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Popping Through Ceilings In Your “Roaring 20s”: Dedicated To ALL Awakening 20-somethings

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by Kalayna Colibri

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A feeling of wanting to reach up and touch the sky above you… better still, leap up into it, soaring into the heights you so feel are possible inside your heart. You get it… you get that something inside of you is needing air and is collapsing in on itself in a struggle to fit into a mold passed down by parents and the media and all sides of your culture. You don’t know quite what you or your life are really “supposed” to look and feel like yet, and many choices (though you may not see ALL of them in every moment) lay before you.

Many, many different boxes packed with possibilities are placed in all corners of your room, wanting you to unpack them and see what could be inside. So many questions, all too often answered by pre-conditioning, regarding what you should do with your life and why, where you should live and why, what makes your life worth living and why… what should be your values, your morals, your ways of expressing, your ways of measuring your net and self worth. But it’s all a big ceiling that wasn’t MEANT for you, sweet soul! Oh my god, it was imposed on you and with your permission and you’ve let it stay there for this long, and now you feel the press of your bigness wanting to pop it open… but society tells you that this is “depression”, or worse still, that what you’re feeling and experiencing IS life itself and nothing more or less… this compounds inside of you until you pop like a jack-in-the-box, taking risks, saying NO, finding your way, crawling through glass at times and yet still finding your way – often a “way” that could not be prescribed by those who came before you. No. It’s YOURS and it was always meant to BE yours…

Oh, the things you are feeling… the stuck places where you feel there’s no movement. The identity “crises” (that are reallyΒ OPPORTUNITIES…) these are ALL trying to move your compass in a differentΒ direction. This is trying to wake you up and shake up your way of BEing in life, showing you with neon lights that this is NOT the way you HAVE TO choose. Your 20s are a shadowy time in some ways… there are many shadows lurking around you, reflections of old ways of doing things that somehow was passed on to you, but now is your chance to find your NO and break through your glass ceiling. You do have the power to burst through this… after all, the ceiling is there with YOUR permission anyways, as is ALL of your conditioning from culture, birth family, and those friends you’ve drawn to you.

Maybe you decided to go to college. Going back is an option, but maybe doesn’t feel like the real answer… so much is stirring inside you, like a baby lion reaching deep within for its first roar. You’re meant to claim whatever this roar is and needs to be. Pushing away from what ISN’T you can take this step sometimes. There may be mess, but you are so held in every moment and there is so much support coming at you from all sides, holding healing balms and salves… guiding you to lean into a deeper, bigger, more authentic YOU that works without bells and whistles and cavalcades. It is a YOU that calls subtly at first and then gets louder when you’re ready to hear it and feel it. It is a YOU that wants center stage at the center of your being but cannot take it without YOUR permission.

YOU are here because YOU are an epic, HUGE soul and that ceiling you’ve been surviving under is cracking… it’s your choice now, whether or not you want to take the road that is known, or the one less traveled by. Either way, know that there is no wrong or right, only choice, and that every single breath you take is just as sacred as the first and the last. You have decisions at your fingertips and magic in your palms. The world needs you and you need you, to step into the calling to be a new sort of King and Queen – completely sovereign in your own self, leading others into the heart territory you too long to go in, feeling how what you really, deeply, actually feel is what is meant to guide you and others into new places and aspects of space and “time” yet undiscovered or unremembered. You are being remembered by the universe just as you are remembering yourself. There is so much beyond that cap you’ve gone along with for this long. There is so much more love, respect and absolute wonder waiting for you, wanting you to find and feel it all, coming straight from within. It is a constant choice that requires no more than your renewed commitment to it in every moment – Awaken with the soul pull knocking at your heart-door, or go back to sleep…

Which are you choosing?

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life atΒ www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

Moving From kNOwing To kNOWing

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By Jelelle Awen

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In the awakening journey, in this process of ascension…..it becomes more and more about what you kNOW rather than what you kNOw. This is more than just playing around with capital letters. I kept getting offered this over and over and now it has become a sort of mantra to invite us beyond the mind. kNOWing comes from higher guidance, soul wisdom frequencies, reSOULance, weaving in with the higher/Christ consciousness heart openings. kNOWing is the 4D transitional self and the emerging 5D sacred human merged and embodying with higher self frequencies relating with life through exploration, through curiosity, through risking into the unkNOWn in every moment.

kNOwing is the 3D self, leading with what the mind has learned, analyzed, digested, filtered and packaged. Non-vulnerable and rigid, kNOwing caps the frequencies of joyful magic that could and can arise in ANY moment. With kNOwing, nothing can arise or surprise as it is ‘figured out’, its essence drained of possibilities through the figuring and defining.

kNOwing creates a resistive frequency relationship to life and love.

kNOWing creates an open frequency relationship to life and love.

You’ve been conditioned to kNOwing by a culture that cultivates this frequency as a safety bandwidth. Changing your frequency to kNOWing happens through negotiation with the 3D self, through letting go of what is safe and known (what has become just TOO comfortable and isn’t offering growth anymore.) Letting go of what numbs and dulls and flattens everything into the kNOwing space. Letting go of the mind more and more and moving beyond it, in relationship WITH it yet the soul and heart are leading.

Like this picture so beautifully shows, moving into the kNOW is letting go of the comfortable connections sometimes too and risking to leap, to fly, to lunge off of a cliff and into Infinite Possibilities. A deepening connection, a personal sense of the Divine Source waters the frequencies of inner kNOWing, not book kNOwledge. This HAS to happen inside FIRST, over and over, in a loving self held space (and with a spaceholder too in phases) creating safety INSIDE that also allows room for trust to arise in the unkNOWn on the outside.

This safety and trust inside makes the jumping off the cliff feeling movements on the outside bearable, enjoyable or INJOYable. It is an internal YES that then can move downstream to the external YES to the kNOWing possibilities in every moment…..

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book,Β Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human.Β Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Reuniting With Mother Gaia: A Guided Meditation For Indigo, Crystal And Rainbow Souls

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by Leena Colibri

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You can listen to the meditation here

This meditation is an offering from my heart and imagination to yours, to help it awaken further and in ways it may not have just yet. By the same token, it is intended to help you connect your heart and soul with Mother Gaia, the embodiment of the consciousness of our planet Earth and a sacred feminine guide for all of us who wish to connect more deeply with Her. You may feel a range of emotions throughout this offering, and I encourage you to make space for all of them as they bubble up inside you. In my experience of Mother Gaia, she is a loving space holder for any and all of what we are feeling, and she welcomes it all to surface within us as needed for our healing and thus, Hers too.

If you have access to some white sage or copal that you can light to clear your space before going in, I highly recommend that you do so, as this helps to clear out energies that may be less supportive of this inner journey you are about to embark on. I also recommend that you light some insence and/or a candle. Anything with an earthy scent may help you connect with Her more deeply. Surrounding yourself with and/or holding sacred stones or crystals that you feel resonant with at this moment, will help you ground into Her energy and also help you connect with your chakras as you move through this meditation.

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Make sure you are seated in a comfortable position with back support, or, that you are lying down in shavasana or flat on your back.

Close your sweet eyes…those eyes that have observed the world around you since the moment you were born, taking in the faces, energies, colours, and textures of all those around you. These observations are what have helped you learn all you have to this very day, and they, and your eyes, are to be honoured now. As your gaze turns inward toward the movie playing in your imagination, you may begin to remember that this inner reality is the one where it all began. In order to start walking, you had to first see yourself start walking, from this very place… to utter your first words, you had to see yourself saying them and imagine their impact…. imagine the joy on your mother or father or other caregiver’s face as your tongue and teeth and mouth shape move in tandem to create even one little sound. You may have been late to start speaking. Do you remember why that was? So much of communication is in thought form and energy, not in words as they have all taught you from an early age. No one is at fault here… it is only a conditioning and you are a unique and brave soul to have chosen to experience and adapt to it as best as you could have.

As you enter this imagination place, you begin to see an open meadow before you, surrounded by giant trees, covered in green and perhaps some flowers, grass, butterflies, anything at all… this is your landscape. This is your world you are visiting and remembering… you see off in the distance somewhere, a shadowy figure in the shape of an animal coming towards you. It could be big or small, domestic or wild. It could even be a tiny insect or a large arachnid, there are no limits here in this place of YOU! There may even be more than one…

As your animal slowly approaches you, and you calmly wait for it to arrive, you feel and might even see the big, pink heart chord that joins you two through your heart chakras. There may be a connection to other chakras as well, some upper or lower, cosmic or in the body. Your heart fills with reverence and wonder at this reunion and you may even feel tears when reuniting with this long-standing companion, as the memory washes over you that this animal guide or totem, has been with you for a very, very long time. If you don’t feel this at first, it’s okay. Just observe how you do feel, and let it be what’s real. This totem has been with you for so long and holds so much compassion and love for you, that it understands completely where you are at and regardless it is here to help you, as you have opened your heart to it today.

Your guide gestures and tells you telepathically that it is here to help you on your journey to meet Mother Gaia. It invites you to follow or, if possible, climb on its back and ride it! Immediately you begin to feel the swirl of momentum and a rumble around you as your animal guide takes off on this journey with you. Whether flying through the air on the back of a pegasus or running through the tall grass on the back of a cheetah, you feel the wind whispering to you of love and adventures to come, supporting your journey onward and inward, maybe even offering a boost of momentum and a reminder that all natural elements are here to offer you many gifts on your journey through life on this beautiful planet! You feel the sun beaming down on you like a proud father, illuminating all of the sparkling beauty of YOU, infusing you with its light rays and warming you from the outside-in. Observe what you feel when you are in this atmosphere as much as you can, for it could be moving rather quickly! Perhaps there are many things going on around you at the same time and many different creatures or pictures or objects you can see in the air or the grass or the clouds around you. They are all a part of YOU and are symbols for you to pick back up again later if you need and desire to do so.

As you arrive at your destination, you see Mother Gaia’s grove. Her ponds and clear water springs glisten and sparkle in the sunlight, with shining tiny rainbows arching over them. Lily pads laugh as tiny frogs leap from one to another. All creatures that you may see here are in bliss and happiness. You may even notice some rather tall and wide trees that feel like royalty to you in their regalness and aged wisdom. You may also see some animal species that you were told had gone extinct… for nothing can ever really die. Whatever you see here, let it in, as it is all a part of Her and also a part of YOU, undyingly, unceasingly, unendingly…

In a small clearing with giant trees covered in moss surrounding it, you see a comfortable place for sitting. The grass here seems to have formed into a meadowy couch made of soft peat moss and smiling yellow dandelions. Fireflies dance around this area, lighting it up like tiny, soft candles with the sweet glow of their flitting bodies. All seems to welcome you and your animal friend here with great warmth and love. You feel the trees inviting you to come in and sit on the mossy natural sofa. As you do so, you feel the exquisite love of the earth itself holding and warming you, reminding you that it loves you as much as you love it.

After you sit for a minute or so, you glance another pathway, separate from the one you took to get to this seat. It is a pathway of golden sand and soil that feels rich in life and lined withΒ dancing wildflowers, the brightest and most lovely you’ve ever seen in this life! You notice the figure of a tall woman with what looks like a tall and wide headress of flowers, moss and twigs walking towards you, her heart chakra beaming so brightly at you, that you feel instantly held by a feminine power and love you are remembering you were once held by before you were born into this life you now lead. As she walks towards you, her strides are elegant and broad, yet she is in no hurry, and in some moments, she seems to almost be standing still as the ground beneath her carries her towards you, effortlessly, as if she weighs the same as a feather, though she is actually quite tall and wears robes that seem as if they would be quite heavy to bear!

She arrives at your grassy sofa, and in this canopy of trees, she feels like she is one of them as she wraps you in a slow, deep embrace. This may feel like hugging and being hugged by a tree.

She whsipers to you in a soft, yet powerful voice that seems to penetrate and soothe you on many levels of your being, β€œI’m glad to see you and feel you here with me, in my domain that is also YOUR domain, sweet creation… I am Mother Gaia, as some call me. I am both renewed and ancient in every moment, and I and you have a special task or two to do together, if you wish to receive a reminder of it…”

She sits down with you on the sofa and clasps your hands in hers. She beams with so much love that it is hard to even imagine looking away or wanting to fall out of her warm gaze. It is the love you feel when taking in the warm spring sun after a cold, cold winter. It is the love you feel when you lay in the grass after the snow has long melted away. It is the love you feel from your beloved pet or when you are observing any animal in its natural habitat. You realize that this love has always been connected to you for you, but also for it and for HER… and that this is the love that you too are made of… and made to express.

You may wish to leave yourself some room here to let in this reunion in all of its textures and what it may push up for you. You may feel tears of joy and reunion. You may feel fear, hurt or anger. All of it is valid and She wants you to make space for it, as this is your roadmap into more of YOU, and without YOU, your deepest collaboration with Her may not be realized… there is nothing β€œwrong” or β€œbad” here or ever… and anything you may wish to feel with Mother Gaia is all valid and she offers you much space to feel it through in Her presence, as a loving mother of All.

β€œSweet creation,” She says softly, β€œI am pleased at this reunion. I am pleased to feel your most open heart at his very moment and in more moments to come. I am here within you, within me, within All. Whenever you desire to come back to this place, or any place you desire to meet with me directly again, I will be with you, to walk with you, to help you see the true wonder and beauty of this planet and of YOU… and to help you remember all you are ready to remember.”

You may begin the remembering process now, if these infusion from Mother Gaia begins to invoke them in you, yet, there is no rush or hurry. To even be in this place of reunion and sharing love with Her, you are taking a step inward that will carry you onward and upward as you continue your process of ascension with Mother Gaia. You may wish to stay and explore this place with her a bit longer, or, you may feel as if this meeting has you filled up for now and perhaps you will choose to return another day. Either way, you have now been imprinted by her magical heart and embrace, and are connected with Her in a way that you may only now be remembering was ever possible for you.

As you say goodbye to Mother Gaia, she extends her hand outward, and a small, porcelain-white dove lands on it. It is carrying a small piece of rolled-up parchment in its beak. She nods in your direction, and you understand that you are to extend your own hand outward for the dove to step onto. As you do this, you feel the tiny, lit-up heart chakra of this dove beaming at you with a sweet knowingness of who you are in your essence. It too remembers you! Looking up at you and blinking its sweet little eyes, you take the small piece of parchment from its beak. The bird jumps up to your shoulder and snuggles in against your cheek, to read the message along with you. You may only see one word or you may see several. But whatever message is there, you make a note to remember it, feeling that is from Mother Gaia and also from your Higher Self, who is also on this path of remembering and awakening along with you, always sending you notes, signs and messages to help you feel him/her more closely once again.

Your animal guide, still at your side, begins to lead you out of Mother Gaia’s grove and garden. He/She takes you back to your meadow, where you say goodbye, and yet, feel like goodbyes don’t really exist anymore and that you may start feeling this animal guide, and possibly other animal guides as well, with you from time to time from now on. With a great big heart beam of β€œThank you!” you begin to come back into your body, landing back into yourself at whatever pace you choose. More adventures await you in the future if you choose them and all the love in the world will be there to support you in any way you choose and allow it to…

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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life atΒ www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

The Magical Perspective Of Our Metaspaces

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by Leena Colibri

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Waves of magical realizations cascade over me as I learn to breathe them in, feeling gratitude wash away all tendencies towards desperation for this and that to change or β€œfinally be here”. This arises along with feelings of tension Β around whether or not I can maintain this state, as the conditioning and learned ability to downplay all that is good about my life is still moving and healing.

My life, as it is right now, is something I have the desire to keep letting in, because as I do that, not only do I get to live more fully in every moment and perhaps not ever need to experience β€œnostalgia” again, but it also gives me the gift of being able to see how far I’ve come. Phew. Going to breathe that one in for a moment… wow. Everything in life changes and shifts so much while we engage in our own healing. There have been many choices I’ve needed to make to get here, some very tough ones and some that came rather easily, and without being willing to see and feel what it is that I truly need and desire, perhaps I couldn’t have risen to my next waves of alchemy and co-creation. Because I have dedicated much energy to going inward, I now get to cultivate a metaspace and vista inside that I get to see myself and my life from.

There is so much that finding a metaspace inside of ourselves can offer us, especially around being able to take a step back and view our lives from a different perspective – one that is not so steeped in any in-the-moment tensions (though the tensions may still be there to some degree, just not so fused to us). What’s cool about these metaspaces is that when we energize our desire for them enough through meditation and taking time to ourselves, they seem to start to happen on their own, offering us organic moments of ecstatic joy and even bliss as we see and let in the true magic of our lives. This is what I feel now as I feel some surprise at becoming enveloped in these waves of love and appreciation for my life right now.

In addition to this, I feel awash on the shores of magical humanity in the moment… sitting at a computer that does these magical things that WE created it to do! Or rather perhaps I should say that we co-created it with beings and forces that we cannot always see but we definitely perceive to different degrees and at different levels! Woah! There is so much that we co-create every single day, in every single moment.

I also feel magic as I am sitting in my little apartment here in Mexico, feeling its size and set up as something not unlike a dream fort I would have loved to have as a child, complete with tiny kitchen and nesty, cozy bed! Of course I also have desires for improving my space and even for it to be in a different location, yet there is so much I am continuing to let in about the magic of where I am, who I am and what I have NOW. This life chapter I’m in is one I would only have dreamed of even a couple of years ago. Now I get to live into it.

I have noticed that there seems to be a conditioned response that we have to magic and even gratitude. I would just speak for myself, but I do feel there is a collective piece here too… there is always something to pick apart about every gift, material or ethereal, we are given. There is always a way to dissect and dismiss. Yet, too, there is always a way to let in and to feel these tendencies as they come up at the same time, letting the water of love bring up the oil of what has been in shadow inside. I’m not convinced this is something we can β€œmaster” exactly, but it does feel like a skill and awareness we can develop through deep care and curiosity towards ourselves. It is what helps us create our metaspaces, where we can see what’s going on in front of and within us in a new way.

We have to get out of ourselves from time to time. If this is difficult for you to do, try to find a lookout point in your physical reality. Take a hike up a mountain where you know there’s a view, or if there’s any way at all to get to the highest point in your town, try doing that. I find that looking downward and outward from a higher place physically is such a powerful way to let in what’s really important to me and why, and what I may need to change in order to feel myself in a higher frequency more often. You sometimes hear about people who have gone on long hikes or pilgrimages in nature to find an answer to their questions about their lives. This is a process that is so worth it and you do find the answers and the magical realizations that you seek, if you become present enough to let them in – something that being close to nature will surely offer you plenty of support for doing.

The times we are living in call us to live with more love in our hearts. We are being asked to cultivate our purposes and join together somehow, even while still having our individuation and personal time. And, in this call, we are being supported to sort through who we are and are not, even if the answer to this question is only valid for the next moment, as that claim still helps us move on to our next place of BEing and healing. There are many rivers to cross, yes. There are many streams we can each follow, yes. And there is always, always so much magic and Divine love to let in while we do so. ❀

With love from my metaspace to yours,

Leena

 

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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life atΒ www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

Fourth Dimensional (4D) Consciousness: Alchemical Purgatory, Dark Nights, And Profound Awakenings

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By Jelelle Awen

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Connection to other worlds and dimensions, the lift UP, the sense of I am HERE yet NOT HERE, I am THERE and HERE….this is arising now, coming now, available now. Merging worlds and dimensions…..letting these multiple realities into your NOW moments. Breathing them in as you walk around and breathing them in as you sleep deep, passing out and traveling and visiting. You are drifting often and weaving between the dimensional consciousnesses…..maybe dipping down into 3D, then awakening into 4D, and crawling there at times. And 5D comes in like a sunburst across your consciousness, spreading light rays across your sky.

THIS HERE in 3D life is enough until it is not enough and then you begin the process of remembering, of gliding, of awakening. You feel the 4D transitional dimension of alchemical purgatory, the sorting out dimension, of THIS from THAT. 4D is for dark nights and for kundalini awakenings both. It is the soul’s blood coming back to sleeping limbs. 4D can feel SO dark sometimes, walking in shadows, kneeling in glass type experiences. It can feel like the stomach flu, purging up and out that which does NOT belong to your soul. It can feel like epic journeys into vast terrains, all INSIDE of you.

4D can still be outward focus, outward triggers, looking for outward manifestations. There are edges being worked about the outside while the inside is becoming more consciousness to you. The inside is calling out for you for attention and love and care. Closing down from the outside happens more and more often as you need to reboot and recharge. You may feel like two versions of you in your life. The version of you that is still tied to 3D reality with friends and family who resonate on a certain level with you and even may want you to just remain the same. Then the version of you that is your soul awakening and your higher self coming in. Maybe you are more one version over the other, you may fluctuate between the two of them.

Changes, HUGE changes sometimes, happen in 4D. Old things collapse on themselves. Marriages end, friendships complete, careers change or are abandoned, geographies are shifted and left behind. It can feel at times like you are saying “no” and letting go of EVERYTHING and that you can’t imagine what will remain. You may be walking around in mourning so often that it is more familiar than joy. Yet, the trust is growing. The trust that the process is being held by the Divine and the process is leading somewhere.

You are fighting at times, battling the old conditioning that comes at you from the outside and the inside. Yet, also, the love you are experiencing more and more leaves you weary to battle. The parts of you that have battled and fought for a long time begin to rest and more and more imagine that some day they will be able to permanently put the sword down. You may be an activist and an advocate – this may be important for your soul and awakening journey. You may want others to ‘get it’ VERY badly and get very frustrated when they do not. You may feel like burning down the world that the ‘bad guys’ live in even as your world is often burning with ash in the air.

What makes 4D possible to navigate is your soul drawing support and love to you in many forms during the phase of intense embodiment of it. You find more and more resonant souls and you gather together, you form bonds, and it helps to sooth the pains from letting so much go. You want light, you want to end your suffering, and you consciously begin to feel HOW and WHAT you need in your life in order for that to happen.

Gaia is currently in 4D consciousness it feels like and moving into 5D more and more. The death and rebirth sense of our current times, all of the upheavals, battles, polarizations, power struggles, injustices, wars…the realm of 4D exploration as human consciousness wakes up. The emergence of the sacred human is a messy process, yes at times, but it is held with much love and the dawning experiences of 5D frequencies makes all of it ultimately worth it. ❀

To read more about 3D, 4D, and 5D selves and how these versions of you relate to the seven areas of life (emotional, spiritual, mental, physical, social, financial, and environmental) go here:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

Jelelle Awen is a writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. VisitΒ soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about sessions with her, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.

 

Embracing Change As A Mirror, Healer And Ally

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by Leena Colibri

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We are all facing changes right now. Many of these changes are major upheavals as the veils become thinner and we are finally able to not only listen to, but hear ourselves and our guidance more. Some of these changes we choose voluntarily as our relationship with ourselves deepens and we realize more clearly what it is we truly need and/or desire to have in our lives. The poignant ache for a deeper love that we don’t necessarily know where it could come from or what it could look like is landing with a thud in each of our hearts, giving us new direction, especially in relationships, but also in our careers and geographies.

With change comes process…the pain inside our very sacredly human pain bodies becomes louder in order for us to finally hear it, feel it and heal it. It is an awakening to those ways in which we have been numbed out, “going with the flow” to a degree that has actually seen us shrink to fit circumstances and relationships, and how we have deprived ourselves of love from ourself to ourself, let alone how we have blocked it from flowing to and from others or even the Divine.

This process of learning how to be with change and especially be with ourselves when we are experiencing change, is becoming unavoidable with our global process of ascension. Too, though, our process of vibrating higher is coming in faster than ever before, and the experience of that is now able to deepen for us, the more we can move through what’s holding us down. Change is designed and brought on by love, ultimately… it pushes up what we need to feel in order to fully move into our next chapters and unveil more of who we really are at our core.

My relationship to change hasn’t always been very spacious and in moments it still isn’t. Most of the time, the changes that are being asked of us by love are not easy to embody or willingly say “yes” to, and unfortunately that can also create an experience of life happening to us and not us happening to life. We can feel at these times as if our power is in some sort of cosmic vacuum, even though it’s really just being lovingly challenged. I hold this as my truth and it does help me process through change much easier, especially during these times of intense waves of energetic frequency alterations and the life adjustments that happen accordingly.

Just like the ways in which the sun’s rays can be felt coming in much stronger as the result of weakened barriers holding it’s power back, so we are all experiencing a renewed press of love moving through us much stronger. The process of this awakening that love brings to us is most alive when we embrace the changes we’re being invited into, that aren’t simply outward but actually quite often very inward. We are learning to rearrange our inner furniture to accommodate more love in our lives and of course that translates to adjustments and, at times, all-out upheavals needing to happen outside of us too. If we can trust, somehow, that it is all held in and by love, then we can begin to let in change as the mirror, healer and ally that it actually is and always has been for us.

 

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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, writer and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life atΒ www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Life Beyond The Veil

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By Raphael Awen

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At the edge of your life as you know it, there is a thin, but effective veil that contains you. Not all of you actually lives within the veil, but having awareness of this fact is largely prohibited by the veil itself. It’s as if life-as-you-know-it is all there is. For all but a select few, this pearl of great price will not be discovered in a given lifetime even though it sovereignly belongs to every single one of us.

The veil is like one of those space-age non-material kind of materials that can go invisible and can retract and expand as necessary in its containment function. The material lives not as some external boundary, but lives inside of you. It is held in place by every relationship agreement that you form with life, people and energy.

Try as you inevitably will, and desire as you will, this containment will not let up easily. It is designed to withstand even the most formidable of efforts. In fact, effort alone cannot penetrate it. It won’t let up until it knows that it knows, and you know that you know, and it knows you know, that you are truly ready to discover and go on to experience life beyond this veil. It lovingly begins with tastes and confirmations and many processes to make you fit for a life as you don’t know it and can only come to know by slow awakening.

Within the veil, you have become skilled at life as you know it. Your proficiency at the many work arounds parts of you employ to be living a part-life is truly a work of great attainment. It’s more than tempting to remain there. For most, even an inkling of a missing something is held at bay by the containment vessel. Your skill at life as you know it is dear to you. It’s made a half life safe and even rewarding. You’ve made a home away from home. What could be of any more value than that?

Life isn’t out to conspire against you. It doesn’t want to rob you of any treasured security. It actually wants to afford you a whole new relationship to security and a truer kind of safety that lives beyond the veil. But it waits as if there is all the time in the world, because in fact, it does have all the time in the world and is willing to spend that in your awakening process to life beyond the veil.

Life beyond the veil doesn’t promise to be easy or that there will not be other veils; that you will be somehow be done once and for all with veils and painful awakening processes. The unknown part of you that lives beyond the veil already knows this and is both urgent and patient in communicating with you. It knows you need all the time you need and that all of it is just as sacred as sacred can be.

When you are truly ready, you will repeatedly and consistently make many excursions beyond the current veil capping life as you know it. These excursions will be to confirm, further awaken and acclimatize you to deeper exposures to life beyond the veil.

If wonder, reverence, and awe is winning and possessing the day for you and nothing on this side of the veil can keep you from pressing through it, then you are already in process of moving through the veil. That’s why life as you know it feels so strange and familiar to you at the same time. You are in a profound birthing process.

I’ve been through a few of these ‘rending the veil’ life processes and I offer assistance to help people feel themselves more self-lovingly in order to be with themselves on their journey. I do that through presence, focus and dialogue together with someone and aspects of them when they are ready to claim that for themselves. It’s not an offer of friendship though I am known to be very friendly. You are not out seeking another friend. You are seeking (if you are) a space-holder who can assist you in holding your you-space through a profound soul and life transition. Why attempt it alone when you don’t have to?

I so welcome hearing from you and learning of your story. My sessions page is here if you’d like to know more. soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

I honour your awakening beyond the veil…

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.

Love Your Desires And Let Them Have A Rightful Place In Your Being

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By Raphael Awen

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This morning, I continue feeling an angelic connection, and this is my best and momentary interpretation into words of his energy and message. I invite you to feel it for yourself. I think your own Angels will want to dance with you around this subject. πŸ™‚

If there is a sense inside of you that you desire life as you know it to be different in some way, it means you are alive.

How does it feel to be you, inside of your body, inside of your mind, inside of your emotional body? Is it normal for you to have and feel and experience the wanting of something different? Something new?

Of course you do. It’s the foundation of every sales pitch that’s ever been made and ever will be made to you in your life. If you are alive, you want. The illusion of being totally satisfied with life as you know it is not actually possible given the infinite ever expanding reality of life and love.

You may well have constructed the illusion that life as you know it is as good as it gets, but life itself doesn’t support this illusion, and soon enough, you have to again face your wanter.

So great is this unrelenting power of life itself, (that you chose to be a part of incidentally, there are no victims here), that many have worked long and hard to envision a spirituality that is shorn of all want. It is in wanting and seeking they say that all suffering originates. I say the exact opposite. It is in suppressing your wanting and desiring nature where your suffering is found.

You see, to have a want is one thing, but to admit it, to feel it, to make it conscious is a most vulnerable thing, and for this reason, most will need to find more courage to come to this place. The vulnerability I speak of is found in this conscious admission of a desire that you are asked to feel when there is not a conscious guarantee that you will ever have the desired thing or attain the desired state of being.

To what degree are you willing to feel a desire, to let it really come alive in you, when you can’t see or feel that thing emerging on your horizon? Then of course the next question comes; what life form or God would implement such a form of self abuse, to be given to longing for things you have no way of obtaining?

Let’s let that question bake for a moment and come back to it later. Let’s return to the earlier question. Do you even have desire? Feel it from a chakral perspective. In your grounding in the earth, do you feel a desire to feel more secure, more loved? In your creativity and sensuality, do you feel desire there? How about your personal power, do you feel power in life? Go to the heart chakra now, can you see more room for more self love, more and deeper connection with others? What about your expression in the world, your voice, any room for more there? What about your third eye experience? Any desire for deeper clairvoyance, clairaudience, clairsentience, to enter the magical and mystical as normal as walking the dog? Moving to the crown chakra, could you handle some more God connection? Could you handle feeling more like the God-human that you are? What would that look and feel like?

Okay, that was a lot just now. Thank you for hanging in there with me. When I feel each of my chakras, I feel desire flowing from each one. I am profoundly dissatisfied in the midst of my deep and profound satisfaction. I want more. The more I taste and feel love, the more I want. If this is not your admitted reality, I must ask, to what degree are you even alive?

Is that question offensive? Of course it is to the satisfied soul. Offence is a risk I am willing to take, for it is a much smaller price to pay than losing you to the cult of false satisfaction. If I must part with you for lack of resonance, let it be sacredly and lovingly marked with this soul angst and conflict. Let us not dis-serve ourselves in an illusion of unconditional love. Not here, on this all too important ground.

Bear with me, bear with desire, bear with these words a moment more. But only if you want to.

Yes, you desire. I desire. Truth be told, sometimes I feel like nothing more than desire.

Returning now to the question we left to bake a moment ago…is it not pure sadomasochismΒ to hold this kind of desire with no ability to attain those desires? Of course it is. What kind of universe would ask you to long and desire for things only to gloat in your not being able to attain or obtain them?

Can you feel where this is leading? The desire itself is programmed to take you to its fulfillment. You must begin with owning desire and then let desire lead you to all the courage and grace necessary to walk that out.

I will pause here, and let you digest this opening of your desire.

Love your desire, let your desire have its rightful place in your being.

Thank you for taking this in, feeling and digesting this energy together. Let’s feel where our desire is leading us.

Raphael Awen is co-creator and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more.Β