Avalon Activations: Sunrise At The Tor

 By Jelelle Awen

I am still letting in the energies from our early sunrise processional up to the Tor, the sacred hill in Glastonbury, this morning! We filmed our walk in silence up there and will also record a guided meditation soon with it to bring the Tor’s amazing energies of feminine from the Mary line and masculine from the Michael line into your physical/energy/emotional bodies.

There are some 3D overlays to move through as you connect to the Tor energies now, compared to the timelines where it was actively cultivated and supported as a spiritual activation and sacred ceremonial site by the Celts/Pagans, Essenes/Early christianity, Avalon/Druids, etc. There is traffic to navigate on the way, other less reverential souls taking it in as more a tourist attraction and photo op, lots of sheep poop, and deforestation/removal of the once lush forests.

Yet, still, your heart and soul can locate and tune into these energies if they are part of your soul’s journey here. You can ‘see’ with your third eye what once was and there are small sections of the walk up that offer reminders of the once gently spiralling, processional way up through the Oaks that would take hours and created trancelike states of altered consciousness by the time you got to the top.

Today, the wind whipped strongly through what remains of St. Michael’s tower on the top, which feels haunted honestly. I was reminded how the standing stone circle that were once stood proudly on the top of the Tor provided welcome wind protection, not to mention a big amplification of the energies. You can see that stone circle too still if you tune in.

I felt blessed to have even some taste of these energies with this beautiful soul family group along with me. The energies became even more magical and palatable as the masculine sun seemed to be wrapped in soft feminine tones of pink, coral, and peach as it rose up into the hazy horizon.

We’ll be sharing the Tor sunrise walk and guided meditation video soon on our SoulFullHeart portal on Patreon, which will have exclusive videos, group call recordings, writings, and a community forum. You can become a member now if you are drawn for $15 USD a month (you can cancel at any time) here: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart. These pictures offer a preview of it!

Love from Avalon,
Jelelle Awen

Join Kasha and I for an Avalon Activation women’s group call on Sunday, September 20 at 5:00pm BST (9:00am PDT) with teachings, meditation, and personal sharings by donation. We will share these Avalon energies that invite the inner masculine/feminine flow. More information at soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

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A Man’s Inward Holy Grail Quest To Find Real Worth, Value And Meaning

By Raphael Awen

King Arthur’s knights were ever drawn to escape the mundane, the everydayness of their lives. 

These sensitive and hungry souls had grown to despair of the emptiness of their culture, and their lives within that culture. 

They sought an escape into deeper meaning and purpose and an outer form of nobility and purpose to answer an inner unfelt loss of connection with their own nobility. God forbid that they should live out their days without a conscious quest to fill their sails. 

Is a monk of any stripe really any different? Or a renunciant – one who gives up something lesser for the attainment of something higher? What about the man seeking to make himself ‘independently wealthy’ – having no need of anyone or anything, or the hedonist pursuing every pleasure that men may come to know? The hedonist and the renunciant share a common hunger for something truly comforting.

So common to men of any background is the seeking of purpose and power within that purpose. Men are fleeing meaninglessness. Men will readily settle into a career or a family role because it stems this aching pain and discomfort coming from not knowing and feeling who they really are at a deeper level. 

Men who are not in touch with these deeper needs, the ones that really drive them, are then easily manipulated by agendas too numerous to mention – be they of the highest spiritual orders or the lowest callings known to men. Wouldn’t most of us trade in control or our sovereignty in exchange for comfort?

Men want more than anything to feel good about themselves, and if that means dedicating one’s life to helping others in order to feel good about themselves, then so be it, as long as it promises that they will get to feel good about themselves in the end.

The problem however comes in the constant delay of that promise – the futureness of it. ‘I’m so noble, I can delay my gratification of this need till later, in service of others.’ Men slip into settling for any kind of lessening of their pain of their disconnect from actually knowing and feeling their worth and their meaning, having long ago settled that they are not meant to ever know or actually live from a place of their worth, their value and true comfort. 

True embodied worth, that flows from within, that doesn’t rely on any outer circumstance or creed, that you can feel, that can colour your moments with the deepest creativity and engagement has long been written off as a dream, a myth. We are only left with a kind of nobility that makes the best of a really hopeless situation.

These kinds of dedicated happy campers, god bless them, are everywhere. Each of them with their alms begging bag extended before them. ‘Bestow upon me some spare change of worth and acknowledgment for the choices I have made and the example I am willing to be, during such a time of unprecedented loss’.

This all hits so close to home for me. At fourteen, I recall feeling so bored of being bored, longing to find freedom in anything that promised relief. The Christianity of my family heritage felt so compromised and lacking in passion, that I broke away into something much more engaging with a much higher bar of commitment and dedication. As a man to be, I needed to set my sail with a worthy quest to navigate the sea of meaninglessness that was all too real on every side, at every turn. 

It has taken a number of decades this life, and in numerous lifetimes beyond this one, to get to the place where I can feel that the true holy grail quest; from which flows every grail quest; from which flows every draft of any purpose ever imagined or set sail into; is actually about realizing the value and worth that lives inside, that has always lived inside, that awaits our choice and discovery. I can say I am truly coming to know and feel this worth and have my own experiential emerging felt reality of this kind of aliveness. I also feel the invitation for this to be the magic of an ongoing process, rather than some quest-ending instant gratification of these god given and god being kind of needs.

Only a man in growing touch with this inner worth has hopes of being enough for a woman, for a career, for a calling, for a quest, for belonging to a true circle of men who live in shared resonance with one another.

Having landed here in Glastonbury, England, a ‘fortnight’ ago, I am especially feeling King Arthur as a Metasoul brother wanting to digest and feel together with me the dissonance that still lives in men, especially in the men of the highest attainments, whether of spiritual or material pursuits. He says, ‘We got hoodwinked into thinking that if we chose nobility, duty and obligation, we would be guaranteed to find the deepest fulfillment, only to come full circle, after a long time spent in the desert in that lease of consciousness, and patterned brotherhood, having attained many things that felt so meaningful at the time, only to find out that we were ever still searching for the true holy grail, which was hiding all that time in plain sight, and yet for most, still remains hidden.’

The problem now comes in when feeling how to embrace such an inner quest without needing to enroll men into it for the purpose of feeling better about ourselves. Men must choose this for themselves, in their own time of sacred awakening, when the clock has run out of the necessary time spent in these previous domains – all of which are equally sacred and necessary to the inhabitation of the quest now arising. It can’t and won’t arise until it does.

I’m returning today and plan to return many times to the burial site and tomb of King Arthur here in Glastonbury inside of the Abbey ruins to feel this great cycle of death and rebirth that all men and mankind must grow into and go through. The once great Abbey that was the wealthiest in all of England, that held so much power and purpose in its many iterations over many centuries, by and for men of so many stripes, is seen to be coming from a worldview of domination, both of oneself and of others. Men of meaning and influence had to be in exchange with this centre of power to be granted lease and influence among men. Now, it sits in ruin as a 3D tourist attraction for tourists to scratch their heads in bewilderment at how and what such a thing was really about. 

I feel Arthur saying that he knows all too well now, what such a thing was all about – It was about the willingness of men and women to pool unimaginable resources into a patched together harmonious flow that promised this deliverance from meaninglessness. It was ultimately and humbly to serve as a bad example, of what couldn’t ultimately work, for the real needs of sacred human men and women, even as it shone a bright light and moved us in powerful new directions that were necessary and needed to bring us to this current flow of consciousness that is now arising – finding true worth and meaning that can only be found within, as Yeshua said, ‘where moth and rust does not corrupt, and where thieves cannot break in and steal.’ Domination itself as a way of life is in its sacred death and rebirth phase and we who are feeling it are the Ambassadors and the Death and Rebirth Doulas that are holding space for this sacred shift, along with its attendant new way of being. 

This is the true kingdoms and queendoms of heaven on earth that we are invited now to explore, to choose as deeply as we can in any and all moments, that thread meaning and deep purpose into the very fabric of your life as you currently know it. This is the true grail quest that we are invited to embrace, that gives purpose, direction, guidance, meaning and empowerment to all of life.

Much love, and wishing you deep strides on your sacred grail quest.

Raphael Awen

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I work one on one with men in session space and the SoulFullHeart process to assist in this kind of personal awakening. If this calls to you, I’d like to hear from you. I’ll send you a few questions and a guided meditation for you to undertake to find us a starting place together and we can go from there in a way that is tailored to your needs and life. More info is here: soufullheart.org/sessions.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Meeting Gog And Magog: Ancient Oak Trees Of Avalon

by Kasha Rokshana

Today I met the two ancient oak trees of Avalon that remain, named ‘Gog’ and ‘Magog’, and it was one of my most touching Avalon reunions yet…

Walking along, meeting and connecting with local trees and even getting lost a bit on our way there with a new soul friend, James (a fellow SoulFullHeart) was all part of the sacred adventure. All of that alone brought up much glee in my heart and peace too. The memories of these sacred trees who all have held and continue to hold so much space… digesting this venture today, I still feel a bit teary and like these trees are now inside me. Maybe they always were and this is simply another awakening.

Yes, the latter feels true… and so much that I’ve discovered in my Metasoul connections to this land lately is turning over now into these touching moments that aren’t full of deep and intense emotional processing but instead are just unshakeable memories and experiences of communication with the natural world that I’ve tasted but hadn’t fully been initiated into in this lifetime.

Coming from BC, Canada, where the trees are deeply magical as well, I often had profound experiences, yet these two ancient ones and the ones nearby of other species that hold the Avalon lineage in their rugged roots, are a storybook to uncover unto themselves and the true holders of the sacredness that can never be squelched from these lands.

In fact, even in the highly damaged ‘Gog’, one of these 2000-year-old oak trees that were part of a massive procession of oaks once upon a time that presided over the path to Avalon, shared with me that he himself and all of the trees who were cut down, are still alive and well in their own dimension and will return to the visible world when we reach the Golden Earth frequencies we’re now working towards and learning to let in from within.

Gog… burned from inside by a lit candle in 2017

This soothed the mourning I felt when touching his ghostly, fire-ravaged bark, as did his clear message to touch the smaller, younger tree growing next to him to show a unification between them… a reminder of how even what may feel ‘dead’ or ‘lost’ is still supporting the ‘newer’ generations. He also wanted me very much to see how life was continuing to grow on his hide. So even in the stillness of ‘death’, he was fulfilling a purpose. Purpose, he offered to me energetically, can truly be that simple and elegant.

Connecting with ‘Magog’, his healthier brother, I climbed slightly up on his side and leaned in closely, placing my hands in one place and then another, whispering light language as I went. James and I both went silent, taking in the energies of love, stillness, comfort being offered and entering into our own processes of connection with this incredible being.

Magog

I asked with my energy, because part of me so wanted to know, ‘how is it that you can somehow stay so still, over so many thousands of years, and be as contented and alive as you are?’

The response came in a moving picture of how his roots rustle beneath him with every season and how different creatures come to live inside of his openings and plants grow over and above his bark. He showed me a dance of how the sun changes position, how he shifts perhaps very slightly in position to soak up all he needs. How he’s simply a part of the symbiosis of natural life, which somehow is effortless in its timing and unfolding, yet unfold it does. He remains still in one way, yet shifts in certain ways as needed.

I felt every cell in my being respond to this and become so calm… teary, yet still, and full in heart. I felt renewed somehow in my sense of myself, which has also been a deep personal process and longing in recent days. I felt my love exchange with this tree spirit go deeply into both of us as ‘Gaians’ and as souls too. We remembered each other like old friends. And it was the sweetest reunion.

With both of these friendly giants, I felt this flow of connection run through that is still flowing as I share this. I felt connected more than I have yet to the Ancient roots of Avalon. I felt their invitation that wanted to come through me to the world, to any other human being who also wants to connect with them and remember, and to exchange love with them. They love to be loved, to be beheld in reverence as they revere and love us too.

They are a reminder of our own infinity and of our oneness with all things, and anchor that distinctive frequency of soul wisdom that can never be truly forgotten, only put aside for a while.

With so much love, from the deepest roots of Avalon,
Kasha ❤️🍃

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Jelelle Awen and I are hosting a women’s call where we will be transmitting everything we’ve been downloading and integrating since arriving here in Avalon/Glastonbury. More info here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Avalon Activations: Visit To The Glastonbury Abbey

By Jelelle Awen

Onward journey now in Avalon as yesterday we went into the ruins of what was once the most powerful and rich Catholic Abbey in the UK…the Glastonbury Abbey grounds right off of bustling High Street. The monastic teleportation started immediately once you enter the sacred and quiet grounds surrounded by the original stone walls. The earliest and most tender roots of Christianity are here…with Joseph of Arimathea’s simple sacred worship structure built here and two Holy Thorn trees.

We felt a mixture of energies as we explored the structures that have survived the fires, the dissolution and destruction of Catholic monasteries during King Henry VIII’s reign, and much more. We prayed in St. Patrick’s Chapel with its recreated paintings of Yeshua, Magdalene, Bridgit, and Mother Mary and felt the 500 years of Christian worship held there.

Exploring the remains of the Lady Chapel offered us some bridge to the Divine Feminine amongst the Patriarchal energies of dominance and grandeur. The Mary energy line hummed beneath us here in the Lady Chapel and we could tune into it in moments. We started calibrating with honoring to the graves of King Arthur and Queen Guinevere, with more personal Metasoul connection to open out in the future feels like.

I felt the most connection to my Essene/Magdalene lineage when touching the Holy Thorn tree. A wave of homesickness moved through my heart and sudden sense of missing being with my soul family group of pure devotees of the Divine and Yeshua….before Christianity became a exoteric religion and lost so much of the mystical sanctity and esoteric frequency of its origins. As a soul family group, we Essenes are finding each other in this life and especially in these lands of soul’s memory.

The ruins of the Abbey themselves offer a hint of how massive and grand it really was at the height of its stature. You can ‘see’ this with your third eye if you tune in. I found a lack of resonance with this outwardly bold and BIG expression of God devotion and could much more take in and feel the Divine frequencies offered by the large Yew, Ash, and Willow trees. The trees connected us through their roots to the purity of these Mary and Michael energy lines, more accessible through bare feet and outstretched hands on bark rather than in worshipping False Gods within vast stone structures.

The most potent moment of familiarity came when I sat on the Omphalos stone, a large egg-shaped rock with a divot carved on the top of it. It was unmarked and even seemed ‘abandoned’ outside the walls of the Abbot’s Hall. I could feel the times of my soul aspects/High Priestesses/Oracles sitting on this stone, during menstruation, and sharing the visions that would come forward with others.

The herb and plant gardens, apple orchards, fish ponds, and more wild spaces within the Abbey grounds offered an Earth-bound grounding in contrast to man’s lofty reach to the Heavens. Right there, in these natural landscapes as connected to Gaia’s energy frequencies, is available a potent sense of the Divine. And, going within, as always, offering the most sacred and profound grounds of God communion.

Lady Chapel at Glastonbury Abbey
prayer at St. Patrick’s Church
Sitting on the Omphalos Stone
Connecting with the Holy Thorn Tree

Love from Avalon!
Jelelle Awen

Join Kasha and I for an Avalon Activation women’s group call on Sunday, September 20 at 5:00pm BST (9:00am PDT) with teachings, meditation, and personal sharings by donation. More information at soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

More information about 1:1 soul initiation/emotional-Karma Trauma healing sessions with me for women over Zoom and here in-person in Glastonbury at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about 1:1 sessions with her for women and with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kasha Rokshana, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

Remembering The Soft Feminine

by Kasha Rokshana

As soon as my feet are bare, my dancer comes out.

And they were bare on this day, in this place, because of stepping into a healing pool of precious waters. The sensations of which returned to me even more soul memories to integrate into my heart. And so the dancer energy coming forward reminded me of a gentle femininity that lives deep inside, that invites instead of tugs. That dances for herself in self-love first of all and can pull others in to join her when it’s time, when they’re ready, when she feels ready to embrace that sort of partnership, mateship, friendship that requires vulnerability in exchange with another.

Avalon’s legacies are sometimes used to bypass… to exit instead of enter. These feminine energies are misread, misused, taken over.

When you choose to enter Her sacred womb, Her healing waters, the embrace of Her sacred trees, you find yourself feeling more than ever before as your own femininity arises into deeper healing possibilities. This can feel scary and unknown in moments. Yet held in Her embrace you are, always…

Incredible journey. 🦋

This sense of the deep feminine is one that all are invited to feel into inside of themselves… all that it powerfully pushes up to feel and be with is important. When the need for ferocity alone is complete, you’ll feel the balm arise from within. To me, this is what makes the shadows worth visiting and getting to know, even when the edges are sharp and the cost seems great.

Much love to you and your own (re)discovery of your inner feminine, whether man or woman… ❤️

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Serving women in 1:1 sessions is a deep passion of mine. This process of healing the feminine within and experiencing her full range of expression is so profound and endless! For more info on what my beloveds and I offer in session space, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions 🕊

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

My Nomadic Journey W/My Soul Mate Begins In Avalon

By Jelelle Awen

After years of envisioning, teleporting, and ‘visiting’ in the astral, I am finally headed to Glastonbury/Avalon in the physical with my beloved soul mate! Yesterday, Raphael and I booked a month’s stay in a place near-ish Glastonbury, about 30 minutes away in the countryside, for this May. We’ll be purchasing our plane tickets and rental car soon, yet getting a place early felt important to align our intentions with reality.

Glastonbury, which in a fourth dimensional space is one of my soul’s homes, has been calling me since I first read Mists Of Avalon and began connecting with my Avalonian Metasoul /deep soul sister aspect Morra during meditation journeys there. It has been clear to me that I need to be there in the physical for a phase of time to ground in the karmic healing I’ve been doing into the physical space and places where so much happened. And, also to serve those that might be drawn to join us in whatever arises for SoulFullHeart groups there too.

This is the first landing place of what we are feeling to be a ‘second honeymoon’ adventure for Raphael and I. We are feeling a call to leave Canada and be mostly alone together in this next phase after living in community for many years. We are drawn to spend time in the UK (on the coast as well, in Scotland, Wales, etc.) and also in France, Greece, Italy, and more. The openness feeling of it, the unknown, following the call of our souls and the Divine, the simplicity of letting go of a ‘set’ home is something I have wanted to do my whole life, yet, felt so strongly the call to create a community too. It feels like the community will form organically when it is time as it is what my soul most knows how to do and how to live.

During this phase, Raphael and I will continue to hold 1:1 sessions over Zoom and in person too for those who want to visit us wherever we are. Sessions, group calls, events, book sales and donations will be our main livelihood as well so your ongoing support is so wonderful! And, we’ll also be offering virtual gatherings with our first one March 20-23 with more details about that coming soon. This virtual one will replace our in-person gathering here in Victoria that we had planned to do.

My sense is that this journeying will expand my range, move me out of any remaining comfort zones and serve as a constant and gentle reminder that ‘home’ is truly found from within. ~

Love,
Jelelle Awen
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