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Beltane Energies: Transformation, Activation Of Sacred Inner/Outer Union & Passionate Divine Reunion

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by Kasha Rokshana

Solar flares, Beltane fires, solar eclipse… so much activation magic, so much clearing, so much to digest! I sincerely hope that as these fires of sacred transformation from the inside out hold you today (and ongoingly) that you feel held, loved, appreciated… and above all, that you feel trust, even in those waves and moments when it feels like too much.♥️🔥

I feel dips and upturns of sacred union inside and out calling to us all today. I feel the awakenings and stirrings of the soul and heart both as they answer, react, and respond to this calling. My own sacred union wifh Gabriel has had its own challenges and deepening this whole month more or less, and it continues to open out into new territory today with passion and desire, and even fear coming up as we go.

Wherever you are with that process and with your own unfolding journey overall at this time, the Beltane fires welcome you into their embrace, whether you’re walking through them, lingering near them, or celebrating being on the other side of them. ♥️

Here is the Beltane poem I re-share every year since I wrote it a few years ago. I hope it stirs and calls on your desires for your inner and outer mateship possibilities, but also into a deep and passionate love affair with the Divine and with all of life as well. 🔥

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Beloved that you are,

When the smoke clears
on life’s regulating ways
and gives way to the undulating meadows
of new love’s first spring…

There I’ll be

Standing in the light
of the sun shining above me,
firm in the ground I walk on
yet lightly walking toward your ready stance,
singing a song
we will both remember.

In Beltane’s past, my love
we dined and danced
and brought together our intertwining
everythings
to mingle in the love light
of the divine masculine and feminine dawnings.

In Beltane’s new arrivals, love,
we’ll linger long
in embraces for only us to feel
in the eye of the mind’s connection
until the refreshing breath
of a crisp and ripe chapter
brings us closer in all elements
of this life’s wanderings.

In myself I stay here for you, love,
finding more treasure long buried
to show you in vulnerable ownership
echoing the also deep claim
you have inside of you
for you.

The winds of change
and graspings of renewing tides
grip at our thrown-about clothing
to move us closer to the edges
that keep US alive…

Together we will meet, my beloved,
and there we will find
what we have been searching for…

A counterpart.

Not to bind, but to bond.

Not to cling, but to sing.

Not stifle with duty
but to bring out with bounding life’s alterations and celebrations
of each new movement
here…

Bring your mountains out to greet the new day, love,
and see the power of our sunshines mingling
on a new insatiable appetite
of a love reunited
in a way that was agreed to long ago
and yet NOW too.

Even NOW I make a vow to you,
to be all the more loyal to myself
and dedicate overflow to you,
to what we will create together
in our messy masses of alchemical baths
and swooning passes.

Love, when we do meet again
here…
I will dress the moon in your honor
and harness the sun’s rays for your Kingdom to come
and our world that is being reborn.

On this Beltane celebration day,
as I ache for you,
I prepare that place in my heart
that is you-shaped
where you already live…
and that place in my body’s life
where your essence will connect
so much

oh, so much…

With mine.

Love,
Kasha ♥️


🎨: Sylvan Myst

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

My Journey, Humanity’s Ascension, Soul Community | The Starseed Network Podcast | Kasha Rokshana (Audio)

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In this episode of The Starseed Network Podcast, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator and long-time soul community member, Kasha Rokshana, shares with host Saule Ilona Vaida about her personal awakening, healing,  and self-discovery journey. She shares about when she met Raphael and Jelelle Awen for the first time and how her ongoing journey in the SoulFullHeart process/way of life has transformed her from the inside out, which has helped her draw a Sacred Union mate as well.

Kasha and Saule also digest the ongoing Ascension process for humanity and the healing of the Divine separation wound, along with finding fulfillment in your emotional/spiritual healing journey and being true to yourself, your parts, your heart AND soul. 

You can follow this podcast on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thestarseednetwork/

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/5I9q2RMyA89sicqeqsYASf?si=e0d6e7a5d38849a9

Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-starseed-network-podcast/id1585215487

Google Podcasts: https://anchor.fm/saule-ilona-vaida

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Easter Passage Energies Of Death, Grief, & Rebirth

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by Kasha Rokshana

‘Easter’ Energy Update: The anxiety, the uncertainty, the doubts that surface at this time are as sacred as the moments of clarity, of surefooted-ness, and of deepening trust in the flow of what’s happening inside and out. Rebirth is sometimes glorious to be in, sometimes messy, and oftentimes not what parts of us expect.

To trust the ‘death’ processes and everything they come with is just as sacred as trusting the ‘rebirth’ that comes on the other side. We know in our souls that it’s inevitable that we WILL emerge from the darkness and the unknown and land somewhere necessary and even desirable, yet that doesn’t always help all parts of us or soul aspects to feel their trust in that in their own ways. They’ve witnessed too much of what they feel is the opposite experience and even timelines/lifetimes of persecution, of being condemned, of being alone, of being in an all-time low that seems to last forever.

The darkness has its work to do in all of this, especially as the times we’re in truly support us to feel how unsupported parts/aspects of us feel toward the Divine. The Divine doesn’t expect us to transcend any of this and instead offers us a place to land it all… every last worry, hope, doubt, fear, and desire.

I would love to say that we will absolutely land in the New/Golden Earth reality we all dream of in the next few years at least, yet the truth is, we can’t attach to that outcome and anything miraculous suddenly placing us there. Not while there are still parts within us and Metasoul aspects from other lifetimes struggling to let in the possibilities, struggling to let in even feeling their mistrust, fears, anxieties, and allowing it all to move and be answered. The Golden future we all desire is a resurrection that takes root within, that flowers in resonance shared in our inner and outer worlds. Only then does it really feel possible to experience it in deeper and deeper ways, while acknowledging and flowing with the birth pangs that come with that ongoing process.

What I feel from the Divine is support to not look for a magic, silver bullet solution, but instead to feel the grief of the ideals of what was once good in our lives to whatever degree it truly was good, and to let go into this Great Unknown as we move deeper into this phase of Great Death. The tears of this process water the seeds of what’s becoming possible, even though the death sometimes feel far more real.

The darkness around the world seems to be getting darker… yet I feel a trust that everything we endure is somehow necessary for all of our individual awakenings, let alone the global one that is also ongoing. Even in that trust, however, I have to make space for my own doubts to surface that we’ll ever be truly ready in my own lifetime to embrace what could be. When I feel this, I feel grief like a lump in my throat. I feel the need to keep letting go of any pictures of what’s possible and be with what IS… the death and pain needs a lot of space to be felt, with no agenda, with no pushing to move beyond it, and no need to be ahead of it, while also trusting desires for what could be like a beacon leading me homeward.

The answers are unknown as to how this all resolved itself, yet there is an answer in the path of crying with those who cry around us, feeling love for those who are also remembering how to love themselves and others, remembering that our souls have not chosen by accident to be here now. We all have a purpose, even if it’s just to feel these waves of grief and letting go, in order to surrender deeper to what is and let in what could be along the way.

As we head rapidly towards ‘Easter weekend’ now, it’s the perfect time to feel the Death and Rebirth of our selves, parts of us, and all of humanity. It’s a powerful time to feel the Divine with us, in the forms/faces that work for each of us individually, such as Yeshua and Magdalene, who I can feel in their union holding us all so deeply.

I feel them offering, as I conclude this writing today, “May your sense of personal and global arising feel as real as the death and grief you also feel.

May your alignment with your soul’s heart deepen in surrender to the Divine that holds it all.

May your desires ripen, your heart open, and your love expand and fill every cell of your being, only to overflow in concert and transaction with those around you who also care so much.

Feel how much you are loved, even when love feels scarce.

In all of this and your sacred doubts too, the Divine is with you, always.”

Love,
Kasha

P.S. I would so love to hold 1:1 space for you, if you’re a woman, in your inner explorations of what was once true for you, what’s true now, and what you desire to be true in the future. My beloveds hold space as well in 1:1 sessions, for women with Jelelle and for men and women with Raphael and Gabriel. For more info, visit: soulfullheart.org/sessions🕊

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

“I love you”: Message Of Encouragement From The Divine

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by Kasha Rokshana

(Art by Glenyss Bourne)

In all of life’s
infinite complications…

There’s always a voice
whispering,

“I love you”…

Even if
Part of you
Isn’t able to hear it
Or
Isn’t able to let in

The voice remains,
still whispering,

“I love you”.

Then…
you realize
this voice is yours
And the Divine’s
Rolled back into One.

Even when something
So deep inside you
thought everything was over,
That the complications have ‘won’,
that it’ll never know love again…

The voice remains
and still it whispers,

“I love you”,
And as a toddler
Makes its strides with watchful eyes,
your heart knows
And remembers steadily
That somehow
This voice,
These words,
Are its true home.

And when it’s ready,
With a steadiness in tow,
It begins to whisper back,

“I love you too…”

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Video: Caring For Yourself & The World (Teachings & Guided Meditation)

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SoulFullHeart Teachers/Facilitators and Sacred Union soulmates, Gabriel Amara and Kasha Rokshana, led this livestream on March 30, 2022 to talk about care for our inner and outer worlds and how there’s such a deep process around living into it. 

They share about their own experiences with the process of activating their own care from deep within themselves and how their different templates/models for what it means to care about yourself and the world around you has had to be deeply felt and moved through to find authentic care expression. 

They also offer some different ways in which to view this concept of being truly caring, the way it’s been hijacked by the Matrix through the ‘Woke’ agenda, and the difference between filling a role/expectation versus genuinely feeling empathy and compassion.

After the teaching and digestion, Gabriel and Kasha led a guided meditation to meet with your Love Ambassador self before entering the ‘care room’ inside of you, where there are different situations playing out and different parts of you feeling their attachments or reactions to these scenarios. 

Here is the link to a guided meditation led by Jelelle Awen where you’re invited to deeply enter a process of healing the cries of the inner and outer world: https://youtu.be/EsKv4XwV7ME

Kasha’s writing about the Great Passing: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2022/01/23/the-great-passing-taking-place-during-this-time-of-the-great-awakening/

And the recording of it in her voice: https://youtu.be/TKtMzVlPKSg

Meet Your Gatekeeper guided meditation: https://youtu.be/bGqTeeaYpwc

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

The Ongoing Journey Of Healing Our Worthiness, Collectively & Individually

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by Kasha Rokshana

In your conscious worthiness, desires and needs are answered, and the journey is embraced. ~

What a journey finding and feeling our truest sense of self-worth is!

I’ve never managed to find anywhere outside of myself, in any outward validation or through mastering the exercises in any self-help book. The only place I’ve continually found a way to answer each layer of unworthiness that is revealed inside of me is by feeling. Not through force, but by feeling. Not through a silver bullet, but through an ongoing process. This process at times is very sober yet all the time it’s alive and moving through me with so much messiness and grace, both.

Our collective worthiness has so much feeling and healing to do too… our worthiness as all of humanity, as a Sacred Human family, and as powerfully big individual souls.

It’s the unworthiness of healing our deep existential fears and separation pain from the Divine, showing up so strongly now with the power of these times we’re in with peaking and eventually collapsing Matrix-based narratives.

We are worthy of the tears and fears of all parts and soul aspects of us being heard and felt.

We are worthy of opening our hearts to the Divine and to others and feeling their hearts open too.

We are worthy of the challenges along the way of letting in this love that is always available to us. It’s the challenges, after all, that remind us that it IS the journey that hold us in all of the letting go so we can let in what we truly desire and need from the Divine and others…

…with our worthiness continually healing and growing.

The process pays off in dividends… the love received lands deeply and transforms so much from within which it couldn’t touch before. We are worthy of this and of trusting this process.

We are worthy of letting in that we are loved through it all.

It’s up to each of us how we choose to embody this process, live into this ongoing journey, and embrace that it truly IS a journey which we are all on together… one humble step inward at a time.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Are You Willing To Live, Be, Trust?: Transmission Of Support From The Magdalenes/Soul Family

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by Kasha Rokshana

For all your brilliance,
Are you willing to also live it out?

For all your wittiness,
Are you willing to be in the unknown?

For all your fire,
Are you willing to soak in still waters?

For all your empathy,
Are you willing to also have compassion?

For all your mistrust,
Are you willing to feel what trust may offer?

For all your compliance,
Are you willing to dig deeper and ask ‘why’?

For all your belonging,
Are you willing to risk standing alone?

…these questions we ask without judgement
To serve and bolster your deeper awakenings,
Your Divine Self’s deeper embodiment,
And the discovery of who you are,
Who you always were,
Yet chose to forget.

Here to serve your upliftment, we are.
As we also hold you in your downtrodden states.

Here to love you, always, we are.
Even in those questioning moments
Where it feels like love cannot possibly exist.

You are embraced
Held
Loved beyond measure of fame, fortune or wisdom.

Loved even in your compliance to the structures that lay dying,

Loved even in the foggy times of unknown choices,

Loved as much in your dying times as your alive times.

With so much of your truest essence in our hearts…
Love,

Your Soul Family/The Magdalenes

(W/ Kasha Rokshana)

I feel this landing in my own heart as a way to remember compassion for myself and all souls at all times. We’re walking out what we came to walk out, and it’s truly up to all of us to choose what we are ready to embody next… with no judgement from those who came before us and support us through it all.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Fogginess & Unknown Of Now

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by Kasha Rokshana

We’ve had many beautiful, sunny, warm, and clear days here in Portugal all winter long. We’ve not been experiencing the amount of rain that the land needs, though. I’ve felt quite nourished by the sun codes but also the relief of the rain codes that offer much permission to stay indoors, warm and cozy, while the storm moves through and the thirsty land starts getting its fill.

The fog here, though, is like nothing else I’ve ever experienced. In this land that feels so Divinely maternal, so motherly, and so Magdalene too, I feel embraced by the fog even though it makes it impossible to see very far ahead. The mystical quality speaks to my Mystic within and feels familiar.

This fog this morning represents so much to me at this time… what is still working towards clearing on a physical level as I continue to heal from a UTI which has been helping me clear old energies, especially in relationship to the masculine through my yoni, but also in relationship to service on this planet at this time. I also feel the fog of not being sure what’s next on this planet or how to serve into the deafening lies, the beckoning out of anger, the sadness of people whose lives are not being considered or cared for. This isn’t only about the current war but also about the ongoing battle ground of the Matrix push and pull on the consciousness of so many still freeing themselves, one choice at a time, that has been intensifying over the last few years especially.

We are shrouded in a dense fog as we move past what hasn’t been true and start to let in what is. It’s like moving through molasses at times as we feel all the stages of grief which come with every deep awakening, and reunite with the Divine as our parts, Metasoul aspects/soul themes, Gatekeepers, etc all begin to feel more ready for that experience.

We don’t have concrete answers but we do have the invitation to continue trusting the Divine and looking inward too. We are invited to become love from the inside out, which doesn’t often result in a fireworks show of love and virtue-signaling. This process is often messy, foggy, painful, but hopeful, and above all, it’s very humble.

I’ve had rounds of anger and sadness both stirred in my heart recently. I’m feeling my inner process and the process of the planet and human collective I’m a part of yet also individualized from. The anger in my soul needs to vent at times and then the sadness comes up too. To me, there’s no hiding behind a veil of pretending that events in the world aren’t real while so many are being impacted. Yet there’s also no hiding behind conclusions made by those who choose to only see and experience one possible reason for things. I feel a nuanced sense about what’s really going on and surrender to the unknown more and more.

And then, I feel so humbled by that and somehow so held too, as I surrender my understandable feelings and invite in my own deep Divine connection to help me hold space for the movements.

The fog is clearing already here now. Maybe that’s another sign of the clearing to come. Not knowing or understanding the way forward or how and when it moves is as sacred as working hard to know or understand as much as we can. Parts of us can truly struggle with letting go of knowing and simply being in the NOW. They can feel restless while sitting in the mess as long as necessary until more understanding comes and the way forward becomes clearer. But the mess and fog is as necessary as the experience of clarity and opening of the hardened, sad, confused heart.

Much love to you and any parts/soul aspects of you that may be struggling while they experience this fog in their own sacred ways.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Sacred Feminine Love Ambassador and Co-Founder/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with Kasha for women or Jelelle for women over 35 and with Raphael or Gabriel for men/women, free 45min intro calls with Kasha or Gabriel, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org

Reflecting On My Past Decade With SoulFullHeart

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by Kasha Rokshana

Now that I can actually say it’s been 10 years since my deeper healing, awakening, and remembering journey truly began in this lifetime, I’m realizing how little time 10 years actually is. It’s been a very FULL decade though with a lot that I’ve moved through and arisen into, with many waves of deep diving within. It’s been a real and humbling art form to then let the love cultivated flow outwardly to others in intimate relationship, service, and seed-planting.

The pictures of who I thought I would be have dissolved and transformed into something different, with the same essence at heart. These pictures began when my first awakening experiences happened around 20 years ago. Before my SoulFullHeart journey began, parts of me held onto a dream of becoming a well-known actress/performer while also holding space for others and hopefully making bank while doing so.

The ‘sage on a stage’ dream was quickly humbled by the recognition of how much the ‘work’ that I needed to do wasn’t on development and maintenance of a self-image that I could commoditize, or on quick fixes that promised I would overcome all of my doubts and fears with only some effort. Instead, it turned out that the work was inward. VERY inward. So inward in fact, that for a few phases I had to let go of everything that once was a sacred dream in order to let in what the real dream was… a dream of becoming a love so deep and vast and connected to the Divine, that no one and nothing on the outside could touch or taint it, even if this didn’t turn out to make me/parts of me look or seem like the well-known ‘teachers’ of our time, didn’t draw thousands of social media followers or fans, and also didn’t draw a six-figure income.

I also came to realize that even though parts of me could be quite social at times, I was actually more naturally inward and introverted. How many layers I would have had to put on to become what I originally thought I wanted to be! If it was all about love anyways and feeling on some level that I had to ‘earn’ love, then I would have become quite burned out… and I think this is what happens to many souls and the parts that had to form in order to conform to these outward-based needs and this picture of success.

In these last ten years, I’ve learned what service and empathy really mean and where they really seems to come from as both an inherent gift that lies in your heart from birth that’s meant to be shared, but also something that needs to be watered, developed, and made safe to come out. I also learned that being empathic AND compassionate is an art form in and of itself and a humbling one at that…

I’ve learned that what I thought “Sacred Union” was was really only a small picture of what it actually is… and what it actually is needs to be discovered so personally, starting from deep within you between parts of you and in your soul journey too, not simply with another on the outside. It’s taken me so much longer than parts of me thought it would to truly be ready for it and for the growth, mirrors, and depth of love it offers.

I am learning so much more, every day, about Divine feminine embodiment and what it means to be me as an energy expression of Divine Mother and a Divine Daughter. I am continually humbled by what this journey asks of me, the seeds it plants and waters in my heart, and by just how much I love the Divine in my soul… a love that more and more needs less and less from others in a certain way, though some needs remain that are fulfilled by my beloved soul family in the flesh and in the formless. It’s actually been the depth of intimacy I’ve experienced within this community that has done the most to inspire and support my inner shifts, and it’s the openings within me toward the Divine that has also inspired me so deeply and always keeps me going even through the toughest challenges.

These last ten years have been so deeply healing, even when I had to leave the SoulFullHeart room (in one sense of it) and let life be my facilitator/space holder during different phases, or when I had to leave the room of my Sacred Union relationship with Gabriel. I feel grateful for every up and down, every wobble, every triumph.

It was in every doubt and question about myself and my path, especially maybe in those times when I wasn’t been directly supported by the community and had to be ‘on my own’ for a while, that I could quite deeply recognize who I had been and the soul themes I had been working. It was during the times of ‘going without’ that I truly found how to go within, apply what I had learned, and re-enter the SoulFullHeart and Sacred Union rooms as a truly changed woman.

Truthfully, I probably spent 1-2 years out of this last decade processing on the ‘outside’ of this community, my beloved romance, and sessions. And though heartbreaking, it really did break me open.

I feel I’m digesting all of this as a way to let it in, but also to extend the invitation to your own sovereign soul, to feel into if this journey may also be for you. If you’re curious, Gabriel and I offer free 45min intro calls where we can feel this with you with lots of honesty: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Thank you for taking in this piece of my journey and feeling whatever resonance is real for you too!

Love,
Kasha

P.S… here’s the first article I ever wrote for the SoulFullHeart Blog, called “Heart-To-Heart Knowing”, signed off on by a now precious part of me named “Katie”: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2012/09/19/heart-to-heart-knowing/

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Sacred, Ever-Unfolding Process Of Healing The Separation Wound

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by Kasha Rokshana

If you’ve been in or around a ‘spiritual circle’ or offering of any kind for a while, you’ve probably heard about how ‘separation is an illusion’ quite often, yet perhaps it hasn’t really felt relevant or comforting to parts of you to hear that… and, you may have also felt a subtle (or not so subtle) rumble in your belly in response, a sense of being ‘wrong’ for buying into the ‘illusion’ or somehow not quite getting how separation isn’t real.

Separation IS an illusion, yet for parts of us, it isn’t… and for certain soul aspects of ours in other lifetimes, it also isn’t. There’s the theory that separation isn’t real, but sometimes it FEELS like the realest thing there is, especially with how much MORE separation in the physical is happening now between yourself and others. The Great Awakening has a cost to it and that cost is that you may start to feel closer to the Divine again, yet your relationships are crumbling along with your job prospects, your means of ‘making ends meet’, and perhaps even your whole way of seeing and experiencing life in your home country.

In some ways, with human division ripening and dissonance sometimes feeling much more real than any possible resonance with one another, how could separation NOT feel like the realest thing there is?

In my own experience of healing the separation wound to the depth I have already (with more layers to go, of course), I feel like the greatest reason for any part/soul aspect to feel ‘separate’ from the Divine, always comes down to the deepest feelings of unworthiness… of having been ‘cast out’ of the Divine Garden, of having been pressed back into the density of a human body (again), of not experiencing ‘love’ in the same way our souls know we so easily CAN when in our soul’s home dimension.

To make up for this unworthiness, parts of us reach for anything that can bring them back into the arms of the love they feel they’re missing, even at the detriment of the physical body or the numbing/transcendence of the deeply feeling human heart. There’s a throbbing ache inside the gap between the consciousness you have, the lacklustre relationships you’ve said ‘yes’ to, and perhaps even the spiritual practices you continue to do even if they aren’t quite answering the pain.

I’ve experienced at times triumphant, celebratory (and often VERY tearful) waves of reunion with the Divine in different forms, faces, and energies… within meditation and in my inner world, yet also in intimate reunion experiences with soul family and Sacred Union in the physical that open the once bruised heart back up again. And still, even with all of this, there are moments, processes, deep-dive experiences within, where I find yet another layer of shame and pain that creates feelings of not always being Divine let alone always being WITH the Divine.

I feel the Divine offering that these states of feeling separate are not only understandable, but expected… so deep are the layers of separation that reciting affirmations may help parts of you, yet not quite do all of the ‘work’ for you. It’s the bittersweet remembering that inside of you is a well of complicated soul and this-life experiences to keep wading into and exploring which brings you much closer to the Divine than trying so hard to move into a reality where separation no longer feels real without even glancing at the map before you, let alone traversing the actual terrain of the process of reunion.

This coming Sunday, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will co-host a group meditation call on Zoom at 5pm GMT, focused on healing the separation wound. They have been such profound models for me personally of how to enter into this territory of feeling aspects of you like the Divine Orphan, for example, and letting in the gifts of experiencing even deeper reunion and oneness frequencies with the Divine and even other souls too. You can attend the call live and/or receive the recording by offering any donation that feels good to you. You can find more info on this upcoming call here: soulfullheart.org/events

Lots of love from my journey of reunion to yours,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.