A Love Story: Part Two (Falling In Love)

By Raianna Shai

The next part of this story is the part that we tend to spend our lives looking for: falling in love. The new and exciting rush of meeting someone that has an equal interest in us as we do in them. A new pair of eyes to see you, new ears to hear your passions and desires, new hands to touch the lonely and unloved parts of you inside and out. It sparks a hope in us that nothing like love can. We hope that this person will be the one we can grow with, who will understand us and treat us the way we’ve always dreamed of being treated.

More importantly than this outside love is what it sparks inside of us. It can allow us to love ourselves more than ever before while also bringing up our deepest insecurities. We begin by showing the brightest and shiniest parts of ourselves, hoping that will win them over. The way we enter a relationship is so telling of where we are at on the inside.

I remember the moment I wrote this poem, sitting under a tree staring out at the water. I felt elated and overcome by pure hope and love. I looked up at the leaves and they looked brighter than usual, almost as if they were glowing. In that moment I remembered feeling this way before. And then I remembered it fading and eventually leaving me completely. But it didn’t matter. Feeling it again reminded me of why we continue to search for this feeling over and over again even when it leads to pain or heartbreak.

This feeling is a reminder of what we are capable of feeling, with or without another person. All someone else can do is illuminate what’s possible in our own hearts and souls. Each relationship gets us closer and closer to this feeling of ecstasy and love inside of ourselves and without another person. We can feel this way with the divine, with our own inner parts, with our inner sacred union.

Without heartbreak, shadow and pain we cannot understand what it truly feels like to be in love and peace from the inside out. πŸ’›

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A Love Story: Part Two
Falling In Love

This feeling of falling in love
With you and
With every part of me
Is like coming home

This is what my soul knows
What it’s been waiting to come back to
To feeling nourished
To feeling loved from the inside out
To loving the outside in

I see your face and smile
And even if it doesn’t work out
This feeling right here, right now
Is worth it all
This is what it’s all about

Freezing this moment and remembering
This is what we work so hard to get back to
This is why we dive deep
This is why we feel our shadow

Love,
Raianna Shai
SoulFullHeart Way Of Life

~~~

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

A Love Story: Part One (Heartbreak & Healing)

By Raianna Shai

I woke up this morning with the urge to create through writing but couldn’t quite figure out what I wanted to write about. I started scrolling through the notes in my phone and found several writings I wrote over the past two years that really brought me back to the moment and phase they were written. Interestingly, I found 6 pieces that seemed to represent a cycle from beginning to end and back to the beginning again.

This cycle in particular represented the phase of the ending of a relationship, to the beginning of a new one, to the end once again. It felt like a really beautiful arc of letting in and letting go and everything that goes on in between. I felt myself recognizing the patterns of relationships and realizing that even when things come to an end, they are so worth the journey in and out.

This isn’t just true for romantic relationships but for careers, geographical moves, finding your soul purpose, healing a trauma and moving into your next phase of growth. As humans, we continually go through cycles in every part of our lives and the only thing we can do is become conscious of them. After a death of a phase you may wonder, what’s the point? But looking back you may notice how much has changed from beginning to end.

Falling in love is beautiful, messy, painful, exhilarating and everything in between but just like any other death and rebirth, it’s so important in facilitating our growth. Each layer brings new realizations and understanding of what it means to find love and purpose in these human and divine lives of ours. We cannot exist without cycles, for without them we cannot understand the gift of being human.

To show what I mean I thought I would share these 6 writings as a marker of each layer that these cycles can illuminate and provide. Particularly in the context of relationships. The first one I felt to share is both the ending of one relationship and the beginning of another. Marking the phase of overlapping death and rebirth ❀️

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A Love Story: Part One
Heartbreak & Healing

I sit here
Gathering the pieces of my heart
Trying to glue them back together
The mismatched edges
And sharp corners
Almost fitting perfectly
And then not at all

You wait there
Patiently watching my broken pieces
That long for that perfect edge’s embrace
Slowly come together
All the while knowing
That one day I will come

I will come with just enough pieces
To hold together the contents of my love
When I am still chipped, but no longer broken

You are there
With your chipped pieces
Already glued together
With as much accuracy as truth can allow

And we come together
Look at that!
Our broken pieces create a mosaic of lost loves and tearful goodbyes
Not perfect, but beautiful all the same

Love,
Raianna Shai
SoulFullHeart Way Of Life

~~~

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Choosing The Path Of Love And Growth


by Raianna Shai

I’ve been in Portugal for over a month now and with so much changing for me in this transition, I felt like it was time to digest it all through writing. We’re currently in a timeline that has caused so many of us to rethink where we are in our lives. Life as we’ve known it is coming to a close and it has come time to reevaluate what is truly and deeply important to each of us as unique souls.

For those who don’t know, I left Canada last month to be with my soul family and community, SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. I spent a year physically away from them exploring my own independent journey of relationship, growth, maturation and self discovery. I had gotten to the point where doing emotional healing work was so hard for me to do alone and remain consistent with. Parts of me wanted the easy way out – to just live life and use various mediums to distract and medicate any sadness or loss of purpose I felt inside of myself.

I’m more than grateful for this phase of my life though as it taught me how to deeply love another, advocate for my needs, re-sparked my desire for independence and also led me to discovering what was really most important for me and my soul.

Healing with the soulfullheart process is not easy, healing trauma and pain never is. It’s so much easier to stay in what’s comfortable and already well known. But what brought me back to it stronger than ever is the idea that any ounce of love that I am able to give to myself is another ounce of love that exists in the world. Every time we heal something deep inside of ourselves it affects the collective in a big way. The way my community can really see and feel me is something that I wish everyone on the planet could experience. And it’s something that everyone deserves.

So as hard as it is for parts of me to feel like I deserve this love or that I’m big enough to show up for this process, I remind myself of the bigger purpose here. We aren’t just healing for ourselves, we’re healing for the world.

Love,

Raianna Shai

Desire & Hope For A New World: A Poem

By Raianna Shai

I feel the polarities in the world right now
Power and pain
Passion and heartbreak
Love and fear

I hope for a change
For our parts to be felt
For our hearts to be healed
For our voices to be heard

I dream of a new world
Of peace and joy
Of compassion and understanding
Of healing and awakening

I see us hand in hand
Fighting no longer needed
Shame and guilt fading away
Unity and community in spades

I believe in us as humans
To dive into our shadow
And rise into love
To reach our collective ceiling of fear
And burst into the unknown of trust

I desire so much for humanity
To feel the violence inside
And the violence towards others
To heal it with kindness

For…
I am LOVE
YOU are LOVE
WE are LOVE

Incredible painting by Josephine Wall πŸ’•

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, Free To Be group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Inner Child Ambassadors Of Forgiveness For Our New Earth

By Raianna Shai

I haven’t said much yet about the current situation that we’re going through as a collective. One part of me worries about what others would think, but mostly I’ve just been enjoying the process of digesting all the odds and ends with my community. I truly believe that this is all happening for a much bigger reason than just a pandemic or a virus. We are about to enter an era that I feel in my heart will lead to an entirely new way of living. With love, peace, compassion. New money systems, new forms of true news and media, and more transparency.

But one of the biggest changes coming that touches my heart is the return of so many children that have been sold into trafficking, abused, sexually exploited, etc. There are loads of proof of these heartbreaking things happening as well as many supported theories that these children will be returned in the midst of this pandemic.

I had the most comfortable and satisfying bath today that brought my heart and mind to a new level of understanding and digestion of this reality. My sweet inner child really wanted to process with me everything we had just learned about these children. We both had tears the night before thinking about all of the harm done to them but also about how naturally forgiving children are. We both know that the return of these children would not mean revenge in their hearts, but forgiveness and moving forward.

While in my peaceful bath I imagined these children in my place, washing away the dirt, the blood, the sexual assault and abuse. I imagined them feeling free and safe for the first time in a very long time. I could feel the relief but also the built up, raw trauma. I had the idea to help them wash, as a loving and motherly figure. But my inner child stopped me, helping me realize that this is the first time they will have control over and love for their own bodies. That even a loving touch will be a triggering one for a while.

This experience reminded me of how intuitive and compassionate children truly are. I have a hard time imagining even yelling at a child, nonetheless abusing them. The beautiful thing about this though is that these same children will be the reason that we can all forgive. They will be the ambassadors to show us the way to purity of heart and raw forgiveness. Every soul has a Divine source, no matter how far into the dark they’ve gone.

Though I can’t condone killing anyone in my hearts, the souls of the abusers may have signed up to die after all of this comes to light. Others may have the opportunity to raise their frequency, especially if we are open to it. I highly recommend connecting to your inner child at this time as they are the most vulnerable and sensitive to times filled with fear and anxiety. But they’re also the part that will become the love ambassadors inside of us in order move us into this next phase of our New Earth.

Unplugging & Liberation of the 3D/4D Matrix & Reptilian Timelines: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Jan. 20, 2020)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week.Β Go read it here!

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In this week’s Museletter, we feature a catalytic download from Jelelle Awen about connecting with a reptilian aspect and unplugging them from the 3D/4D matrix. She describes her personal experience with her reptilian aspect and how you can meet them with love and hold space for them in order to free them from their timeline:

“My Reptilian sisters told me that there is a dissolving happening of their One Mind Matrix and many more of their species is choosing to disconnect from humanity and Earth, to let us go….and go to the planet that has been offered to them that fits their make up better. This is significant movement for them and, therefore, for humanity as well. This process of the Matrices of control dissolving on all levels is a significant aspect of our ongoing Ascension process. In 5D, there is no need for control matrices any longer.”

There are also some new writings this week from Jelelle Awen and Kalayna Solais. Included are personal process updates by Kalayna as well as an Energy Update and a post about Ascension pain by Jelelle.

Jelelle Awen continues her video series “Deepen 2020”. This series will be offered on an arising basis, rather than every day for a set period of time, and will be responsive to current events/cosmic energies/personal & collective process, etc. Every Deepen 2020 video will offer a teaching and a guided meditation. You can watch these on her Facebook page or our YouTube channel.

You can watch all podcast episodes on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube ChannelΒ or listen to the audio on theΒ SoulFullHeart Soundcloud channelΒ orΒ iTunes channel.

Raphael and Jelelle will be co-leading their next monthly group transmission over Zoom on Saturday, February 8th PDT. This group is about the ongoing process of healing the warrior within and from other lifetimes to move into becoming an ambassador of love. More information here to join them or receive the recording: https://www.facebook.com/events/310908349856878/

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Raphael, a SoulFullHeart Facilitators for men and women, is now offering FREE 30-45 minute intro calls over Zoom to see how the SFH process and ongoing 1:1 sessions may support you on your healing and Ascension journey. Jelelle Awen is now working with women new to the SoulFullHeart process in 1:1 bridging sessions. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! You can become a patron of SoulFullHeart through a one-time or monthly donation via ourΒ patreon page.

Check out the latest Museletter here

 

Healing Polarities Within Illuminated By The Eclipse and 1:11 Passage Energies: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Jan. 13, 2020)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week.Β Go read it here!

Go here to subscribe to receive these in your email inbox EVERY Saturday!

In this week’s Museletter, we feature an energy update by Jelelle Awen of the emotional polarities that came up with the Eclipse. She invites you to feel the parts involved in these polarities to understand where they come from and how to heal them:

“On the other side of this passage, there is a sense of calming down and more rest, more groundedness from within, and an emotional reset. There is a sense of space within to digest in a more full-hearted way the changes and choice points that may have been illuminated to you during this passage.”

There are also some new writings this week from Jelelle and Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman. These include personal proess updates by Gabriel, energy updates and timeline shifts by Jelelle and inspirational digestions by Raphael.

Jelelle Awen continues her video series “Deepen 2020”. This series will be offered on an arising basis, rather than every day for a set period of time, and will be responsive to current events/cosmic energies/personal & collective process, etc. Every Deepen 2020 video will offer a teaching and a guided meditation. You can watch these on her Facebook page or our YouTube channel.

You can watch all podcast episodes on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube ChannelΒ or listen to the audio on theΒ SoulFullHeart Soundcloud channelΒ orΒ iTunes channel.

Jelelle Awen is leading her next monthly virtual women’s group called Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration (SAFE) on: Sunday, January 26th at 10:00am PDT over Zoom She will teach about navigating relationships with mates, birth family and friends during your awakening process as a woman: https://www.facebook.com/events/1064404573895702/

Raphael and Jelelle will be co-leading their next monthly group transmission over Zoom on Saturday, February 8th PDT. This group is about the ongoing process of healing the warrior within and from other lifetimes to move into becoming an ambassador of love. More information here to join them or receive the recording: https://www.facebook.com/events/310908349856878/

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Raphael, a SoulFullHeart Facilitators for men and women, is now offering FREE 30-45 minute intro calls over Zoom to see how the SFH process and ongoing 1:1 sessions may support you on your healing and Ascension journey. Jelelle Awen is now working with women new to the SoulFullHeart process in 1:1 bridging sessions. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! You can become a patron of SoulFullHeart through a one-time or monthly donation via ourΒ patreon page.

Check out the latest Museletter here

 

2019 Death/Rebirth Passage Opens Up To A 2020 New Dawn: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Dec. 30, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week.Β Go read it here!

Go here to subscribe to receive these in your email inbox EVERY Saturday!

In this week’s Museletter, we feature a digestion by Jelelle Awen of the death and rebirth energy coming in with the new year. Many relationships, jobs, etc are coming to and end as the new 2020 higher timeline comes in:

“Three days into 2020 already and it does feel like we are on moving to the β€˜other side’ of this intense pressurization and death/rebirth passage. The other side is not completely free of angst, hurt, growth, and feeling necessary darkness/shadow. Yet, there is a sense of this β€˜New Dawn of A New Decade’ energy holding the bigger space for it.”

There are also some new writings this week from Jelelle and Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman. These include personal proess updates by Gabriel, energy updates and New Year gratitiude by Jelelle and inspirational digestions by Raphael.

SoulFullHeart Facilitator Raphael Awen continues his daily video series titled β€œAlive” in which he shares vulnerably and on a new topic each day. You can watch these on his Facebook page or our YouTube channel.

Jelelle Awen begins her own video series “Deepen 2020”. This series will be offered on an arising basis, rather than every day for a set period of time, and will be responsive to current events/cosmic energies/personal & collective process, etc. Every Deepen 2020 video will offer a teaching and a guided meditation. You can watch these on her Facebook page or our YouTube channel.

You can watch all podcast episodes on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube ChannelΒ or listen to the audio on theΒ SoulFullHeart Soundcloud channelΒ orΒ iTunes channel.

Jelelle Awen is leading her next monthly virtual women’s group called Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration (SAFE) on: Sunday, January 26th at 10:00am PDT over Zoom She will teach about navigating relationships with mates, birth family and friends during your awakening process as a woman: https://www.facebook.com/events/1064404573895702/

Raphael and Jelelle will be co-leading their next monthly group transmission over Zoom on Saturday, January 11th PDT. This group is about the process of connecting to the 1/11 codes available on this day, continuing to digest the past experiences of your awakening, and align with higher frequency intentions for 2020. More information here to join them or receive the recording: https://www.facebook.com/events/777180949450667/

Our next local event is our Four Day March Equinox Gathering from March 20-23rd. This four day gathering offers the opportunity to immerse into your soul and heart realities in a deep, powerful, and transmutational way. For more information go to: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatherings

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Raphael and Gabriel, SoulFullHeart Facilitators for men and women, are now offering FREE 30-45 minute intro calls over Zoom to see how the SFH process and ongoing 1:1 sessions may support you on your healing and Ascension journey. Jelelle Awen is now working with women new to the SoulFullHeart process in 1:1 bridging sessions. More info here:Β soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! You can become a patron of SoulFullHeart through a one-time or monthly donation via ourΒ patreon page.

Check out the latest Museletter here

 

Change Happens As You Respond To The New, Not From Fighting The Old: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Dec. 23, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week.Β Go read it here!

Go hereΒ to subscribe to receive these in your email inbox EVERY Friday!

In this week’s Museletter, we feature a 2020 New Decade digestions from Facilitator Jelelle Awen. She describes the New Year INtentions shifting from a place of “fixing” the old, to embracing and embodying the new. She suggests framing change as a response to the new, rather than fighting the old:

“INtentions are becoming clearer. INtentions are less coming from a sense of self improvement or fixing (as declaring β€˜resolutions’ can be) and more about what you really WANT TO BE and already ARE authentically as connected to your soul purpose expression here.”

There are also some new writings this week from Jelelle and Facilitator Gabriel Heartman. These include Christmas and Winter Solstice digestions of family and Christ Consciousness. Gabriel Heartman also shares some personal process updates. In her audio blogs, Jelelle Awen shares an Energy Update as well as a sharing about awakening gatekeepers.

SoulFullHeart Facilitator Raphael Awen continues his daily video series titled β€œAlive” in which he shares vulnerably and on a new topic each day. You can watch these on his Facebook page or our YouTube channel.

You can watch all podcast episodes on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube ChannelΒ or listen to the audio on theΒ SoulFullHeart Soundcloud channelΒ orΒ iTunes channel.

Jelelle Awen is leading her next monthly virtual women’s group called Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration (SAFE) TOMORROW: Sunday, December 29 2019 at 10:00am PDT over Zoom She will continue to teach about the energies and frequencies offered by the Divine Mother. More information here: https://www.facebook.com/events/474843500044699/

Raphael and Jelelle will be co-leading their next monthly group transmission over Zoom on Saturday, January 11th PDT. This group is about the process of connecting to the 1/11 codes available on this day, continuing to digest the past experiences of your awakening, and align with higher frequency intentions for 2020. More information here to join them or receive the recording: https://www.facebook.com/events/777180949450667/

Our next local event is our Four Day March Equinox Gathering from March 20-23rd. This four day gathering offers the opportunity to immerse into your soul and heart realities in a deep, powerful, and transmutational way. For more information go to: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatherings

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Raphael and Gabriel, SoulFullHeart Facilitators for men and women, are now offering FREE 30-45 minute intro calls over Zoom to see how the SFH process and ongoing 1:1 sessions may support you on your healing and Ascension journey. Jelelle Awen is now working with women new to the SoulFullHeart process in 1:1 bridging sessions. More info here:Β soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! You can become a patron of SoulFullHeart through a one-time or monthly donation via ourΒ patreon page.

Check out the latest Museletter here

 

Christ Consciousness Upgrades To Become Peace/Love Ambassadors: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Dec. 16, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week.Β Go read it here!

Go hereΒ to subscribe to receive these in your email inbox EVERY Friday!

In this week’s Museletter, we feature a 12/21 winter solstice energy update from facilitator Jelelle Awen. She describes the changes occurring from Christ Consciousness energies in the transition into more love ambassador frequencies.

“These Christ Consciousness energies for 2019 are offering deeper healing of the warrior and fighter to become a love ambassador for peace. This will so much be needed as we move into deeper disclosure in 2020….on Gaia, in galactic dimensions, toward the 3D/Lower 4D Matrix and, most importantly, from within yourself and your soul.”

There are some new writings this week from Jelelle and Raphael Awen, Gabriel and facilitant Raianna Shai. The writings include a personal process poem by Gabriel and a uniquely SoulFullHeart “Decade in Review” by Raianna Shai. Jelelle shares another post about being an ambassador based on an Arcturian experience she had three years ago. Raphael also has a post about the spiritual veil and the process of separating from the Divine in order to find love again.

SoulFullHeart Facilitator Raphael Awen continues his daily video series titled β€œAlive” in which he shares vulnerably and on a new topic each day. You can watch these on his Facebook page or our YouTube channel.

You can watch all podcast episodes on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube ChannelΒ or listen to the audio on theΒ SoulFullHeart Soundcloud channelΒ orΒ iTunes channel.

Jelelle Awen is leading her next monthly virtual women’s group called Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration (SAFE) on Sunday, December 29 2019 at 10:00am PDT over Zoom She will continue to teach about the energies and frequencies offered by the Divine Mother. More information here: https://www.facebook.com/events/474843500044699/

Raphael and Jelelle will be co-leading their next monthly group transmission over Zoom on Saturday, January 11th PDT. This group is about the process of connecting to the 1/11 codes available on this day, continuing to digest the past experiences of your awakening, and align with higher frequency intentions for 2020. More information here to join them or receive the recording: https://www.facebook.com/events/777180949450667/

Our next local event is our Four Day March Equinox Gathering from March 20-23rd. This four day gathering offers the opportunity to immerse into your soul and heart realities in a deep, powerful, and transmutational way. For more information go to: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatherings

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Raphael and Gabriel, SoulFullHeart Facilitators for men and women, are now offering FREE 30-45 minute intro calls over Zoom to see how the SFH process and ongoing 1:1 sessions may support you on your healing and Ascension journey. Jelelle Awen is now working with women new to the SoulFullHeart process in 1:1 bridging sessions. More info here:Β soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! You can become a patron of SoulFullHeart through a one-time or monthly donation via ourΒ patreon page.

Check out the latest Museletter here