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Healing The Inner Punisher-Shame Dynamic Within You

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By Jelelle Awen

In sessions with women recently, the Punisher-shame dynamic has been coming up for feeling and healing as it is illuminated in the loving and safe healing field that we create together. It can be SUCH an ingrained and deep dynamic that is largely unconscious and ‘off the radar’ for most people, even those awakening for quite awhile. It can create an ongoing sense that life is hopeless, heavy, confusing, bleak, and without consistent inner/outer movement.

There is ongoing suffering looping that happens when the Inner Punisher part of you is continually criticizing/putting down/creating doubt in other parts of you that respond in shame reactions, usually the Inner Child and Inner Teenager. This punishment/shame loop is an effective way of keeping you safe from moving into your soul bigness, risking hurt/rejection, and is a way to ‘match’ the punishing frequencies around you so that they do less harm. Many Inner Punishers over the years have confessed to me that creating this inner punishment/shame dynamic is the only way to survive it happening on the outside with others (usually caregivers/parents.)

I have discovered that it is one of the MAIN ways that Protector and Punisher parts keep us safe and is actually done out of an intense love for you (even though it can feel anything but loving). It is also a necessary acclimation to the Matrix reality, which runs hugely on polarized energies of judgement of self and others. The Matrix is about division, separation, and push-pull frequencies, so we are programmed and conditioned to them from birth, in addition to our social, educational, and family systems often energizing these frequencies as well.

In the SoulFullHeart process during sessions, we connect with your Inner Protector and eventually your Inner Punisher to create a feeling-based compassionate bridge to them. As you more deeply embody your Divine Self through the process, you are able to truly come to love this part of yourself and understand/feel WHY it has been creating this punishment-shame cycles within you. This allows the Punisher to relax into its TRUE essence of humble discernment and truth telling with love. Also, your Divine Self becomes loving parent to your inner child/teenager, and the Inner Punisher can relax into that as well and stop shaming them, allowing their natural joy, magic, and innocence to express more.

Many healers/teachers also operate from an unconscious ‘fusion’ with their Inner Punisher, which can create ongoing shame loops in their clients/followers. They are sharing truths yet there is a shaming frequency in them that leaves a residue for those receiving them. Usually they have not worked with and connected to the punisher/shame energies within them in a conscious way or unplugged from the judgement Matrix either. This is part of the False Light Matrix in spirituality that can keep it ‘capped’ in polarized energies and abuse cycles between teachers and followers.

I had a very strong Punisher-shame dynamic within me that took a conscious focus over the years to heal, including working with an Inner Mother/Punisher aspect for awhile. I was very self conscious with large amounts of self doubt and ‘drew’ Punishers on the outside to be in relationship with and as my teachers. I now experience little to no self judgement of myself and others in the charged frequencies that I once did, can share my truth/gifts without self consciousness, plus I am surrounded by others and in relationship with a mate who lovingly accept/see/get me. It can be challenging to love these Punishing parts of ourselves, yet with support and some necessary separation/differientation, they can transform to become very beloved aspects of ourselves.

Another Punisher/Shame dynamic can be from the False feminine punisher aspect that we call “Ursula”, named after the evil sea witch character in the Little Mermaid movie. Ursula is hugely plugged into the Matrix, energizing hijacked false feminine/evil queen energies, competitive, jealous, possessive, and very difficult to separate from unless consciously connected to. Through more Divine Self embodiment and connection with Divine Mother, she is able to unplug from the Matrix and express her unique and powerful energies of the Divine Feminine, plus open up more soul access/activation for you.

If you’d like to dive into these grounds in a deep yet gentle way, 1:1 sessions with me or another SoulFullHeart Facilitator are 90 minutes over zoom and start at $77 USD, yet we are open to negotiation around that rate, especially if you are wanting to meet more regularly (which we recommend.) We offer a free 30-45 minute intro session beforehand to discuss with you about the process, answer any questions you may have, and give you a sense of who to meet with and where we would go in a session. I meet with women, as does Kasha….Gabriel and Raphael meet with women and men. There is more info about sessions and each of us at soulfullheart.org/sessions. PM me if interested or email through soulfullfullheart.org.

Here is a meditation to connect with the Punisher-Shame dynamic within you:

Here is a meditation and more teaching about your Inner Ursula with Kasha and I:

I share much more about the False Light Matrix and Inner Punisher in my book Free To Be 5D, available as an audio, ebook, print and PDF editions with links at soulfullheart.org/books

With much love and direct/conscious connection with these aspects, you can experience much more love and compassion for yourself and others….along with healthy discernment, passionate truth telling, soul gift embodiment/expression and loving boundary setting.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

6/6/6 Energy & Personal Update: Clearing Shadows Lurking In ALL Our Bodies (Physical/Emotional/Mental/Soul)

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6/6/6 Energy & Personal update: The energies have been building up to the 6/6/6 portal tomorrow, which feels like it is already open. It’s been a bit challenging for me to tune into higher energies honestly with all that I’ve been going through of cleansing on a body-based level. That does feel like it is an aspect of these energies though…..clearing, purging, pushing up densities and toxicities on physical/mental/emotional/soul levels.

I get a sense of β€˜rehoming’ about the 6/6/6 energies, which have so long been hijacked by the Matrix to signify something β€˜evil’ or β€˜satanic.’ It is always interesting to feel what has been hijacked (such as Friday the 13th) by energies that truly ARE darker to suppress the light that wants to come through. There is an opportunity for Divine balancing from the 6/6/6 portal and high frequency upgrades as well. A reconciliation of shadow and light to bring into balance.

Sometimes the β€˜shadow’ is actually lurking within our physical bodies. I have focused SO MUCH on feeling, healing and being with the shadows in my emotional body and soul field consciousness for years now. That doesn’t mean there isn’t more there for me, yet my attention and initiations recently have been more about the β€˜shadows’ within the physical body that can lurk there causing ongoing health issues, chronic illness, disease, cancer, aging and more.

I did a juice/water only and no solid food fast/transition to living on more prana for nearly three and a half weeks. Overall, I found it easier than ever before with no hunger or physical food cravings, minimal detox reactions, and no emotional/comfort food desire reactions either, plus a sense of deep Divine Mother support and guidance. Yet, also, sometimes there are deeper toxicities lingering in our bodies that really NEED to come up and out that are pushed up by giving our digestive system a rest for awhile.

This happened for me over the last week, where I experienced a surge of strep bacteria along with viral symptoms moving through my body, centered on my throat area. The symptoms of very painful swallowing, low grade fever, muscle aches/cramps, fatigue, brain fog…they were intense for days especially during unfortunately our trip away to the ocean and even on my birthday last Wednesday. It was a big opportunity for surrender as I was clear right away that the fasting and bringing in more energy/prana etc. had actually brought the strep up so that it could finally leave my body after years and years of being dormant.

I had strep throat quite often as a kid/teenager and also in my 20s when I was a smoker to for many years. I’ve been clearing my smoking habit for many years out of my lungs, cells, etc. yet this recent one felt related to it as well, even my voice sounded like a deep smoker for a few days. The strep hadn’t really gone away and anti-biotics usually make it even stronger (that I took when I was younger) even though it goes into ‘hiding’ within different organs for a time.

I was guided to read every Medical Medium book by Anthony William that I could get my hands on and to immediately start drinking celery juice first thing in the morning. His downloads on our health, connection to latent viral and bacterial symptoms, and relationship to food in a very conscious way as medicine has been very supportive. I could feel the celery juice helping right away once I started it, along with salt water gargles, lemon water, and herbal tea.

I started feeling much better yesterday and today even better after a full night’s rest. All the white spots in my mouth are gone, swallowing is no problem, and other than a bit of lingering congestion in my chest, I’m good. I was also guided to start eating again lightly a few days ago so I broke my fast with miso soup broth (a good choice when you haven’t eaten for a few weeks), fruit smoothie, and eventually mashed potatoes.

I feel my next phase of transition to living on prana/energy/Divine Mother’s love, will be about continuing to deeply cleanse my body of any toxicities through the use of very select foods in a more medicinal way, including daily celery juice. Our body vessel really needs to be prepped and upgraded to hold the quota of light we need to live off and every step/phase during this is so valuable.

I do feel like the 6/6/6 portal relates to the cleansing of our homes, these various bodies that dynamically and multidimensionally provide us with the means to be here on the Earth Plane. We live in and with so much toxicity in the 3D Matrix, no matter how awakened or enlightened or high our frequency is.

We have ALL been impacted by these toxicities and being with them, feeling them and clearing them is such a sacred aspect of our Ascension journey. It can be very challenging and even painful to be WITH the experiences that these shadows hold, yet it is always worth it to feel the integration and openings afterwards.

Thank you again for the birthday love last week…for whatever I could let in, it was much needed!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

For more info on 1:1 sessions, online community, and books/writings visit soulfullheart.org.

Twin Flame/Counterpart Reunions: Love Is In The Air!

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By Jelelle Awen

Interesting experience this morning of having a person copy one of my writings on FB and share it as his own without giving me credit. Kasha commented on his feed about it publicly in order to inform his readers and I PMed him personally asking him to either delete it or give me credit. His name is Mike Harrigan and it seems that he has a pattern of stealing other people’s writings, esp those who write about twin flame relationships, and passing them as his own.

I wanted to let you know in case you follow him on FB about this lack of integrity that is going on within him and therefore in anything that he shares, even his own writings. This feels to me like a classic Matrix hijack, where something original cannot be created and so is ‘stolen’ and passed off as original.

I feel passionate about what I create and especially this writing which tenderly was catalyzed by a brief separation and reunion with my beloved Raphael. It was poignantly and Divinely inspired which you can’t duplicate the energy of actually, even if you share the words as your own. I can also feel a detachment from it as well. Ultimately my words are the words of the Divine and the Oneness field consciousness that we ALL share.

I felt to honor this writing that many people are seeming to like when he ‘shares’ it by sharing it again here in MY field, where it was first born and bloomed. ❀

~

Love is IN the air! Reunions of pair bonds/counterparts are happening at increasingly accelerated rates as the previous veils are lifted and you can see/feel and CLAIM each other again. What once felt like very real and valid reasons to not be together; to be together yet not fully and completely; to not β€˜find’ or draw each other in the physical; to have push/pull patterns with each other….these barriers are now being dissolved by the Divine’s all consuming desire to experience reunion again.

The separations ARE as sacred as the reunions. The separations offer a full landing in self. What is learned and accessed within during this alone time is so precious and important to the transactability of the bond on heart/body/soul/mind levels once you do come together.

The deepening of the sacred union within you; the cultivation of connection between your inner masculine and inner feminine; this union within as a temporary experience of an internal β€˜opposite’ provides a template for your beloved when they return to you.

If you are currently single, you can trust that the process you are undergoing to heal yourself on all levels, be with the Beloved within, and connect to the Divine AS your Beloved is the most important ground you can navigate in readiness for sacred union with your counterpart. Surrendering the timing of that reunion to the Divine allows for an experience of joy, goodness, and even bliss in that singleness rather than suffering, angst, and pain.

This is the ongoing journey of sacred union…..being invited to LET GO of fear, distrust, wounding, and separation-based relationship templates from 3D. To feel and heal the deep pain of separation within you that we ALL have……the shock that reverberates within our very DNA and at a collective level from that original separation moment from your pair bond, your β€˜twin’ and counterpart.

The reeling feeling of being β€˜cast out’ away from your Beloved at the soul family monad level before you individuate into your Metasoul and the veil of amnesia comes down so that you can truly be an individuated consciousness.

The masculine torn away from his beloved feminine and she from him….seemingly severed in an abrupt way that was so unnatural in the moment…..shocking……and yet completely necessary to the ongoing unfolding of the Divine duality experiment.

And then, always seeming to be reaching again for each other with an active ache to BE in that union again….Reeling and reaching in repeated patterns, over and over, lifetime after lifetime….until the ONE lifetime where you choose to truly be together in full conscious commitment and finally complete the cycle of reeling and reaching.

THIS lifetime is the one that many pair bonds are choosing to come back together in the physical again. The ultimate reason is always for the service of love and to/with the Divine. It is not for ego reasons at the 3D level or even for the gratification of the individuals, although it is very nourishing to both.

It is during this time of Humanity’s Ascension, during this Dark Night moving into the Light of Day, during this time of Matrix collapse to finally be free again…..this is the NOW for which pair bonds are most needed to be again in union.

If you have chosen for this reunion experience as deeply connected to your service of love here and the primary WAY for which you will serve the Divine, you have probably felt the call to sacred union reunion for most of your life and felt your counterpart β€˜with’ you in a deep way, even if you have not met yet in this life.

You may experience this as a deep sense of missing something and that you are not quite β€˜complete’ even as you may experience great fulfillment and self love/worth in being by yourself.

Love and created BY,

Jelelle Awen

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My Process Of Transitioning To Living On Less Food and More Prana/Light – Day 16

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I left the house yesterday after a two week seclusion in a ‘temple womb space’ here that has brought me to new depths within me and with the Divine. Raphael and I went to visit Bey where she lives in the nearby town of Coja, a sweet town near a river with cafes, park, and stores to visit. I felt guided to emerge out of the cocoon space that I have been in during these initial weeks of not taking in physical food and juice/water/dry fasting in order to transition to/calibrate to living on more and more prana/energy and less physical food.

Unlike previous extended transitions/fasts, this one has been easier from an emotional digestion place. All of my parts and soul aspects seem to be accepting and surrendering to the journey, which has taken lots of negotiation over the years as our relationship to food can be such an emotional comfort, a habit, an ingrained program, defining social connection, and much more for parts of us.

The only emotional reaction that really came up was when I went into dry fasting or not drinking anything for 12 hours. Then, I felt resistance and fear come up plus the first time of feeling truly dizzy and weak. I connected this to another lifetime and a soul aspect who had died of thirst in the desert under sad circumstances (more to feel of her in the future.)

I felt Divine Mother guide me to drink again and also go back on drinking juice the next day as well. And I felt how much I am truly holding this with Her in love and goodness for myself and my body, not in ANY energy of forcing, pushing, or will powering my way through it. A deep gratitude-based connection opened out with my body then and I could clearly hear and feel it, what it wanted, and what it was truly ready for….which has been a moment by moment feeling it out process.

Being held in self love and Divine Mother’s love is what allows the energy to flow in to supplement the food. There really does need to be a supplement that is connected to through various channels such as deep breathing, yoga, meditation, prayer….otherwise it isn’t possible for the 3D conditioning mind/body and just isn’t the time yet either. Divine timing and soul timing is a big piece of this as well.

Yesterday, I was amazed to feel these waves of goodness, joy, and magic in being outside at the park and even inside of a fairly noisy cafe. I was curious about what the people around me were eating, not desiring it myself to eat. Yet I was able to merge with their consciousness AS they ate it and feel what they did. Sadly, most people are not in reverence and joy when they eat food yet rather in an automated mode of ‘having to’ or medicating this or that emotion that they don’t want to feel.

Yet, still, I throughly enjoyed what I got to partake in this way, including gazing in awe at the gelato ice cream offerings and the Portuguese pastries too! Not with desire to eat them myself, yet to just take in the marvel of them. This was amazing and I so see how being around other people eating will not be a problem yet rather a joy (as I have heard from other people living mostly on prana as well).

I also felt much softer, receptive, and overall more feminine in my social space as well, which is made easy being with Raphael and Bey, two beings who truly let me in and see me. It was more acceptable within me to be quiet, to be still, to be in receiving mode. I love the feminine that this is bringing out even more!

There have been low energy dip moments and even moments of some muscle cramps, indigestion, detox etc. But, overall, the experience has been joyful and a wonder….a sign of it being right timing for me, at least in this moment. I even went through my period cycle last week with no PMS and way less cramps and hormonal dips, which is big for me as that was worsening in the last year.

I am not sharing all this to ‘sell’ you on anything or even to promote fasting for a phase for you, yet to offer what my experience has been so far. Your Divine Self will take in what it is meant to about it for you, be inspired or not, feel resonant or not….and see where that takes you. There are so many phases to this transition and ALL of them are sacred.

There is no goal or ‘end game’ yet rather more opening out into the Now and your own Divine essence expressing through your body vessel that is getting brighter, cleaner, and lighter.

You are welcome to ask any questions you’d like in the comments, just please no ‘kicking’ at me out of fear or suspicion, yet leading with curiosity and openness is always welcome!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

I share more about this journey at: https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/ascension/light-body-body-consciousness/living-on-prana/

If you’d like to talk more with me about this for yourself or other diet/body topics and themes, I offer free intros and 1:1 sessions, more info at soulfullheart.org/sessions or PM me.

Energy Update: Pleiadian Portal Offering Abduction Healing & Galactic Connections

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By Jelelle Awen

The sense of support from our Star Families is amplified right now as we continue to go through Global Awakening events. This is a powerful time to receive galactic energies as the Pleiadian Portal is open through tomorrow, May 24th, plus the crop circle season for 2022 has begun with this one below!

This portal allows for stronger transmission of and receiving of Pleiadian Divine Feminine healing frequencies to support our ongoing death and rebirth phases. The Pleiadian energies are soft, beautiful, light; sound like the softest sing song melodies; look and feel like dolphins and whales swimming in the ocean and tropical beaches.

The programs that have kept humanity in a fear and battling place related to Star BEings is dissolving. The abduction programs have been particularly effective at suppressing our galactic consciousness awakening, reactivation of our galactic DNA (the DNA that mainstream 3D science labels as β€˜junk’!!), and inhabitation of our galactic genetics.

We are ALL star seeds in that way, ALL of humanity, yet with some of us having more galactic genetics/lineage/connection than others due to what our soul signed up to do and serve and which Soul Family Monads we originate from on the higher levels.

In a meditation journey, I was taken to Alcyone, a planet in the Seven Sisters of the Pleiades star system, and to a crystal city there that I have been to before. The crystal city (it has another name that I can’t pronounce) is a stunningly bright, quartz crystal feeling, high frequency city that offers a template for how life could look and feel here on Gaia as well as we move into 5D. Every occupant in the city is WELL cared for with all of their needs met.

I have lately been feeling more connected to Leeza, my Pleiadian Aspect, and also with Binkh, my Arcturian Aspect. I have been offered that both the Arcturians and the Pleiadians are amongst the MANY friendly and benevolent Star Beings hovered in Gaia’s orbit during this time of Humanity’s Great Awakening and transition to New Earth.

Both of these are offering healing frequencies to Humanity as a support to let go of 3D conditioning/programming/trauma. As the Matrix control systems collapse on both 3D and 4D Levels during this Event, there is more opportunity for us to receive these healing frequencies and upgrades.

As I connect with these soul aspects in the Crystal City, they provided me with more sense of the abduction programs as I had personally been programmed by them for most of my life until about six years ago. The abduction programs have been downloaded from the 4D AI Matrix and then projected into us through our Reptilian Self entwinement.

These programs create sensations of horror and terror inside of our Inner Child about E.T.s and visitors from other planets. They even produce feeling sensations and memories of being abducted, taken against our will to their ships, sometimes impregnated with hybrid babies being created, physically examined in harsh and unfeeling ways, and much more by non-feeling and even cruel Alien Beings.

Mainstream 3D Entertainment has further programmed us to go into fight or flight mode around β€˜Alien Invaders’ and the mainstream military-industrial complex and Cabal/Illuminati/Elite fed these fears with war mongering programs and β€˜need to protect/defend’ our dominion energies.

I got the sense strongly that these abduction programs have especially been offered to those Star Seeds with strong galactic ambassador frequencies and capacities. I personally needed to have this undigested fear in my emotional body and subconscious about β€˜being abducted’ in order to immerse more into 3D life until I was ready to awaken beyond it and into my Galactic Ambassador consciousness. Ranca, my Reptilian Aspect, was very apologetic about projecting this into my consciousness and I offered forgiveness to her as it wasn’t her fault. She was as enslaved to this programming as I was until we both unplugged from it.

I am being guided to offer this right now about the Abduction programs as it feels like there is so much opportunity to be upgraded, activated, and awakened by galactic energies in this Now. The trauma from these programs can create blocks, resistances, and fear in your Inner Child and Inner Protector around connecting with Galactic energies and aspects.

Contact WILL be happening for more and more souls as their Star Seed essence is activated again. Contact mostly happens through non-physical means and probably already has been happening for you over many years. Experiences of contact are through conscious draw to study and learn more about galactic BEings; frequent dreams of contact, visits, star BEings, and light ships; conscious visits during meditation with Star Family and Metasoul Aspects as I am describing here; and also eventually physical contact experiences.

Along with all the other realities that are being disclosed right now as the Matrix peaks and then collapses, galactic disclosure and the reality of extraterrestrial beings is an important aspect of that and is happening slowly in a trickling and ‘leaking info’ kind of way. As we feel and heal the fear programs against them, we become much more open and receptive to the consciousness awakening that they can provide for us….that we are actually already spring loaded to activate in our galactic DNA!

We are then able to receive the blueprints and templates that they have for us around creation of free energy devices and other technology that will change the way we live on Gaia into more 5D frequencies!

Connecting to the Galactic support available to and through you provides a much BIGGER picture sense of the shifts going on right now for humanity. It lifts us above the constant (and often very conflictual) content that is being generated right now to provide a much more expansive context that is anchored in 5D frequencies. The 5D timeline is the one these Star BEings can remind us is available at ANY moment that we choose it, remember it, and become it.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Here is a guided meditation to connect with your Star Family: https://youtu.be/ubrPcH09X6s

Here is a guided meditation to meet your Reptilian Self: https://youtu.be/pA7ZjZj2K8M

I recommend also calibrating to and taking in this guided meditation I did with Binkh to bridge to your Acturian Aspect and to the healing chambers available to any human who would like to experience one: https://youtu.be/vkbPpXNgPnI

You can also contact me for a 1:1 session to bridge into your galactic connections, any fear abduction programs, your star seed, and your star family. More info at soulfullheart.org/sessions or PM me.

Energy Clearing Crystal Sound Bowl Transmission (Video) | Jelelle Awen

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Some spontaneous crystal sound bowl healing sounds for you! The bowls have been super helpful during my days of fasting (12 days now with only juice/water and now moving into some dry fasting) when I need to tune into higher frequencies for my chakras and light body! Also helpful, especially during those times of low energy dips, has been epsom/himalayan salt baths, pranayama/deep breathing, sun gazing/bathing, light yoga stretching, meditation and prayer with Divine Mother.

Overall, it has been a joyous process that feels Divinely held! I’ll share more in depth about my fasting/transitioning to living mostly on prana process for those who are curious and resonant coming up eventually. I wrote more about it here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/my-process-of…/

I have been in such a deep inward focused surrogacy with Divine Mother during this time, receiving stillness and yin recodings from her on all levels to support this shift! And galactic support, soul aspect support, and my beloved soul family support too!

It’s a supportive time too as we go through the Pleiadian/Star Seed Activation portal these next few days. You can feel them so HERE and ready to help us upgrade and connect to our soul purpose here during this last 3D timeline on the Earth plane!

You don’t need to be a Pleiadian star seed to feel this portal! Whatever ways you are meant to receive the galactic upgrades will come through. Here is a guided meditation with Raphael and I to connect to your Star Seed/Star Family https://youtu.be/LrKnyFKk1xM

Enjoy the bowls and wherever they take you!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

More info about 1:1 sessions, writings/book, online community at soulfullheart.org.

Moving Beyond Fear-Based β€˜Tolerance’ Of Dissonance During Awakenings & Growth

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by Kasha Rokshana

β€œTolerance” is really such a terrible word. I don’t particularly like it. Because it makes parts of us feel like they are obliged to let things go that really they shouldn’t have to. It’s one of the most misinformed tenants of modern society. Tolerance is not compassion or understanding, let alone love, and it actually typically comes from fear, especially the fear of you yourself not being β€˜tolerated’ let alone actually felt or understood.

If you find yourself tolerating a dead marriage, a dead relationship to birth family, a dead connection to your livelihood, rather than seeking and humbly taking risks for the sake of aliveness, then you’re likely in a place of having been coached, told, conditioned into feeling like as long as you’re tolerating these dead things, you’re β€˜doing something right’ and dare I say, even reaching the carrot of β€˜enlightenment’.

No one is entitled to your tolerance, not even the parts of you that ask for it. Just as people on the outside of you basically tell you β€˜don’t look over here, you have to accept me as I AM’, parts of you can do that too. They don’t want you to see their manipulative strategies or ways of controlling the people in your life that you don’t resonate with so that they don’t have to experience real and true growth and what actually COULD become possible in ALL of your relationships.

Tolerance becomes intolerance, sometimes quickly, as awakenings happen and these awakenings lead quickly to depression and anxiety when this intolerance is not honoured or felt. You are changing. And if you’re a big soul, you’ve likely felt how quickly you change and shift at times and are oftentimes tiptoeing around your relationships rather than letting your awakenings truly ride with you into a new life phase.

Death and rebirth is always a part of awakening, whether it’s the kind of death and rebirth that is very, very dark for a time or the kind that is actually much easier to move through. I can assure you though, that if parts of you still buy the 3D Matrix or New Age Spirituality Matrix shit of β€˜you have to find a way to make this work because that’s what real love does’, then you are in for more difficulty, not less, whether it manifests in physical illness, emotional waves you fall under rather than feel able to come to terms with (note, I didn’t say β€˜control’), or a feeling of existential crisis that keeps growing until parts of you can no longer stuff it down.

Awakening, truly expanding into your heart and soul and letting them lead, is not about tolerating anything or anyone. Yet, as this intolerance is felt and honoured, true compassion can be felt as well as authentic passion. You change, and even if the people around you can’t, you are empowered to navigate your way through that and find new people to be around, even if you need a phase of being β€˜alone’ (which is never alone, truly, for the Divine is ALWAYS there and sometimes it takes the lonely feelings to actually drop into Its arms at last).

If you truly have a penchant for your deepest growth, you’ll find a way to feel what you’ve been allowing that actually doesn’t feel good to you. Our gut honesty is what brings us the most growth and the most Divine alignment, even in all its messiness and absolute dearth of glamour. There is NO such thing as an β€˜ugly cry’, especially when what you’re feeling is the grief of what perhaps once worked, what once was beautiful and resonant, and you’re feeling into letting it go for the sake of all involved…

I love you. Keep feeling. Keep moving beyond tolerance and you WILL find your truth, whether you end up needing to move into deep life change right away or not. Your awakenings will deepen and your experience of your soul will too, even in all of the waves of exquisite sadness, necessary rage, and openings into bittersweet bliss.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

My Process Of Transitioning To Living On Less Food and More Prana/Light – Day 5

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As I move into my fifth day of juice fasting/transitioning to living on more prana, the sound bowls are food right now, as is my daily soaks in the sun and Himalayan/epsom salt baths and vinyasa yoga flows. I also engaged in a deep pranayama breathing practice this morning that brought me into a deep bliss and relaxation space, theta brainwave place, for over two hours.

It’s amazing how your soul kicks in when you start letting go of what you’ve been previously been using as ‘fuel’. All of the ways of bringing more energy/light/love into your field and body come forward, out of more need and necessity than previously. Eventually it just becomes the new ‘rewired’ system as the old programmings fall away.

I feel that I’ve moved out of the detox phase where all the yuckies you’ve eaten start coming out of your pores, coating your tongue, making some aches in the back, etc. Other than a period of having a headache for awhile and a coated tongue (relieved by a tongue scraper), I haven’t had many detox symptoms this time. The first time I did a water fast three years ago, the detox was so intense that I had to stop after a few days. I’ve learned now how to negotiate this phase and what supports me through it.

EVERY phase and stage of this body detoxing/upgrading process is sacred and needed. There isn’t an ‘end goal’ or ‘failing’ or ‘succeeding’. It is a linear process yet rather a circular one that invites you into different initiations as you go.

This does feel like such a supportive time to moving into a phase of letting food go/fasting (for however long you feel to), with the continual solar flares and CMES coming in (even if they don’t interface with Gaia’s atmosphere.) Just laying out in the sun for even 10 minutes brings in a powerful supportive energy boost that feels like you’ve eaten a full meal!

I can feel the lunar eclipse in the grids as well and the relief from the Matrix moon hijack that it will offer. The sacred feminine pure frequencies can flow through during that 84 minute window. Join Raphael and I on Sunday at 5pm London time/12:00pm EST/9:00am for a livestream on FB where we will feel into these eclipse energies and how you may be experiencing them on physical/emotional/soul/energy levels. We will offer a brief guided meditation as well to help with digestion and integration of them. You can watch us live or catch the recording.

Galactic activations are strong right now too….as we move into crop circle transmission season and I can feel the codes I received when I visited two of them in the UK last year coming through. My Arcturian aspect Binkh is coming into my awareness again, offering inspirations and some channeled messages that feels like will start to be shared too.

I missed her even though she never left me….my consciousness went where it needed to go into lower 4D to do some mega karmic soul clearing of priestess lifetimes. I feel freed up, lighter, less reactive over all, and as if the lighthouse lens of my soul beacon has been cleaned up!

If you feel drawn to connect around any of these places I’m describing and receive a personal bridging around them, I’m available for 1:1 sessions or a free intro with women, more info at soulfullheart.org/sessions.

Much love to you on this ‘sacred’ day of Friday the 13th as the Divine Feminine arises anew in all of her forms,

Jelelle Awen

I describe more about my process of transitioning to living on more prana and less food here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/my-process-of…/

And I had some feline assistance today while I played my sound bowls! Ravyn our cat has become fascinated by them after initially running out of the room whenever we played them (pic above of her paw extended to touch the heart chakra bowl while I played it!) She is vibing into the frequency now as animals are SO tuned into energy, they are a good barometer around if energy is good or not.

The Causes Of Inner Work & Ascension ‘Burnout’

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by Kasha Rokshana

It’s not uncommon to hear about how burnt-out, frustrated, and DONE people feel when it comes to their own Ascension and awakening journeys. There are so many things that can make someone feel this way and there are different ways to look at why this is happening, from the inside out. 

Join Kasha as she launches into a discussion about what’s in her heart about this topic/obstacle and what the factors may be that have led up to it. She offers her sense of how being inundated with β€˜spiritual teachings’ and mandates around β€˜do this, not that!β€˜ can play a role in making parts of you feel overwhelmed and ready to give up. Also, many offerings don’t seem to truly give you handrails and active support, let alone heart warmth, and also can blow you/parts of you out (sometimes even on purpose) with over-confrontation and an outside-in orientation to healing that does nothing to empower you to hold your own process. Kasha offers that while confrontation may be necessary at times, peak experiences or intense β€˜retreats’ can actually traumatize your parts/Metasoul aspects more so than offer true healing, integration, and a sense of who you truly are.

Kasha goes into more details about all of this and more surrounding what may or may not be your specific circumstances around feeling β€˜burned out’ on your personal journey. This is just the tip of the iceberg too, as really this is such a big topic to dive into and is really so personal to everyone who feels it.

Here is a guided meditation to help you connect with your Gatekeeper: https://youtu.be/bGqTeeaYpwc

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Energy Update: Blood Supermoon Eclipse Window Offering Opportunities For Integration

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By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: There is a DEEP integration happening during this eclipse window, this space between the two eclipses with the second happening on Sunday. This is my most favorite of eclipses where the big old full moon (hijacked feminine) enters Gaia’s shadow (sacred feminine) in totality and for a long time…a blood supermoon total lunar eclipse that is going to be 84 minutes long. The hijacked lunar energies get to slip into Gaia’s sacred feminine shadow and ‘bleed out’ what is needed. I’ve also felt that these eclipses provide a space from the moon matrix frequencies broadcast for a little while to allow more soul integration.

It’s been two years since the last one, which is an interesting marker as well…a connection to what/where/who you were two years ago. There are resources online to watch it live or take in the recording which I highly recommend with your favorite meditation music.

Raphael and I are going to offer a livestream on FB to connect to these Supermoon eclipse energies and a guided meditation/transmission as well at 5:00pm GMT (london)/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT. You can catch us live to ask questions/leave comments or watch the recording later. https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

The integration process occurring is the response to ALL that was pushed up and activated during the last few weeks of powerful solar activations, planetary alignment, the solar eclipse, and the 5/5 gateway. These were energies that everyone (us sensitives anyway) seemed to be feeling, especially on the physical and emotional body levels.

Many were experiencing physical purges and clearings with head aches, body pains, indigestion, massive fatigue/sleepiness, brain fog, and more. And on the emotional body level I experienced (and others too) that the reaction/response cycle was greatly accelerating. Reactions would come up in myself and what I could witness in others as intense, peaking, charged and deep. Reactions that may not have happened even in quite a while.

Yet the response to those reactions was immediate, loving, deep, and nourishing so that the reaction could land in a place of love and awareness. For me, that is in a specific way of feeling the part/soul aspect who MOST needs me in that moment and is actually having the reaction. Rather than relating as just an “I” experiencing everything (which is SUCH a soup and so hard to sort out), I have for many years now seen and felt that so often it is either a part of myself (esp the 3D self/ego structure) or a soul aspect from another lifetime that is having the reaction.

Just in the last couple of weeks alone, I connected to my 3D self/Birth named part named Jillian around renewed service and some trauma from the past; a new inner mother part named Hera about aging with grace rather than fighting it; and my priestess aspect Lorna around going into deeper collaboration/union with Raphael. I shared about some of these experiences on my feed. Each of these processes was about moving into a deep feeling space with each of them as needed, bringing in Divine Mother and my primary guide/Divine self Anna, and experiencing a transmutation through that in which the heavy despair/pain/trauma is gone.

This eclipse window is offering the opportunity to experience the integration of responding to the reactions in this loving and pin-pointed way to the energies that ACTUALLY need them most. The integration has an elated feeling to it, a renewed passion, clarity about next steps, soul purpose reactivation.

Something heavy and deep is lifted and your heart is freed up. Your soul is freed up. Life and love can enter and flood your field in new ways.

I feel a renewed honor in holding space for others to discover just how specific their reactions/suffering loops etc. can be and how to BE and FEEL the parts/aspects that are having them. It is in the vagueness of the ‘fusion’ to these reactions were there can be a lot of stuckness, a thicker veil, feelings of looping, and hitting a ceiling.

This is a powerful opportunity for healing during and after the eclipse window. I keep seeing some souls in my field that are ‘waiting’ for the right timing to meet with me and perhaps it is now. I have some openings for those women drawn to meet with me for a free intro or who just want to dive in for a 1:1 session for 90 minutes for $77 USD. More info at soulfullheart.org/sessions and you can PM/DM me as well.

Wherever you are at in your activation/integration process, the celestial bodies are supporting it. And Divine love too!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

I also highly recommend taking in whichever of our 31 Deepen 2022 videos you are drawn to with teachings and guided meditation: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y…