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𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐌𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐈𝐈: 𝐓𝐡𝐞 (𝐑𝐞)𝐁𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐡 𝐂𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐥

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by Kasha Rosa

This second part of this Dark Mother series takes us into the poetic truth of darkness, which is not punishment or absence of anything, really… but is rather the birthing place of everything we’ve ever truly needed to face, feel, and become.

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There has always been darkness.

It is the birth canal that moves you into this world.

It is the sacredness of nighttime before a new day dawns.

It is the exploration of shadow, of suffering, of carnage.

It is the womb of Divine Mother…holding, nurturing, offering life unconditionally.

It is the burying of a seed so that it can spring forth with everything that’s been encoded within it.

Darkness is not the absence of light.

It is the birthing of it.

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Our souls all have a relationship with the dark.

It’s the void of loss,

the experience of rupture,

the feelings of shame and blame,

the doubts,

the witnessing of “evils” that beg to be understood.

It’s also the feeling of letting go with willingness and need…

the trust fall into the waiting arms of the Divine

when all else seems to fade away.

It’s the feeling of long-suppressed truths finally coming forward,

sometimes with charge,

sometimes in fragments,

and the digesting that follows.

It’s the pull of necessary life experiences that crack us open and shape us…

that bring us to our knees

not to break us,

but to reveal what was always meant to be born.

There is nothing that Dark Mother, in all of her vastness, cannot hold.

No shadow too great.

No sorrow too deep.

No part of you unlovable.

To Her, there is no evil that cannot ultimately be loved.

There is no transgression that is unforgivable.

There is no fragment of your soul beyond her grace.

And that is what makes Her so hard to let in.

Because Her love will see everything.

This is what,

For parts of you,

(Especially the protective ones)

Feels like the end of life…

Because it is.

It’s the end of strategy

And the beginning of authenticity.

When Dark Mother lights her match,

When her candle is shone at just the right angle,

That’s when life as you’ve known it

Starts to rumble

And old ties, patterns, and relationship grounds

Begin to crumble.

Beloved, 

Though this is scary for parts of you

And soul aspects who have known the ending of golden times,

This is part of love’s journey…

Dissolution leading to rebirth.

Taking something apart

To put it back together

With more wisdom,

More healing,

And more love leading. 

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She does not walk away from your pain. 

She holds space for it, knowing that it will always lead you to your rebirth.

And as a result, she templates for you how to hold space for yourself as that process deepens within and in your life. If you are experiencing a time of transition now, you can feel into what wisdom she may be waiting to offer you and which parts of you may feel afraid of her presence…

I’ll be recording a guided meditation in the next couple of days which will support you in that process, especially honouring and feeling the inner masculine protector energies which may especially be in reaction to her. 

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Kasha Rosa is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐌𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 – 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐈: 𝐑𝐞-𝐜𝐨𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐇𝐞𝐫 𝐏𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐈𝐧 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞(𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐬)

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by Kasha Rosa

As October opens, the veils begin to thin… and She approaches.

This is the beginning of a devotional series I’ve written for Her, the Dark Mother, whose love I have come to know in the fire and the tenderness of transformation over many lifetimes.

This first part is a prelude: a remembering, a re-coding of Dark Mother’s face and frequency.

It’s an extension beyond the distorted face projected by fear or dogma, and the face I have come to know in the shadows of my own soul.

This is for Her, for myself, and for you… if you too have touched Her cloak and heard Her whisper your name.

My soul holds a deep relationship with Dark Mother, not only as an archetype but as a living, breathing energy who continues to guide, challenge, and love me in ways no one else can. Writing this feels like a re-weaving of narrative… not just the collective story that has been projected onto Her, but a personal one… a recoding that my own soul has been longing for.

In the feminine heart and soul is a connection to all aspects of Divine Mother and to varying degrees, an embodiment of her different frequencies too.

As we free ourselves from within,

so we free her expression in this world once more:

Her energies of worth and compassion for self and others.

Her love that ripples through your being and backlights the broken pieces of your heart. Her passion that frees the suppressed voice and invites in the intimacy of change.

Dark Mother in particular is an aspect that has held so much projection.

She has been feared, misunderstood, and politicized.

Connecting with Her has often been associated with rebellion, with rage, with condemnation, especially in narratives that pit the feminine against the masculine.

Sometimes, that fire is needed as the feminine rises and roars and reclaims. But that isn’t the whole story. It isn’t meant to sustain. And it certainly isn’t meant to become The Truth that all women must abide by and all men must fear.

She has long been seen as steward of shadow work, especially as the one who holds space for descent, for the unraveling, for the “dark night of the soul” experience that all souls experience at some point in their awakening journey, to whatever degree is needed. 

She is the womb in which the pain is not bypassed but is embraced instead… held, honoured, loved. She is the echo chamber where truths hidden by trauma and life’s dramas resurface to be felt.

To dance with Dark Mother and truly let Her in often means dancing with what has been long buried or denied, often out of necessity for survival. Parts of you have fears about what the cost could be if pain or even genuine joy is no longer layered over.

Yet so little is said about how instrumental She is in leading us to the other side of pain, where light shines into the wound, cauterizing what was infected, and gently applying a balm.

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Have you met Her too… in the places no one else could follow?

I’ll be sharing more of this series throughout October, in rhythm with the turning season and the long shadows that lead us toward Samhain.

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Kasha Rosa is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Feminine Shadow Exploration: A Piece Of My Personal Journey

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by Kasha Rokshana

“It’s October 2019 and I’m spinning, whirling, wondering what’s really going on within me, why I can’t seem to help parts of me truly let go of comparison, of feeling ungraceful and ungrateful, of feeling unworthy of the love of my intimate community, let alone the love of the Divine within and around me. I’ve been asked to take space from my community of beloveds to go into and reconcile what has continually been coming up inside of me and not yet been truly held, let alone felt, by me as a centred, adult woman, who is calling herself ‘Kalayna’.

I am in a panic, feeling an avalanche of self-doubt and absolute heartbreak, knowing that this space-taking is likely leading to leaving my beloveds for at least a phase, if not the rest of this lifetime, if I can’t find my way into more of my own bigness and inner ‘home’. I feel the love that would always flow between us as souls, even if I need to go off and be with myself to reconcile something quite deep in my own shadow that they can’t be impacted by so harshly anymore.

I am in some deep self-punishment and shame, but also recognize after years of this inner work, that this pattern of suffering is keeping me from experiencing the depth of love I really want and need within… a depth of love that can then overflow to others with more grace and ease, even in the messiest of conflicts or the burning up of old relational ground.

As I lean into myself more and more each day, and feel the Divine within supporting my ongoing process, I begin to open out something so deeply ingrained in my inner shadowland. I find an aspect who calls himself ‘Hades’. Hades doesn’t care much for others, let alone other parts of me. Well, he does, but his care is complicated as it involves trauma-bonding with these other parts, making them need him somehow and find comfort in his more twisted way of feeling things, his way of making the uncomfortable, the suffering loops, feel somehow ‘normal’ and even necessary.

It turns out that Hades is one aspect while there are a few others for me to feel, and that he is the Gatekeeper holding the veil to feeling them. I begin to feel them all, one by one, and where they live in my Metasoul and my being in this life too. I feel patterns of being a scorned priestess, even a Queen who couldn’t make it work and was shunned, and a few different lifetimes of not quite being able to get up and out of a fear of my/their own bigness and power and truly live into it. I feel the pain of these aspects and how fusing to them has played out in my life many times. I also feel the frequency of having killed others for the sake of power and jealousy… something that is excruciating for me to feel.

I feel how humble I’m becoming as I feel all of this and how I’m learning to surrender to my own unknown inside of myself… how I just can’t know what the Divine truly wants me to do or become. Even as I surrender to the unknown however, I begin to feel clearer and clearer about the energies I am learning to love inside of me and what my true potential is.

It takes me a few months to truly live into this daily healing journey of diving deeply and even finding a renewed sense of joy, all while still showing up for daily life and holding jobs. I still miss my beloveds so deeply, especially as I go on to spend Christmas alone, but I feel my icebergs that were once parked in my shadowland melting day by day and my growing clarity about what I want in my life and the sort of soul family energies I want to be intimate with on the outside coming up so strongly. I also feel who I want to BE as I let in those energies and relationships and the ache for living into that from the inside out.” ~ Kalayna

It’s now 3 years later and here I am, as ‘Kasha’ and no longer ‘Kalayna’, having graduated not only that heartbreaking and heart-opening phase of my life, but also several other challenging and growthful phases in different geographies, different relationships, and in service of love expression too. All because I’ve been willing, even through deep pain, to go into my shadowland AND work my way through to the other side.

It is a huge honour to now be leading a women’s call with Jelelle that will focus on shadow exploration for the feminine… serving alongside Jelelle was always the dream and even as this was starting to happen back in 2019 with the very first women’s call we ever led together, I could barely let that in. I had so much pain and unworthiness come up that it was sabotaged… my dream was sabotaged. My shadow came up to be felt and when she came up, she was practically screaming with frustration, mostly at herself.

As we explore the feminine shadow, there’s so much power packed in there. There’s so much to these energies of self-punishment, shame, and blame, that actually wants to become the flip side of that… that actually wants to become genuine heart-based service of love within and without and wants to have nourishing relationships as much on the inside as on the outside.

The feminine shadow has a LOT to unpack, not just in these trailing-edge energies that can keep us in smallness and pain, but also in leading-edge energies, access to feminine magic and alchemy, not to mention DEEP access to discernment, clarity, and care.

Join Jelelle and I on Sunday, Oct 30th for a by-donation women’s group call, focused on discovering and feeling your Shadow Feminine, however she shows up now! The call will be at 5pm London/Lisbon time and you can donate via our Shop or through PayPal or via Wise (formerly TransferWise). You can find more info about this call here.

Sending so much love to you and your ‘shadow’, your hidden seats and seeds of empowerment and heart, even if there is also pain and ache to wade through and feel along the way!

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

6/6/6 Energy & Personal Update: Clearing Shadows Lurking In ALL Our Bodies (Physical/Emotional/Mental/Soul)

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By Jelelle Awen

6/6/6 Energy & Personal update: The energies have been building up to the 6/6/6 portal tomorrow, which feels like it is already open. It’s been a bit challenging for me to tune into higher energies honestly with all that I’ve been going through of cleansing on a body-based level. That does feel like it is an aspect of these energies though…..clearing, purging, pushing up densities and toxicities on physical/mental/emotional/soul levels.

I get a sense of ‘rehoming’ about the 6/6/6 energies, which have so long been hijacked by the Matrix to signify something ‘evil’ or ‘satanic.’ It is always interesting to feel what has been hijacked (such as Friday the 13th) by energies that truly ARE darker to suppress the light that wants to come through. There is an opportunity for Divine balancing from the 6/6/6 portal and high frequency upgrades as well. A reconciliation of shadow and light to bring into balance.

Sometimes the ‘shadow’ is actually lurking within our physical bodies. I have focused SO MUCH on feeling, healing and being with the shadows in my emotional body and soul field consciousness for years now. That doesn’t mean there isn’t more there for me, yet my attention and initiations recently have been more about the ‘shadows’ within the physical body that can lurk there causing ongoing health issues, chronic illness, disease, cancer, aging and more.

I did a juice/water only and no solid food fast/transition to living on more prana for nearly three and a half weeks. Overall, I found it easier than ever before with no hunger or physical food cravings, minimal detox reactions, and no emotional/comfort food desire reactions either, plus a sense of deep Divine Mother support and guidance. Yet, also, sometimes there are deeper toxicities lingering in our bodies that really NEED to come up and out that are pushed up by giving our digestive system a rest for awhile.

This happened for me over the last week, where I experienced a surge of strep bacteria along with viral symptoms moving through my body, centered on my throat area. The symptoms of very painful swallowing, low grade fever, muscle aches/cramps, fatigue, brain fog…they were intense for days especially during unfortunately our trip away to the ocean and even on my birthday last Wednesday. It was a big opportunity for surrender as I was clear right away that the fasting and bringing in more energy/prana etc. had actually brought the strep up so that it could finally leave my body after years and years of being dormant.

I had strep throat quite often as a kid/teenager and also in my 20s when I was a smoker to for many years. I’ve been clearing my smoking habit for many years out of my lungs, cells, etc. yet this recent one felt related to it as well, even my voice sounded like a deep smoker for a few days. The strep hadn’t really gone away and anti-biotics usually make it even stronger (that I took when I was younger) even though it goes into ‘hiding’ within different organs for a time.

I was guided to read every Medical Medium book by Anthony William that I could get my hands on and to immediately start drinking celery juice first thing in the morning. His downloads on our health, connection to latent viral and bacterial symptoms, and relationship to food in a very conscious way as medicine has been very supportive. I could feel the celery juice helping right away once I started it, along with salt water gargles, lemon water, and herbal tea.

I started feeling much better yesterday and today even better after a full night’s rest. All the white spots in my mouth are gone, swallowing is no problem, and other than a bit of lingering congestion in my chest, I’m good. I was also guided to start eating again lightly a few days ago so I broke my fast with miso soup broth (a good choice when you haven’t eaten for a few weeks), fruit smoothie, and eventually mashed potatoes.

I feel my next phase of transition to living on prana/energy/Divine Mother’s love, will be about continuing to deeply cleanse my body of any toxicities through the use of very select foods in a more medicinal way, including daily celery juice. Our body vessel really needs to be prepped and upgraded to hold the quota of light we need to live off and every step/phase during this is so valuable.

I do feel like the 6/6/6 portal relates to the cleansing of our homes, these various bodies that dynamically and multidimensionally provide us with the means to be here on the Earth Plane. We live in and with so much toxicity in the 3D Matrix, no matter how awakened or enlightened or high our frequency is.

We have ALL been impacted by these toxicities and being with them, feeling them and clearing them is such a sacred aspect of our Ascension journey. It can be very challenging and even painful to be WITH the experiences that these shadows hold, yet it is always worth it to feel the integration and openings afterwards.

Thank you again for the birthday love last week…for whatever I could let in, it was much needed!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

For more info on 1:1 sessions, online community, and books/writings visit soulfullheart.org.

Shadow Exploration Guided Meditation: Video 8 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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In this eighth video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen talk about a reframe around how you related with Shadow as not being anything evil, yet rather just hidden from your consciousness for good reasons. When a shadow aspect/part is explored with love and curiosity, they are able to reveal the gifts they hold, be redeemed through your forgiveness, and integrate into your light.

We talk about ‘False Light’ and how it is unintegrated light that has a polarization against shadow (good vs. evil, God vs. Devil) that blocks you from accessing the power and soul gifts that are in shadow. We also offer the importance of your Gatekeeper allowing access to your shadow through Metatsoul lifetime exploration and through ongoing relationship with them.

In this video, Divine Mother and Divine Father join you and your Gatekeeper on a deep dive into waters where you connect with a structure/building and the contents within it behind a curtain that represent something that has been in shadow/hidden from you that is now being revealed. We suggest that you come back to this meditation often and also may feel to pause mid-meditation to allow the journey to continue.

Video to Meet Your Shadow Self To Music w/Jelelle:
https://youtu.be/4VnfgzhzzjE

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeB…

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about two Deepen 2022 group calls on January 16th 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle Awen, Raphael Awen, Gabriel Amara, and Kasha Rokshana, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series for free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Come Into The Light Of My Heart: Message To Your Shadow Self From Your Divine Self

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By Jelelle Awen

To your Shadow Self from your Divine Self:

I seek you out now

I invite you out now

I search for you now….

not to judge you

not to hurt you

not to persecute you….

Yet, only, to invite you out into love.

What you hold and store,

what you have kept hidden,

what has been so long guarded,

what has been wrapped up tight….

can now be opened, revealed and healed.

There are gifts in your secrets

There are truths in your mysteries

There are treasures in your troves.

So long you have been

in the fog of what is purposely forgotten

made invisible behind a thick veil..

and now these barriers can be lifted through the gently powerful forces

of forgiveness, self acceptance, worth and compassion.

Rather than be afraid of you

or wanting to avoid you,

I am in awe of you

I am curious about you

and I can patiently hold space

as the trust between us grows

to allow a loving mutual ground of growth.

Come out into the light of my heart

and you can become once again

the love that you truly ARE.

Love,

Your Divine Self~

Please join us for a group meditation call with a sacred exploration into your shadow on Sunday, November 7th at 5:00pm Portugal time/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST. You can join us live and receive the recording by whatever donation you feel to give (usual is $10 CAD) at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info at soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions and https://www.facebook.com/events/171567888429264

Here’s a video with Raphael and I talking more about the group call and I read this message as well:

https://youtu.be/ZYVBo3CwKaQ

We also offer powerful and loving space holding during 1:1 sessions for shadow exploration and integration. More info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Shadow Exploration Guided Meditation Group Call w/ Raphael & Jelelle Awen: November 7th, 2021

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by Jelelle Awen

“The shadow is a tight passage, a narrow door, whose painful constriction no one is spared who goes down to the deep well.” ~ Carl Jung

Your shadow – or that which is currently not conscious to you – often contains aspects of you that have been disowned, put away, judged, rejected, protected, forgotten about and suppressed. The shadow is not evil or harmful, yet it can contain ‘backed up energies’ that have been judged as not appropriate such as rage, shame, suicidal thoughts/tendencies, sexual impulses, and more. In this backed-up unconscious state, these shadow frequencies can bleed through in patterns of destructive behaviors toward yourself or others, suffering loops, heaviness and depression, anxiety and panic attacks, addictions, and much more.

Also in shadow can be your soul gifts, soul purpose clarities, and your ‘power’. There are always ‘good reasons’ for this putting away into shadow based on conditioning you’ve received from 3D life and even other lifetimes/timelines, in addition to undigested traumas and karmic patterns.The Ascension process invites you to uncover, feel, and integrate your shadow aspects with love, compassion, and curiosity. Rather than bypass the shadow, it is about embracing it with self-love and Divine support. It seems very timely to be exploring it with so much of it coming UP in our collective right now!

Raphael and I will co-host a Shadow Exploration group meditation call over Zoom on Sunday, November 7th, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm WEST (Lisbon, Portugal timezone)/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST. Gabriel Amara and Kasha Rokshana also join us to share their experience of the meditation, along with their own personal deepenings in shadow exploration.

We will talk about how we define the ‘shadow’ and how the SoulFullHeart process opens up access to these previously inaccessible and veiled grounds through a gentle yet powerful negotiation with your Inner Protector or Gatekeeper. The Inner Protector and Gatekeeper are hesitant to go into the shadow as they don’t want you (or other parts of you such as the Inner Child) to become overloaded and overwhelmed by these energies as they come through. Through a negotiation with your Divine Self leading, the Protector will then allow you to connect with these shadow aspects as needed, from this life and other lifetimes, in a way that is empowering and manageable. We will also share about our personal experiences with deepening grounds of shadow exploration from this life and other lifetimes over the last 15 years together as a couple and as individuals in our processes.

During this group call, we will provide a guided meditation journey in a safe energetic space to meet or connect with your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper. We will then go on a ‘deep dive’ into your consciousness with powerful and proven imagery/visualizations that allows for new revelations of whatever wants to come through of your shadow to connect with you. We will also repeat ‘recoding’ affirmations as mantras, together as a group and with the Divine, that assist in this exploration and healing.

You can receive these frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us.

This group is open to the public and to anyone over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy/money exchange of whatever donation you feel to give ($15 CAD is the usual amount). You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can purchase it here through PayPal: paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will send you the Zoom link and subsequent recording via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the November 7th group and check that your email associated with PayPal is current.

More info at https://www.facebook.com/events/171567888429264 and soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

Love,

Jelelle

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

Equinox Energies Offering Healing To Polarities Within

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By Jelelle Awen

Powerful energies coming in on this Equinox Full moon passage…..inviting an inner balance, and healing of polarities within! When I meditated this morning tuning into the Equinox, I kept seeing the Yin Yang symbol over and over. When I receive this symbol, it is usually a reminder of unification of light and dark and of maintaining a flow between the two. I then felt what I have come to call my “Black Swan” and “White Swan” soul essence expressions twirling and swirling around each other in the form of the Yin Yang.

The Black Swan represents my priestess lineage, often needing to be kept in the shadows and hidden due to persecution/lack of acceptance by the patriarchy in other lifetimes. My Black Swan (called Lorna, after a High Priestess of Avalon timeline aspect) is not evil at all, yet she is able to be comfortable in the darkness, unsentimental when needed, direct and confrontal, penetrating with truth, catalytic and alchemical. Lorna becomes frustrated and irritated when people aren’t being real or authentic, with falseness, with patriarchal control (in women too), and when she isn’t able to speak her truth and ‘do her magic.’

She is balanced out by my “White Swan” essence called Grace, the embodiment of grace, purity, stillness, compassion, and light. Grace can tend toward care taking others, not bringing her truth in concern of hurting people, etc. Lorna balances her out just as Grace’s stillness (water element) evens out and soothes Lorna’s fire.

I feel that we as women have these soul essences within us (along with the Mother, Queen, and Lover) that become more accessible to us as we heal from fusions to our Inner Teenager, Inner Child, Inner Matriarch, Protector, Punisher, etc. These parts have formed in response to wounding and trauma from this life and other lifetimes. They essentially bury and densify the soul essences of our sacred feminine from coming out and expressing.

My process the last couple of years, as I deepen in parts work/soul aspect integration, has been a focus on these soul expressions and healing the trauma/karma patterns so that they can arise more and more. And, come into balance rather than be polarized against each other. These essences can also be compartmentalized ‘away’ from each other.

During my recent rest phase, I discovered that Grace was more allowed in my service work than Lorna was, as Grace was more acceptable in certain ways. This left Lorna on the ‘outside’, frustrated at times, and not able to bring her penetrable truth as needed. Yet, I trust deeply now the need for BOTH the light and the dark, the fire and the water, the comforter and the confronter. Anything that is suppressed will express eventually, yet usually in a way that can be more harmful and explosive to self and others.

Relationships, esp those more 3D anchored, can seem to require this ‘putting away’ of certain aspects that might be judged as unsavoury, too intense, controversial, and rebellious. Yet it is these very energies that make life and relationships feel ALIVE, passionate, interesting, with healthy boundaries, and also allow for catalytic growth to occur.

An interesting meditation can be to connect with your “Black Swan” or shadow aspect and see/feel/notice what comes up. And then your “White Swan” aspect that is in more outed expression in your life. Feel the difference between the two….what are their polarities to each other? Do they even know the other exists?

Do they live in two separate worlds and realities (this is often the case)?

Invite these aspects of your being to be together in union again. Create a loving, non-judgemental bridge for both to become in synch again. Draw in the Equinox energies to support this reunion from within.

Much Equinox blessings and love to you and both your white and black swan aspects! Jelelle Awen

More info about sessions, books (including Free To Be 5D my most recent one with more about parts/soul aspects), etc. at soulfullheart.org.

Letting Your Shadowland Do Its Work

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by Kasha Rokshana

I’ve felt invited back into my own shadowlands recently. Partly from reactions to what’s happening in the world at large, as there really is SO much happening all at once, yet also because of things shaking out for me personally. Plus, being here in Avalon, there is a lot that the Divine Heart Chakra pulse invites you to feel, explore (especially within), and reconcile with.

My shadowland explorations have me exploring my relationship to my truth, to what empowers and doesn’t diminish me as a heart/soul/woman WHILE keeping an open heart. I’ve always been a feeler, but now I’m asked to feel even deeper. And, not for my own sake alone, but for the sake of the service-of-love I’ve come here to embody and offer.

The textures that live beneath the reactions, that open the portals to the vulnerability…the fears, tears, longings, and heartaches that live in parts of me, aspects of my Metasoul, and the sacredness of feeling without mentally tracking. My masculine can have a hard time with the latter sometimes, yet my feminine, as she becomes more and more embodied, usually ‘wins’ that toggle with her heart spaciousness and gifts of self-permission to just feel without needing to ‘know’ a single thing about ‘why’.

The darkness and shadow of the outer world… well, it has its own playout, doesn’t it? Ultimately, my heart and soul trust it all, even as there are many things to feel. As an empath and healer, I feel it’s important to let the cries of the world move through, just as the cries of my inner world do. The world around me also has hurt, aches, longing, and fear. It wants so much it doesn’t feel worthy of receiving yet.

As I awaken deeper to my own shadowland and the power it holds, I awaken to the shadowland of the collective and what is being explored, consciously and unconsciously, by all. I feel the sacredness in everything that is churning and burning, even as I let the impact of it move through my own opening and healing heart. Perhaps the biggest piece that still lies in shadow, is the impact of every choice, action/inaction, and every deeper feeling tone left unfelt and instead overridden.

“The darkness still has work to do…” and it certainly IS doing the work it’s here to do. We can only surrender to that process, trust it as deeply as we can, and let it help us all heal individually and collectively.

Love,
Kasha ❤

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Shadow Work That Isn’t ‘Work’ Or A Battle

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By Jelelle Awen

So much is said in spiritual circles about ‘shadow work’ and ‘shadow integration’…there is even some offer of how to do that, yet most of it feels quite vague, insistent, urgent, and even critical if it isn’t done somehow. My sense is that shadow work is not ‘work’ at all….yet rather is naturally occurring as we surrender to the Ascension process. It just organically happens within us and in the collective as more love comes on the scene. The Ascension process itself and the cosmic/galactic/Divine energies that support it induce and invite whatever is in shadow previously to reveal itself.

There is also a sense sometimes that ‘shadow’ equals bad, evil, dark or monstrous. This can be a fear projection and also protection from parts of us to divert from going into what has ACTUALLY been placed in shadow or simply what has been veiled to us. I have found so many times in deeper explorations with people during sessions that what is in their shadow (or just ‘off their radar’) is often the most precious parts of themselves such as the Inner Child or the Divine Orphan or the Star Seed Child, who has been tucked away into ‘dungeons’ and other such 4D spaces for safe keeping.

Many times what is in shadow is actually your BIGNESS as well and your power, as it was deemed too scary or not supported or just downright dangerous or life threatening to come out for some usually very good reasons, such as causing harm to others in previous lifetimes or due to being persecuted for sharing it. Soul gifts are also placed in shadow, where they wait until the proper timing and initiation for them to be shared and expressed.

There is ALWAYS a good reason that something has been placed in the shadows. To discover what that reason is requires negotiation directly with the part or soul aspect that put it there, WHY they did, and to feel the ‘shadow’ part/aspect directly as well with tons of love and compassion to digest their reality. This is the journey that we go on in SoulFullHeart…to access the Inner Protector or Gatekeeper or other aspect that has parked whatever it is and whoever it is in the shadows, under the veils, and often tightly under guard. We don’t just barrel ‘in there’ to retrieve or rescue or just do a one-time regression. Your Divine Self leads this relationship building exploration with patience and gentleness over time so that any parts of you that are afraid of what has been put in shadow or are protective or ‘fused to it’ are able to be held and supported.

Yes, it is organic for the shadow to be revealed during Ascension, yet how you ARE in that process makes all the difference to being integrated into your Divine Self expression in an empowered and embodied way. There is much support, especially from the Divine Feminine, for us to approach our own heart and souls healing this way instead of doing any kind of battling with it or to become some kind of shadow warrior. Battling always leads to more battling, with a cost on both sides. Courage to go into these previously veiled places now can come from our hearts rather from our swords.

We can become love ambassadors to ANYTHING within us and, as we do, true and last transmutation can happen from something being in the shadows to suddenly thriving in the light of our Divine Self love.

Love from Avalon (with its strong activations of heart chakra LOVE to transmute anything!)

Jelelle Awen

More information about shadow revelation and shadow integration 1:1 sessions and group calls (including a women’s call this Sunday to reveal your inner sacred union ‘in the shadows’!) at soulfullheart.org

And by far my most popular guided meditation to meet your shadow: https://youtu.be/4VnfgzhzzjE