By Deva Yasmin
After a few nights unsettled dreams, of interrupted sleep and feeling anger, agitation and frustration throughout the day yesterday, I felt myself this morning and felt guided to Jelelle Awen’s invitation to feel INto what is going on in the lower 4D/Reptilian timeline. As I let in, instantly I felt relief as more light and air expanded in my heart space.
As I tracked the anger last night, I could only really honor it being there in the moment, as I no longer wish to try and fix or alter my parts’ experiences. Being in the feeling, I could see lots of trivial things in my immediate reality that could be triggering it. I could also feel parts of me that would happily cause drama, especially in relationships, to create a reason for what I was feeling, but none of this softened the edges of it. Opening to feel and let in on the lower 4D level and the collective offered much MORE soothing and liberation of the feelings.
As I checked in with my Reptilian aspect, Solan, I could feel and see with her how there is a lot of anger coming up at the Matrix systems that have been in place, keeping us quiet, asleep and controlled, happening NOW. I could feel how so MANY more are awaken from this NOW, through the feelings of anger, frustration and aggression at times. And how these systems are in ways blowing up, creating rumbles through all realities.
The lower 4D world feels like an overlay, interconnected, rippling through and impacting our current 3D lives. I could feel that what is happening in 4D is also happening in our 3D reality too.
I can feel this in my personal life and in the collective, with so many of us waking up and starting to say, ‘No’ to what no longer works for us. I see and feel this collectively in politics, climate action, all outdated institutions. I see and feel it in our personal relationships, work expressions, etc. too.
It feels like the Reptilians are awakening along with us. In their world as they have been wired to control us, I feel so many of them saying NO, now wanting to move out of their role in the 3D matrix and work with us in these transition times to higher timelines, realities, Unity consciousness, and more Love.
Anger and Fear play really key roles in our liberation, Awakening and Ascension. They are sacred doorways that we all must enter into and through. Offering bridges to different aspects of ourselves and what they may be feeling and experiencing in the NOW, that impacts our lives in very real ways.
Feeling fear, even as you read this perhaps, feels necessary, normal and VERY welcome. Fear is our discernment and held by very important aspects of ourselves like the inner protector.
In THIS moment. I invite you into a new way, of being curious to fear, rather than fused to it, as is what the SoulFullHeart process is offering through parts work.
I feel many of us on the awakening journey moving into a NEW phase of feeling the possibility of more and healing more at the soul level. I feel in my own process that at times, the shifts do not occur if I am only feeling what I have experienced this life, yet more expansion and space to breathe opens, through feeling the possibilities of what is moving in my soul and this Universe.
I do trust and strongly advocate for the organic-ness of it all though. I do not feel it to be true to leave our bodies to access other realities rather it feels true and of utmost importance that this journey is led from and through our hearts.
That our human experience and emotions lead us to where we next need to go. Our heart’s knowing the timing and when we are a big enough container to hold these new pieces of the puzzle, with loving, compassionate, curious inclusivity of all parts and all perspectives.
To consider and respect our parts’ limitations and the pace we need to go, so this exploration is moved from a place of embodied, whole, loving presence rather than pushing, striving, and from unconscious beliefs held around not being enough.
To do this, if you so choose and feel ready and curious, the Inner Protectors are vital to feeling fear and possible anger, as our lives, worlds, realities shift. They stand guard of our hearts for which we need to access, to enter through, to feel MORE possibilities, Letting in this multi dimensional reality and way of BEing if that feels true for you.
Here is a guided meditation with Jelelle Awen to meet your Inner Protector, a good place to start: https://youtu.be/2FzBzK5vgck
Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc