Maybe it’s readiness That draws the curtains on our fate. And maybe readiness has never been about anything missing, wrong, or unmastered.
Maybe readiness has always been about Now letting in All the love there always is to receive, being willing to go in and feel Where, how, why Certain pockets of our being, Certain parts within our heart, Certain aspects of our vast soul Put aside love as any possible answer To any pain, ache, or desire.
Maybe… Maybe it’s the vulnerability Of humbly feeling unready That brings in the openings we crave and cave into? Perhaps it’s mostly in our humility, Our willingness to start all over again, Our ability to feel it all, Where we feel our Divine calling to love And be love To experience deep and soulful romantic love To draw to us our fated encounters, Our synchronized alignments, And our most beloved unfolding Into everything we are And are now ready to claim …And be claimed by.
The Divine, the Great Love that holds us steady through the tumult. The energy inspiring our growing centres, Encouraging, always, our deepening trust in all there is to endure, Brings us homeward to ourselves In ever-unexpected ways Through waves of grief, fear, longing, And yes, Grace too.
We are everything Rather than nothing. We are aliveness So much more so than deadness. We are alchemy brewing and moving Even in our toughest, tightest, flattest, and most uncertain phases.
We are readying, steadying, Living into The greatest fates we could imagine With every shake and quake of our hearts And awakening of our souls Into a new reality Blossoming from the depths And caverns And crevices Inside the inside of everything we are Everything we ever were And everything we are yet to embrace In our ready, open, aligned Becoming.
Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.
As we continue to move through this Samhain season, we feel the veils thinning and lifting on our worlds both inner and outer, revealing needs parts of us have buried and longing that lives in our souls, especially for reunion… for the experience of Sacred Union within and with a beloved, for the experience of no more separation from the Divine, and for the experience of finally landing with Soul Family – beings who will transact deep love and nourishment with us and share in our penchant for growth too.
We are seeds that were scattered and sown; leaves blown off the branches of the sacred Soul Family tree.
It was a deep and brave soul choice to come here, to experience being scattered, to let go as we let in, to let it be when we don’t come together as deep and resonant Soul Family just yet, yet to be in the alchemical ache of that experience too. To learn to say ‘no’ to what has caused suffering in our relationships rather than the growth and nourishment we need is an expression of this ache and can create a void experience as we let go to truly let in what we want.
There’s an empowerment that’s seeded in all of us to return ever-deeper to ourselves but also to each other in new ways.
For now, parts of you may still be feeling scattered, tattered, torn… weather-worn from experiences and changing inner seasons as you move through the difficulties. This is meant to be a temporary yet necessary experience, as you find that sense of reunion first inside, then outside, with your own soul, heart, parts, and the Divine as the number one priority.
This is the power and depth of inner work, why it’s important. It’s a reunion inside so we can experience it on the outside and be ready to let it in.
Healing of separation is not only coming, but already here.
We have only to keep saying ‘yes’ to the journey, to keep moving into it rather than letting the fears lead that would rather we move out of it’ll try to numb out the deep and necessary ache.
There is a beautiful being, Raianna, who herself is rejoining us as Soul Family here in Portugal soon! And we also have this blessed experience with another Soul Family member, Bianca, who has been here with us for several months now and keeps on deepening her own process of letting in reunion inside and out. This experience of being with these beloveds, my Sacred Union beloved Gabriel, and Jelelle and Raphael, is a growthful challenge and a deep blessing.
I know more reunions for ourselves and others are inevitable… and it can’t be denied how much work it is to actually keep letting it all in and showing up for it, let alone to draw the experience of reunion in the first place.
Blessed Samhain season to you and your own revealing soul aches and desires being revealed through the thin veils. ♥️
Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.
Awakening experiences can bring you to the highest highs and the lowest lows. They offer openings and expansion of your consciousness and awareness of the world and the multi-verse. Yet, even with these beautiful and fascinating experiences, your humanity and grounding in your life needs to catch up and somehow become integrated with what you’re downloading.
In this video with me, you are invited to feel into the ways in which you can integrate your awakening experiences with your life in order to actually bring in more awakenings and a new experience of what’s possible in your daily life on Gaia.
I also share about my personal process with growing, healing, and integrating through my awakening experiences from an early age and what life has taught me about moving through life with your awakening experiences in tow… not put away or compartmentalized.
For many, 2018 was a ‘year’ of mining. Many discoveries and memories have surfaced, especially those kept in the shadow and buried deep. Life and incoming energy waves have helped it all press up to the surface to actually be felt, help you learn ways to be with it, to honour and love it UP. This process continues, because to put it simply, it’s time to love your pain as much as you love your genuine joy and growing sense of wholeness.
Loving the pain and aches that surface as reactions, anxiety, sadness, etc means moving through it not just getting above it as parts of you are used to having to do in order to keep the peace in current relationships or to keep life on an even keel. It’s becoming harder to do this as your inner realities continue to be shaken up and brought to your attention. All gateways and portals this year have had different pieces to illuminate inside of you, showing you where you’re really at so you can grow and move from there, love yourself there, and eventually learn how to flow with ALL of you, including whatever has been held by the shadow, from there, that starting point.
There are so many parts of you that have wanted your attention but haven’t had a way to directly ask for it until the life circumstances are ripe and your heart is ready to feel them. This means sometimes that the pain you thought you had already healed has revealed a new layer and pain you thought was long-buried is now ready to surface. This can be messy but a sacred process nonetheless and you can trust that it’s surfacing because you’re now ready to hold it and actually move through and heal it, as challenging as this can be… the tears and wails are worth it, and the realness and poignancy it brings to each moment of your life is what brings in more love and more sense of being held and loved by a universe that benevolently wants you to heal, grow, and ascend.
In addition to parts surfacing in different ways, there have been many Metasoul/other timeline/lifetime bleed-throughs that have overlaid your consciousness and brought out other shadow pieces from your soul to be felt too. This has also brought in higher vibe energies too to help guide and template for you what your 5D/Higher Self energizes in your life and soul purpose. This year has been cataclysmic for some and also given many openings. Pain is an opening as much as discovering your truest sense of joy and bliss is.
In 2019, I feel we will all continue to be challenged to deepen our experience of ourselves, to love ourselves much deeper on a soul and heart level. It’s all there to move us to new places and integrate into our 5D/Higher Self. This is how we learn to love each other deeper with mutual reverence and respect, by experiencing this between parts of you first. This is what gives us the chance to overcome and heal the harm that has been done by insisting on fighting, over-lording, overpowering, even with ‘love and light’ as a ‘weapon’. 2019 asks us to keep going inward and find the parts that cannot or will not love or serve love, that have resistance to offering love, likely because they themselves need more love from you and to feel you moving into your highest timeline step by step before they can trust and lean into you. Love is the way. Love is the path. And the path has to start within in order to bring our beloved vision of New Earth into the Now.
At midnight tonight the ‘new year’ officially ‘begins’. The gateway into this new energy we’re calling ‘2019’ and the energies of the gifts and growth it wants to bring each of us is available to let in now as we set our sail and follow our hearts into the new Now that is so beyond just being a dream and wants to become more and more of our everyday reality!
It continues to get harder and harder to compartmentalize, to hide, to avoid feeling all there is to feel. The parts of you that have worked so hard to keep certain things hidden, maybe especially your spirituality and consciousness, your real desires for your life, heart and soul too… these parts are finding that they’re getting tired and it’s just plain getting harder to stay closeted and under wraps. To avoid the necessary messes is becoming nearly impossible anymore as your soul makes choices for your growth and its deeper healing and openings that it can’t be steered away from any longer.
You may find yourself in conflicts that parts of you are feeling stumped by, wondering how they could have gotten here when they’ve worked so hard to keep your truth and perhaps the truths of others too in a sort of holding pattern.
This, it feels like, is the root of bigger Disclosure events and what Ascension constantly invites us into. Disclosure within and in all relationships you have is a process and one that has been ongoing for a while now too. It feels like this is ramping up more now too, where parts are even becoming a bit lax about hiding anything, feeling exhausted by how hard they’ve worked to maintain these veils for so long…
There’s so much that surfaces now, especially perhaps the harder more intense and dark feelings, not to be tortured by (though parts of you may feel it this way) but to be brought into your heart and held, finally, so the real vulnerability of the real fears and places of inner suffering can be transmuted with love.
It’s a process of one part or Metasoul Aspect at a time… to feel every nuance, every piece that is emerging and not just ‘release’ it, but to have a relationship with it that is built and held by love and can therefore be transmuted into more love within you.
It’s a process I have loved and fallen in love with over and over again… and it invites you to fall in love with you, with everything you’ve thought was only dark or dreary too, to claim every gift of who you are in this moment now, and every gift of who you are that you aren’t even aware of yet…
If what has been hidden remains hidden, the treasure deep within the dark caves and caverns would never be discovered… and the process of your healing and Ascension will have trouble finding it’s places of deepening, its ways to move beyond all suffering no matter how buried, and its way into a true experience of 5D and beyond.
To support you on your journey and to help you feel the parts of you that are hurting over the circumstances they may be moving through with you, you can check out our Bridging Sessions offering which is very affordable and powerful too: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session I have slots available next week for young women under 35 and would love to serve you!
Much love to you! ❤
Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
The life we want, as well as the life we don’t want are the whole point of being here, coming here, having consciousness here.
We actually have the ability to tune out this dimension and completely bypass it altogether, but we chose to forget that, so that we would have the feeling of being stuck here.
Faced with this challenge, we are invited to not only remember our bigness and inhabit it by way of remembrance, but also to even grow beyond the original bigness that we dimmed the lights on to discover something unimaginably more.
We needed to forget, in order to remember, in order to become something more. That more is imagined into being by making it ‘literal’ – in the beginning was the waveform of life energy called, ‘the word.’
Imagine that – the tongue is this life form creator wafting out life on every turn. We’re learning how powerful it is to create, even if by nothing more than creating more darkness and pain to one day awaken to its power to begin to take full responsibility for our creations, and turn this creative life force to what we most deeply want.
I want life. I want love. I want more than I’ve had the courage to dream up, up till now.
Will you want with me? Will you admit what is and isn’t working for you? In that, we’ll find all of our needs and more being met superabundantly.
I can help you with this identifying what you want process. If you’d genuinely like help, I’d so love to help you. Check into a bridging session at the link below with myself and let the quest begin.
~ Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our sessions for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.
I just read something online that offered, “Ego death is an ongoing battle. A constant war from within that you must be vigilant about.” I feel sadness when I read words such as these and feel the energy where they come from. I feel them coming from a place of, indeed, inner battling. That means there is yet another part inside that will not get the love that they are SO wanting and needing. Instead, they will be labeled by another part (usually what we call the Inner Punisher) as ‘ego’ and they will be battled, punished, judged.
All this battling inside just leads to MORE battling…how could it lead to anything else? To feel something as ‘coming from ego’ is not about the identification of that as much as it is what your relationship is to what you discover. Are you being loving toward the energy that you define as your ego? Are you feeling compassionate toward it? Are you feeling curious about the WHYs of your egos existence? Are you feeling open to FEEL what the deepest pains and hurts of what you are calling your ego have been?
Why would you treat this ‘ego’ inside with any less love than you would energies that you identify as spiritual or higher consciousness or coming from your soul? Wouldn’t this ‘ego’ actually need MORE love in order to heal? In order to let go of fear? In order to BEcome something more Divine in its expression?
To truly awaken into the embodiment of your sacred humanity is to no longer go to battle with any energies inside of yourself from this life and from your Metasoul/other lifetimes as well. This takes process, time, and healing of many layers that WANT to go to battle and just are used to it from inside of you. The inner battlefields and frontlines are the ones that cause the most damage to your worthiness growth, to the expression of your BIGness, to your capacity and ability to serve love and your passion purpose expression.
Appreciating what your ‘ego’ has had to do to survive, to help you survive, is what allows these energies to let go. This is what allows the growing trust in the Divine that allows for surrender, to detach from self image. Any places where you are responding with ‘going to war’ are places inside of you that don’t get to receive your love…and these are usually the parts of you that need it the MOST.
We offer a process for identifying, separating from, and integrating ego or 3D Self parts and energies with LOTS of self love, leading to unification and wholeness. Go to link above to read about our free intro session.
Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!
Each and every time you have an awakening experience, though they are coveted and desired and often long-awaited and worked for, these experiences also carry you into a greater unknown. The whole idea of awakening is to shake something up inside, whether it moves your frequency up or drops back in inward into parts of you that need you more than ever. Sometimes awakening experiences bring us both in tandem. Sometimes we call this, ‘leading edge’ and ‘trailing edge’ in SoulFullHeart. ‘Leading edge’ is the experience of true and pure love awakening and deepening inside and feeling your actions, words, expression of you coming from a higher, less reactive and more expansive place, and ‘trailing edge’ is the opposite, or what can feel like the opposite; the parts of you coming up in reaction to the expansion, trying to close the gap between it and them, sometimes flooding you with their lower frequency wounding and reality. The main bridge between the two is consciousness, awareness that this can and will happen and that your job as an arising authentic self is to be an ambassador between the two, not negating or dismissing one or the other, yet bringing them together somehow and letting the newfound expansiveness inside to become the bigger container for the smallness, the pain, the existential terror.
I remember being quite young and awakening to angelic frequencies and love. My birth mother had given me a gift that Christmas of my first deck of Angel cards. They were simple yet sweet, not created by any well-known author or speaker. I was in my early teens at that time, or just about anyways. I remember playing with them, exploring them, reading the little book they came with. I did as the book instructed and asked a question I believe, or simply asked for guidance. I did a little spread of the cards and picked them up to read the other side. The messages that came through hit a chord of resonance inside my heart and soul, both. I felt a rush of energy move through me and suddenly felt Angels, what I called ‘my’ Angels, surrounding and encouraging me. The love I felt was so exquisite, I believe I even had tears… I remember too, that the book suggested dowsing as another method of reading the cards. I grabbed a necklace of mine with a small ring on it – a ring that had a nickname of mine etched into it and was too small for me to wear, so I had put it on the chain instead. I held it out in front of me, above my palm, to ‘tune it in’, asking it which direction it would turn in to mean ‘yes’ and which way would mean ‘no’. To my surprise, oh my God, it MOVED!! Woah!! The rush of adrenaline and excitement that followed I can’t explain in words, but it felt so powerful and I felt so powerful to be holding this tool in my hand!
After this happened, I ran to tell my mother and sister about what I had experienced. Part of me felt a bit shy about sharing, slightly worried about it being invalidated, but too excited to let that in at the time. I shared with them and my heart sank… there was an ounce of validation from my mother, who was exploring some areas of spirituality outside of the Catholic church I grew up in along with me, yet she couldn’t let it in deeply and didn’t ask any questions about it. My sister just sort of looked at me, I recall. I think she said something like, ‘that’s cool’. As my first experience of an awakening, without having much knowledge of what awakenings even were at the time, this sort of set the tone for any of my other awakenings that followed. I do not fault either of them for their reactions… their parts weren’t sure what to do with any of this and they probably both had fear and maybe even comparison come up. What I was doing was not ‘normal’ and I think it actually reflected their own capacities back to them, which of course parts, especially Inner Protectors/Gatekeepers who are busy trying to navigate the dense 3D world, tend to have big reactions to, as it isn’t exactly safe to be outside the norm in most cases.
Nonetheless, this birthed a whole world of spirituality for me. It validated so much of what I had begun to read about in different books by spiritual authors. I feel a young part of me sharing all of this, as she was the one who primarily ‘drove the bus’ on my spiritual adventures for many years of my life. Eventually, this part and I needed to separate from birth family and many other relationships altogether, as the lack of resonance hurt and also wasn’t serving my continued openings and my desire to deeply heal.
What followed was many years of seeking and searching. Being very naturally emotional and reactive and not having a container for it, no matter what spiritual path I/part of me tried on for size. I came close to some version of ‘parts work’ through one particular author and speaker who I even studied with for a while and this path was what then led me to SoulFullHeart, which I now teach and facilitate today. It took me a long time to realize that I needed to bridge to my emotional world, not try to put it away. And in truth, my parts weren’t ever going to let me do that anyway!
Every awakening I’ve had has been a mixed experience of up and down, sometimes at the same time, as I can feel my emotional body and also the wounding in my soul trying to catch up with the higher frequencies pouring in and watering my heart with so much love and dawning awareness. I invite you to feel where and how your own emotional body needs to catch up to your own awakenings and openings… to feel how your relationships currently surrounding you serve or don’t serve you along the way is an essential part of awakening and growing and healing. Every new vista invites us all to feel deeper where and who we are as well as who we want and need to become. And, they also invite us deeper into love, so we can better serve love, especially to others who truly want and need us to and are ready to let in their own capacity for the same!
Love to you in each and every moment of your awakening journey… know that my love and the love of many go into these places WITH you! ❤
Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
Our conditioning living deep within, gives us overlays of meaning to grasp at, applied to all circumstances and relationships. We assume much based on our older experiences, our other experiences. We bring it all forward to be projected onto the new and emerging, not because we are lost or wrong, but because we need to. We need to see this day as grey, that romance as doomed, this woman as ‘mom’. We need to feel patterns re-emerging, reinstating themselves in an effort to wake us up to something – but what? Layers of wounding on a soul level, on a heart level, on a human level, compound and break us into new-old scenarios so that we can feel their roots and begin to apply new lenses, no framework, allowing old scaffolding to heal. These known structures of life, familiar ways to see and experience all around us, have been necessary and now, with our ascending selves and no-selves, it is all being brought out to the light. An invitation to wake up, yes. To what has been and what could be now if that timeline is chosen.
There is much to heal, but even more to feel… gifting us with polished wings meant to fly us to new heights, new vistas, many changes through rumbles and shifts. Feeling ourselves, feeling each other, feeling LOVE. We are here to keep working and anchoring those grids girded within an ever-expanding and healing ‘I’ space in the temple of the Sacred Human individual spark of the Whole. Then the sense of what is ‘real’ beyond and yet within the imagination, can become the Golden Earth of relationship to ALL that our souls know and our hearts long for. New, honey-golden, sparkling overlays are possible now, with much more tangibility in the Love Field of us, that joins our hearts and holds each arising moment as precious, sacred, and unique.
Our projections become maps for us to find out more about who we are now, who we have been and who we may become. They gift us with the opportunity to see things differently once the attachment to these overlayed realities begins to heal and move. There is a need within us to find our way through the deepest woods within by following the beacon of projected reality, for this reality IS what’s ‘real’ until it isn’t, until it doesn’t need to be in the same way anymore. And then, yes THEN, we can become more of who are in this new ‘now’, who we came here to become, who we signed up to remember that we always were underneath our needed stories, our life’s slideshows of memories, and our wounds that will soon heal as we show up for them to. This is the terrain to travel when feeling and healing the inner matrices, the falling apart inner grids, the ‘old’ ways of being, doing, experiencing life and our relationships with others. This awareness of even having ‘projections’ to work with is a first step to the awareness and the exit out of the cave, the fall down a new rabbit hole, the entrance to a birth canal. This is some of the more challenging territory to heal and yet, it is so possible, if we can say ‘yes’ to the need for a mirror that helps us see more of it within us and follow the golden thread of Love wherever it wants to lead us to inside and outside of us.
In SoulFullHeart, we offer ongoing sessions, group calls, and plenty of online support through writings, videos, recordings, etc that lead you deeper into your own awareness of your overlays and projections that colour your life and create the patterns you’ve lived into. Through the connection to parts of you that we offer, support and facilitate, you will find more of your shadow, your light, your reasons for having become the way you are now, claiming the life you are now. If you would like to know more about us, our community and the healing gifts we are here to offer you, please visit www,soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information. ❤
Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visitsoulfullheartwayoflife.comfor more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
You are drifting, shifting timelines INside to discover and experience new worlds IN there…..your inner galaxy is expanding as you deepen your exploration INside. Portals of multidimensional travel INvite you to experience the true vastness of your BEing from your roots to your wings.
The universe opens up INside as you find more and more access to fascination and wonder about what you’ll discover next, what you’ll remember about your soul next, what you’ll have access to next as your heart opens WIDER and WIDER with defenses and old conditionings falling away.
Your INquiry fueled by soul awakenings and heart openings INvestigates the next curve and turn of your INNER landscapes. Your inner flashlight beacon of higher cosmic heart turns ON and you SEE MORE, FEEL MORE, and ARE MORE. The inner darkness is not scary anymore, the shadows move into light. What has seemed evil becomes good, what has been in contention becomes in acceptance, what has been uncomfortable becomes familiar.
You experience true self to self intimacy, loving and accepting and connecting with ALL aspects of yourself…..from the inner child to the Star BEing, from the inner critic to the inner angelic BEing, from the inner protector to the inner Arcturian or Pleiadian or Sirian or ALL of these Star BEings and MORE. These aspects then can MERGE more and more into YOU and BECOME you, leading to more and more inner embodiment of the Infinite Love that you ARE. Leading to more and more sense of union WITH others and AS others too.
Love wants to open up the universes of unexplored territories and aspects that exist inside of you….Your inner space program to Infinite Love wants to LAUNCH! Every time you go within, you’ll discover MORE. ❤
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.