Vulnerable Sharing From A Moment Of Deep Tears

by Kalayna Solais

Crying in the moment and I can’t 100% track it, what’s going on behind the tears… but, I thought I’d share and see what is coming through my heart in this moment. Take you along with me. 

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Sometimes there is just so much sadness that comes up in me. It’s not always linked to what I’ve gone through or am going through now. It’s not always connected to an inner process.

Sometimes it just IS. And there are so many layers to it… some of them mine, some of them not so much.

The deeper I feel it… the more I feel the sadness of a part of me coming up, but a sadness in my soul in a ‘Cries of the World’ kind of way, too.

My empath has been becoming even more sensitive than ever lately. The sense of needing the same masculinized protection inside has been healing for years. It’s time to have a more exposed, feeling, feminine heart that doesn’t need protection but needs to vulnerably share and deeply feel.

Beginning new things is always something sensitive for the younger, very feminine parts of me that care so much about being liked, being accepted, doing well… and also care SO much about others, about helping others heal, about having resonant relationships where there is genuine care, and about seeing this world we live in becoming more gentle, more open-hearted and caring, more compassionate, and ultimately much, much safer to live and breathe and emote and LOVE in.

There’s still a lingering sadness in my feminine that my last relationship is over. There’s still a way that it’s just HARD to see the growth that couldn’t happen while we were together. And there’s still so much confusion as to why this has been true. I can feel this aspect’s confusion though… her pain around relating to men in general that some of it stems from and how this relates to her relationship to my masculine inside.

When it comes to men, it’s just been SO hard to try and become what she isn’t in order to get loved, feel wanted, and belong to the man’s world. Often this has meant sacrificing something of herself for the sake of the relationship and keeping it kosher. And over the last couple of months of inner process between her and my masculine aspect(s) I’ve become more awakened to how this dynamic has lived inside of me. How he has caretaken something in her which has kept her small and how she has not been able to vulnerably invite him to actually feel her and meet her halfway in any area so that they can feel each other and really, genuinely BE together in collaboration, mutual respect for each other’s bigness, and LOVE.

So there’s that going on in this ‘now’ moment. And it doesn’t need solving or resolving… just more feeling. There’s definitely some other layer of this inner relationship coming up for me to tenderly feel with these aspects, more push-pull towards each other.

Some of the tears aren’t mine, so there’s that layer too. I don’t mind moving the ‘Cries of The World’ through my heart though. I actually feel honoured when I feel them and when I feel others and their genuine pain. This doesn’t plague me or bother me. The ‘Death Doula’ inside of me can be with the mourning and the sadness and even the frustrations. The frustrations through, because I don’t have many of my own anymore, especially in my masculine aspect, quickly move into the more vulnerable feelings of sadness that are beneath them.

Questions of “Why isn’t there more love flow in this world yet and heart warmth too?”; “Why are Disclosure people so intense still and not seeing how any focus on warfare exacerbates the problems instead of moves it all into new territory?”; “Why aren’t more souls choosing to REALLY go inward yet?”

As I feel my heart ask these questions, I know the answer already… “It’s not yet time… but it will be eventually. And the only thing YOU can do is keep going inward, keep feeling, keep sharing, and keep growing and healing, as you also respond to those who ARE ready”.

So, there it all is… different raw layers coming up on this early, EARLY Friday morning. 

I don’t often share this way because it seems to draw caretaking from others sometimes. I’m sharing this today to show how I process, the different layers I feel going on in so many moments of deep feeling, and I trust that what is meant to resonate and support your own process, will. 

Thank you so much for taking this in as you feel to for yourself. 

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Sometimes I Cry

By Raianna Shai

 

Sometimes I cry

I cry for the world, for the fear and the hate

I cry for the constant discord and debate

 

I cry for the children who never have homes

I cry for their feet, and the streets that they roam

 

I cry for the women who feel so unworthy

I cry for the men who are told to be burly

 

Sometimes I cry

For the part of me that never feels right

Who can’t see her beauty or bounty of light

 

For the part of me that can’t let you down

Who loves everyone, but herself she lets drown

 

For the part of me that can’t understand

Why he hasn’t been taught how to be a man

 

Sometimes I cry

Water may fall, but then I find out

That soon after tears, Comes wisdom, not doubt

 

The love will come back in body and heart

And then my cup fills, returns to the start

 

The well of my heart shall never dry

For when I feel sad, sometimes I cry

 

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Finding Genuine Empathy & Compassion Births Our Sacred Humanity

by Kalayna Colibri

Sometimes the cries of the world just need the space to move through your heart. It’s the tears of a benevolent universe that has witnessed and held all of the pain and trauma… that has felt and experienced it all along with us and wants to move through it, heal it, bring us all with it to something new.

It’s these moments, these poignant moments, of crying tears that aren’t necessarily ‘ours’ but are about what others have been through and in some cases are still going through as this world continues to transition and ascend. These crucibles have been chosen on a soul level in order to boost this-life healing and karmic healing from other lifetimes as well, yet this does not make them any easier to truly feel, to digest, and to somehow, by some miracle of personal will and soul bigness, find another side to.

I feel the oneness field which we all share and through which we can all experience what others have, whether literally or just in our hearts. This is the love field of Sacred Humanity. This is Home in so many ways.

I feel how these tears are what water the seeds of New Earth… actually, all tears we shed do this, especially when we are feeling them for the sake of our personal healing and experiencing a deep movement with a Metasoul or a part of us. We aren’t here to overhold the tears that others need to feel for themselves, yet to feel your heart open to feeling their pain WITH them is one of the deepest gifts of being alive and being human… and is what creates real intimacy and opens up the channel for more love to be exchanged between all of us.

Our compassion is worth feeling, starting out by feeling it toward parts of us and then overflowing it to others. It is worth the process it takes to move into this place of opening the heart and genuinely caring. It is worth all of the tears you’ll shed for your personal process as you then serve others in feeling theirs. And… it’s worth finding and feeling the parts of you that don’t feel compassion, that are blocked to feeling real care. These are the parts that need your love the most, and these are the parts that also hold the most gifts of genuine empathy for others.

Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Sleepiness, Third Chakra Rumbles, Intense Dreams As Big Energy Surges Move Through

By Jelelle Awen

 

“Big Energy surges the last 24 hours with sleepiness, intense dream activity, solar plexus (3rd) chakra rumbles…..moving UP, going in.” I posted this as a status on Facebook this morning, receiving much resonant response already to it. This kind of statement is a precursor to the deeper feeling that I do into how cosmic energy activities may be impacting you on an energetic, physical, and (most importantly) emotional body level.
The energy surge of the last couple of days brings in a sense of constant sleepiness, feeling groggy no matter how much actual physical sleep you are getting. This can lead to sudden ‘crash’ naps that can last for a couple of hours and sleeping many more hours in a row than usual. Intense dream activity comes during these long sleeping hours to populate the landscapes, sort through subconscious emotions, and offer triggering scenarios to feel emotions that need digesting and processing.
You may have the sense during your recent dreams of truly BEing in parallel dimensions, alternative realities, and other timelines. There are these adventuring kind of dreams that act as portals to these realities that your Astral Self has access to. There has been so much bleed through from other timelines lately that this is also impacting our dream spaces. I write more about that here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2018/02/21/energy-update-timelines-bleeding-through-offering-deep-karmic-healing-and-unification-of-your-metasoul.
There are the dreams that seem to push up suppressed emotions of anxiety and unease, even terror sometimes. These don’t feel like nightmares, as much as energetic purges that move usually quickly if you’ve been engaged in shadow work healing and can consciously divert them before they turn into suffering loops.
Our third chakras are UPgrading from being personal will focused (or ‘service of self’ as some people and the Law Of One calls it) to service of others AND self through service of love. We are BEcoming service of love as the ascension process deepens and accelerates. We are moving out of ego-focused, 3D reality processing….and into self love focused IN ORDER to eventually overflow love with others from our healing heart.
The phase of BECOMING self love is what the collective is being invited to embody as well. This is not ego-obsession or selfishness, yet rather tuning into ALL parts of you that need your love and compassion in order to transform in an organic way into your service of love self.
The ultimate purpose of this transformation is not for self image-based glory or just for money earning or gaining influence over others, yet rather to serve love TO yourself and all those that need it to embody their service of love self too. This is about feeling a deep connection to the cries of the world even AS your attention can lovingly turn inward. You recognize in this that the source of your power to change anything on the outside comes from within you. You are serving the ALL when you serve yourself in this way.
These recent ascension energies are cleaning out the third chakra of the 3D conditioning that looks to the outside for identity and sense of self. They are moving you inward, to find your power center THERE. They are inviting you to feel your Inner Protector that has often ‘fused’ to the 3D externalized power structure out of necessity and self survival strategies. The Protector often ‘lives’ in the third chakra, along with the Inner Punisher as well. Through the SoulFullHeart process that we offer, the Protector transmutes to self loving boundary setting and guide to access ALL of your parts and your Metasoul/other timeline aspects. The Punisher transmutes to humble discernment, heart-based intuition, and wisdom. More about these parts here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
The Higher Heart chakra (a combination of the heart chakra and the throat chakra) has been receiving pulses of activations since the beginning of this year. The Higher Heart seems to be replacing the third chakra as the main energy center for which you process energy as you increase your vibrational frequency. Divine Feminine illuminations seems to facilitate and hold space for this process of transformation, along with galactic activations and connections with your Star Family and Metasoul Aspects. Healing your Star Seed woundings experienced during abductions (which are actually Star Family visits) is important to activate the Galactic Higher Heart.
Processing energy through your Higher Heart allows you to expand your capacity to feel the cries of the world with a deep compassion while remaining centered in self love. This process seems to be accelerating as frequencies of self compassion and forgiveness are most needed at this time. The Divine Mother provides these frequencies in a visceral way. She floods love into your heart space, your solar plexus space, your third eye space….all the spaces and places and parts inside that need it. Here is a guided meditation that I recently recorded offering these forgiveness frequencies with Divine Sophia: https://youtu.be/0yuiBDIp2Oo
We are being held in all these activations and integrations with Divine love for us and WITH us at all moments. Connect to this Divine love and support through your Higher Heart. This provides a heartline as you navigate the murkier waters, unify with your shadow aspects, and FEEL the emotions that are sometimes most difficult to BE with. This heartline offers a trusting frequency in the BIGGER process that is going on here….the continual embodiment of your sacred humanity AS love.

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Feeling The Cries Of The World Without Suffering Over Them To Open Your Cosmic or 5D Heart Chakra

By Jelelle Awen

 

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Painting by Willow Arleana

 

Opening up your cosmic heart, your Christ Consciousness heart, is to open your heart to feel the cries of the world. The cries of the world are easy to pick up as the pitch is so high and so pressing right now…… yet they can be difficult to digest. Feeling the cries of the world can lead you through necessary phases of activism and advocacy. In this phase, you are compelled to fight for justice and to shift the exterior realities of the world.

And, you may move through this phase into a place of acceptance and seeing that every soul chooses their own journey. Every one. You may feel how the injustice actually begins from within and that the real protest originates from within. Every person and situation that you have advocated against lives inside of you (most likely in shadow) somewhere. As you shine the light of self love on the shadow within that comes from your undigested pain body, unhealed karmic binds, and within the collective unconsciousness, the frequency of protest shifts to forgiveness. The frequency of outrage shifts to compassion. The frequency of separation shifts to connection.

As you shift your sense of authority over your life to within AND to a surrendered sense of the Divine and your higher self, you no longer feel that any outside authority is doing anything to you that can cause you suffering. You cause your own suffering by drawing these frequencies to yourself…..until you no longer need them. Until the frequency of love has replaced the suffering.

All of these phases are sacred and necessary and every soul is different. We are receiving so much support from Archangels, angels, spirit guides, and star beings to move into a higher vibrational frequency of heart, to open the cosmic heart chakra of Gaia (centrally located in Glastonbury, England), and this energy cosmic heart frequency is available to all sentient beings on Gaia to choose or to reject.

Your compassion, gratitude, and forgiveness are higher frequency vibrations templated by the cosmic christ heart. Feeling them firstly and most deeply for yourself opens out their access for you to feel them toward others. This allows you to feel the cries of the world, to serve love, yet not become the cries of the world, tied into suffering over suffering.

 

Jelelle Awen is an 5D ascension teacher, writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions with her, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.