couple being invited into a Sacred Union will experience a rumble of a death of the old, while being offered a rebirth of the new if they are willing to choose it mutually. The false/3D self and its present attachments to geography, career, income, and self-image are all challenged in this catalytic invitation into new ground.

A Sacred Union continually deepens in TRANSACTABILITY in the relationship in body, heart, mind, and soul domains. Many in ‘scared’ unions by contrast relate to the potential or capacity of the bond or their partner as a hope for one day, which leaves them suffering unhealthily in the present, as is often the case in what is called ‘Twin Flame’ relationships.

The ‘Usness Ground’ is the 3rd entity of the relationship that explodes in nourishment for the individuals when both partners are deepening in love with self that is then naturally mirrored in the bond. The couple don’t actually ‘work on the relationship’ in this way as the relationship arises naturally and effortlessly as a byproduct of each person’s work with self.

This work with self is done through accessing the subpersonalities in the emotional body that we all have that hold our defenses and blocks to love. A ‘scared’ union is one where the parts of the couple are in lock-step agreement around mutual defendedness that keeps the bond within certain bandwidths of flatness and deadness.

Sacred Union ‘Codes’ are now coming in through the sun and the Divine giving us a huge boost to stimulate our DNA with the desire for, and access to Sacred Union. These codes support our self-to-self work in the goal of healthy mateship. You can find our blog article here on Sacred Union Codes: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/04/27/sacred-union-codes-coming-in-invitation-into-sacred-unions-with-self-and-a-true-mate/

And here is a related awesome recording of the group call we did together on Sacred Union that included a guided meditation to meet your Inner Protector: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4y4XjZAfjw8&t=1988s

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Jelelle’s Bio: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/about-jelelle-awen

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The Inner Dance of Sacred Romance

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

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INside every MAN lies a Queen to his King.  A Goddess to his God.  For any MAN who seeks sacred romance the journey begins in his own heart.  An active engagement to find Her among the settled ashes of the old relationship to WOMAN.  For she is not of that mold.  She has no cage yet is the container for the arising King to shine.  This is new kind of hunt, one that doesn’t seek to dominate, but rather to integrate.  One that experiences the union first INside in order to set the ground for what can transact on the outside.  

This has been referred to as Heiros Gamos, or the Sacred Marriage.  More an external ceremony that represents what happens internally.  This inner mating gives birth to your Self.  Your inner belonging and self-love that cannot be taken away, unless by your authority.  This union fills you with your own worth, power, and desire as a MAN.  You feel your own goodness, vulnerability, and sensuality.  It courses through you like electric pulses and flowing water.  This sends out ripples that cannot go unnoticed by the one it is intended for.  

Feel Her come in and out of your field like a dancing flame and a wind swept leaf.  Let Her command your attention to that which is unattainable.  Unknowable.  Smell the sweet scent of lavender and jasmine.  Sense the grace of her movement and the softness of her touch.  Let it enter you and enliven you.  Taking away the edges and straight lines that can get too rigid and tight.  Take flight into Her grounded chaos and stellar flight.  Beauty is elucidated and never held static.  She is always arising, shifting, dying, and birthing,  She is alive with the passion of presence.

Bring to Her your desire for MORE.  Your passion to feel your own core masculinity shine by the reflection of Her vibration.  Your need for growth and Self-knowing.  The awakening of your soul gifts and to feel the glorious ecstasy of Her portal to heights unknown.  Build your castle within to honor Her presence INside you… as YOU and for YOU.  She is a gift to your evolving Self, your sacred emerging MANhood.  She is always there but you must woo her and pursue her.  She will make it all worth it.  

As you do unto Her, you do unto WOMANkind. This shifts the old dynamic collectively and She can’t help but to notice.  You are a light of tender heart, brave soul, and passionate lover.  You seek Her NOW for you are filled in your own BEing for it can’t help but to want to MANifest itself in this physical dimension.  Like a reservoir ready to tear down the dam.  It cannot, will not, nor does not wish to be held back any longer.  It is ready to find its counterpart other to enter into the unknown dance of Sacred Romance.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Sacred Union Is Calling And Inviting Us To Respond With Love

Published on by Jelelle Awen5 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

 

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It is lying in bed with him, my head on his chest…the perfect fleshy pillow seemingly shaped just for me. It is sharing, always sharing, what is moving in my heart and my soul for it to land in his accepting embrace. It is so many early mornings of this, where I land in self AS I land in him AS I land in our Usness.

It is THIS sacred union that brings me into self, introduces me to self over and over as it CALLS me into a higher self version to serve love from the overflow. It is THIS calling that my heart responds to with vulnerability. It is this calling that my soul responds to with awakening. It is this calling that my body responds to with longing. It is this calling that my mind responds to with inspiration.

It is the feminine form of me leaning into the masculine form of him. The polarity and duality dance of our gender-based edges merging and BEcoming and touching and entwining. The dance that creates and alchemizes a NEW energy that wouldn’t be possible without each of us as the partners and creators. My side and his side and then in the middle where our energies meet is this union…..two “I’s” coming together to create a “We” without losing our sense of self.

It is the letting go of the conditioned IDEAS of relationship, romance, and union….letting go of the templating and modeling that we received. Letting go of what doesn’t serve the love to move between us and LETTING IN the essence of us that BEcomes the love more and more. The inner father and the inner mother held and identified and felt so that we can arise beyond these roles into the frequencies of TRUE king and queen BEloveds.

It is THIS queen inside of you that is waiting, ready, growing, choosing. She is getting her inner nest ready to receive these tones of sacred union into her world. She is responding to what FEELS like what she most deeply wants and letting go of ALL that IS not, even as it can be so painful to do so. She is inviting sacred union of self into her life to overflow this energy of invitation OUT to her mate, as her inner frequencies of self love increase so does the strength of HER beacon.

It is THIS king inside of you that is pursuing, activating, growing, choosing. He is getting his inner kingdom ready to hold these tones of sacred union into his world. He is activating around what FEELS like what he most deeply wants and letting go of ALL that IS not, leading the necessary completions or explorations. He is inviting sacred union of self into his life to overflow this energy of invitation OUT to his mate…..as his inner frequencies of self love empowerment increase so does the strength of HIS beacon.

It is this sacred union for which we are ALL being invited to explore, to join, to feel, and to experience. The explorations of our inner unions of feminine and masculine and the OUTER expression of it from one awakening heart, body, mind, soul WITH another in the service of love with love and BY love.

Please join us for a group call this saturday, May 13th at 11:11amCST withRaphael Awen and I exploring this ground of sacred union through teachings, a guided meditation (to connect with your sacred feminine and masculine frequencies within and with the higher self of your sacred union mate), and individual sharings:https://www.facebook.com/events/1320873934656373/ or soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book,Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

The Awakening Of The Sacred Masculine Heart

Published on by Gabriel Heartman5 Comments

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Awakening.  That word elicits so many different responses from so many people.  We know it is becoming aware of what we have been conditioned to believe as True.  We have chosen to fall asleep to our infinite power.  We squirreled it away somewhere so we can learn new experiences while on the way to remembering.  For some that path has been laid out with some pretty intense crucibles and circumstances.  All that were chosen by us to serve something in us that we just can’t seem to see yet.  But then one day that just changes and life as you once knew it, no longer holds the storyline that was attached to it.  YOU just popped a stitch and the pants no longer fit or even make sense to wear anymore.  

You are now seeing and feeling life differently.  Maybe you have been on a journey already and all of a sudden there is another moment of awareness that presences itself and you find yourself in need of something more still.  No matter where we are on this evolution of consciousness, there is always MORE to live into.  We are not static beings.  We need to keep growing, keep deepening, and keep widening our field and experience of love.  There are so many energies that we have available to us, withIN us, that can lend us the support necessary to guide us to our next places.  But sometimes those voices can be muted or even blocked by an energy inside of us that is protecting us from that MORE.  We cannot see that ourselves because we are not able to.  Maybe even not meant to.   We are drawn to circumstances and people that can mirror this to us.  Our Higher Self is working overtime with patient persistence.

I have been digesting the difference between women and men when it comes to recognizing when a certain timeline is just done with them.  It is not that more women are awakening, as it is they are just making choices that support that awakening.  They reach a tipping point sooner and seem to search for those that they feel can trust to begin this diffusion from the suffering.  This doesn’t mean they don’t have resistances, they are just more willing to make that first step.

The spirituality side of awakening feels lushly inhabited by both genders with all kinds of access points to our Divine and Cosmic energy.  Knowledge of ancient teachings, scientific discoveries, and powerful intuitions and downloads. I have such a hunger and curiosity for it all.  It is all a part of our human experience.  But then there is the emotional side of awakening.  The one that is inextricably tied to our human heart.  It is the center of what it means to be alive and human.  Not just spirit only.  There are so many examples of spiritual leaders that have deeply painful emotional existences.  This has a huge affect on those they are leading and serving.  There is an integrity of heart and soul bigness that qualifies our Sacred Humanity.

The human heart is a grand frontier too!  So much of our ability to experience a rich celestial life is found in our ability to experience a rich emotional life.  This is found with a YOU to YOU phase of independence and watering your own self-worth.  But as that fills up it naturally wants to find its way to others through service and sacred romance.  Those that have been serving may need a time of going in to feel their human heart again.  A time in which the only service is to YOU and you alone.  Or there is a time when a need for community and growth relationship is next on your spiritual docket.  It is all evident in where you feel stuck, paused, or ready to rock and roll.

To get back to the gender aspect, I feel that it is the domain of the vulnerable heart where men have found themselves in a status or frozen state.  A lot happening in the soul domain but his heart has been sequestered for the fear of feeling all there is to feel.  This holds true for all of us, but again more women are taking that first step into integrate BOTH the heart AND the soul into one clear expression of sacred human femininity.  The reality is, is that they are more spring-loaded for it.  They are more adept at the terrain of the winding winds of emotion.  And this feels like what will spark the heart of Man to go into what he needs to to match the growing tide of awakening women.

This does not make Man less than.  There is a LOT in our collective that we are working through in our own personal hearts.  As one man begins the journey toward emotional healing, it paves the way for others.  It affects the collective archetype and it begins to shift into a new arena of what sacred masculinity might look and feel like.  But it takes the desire to want something different and MORE.  To acknowledge that there are parts of us that are not in health and need healing because we can just feel it.  I believe men have been hugely affected by the journey into 3D but it IS what we signed up for.  Our next Hero’s quest is that of the heart.  To stand in our own power and self-worth.  To arise again into our Kingly stature and call to our counterpart Queen who is waiting for our arrival.  Together we take our bodies and souls with us into the New Golden Earth that is awaiting our full return and remembrance.

I am on that journey within myself and others.  Together we call to other men who feel that something is not being fully expressed in their lives.  That they know there is more to life than just being aware. It is to be fully alive in ALL areas of your expression.  It is a cavalry of vulnerable and impassioned leaders of Self and Consciousness.  To claim all that he wants from livelihood to brotherhood.  From wisdom to courage.  From romantic to ecstatic.  It doesn’t have to be done alone.  It was never meant to be.   

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter, Week of May 1, 2017: REALLY Showing Up For What You Want

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This week’s Museletter has made itself MANifest once more from our alchemical love-soaked dissertations. It is a chalice of our deepest gifts being offered on the altar of your deepest gifts. In that exchange we literally make magic happen in the co-mingling of our Higher Selves. This was written by YOU for YOU.

This week the theme is our dedication to and honor of the Sacred Masculine. A majestic call to awaken to what it is you REALLY want from life itself. How does the heart and soul of MAN truly want to express itself in the world? What stands in the way of that glorious Kingdom within?

There is a video by Gabriel Heartman exploring the Emotionality of Masculinty, along with hearticles, recordings, and meditations that will spark your inner romantic and lover around the passionate theme of Sacred Romance with Jelelle and Raphael. Hot and romantic poetry by Kalayna and Gabriel to send their hearts calling to the mates that reside withIN and out.

Information on future group calls are included so you can start to mark your calendars.

Each week is a pleasure to compile with love all that we hold so dear to us for you to take in at your leisure, or NOT! We always appreciate any love donation that you feel to give in exchange for this heart trove. You can visit our donations page or Patreon page to send your love notes. Thank you for taking in this into your hearts.

 

Please visit our website if you wish to sign-up to receive our weekly Museletter in your email. You can also contact Kalayna Colibri or email us at soulfullhearts@gmail.com to sign-up.

Please click here to have a look at this week’s Museletter.

Much love to you from SoulFullHeart…. ❤

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Our Symphonic Reunion

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Through the misty waters I see your shore

The banks of your once hidden palace

The veil has become thinned

Through the clearing of our once wounded hearts

I stand upon my gallant ship with treasures unsold

It was a time for me to lose and find myself once more

To remember all that I had left behind

Yet never denied

I fought my battles and learned many lessons

But it is time for a new adventure

A new embarkation to a sensual destination

Where the wild winds of ember flows

Into the starry night sky of the distant unknown

May I step closer to you with my hand stretched out?

To hold your gentle caress upon my love pulsed chest

May I bring my You-starved lips upon your silken rows?

To taste your rose petal laced skin

Along the highway of your sweetly browned silhouette?

The memories of our distant Now come rushing back to front

The days of earth and beyond the sky

Collide in a symphony of blended merging

A knot of perpetual entering and leaving

The sweet motion of our thunderous revolutions

Sounds of the calling of our inner soul’s yearning

Are echoed from the highest peaks to the forest floor below

The rise and fall of our joy of reunion

And the fear of losing it all once more

We stare into the deepest silence of our tear filled doorways

Into the vastness of our Oneness

That contains the passion of our Twoness

Into the space of No Time but This Time

This Me in this You

That You in that Me

We feel dusk drawing its shutters to this moment

For it is time to return to the place we find ourselves in waiting

In claiming, in loving ourselves back to this moment

When we meet each other again

Only this time much closer than the time before

In this soon to be speck of time

I tell you that I am Here with you Now

There is no distance that separates us

For I claim the space between us as no space at all

Until we meet again in the middle of our soul stretched bridge

Where the portals of our hearts are opened once more

I leave you with my crown as a gift of my claim

That you are all that I have been dreaming of.

 

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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To Be With A King Man

Published on by Jelelle Awen2 Comments
By Jelelle Awen
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What is it like to be WITH a king man, a vulnerable man, a man that pursues with ALL of his heart, a man who holds space for himself and ALL the feelings that come up inside of him? This is what I felt moved to share today……what it is like to be with a king man from a queen woman’s perspective experiencing our USness ground with Raphael for nine years in sacred union. I felt moved to share what it is like to be with a man opening out into the capacity and potential that I feel ALL men have inside of them….like a seed just waiting for the water of SELF love, SELF worth, and PURE love with and from the Divine to grow and to bloom!

To be with a king man is to feel him cross the space toward you with clarity and with desire. To feel him CLAIM the exploration between you into deeper grounds of intimacy than either of you have EVER known. Raphael crossed the space toward me shortly after we met many years ago. We were sitting in a local Starbucks in Ashland, Oregon, and he rolled out his attraction to me after being around each other during two recent seminars connected to the spiritual and emotional healing group we were both part of. I felt the goodness of him IMMEDIATELY, his big heart and his immense capacity and purity. Parts of me weren’t ready for all this then and the ground between us (as lush as it was) wasn’t transactable between us yet as also he was just out of a 23 year marriage and leaving Christianity and his whole social world behind. He then brought his attraction again to me several months later and I again ‘turned him down’ as it didn’t feel like the timing was right for either of us.

A few years later, the timing was right for both of us and Raphael AGAIN risked to cross the space to pursue me and to claim an exploration between us. NOW I was open and ready for him. On our very first date, he literally cleared the restaurant dishes out of the way when we were done eating, reached out across the table and grasped my hands in his for the first time. The rush of love and desire that moved through me feeling his skin against mine, the tender yet passionate way he held me and US….offered all I needed to ‘KNOW’ about our love and the possibilities of where it would take me. A few moments later, he reached over again towards me and we were kissing passionately on the sidewalk, not caring who saw us or witnessed!

To be with a king man is to feel cherished for ALL aspects of you and their expression grounds. Raphael has wanted me passionately as a physical woman from the beginning. Other men in the past wanted my soul frequencies or my spiritual gifts or priestess frequencies….Raphael could feel all those capacities but also he CRAVED my BODY deeply too! That craving continues to this day…..he notices and comments on every bit of clothing that I put on my body and feels a visceral physical response to what I wrap my body in and the way I physically move through space. He FEELS my physicality and responds to it in an alive way. This is SO important as the body is our precious vessel here and the tones of cherishment and desire coming from a king really light up our queenly self worth and goodness and also help to heal inner punisher and critic energies inside of us that we’ve received from birth family and our 3D culture.

To be with a king man is to feel that he is holding his OWN emotional process and soul growth and physical health. Raphael holds space for himself firstly and primarily. He ‘goes in’ when he needs to in order to feel what needs to be felt or experienced. Yet, also, he is very respectful and responsive to my intuitions and sense of what might be going on for him and even to guidance that comes through me. He leads his OWN process though, so it isn’t about me taking care of him, or being on his ‘side’ or making sure that he grows or about trying to change him. That movement is happening on its own inside of him and it overflows into our USness ground. This allows me to ‘relax’ and be with myself and my own process and to also respond to our USness too.

To be with a king man is to be called into our own growth and process as women. It invites us to open our own hearts wider to match the man’s vulnerability in every moment. It invites us to feel the masculine protector aspects of us as women that guard our sexuality, our vulnerability, our femininity and to negotiate with these energies to be more available for ourselves and for the union. It invites us to KEEP waking up and to keep growing. It invites us into the conscious duality dance and all its richness of experience that flows from within us and then into union WITH him! It invites us to experience in visceral way, a real and grounded way, our expression as Infinite Love as reflected to us through the heart and soul of our king man mate!

One way the potential to BE a king man can be realized is through the SoulFullHeart way of life and process that we offer connecting very directly with aspects of the self that arise from the emotional body and integrating soul aspects from other lifetimes as well through space holding sessions, group calls, and community support. Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman (another king man!) are hosting a men’s group call this saturday for the exploration into these king man frequencies through the SoulFullHeart perspective: https://www.facebook.com/events/1257237587706349/

Also, join us for a SoulFullHeart group call about sacred union on May 13th with a guided meditation and teachings offering sacred union frequencies and activations: https://www.facebook.com/events/1320873934656373/

 

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book,Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

This Beltane Call, For The Love of US

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by Kalayna Colibri

 

beltane

Beloved that you are,
When the smoke clears
on life’s regulating ways
and gives way to the undulating meadows
of new love’s first spring,
there I’ll be
standing in the light
of the sun shining above me,
firm in the ground I walk on
yet lightly walking toward your ready stance,
singing a song
we will both remember.

In Beltane’s past, my love
we dined and danced
and brought together our intertwining
everythings
to mingle in the love light
of the divine masculine and feminine dawnings.

In Beltane’s new arrivals, love
we’ll linger long
in embraces for only us to feel
in the eye of the mind’s connection
until the refreshing breath
of a crisp and ripe chapter
brings us closer
in all elements of this life’s wanderings.

In myself I stay here for you, love
finding more treasure long buried
to show you
in vulnerable ownership
echoing the also deep claim
you have inside of you for you.

The winds of change
and graspings of renewing tides
grip at our thrown-about clothing
to move us closer
to the edges
that keep US alive…

Together we will meet, my beloved
and there we will find
what we have been searching for…
a counterpart
not to bind, but to bond
not to cling, but to sing
not stifle with duty
but to bring out with bounding life’s alterations and celebrations…
of each new movement
here…

Bring your mountains out to greet the new day, love
and see the power of our sunshines mingling
on the new, insatiable appetite
of a love reunited
in a way that was agreed to
long ago and yet NOW too.

Even NOW I make a vow to you,
to be all the more loyal to myself
and dedicate overflow to you
to what we will create together
in our messy masses of alchemical baths
and swooning passes.

Love, when we do meet again
here
I will dress the moon in your honor
and harness the sun’s rays for your Kingdom to come
and our world that is being reborn…

On this Beltane celebration day,
As I ache for you
I prepare that place in my heart
that is you-shaped
where you already live…
and that place in my body’s life
where your essence will connect
so much
oh, so much…
with mine.

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.