The Unsolvable, Yet Discoverable Mystery Of You

By Jelelle Awen

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It is wonderful to be such a mystery! To have so many unknown depths of self, of soul self, of heart self, to discover and uncover as you awaken, as you grow, as you go!

Parts of you may be afraid for you to feel and to know yourself at these deeper levels, concerned that you cannot handle it or will be overwhelmed or will go crazy….there are many of these concerns when and as you go deeper into yourself.

When these guarding and protective energies of you can FEEL that YOU(awakening you, authentic self you) are there….when there is a growing sense of your curiosity and your desire to truly feel and know yourself…so the guardedness can begin to relax, contribute and even HELP you with the process of self discovery rather than block it. Inner resistance and push-pull lessens SO much when this inner negotiation can consciously happen, held and supported by Divine frequencies too.

You are a mystery that ever unfolds, not really solvable, yet discoverable in tender moments of increasing self intimacy and self love!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Women’s Group Call – Emotional Body And Inner Feminine Connection, Guided Meditation, Sharings With Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

 

Here is the recording of our wonderful, touching AND powerful women’s SoulFullHeart call on Saturday! I offer (with contributions from SFH FacilitatorKalayna Colibri) about how masculine frequencies become ingrained and solidified into stuck energies (or what we call ‘parts’ or aspects’) of self as an adaptation to our environment, our families (esp. our birth mothers), our culture, etc. These masculine energies then protect our inner feminine from arising in full expression and bloom until it is ‘safe’ to do so through negotiation and healing with the Inner Protector part esp. Also, our soul gift expression and sense of soul purpose can be blocked or overly inhabited by masculine energies. Connection and surrogacies with Divine Feminine guides helps to open up this access for us and to our soul legacy or Metasoul line.

I also lead a guided meditation in this call to connect with your Emotional Body, symbolized by a river. You experience this river however you are meant to and are invited to submerge in it as well, feeling whatever feelings come up, visions, images, messages, etc. You also connect with your Inner Protector, the guard of your emotional body and inner feminine, to begin the negotiation with this energy that allows more access to both.

There are also personal sharings from two women who are currently engaged in the SoulFullHeart process through regular sessions with me, which you can read more about here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions. I feel so grateful to include their sharings as they offer so vulnerably and genuinely what their experience is with their emotional bodies and their Inner Protectors from a place of deepening into the process.

If you would like to join us for our next group call, we are hosting one on saturday with ALL of us and for women AND men. Raphael Awen and I will be teaching more about the SoulFullHeart perspective, process, community, and way of life as it connects to the overall ascension process, emotional body awakening and healing, sacred union, sacred masculine and feminine expression, body health, etc. We will be coleading a guided meditation as well to connect with Divine Guides and your Inner Protector – to start that connection or to deepen it. Go here for more information about joining us after offering at $11 min. donation:https://www.facebook.com/events/1888602498020451

The next women’s call is July 15th, if you would like to join us! Go to soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls or https://www.facebook.com/events/470353563318653

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Trusting What You Are BEcoming

By Jelelle Awen

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To trust what you are BEcoming, to let go of what isn’t YOU and never really WAS in order to return to and remember who you REALLY are……this is the unfolding, arising surrendering process that the Divine energies all around you are supporting.

To let go of others that can’t see you, can’t let in your love, your light or ALL of what awakens as your soul comes through….and yet to invite them to come along, BOTH, yet without settling, shrinking, grabbing at them. Your energy of open, ready, desiring, yet not compromising or playing games invites them to BE the same or to move on.

To no longer need of convincing, contending, or proving to others even as you teach, lead, respond, offer them your soul gifts, healing heart, growing sense of Infinite Possibilities. As you SHARE what you are here to offer as a soul from a place of authenticity, so you become a mirror for those who are ready and meant to see and BE this as well.

To FEEL what is real INside of your heart and soul, what has been contained, restrained, reframed, conditioned and now wants to leak, peak, burst, purge, open, reveal AND heal. This revealing gives others the space and inspiration to be REAL too and NEW deeper intimacy can flow then between you.

This is the personal disclosure process INside that leads to a life experienced as transparent and OPEN with nothing to hide, no compartments, no bubbles that need bursting……as you are loving ALL that you are and so experience a life that is reflecting the same.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling What Is Real On Father’s Day

By Jelelle Awen

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It is father’s day. I didn’t really track this as I haven’t had a father figure in my life for many years by choice. Yet, I know that many ‘celebrate’ this day and their fathers and dads. I put celebrate in quotes because perhaps, on many levels, there may not be much to celebrate about your relationship with your father. It can be a sticky thing often, as it is with mothers too, to perhaps ‘show up for mom or dad’ out of obligation rather than based on what you most authentically want and desire.

Even if you want to celebrate your birth father today, the questions you could ask are to illuminate the relationship are, “What is my emotional truth about my relationship with my father?” “What do I (and parts of me) really FEEL about being with him?” “Is it a part of me which is ‘doing’ the role of son or daughter?” “Does my spirituality and my truths about reality get put aside when I spend time with my dad and how does this make me feel?”

Even if you consciously feel that your relationship with your father is a good and healthy one, I offer that unless you BOTH have done personal healing work plus awakening soul frequencies to connect around, healing the karmic frequencies of your soul legacy together…..it is a bond that is probably mostly based on lower frequencies, codependence, usually buried deep in the subconscious and emotional body. To be REAL about this relationship and how it has impacted you is the start of awakening beyond it.

For women who are desiring to embody their sacred femininity, deconditioning from the templating of their birth fathers can be important to the process. Deconditioning looks like feeling inside yourself how his templating around how he responded to you AS a woman, LIVES inside of you and influences parts of you. Also, feeling the ‘ideas’ that he modeled to you about what it means to be a man responding to a woman, your sexuality (either over or under energized) and especially his relationship with your mother and how he treats her. ALL of this goes into you energetically and parts of you are impacted by it. How you feel and relate with men is impacted by this relationship with father. Distant or overly involved….push/pull or energetically ‘mating’….these frequencies create textures inside, energies inside, that play out then in relationships.

For men, the way that they currently relate to men and within relationships with women too can be connected to their relationships with their birth father and how HE relates to both. This can play out in parts that are pushing away from the disconnected father or the overly involved father or the critical father energies, which then get internalized inside, or have BEcome an internal father with similar tones. Your originally ideas and sense of ‘what it means to be a man’ come from the source of your father.

On Father’s Day, I feel appreciation for the crucible of growth and reflection of my shadow side (and some leading edge sides although not much) that my fathers offered to me. I had one birth father who left my life when I was very young and two stepfathers after that with very mixed experiences and emotional abuse frequencies with one of them. It has been my healthiest and highest choice not to be in relationship with them for many years as we went on different paths around emotional body healing and soul awakening (which I chose deeply, following my soul purpose here.) I feel love for them all on the soul level and can connect there with their higher selves in moments even as we are not in relationship here.

I feel appreciation mostly though for myself and my commitment to HEAL what was wounded and harmed (all my choice on a soul level) by the dysfunction and toxicity represented in these relationships with fathers. I became a sort of father to all parts of me (and mother too) who so needed nurturing and support and comfort and so was able to hold space for my own healing. I held my inner child especially around this, until her wounded and hurt frequencies transmuted into magical 4D and eventually 5D crystal light energies.

My gratitude and appreciation also goes toward the Divine Father (which I experience primarily through the energies of Archangel Metatron and Christiel/Yeshua too) and all the frequencies for which He offers His heart and comfort to heal these woundings within us around these relationships. It has been the loving Divine Father frequencies (not like the patriarchal punishing God of religions) that come through that has provided and templated for me what it means to be fathered as a sacred feminine woman here during this intense time of transition and invitation into our sacred humanity. And it is this energy for which my deepest sense of daughter extends….

The invitation here is to feel what is real within your relationship with your father and to lead with this realness and vulnerability to see what can unfold and arise and what cannot between you. To feel into perhaps taking space from the relationship in order to BE with the parts of you that need to receive a NEW template of fatherly energies from you and with the Divine to go deeper into your own growth, your own BEing, and your sacred humanity.

Here is an article I wrote on Mother’s Day that inspired this one: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/05/14/feeling-what-is-real-on-mothers-day/

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Blessed And Blissed: A Poem Honoring Sacred Sexuality

By Jelelle Awen

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In this post-love floating place, our bodies remembering the other lifetimes of entwining…
different bodies, same Metasouls, we were and ARE them, then and NOW.

Witnesses from the stars, our star family, coming in, moving their language from our lips and to our hips…
We dance to the melody of syllables unknown to the mind, yet familiar to the soul.

Timelines merge and blur….we see this life and that life, the different forms and faces of our soul’s projections’ pair bonding beyond time measurements of past, history, prior or previous.

There are energies here arising NEW and yet so common between us, counterparts so many times….your soul choosing male, mine as female.

Pleasure, yes, of the bodies that come together….but, MORE, too, there is the exquisiteness of union and sense of merging during these moments of connection, Metasoul sex.

The bounties of cherishment, reverence, appreciation between us….the union is not taken for granted, yet blessed and blissed by our grateful hearts.

This is the legacy of our sacred union and realization of our male to female duality dance when the polarities are resting, the edges are lessening, the frictions are easing, the tensions are softening……

And we are FREE then to fall and find, to eventually land, back in the place of soft LOVE that is US when we join together.

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To read more about Counterpart Soul Mates and the Metasoul:https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/bridging-to-our-metasoul-a…/

Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Allowing Emotions To Come UP Through Connecting With Your Inner Protector

By Jelelle Awen
Image is by Ana Cruz

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FEEL. Just feel. Let the textures of your heart come up to BE. Allow what needs your attention to claim your space and hold it with self love. In this feeling, allowing, holding space for yourself, you create NEW possibilities of healing and transformation.

The parts of you that need you…the little girl INside or the little boy INside, the HUGE warrior, the guard on duty, the controller/manager, the punisher/critic, the teenager…..ALL these aspects and their emotional reality are pinging and ponging from within you. It doesn’t really work to ignore this, although you can try and part of you may try VERY hard to suppress all this emotional activity from coming UP and out.

All these parts came and formed when feeling was not OK, when there was no space made inside for them and with them by those meant to care and guide, your caregivers and parents as they didn’t have this either. There was no space for feeling what you were feeling WHILE you were feeling it and so the energy gets stuck. It is stuck in stories, scenes, and moments that your mind brings you back to often, trying to help your heart heal yet unable to do it. Your mind brings you ‘back’, yet these moments live in the now of the emotional body, continuing to play out and influence you. These moments need your heart presence in order to be ‘moved on’.

In sessions lately, I have been hearing more from people who do not remember very much about their childhoods. Or they can’t remember after certain traumatic and painful events happen or before these events. This is not actually a matter of memory of the mind, but rather, the Inner Protector which has ‘shut down’ access to the memories because they would be too painful for you. The Protector becomes worried and concerned that you couldn’t ‘handle’ to remember and emotionally digest it.

In the SoulFullHeart process, we support the authentic You to arise that CAN handle and wants to feel, to remember in order to heal, and to BE with the stuck places and parts that need you. You begin to remember it ALL (including other lifetimes with increasing clarity) AS you negotiate with the Inner Protector and Soul Guardian aspect. Negotiation with this part allows for the pipeline of memory to open and trust grows that You can handle what comes as a result. Your Protector may still ‘see’ you as a child and as you connect consciously with them, they start to lean into you and rest, feel you as more of an emotionally mature adult. As the Protector rests, this opens up your heart, body, soul, mind in often HUGE and new ways. You can read more about that here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts.

Here are teachings about the Inner Protector and a guided meditation to connect with this aspect of you during a recent group call: https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc

FEEL. Just feel. It’ll be OK. It’ll be Beautiful even when it is necessarily painful. So much support is coming from these bounding and bountiful energy waves right now to hold a space for the feeling of feelings. So much support WITH love to go where love wants to go and couldn’t go in the moment, yet can in the NOW…..moving, transforming, and offering so much more possibility of love as you feel and, so, heal. ❤ ❤

 

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: UPgrades Of ALL Bodies, Especially Your Emotional Body (Video With Jelelle Awen)

By Jelelle Awen

 

Oh, these HIGH energies….they seem to draw out the weather metaphors! Storms, blizzards, tidal waves…..whatever you call them, they feel like electric light and love flashes of goodness from the Universe and Divine Source. Our Star Family and our Ethereal Guides/aspects are witnessing and watching the ‘show’ as we are offered ALL that we need to UPgrade and transform into what we are meant to BE, the BEST of what we can be as sacred humans. These energies offer us tastes of how it IS when we vibrate at a higher rate and with more expanded consciousness from what we have been conditioned to in 3D life.
 
I felt to offer a video today talking more about the UPgrades that are available to us right now through these energies, and related to our emotional bodies specifically. The emotive ground of our BEing is one of the most magical and amazing things about us as humans. Our capacity to FEEL is admired by Higher Dimensional BEings. Our hearts and tears are a beacon going out into the galactic realms, drawing attention and focus from around the cosmos. ‘Your tears contain so much interesting information!’ one of my Star BEing aspects/guides exclaimed to me once as I was crying. And it feels so true!
 
To turn around our 3D conditioning that our emotions are ‘bad’, ‘wrong’ or ‘need to be suppressed’ or ‘need to be drugged or numbed’ is an important aspect of embracing the UPgrades that are available to us related to our emotional bodies. To instead feel that our emotions are ‘sacred’ (whatever they are) and are offering us important information and data about our hearts, mind, souls, and bodies. It becomes then about how we RELATE with our emotions, not resisting that we have them in the first place.
 
Reacting or reactivity is when we BECOME our emotions rather than feel them. It is a charged energy that just bursts out or is trying to be suppressed by a Protector Part of us and the whole energy can feel uncomfortable and awkward too because part of us is resisting to feel AND to be felt. When we are relating WITH our emotions as parts of us (identifying specific emotional tones with certain aspects of self), then we can get objectivity, separation, and self LOVING energies can come in. We are able then to understand and relate WITH what the feelings are, where they originate from, and help them transform into higher vibrational frequencies with eventual integration into the wholeness of our BEing.
 
I experience that people are the MOST beautiful when they cry and are feeling themselves. The MOST tender, precious, vulnerable, and even magical frequencies can come up in this emotional expression when it is allowed the space to BE and come and Arise. Not to suffer over suffering, but to feel, heal, transform, and, so, BEcome love, which is what these energies seem to be supporting us to BE! ~
 
I explain more about this process in the video below and there is much more information about how we work with this through individual and couples sessions in SoulFullHeart here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions and soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess. Also, Kalayna Colibri and I will be offering teachings and facilitation, plus I will be leading a guided meditation related to the sacred feminine emotional body, and how wounded masculine aspects show up, during a woman’s group call this Saturday: https://www.facebook.com/events/398188883914916
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Intense Ascension UPgrades Happening Now

By Jelelle Awen

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The intensity of the energies in the outer cosmos are undeniable in their impact on the INNER cosmos. I spent many hours in meditation/float/drift and sleep space yesterday, connecting in, UP, and out. I couldn’t really DO anything else, so it was a surrendered into the ‘here but NOT here’, space yesterday for me. I have been in service of love with others mode for awhile, so the going within felt wonderful. Archangel Metatron was a constant presence, his comforting fatherly energy guiding me, ‘working on’ me, and showing me what he would like me to share and bridge to you as you undergo your OWN individual processes of ascension and awakening to your sacred humanity during this intense upgrade phase.

Yes, it’s an ‘upgrade’ phase. UPgrade to remember what you have put in purposeful shadow about your soul’s experiences in all the projections for which it exists and lives in the Now. UPgrading to feel that rather than ‘past lives’, ALL these soul energies impact you Now and are ‘bleeding’ more and more into your present life. Unexplainable emotional reactions, karmic clashes (especially with romantic partners), those dramatic surges that your mind can’t track or fix to ‘this life’ reasons……..THIS is the soul coming through and showing you some of your stories as they live and breathe in your Metasoul line.

Timelines are becoming more transparent, meaning less delineation between the ‘current’ one that you are living and the others that share the same Metasoul source as you. I have experienced my life in this multidimensional way for many years, yet still, it is amazing to me how THIN the boundaries are becoming (not that there ever really WERE any boundaries). In every moment, I am feeling into what is ME this life and what are Metasoul sister aspects reactions and SOUL realities coming through. This is not too difficult for me as I have cleared so much of my emotional body parts (stuck energies) from this life and other lifetimes, YET it could be very challenging to sort it out if this a newer experience for you. I’m wanting to validate that it is crazy making at times to feel these surges and energies that don’t feel like YOU, yet they are from SOMEWHERE else, some OTHER time or era or planet even. This can show up in very intense dreams too where you may even wake up sobbing or feeling very deeply.

Wanting to UPgrade, too, is your emotional body. Your emotional body may be anchored by undigested experiences from this life AND other lifetimes (the emotional body spans timelines, I’m beginning to feel there is a shared emotional body for the entire Metasoul line!) This lack of digestion of traumas and woundings leads to the formation of what we call in SoulFullHeart “parts or aspects”. These parts are mostly conditioned and connected to 3D frequencies, and create personas, masks, projections around you and AS you. Who you THINK you are may, at this moment, may LARGELY be these persona aspects until you differentiate and separate from them. The wonderful opportunity in this is that you BEcome your authentic self more and more as these layers are felt and integrate. This is the process that we hold space for in SoulFullHeart through sessions and group calls, more here about that: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

UPgrading too is your carbon-based body to contain and BE more and more light. Your body may be ‘kicking into’ something that is not quite understandable or trackable by your mind right now. You may be feeling extreme sleepiness too and sleeping much more than usual right now or really wanting to. More diet adjusts as certain frequencies contained in foods no longer match the fuel that your body most wants and needs. It is shifting from needing food at ALL, living more on light and love. I am back to a mostly eating fruit phase to ‘clean out’ again and allow for lighter digestion, which seems to help as the body is going through so many upgrades. Muscle tensions and soreness (especially in your head and neck) can flare up, along with head pains as the pineal and pituitary glands become more active. This is a meditation that I did with Mother Mary offering soothing of ascension body symptoms that may help with the surrendering process around the body changes: https://youtu.be/nkTbTJBBlHE?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvL3_HIusq0GwJO4ziwlmioz

For your chakras, UPgrading means functioning at a higher vibrational spin, new color spectrum, more crystalline feel and energy to ALL of them. As the ascension chakras are becoming more activated, new frequencies are coming in from the Stellar Gateway chakra (about two feet above your head), your Star Chakra (one foot above your head), your Clausal Chakra (behind your head) running down your main chakras and to your earth chakra (about a foot below your physical feet). This energy flow creates a 5D sacred human column, a ‘violet print’ (higher vibe than a blueprint) for your 5D energetic body. I’ve been shown pictures of this, yet it is difficult to describe in words. You can visualize your auric field as a very bright violet white tree, with branches expanding up, reaching up….and then, the trunk as your body with roots then extending down to connect with Mother Gaia.

Surrendering to this UPgrading process is BEing open to NEW experiences of reality. To let go of the mind’s need to understand and track all of it and the ways that it manifests in your life. To reassure the parts of you that may be fearful or resistant to the transformation process. Your body/heart/mind/soul are leading the way here, along with increasing merging with your Higher Self. You can trust that you are in VERY good hands and hearts here as your Angelic and Star BEing aspects/guides/family are helping out, witnessing, and supporting the process as well. You don’t even have to consciously connect to ANY of that, it is just happening organically as it is meant to right NOW during this phase of BEcoming Infinite Love in Sacred Human form!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

In Your Heart Gaze: Poem Celebrating Sacred Union

By Jelelle Awen

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Nine years ago, I wrote this poem as I was newly falling in love with BEloved man, my Counterpart soul mate Raphael Awen for which I am so blessed to arise into life with and who celebrates the day of his birth today!

For you, my love, my joy, I am SO grateful for you and for US…..I am still falling….


You said: “How uncluttered our playground,
Swept clean by the unknown and
Free from the grasping that secures love,
But closes the heart.”

As you said, in your fashion that gives
Way to a rising flight of desire
Inside of me

And in your heart gaze, I feel delicate as
An orchid’s fastly fresh season

Between us,
The quiet is
So loudly gentle, a heat-filled
Riot of alive silence

And in your heart gaze, I feel still and strong as
The tide’s force on water

My love, I ache to wrap around you
You in your leading,
Without any contortions
Or otherwise obvious struggle

I am claimed, not caught,
Free to finally let go into
A woman’s legacy of leaning….

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Bliss Mess Of Feeling Your Emotional Body During Ascension

By Jelelle Awen
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High pressure systems of energy, like what we are experiencing in the NOW and for many days/weeks/months, push up INTENSE feelings of what has been previously suppressed. Sometimes what has been judged by the part of you that judges as ‘ugly’ or ‘messy’….those often disowned tones of rage, despair, disdain, disconnect, depression, drama, self loathing….all those parts that have probably been deemed as ‘not fit for company’ or ‘put away in the inner closet.’

Explosive sometimes, these feelings can come up. Triggered by relationships, by situations, by just more moments made for them and by going within. The soul awakening can’t be bubbled off from the emotional body for long….eventually what has been let in (the frequencies of love and light) wash through and push UP reactions. Your Inner Protector may come in then and shut that process down with ‘no feelings allowed!’ messages, or certainly not any ‘negative’ ones that it thinks are NOT ok to see the light of your day.

Somehow it seems like the message has gotten highjacked by the parts of people that don’t want to feel anything difficult, messy, or ‘negative.’ When actually the HIGH frequencies of light and PURE love are what make it SAFE to feel these things. They are being provided by the Divine to ALLOW us to go into our emotional body in a way that we haven’t before as a species as THAT Is the ground that needs the MOST healing and of our attention.

We have been Star BEings, Oneness consciousness, much MORE than we have been human BEings. We are HERE to experience the bliss mess (yes BOTH) of FEELING. The bliss mess, the highs and lows, the ups and downs, the suffering and the joys, the tears and the laughs.

Oh, this is our humanity in ALL its glory. Angels and Star BEings are watching us, admiring us, merging with us (when our consciousness and emotional body are ready) more and more to experience this emotional experience of reality through and with us. They are not judging our emotional states, yet do hope for the end of our suffering over suffering and for us to heal from the karmic patterns that can unconsciously haunt us so that we can merge with them some more and create something completely NEW.

Our hearts are the beacon that shines across the stars and draws attention from around the galaxy….this I have been offered over and over.

As an emoto-spiritual forecaster (like weather forecaster, yes, that fits….of inner and outer heart and soul energies), I feel it’s important to offer a bridge about what is happening OUT THERE in the cosmos, in the grids, in the galactic spaces TO what may be happening inside, in your emotional body, in your reactions and experiences. Without that bridge, it can be challenging to feel how what is happening in the galactic ascension process has much meaning to your daily life as you are living it as the human BEing that you are.

I struggle sometimes when I am reading an energy update from someone to feel how it would relate to the pain, suffering, confusion, fear that I feel coming up for so many right now (and for parts of me for so many previous years too.) Or, if the energy healer/teacher does offer something about emotions, it is usually to just ‘be with them and allow them to move’ and they will ‘release’ somehow. While, yes, holding space for emotions is important and they can ‘move’ this way, in my sense it is just the surface level off gassing frequencies that move and most likely NOT the deeper root causes and origins that live in the emotional body AND in the soul field.

The emotional body has been my playground, me ground, and service of love ground for 10+ years (almost 15, I think) and it offers SO MUCH clarity, relief, and transformation to just DIVE into it rather than ignore it, suppress it, bypass it, spiritualize it, etc. The soul legacy ground/body has been the same for me and with others…..and it offers SO much richness of integration of soul gifts, soul purpose, archetypal healing to remember, to relieve, to feel, and to go there.

Yes, but, how? How to dive in? This is an important question, it really is, because BEing needs form to follow for awhile so that it can arise, which it will eventually if you are authentically going into the emotional body and the soul body too. The how I have written about many times and ways and you can read much more about the SoulFullHeart process that we offer at soulfullheartwayoflife.com. The main how is through connecting directly and with deep love to different aspects of yourself that LIVE in your emotional body and the ones that energize as ‘other lifetime’ aspects in your soul field too. SoulFullHeart Facilitators (including me for women over 30) then hold the space for this deep dive WITH you, yet it is led by you and your discoveries of SELF through journaling and meditation journeys primarily. And we offer a community of others engaged in this same process to provide support, powerful mirroring, intimacy, and connection through group calls, process groups and retreats in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico, and a private online group. More of the how is here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess and here soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts.

That’s my how anyway, maybe yours will be and is different. Yet, the importance of going into the emotional body seems difficult to deny when you feel the state of emotional maturity and health in our world and culture. This is like our ‘final frontier of exploration, along with our soul legacy (which was previously shrouded by a necessary veil of amnesia until we are ready). It offers a moon walk of emotional mystery, a bliss mess experience of US that unfolds in unexpected yet magical ways that ALWAYS seems to lead back to the experience of MORE love.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

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