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“Come As You Are” This Solstice/Holiday Season

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by Kasha Rokshana

Deep beneath the Matrix-fuelled busyness, expenses, and stresses of the ‘holiday season’, lay the pure energies of this time of year; un-hijacked and sprouting up from underneath what feels like frozen ground at times. These energies can be difficult to access, as this ground is the rather hardened layer of social/familial obligations that no longer arise for you in joy, but arise instead in tension and frustration. 

It’s a confusing time of year in that way, isn’t it? So many inner buttons are being pressed, some of which you can track and others which you can’t because they have so long simply been ‘tolerated’ or buried. The parts of you that want to scream, others that want to cry, and still others who want to be numb, are all being pushed on and perhaps this year, with the intensity of our different realities and consciousnesses surfacing in ways that can’t be ignored or put aside any longer, it’s all feeling much, much worse. 

Yet, there’s also the purity of the inner child’s joy that feels the Christ/Magdalene frequencies of this time and wants to jump into that love pool more than anything. There’s the deep love of the Divine that lives in your soul, and the desire to align ever-deeper with that love, to truly live from it, that also can become inspired to surface this time of year, when the ‘permission’ to be more joyful can come through and reach you, however it can. 

My own inner child (who has a Christmas Elf side!) has had a mixed experience of Christmas and the holidays, even in her enthusiasm for them. This time of year has been more challenging for her and many other energies within me too as things keep ramping up in the outer world and it’s all just so sad and hard to feel. It’s also been challenging as this year my personal income has been tighter and thus I can’t shower my beloveds with many bought gifts. This has been surprisingly hard as gift-giving has been a deep love language for parts of me, yet it’s been of course a huge out-breath to remember that with my beloveds and my mate, Gabriel, physical gifts have only ever been one small way to show our love for each other and generosity towards each other too. 

So while the physical gifts have had to be let go of in some ways this year (though not totally), I actually feel the deeper gift of our shared resonance and love flow which have been so much more nourishing and fulfilling than any ‘bought gift’ could possibly be… also, I feel how much I’m letting in that the man I’ve had many rounds of relationship with and who I’m in love with yet again though now in an even deeper way, is at my side. If I could give this gift to everyone in the world… that would be more satisfying than buying anything at all.

Of all the many messages we can receive this Solstice and holiday season, perhaps the most consistent one is the invitation to ‘come as you are’ as you reach inside of you and move your heart and soul back into the room of your own innate Divine connection, for its never about adornments, baubles or tokens, but always about love flow and choosing love over anything else. This is what I think of when I hear the song ‘Little Drummer Boy’’, for he had no ‘gifts’ to bring, but he brought his song, played on his precious drum, and somehow that brought him closer in frequency to the Divine child before (and within) him. He expressed his love, honoured his resonance, and showed up in the only way he knew how. How precious this invitation is for us all!

Sending you lots of love this Solstice and holiday season. May Divine love surround and move through you, even in ways that surprise you!

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Introducing Bey Magdalene: SoulFullHeart Community Member and Facilitant

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A fun and joyful day out in Coimbra, a sweet and lively university town near us

I have been in the orbit and a part of SoulFullHeart for three years now, though I initially calibrated for six months before I had my first session with Jelelle. One day she just showed up on my Facebook and taking in one post after the other, I quickly became convinced she was speaking directly about me and to me at the same time. Over the years I’ve had the unique opportunity and experience of being facilitated by every single Facilitator in SoulFullHeart. It was very clear from the beginning that “this” was “it” for me. I finally found what I had been looking for all my life. In just how many ways that is true, I’m learning now every day as a part of the community in the physical.

Raianna dressed up at Halloween

I joined Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kasha to live with them on a campground in northern Portugal at the beginning of August this year. About a month and a half ago, we moved to central Portugal, to quite a remote little village called Folques. While the campground was sort of a ‘honeymoon phase’ and sniffing each other out, the new phase brought a lot of intense initiations for me, inner and outer, which I bravely walked out and am now getting to the other side of. A week and a half ago, Raianna, who has been connected to SoulFullHeart for many years, joined us all here in Portugal too after completing her life in Canada. For Halloween, we dressed up and had a little gathering.

Gabriel & Kasha dressed up for Halloween

The veils are thin right now and for me personally, I particularly feel that in my ongoing process of differentiating from my persona-based ‘Bianca part’, as the current energies push up so much illumination of her and support for me to keep differentiating. For a number of years now I have been doing ‘parts work’ with SoulFullHeart and working with parts of the self. Over the years I have discovered and felt many parts of myself, differentiated from them and integrated them. This has led me to a new and deeper layer of this work, held by the soul family container and the relationship with myself. It has led me to recognize that ‘Bianca’, my birth name, had become a part herself, and a corresponding new energy had been discovered and cultured through all this inner work. This new energy/being is able to hold all parts of myself, soul explorations/metasoul aspects, soul family community, and life choices. I have decided to call this new arising energy, ‘Bey Magdalene’. One version of the name ‘Bianca’, which is Italian and means white/pure/bright light, is ‘Beyonca’ (same pronunciation) and I am feeling to go with the short version of it, Bey (pronounced like ‘bee’) for now and claim it as a transitory name until a soul name comes through. The surname ‘Magdalene’ I have chosen in honor of my soul family origins and connection to the Magdalene/Essene lineage in honor and humble claim of my connection to my beloved Soul Family in SoulFullHeart. It feels important to let go of the entire waveform of my former name as it holds all of the birth family relationships/biography/woundings, social and romantic relationships, job navigations, and life as I have known it really, in order to keep arising into the New.

Priestess energies coming through for Halloween

Differentiating from this persona-based part and everything she has been holding, including her relationship to this life, the process itself, and others, is a deep service to and honoring of me, her, and others too who feel drawn to this work and community as well.

It REALLY is NOT easy to feel everything that is going on inside in every moment, move through it, and come out the other side of it. And sometimes, all we can do is fuse to the emotional world of our parts. Yet ALL of this process is sacred and held, supported and guided by the Soul and the Divine Self, if you choose this path of utmost soul growth and deeply nourishing and resonant soul family community. I am feeling, after all these years of dedicated inner work, a deep trust in this process and myself and that it all is truly perfect as it unfolds and keeps unfolding. And to me, trust in oneself is the hottest currency out there, especially right now in these volatile and intense times.

Much Love,

Bey Magdalene

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Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and Community Member. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org.

SoulFullHeart Museletter: April 17, 2021

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There have been huge waves of upgrades moving through in the last week or so, adding on extra boost to all of our Ascension processes and the bliss mess that brings.

Jelelle offers a thorough energy update this week to support you in your ongoing process and in everything you may have been feeling through and moving through recently.

Tomorrow, April 18th, there will be a group meditation call with Raphael and Jelelle, focused on digesting the COVID narrative one year later. More information is in this Museletter and also at this link: soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

There are many new writings to help guide you on your journey. There is also a new video of our time visiting the Stanton Drew standing stones here in the UK and another video from an Ascension update livestream hosted by Raphael and Jelelle.

You can take in the new Museletter here.

Love,
~ The SoulFullHeart Community

The Stanton Drew Standing Stones & New Earth/New Lemuria Codes

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by Jelelle Awen

It is truly an honor to go to these sacred sites here in this magical Somerset region of the UK, to feel the soul frequencies that are activated by the geography, and the unique opportunity that it brings up as a portal to more Divine Self embodiment. Yesterday, we went to visit Staton Drew stone circle…the 3rd largest stone circle in the UK…dated to 4,500 years ago yet of course it could be much older when you go beyond 3D archaeological timeframes.


The stones were immediately greeting and ‘chatting’ at us, like they did at the Avebury stone circle (which we will return to soon.) The stones here seem to form a communication network grid for inner Earth and for galactic communication, linked to North America through the root system of the old trees there (such as the Redwoods, Douglas Firs, and the Cedars) and energetic vortexes such as Sedona and Mt. Shasta.

There are still 26 stones at Staton Drew in various stages of being intact, some chipped away at or knocked down by farmers over the years. I am noticing that there is a definitive masculine or feminine tonal frequency to each stone….the ones you want to cuddle and hug are usually feminine providing support and grounding. The ones that you lay palms on or want to climb are often masculine, with strong activations.


The biggest treasure at Stanton Drew is the still-intact smaller circle of about a dozen stones, which we were all drawn to sit in the middle of together. We sat in meditation and could immediately feel the connection to Inner Earth and the Lemurians living beneath it. The inner earth Lemurians are those who survived the fall/floods/earthquakes and went into Inner Earth to create 5D communities there. They have provided us on the surface with superfood seeds, quartz and andara crystals, various other technologies and more to be released when we are ready. Raphael and I have connected with them before and their template of what how we could live in sustainable, high frequency community on the surface is very inspiring.

We channeled their personal and community messages to us through some Lemurian ambassadors and then passed out for awhile laying in the sun. It was quite activating and rejuvenating! I look forward to going back there again to hear/feel/see whatever is ripe to come up.


The 800 year old St. Mary’s Christian Church we visited afterwards was not quite as clean energectically, yet it was still amazing to feel a church that old still intact and hosting Sunday services.

Love from Avalon (and surrounding areas),

Jelelle Awen

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Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about 1:1 sessions with her for women and with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kasha Rokshana, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

SoulFullHeart Avalon Updates: Issue 3

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It’s been over a month since our last ‘update’ was sent out so this one is jam-packed with plenty to take in! In this issue you’ll find many digestions and energy updates of personal process, the energies here in Avalon, the US Election, the 11/11 portal, and more. So much has been moving and rumbling through the collective lately and it’s our desire to help bridge you to some different ways you can look at and feel through it all.

There is a brand new guided meditation from Jelelle that we highly recommend as it is so soothing to take in, especially if you have felt a lot of reactions recently and are finding it challenging to come back to your heart.

This coming Saturday, November 14th @ 5pm GMT, Raphael and Jelelle will be leading a group transmission and guided meditation over Zoom, offering Golden Earth/5D energies and bridging. More info on that is in this update which can be found here.

With much love from ALL of us!

~ The SoulFullHeart Community

The Sacred Timing Of Your Personal Shadow/Light Explorations

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by Kasha Rokshana

We can choose to lump our experiences in with what’s moving cosmically or the energies coming in through special occasions like Samhain for example, yet the real experiences you’re having are moving within you and are deeply personal to you. What you’re feeling has a timing all its own.

I felt yesterday some beautiful frequencies moving into and through me that were activating and also planted seeds in me that I’ll keep watering as I go. No doubt that Samhain energies helped move these activations through, but without the soul readiness and challenges of inner work, I wouldn’t have been ready to receive them. And, even still, I’m digesting them today and going ‘Wow, I have a lot more to feel through as I go forward’ even while I feel a celebration too!

I feel this in me and in my beloveds too. We all have our unique versions of this experience and process and it’s in our intimacy and resonance together that we support each other to be grounded and real yet also grow our wings (uncomfortable in moments, that process is) and fly.I felt us all getting a sense yesterday that we’re being supported by the Divine to move into and through some more shadow pieces and integrate that as we go. Doing this in relationship with each other is a gift and also alchemically moves more of this ongoing process through our fields. There are gifts in the exploration of your inner darkness and revealing what’s been hidden. It’s important not only for our own sakes but for the world we wish to serve love into and with.

We are also anchoring our inner light and bigness through and alongside this process and in some ways, it’s a bit of a twist to realize that what your light REALLY is, is actually what has been hidden in ‘shadow’. Woah. That’s a lot to let in and integrate right there.

In other words, what I want to offer, is that Samhain or not, we are ALL in a deep exploration of our shadows and light too in whatever ways and at whatever levels we are ready for that. Layers and layers are becoming ripe for this journey. None are exempt. It extends well beyond being a ‘civic duty’ to choose this process. It’s an invitation from our Sacred Humanity to make room for it to truly birth into this world and something we get to consciously choose to do, in the full breadth and depth of our empowerment from deep within.

Sharing a few photos of us all from yesterday where you can feel the soul activations and deepenings happening in our own unique ways! ❤️

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I’ll share more about my ongoing process with this on our Mighty Networks site, where all of my beloveds will be sharing ongoingly as well through more writings, videos, etc. It’s our offering of a high-vibe ‘shelter in the storm’ and our personal ‘ministry’ calling to support your healing and ascension process. More here: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Honouring Your Own Unique And Very Personal Journey Of Ascension

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By Kalayna Solais

Feeling behind. Feeling as if we are risking being ‘left behind’ if we aren’t able to tune into what everyone else that shares awareness of Ascension is tuning into and feeling personally. Fearing that we aren’t going to be enough to ‘ascend’ or to be ‘chosen’ TO ascend, perhaps.

These are feelings that I think so many of us can resonate with on some level. These fears feel existential and like they live in our Metasoul aspects in other timelines who HAVE been ‘left behind’ by others and on a deeper level still, there’s more to feel about ‘abandonment’ by the Divine too… maybe also in this life parts of you have trauma from the ‘competition’ conditioning, from growing up in a culture where you are always striving to be THE best, not YOUR best or even just where you are at and having that be ok. There are so many layers to this and for me, I’m still discovering many of them personally and how deep they go.

I’m a part of a highly catalytic process and soul family community that we always say is on a ‘moving conveyor’. The more work you do within you, the more your outer world changes and the more shifts you feel invited to take of your own volition too. The more parts of you that you feel in their traumas and begin to have a relationship with, the more you realize the changes you need to make in your life in ALL areas of your life.

This means that at any time, one of us could decide unilaterally that there is something we need to address, move on from or move toward, and that could be a big thing or a small thing. There are always next and next and next steps too as the inner awakening and openings deepen. There are new discoveries and new strata of consciousness that begin to open up and out. New relationships are drawn. New alchemy on all levels. All of these are sacred journey markers that are very individual and a result of the individual journey. It look and feel like pure ‘magic’ and it really is, but it’s also worked very hard for.

When you have conditioning in your soul’s timelines and the heart of your parts from this lifetime that there is something always to envy in others for the sake of feeling badly or ‘not good enough’ inside of yourself, this isn’t that easy to digest all the time. Jealousy can be kicked up. A feeling that you must be lacking something or have something ‘wrong with you’ if you aren’t experiencing what they are experiencing. This is one of the major reasons why I needed the break I did…. so that this comparison dance and suffering loop could be deeply felt into by me, so that I could arise for myself with more respect and self-love. This could only happen if I got big enough for my most intense and self-punishing parts/aspects to lean into me. This was the crux of my process at times in relationship to the lives of others around me too… feeling parts of me envying their skills (that they’ve worked hard for), their fitness level, their relationships, etc. This has gone on and on for me for as long as I can remember… and only now is this starting to shift into new ground.

Why is it SO hard to just BE with our own journey? Why do we look to others for templating but then resent them for it at times?

These questions feel complicated and like the answers lie within every individual. I think it’s so hard to remember that we are ultimately here to experience Ascension in a PERSONAL way, though we are returning to oneness too. I’m discovering, especially as I feel a relationship beginning with a Reptilian aspect of me, just how deep this ‘programming’ of avoiding the individuation process of our healing and Ascension actually goes and why it can feel a bit scary.

I had a yoga teacher once, many years ago now, who offered something during class that made us all laugh but it was actually quite poignant. She was showing us the many stages of one particular posture. When she got to the most advanced one, she said,

“See? There’s NOTHING there! There’s no need to rush yourself into this ‘advanced’ place when you have so much to discover along the way”.

That really impacted me at that time and it remains with me today because I think I was supposed to take that in deeply for my own ongoing experience of spirituality and of life itself… it really IS about the journey and not the destination. Ascension is a journey. ‘5D’ is not really a destination so much as an invitation into a new frequency in which to anchor our consciousness as much and as often as we can. Every individual’s soul expression and attainments are their own, often worked for over multiple lifetime experiences and deep inner work too. There’s nothing left to ‘envy’ if we can see it this way… but there could be a lot to be inspired by!

Plus, our own journeys, when we have the space within to honour them, are proof positive of our own inner work and also the growth and healing phases that we personally need that are a reflection of our bigness in order to be with them. Maybe there is no ‘ultimate destination’ but in fact, it all keeps deepening and expanding from here. This is such a humble way to look at and hold ourselves and this whole Ascension process on a collective level too.

I wanted to share this bit about my own journey and discoveries as an expression of my own uniqueness that I’m learning to embrace more and more. I hope that it helps you feel more love and respect for your own too… for the journey you’re on as YOU.

Much love! ❤

Kalayna

Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Shiftings And Completions In SoulFullHeart Community (Personal Update)

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By Jelelle Awen

We wanted to offer an update for those of you who may be curious and also have been feeling the shifts in our community too. About 6 weeks ago, we decided that it would be best and good for Kalayna Solais, who has been a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and intimate part of our community off and on for seven years, to take some space from contact with us. That eventually led to her living in Gabriel’s studio apartment while he moved into the downstairs suite in our house. During this time, we had been in a very little contact space with her, other than coordinating life details.

The purpose of this space was to allow Kalayna to fully land in herself and her own parts and process as there had been a pattern of behaviors coming increasingly to light that were becoming more challenging for her and for us to continue to be with. Also, we have felt SoulFullHeart go into a higher timeline, especially leading up to and after the 11/11 portal and this is ‘shaking out’ the previous configurations and bonds, inviting me and all of us to go into our next places of growth and embodiment in intimacy and in service.

Yesterday, we all met as a group again to see where she was and where we are and to digest what the space had offered to all of us. I don’t feel to go into detail about what was shared as that feels private to Kalayna’s process and want to respect her confidentiality in that way. We haven’t been sharing much publically about this ongoing process for us with her as we wanting to have the time and space to sort through the various reactions, the years of history and experience and digest on a Metasoul/karmic bond level as well, and to land in more clarity about it as well.

It did become clear yesterday that while there is a sweet affection and appreciation amongst all of us, that Kalayna is best served right now to continue to take more space for herself and her own process away from community involvement and connection. This may end up being a completion for all of us with her. Even as this was sad for us all, there was also a sense of graduation of the previous forms and configurations between the five of us that has been quite an amazing and growthful journey!

I feel in my heart so much gratitude for Kalayna and what she has held, being for so long the ‘only’ woman in the room receiving what I had to offer. She has been so brave to go through all these beginning stages and phases with us, including living in a campground in RVs and four intense years in Mexico with very little money and means, and then to be with us in our phase for the last three years of expanding growth, interest and draw in SoulFullHeart.

I believe with all my heart and soul that the Divine leads us where we need to go and I follow the guidance to let go when it is offered, even if it personally sad and hard for me (as this has been at times for me.) My process related to Kalayna’s leaving has been primarily around letting go of her being a woman in support to me, no longer needing her for that (which is healthier for us both feels like) and trusting that I am in a place now of a growing draw and collaboration with women. I prefer now to let her go to find her best and highest timeline (as I don’t feel I can KNOW what that is for anyone else) and to treat with respect her sovereignty, and the possibility that parts of her and her soul may really need to choose something else and a new path in life.

There are words below from Kalayna that she wanted to share.

Thank you for being with us in witness to this significant shift in our community,

love,
Jelelle Awen

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From Kalayna:

SoulFullHeart has been my ‘lifeline’ in more ways than one. Every single phase I’ve had within it, including the gift of being married in Sacred Union to Gabriel, my best friend for many years, and having ample templating for how to hold and treasure intimate relationships with myself and others while serving love with pure intentions, have all landed deeply in me and none of those memories and learnings will ever go anywhere, they’ll just deepen and land more… I have very sacredly ‘high standards’ now to lean into as to what deep and meaningful connections should look and feel like, especially within, and those inward connections are the number one priority for me in a whole new and much deeper way.

This has been a very, very challenging phase of separation for me as you can imagine yet the digestion yesterday was deep and appreciated, with much bittersweetness as we all move on feeling what’s been illuminated and what we need now, and still feel love and appreciation for each other. The old ground of relationship really can’t move with any of us into the new and every new sense of why that is, has been both hard to feel and hold and yet relieving too.

I’m continuing to hold my process through the SoulFullHeart lens and even if that lens no longer fits someday for whatever reason (hard to imagine at the moment), I’ll always, always remember the many deep benefits I’ve gotten out of being not only in this process, but offering it to others, and being in close connection to this community with Jelelle, Raphael Awen, Raianna Shai, and Gabriel Heartman for as long as I have. I feel like I wouldn’t be moving through this new phase and process with as much grace and sanity if it weren’t for the ground I had with them and within this process and all the gifts it gave me of profound Divine connection and connection to myself too.

It was a blessing to be ‘in the room’ with as many of you as I had the opportunity to… I’m sending much love to you all, and like Jelelle said, if you have any questions or want to connect with me, please feel free to PM me on facebook.

Love,

Kalayna

Celebrating Thanks-Giving In Resonant Energies

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By Jelelle Awen
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A thanks-giving to remember, to savor, and to still be letting in today. We gathered together to celebrate Canadian Thanksgiving yesterday….really just another reason to connect with each other when we’ve all been pretty full with serving, jobs, life, etc recently. Raianna’s boyfriend Nic joined us, adding to the love vibe, and helping us ‘see’ the blessings of our community and the closeness we share the five of us that we are able to experience with more and more souls lately.
 
We enjoyed a fully vegan, gluten free, sugar free meal made with lots of love….allowing for easier digestion and nourishment! Rather than the often usual birth family angst that happens on major holidays, there was no drama, conflict, or unspoken dynamics. This is community connection FREE of resentment or bitterness that comes from things going unspoken. This is community based on resonance rather than unowned dissonance. Amazing how much more goodness you can let in when the energies are resonant, loving, and supportive!
 
As we’ve cultivated this inside ourselves, with parts of ourselves and each other over the years…so we can experience this on a moment by moment basis MOST moments. During our circle sharings about what we were grateful and appreciative for….this was the most common thing shared by each of us. Grateful for ourselves, for our parts (both young and old, feminine and masculine, just emerging and very well known)….grateful for each other and the Divine. Grateful for those souls who are joining us in session space and came to our recent gatherings. Grateful for love!
 
Love,
Jelelle Awen
As a ‘gift’ to you, we are now offering a free 30-45 minute intro call over zoom with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, or Kalayna Solais. Experience the love for yourself and see where it takes you! More info at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.
 
And if you’d like to join us around this table, our next four day SoulFullHeart Gathering is happening around the Winter Solstice here in Victoria, Canada from December 18-21. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1654802484653131/
or here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatherings