The Inner Dance of Sacred Romance

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INside every MAN lies a Queen to his King.  A Goddess to his God.  For any MAN who seeks sacred romance the journey begins in his own heart.  An active engagement to find Her among the settled ashes of the old relationship to WOMAN.  For she is not of that mold.  She has no cage yet is the container for the arising King to shine.  This is new kind of hunt, one that doesn’t seek to dominate, but rather to integrate.  One that experiences the union first INside in order to set the ground for what can transact on the outside.  

This has been referred to as Heiros Gamos, or the Sacred Marriage.  More an external ceremony that represents what happens internally.  This inner mating gives birth to your Self.  Your inner belonging and self-love that cannot be taken away, unless by your authority.  This union fills you with your own worth, power, and desire as a MAN.  You feel your own goodness, vulnerability, and sensuality.  It courses through you like electric pulses and flowing water.  This sends out ripples that cannot go unnoticed by the one it is intended for.  

Feel Her come in and out of your field like a dancing flame and a wind swept leaf.  Let Her command your attention to that which is unattainable.  Unknowable.  Smell the sweet scent of lavender and jasmine.  Sense the grace of her movement and the softness of her touch.  Let it enter you and enliven you.  Taking away the edges and straight lines that can get too rigid and tight.  Take flight into Her grounded chaos and stellar flight.  Beauty is elucidated and never held static.  She is always arising, shifting, dying, and birthing,  She is alive with the passion of presence.

Bring to Her your desire for MORE.  Your passion to feel your own core masculinity shine by the reflection of Her vibration.  Your need for growth and Self-knowing.  The awakening of your soul gifts and to feel the glorious ecstasy of Her portal to heights unknown.  Build your castle within to honor Her presence INside you… as YOU and for YOU.  She is a gift to your evolving Self, your sacred emerging MANhood.  She is always there but you must woo her and pursue her.  She will make it all worth it.  

As you do unto Her, you do unto WOMANkind. This shifts the old dynamic collectively and She can’t help but to notice.  You are a light of tender heart, brave soul, and passionate lover.  You seek Her NOW for you are filled in your own BEing for it can’t help but to want to MANifest itself in this physical dimension.  Like a reservoir ready to tear down the dam.  It cannot, will not, nor does not wish to be held back any longer.  It is ready to find its counterpart other to enter into the unknown dance of Sacred Romance.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Awakening Of The Sacred Masculine Heart

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Awakening.  That word elicits so many different responses from so many people.  We know it is becoming aware of what we have been conditioned to believe as True.  We have chosen to fall asleep to our infinite power.  We squirreled it away somewhere so we can learn new experiences while on the way to remembering.  For some that path has been laid out with some pretty intense crucibles and circumstances.  All that were chosen by us to serve something in us that we just can’t seem to see yet.  But then one day that just changes and life as you once knew it, no longer holds the storyline that was attached to it.  YOU just popped a stitch and the pants no longer fit or even make sense to wear anymore.  

You are now seeing and feeling life differently.  Maybe you have been on a journey already and all of a sudden there is another moment of awareness that presences itself and you find yourself in need of something more still.  No matter where we are on this evolution of consciousness, there is always MORE to live into.  We are not static beings.  We need to keep growing, keep deepening, and keep widening our field and experience of love.  There are so many energies that we have available to us, withIN us, that can lend us the support necessary to guide us to our next places.  But sometimes those voices can be muted or even blocked by an energy inside of us that is protecting us from that MORE.  We cannot see that ourselves because we are not able to.  Maybe even not meant to.   We are drawn to circumstances and people that can mirror this to us.  Our Higher Self is working overtime with patient persistence.

I have been digesting the difference between women and men when it comes to recognizing when a certain timeline is just done with them.  It is not that more women are awakening, as it is they are just making choices that support that awakening.  They reach a tipping point sooner and seem to search for those that they feel can trust to begin this diffusion from the suffering.  This doesn’t mean they don’t have resistances, they are just more willing to make that first step.

The spirituality side of awakening feels lushly inhabited by both genders with all kinds of access points to our Divine and Cosmic energy.  Knowledge of ancient teachings, scientific discoveries, and powerful intuitions and downloads. I have such a hunger and curiosity for it all.  It is all a part of our human experience.  But then there is the emotional side of awakening.  The one that is inextricably tied to our human heart.  It is the center of what it means to be alive and human.  Not just spirit only.  There are so many examples of spiritual leaders that have deeply painful emotional existences.  This has a huge affect on those they are leading and serving.  There is an integrity of heart and soul bigness that qualifies our Sacred Humanity.

The human heart is a grand frontier too!  So much of our ability to experience a rich celestial life is found in our ability to experience a rich emotional life.  This is found with a YOU to YOU phase of independence and watering your own self-worth.  But as that fills up it naturally wants to find its way to others through service and sacred romance.  Those that have been serving may need a time of going in to feel their human heart again.  A time in which the only service is to YOU and you alone.  Or there is a time when a need for community and growth relationship is next on your spiritual docket.  It is all evident in where you feel stuck, paused, or ready to rock and roll.

To get back to the gender aspect, I feel that it is the domain of the vulnerable heart where men have found themselves in a status or frozen state.  A lot happening in the soul domain but his heart has been sequestered for the fear of feeling all there is to feel.  This holds true for all of us, but again more women are taking that first step into integrate BOTH the heart AND the soul into one clear expression of sacred human femininity.  The reality is, is that they are more spring-loaded for it.  They are more adept at the terrain of the winding winds of emotion.  And this feels like what will spark the heart of Man to go into what he needs to to match the growing tide of awakening women.

This does not make Man less than.  There is a LOT in our collective that we are working through in our own personal hearts.  As one man begins the journey toward emotional healing, it paves the way for others.  It affects the collective archetype and it begins to shift into a new arena of what sacred masculinity might look and feel like.  But it takes the desire to want something different and MORE.  To acknowledge that there are parts of us that are not in health and need healing because we can just feel it.  I believe men have been hugely affected by the journey into 3D but it IS what we signed up for.  Our next Hero’s quest is that of the heart.  To stand in our own power and self-worth.  To arise again into our Kingly stature and call to our counterpart Queen who is waiting for our arrival.  Together we take our bodies and souls with us into the New Golden Earth that is awaiting our full return and remembrance.

I am on that journey within myself and others.  Together we call to other men who feel that something is not being fully expressed in their lives.  That they know there is more to life than just being aware. It is to be fully alive in ALL areas of your expression.  It is a cavalry of vulnerable and impassioned leaders of Self and Consciousness.  To claim all that he wants from livelihood to brotherhood.  From wisdom to courage.  From romantic to ecstatic.  It doesn’t have to be done alone.  It was never meant to be.   

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Exploring The Internal Wilderness Of Manhood

 

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By Raphael Awen

Manhood itself is the unexplored wilderness that the wild-at-heart man himself is invited into.

Knowing what manhood is, is NOT what qualifies a man to be a man, but rather the willingness to admit that he doesn’t know what it is. Any grasp or attainment on being a man is continually held with an open hand knowing that real men are time and time again called to show up for ‘a something more’, that they have yet to find.

Manhood explorations that are perceived as external to the man in role play-outs such as mate, father, husband, career are really all just external manifestations of what has or hasn’t happened for the man INTERNally. A real man is ever an intern, a beginner, and where it ALL begins for him is his own heart, the source and resource of all that he is.

It’s quite telling that popular male modelling is about ‘not being a sissy’ and putting away your tears. This is actually a male role model of the fear of one’s true manhood power, NOT an expression of it.

The entire patriarchy is about the suppression of the feminine of men inside of themselves, suppressing their own inner feminine, and needing then to manifest externally what’s happening internally. The man is afraid of his own true power, and dressing himself up with a power exterior to cover that.

What actually gives a man the powerful attraction energy dancing between him and a mate, or between him and his world, is finding this duality dance more and more inside of himself. When this inner duality dance between the feminine and the masculine is flatlined, the man loses the vitality of his own inner mating with himself, and that flat line manifests outwardly in his relationships with all of life. He then has to grasp at false male power to compensate.

To really approach manhood is to approach, court and mate with one’s inner feminine, and from there a truly powerful, grounded, irresistible MALENESS ARISES, the true phallus engorged with heart.

Gabriel Heartman and I are leading a group call this Saturday for men, seeking more of themselves. I’d like to invite YOU into YOU, and beginning here in the presence of other men hungry for their own true inner unexplored power!

A choice and a no-minimum donation gets you in the room with others making the same admission…that we are set on showing up for our own more. The event details are here. I hope you decide to join us!

https://www.facebook.com/events/1257237587706349/

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to make a donation to support our work at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Sacred Union Codes Inviting You Into Union With Self, Getting Ready If Single, Completing Scared Unions

By Jelelle Awen
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The sacred love, the love of SELF ultimately that overflows into the love WITH other that creates a union.
 
We are being invited into this sacred love with union of inner and outer, to begin with the unionizing of aspects of SELF….from the shadow to the light, to those from the Stars to those from childhood, those aspects that we have embraced and BEcome our persona and unaware ego and those that arise from our soul and higher self.
 
Gathering together the pieces of SELF, inviting them into the light of our heart love, bringing them ‘home’ in our heart, letting them feel that an awakening version of US, an embodiment of our higher self is THERE for them. The most loving parental energy arises in us to hold the edges, the pains, the wounds, the doubts, the hiding, the compensating….to love and accept it ALL and then invite these aspects to transmute with love.
 
The codes for sacred unions are BEing downloaded now and you feel them if you are meant to feel them. Raphael and I are co-creating a writing about these codes and the differences between a sacred union and a scared union, we will be sharing this soon.
 
If single, and especially if you are being fastracked in ascension related to being a leader/teacher/waySHOWer, you feel these sacred union codes as a renewed desire and need to BE with yourself and to be revealed to yourself, and to see what has been previously hard to see. It is a desire to ‘clean out and get ready’, similar to a pregnant mom’s urges to get the nest ready before the baby. Getting the nest ready is feeling the inner protector and what energies still guard your heart and soul and WHY. This is the process we offer in SoulFullHeart to provide guidance and support and community and MAYBE your sacred union mate is involved with SoulFullHeart TOO, so that’s a motivating reason perhaps to join us for a group call or session space.
 
If single, the codes are inviting you to be MORE OPEN than maybe you ever have been before to seeing and feeling your sacred union mate. You may even already know them, yet your inner protector may be filtering them out, judging them, or dismissing them or evaluating them from a certain perspective. Our sacred union mate is often NOT what we expect in terms of a physical package or even ‘ideal geography’ or even age difference….yet the grounds of HOT body talk, ALIVE mental talk, DEEP soul talk, VULNERABLE heart talk are undeniable once opened out to and let in. The codes are inviting you to PURSUE too, even women, with your vulnerability and openness and willingness to be hurt yet also willingness to experience a deeper love than you have ever known. To bring what you want and what you desire to the soul who has drawn your attention and interest. To move out of safety and comfort, to take the risk of being rejected (there is no REAL rejection at the soul level since all of it has been agreed to already)…
 
If you are in a relationship, you may feel these sacred union codes as creating a rumble in yourself, in clarities around what you want and don’t want, what you have been ‘living with’ versus what you really want. Being able to settle or shrink is running out of ground, you can no longer hide the truth from yourself or your deeper desires for a union that is based in ALL grounds of mind, body, heart, and soul. These SCARED unions, or those based in more codependent frequencies than health, are getting shaken up as the grounds that used to allow them to continue (safety, comfort, inner parent and child hookups) are flooded with PURE love from the sacred union templates and guides, Divine Source, and those of us in human form exploring and embodying this sacred union ground. Again, we can support you in SoulFullHeart to walk out the completion of the scared union, to claim your SELF, to deepen the process of healing SELF, to overflow self love….
 
These completions of scared unions can happen rapidly right now where the inertia of the previous years is dissolved away in the frequencies of PURE love. A soul that has been awakening and a heart that has been healing just vibrates too high to remain in the stuck, lower frequency ground anymore of a relationship where their partner is not coming with them into awakening and healing. This higher vibration (Often sought out alone by the awakening mate or ‘outside’ the relationship) starts to flood the relationship and either transforms it into something new, or collapses it.
 
These sacred union codes are an invitation to move into a ‘next place’ of evolution for our species, where we experience moving from a wounded “I” to a healthy “I” to more and more a “We”. Sacred union offers the remembrance of this ground, of the unity consciousness we know as higher selves and our soul fractals/guides know too. It is a remembrance AND it is a new discovery too, as we heal our emotional bodies in NEW ways in this modern age that allow for a deeper and healthier transaction ground within union. Inviting into MORE love, with self and with other and where other becomes self and yet IS separate too in a delicious dance of conscious duality. ❤
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Flight of the Angel King

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image by JULIANA KARINA VASCONCELOS

 

Spread your wings my Gaia born angel son

Release those weakening Earth worn binds

That keep you anchored, torn, and done

Feel the lift from within your effervescent spirit

That sings loud and proud of your childhood days

Where the only things that truly mattered

Were the things that mattered not

Taste the bittersweet tears of moments passed

Of the pain that was buried deep inside

The part that protected you from receiving more

Than what you could dare to bare.  

You have been saved for this particular time

This unique love sworn moment

To inhabit all you were meant to be

In the quest for the infinite sea

Join in union within your battled scars

The mating call of your deepest desire

The road less traveled yet traveled far

To the greatest heights of the Heart´s burning fire.

Take that golden chalice my glory sown king

To the shores of your not so distant brothers

Shine the destined light of days yet still forgotten

The time when love reigned and beauty retained

Call to your heavenly and star crossed Queen

With the poems of your deepest passion

The song of your strengthening yet still fragile heart

That opens the gateway to a universe henceforth unseen

This is your only duty, my son

The only reason to BE

Open that magical door of your once hidden heart

To days of unknown treasures and uniting the souls of HE.  

 

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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The Fellowship of the Kings of Heart

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I have a continued calling and desire to keep writing and inviting others to feel this archetypal King energy inside the hearts of all men.  This is even true for women, as they have their own inner masculine energy that has protected their inner femininity from fully blooming for the most noble of reasons.  They too can be healed to a King that helps to become to a counterpart to her arising Queen.  For men, it becomes one portal into our deepest essence as a sacred human in masculine form.  

I can’t help but to feel a loneliness that exists in the Heart of Man.  An authentic desire for deeper connection and resonance.  So much of our connection can be in the mental body,and if it does transact in the emotional body there can be some deep resistances to becoming too intimate.  There is a dearth of authentic, intimate templating that we have been exposed to, at least in my past personal experience.  I always felt more comfortable being more emotional with women than with men, but seemed to find more heart sensitive men to have relationships with when I did.  But there is another level of vulnerability that we never seemed to cross.  We stayed in a contracted frequency that had some nourishment but not a lot of growth.  

As we find ourselves on ever-changing timelines and raising frequencies, we are being exposed to our deeper needs, desires, and the pains that follow them. We are being moved into experiences of remembering more of who we ARE in our most authentic Truth.  As men, I feel how their is a desire to share this within community that can find itself to lean more toward mental digestions.  Or there is a heartfelt ache to connect in heart space but there may be no one around to really understand what is moving through you.  Or you may be blessed a beautiful sweet spot and are desiring more to join you.  

I feel that we are being called back into our most heart-open leading edge of service and leadership.  One that starts square in our hearts to feel all the places where we feel alone, forsaken, guilty, unworthy, confused, or in doubt.  There are many different textures and levels inside of us that desire to be felt and for some it can be a lot to hold.  The heart is seeking feeling and to be reunited with its soul.  Its King.  It seeks to be made whole and then expanded out into the Cosmic Heart of Humanity.  To lead others into the glorious NOW of our deepest gifts and magic.  To fly in the jetstream of Golden Consciousness with an untethered mind free of the energy that kept it in the dark spaces of our pain.  This is what I feel we ache for.  I least my heart and soul does.

And I wish to do this with other men in a fellowship of leadership.  We have such a huge part to play in this arising new golden era of consciousness.  To help heal the All by going into our One.  To reclaim our brilliant kingdom within full of passion, vision, and creativity.  We permit ourselves to live the lives of the Kings that we ARE and encourage and challenge each other lovingly to this grand place of masculine relationship.
I have experienced this with my good friend Raphael Awen and so much want to share this experience with other men.  I loved my male friends dearly, as brothers of heart.  I found myself on a new timeline, but feel them at times in my heart.  

This is a show of desire to be in a bond of like-hearted souls that have chosen to fully inhabit their desire for growth, healing, and building an Empire of Love.  I feel a new care and expanded heart for men everywhere, regardless where we are at on our quest.  I would love to serve the hearts of those so drawn to this fellowship and leadership of Heart.  I claim this inner kingdom for myself and long for you to do the same.  

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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Healing The Heart of Man From Inside Out

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As more news about war comes into my awareness, as I do not read much anymore, I felt a ping in my heart and a desire to write about the nature of this and its relationship to the wounded masculine.  It was also inspired by an experience that Jelelle had that she will be sharing later.

In Heart of Man there wages a battle between so many different facets of himself.  The need for control over the desire to surrender, the will to resist over the will to live, the self-punishment over the self-compassion.  The Heart of Man is at a crossroads.  A place where the Soul of Man is to be claimed or refused.  So much of this inner struggle is playing out today in the Theater of the Wounded Masculine.  An ever present theme of triumph and tragedy.  Domination and aggression.  Withdraw and hiding.  This is all happening within.  If we truly want to be a part of another timeline we must first be willing to go inside and face our own inner battlefield.

Those that are in a position of ¨power¨ are mere projections of what lies in our shadow.  We must be willing to feel that if we are to truly change the energy that persists ¨out there¨.  These wounded expressions in male form are but uninitiated boys with deadly toys.  But they all have a higher self that is fully aware of this.  This is why it is so important to connect with your own as they represent a fractal of the larger sacred masculine energy in the universe.  When you feel your own unhealed inner boy and its reigning punisher, you can then begin to feel compassion for those who are in positions of power.  If we throw our angst and hatred at them we are really only doing it to ourselves.  The only power that heals is Love.

In the wounded boy lies his relationship to both the masculine and the feminine represented by his mother and father.  This plays out both this life and other lives.  The templating received by Dad in what masculinity is has a huge impact on his worldview.   The relationship to Mom and her feminine templating determines to a large extent how the feminine lives in Man.  This becomes an inner relationship inside of us that, unless becomes conscious, can have many unhealthy consequences.  This relationship to the feminine that resides within is a portal into our true masculinity and continued arising soul growth.  

Among the boy though, I feel a fallen King that has forgotten his true essence as a God.  Something happened that collapsed this union with the Sacred.  He split off from Source and there is a sense of longing, guilt, abandonment, and rage all swirled together.  When I visit a sacred grove of Sequoia trees that is my personal soul space I can feel many of these fallen Kings there.  They are wanting to be connected to and felt in their pain.  They represent a more subconscious energy that feels to inhabit a more lower 4D frequency. They know what is up but feel powerless and even worthless to do anything about it.  I felt tears for them as I have felt my own fallen king and continue to do so.  

But right behind them are our High King/ Angelic presence.  The bridge to our true essence as Love´s co-creative force.  The rightful heir to our Throne of BEing.  We ARE already that.  They are watching us and aching for connection, to free ourselves from the chains of our own making. One´s that can only be shed with Love and Compassion.  The more we can feel and connect with them the more of our true power we can embody.  The more self-love we can manifest and send back to the collective with open hearts.  

So when I hear of tidbits of news from 3D, I go into my heart and feel myself.  I feel the war raging inside others and send them as much love that I have to offer from my own well.  I feel each one as a sacred brother on their own journey of lesson and discovery.  With each new opening of love within myself ripples itself out into the Heart of Man.  Connecting to other High Kings to serve this love is my calling and purpose in whatever way that shows up, whether through my own journeys, writing, or spaceholding.  I feel the true masculine is a beautiful and powerfully creative expression of Divinity.  He so much more than we could ever imagine and  as we go into our own hearts and face our shadow, the true essence of Man is revealed in all His glory.  And a new timeline emerges….

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com.  Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

From Sword to Chalice: The Journey of the King of Hearts

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By Raphael Awen

If there’s one thing about a King, in our minds at least, he does what he wants, when he wants.

He is anything but small.

In our deepest heart-picture of this King, he knows the greatest fulfillments possible because he is a benevolent King. He rules with the best interests of all in his Kingdom. And in this way, the heart of the King, extends to his Queen, which kindles a hearth, and this hearth-warmth extends beyond to fill the entire Kingdom. Wealth and bounty are the results.

This idealized picture is more than a picture. It is a way of being that anyone who wants to can tune into and play in and on the instrument of their lives.

And it’s not gender specific. There is nothing quite so powerful and beautiful as a woman who knows her own inner King. She knows the ‘he’ of her ‘she’.

This true King of hearts however didn’t end up here simply by being lazily born into something. No, life brought him a very individual and specific-to-him set of circumstances that he navigated from the bridge of his heart when there seemed like nothing to gain and everything to lose. In fact, he’s lost many things and many times, more than once excruciatingly so.

One of the first things he had to let go of by way of deep loss was the fight for what was right and the need to be right to instead allow his feeling heart to sort out what was truly right on a far deeper scale than a moral dictate. In this way, great internal conflicts had to be faced and felt, navigated and negotiated to arrive here at peace with self. His outer kingdom is only and ever a reflection of the pursuit of his own inner kingdom. His entitlements are really his ‘in’-titlements. He’s found all he’s found through his own heart. No one had to be made any less for him to know his more. And no one or no thing can take away what he’s possessed.

The heart of the King is a place of rest now from fighting for anything where peace now reigns, and all subjects in his kingdom can feel an unmistakable emanation of that peace. The sword has been replaced by the chalice.

All of us, male and female, can know this inner King state. Arriving here is a way of being and is the result of a desired and decreed journey of the heart that you choose yourself, for you and by you. After all, you are the sovereign of your own heart and your inner Kingdom and your inner Queendom extend to all you know, and beyond to those you don’t yet know. This outer reflection of others matching the inner reflection of the discovery and peace that now exists between all parts of yourself…

And somehow, in this magical YOUniverse, there is no shortage of space for everyone’s Kingdom. The presence of yours is not to the detriment of mine. You having all you want and need and desire, no matter how large and grand, is not at my expense in any way. In fact, the opposite is true in this infinitely abundant reality. Abundance flows from this Kings heart. There’s actually way more than can ever be needed or used. When I feel your real and true abundance, your heart bounty…it triggers my own, more and more.

Our challenge has gone from not having to having. What in the world will you do with all this? Your task has now changed from seeking what you want and need to finding a place to share your bounty.

Who could have imagined when you set out in this journey, feeling so pressed by what felt missing, that this would be your ending? How could such unrest and an urge to fight lead to such peace and rest? The timelines have merged. The fight has collapsed into love.

You found you. You let in you. It was no small undertaking, but my god, was it ever worth the entire journey…

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

The Quest For The Sacred Masculine

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By Raphael Awen

The question of ‘What is the Sacred Masculine?’ is itself, in big part, the quest for the Sacred Masculine.

It is the search for the hidden.

It is the willingness to search for something that you haven’t yet defined or understood mentally under the intuition that you’ll know it when you see it.

It is the knowledge that you have been called to search for something that you know you once knew something of, but willingly surrendered to forgetting in order to be re-membered and re-quested back into as a way of being re-initiated and re-instated back into its essence, albeit at a much deeper level of awareness and lived-into reality.

It is the knowledge that the mystery of the Sacred Masculine will always be shrouded and protected to significant degree from those who have chosen timelines of being veiled from its awareness. As Yeshua said ‘It is given to those who are ready to see, and for the rest, it remains safely hidden in parables’.

Further, the willingness and readiness to see it is also what creates it. It is not an ‘external to us’ kind of thing. It is IN us.

AND, it is equally offered to both male and female, though understandably, initially men will naturally be drawn more than women to plumb its depths.

Our gender expression this life is meant to be more like a multi-dimensional home address to return to, in a universe of travel and discovery, rather than a tether to a life of duty and obligation, anchored to one time and place. We get to hold a primary gender polarity as a player in this divine duality dance, but we are welcome to experience the farthest reaches of the entire dance floor.

Being gifted with a sacred calling to seek, discover and inhabit both the Sacred Masculine and the Divine Feminine inside of our individual selves is a gift of cosmic proportions. The universe is actually seeking to know itself through us. It wants to make you its next trophy experience that legends are made of.

AND, because we ARE the whole at the same time as we are the individual, in this fractal reality, consciousness itself is living out its own discovery and quest of the Sacred Masculine in real time. When you feel that, it changes from a personal achievement or attainment picture to a cosmic ache living its way through you. The consolation to the ache is that what the universe discovers on this quest moving through you, YOU will be the first beneficiary of, to walk out that truth in your everyday life and relationships.

You are literally given a new operating system that forms the basis of your being. You, as you know you, will go through layers upon layers of transmutation. Now, you can see why this level of these kinds of truths are hidden away in parables and mystery and archetype. It’s not that the universe wants to keep anything from you, it’s much more like YOU are keeping things from the universe! The universe cannot force anything upon you. It can only move by your permission and desire.

This is the ’emotorium’ in which all of our life dramas are much like movies meant to ‘move’ us. The word ‘movies’ was invented when pictures went from still pictures to moving pictures, or motion-pictures. We are now at a cosmologically heightened tipping point where our lives, much in the same way, are invited to let go of still-picture living and let in a life of momentum in continual change. That includes death and rebirth. That includes chaos. That includes the essence of all that is moving through us, but again, not without our permission and desire.

The quest for the Sacred Masculine is very much an inner quest, that MANifests in your outer reality. Very good advice would be to count the cost before you undertake such a journey. Your life as you know it now is guaranteed to be different in ways you cannot predict or know going in.

What do you feel about your roles of husband, father, career person, your friends and family? If you approach coming to embody more of the Sacred Masculine without giving it a permission to disrupt your life as you know it, or expecting it only to be an enhancement to your present life, you can be sure the veil to the Sacred Masculine will remain a firm boundary refusing you entry. In this way, the Sacred Masculine is not out to spite you, but actually protecting you from what you are not yet ready for. You may have matured physically, but the universe requires you to be coming of age emotionally for this initiation to be a healthy one for you. Only now can these epic journeys be life-giving instead of traumas. Only now can you take gigantic steps forward into what you were meant to be, with your permission, desire and readiness leading.

Ultimately, I know this will be an infinite and ongoing discovery. One day’s celebrated achievements will be lovingly seen and reminisced later as kindergarten level experiences that bred in us the courage for the next step, as they were meant to, and as the need to compare and rate experience becomes more and more irrelevant.

We are all being invited into our personal and collective ‘more’ as the universe holds all the space and time needed as the emotorium that it is, producing our movements, with the feminine and masculine polarities providing what once was seen as separation and division, but now providing the most exquisite of experience beyond all previously imagined.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

On Showing Up

By Raphael Awen

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Never before are we being asked to show up like we are right now.

But what does it mean to ‘show up’?

The show is the show of your life, as you know it right now, as its unfolding before you. It is who and what is in your face, in your inbox. It is who has your number. It is what’s happening in public and private.

There’s a new word in our culture for the disappearing act people play when they want to exit a situation without facing a goodbye. It’s called ‘ghosting’. ‘Love bite’ is another very real scenario where a couple meet and soar to some mega heights of intimacy and sexuality, only to have one party inexplicably exit the relationship, leaving the other devastated.

Until we face and complete a situation or a relationship, we haven’t grounded the lessons life was wanting to give us through that very real drama in the show of our lives.

But what would propel us to avoid such completions? Could it be that subconsciously we are simply afraid to go on to our next lessons? Like the now quite famous saying of ‘our greatest fear is not that we are small, but rather that we are great beyond measure.’

I so believe that we are in the school of coming to terms with our own greatness, and this is what is going on in our relationship playouts. Life is ever seeking to lead us to know, feel and integrate our own bigness, the infinite love that we actually are, but have willingly forgotten, in order to be remembered into an even larger version of ourselves from the us that chose and surrendered to the forgetting.

Life is ever seeking to take us out into the deep waters beyond the fear of our own greatness into entirely new terrains that consciously we have yet to be introduced to. Life provides the path and stepping stones for us, but it only works to the degree we are willing to show up for it.

Showing up is about knowing what you really and truly want, and being willing to claim that, and then being willing to show up further for any of the fallouts and fallins that occur because of that claim.

Showing up for anything or anyone in life is only real if it begins with truly showing up for yourself in this way. Many will expound the virtues of selflessness here as a way to mask their fear of their own greatness. Showing up for others when you are not showing up for yourself is actually a form of cocreated and mutual abuse between you and the person you are supposedly helping. It’s a pact of mutuality to stay safely small known as caretaking.

Then these ghosting and love bite scenarios are the only option that’s left for people when their self worth is worn too low to sustain any more perceived loss to that meager self worth.

All of this changes intensely however when one begins choosing this new integration of showing up for themselves. Simply becoming honest with oneself reverses decades and even lifetimes of self-disintegration.

Where is life asking you to show up right now? I feel I can promise you (hopefully without sounding too parental) that if you are willing to show up for your own desires in this way, life will meet you and grace you with all that you need to navigate that choice point. Your choices are a very literal portal into the next versions of yourself that life is wanting to birth in you.

I’m showing up for a men’s group call tomorrow and I want to invite you to show up for it as well if this juice and energy calls to you. The group calls we lead most weekends are about introducing a path that we call SoulFullHeart and I invite you to check out our website as fully as it calls to you at soulfullheartwayoflife.com. The men’s group link for tomorrow is below (and there is a women’s group call that Jelelle is leading on April 15th..)

https://www.facebook.com/events/1123512704444039??ti=ia

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.