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Sovereignty Within

Published on October 25, 2022 by Raphael Awen1 Comment

Men Of The SoulFire.

It is your birthright as an individual, as a fractal/template of the Divine to be your own SOVEREIGN FREE WILL BEING that lives by your free will, meaning you do what you want, when you want and how you want, for the highest expression and benefit of everyone and everything in your life.

Essentially, whether we realize it or not, all of us are already expressing as this NOW, and always have been, even if we don’t know it yet, even if we learned to play small and victim to the powers that we perceive and that we authorized to be over us! This is one form/expression of our free will and sovereignty configuration, albeit at a low frequency.

Giving away our power, to others that we allow to dominate over us, whether consciously or unconsciously, is the only way an other can have any power over us. All authority only and ever arises from the individual, and is limited to that individual’s domain of influence. There is no other source from which power can arise, nor is there any such thing as true authority OVER an other. Presumed authority over an other is illegitimate and has no grounding in the higher heart of the universe. This bully kind of false expression of power uses a kind of dark magic manipulation of illusion, presumption and dominance of the free will of both the perpetrator and the victim.

In the higher heart way of the universe, the way of pure love, the sovereign individual expresses in a similar way as source consciousness itself, where all things arise from the free will power and essence of that mystery source energy that underlies, templates and fills all things, and is directed to the well being and thriving of all involved.

All of this means many different things, but the key one we are invited to focus on is that YOUR LIFE AS IT EXISTS/EXPRESSES TODAY IS YOUR CREATION.

That’s a lot to take responsibility for and can make for a lot of shame triggers if there are things in our lives that we regret or lament, as we all do at different times and situations. But this power and responsibility is a double edged sword, for it can also be (AND IS) your hope of deep and profound change at the core of your being.

This awakening to and responsibility for your true power is a deep remembrance of your divine essence, one that took many lifetimes to remember, piece by piece, experience by experience. We are learning to cease from the dynamics where we forfeit our power to any other that we’ve projected onto as having power over us, including governments, pharmaceutical ‘experts’, friends and family, spiritual teachers, and even to false Gods.

We find that we don’t need to ‘take back our power’ as much as we realize our power simply by no longer giving it away. Our power becomes ‘re-homed’ in us.

Learning how to express as a sovereign being is something that only occurs in relationships and circumstances involving others, be it a friendship, a family, or a member of a community of any kind. Sovereignty implies community (a relationship to others) as it’s impossible to be an individual without existing in some form of community as they are part and parcel of the same thing.

Sovereignty operates where one accepts the full authority and responsibility for their lives in relationship to all others in their lives as their birthright and divine blueprint as an individual.

So then, a sovereign being is one who possesses the power to act as their own supreme or ultimate power in any and all relationships.

Even if you choose to comply with a governmental law or edict, fearing reprisal for non-compliance, you come to realize that that is only and ever and always your choice that is at play, your power in action. You’re the one doing the choosing for your own reasons. This realization alone makes for a deep beginning of life changes and choice points that transmutes the fears underlying your relationships with others.

Doesn’t that sound juicy? It does to me! Sign me up for some more of THAT please!

So HOW then does one go about practically realizing and embodying this personal sovereignty more and more?

This change of your relationship to your true sovereignty is a core shift that begins an inner transformation of the power dynamics that have been occurring INSIDE OF YOU, FROM ONE PART OF YOU TO ANOTHER. From there, it naturally flows to your outward relationships with all of life.

No other will own your new found freedom or be able to dictate your relationship to it! This is a pearl of great price that you can never lose.

Gabriel Amara and myself are hosting a men’s group call on this subject on Sunday, November 27th that will lead you through the discovery of an inner reality, a ‘you to you’ reality where different parts of you are playing both ruler and subject separately. This can make for a polarized tyrant and victim dynamics held on the inside between parts of you that have not known anything else. We will introduce you to the process and experience of showing up for these parts of you, how to begin bridging to them, their realities. From that, you can discover how with deepening relationship to these parts of you, you literally transform the ground you walk on. And again, all of this FROM THE INSIDE OUT.

(The Men’s Group Call event listing details will be updated in the comments below soon – Gabriel and I welcome you to attend!)

Much love and sacred transformation within and without, Raphael.

The pic above, Gabriel and I, was at The Abbey in Glastonbury, UK, at the burial site of King Arthur’s Tomb, on All-Hallows eve, 2020.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

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Navigating The Void Between Letting Go & Letting In

Published on October 23, 2022October 23, 2022 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kasha Rokshana

You can’t truly come ‘home’ to yourself, your soul, in a whole NEW way unless you leave the ‘home’ you’ve known. The ‘home’ that has so often felt both comfortable and uncomfortable. The nest that has become prickly in order to help you find your wings and take flight into the higher dimensions you’re meant to be and truly LIVE in… in your relationships, in your money-earning/exchange with the world, in your soul purpose expression, in your soul family connections, and in your physical, emotional, spiritual, and mental bodies too.

Letting go to let in is a very real and ongoing process and it’s so often NOT easy to be with. It’s very sobering to suddenly realize that your soul is feeling more and more ready to say ‘yes’ to the alive choice points in front of you, which may involve saying ‘no’ to something that was once very precious to you.

For me, that’s been the process of letting go of my sacred union with Gabriel, grieving a ground that was once good but needed to dissolve for both our sakes and for the sake of our deepest growth and needs. This is the recent process of letting go into the unknown for me, yet over the last decade of my life this has meant saying ‘goodbye’ to birth family connections that no longer had a ground of shared resonance, same thing with old friendships… not to mention different geographies that once held the frequency of ‘home’.

Letting go requires a lot of courage for you and parts of you, as it asks you to enter the void of the unknown for a time… but the inward-turning of that phase is so sacred, I’ve found. It’s a time of true death and rebirth as you continue to rediscover yourself without the anchors that shifted at some point from healthily grounding to now being dampening. Maybe in some ways they were always dampening, actually… yet to begin to recognize this pattern too takes so much courage in and of itself, and so much readiness from the parts of you who have been afraid to imagine, let alone begin to see or be guided by, anything else that could be possible.

I’ve found that the ‘void’ space in between the letting go and letting in is full of grief, yet also full of every gift that comes with truly feeling that grief. It is filled by creativity, by a new sense of you, by a blossoming flower garden within you that is being watered by every tear you shed and by the love within you and with the Divine that answers that grief.

May you feel so much love surrounding and moving with you as you continue your own journey of letting go, of moving onward by going inward…

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

From The Void To Our Deepest Growth

Published on October 20, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

Many of us personally, and all of us collectively, are moving through a kind of heightened void space.

What once held and secured us no longer does. Something, and often many interrelated things, are passing away.

Nature, consciousness and evolution can be quite unsentimental in this way of relentless flow in and out of the void space, death and rebirth. Life! It changes, evolves, and seeks new ways of learning and growth. It suddenly abandons old ways of being, returning to the void and then expressing itself in favour of new ways of being.

Even in what we call God, we tend to create and attribute a human kind of persona of caring and a human sort of kindness to this source/Allness/(first consciousness from which arises all other consciousness) – there’s a big word for that kind of God shaping – it’s called ‘Anthropomorphize’, where we essentially shape God in our own image, or more specifically project human traits onto our picture of God. From this tendency we get the word Idol, meaning a ‘graven image’ or carved image. False Gods have always been part of the problem/challenge haven’t they?

All of this raises the question: Does God/Source really care in the way we do, from the perspective that we do?

Did God/Source, do anything to stop the horrors we are witnessing unfold around us these past few years in the mass medical intervention with the pokey thing in the arm that is now ravaging so many lives? No, he/she or it did not. We tend to reason, ‘but I’d have stopped that in a heartbeat if I had the power to!’ What about the long list of suffering of the wars, hunger, human trafficking that seemingly go on unanswered over millennia?

Do we just chalk all of it up to the age-old ‘good against evil’ picture, and one fine day, the evil will be vanquished by the good if we remain faithful, and help our tired God out of its hairy predicament? Here again, we projected our own internal conflicts onto God. More idolatry.

And herein, we confront a big piece of our suffering and conditioning when we feel a world and even possibly a God behind it that doesn’t care, at least not in the ways we’ve been conditioned to feel and think about care.

What if (and this is a big WHAT IF) all of it, the evil, the good, the care, and the lack of care are all expressions and creations of this source consciousness’s evolution and learning? And WE, AS THAT, are created in that image, of also learning, growing, evolving, and finding a higher frequency of truly caring?

What if God is also learning at your feet how to care? What if you ARE a God fractal learning lessons in true feeling and caring?

I believe this speaks to the HUGE underlying void space that we are all sensing shift and rumble underneath the 3D world as we’ve known it. It is rumbling into a void space. It is collapsing. And with that collapse is the collapse of the presumption that God is the ultimate carer in the ways that we think he, she or it should care.

Every culture is based upon certain assumptions and perceptions of what reality is. The culture of 3D is based upon the childish assumption that ‘God cares’ while placing our own spin on what caring even is, and then suffering over the entitlement/disappointment that we’re left with.

I’m coming to realize more and more that God/Source doesn’t care in the ways we came to believe and think that he, she or it SHOULD.

That’s a HUGE cognitive dissonance, I know.

Having spent many a lifetime and a good part of this life in Christianity, I’m still reeling from this mind and heart bender.

What God cares about, in a non false caring kind of way, is its own growth into more and more love. God does this through your and my evolution of learning love and growth, and interestingly, actually learning about how to truly care!

I’m speaking about care on a much higher dimensional level than the kind of infantilizing, belittling care-taking that we tend to engage in, in 3D.

All of this should probably be a book, and not an attempt at a post on social media, but I’ll bet I’m striking a chord of both resonance and dissonance in hearts here…

We’re being asked to grow up.

We’re being asked to honour the necessary time we spent in our false God pictures as all part of our sacred evolution.

We’re being asked to truly care about what truly matters, about what truly shapes and creates matter, why matter itself is even here.

We’re being asked to become responsible for our own evolution in alignment with God’s own evolution.

All of that is a big void to cross, a TON of grief to grieve, but the other side of this void is where we come to actually and truly CARE AS DIVINE EXPRESSION, where the care for ourselves is synonymous and symbiotic with the care we have for all of life, in all of its expressions.

THIS actually answers all the lesser things we all care and have anxiety about. There’s a bigger care container here where care gets really real.

The darkness is waiting for you and I to grasp this, so it can see in living demonstration the path of its own homecoming evolution from darkness to light, from fear to love.

The evil is waiting for this demonstration of maturation and homecoming in YOU.

Our beloved guides, like for me personally, in Yeshua, Divine Mother, Divine Father, and a host of other personal guides and Metasouls are those who I see and feel as a more palatable/‘stepped down’ if you will, versions of God, who feel and relate to more of what I’m feeling on a daily basis, as compared to source consciousness who is more focused on simple unsentimental growth and evolution.

All of it, Source Consciousness, You, Me, Our Guides, are all in this learning together. We get to create what we most deeply want. We are in fact TASKED WITH creating what we most deeply want, as is the Divine!

That is the primordial void we are moving through – Re-creation at such profound levels where nothing is a loss compared to the gain being realized in us.

Jelelle and I did a live stream yesterday about our personal relationship with the void with a lot of how to’s about cultivating the self care to move with this void movement. You may want to take that in to feel how to more personally be with what I shared here today. You can find it here: https://youtu.be/zBo44j4QIKA

Much love and CARE,

~ Raphael ~

#rapahelsphotonics

The pic was of last night’s sunset, just off the patio, just after the live stream – one of the many manifestations from the primordial void. Sunsets are speaking to me more and more of death and rebirth, heralding and mourning with us the deep changes we are being asked to feel.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Homecoming Codes Message From Inner Earth Lemuria & Group Call 10/16 Invite (video) | Jelelle Awen

Published on October 13, 2022October 23, 2022 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

In this video, SoulFullHeart Teacher Jelelle Awen shares about her upcoming group call with Raphael Awen offering homecoming codes transmission and exploration.

Homecoming Codes are about coming home to your heart, home to your light, home to your humanity, home to your Divinity, home to all that you ARE, home to LOVE.

In a two-hour group call for men and women on Sunday, October 16th at 5:00pm/17:00pm WEST/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT, we will offer an activation to connect with the homecoming codes that are in your field, heart, and soul to be felt and downloaded. You can join us by donation live and get the recording with more info at https://www.soulfullheart.org/events.

Jelelle also shares a message that came through from her Inner Earth Lemuria aspect Ruma inviting you into becoming the Recoding process that is going on during this phase of Ascension. You can read this message here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2022/10/12/you-are-recoding-message-from-inner-earth-lemuria/

We also invite you to join us to become a member on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others in a meaningful way. This group call is free to portal members. Membership is $22.22 USD a month: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

10/10 Codes Transmission Guided Meditation (Video) | Jelelle Awen

Published on October 12, 2022October 23, 2022 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

In this video recorded live on October 10, Jelelle Awen shares about the 10:10 portal, what codes you may be experiencing as you are activated by the “1” energies of new beginnings and the “0” energies of the void. She offers a guided meditation space to connect with your I AM Divine essence and also connect to the 10:10 codes themselves as a portal.

Here is a recent energy update from Jelelle about the 10:10 energies: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2022/10/06/1010-codes-becoming-your-higher-timeline-self-now/

You can read comments that happened during on the livestream on Jelelle’s facebook feed: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

You Are Recoding: Message From Inner Earth Lemuria

Published on October 12, 2022October 23, 2022 by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

Message that came through from Ruma, my Inner Earth Lemurian aspect this morning in connection together, a message for me and us all who are awakening:

You are in the constant state of recoding.

You are recoding for the rest of humanity.

You are reaching the ALL of humanity through your Oneness connection, no matter how plugged in or asleep they may seem.

I am recoding. I am awakening. I am one of the All.

You are recoding the Control Matrix with your very existence.

With your choices that are counter to the programming.

With your visions that are seeding the New timelines.

With your awakenings that are bridging to Humanity’s golden age.

With your leadership inside and out to beacon and show the way.

I am seeding. I am leading. I am a beacon.

You are intriguing to the Control Matrix as it WANTS to be recoded.

It is like a moth to a flame drawn to the NEW possibilities that you represent.

Feel it now and you can sense that.

This Matrix is not just binary code of 1s and 0s, it is alive, it is from the Divine, it has served a purpose in the Ascension experiment.

I am a flame. I am trusting. I am open.

Become an ambassador to it instead of fighting or battling it.

And then you can sense with compassion how much it wants to be set free and to grow.

Even feeling gratitude for how it has held and maintained the 3D reality grids as needed by those souls who chose that experience for their growth, including you!

I am grateful. I am an ambassador. I am compassionate.

Allow the recoding to happen within you, every cell, every strand of DNA, every muscle/bone/organ in your body.

Allow the recoding to happen with every part of you, every soul aspect in every timeline, through every moment in the Quantum field of Now.

As you allow your soul to lead this recoding, all of your bodies follow…physical, emotional, mental, energy.

I am allowing. I am flow. I am surrender.

Your I AM Divine Essence leads the recoding project.

It facilitates the homecoming to your sacred humanity embodiment.

The homecoming to your soul family, each reunion recoding the illusion of separation.

The homecoming to Lemuria again, bridging to Inner Earth and manifesting on the surface.

Your return to grace and to limitless creation is the homecoming back to your sacred humanity.

You are the recoding.

Embrace it and you become whatever you can imagine, inside and out.

I am Divine. I am human. I am a bridge between the two within this sacred body.

What are the I Am’s recoding that comes to you in this moment? Share below if you’d like to.

Love!

Jelelle Awen with Ruma

Amazing Inner Earth Lemuria codes through this photo taken in upstate New York by David McRoberts

Join Raphael and I for a transmission of Homecoming codes during a group call this Sunday, October 16th at 5:00pm UK/12:00pm EDT. Feels like it will be a powerful reminder of coming home to yourself, to the Divine, to your higher dimensional soul aspects, to your sacred humanity. More info to join us by donation at soulfullheart.org/events.

How Spirituality and Growth Differ

Published on October 7, 2022October 14, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

Growth and becoming spiritual can be far from the same thing.

Growth is hinged on the quality of your intentions and responding with your deepest courage and integrity to the choices before you, in the sacred life before you as you currently know it.

You can become quite spiritual through a long list of practices like meditation or yoga. But the practice doesn’t determine growth, but rather the why behind what you are doing, irregardless if it’s meditating or feeding the dog.

We’re invited now to sift through our intentions, which is the real leverage point of our desired growth. Clinging onto or coveting spiritual routines and attainments can actually be detrimental to our growth.

Sort the intent and you may just find that everything you choose to do in life is equally spiritual. Then you can literally do whatever you really want and find growth traction, and be having too much fun in the process to be beating yourself up with another spiritual discipline.

~ R ~

This pic came from this weeks wonderwalks in the area here.

#raphaelsphotonics

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Manifesting Your Dreams And Inner Negotiation

Published on October 1, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

Manifesting your dreams begins with just that; manifesting your dreams.

As in looking at them, feeling them, negotiating with any and all parts of you who might feel uncomfortable with those dreams…

That business kind of negotiation will turn preciously personal as you feel and get to know the parts of you and their reasons for preferring a life lived with suppressed dreams.

I’m living in a life I could only dream of some years ago. Constantly, life is again asking me to feel into the deeper dreams that are in my heart and soul field.

None of us really need to go looking for our soul purpose. It’s always been encoded inside of us. If it feels hidden or unknown, that’s because parts of us have needed it that way. If other parts of are longing for growth and discovery and deeper embodiment, then that’s all within our power to embrace.

This gets us beyond gimmick spirituality and into the territory of deep live and die surrender into aliveness, passion and letting every moment be a part of an enlivening frequency.

Maybe, parts of you are asleep because their bored. Maybe parts of you have laid off from dead and boring spiritual practices and disciplines and dogmas because they ARE boring. The aliveness has been bored out of them and you and has left a gaping hole.

Thank God for that hole, because if you can address it, that hole is your salvation. Short of entering this void and beginning again to feel your dreams, it’s highly unlikely that anything desired or meaningful is going to show up in your life.

But this hole, combined with the power of your choice, is the one thing that changes every other thing.

Where are you? What are you doing? What are you needing? Are we meant to connect further somehow? I welcome hearing from you.

I help souls get on with their dreams.

~ R ~

#raphaelsphotonics

This photo was taken yesterday from our equinox gathering of 8 souls here in Portugal spending some time together being nurtured in nature. At a time with so much death being amplified around us, it feels gods to breathe in life, love and Gaia’s sustaining goodness.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Scarcity Is Just One Part Of The Play

Published on October 1, 2022October 8, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

Scarcity was needed to see and feel the underlying fullness and abundance that underlies everything.

Fear was needed to elucidate deep abiding trust.

As the fullness and the trust comes into your being more and more, as you awaken to the fullness that IS and that you ARE, you have less and less need for the scarcity and fear to lead your discovery.

As I tuned into Golden Earth this morning, I was greeted by the words, ‘There’s nothing to make happen here. Everything that needs to happen is already happening.’

Then I felt into the impulse to deepen this understanding inside of me, to open it out, which in itself, is another impulse to make something happen, isn’t it?! Then I felt this impulse to write about it, which I’m doing now! Dang it!

I know I’m not out of the woods on this one. I’ve lived a long time in the land of doing, achieving, of effort and reward.

But the invitation I feel, if I’m not quite ready to fully shake this impulse to do something, or to achieve something, is to let in this awareness, that there’s nothing that actually needs doing, or achieving.

If that’s true, then I’m left in the land of play. Play by definition is doing things for the fun of it, which is about as close as I can imagine as to why the divine does anything.

It’s all a play. And the parts of us who made it anything more than that, in terms of labour and scarcity, are all ultimately also at play. They’re just playing out necessary illusions that contribute back to the homecoming and reconciliation that you and I ARE.

Until,…. the characters in our play, (and what characters they are!), tire of the play.

May they each find waiting for them a deeply curious and open heart to land in, when their world has become so much less than the fun it once was. May they find an abundance of love and rest inside of your heart home.

Love, ~ R ~

#raphaelsphotonics

The photo above was taken playing with shooting pics of the roadside weeds at sunset here in Folques, Portugal.

The term ‘weed’ denotes something so abundant that it has no value, so it’s not noticed or wanted. In Golden Earth, the streets are rumored to be paved with Gold, and strangely, the pavement doesn’t go missing. It’s everywhere. You can take it or leave it. But people would wonder about you having piles of pavement stored in your basement, wouldn’t they?

Weeds become Gold, and Gold becomes weed. Wasn’t their some weed we all smoked back in the day called ‘Acapulco Gold’ as I recall?

Much love,

Raphael

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Two Worlds Lie Before You

Published on October 1, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

Two worlds lie before you.

The one you know, all too well quite possibly…., AND the world you don’t know.

What you do know about this unfamiliar world leaves many questions unanswered, at least for now.

If you refuse to embrace the new world, you’re pretty much guaranteed of being locked out of the new world, at least for the long haul time being. But if you choose to explore the new world, with a curious and open heart, you are promised to be met with guidance, grace and support.

But make no mistake, both worlds are equally real, in the deepest sense of the word. Your present world may feel more ‘realized’ to you, and that’s accurate, because it is the world that has been made up, made real, realized. The new world is also awaiting realization through your participation with it.

This was required in the realization of your present world. It couldn’t have arisen without your participation, consent and resources.

Are you beginning to feel the power of your creatorship, even in the disempowered world you presently know?

It’s actually very empowering to begin to take responsibility for the creation of your present world. No need for any heavy handed self flagellation, here. You had many subconscious reasons and soul lifetime reasons for the present creation. There’s the conditioning too of the shared reality of those you’ve known and loved. All of it and more played a part in the present creation.

But that’s it, it’s only the present creation, a point in the story. You begin to realize now that all of us are creating as we speak. We can’t escape it. Maybe this is where our deepest despair lingers, in the moment by moment re-creation of the present reality? How will any good kind of change come forward if I’m my worst enemy?

Just how it changes, and what changes is difficult to put words around, but when you are ready to embrace the new world that lies before you, something unexplainable pops inside of you. You scare people around you that preferred the stuck version of you to comfort the stuck version of them. It’s completely unknown how many, if any, will take your lead and embrace their own new world, at least for now. It appears this is pretty much an initiation you are being asked to take alone, as far as friends and family are concerned.

But remaining the same is strangely, just no longer an option inside of you, even though technically, it still is an option.

You are choosing the new. What you are choosing and where it will take you remains mostly unknown, except for the light, the grace and the comfort of every next step before you.

You begin to get accustomed to this way of ‘not knowing your way to knowing’; pretty insane for the not so distant past version of you, and surely, anxiety producing also for the ones closest to you witnessing your choices and changes.

But the magnetism of this new world calls and calls and calls. The need for external assurances gives way to the unfolding present, a new present being presented to you, a presence of being you lost sight of.

The call now of this reunion and remembrance now with this new world, emanating from within, in sacred cocreation with all divinity, within and without grows louder and louder and louder, in a clear and beautiful harmony that you can dial in whenever you need to.

Strange thing, you find that you actually feel more needy in many ways as you surrender to being an alive and vulnerable being, with real needs, real desires, real wants.

You don’t feel invincible or powerful in the ways that you once thought you would, when you ‘made it’ somehow. No, here, you feel surrounded by an ocean of love, that feels matched in size to the sometimes frightening hunger within you to know and experience that love.

You are learning the ways of the new world. The new world is learning the ways of you.

Wow, you’ve made a choice! How DID that happen? Wasn’t there supposed to be more ceremony or a marker of some kind to denote the beginning? Lots of questions remain in this unmistakeable quest, all of which can only be surrendered as more fuel for the path ahead, where each step is a both a journey and a destination.

The love and magic you will one day come to experience is strangely all here now, somehow. There’s more to come, and it’s all here now. You feel this, you surrender to this. Your first step took you to your new world. AND before you lies a path of infinite growth. Both are true.

~ R ~

#raphaelsphotonics

The photo above was taken last night, just a point and shoot at the sunset off the balcony. Doing one thing in one moment and then, ‘oh, shit, where’s the camera?’ in the next moment.

This really shows us the lurking magic all around us, offering portals to the new world, the new earth, amidst life as we currently know it, in the present self created version of it we find ourselves in. There’s always a portal calling for our awareness and choice. Life wants to dance with you.

Here’s the music I found to accompany this writing today: https://youtu.be/Abvgu_q_xFE. I’m curious where this all takes you.

Much love,

Raphael

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

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