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The No Man’s Land Of Our Collective Grief

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By  Raphael Awen

If we take a step outside of this most challenging polarity moving through us right now as a species, we see where there’s something none of us really comfortable feeling.

If the anti injection people are correct, then there’s a wave of destruction and fear that is already here and scaling up at a pace we can only guess at.

If the pro experimental injection people are correct, then our sovereignty and autonomy is best left in the hands of a governing body who are better equipped to lead our lives.

Either way, we are giving up something of such huge proportions. I don’t think there’s a single one of us yet who’s felt the deepening scale of this.

Raging at it, or turning over and accepting it feel like two polarized ways of starting to work through it, but there’s still a huge no man’s land that I haven’t seen anyone step into.

In that no man’s land is something to feel.

Trying to describe it almost does it a disservice, for it can only really be felt, not described. But it has something to do with mourning and grief on a scale we haven’t known in this life.

Life as you and I knew it is changing rapidly, daily and minute by minute. Something big is dying and not returning, regardless of which side of the issue(s) you find yourself on.

People on both sides of the polarity believe they have spared themselves from some personal suffering. ‘According to their beliefs’, as Yeshua would say, ‘so be it unto them’. Beliefs are such strong personal reality creators, but they only go so far.

There’s a shared reality that whether it’s recognized or not, is happening. That reality is the shared boat we are sailing in. The hole in your end of the boat IS actually an issue to me. There’s only one boat, even as we are afforded individual bubbles within that boat, but OUR boat is sinking.

We all chose to be a part of this transition, and to give up a quality of an old life to be a part of anchoring in a new life. Whether you are injection injured, (and my heart breaks for you if you are) or out promoting getting the next booster, we are going somewhere.

There’s somewhere we won’t be returning to.

That change calls into question every plan, every intention, every purpose, every sense of meaning. All of it is up for continual revision as we sort through what can and does feel crazy making and disorienting.

Nothing makes sense in the old way. In the interim, we’re all grasping for the new way that isn’t quite here yet.

I don’t know any other way to be with it, other than to feel this surrender to what is, open my heart to being further activated into this care for myself and our beautiful collective that would choose such transition through such confusion as a planetary group soul’s higher choice and service to the divine’s unfolding of itself through us.

WE chose this. WE created it. The polarity is of OUR creation. When you accept that, you get baptized into being a YOU in service of the WE.

You get to care. You get to feel. You get to mourn. You get to weep the tears others aren’t ready yet to weep. You even get to thrive in love as you take part in honoring the death all around.

You get to be in the real moment that is here now.

And in that moment we see that the deeper our polarities, the deeper our shared reality.

Raphael

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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Spiritual Mastery As An Avoidance Of Vulnerability

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By  Raphael Awen

The path of spiritual mastery or attainments has been basically useless to me for several years, other than to often trip me up in comparison or self judgment games.

The thing was, I used to be able to muster some impressive consistent self discipline and regimen, set goals and stick to them, and that way of being in life doesn’t let go easily, even as it collapses at the same time.

I don’t think I’m alone in this by a long shot. I think what I’m feeling personally is more of a reflection of what the masculine is coming to terms with now as consciousness itself shifts and changes.

Mastery served us well for a time to come to know our power. It moved us from an inferiority complex, but now threatens us with a superiority complex. Both however are non-relational and both are non-vulnerable, and both don’t actually have mastery over anything in the bigger picture of what we really want and need.

At nineteen, I went out jogging every single day for over a year, without missing a day, rain, snow or shine. How I felt didn’t matter, other than holding onto this feeling of I can do whatever I set my mind to. I thought at the time that I’d do this for the rest of my life, because with each passing day, my record of achievement was getting bigger, better as well as harder to lose.

That’s the thing with attainment and spiritual masteries. They are like rolling a stone up a hill that will one day succumb to gravity, and the higher up you roll the stone, the greater its velocity and path of destruction to your self perception and who knows what else when it gives way to nature, as it is sure to do one day.

Men particularly have been so addicted to doing the right thing and the good thing, the thing that once did have meaning, purpose and even connection, with love, life and nature, that they naturally fear letting go of. It matters less how noble the thing, just heaven forbid that you should be without some animating thing.

How could something so good lose its value over time?

If all this mastery and attainment grasping is becoming an old way, is there a new way that wants to come in its place? I have my ideas and answer to this, but do you have a sense of your arising truth around this?

Maybe mastery was just a placeholder holding us as men in a place of being mastered over, until we were ready to enter a whole new dimension of mystery, coming to know our power through the doorway of vulnerability and transparency?

Paul talked about the ‘schoolmaster of the law’ being over us until being introduced to Christ consciousness, which is more about being changed in core nature. Was he already hinting at this two thousand years ago?

It seems the old way of gaining mastery was really about gaining mastery over our vulnerability and never having to be transparent. We were holding a suppressive lordship over ourselves.

You may still be feeling like a millionaire holding some masteries, but I’ll bet life isn’t supporting you any longer to naturally sustain that. All the millionaires and billionaires of today are finding it harder and harder and super costly to effort sustaining those holdings.

These feelings are coming up for me today as I have an opportunity to have a session later today with a dynamic man and big soul who has a heartcry unfolding. I could feel some tension inside and went inwards to feel what it was about.

I connected with all of my inner masculine aspects of me from this life and other timelines that I feel living in me differentiated and unique, and asked their reactions to meeting with a man.

Here’s the pieces that came back to me in dialogue with them. (It feels good to get to the underlying push and pull and where and how it lives in parts of us and their needs. Now, we don’t try and fix the fade on one mastery with another mastery campaign somewhere else.)

“I don’t like men who speak their truth as thee truth without acknowledging their belief system that gave birth to those truths. They don’t feel safe or kind.” Marvin

“I don’t feel comfortable being around men who energize their spiritual mastery or attainments. It doesn’t feel real to me. If they are onto something, I feel stuck in a comparison game or left out. Mastery just hasn’t worked for me in decades. The mastery path as we’ve known it feels non relational and non vulnerable.” Wayne

“I’d like to serve men again. I feel trust that we know we won’t hurt or harm without care and kindness, but I also know that we and you and us are going to need to be awake, ready, in our stance, on our game, with our truth, not letting reactions get internalized. Men are looking for a mirror of truth.” Arthur

“You have a magic in you, Raphael, and that gets to come out and serve and be given when you simply be you, transparenting whatever you are feeling. I like serving men because then we get to dance in the magic and be around other mens magic too.” Charles

“What an opportunity to feel the heartbeat and heartcry of men, instead of dominating or controlling them. They aren’t / we aren’t that complex in some ways. We just want connection, meaning, and purpose” Lionel

Thanks for reading, especially as a man, and maybe as a woman, you can feel this as the masculine polarity inside of you and one that is or is wanting to transmute into these new directions?

I’m curious!

~ R ~

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Big heartfelt acknowledgement and thank YOU to Gabriel Amara for leading this charge with me while we surrender to divine timing for more men in the room.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for community engagement, exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ for a monthly subscription of $22.22 USD

Bearing The Burden Of Love’s Unsolvable Mystery

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By  Raphael Awen

💚 Realizing that all of your awakening is only ever but a measure is humbling. Then realizing that infinity bears no measure is more humbling still. 🏄🏻‍♂️

We are all in the awakening and we are all in the slumber. Love is playing with us, dancing with us, wanting to come to know itself through us, knowing that it never will and never wants to because of its own infinity. It just does what it does for the joy, reverence awe and wonder of it all.

Love invites you to meet with it there, in the unknown, in the surrender, where every mistake is an infinite success, where every pain is the source of unspeakable healing.

You bear the burden of love’s unsolvable mystery.

You can’t be solved or fixed because even your belief that you needed fixing is all a part of this mystery of being.

This being that you are; infinite, pretending with your measuring tape; omniscient, pretending to be missing a memo; omnipresent, pretending to be in one place at one time; omnipotent, pretending to be lacking something, ALL is love at play.

You have lots of awakening to do, but not for the attainment of it, for it literally gets you nowhere.

But when you get there, you won’t ever want to go back, and you won’t want to stop dancing with this love moving through you.

Xo,

~ R ~

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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Wake Up Call: Beltane & Ascension Energies Update (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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In this video recorded live on May 1st, Raphael and Jelelle Awen transmit the fire and renewal energies of Beltane/May Day to put out a powerful wake up call to the masculine, in both men and women. This soul fire of passion and truth is fuelled in us by the recent solar flare activity, planetary alignment, black moon solar eclipse and overall increasing Ascension energies.

Raphael especially shares a message to the masculine about how high the stakes are for him and that there’s never been a time quite like now where both the need and the opportunity to align with your truth and allow it to change your life are both present.

We share about how so many souls are willing and able to do the ‘inner work’ yet often ceiling out when it comes to making difficult life choices that require bringing their truth, upsetting others, moving out of previous configurations, letting go of ‘sacred cows’, etc. We then share about the benefits of negotiating with parts of yourself in order to pop through this ceiling that caps your bigness, soul fire, and growth.

So many trajectories from this life and others are wanting to come together and be felt and responded to in this life. Forget ‘healing’ and ‘working on yourself’ if you only want some relief from all the attendant problems that arise from choosing half of yourself. The craziness of the times we are in, that is manifesting inwardly and outwardly, invite you to get real, get really real, with yourself, and then take the self loving and negotiated steps to out that into your world. It’s all a portal that your soul has set up.

You’re not starting a war, but ending a bunch, though you can’t do this without ruffling more than feathers. Short of showing up for your truth and your choices, you really leave yourself in a hopeless and alone place. No one can help you and you are of no help to anyone. You are in fact choosing a slow suicide. Which brings us to the vulnerable need we all share to belong, which interestingly enough seems to have a lot to do with why we stay stuck for the time we do as well as a lot to do with how and why we would undertake such life altering choices when we’re ready to.

You can read comments that happened during on the livestream on Jelelle’s facebook feed: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

Here is a recent energy update from Jelelle about the Beltane/Eclipse energies brought up new karmic healing grounds in our sacred union: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2022/05/01/energy-update-beltane-eclipse-opening-karmic-metasoul-timeline-portals-in-sacred-union

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For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

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Energy Update: Beltane/Eclipse Opening Karmic Metasoul Timeline Portals In Sacred Union

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By Jelelle and Raphael Awen

Energy Update: My goodness, wow, there is a lot to feel and coming up in response to/activated by all these celestial ‘events’ and energies!

For the last two days, I’ve been in a deep karmic ‘tunnel’, feeling, seeing, and experiencing energies from another lifetime heavily overlaid on my own and just BEing with them and the soul aspect who feels them. Allowing lots of tears, physical tiredness and need for rest has been so important, plus lots of processing/sharing time with my mate Raphael too.

This Metasoul aspect of mine (as we call them rather than ‘past life’) is named Lorna, a powerful Avalonian High Priestess who walked away from her position for many reasons in her lifetime, yet mostly to follow the call of her heart in mateship with Raphael’s metasoul aspect ( a Christian king named Lionel). Of course, this union was ‘forbidden’ and they hid in the shadows with their affair….longing for each other yet not able to ‘be together.’ This is a reoccurring theme for Raphael and I over many, many lifetimes and what we came here to heal together this life. The priestess and the king, being in different ‘worlds’ yet our twin/pairbond calling us to connect and heal the separation wound there.

Being able to be together and be in our power/gift expression together is the opportunity we’ve chosen in this life. It is A LOT to let in and even nearly 14 years later, we are still in this process together of inhabiting this.

As is the case in truly non-compartmentalized sacred union in which we are in constant physical/emotional/mental connection together yet also individuating, this invitation to have and be in what we haven’t gotten to be in before brings up all kinds of things to feel such as grief, distrust, insecurity, fear of loss, desire to control/grasp, unworthiness and much more.

During this powerful Beltane/Union passage and supported by the Black Moon eclipse energies (along with the recent planetary alignment and ongoing solar flares), Raphael and I went into this lifetime together (which isn’t in the ‘past’ at all yet occurring in the Quantum Now), dropping into the energies of Lionel and Lorna and facilitated a feeling/bridging to them. They ‘get’ to be together in their lifetime too finally and get to lead together, seeing where that takes them. Their union fortifies and supports the union between Raphael and I too, opening up a gift exchange. Left unfelt, their resistances and fear creates blocks to intimacy and deepening for Raphael and I.

I feel to share this tender process as it is the best example I can offer of the kinds of energies you may be experiencing and emotions too, yet may not always know or feel a ‘way’ to be with them. There is a massive lifting of the veils happening where the previous amnesia we have had about other lifetimes and soul themes is dissolving. Whether you are in sacred union right now or single, your soul is inviting you to heal the separation wounds within you and in your experience in order to move into more union on all levels.

I do love this SoulFullHeart process so very much for what it allows to be opened up and felt in a specific way that also has such depth and possibility to it. If you’d like to hear more about our process recently as a couple and more about SoulFullHeart as well and if it might be a deepening place for you in community and sessions, you can join Raphael and I in a livestream on FB on Beltane, Sunday, May 1st at 5:00pm GMT/12:00pm EDT/9am PDT. The recording will be available on our feeds to watch anytime along with here on this blog and on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel.

We also share more about our personal processes and respond to your movements/sharings too on our private online community called the SoulFullHeart Portal….creating a safe community space online to support each other, deepen, challenge, and grow together. You are welcome to join us there for a $22.22 USD monthly membership as an exchange with us: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

The energies of the eclipse bring up and out these timelines/lifetimes and it’s HOW we are with them that can make a big difference in our experience and what we can leverage from them. I so love truly being able to dialogue with, feel, and grow with these soul aspects and parts of myself, over years sometimes, and in an ever deepening way. Not just in a one time regression session, yet in a truly relational way that is ongoing.

Healing the separations that create and feed our fear…moving into more union within and together…THIS is why we are here in this life where so much more is possible than ever before!

And Raphael’s comment on this post:

“This must sound like a complete dream to so many, a real dream, but a dream nonetheless, to have this kind of feeling access to other timelines.

It might feel quite ‘attained’, but my personal experience is more about the guts it takes to be willing to feel and digest all there is to feel in these karmic bonds and binds, and how they are expressing in the current of our current. It did take deep process and choice, but for a soul who’s ready to go here, my truth is that you will be surprised how immediate the openings are and how you will be graced and paced by love and the divine to hold it all.

Feeling this pair bond yesterday took me into some deep tunnels of despair feeling Lionel, which resonates so deeply with the despair inside so many men right now. It’s all connected and it’s all asking to be answered.

If you’re feeling that you need to stay on top of things if you’re going to be a resource to others, I’d invite you to think again. We are in this ride together and there are things to feel that feel like hell, and it is through those hells that you get relieved of the pretense of being something you are not and it is through those hells that you get truly empowered to be of useful and profound service for what is at hand now.

There’s lots more shit to come and unless we drop our roles, we’re going to just plain suffer deeper and deeper. If we are ready to go deeper, there is, I’m convinced (much of the time) that there is so much goodness awaiting us. That is not only my hope, but my daily ongoing experience.

I am so glad to be in the resolution of these timelines with you, Jelelle, and all of our discovered Metasouls. I believe that is what all of us are doing one way or another in the long run, it’s just about how much someone is ready to feel now and at what pace that makes the difference in our joy/suffering.

I know there is a TON of divine support to all of us who are willing to feel and heal on this level.”

Much love to you during this illuminating passage!

Jelelle Awen

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My Journey, Humanity’s Ascension, Soul Community | The Starseed Network Podcast | Kasha Rokshana (Audio)

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In this episode of The Starseed Network Podcast, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator and long-time soul community member, Kasha Rokshana, shares with host Saule Ilona Vaida about her personal awakening, healing,  and self-discovery journey. She shares about when she met Raphael and Jelelle Awen for the first time and how her ongoing journey in the SoulFullHeart process/way of life has transformed her from the inside out, which has helped her draw a Sacred Union mate as well.

Kasha and Saule also digest the ongoing Ascension process for humanity and the healing of the Divine separation wound, along with finding fulfillment in your emotional/spiritual healing journey and being true to yourself, your parts, your heart AND soul. 

You can follow this podcast on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thestarseednetwork/

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/5I9q2RMyA89sicqeqsYASf?si=e0d6e7a5d38849a9

Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-starseed-network-podcast/id1585215487

Google Podcasts: https://anchor.fm/saule-ilona-vaida

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Energy Update: Rare Planetary Alignment Offering Balance & Healing of Polarities

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By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: There is QUITE a powerful ‘planet parade’ (as it is called) going on now as Venus, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn and the moon are in visual alignment with each other in our early morning skies. From our perspective here on Gaia, they form a nearly straight line that is visible this week for about one hour before sunrise.

The most common alignment is when three planets line up on one side of the sun for many days out of the year; followed by four planets about once a year while five planets aligning happens every 19 years. All eight planets in alignment occurs once in about 170 years.

This event happening now with four planets aligning with the moon is an extremely rare and unique planetary event with the last time this occurred being over 1,000 years ago! Also, on Saturday, Venus and Jupiter (the two brightest planets) will be seen very close together in a conjunction. Saturday is also when we will have a ‘black moon’ partial eclipse of the sun.

Raphael and I will be sharing more about this planetary alignment plus eclipse energies and how you may be experiencing them, how to digest/integrate them during a livestream here on FB at 5:00pm GMT (London)/12:00am EDT/9:00am PDT. You can join us live to ask questions/leave comments and watch the recording whenever you’d like on our feeds and you tube channel.

This planetary alignment brings into visual transmission a sense of balance within and in the cosmos. While so many of us have been feeling the intensely chaotic and penetrative energies of the recent solar flares (and the sacred masculine energies they offer), this alignment seems to offer a contrasting grounding frequency…..an assimilation of the energies that been churned up, starting from within us.

A balancing of our inner feminine and masculine energies, healing of polarities in those inner relationships leads to the experience and embodiment of union. Union with a sacred mate, union with friends/soul family, union with our soul fragments in all of our many lifetimes, union with the Divine. The polarities are honored as are the differences, yet there is an invitation to heal the separation experience that is ongoing.

It is easy in these days of Matrix peaking/revelation to get ‘lost’ in polarity, being charged and angry, fighting and protesting, caught up in contentions. ‘Controlled opposition’ and division are being seeded in nearly everything that is being shared in the ‘mainstream’ consciousness right now.

Healthy conflict can lead to more union and vulnerability if held in a sacred and safe container for it. Finding your way through the previous knots and binds of fear (esp in a sacred union relationship) can be so nourishing! Yet, many souls have very few of these sacred and safe containers for this kind of transact available on the outside in their relationships nor cultivated on the inside.

Creating this safety place of inner alignment happens as we feel and hold space for the polarities, the messes, and the charges that come up and truly HONOR them. Rather than just allowing them to flood out and ‘attack’ OR react from a place of feeling attacked that is unconscious, you are centered within yourself and with the Divine in FULL heart held consciousness of what is going on within you.

This planetary alignment seems to bring some peace and rest to our bodies and soul fields as well. A calming after the recent chaos of activations and upgrades!

Raphael and I will share about this inner unification/healing of separation process on Saturday and also invite you to take into more connection through our videos, writings, sessions, online community, group calls, etc. with info at soulfullheart.org.

Love to you!

Jelelle Awen

Masculine Energy Update: April 24, 2022

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By  Raphael Awen

‘What can be shaken will be shaken’ and that’s pretty much everything.

If you thought you could create an unshakeable life, I imagine that you are either humbly and willingly reconsidering that presupposition or you are simply being forced to reconsider it.

Every electron that makes up every atom in every cell is in an oscillating push and pull kind movement. It is energy in motion and it’s trillions of times over just inside of your body alone. The solar rumblings that are going on are a macrocosm of the microcosm. You have your own ‘coronal mass ejections’ and solar flares happening inside of you on the quantum scale trillions of times over. You are not only affected by the sun, but you are affecting the sun as you are in quantum entanglement with all consciousness.

Every consensus reality that we’ve created in relationship to purpose, meaning, identity, money (exchanging ourselves in the world), romance, all of it is rumbling like never before. And it is crazymaking for our conscious minds to attempt to sort out as our conscious minds are not trained to handle this degree of shaking.

There is often nothing to do but surrender to the ride in the unknown and trust as best you can. Something from beyond our normal waking consciousness is going to have to meet you to sustain you in order to not overly suffer through this legitimate and inescapable suffering.

Take the practice of ghosting for example, that’s becoming so the norm in dating and in the workplace where recruiting is concerned. These are Titanic like behaviors of people who intuitively know that the ship is sinking, that there really is no tomorrow worth trusting in and that the default agenda is to get the most pleasure out of the immediate moment because that’s all there is. Do it at anyone else’s expense because me and my pleasure is all that matters. As nasty as that behavior is, it’s also part of the rebirth. These old masculine structures are emitting a heart cry for a death doula to assist them in completing the arc of their usefulness in our consciousness evolution, and so even the densest of hearts and souls respond to this heartcry.

Love never has allowed unanswered suffering to sustain, but love has not been afraid of allowing suffering to spike. We are in a spike like never before that is connected to, amplifying as well as answering all previous spikes.

Consciousness is reinventing itself, and it’s doing that through you and me, in your life and mine as we know it. Naturally, we feel it first as it affects how we feel as individuals, our personal life as we know it, how we feel today, but we are invited to feel it in the collective and here is where we find some answer for a balm to soothe the craziness we feel inside.

For me, in times like this, it often arises in an out of nowhere kind of feeling, of feelings of loss of wellbeing, meaning, purpose, rest and trust. I will consciously be able to feel how I have so much to be grateful for, but in these moments, I’ve lost all conscious feeling tones of that expanded gratitude. Instead, it feels gross, contracted, fearful, anxious, and hopeless. All is falling apart. There is a me there who can hold it with some self love around the experience, but the experience in moments can and does feel like it is almost all there is.

I’d love to take a poll here at this point and ask if you know of other spiritual teachers who’d be willing to admit this kind of reality inside. How many students and teachers are still busy in their ghosting worlds creating and cocreating these crumbling structures? Their purpose is just as sacred as mine, but theirs is stuck in a hell of a suffering loop if they are still busy selling wares on Titanic’s shifting deck; bullshit like how to turn your spiritual offering into a six figure or seven figure income. Six or seven figures of crumbling shit I might add!

My point is that everything is being transparented. By that I mean that everything that has been hidden is in process of being revealed. The big darknesses and the little ones. It’s not a morality police kind of revealing though. It is rather a revealing of finding and seeing how we are all one. What we do to an other, we do to ourselves. What ‘the one’ goes through, we can’t escape feeling it. Your unshakeable reality will be shaken to the place where the only salvation will be in getting real.

Getting real with yourself, with the divine, and with others. It’s the only mirror in which you will be afforded a picture of yourself that will be of any help. And incidentally, YOU do matter and how YOU fare does matter. It’s not about getting over yourself. It’s about getting into yourself and coming alive and feeling how your thrival is inextricably connected with mine and everyone else’s. If you want to survive this shaking, let alone thrive in it, you’re going to have to figure out a way to give your deepest gifts, and those gifts are about getting real first.

And herein shall also be your greatest service. Even the darkest darkness like the current holocaust injection agenda and dominations over humanity are all a part of love’s unfolding story. Love has cooked up some cliffhanger plots that outdo anything we’ve ever seen written before, but this is the level of meltdown that is currently going on.

You see, your soul, your higher self, doesn’t see your comfort and survival in this 3D domain through the lens of your conditioned 3D self parts of you. These beautiful beings helped and help you do 3D as you’ve needed to, but now their vessel has been breached, they are at fatal threat until you can answer and reconcile what it is that you really want, and THEN, move towards it in some way.

I’d like to invite you to take such a step in joining our online free portal at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/. I’m being called to gather like hearts and souls into a resonance space to support one another, get to know and interact with one another and move forward through the craziness together. It feels like it’s either that or lay down and die. I want the former. How about you? I’d like to invite you not just to join me in this portal, but to invite others as well.

Lots more to come from life, from love, from this crazy ride. Let’s plan accordingly.

Raphael

(Photo taken by Tosi Philippe on April 22, 2022 )

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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Solar Flare Ascension Energy Update & Video | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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By Jelelle Awen

“In the last 24 hours alone, the sun has produced more than 19 solar flares. The tally includes five M-class explosions and a powerful X2.2-class flare. The fusillade is likely to continue as colossal sunspot complex AR2993-94 turns toward Earth in the days ahead,” according to spaceweather.com.

19 flares in the last day, including the most powerful type of X class……..and more are expected from this very active sunspot region, including CMEs triggering auroras! There is a definite acceleration now in the sun’s activity since the Equinox and as we move into a more active solar cycle.

This morning, Raphael and I were talking together about the many ancient prophecies about solar flares leading to mass transition/death of the old and change for Humanity as we move out of the Kali Yuga phase (dark ages since Atlantis fell along with humanity’s consciousness into 3D.) It does feel as if the sun’s transmissions as downloaded from the Great Cosmic sun directly support our awakening, even as the magnetics and photonic light can impact our auric/soul/physical/emotional/bodies in sometimes intense ways.

In this video recorded live on April 20th on FB, we share about the recent increase in solar flares, how they connect to the bigger picture of Ascension and how you might be experiencing them. We also talk about how solar flares and solar activity relates to healing the patriarchal wounded masculine control matrix through transmission of sacred masculine potency combined with care.

We share ways that you can bring these sun codes into your field consciously negiotated with parts of you (including your soul guardian aspect that we call the Gatekeeper) that allows for more upgrades and less negative/challenging impact. And we will offer our bigger picture sense of Divine trust and surrender around these solar activations.

The sun is helping humanity to awaken and rise!!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Image is of the X2 flare as it burst out of the sun (lower right corner)

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The True Purpose Of The Crucifixion To Plant Seeds Of Humanity’s Ascension: Message From Yeshua

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By Jelelle Awen

As so many souls worship during this day of Good Friday with fasting and prayer, I was not surprised to be brought during meditation into the etheric space today that ‘holds’ the crucifixion of Yeshua. It felt like this was in order to see, feel, and offer a channel to the higher consciousness reality going on during it.

It can be important to feel the distortion of what was actually going on this day and the subsequent hijacking of it by the Matrix to feed a control, suffering, and self sacrificial programming/messaging…especially if you have previously had a connection to Christianity.

I felt Yeshua’s beautiful heart today offer this message for those needing to receive it:

“On this day in my physical lifetime, my soul family and I undertook a powerful light working. This light working was to plant the seeds of Ascension that are now blooming in YOUR lifetime. We were guided to do this by the Divine. Indeed, born to do this as our purpose here in physical bodies on the Earth Plane.

This was not a crucifixion. I was not a victim. I was not betrayed. I did not suffer for the sins of all. I did not get ‘caught’ or ‘trapped’. I did not sacrifice my body for all of humanity. And, most importantly, I did not die on that day.

For those with the heart to FEEL the truth in those moments, they would feel that my heart was wide open. They would feel the choice that I made to leave one form of my physical body in order to ascend into my light body, yet still remaining on the Earth Plane for many years after. They would feel the grief and sadness within me was a necessary one to hold space for humanity’s ongoing dark night. Yet, also they would feel the hope in my heart for humanity, along with forgiveness and compassion that our Divine Mother flowed through me to ALL of those in my auric field, even those who did bodily harm to me.

For those with eyes to see the truth, they would see how I was hugely supported by the Divine and my beloved soul family by powerful waves of healing energies and photonic light. They would see that my beloved twin flame Mary Magdalene was heart and chakra cord connected to me the entire time, offering me some of her life force and vitality….as were the other blessed sacred feminine Magdalenes with her. They would see how my Higher Self remained unharmed and embraced my physical body in an energetic buffer the entire time.

My resurrection was inevitable, as I didn’t really die yet rather went into a deep out of body state until I could return in a less dense state to the Earth Plane. My resurrection out of perceived death and suffering and into a much lighter form IS my deeper message to you.

My message is to trust BOTH the deaths and the rebirths within your life and in your experience. To feel BOTH as sacred and the purification process that results as you arise from the ashes of your previous versions into the new.

The invitation today is to feel your experience of crucifixion within your own life and to let forgiveness fill your heart toward those who seemed to do you harm. To recognize the soul agreements that you made together for which they are offering a sacred ground of healing for you.

Surrendering ALL outcomes to the Divine and following guidance can lead to temporary pain, yet also offers a resolution of that pain as you ascend beyond it.

My consciousness is available to you on this day and ALL days in whatever ways you need. And, most importantly, as it dwells within you AS your embodiment of Christ Consciousness.

I love you,

Yeshua with Jelelle Awen

Raphael and I offered teachings and more channelings related to the death/rebirth cycles offered during this Easter Passage through a recording of our livestream yesterday on my FB feed and here on our you tube channel:

This channeling today was inspired by the touching and VERY powerful account of the crucifixion in the book Anna, Grandmother of Jesus by Claire Heartsong….highly recommend it!

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