Deconstructing 3D Egoic ‘Strategies’ of Parts of Us

by Kasha Rokshana

Born in 3D, into this Matrix reality, we’re taught, even ‘groomed’ to be strategic. To construct a ‘3D Ego’.

We have little choice. 

Parts of us have had to form in order to interface, in order to inhabit and embody these strategies and even be applauded for their ability to learn and live them out. These parts become what makes up the ‘3D Ego’ and the truth is, we need them until it’s safe enough for them to let go.

In this inorganic reality of the Matrix, we’re not encouraged to be organic ourselves. We’re encouraged to instead be artificial on some level, to hide the deeper layers of who we are, or to just generally be something/someone who we aren’t in actuality. 

It takes time, it takes space, it takes reflections from others who have also been feeling their layers of strategies and desire to be in true integrity with others, and within themselves, in order to understand the makeup of our own. 

Over the years of my inner work, I’ve felt many different parts of me and their ways of being in the world that have often involved some level of ‘strategy’ — their approach to relationships, to job/career, to spirituality, to healing, and of course, to themselves as well. 

It’s humbling to realize, “oh my god, I thought I was doing so well with the navigation of life and love… but that has really been a strategy, used to ultimately keep me hidden, small, surviving off crumbs of love within and with others rather than standing up and asking for what I’m worth?”

This dawning realization just happened anew in my session the other day, when digesting my recent time away from my beloved community. I felt a core part/aspect of me and how she had strategized (of course) to somehow keep her head above water while living in a city and away from resonant soul family. 

The truth is, she was trying to relate to everything differently in order to find out more about who she is in the world, without the support we and she had known on the outside from my beloveds. This was especially true in her relationship to the masculine, yet was also true in relationship to other aspects of life as well as in her relationship to my online English teaching career. Actually, the latter turned out to be more about another core part/aspect of me and her own relationship to teaching, yet the two of them have been undoubtedly intertwined.  

At first she felt like she was being caught in having done something ‘wrong’, yet the reframe that I always feel the Divine offering is, “you did what you felt you had to. Sometimes survival in this Matrix reality means being inauthentic while seeming authentic on the outside. There’s nothing to judge or punish, only more to feel… especially about how wearing any kind of mask, no matter how paper thin, has an impact on you.”

And with this reframe, I also humbly feel how difficult it is to be our authentic selves when we don’t have the support that we need from our relationships to order to truly feel and BE real — within and with others. 

We need the permission, the space, the support, both inside and out, to truly feel into our desires, our needs, and even our ‘strategies’ that are wearing out as we run them out.  

This is one of the many reasons why sessions with Divine Self Embodiment are so powerful and deep. We all, as facilitators, want to support your journey into what’s truly real for you and within you. Even and especially when it’s a bit of a jarring awakening to start to realize what has had to be in place in your navigation of life that hasn’t ultimately brought the deeper healing or self-realization you dream of, it so helps to have someone who can guide you through that navigation. 

I’d like to offer myself, as my own ongoing journey with this process humbly deepens, in service through 1:1 sessions if you’re curious about that. I have several beloveds who hold space as well. If you would like to find out more about sessions and our work, you can visit divineselfembodiment.com/sessions.

At the end of the day… there really is no need to judge ourselves or any part of us for the ways they’ve felt aligned to BE in this world. It’s actually the love we bring to them as the admit to their tendency toward coping and adjusting, which has had a cost to them ultimately, that begins to uproot and transform these tendencies — and truly bring us to a space of being all the more authentic in our being and expression. 

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Ever-Unfolding Journey of Sacred Union

by Kasha Rokshana

There was once a time, not long ago, when parts of me cared only about sacred romance/union. It’s still very much a priority and a profound longing, yet the sense of it being the only possible gift and reflection of my feminine, my process and progress, and my next steps in service has been healing, piece by piece, part by part, soul aspect by soul aspect. There have been times over the years when I’ve felt a near-constant ‘void’ or despair feeling, even when IN a sacred romance exploration, like an ache that couldn’t really be met and an itch that couldn’t be scratched.

As I feel into that ache and itch, I can feel how there have been some big expectations and dreams, even of how I would show up in these romantic bonds. There is such a desire to be spacious, yet passionate, real and yet also a dream-come-true for the King of my heart. The deepest ache is to be seen, felt, beheld in the full-range of my feminine Queen expression and to have the capacity to fully see, feel, and behold my mate in his counterpart King expression. 

These dreams aren’t convoluted, but they’re complicated sometimes, especially when the reality hits of having to also be (very) patient with my process and his, even just to be able to minimally let it all in and begin to live into our potential individually and as a couple. 

We need room to live into and walk out our healing from this life and other lifetimes while also healing karmic grounds between us. We need space to be able to bring reflections to each other of the impact within the intimacy, to feel safe enough to be real and receive realness too, and to love each other up in ALL ways, even if fur flies from time to time. We each need the capacity to care deeply about each other without caretaking, which is an overflow from the care and non-caretaking/enabling of our own parts that we can and will sometimes fuse to. 

I want to be able to experience the sort of love transaction that I do with my closest beloveds and with the Divine and also still feel present to them and to myself, to not lose myself and to not feel him lose himself either. There needs to be opportunities for us to feel our changing wants, needs, desires and our ongoing growth paths, whether they continue to intertwine or if the ground together is coming to sacred completion.

This PROCESS of sacred union can’t really be emphasized enough… there is no final place of ultimate arrival, though my beloveds Raphael and Jelelle have certainly been experiencing a much deeper harmony than ever before after 15 years together and experiencing the ride that sacred union is in a profound, multi-dimensional way. What I’ve witnessed in them over these last 12 years is what I’ve wanted to experience myself and have had tastes of off and on. I’ve been humbled, so say the least, by what I’ve witnessed and what I’ve experienced personally too… constantly reminded that the process of upgrading, of deepening the ground between you and within you is truly never-ending and not ever a guarantee.

Today is the first day of the Sacred Union virtual transmission circles that Raphael and Jelelle will lead once a month until June. Raphael will also be leading some circles exclusively for men and Jelelle and I will lead some for women as well. I’m so looking forward to being a part of these calls and to be tuning into my own next upgrades within that will support my draw of and deepening with my counterpart mate when it’s time for that. Plus, we’re currently celebrating a sweet sacred union/reunion coming together in our community with Raianna and Jasper, so you’ll get a sense of their journey as well! 

The circle will be held on Zoom and you can attend/receive the recording by donation. More info here: soulfullheart.org/sacredunionseries2024

I hope to see/feel you there! Who knows… you might even meet your mate! 

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Make Space For Your Truth: A Poem

by Kasha Rokshana

Find that purchase
Of space in your heart
To truly let that truth of yours IN.

The truth your parts hold back
Out of fear of loss
And the fear of the love
That could come in too.

The fear of your truth’s alchemy
And capacity
To deeply change your life,
Your heart,
Your entire being,
Is a real thing.

Resurrect that sense of love,
The knowing
Of the love that you are.

Let it guide
Your next steps
Into the unknown
And uncontrollable,
Awakening to the compassionate,
Willing,
And love-serving you
That awaits your embodiment.

Find that buy-in,
That investment
In the truth of your being,
Truly letting yourself be moved
In the way your soul
Has always intended.

1:11 New Beginning Codes Sound Transmission & Energy Update (Video)

by Kasha Rokshana

In this recording of a Facebook livestream on 1/11/2024 with Kasha and Raianna, you’re invited to experience and digest the 1:11 energies of new beginnings.

Using the 432hz root chakra bowl, a shamanic drum, and their voices, Kasha and Raianna transmit from their hearts and souls the codes they’re also experiencing of new beginnings and shifting from old ways of experiencing life and love.

As they also digest in the video, 1/11 has been an important portal for feeling the permission to not only look inward but also look upward, downloading and feeling deeply the Divine support available at all times. It’s truly a time to claim/reclaim everything within you and also whatever you feel your higher timeline is at this time. 

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2024 New Year Energies: ‘Bloom’

by Kasha Rokshana

‘Bloom’… this is the word that comes to me as I feel this year of 2024. I feel it personally and I feel it for those I’m close to as well. I feel it globally somehow too, despite the death and destruction still taking place, ending many lives and upending many more. There’s no doubt we are living in dark times which need to be reconciled with, and yet… still I feel and see the ‘blooming’ process taking hold for all of humanity. 

What I see is a lily sprouting up from burned up ground. I see the explosions, the blood of war and mess of what we choose to put each other (and ourselves) through. I feel how even in this scene there is love holding it all, longing to reunite us all on a higher plane even if we can’t or won’t find our way to reunion on this denser one where suffering manifests the most.

Those of us who are empaths can feel lost in all that’s going on at times, especially as parts of us feel concerned for how others are going to survive what they’re enduring. We also feel rumbles through our souls of a familiarity with the pain they’re going through. I especially feel this at times when I’m talking to my international English students online and they share about what’s going on in their worlds/countries. My heart breaks for them and their loved ones, and it doesn’t matter much in those moments that we may not share core resonance around the context of it all. 

When I check in with the Divine about this sense of ‘blooming’ and the state of the world, the answer I receive is this…

“There is always room to bloom. It is a choice for each soul to do so even when it seems that humanity will not ever learn to love itself and all is hopeless. It is actually in these peak times of great suffering and loss that the answer of ‘surrender to Divine love’ comes forward the most.

Many of the most beautiful stars in the galaxy shine brighter when the darkness surrounds them. Your time of blooming is a sign of hope and trust that the most profound shifts are happening in the heart of humanity, though it seems like the opposite is true.

This year is an opportunity to be planted firmly in resonant and supportive soil, to choose to bloom where you can truly grow and be in reunion with others who want the same experience for themselves… others who also want to bloom and be a beacon of love for every aspect of their soul, every part of them, and for others as well.”

It feels to me like we’re being invited deeply into our own inner worlds, to truly find our way of ‘blooming’ there and also alongside others. This is what brings us to our next level of care, of love, of compassion for ourselves and others. This is what helps facilitate the deeper and deeper shifts in the heart of humanity from the inside out, this year and beyond. 

Love,

Kasha 

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Sacred Feminine Upgrade Codes: Feeling Your Fear As You Move Into LOVE

by Kasha Rokshana

“There’s a lot of fear…”

Tears fall as I feel this with parts of me this morning, feeling what seems to be on deck for this coming year, feeling all that’s happened this year and could happen in the next one. Just naming it, feeling it as a fear pocket being shown to me helps move it more into love and openness, especially as I hold the parts of me who have been churning inside around it.

These words, “there’s a lot of fear,” tumble from my mouth and as I say them out loud, the words “there’s love here” come as well. I realize then how similar these two statements are when we say them, how similar they feel in our mouths, in our breath, as they move from deep inside of us to be expressed.

“There’s love here” is what has been offered to me by my beloved guide, Mary Magdalene, who I’ve been connecting with in sacred surrogacy for a while now, and also from the Divine Beloved who then squeezes me, holds me tight as these energies are transmitted, seeding within my feminine healer’s heart. I feel so supported in my love embodiment as I feel these energies surrounding me, so anchored in my propensity to ultimately return to love, always, even when fear is still moving through and needs to be validated as well.

I feel this as a vital theme as we head into 2024 and a powerful opportunity for upgrades on a soul, heart, and body level. Shifting from fear to openness, then to love and allowing this to be an ongoing process too, holding it all with so much self-care and compassion yet also challenging yourself and your parts too. Being willing to feel it all can feel like a tall order, yet the invitation is always to take it one step at a time. 

Love,

Kasha

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12/12 Energy Update: Unity Codes Incoming (Video)

by Kasha Rokshana

Unity and reunion codes are all around, this time of year especially. They invite us into a deep heart warmth of love and connection within and with others, while they also highlight for us where truly transactable love can flow and where it can’t. In other words, these codes show us where there is still an experience of separation going on both inside and outside of us. They also show us where there may be a deepening desire for intimacy and where there may be hesitancy and fear too.

In this video, Raianna and I talk about these 12/12 unity codes and what they maybe supporting you to feel. We speak about the different ways you may be experiencing them, whether you may be feeling alone in a crowd while surrounded by more dissonance than resonance, or if you’re actually choosing the void space of aloneness so that you can truly reboot socially and feel into your desires for true soul family (as well as any despair that may come up for you as you do so). 

We also share about the ‘how’ – the process – which has brought us both into more unity inside and with the divine, as well as into deeper intimacy with those around us in our soul family experience in SoulFullHeart. This process we talk about is the one we hold so sacredly in sessions yet also in our overall way of life. It involves feeling parts of you, yet also feeling soul and galactic aspects and so many dimensions that make you YOU and bringing yourself into a deepening experience of divine reunion within while opening to the experience of reunion with soul family. 

We hope that this video supports your journey, wherever you find yourself at this time and whatever you may be feeling.

Love,

Kasha & Raianna

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. Raianna Shai is a member of the SoulFullHeart Healing community.

The Experience of Soul Family | Kasha Rokshana & Raianna Shai (Video)

by Kasha Rokshana

It’s a time of year when desires for new kinds of bonds and relationships can arise while you ‘deal with’ the toxicity and non-resonance of your current ones. Parts of you may feel truly obligated to stay connected to these bonds (which can feel/be more like ‘binds’) and also hold fear about what would happen if they were to be let go of.

The invitation of Christ/Magdalene consciousness, this time of year especially with the codes coming in, is to feel into these dynamics and also feel into your desires to experience true soul family.

In this video, Raianna and I share about and digest our personal experiences of being a part of this soul family of SoulFullHeart, along with what we’ve experienced with others who have come and gone from our midst. We also share about what we personally want to experience more of with others. We talk about the mirrors we hold for each other and where the intimacy of our bonds here take us both within and together.

We hope you enjoy this insider’s view on our very small (for now!) soul family community and some of the ins and outs we’ve experienced so deeply!

Love,

Kasha & Raianna

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Raianna Shai is a member of the SoulFullHeart Healing community.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Arising Sacred Soul Turns

by Kasha Rokshana

We are all in the midst of an invitation to make some very courageous ‘soul turns’ as we move out of this Samhain passage and into what could be a whole new phase of claiming/reclaiming ourselves, our Divinity and Divine connection, and what we are most drawn to yet parts of us may be afraid of fully diving into. 

A ‘soul turn’ is a turn away from the suffering patterns your soul has known so well and moving into something new and unknown, yet potentially very healing. It’s a time when you know that the old and painful story is ready to truly let go, through choosing to feel it deeper and have it truly reconcile in your heart.

Soul patterns of suffering can show up in our bodies, our relationships, our service-of-love expression and draw. They also show up inside of us, in repeating cycles of reaction, push-pull, pull away, or shut down, which can sometimes even be subtle as they’ve also become so normalized.

I’ve been feeling and working a deep soul-rooted rejection wound which feels like it ultimately leads me back to separation… the feeling of having been removed from the eternal bliss bath of being truly one with the Divine, with my beloved, with soul family. One and yet also swimming together in a pool of uniqueness. Playing with just enough duality at times to truly enjoy the mirrors and play of the dance. 

But then comes the plummet to this Gaian reality of Ascension and the turmoil of trying to find each other again, trying to come back into a deeper oneness and unity within again too after experiencing the trauma of life in the Matrix. 

Perhaps at the heart of all of our suffering and pain, is this journey. And this is where we can experience our soul turning away from the suffering ground of this and into more and more of that feeling of REunion that I think deep down we all are longing for. It’s a turn away from the ‘evidence’ of rejection and into a new sense that we do get to become and also draw what it is we most want (and need).

Join us for a group call this coming Sunday, November 5th, @ 5pm GMT, about this topic of feeling our soul turns and also the life transitions we are facing. Raphael and Jelelle will be leading it and it’s going to be quite powerful! It’s by donation, as always, and you can join live or just receive the recording: Here is some more info: soulfullheart.org/events 

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Feeling & Healing By Allowing Grief

by Kasha Rokshana

Healing through grief is so vastly different from coping with grief. 

Grief isn’t honoured enough. Take the space you need to go quiet, to reach within, to be with the parts of you that are hurting and to lay in the lap of the Divine as you weep or even as you rage out. The grieving process isn’t always lived into with intention, for we’re not encouraged in this matrix world to truly let it in and let it move through organically.

Grief is actually the key, you see… the key to getting back to your heart. The key to unlocking the door to the deeper corners of your soul and opening you up to more awakening experiences, especially around Divine love’s holding of you and everyone/everything on this planet. It’s more powerful than turning towards transcendence or making a concerted effort to ‘move on’, especially before you feel truly ready for that.

Grief is powerful medicine for your revival, though it feels like the darkest death. It comes in waves, can knock on (or knock down) your heart door at any time, and has lots of patience for that ongoing process. It waits with open arms for you to lean into it and truly be with it, as the opportunities open up for you to do so.

As I feel through the heart of our Oneness cord that links us all in this sacred human family, I feel tears of grief for what and who has been loved and lost in my own life as well as the loss and suffering of so many others. I feel waves like this and hold them as sacred. I feel any part of me who feels hopeless at times and know that so many parts of so many other people feel the same way. 

And then I feel how loved we are, how held we are. I feel Divine Mother and Father holding out their arms to lay in or in invitation to come to them with anger waves too. I know in my heart that this is the answer…. Just being willing to feel it, not solve it, not try to answer it with analysis or practical steps. Just feeling it and feeling it ALL as sacred.

I can feel how especially during this Samhain time of the veils being quite thin, that there is extra powerful access to grief… lifetimes of it, actually. There is access to loved ones who have passed, access to deeper digestions of past relationships of all kinds, and access to the grief that lives in your soul from losses suffered in other lifetimes as well. There’s also a lighter side to the grief, where powerful access to joy and true happiness can be lived into as the rest is truly felt through… as you slow down enough to allow love into those understandably tighter spaces within where fear of feeling can live. 

So much love to you during this time as you drop bravely into feeling whatever is calling you to feel it. My beloveds and I are here to support you through sessions if you’re drawn: soulfullheart.org/sessions 

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.