SoulFullHeart Museletter: Oct 22, 2021

The season of Samhain/Hallowe’en is upon us and the thin veils are helping us to feel ourselves and our souls anew. There’s no doubt that this time of year can stir up a lot inside of us and also spur us on into a deeper sense of soul purpose and passion too, even if there is a lot to feel in the meantime.

This issue of our Museletter features a NEW guided meditation from Jelelle Awen, featuring an appearance by Mother Mary, whose energies are very active in this small village in Portugal where we are currently living. This meditation helps to relax and soothe the physical and emotional processes that you may be experiencing, partly due to the thin veils, and also due to the ongoing process of awakening and healing that humanity as a whole is going through. It’s truly a balm of love for your heart and soul to take in.

There are some new writings from each of us this week, including energy updates and other sharing that may stir your soul and remind you of the Divine love supporting you. Jelelle also mentions in her recent writing that she is back to offering 1:1 sessions to women over 35.

You can read this most recent issue of our Museletter here.

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Lots of love to you!

~ The SoulFullheart Community

Dear You…

Dear you…

What comes up from that deep well of your soul inside of you can feel like so much to hold sometimes.

It can feel like you’re going crazy trying to understand it.

It can feel like your heartbreak is so soul-deep that you’ll never overcome it or move through it; like you’ll never see the shoreline for the waters that surround you, that feel like they are drowning everything inside of you.

So, how is it that you’re still swimming, still breathing, even when it all feels like it’s rising above your head?

There’s a voice, whispering, telling you of your strength, even if you cannot consciously hear it; even if all other voices (many that aren’t actually yours) tell you that you aren’t going to make it (because they never did, did they?).

You’re writing a new story for yourself now, especially as you feel and begin to heal the parts of you that have been formed from so much Matrix trauma, so much birth family legacy and influence, so much 3D conditioning that has been layered over top of your big, big soul and naturally open heart.

You are offered only what you can carry. You are given a mirror only for what you can look at; what you have the power to see, digest, and even heal.

To opt-in for the feeling-way, the way of the heart, as a means to reconcile the many layers of necessary falseness, is humbling but also freeing.

It is an empowered sense of surrender even in your most disempowered-feeling times.

It is a tender way, always, to welcome in Divine Love and Support.

Dear you…

It is time to awaken and remember that the bright shoreline is just as real as the rough waters; that you know this terrain in ways you don’t yet realize; that even in the highest of highs and the lowest of lows, you will always be given what you need… and no more than you can possibly carry.

Love,
Your Divine Self

Take in the recording in Kasha’s voice

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Energy Update: Shakti Fierce Feminine Energies Provoked By Full Moon

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: The full moon wakes something up from within us. It has a broadcast frequency of the Matrix to some degree, so long ‘hijacked’ by those forces. Yet, also, there are the ways that we have related with the moon in so many lifetimes of worship and ceremony that somehow calls on us to allow the lunar energies to hold space for us. For those of us with many lifetimes of being a Priestess, the moon has long been our companion for magics safer done in the dark.

As we deepen into Autumn and approach Samhain/Halloween soon, the veils thin always at this time of year between dimensions. I am reminded of the Day of the Dead/Dia de los Muertos celebrations when we lived in Mexico. The entire culture embraces and acknowledges the thinness of the veils between the living and the dead during this time. Spirit would be invited to have a more solid place at the ‘table’ of the living led by the heart’s reminiscing memories and the soul’s enduring connections that go beyond physical body death.

There is a provoking of energies to come out from the shadows during this time…that we have put there because they are not ‘safe’, or deemed appropriate or have been suppressed for many lifetimes. The energy of the Fierce Feminine and Her Shakti rumbles are coming through. Sometimes it is a fury that allows her to express herself, a self advocacy that makes other parts of us very uncomfortable. Shakti is not polite, controllable, or predictable. She destroys even as She gives life.

It is this alchemical feminine that has so long been neutered in our Matrix-controlled patriarchal culture. It has been hijacked as well, making those of us who have the self permission and qualification (after MUCH healing work) to express it feel like we have ‘temper problems’ or are ‘losing it’ when it comes through. What we are losing when Shakti comes through are the control mechanisms and implants and conditionings that program us to feel that it is NOT ok to be powerful, to be wild, and to be truthful….especially if it shakes up others, even if it hurts others too, even if they judge us as a result and reject us. And there is an equivalent in men that feels like it is even more resistant to this fierce feminine coming through as so much harm has been inflicted by the wounded misuse of these energies by the patriarchy.

This energy is not about abusing in the toxic way that the hijacked feminine can…which I have come to call “Ursula”, named for the Evil Sea Witch character in the Little Mermaid movie. Ursula is a hijacked construction of the Matrix that has made evil and wrong feminine magic and sorcery. Ursula is bitter, manipulative, competitive, and without any vulnerability at all. She is also undeniably powerful. Yet, she uses her power not to empower herself and others ultimately, but rather to take, own, and possess.

I share more about Ursula consciousness here and there is a link to purchase a women’s group meditation call to unplug your womb from the matrix: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/unplugging-from-the…/

I have experienced through our SoulFullHeart process of connecting to ALL energies/parts/aspects within that unplugging from the Matrix Ursula allows for the healing of the inner one. She is then free to access the Universal life (and death) forces of the Divine such as Shakti and also Kundalini.

The energies right now are confronting these places within us that hold our power. Lifetimes/Timelines can come through now for us to feel how being persecuted leads to being afraid to express them. This fear of powerful expression is occurring even now in our lifetime with the V. narrative and an agenda of censorship, restrictions, and control of free speech/free movement/free living. The Cabal Matrix patriarchy is tightening the reigns on the Fierce Feminine, along with the Compassionate Feminine….as both energies threaten the Cabal’s dominance because they are key to ushering in the death of the Matrix to allow the birth of New Earth.

Feel the flows of these intense energies, allowing them to take you where they may. Divine Mother has a face and form that can ‘match’ these places within you and never make them wrong. Go through the portals that they offer, bringing light of non-self judgement to the shadows, so that much may revealed during this magical time of self discovery.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

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What We Think We Own

By  Raphael Awen

When we fight, push and press to own something, that thing possesses us. What was gained by force must be maintained by force.

Nothing can really be owned in this way without it owning us. The energy of the currency we used to buy it, is then the current that flows into our relationship with the thing. We possess the thing and the thing mirrors that possession back to us.

It breaks down and demands maintenance or it refuses to work. It threatens us with being stolen and calls for more time and energy to protect it. It gets neglected and then shames us for spending all that and not using it like we intended too.

How could something be called ours and not be owned in this way?

It begins with realizing that you already possess all things. You are the thing. You can’t actually be separate from anything. The vendor and buyer are playing a game of forgetting, thinking that one can rightfully own something at another’s expense and that this other must pay a ransom to transfer that ownership. Many others join so deeply into the game that it becomes a reality of its own. Thieves, police, prisons, security systems and so much more support this illusory game.

Then there’s realizing that any material thing is in its essence matter. It came from Gaia, our matter/mother. Our mother provides all things necessary freely without price. All matter is mother. Gaia is the original and only rightful owner.

Grasping to own Mother Gaia doesn’t work. It’s like trying to own love. Love can’t be owned, only let in and received. The one who receives her does just that.

And if something came from Gaia which is conscious, then a thing formed and framed from different bits and pieces of Gaia, retains that consciousness.

And consciousness wants to be experienced, known and felt. There’s no such thing as an inanimate object with this deeper awareness of what life and matter is.

All of this invites us into new feelings of reverence and appreciation, feeling how provided for we actually are, how our grasping is a resistance to that infinite and quite scary provision.

It invites us into feeling how ‘things’ want to be held in our open hands and bring their goodness and abundance to us. Things don’t like being passed on from rightful slave owner to rightful slave owner, they want to be free where they can be and express all they are.

Owners become stewards of living things and nothing more, being gifted with the relationship exchange of care, blessing and goodness (god-li-ness, god-like-ness) that the thing brings.

I’d so like to keep experiencing this more and more, letting go of chasing money, chasing things, chasing more spiritual sounding practices of ‘how to attract abundance’, when abundance is trying its best to find a way into my heart and life.

Raphael Awen 💚

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Guided Meditation For Relaxation & Physical/Emotional Healing W/Mother Mary (Music) | Jelelle Awen

This guided meditation with SoulFullHeart Teacher/Co-Creator/Facilitator Jelelle Awen offers a bridge to soothing and relaxing, yet very catalytic and powerful, healing energies during a time when they are very much needed. During this meditation, you access a high frequency of Infinitely abundant White Light from Divine Source through your Crown Chakra.

This energy is for the clearing and healing of physical body pain, ailments and diseases as needed, including a boosting of your immune system, internal organs, and every living cell. You also connect in this meditation to your emotional body and offer soothing white light and Divine love to any reactions, tensions, resistances or charged emotions that you may be experiencing.

Jelelle also offers a bridge to any part of you that comes forward into your awareness that needs your love and attention, especially your Inner Child. Divine Mother shows up in the form of Mother Mary, who offers comforting and soothing reminders of your essence as Divine love. You repeat powerful “I am” mantras for a higher frequency Ascension recoding. The music then continues for some more time to allow a deeper immersion into the experience.

You may get quite sleepy, relaxed, drifty and even fall asleep during this meditation, so it is best to be in a comfortable position with your eyes closed while listening to it. We recommend listening with headphones. Remember that whatever happens during it within you is perfect.

The music gratefully used in this video is from a channel with the best sleep music that we have found on YouTube, the Nu Meditation Music Channel. This music has supportive ocean wave sounds and binaural beats as well to drop you into a Theta/Delta brainwave space for ultimate relaxation: https://youtu.be/ISgfqlMwSrk

For the latest writings, videos, and information about SoulFullHeart community events and group calls, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org.

Information about free intro calls over Zoom with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Kasha Rokshana for women or Gabriel Amara for men and women and 1:1 sessions with Raphael Awen, Gabriel, and Kasha at https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

“Miss Without Possession, Hold Without Grasp” | Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

Authentic and higher dimensional Divine Mother and Father energies can “miss without possession, hold without grasp, and claim without ownership.”

This message came through during a recent session where I felt Mother Mary/Divine Mother offering this in contrast to what most of us have experienced as parenting and co-dependence in relationships. This was our role models in 3D of relationships from our parents…and also programmed to us by the Matrix.

The distinctions of these frequencies (missing versus possessing; claiming versus owning) become real to us as we experience them from the inside FIRST. From one part of us to another, we feel and heal the polarized and fearful dynamics that lead to grabbing, clinging, and controlling. Our inner masculine and feminine can find a balance, a celebration of differences, a common ground.

To move out of False God experiences of projected, fear and trauma based relationship with the Divine and others is a very challenging, long-term, process. There are SO MANY layers here from this life and other lifetimes within the Matrix to move through, connect with, process, and heal. We need to be willing to go into our deepest shadows, lift the protective veils, move through our most stubborn resistance, feel our most acute pains. Letting go in order to let in more love can be the most difficult aspect of the journey. We need a lot of resonant support and LOVE for this process….from the Divine, from our Divine/Higher Self, and from others.

The SoulFullHeart process and way that we have lived our life in community and been in relationships for over ten years is the WAY we offer to navigate this ‘cleaning up’ within and with others. You increasingly experience a healthier ground of relating to yourself, to your soul aspects, to your beloveds, and to the Divine that can commit, can be intimate and vulnerable, can let their love IN while being real about the resistances, shadows, and fears that come up in response to that.

You can experience the SoulFullHeart frequency through many videos, group calls (next one is happening on 11/7 with recordings available of previous ones), and books…especially my recent one Free To Be 5D which is an overview of the process. 1:1 sessions with a SFH Facilitator offer the deepest ground of initiation into this way of experiencing yourself, your life and others. More information at soulfullheart.org.

Here is my recent guided meditation to music offering a high frequency of healing and relaxation on physical and emotional levels w/Mother Mary:

Love,

Jelelle Awen

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Oct 8, 2021

It’s exciting for us to be back in your inboxes with our first Museletter release in a few months! As you’ll read in our writings, we’re all emerging from a time of camping for several months and immersing in the healing energies of Mother Gaia. We have all benefitted greatly from this time of letting go of many aspects of who were, to let in what’s real for each of us now and how we want to serve going forward… which is also still emerging for us.

On that note, featured in this issue of our Museletter is a writing from Raphael which transmits these energies of ‘unfathomable’ Divine love which we have been bathing in and returning to in deeper ways than ever before. We also share this piece as a bridge to the upcoming group meditation call with Raphael and Jelelle this Sunday, Oct 10th. The call will be centred on Divine Love and the messages of this 10/10 portal. There is also a short video invitation from Raphael and Jelelle where they share about what this group call will focus on. More information on this upcoming event here: soulfullheart.org/events.

We welcome you to take in our sharings this week, which are about our personal processes as well as what we feel moving in the ongoing collective awakening journey.

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With so much love from all of us!

~ The SoulFullHeart Community

The Sacred ‘Pregnancy’ Of Humanity During This 10/10 Passage

by Kasha Rokshana

I feel the ‘pregnancy’ of this time we’re living in. So much urgency to respond to as things shift and change from one moment to the next and there’s an apt restlessness in that experience too. You might also feel a push-pull within as parts of you sway and toggle between feeling like they are truly ready to move on from the ‘old, known normal’ and also like they want to cling to every last bit of it that they can. Every aspect of life as we’ve known it has been shaken up in the last couple of years and like expectant mothers and fathers, we know intuitively and logically that life can never go back to the way it was in humanity’s ‘youth’, before the added sense of responsibility for our own collective and individual shadows entered the birth canal.

I feel this year’s 10/10 passage as a Divine opportunity to respond to what’s real and to lean into guidance and Divine love too. It’s a gift… as even the hardest times are. We aren’t being caretaken or coddled by the Divine on our growth journey right now, though at the same time, we’re also being gently cradled as we experience the grief, tears, mourning, purging, in our letting go of a reality that was once precious to some parts of us… and resented too, by others. In humanity’s young-ness on a consciousness and galactic level, we were afforded certain ‘passes’ for a time. We were given the grace to ‘grow-up’ on our own accord and make choices that have now led to our Great Learning/Awakening. But now… now we’re in the pressure cooker of our own evolutionary story and being asked to truly take it seriously.

The truth always remains that Divine Love is holding us through it all. Even during these times where we may feel energies/lifetimes in our souls crying out and feeling anything BUT connected to this reality. The Divine is as ‘pregnant’ as we are, holding our hands and hearts in Its own. We are the parents, the stewards of what’s next and what’s new and as-yet unknown, just as we are also being parented and stewarded. This collaboration with the Divine is as sacred as sacred can be, and an invitation to feel our rebirth is being invested in at all times.

Though the dark and darker agendas keep coming to light, we are being empowered to look at them with the divinely discerning eyes, to let in all the textures of reactions and response to the truth of what’s emerging. We, as sacred humans, are not all ‘one-note’ after all, and this emotional range, our capacity to empathize and to care deeply about ourselves and others, is being called upon to help leverage and launch ourselves into the newly arising chapter that can only come out of the ashes, the incredibly humbling learning and re-learning experience that ‘life’ has been and continues to be for us ALL here on Gaia.

Divine love supports us all, surrounds us all, holds us all now and always. Letting in your own Divine connection however you feel to and can, is, as always, so vital to what’s real now and what is becoming real for all of us as walk out this 10/10 passage.

Join Raphael and Jelelle for a by-donation Zoom group meditation call this coming Sunday on 10/10, focused on Divine Love and deepening your own Divine connection. More info here: soulfullheart.org/events

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Emerging, Renewed, From Retreat & Recovery In Gaia’s Arms

by Kasha Rokshana

This retreat to Nature has been a retreat into myself, collapsing and letting go of so much that I didn’t realize I was holding, that I didn’t consciously realize I wasn’t letting the Divine in on, and that I didn’t realize was creating a widening chasm inside between what I felt I needed to do or become and what I wanted to do and become. I feel more ‘awake’ now in a soul sense and yet in deep sleepiness too as the rest and recovery from what has been true about life and service for parts of me continues to heal and transmute.

Over the last 5 years I’ve shared many words of poetry, offerings of Divine love as I’ve personally experienced it, and many transparent writings about my personal process. In the beginning of that, there was tenderness about sharing. As the years went on it became about something else though, maybe more ‘ego-based’ at times, but always with the intention of helping, supporting, offering love to others in the mix as well.

It’s humbling to take a step back and look at all of this, especially while also feeling the pain of what’s moving in the world of shadows and light known as ‘Gaia’. It’s humbling to let nature hold you while you feel it all out with the heart rather than figure it all out with the mind, wonder what your place of contribution to the NEW truly is, and remember that absolutely every piece felt on a heart and soul level IS the contribution.

The yelling-matches, virtually and not, can do something but won’t do everything. The self-righteous energies catalyze something, but eventually run out of ground as they don’t truly let the Divine/love itself in. Conflict has its place but also has to find its resolution through curiosity. Truth revelations are inevitable. The acceptance of them in the mainstream is not. The only way that I can feel we can move through these humbling times is to truly be with ourselves in them, surround ourselves with resonant others, and explore the themes emerging in the world from within our own inner worlds where we can take responsibility for our part in the play out of the current human shadow show.

I feel so grateful for these months immersed in beautiful Northern Portugal, for the clarifies that are still dawning and moving through, and the rebirth of the grace within to hold it all.

I’m sharing a photo from a hike with my beloved Gabriel, where we took in the vast expanse of the valley we’ve been camping in for the last couple of months. I felt the hugeness of the beauty we’ve been surrounded by and the Divine love codes downloaded through the mountains, trees, and flowers.

Really looking forward to experiencing what emerges next as we move on from here and feel into what SoulFullHeart, and all of us, become next.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Living In A Deeply Altered Reality

By  Raphael Awen

We all live in a deeply altered personal reality that we have needed to normalize to a large enough degree to make it bearable and doable.

We added a balm layer of amnesiac forgetfulness to help this altered reality hold together.

The specific location of this altered reality does have a location and coordinates on the larger map of reality, but even that larger map is yet another altered reality.

All realities are sub realities/royalties of love. Love created infinite number expressions of itself in a bid to know and expand itself.

You and I are one infinitesimally small expression of that, while at the same time holding all of the infinite fullness of that grand endeavor, being and expression.

As awareness of our origins arise for us in felt, feeling toned experience, we make more and more conscious reconnection with that origin. That is coming to know and feel our divine love essence. This is the update of love that is experiencable and felt, a ‘to:’ and ‘from:’ kind of love, like in valentines, not just a love ‘isness’ that just is, but can’t be transactionally known outside of itself. Love stepped outside of itself to know itself. You and I are that outed love kind of reality.

Even though we were outed from love, we never lost that connection to love, nor did we lose our essence of being love, for it was impossible to lose. So impossible was it to be lost, that love needed to go to these lengths to create make-believe realities mixed in with so much forgetfulness to allow for these places of experiment, discovery and expansion.

In it all, we all suffered from feelings of being cast out, of falling from grace, of assuming a personal guilt for such a felt tragedy.

These were experiences the divine was unable to have within itself were it not for you and I as modified expressions of the divine capable of this layer of creativity, forgetfulness and even suffering. But what is the point of this suffering, if not as the spiritual texts refer to, ‘a greater glory to be revealed’ in us?

As all of this is coming into our awareness, we are invited to reopen our quest and questions from a new place of childlike reverence, awe and wonder.

We can certainly see when we look at one another, or look at divergent parts of ourselves, how each of our personal realities is a specific sub reality, and all of that within a larger shared reality layer here on Gaia. But what if this Human/Gaian/Earth reality is only yet again, one of innumerable other realities, and other locations?

We can also see and feel how this ability to create sub realities is so embedded in each one of us, and how we do that from moment to moment, or from phase to phase in our lifetimes, and soul history.

If any of this feels true, then it really invites us in our awakening to humble ourselves to this background reality generating dynamic within to become reverent and curious about what it is doing and why.

How could we possibly awaken to its workings and invite it to go into new directions that our heart and soul wants to consciously take instead of living out the realities dropped on us from our environment or past conditionings?

How could we love, feel and bridge to the past conditioned realities in a way that completes them, and moves them from fear to love?

Are there ‘portal moments’ where we are ripe and ready to shift realities? How do we recognize and embrace those kinds of moments?

How do we relate to those who we have so deeply shared and created a reality with when they don’t seem done at all with the reality like we are?

Is the asking and living out of these questions possibly the return trip back to love, the completion of love’s experiment and expansion?

You are love where you are now, where you were, and where you are headed. Try as we may, this is one essence we can’t shake, for it is the only essence from which all other essences arise.

Even your shame, fear and anxiety are all a part of this expansion, experiment, experience, seeming departure and return to love. So is your unbounded joy, desire, delight and love of life, the divine and one another!

Deep, rich, unfathomable love to you,

Raphael Awen

Please join us for our 10:10 Divine Love Transmission Group Call on Sunday, October 10.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.