Bringing your condition of unconditionality in order to enter relationship just doesn’t work.
We all have conditions, and pretending we don’t is usually a ruse to keep some deep suffering loops intact.
Real human relationality requires conditionality.
Only a hurting child part of us seeks the condition of unconditional love in human relationships.
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
Getting to a ‘higher frequency’ doesn’t necessarily mean it’s a more whole frequency.
Many etheric high frequency beings are not integrated to love.
It’s no different for us etheric beings in flesh. We have soul and heart wounds to heal. And the cool thing is as we begin there, our frequency just naturally goes higher, but without the tinny ring to it.
Whole-ness is about coming from one place of love more and more.
When we come from more than the one place of love, we are dis-integrated, and dis-integrous. This is a never complete journey, this journey to wholeness.
I’d take wholeness as a pursuit over a ‘higher frequency’ any day.
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
Without curiosity, we really are dead in the water.
Curiosity may be the greatest gift you could ever give yourself, your selves, or to an ‘other’.
At root, when we embody childlike curiosity, we are humbly admitting we don’t know, regardless of how much we may actually know. We are admitting that no matter how vaunted our knowing, it is minutiae in compare with the infinite unknown.
Not-knowing is the seat of reverence and wonder. Knowing is the seat of stuffing all you know in a can, and sitting on the can. Not knowing can take us to far, far greater places than knowing ever could.
Whatever it is that is sustaining your brain, your butt and your eyeballs as you are reading this is the subject of infinite wonder… and you literally are this …. as you are right now …. without doing any spiritual calisthenics, or meditations.
In fact many times, spiritual practices and the perception of needing to work at something in order to attain or feel something is often the biggest RESISTANCE to actually feeling the more that you claim to be seeking. The deeper truth then is that you are suspended in so much more, so much so, that a part of you is working hard to moderate the rate of saturation for fear of not being able to swim with it all.
You really are this hot stuff, a bit complicated maybe, but magically reaching for more while moderating that more at the same time. The life you are currently doing and the themes and challenges you have dialled up to feel and heal are these big things that curiosity wants to open you out into.
You see, but you don’t actually know. And herein is your salvation. You don’t know. I don’t know. Part of me may get caught up at times in the appearance of knowing, but truth be told, I am simply trying to be with the vast unknown that is expanding far faster than my knower could ever keep up with.
Are you getting it? Simple admission of not knowing, mixed in with some childlike surrender and curiosity IS the salvation doorway we’ve been pretending to be in search of… The holy grail, and a magical gift you can give to yourself, or to another, or to a house fly, whenever you feel like it, and dial up all the wonder you can handle in that moment!
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
Getting ‘old’ is what people, young and not so young do as they resist change and the natural flow of life.
Increasing in age, with a grace of being, a grace of learning, a grace of surrender is far from getting ‘old’ as all things are actually made new in every moment.
Even aging is felt in the wonder of newness, in this journey in 3D reality where the physical body yet reacts in these ways.
What newness is life and love inviting you into, right now, right from where you are? What would saying yes to that invitation look like? What negotiations would need to occur with parts of you for you to actually walk into these chosen changes?
What would getting young again look and feel like for parts of you?
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
Increased sensitivities on ALL levels as the upgrades and clearings continue coming in. Experiencing ascension upgrades and the clearings that they push up at the same time WHILE becoming more and more sensitive to the process IS intense! You may be experiencing this through increased emotional sensitivity in the form of new outbursts and more intense reactions from formerly suppressed aspects and emotions that you thought that you were ‘over’ or ‘beyond.’ Activating DNA and your ascension/higher chakras opening up can lead to more sensitivity to missed or skipped time experiences; more ‘loose’ mind and non-dual moments; receiving repeating number sequences and synchs; and increased clairvoyance/vision/psychic abilities and sense of your higher timeline AS your reality in the now.
The densest aspect of our BEIng, our human body, can be the most sensitive right now as it transitions to running on more light, less carbon. The foods that previously brought ‘comfort’ can be more difficult to digest now with sensitivities kicking up toxicity clearings from all those times of previous digestion. Something like ‘lactose intolerance’ can be truly not tolerable anymore as you tune into how sensitive your body really is to the energies in foods you digest. Previous comforts like drinking alcohol or cigarette smoking may lose their appeal as the body protests whatever frequencies of self harm (and the emotional body too) and your cells try to clear the toxicities.
It feels like one of the upgrades we are being offered right now is to feel/remember how sensitive we really are. Our sensitivity is revealing itself again, coming back, and being uncovered. Sensitivity to our own hearts and what lives in them of undigested everythings from pains to goodnesses. Sensitivity to our own souls and what exists in other timelines of our fractal, Metasoul expressions, and to feel how they are happening in the now and not in the past. Sensitivity to what we can remember more and more of our multidimensionality, our links and roots to the stars, our languages of light reactivating again.
We always were sensitive. To our environments. To foods. To energy. To emotions. To metaphysical realities. To each other. To Gaia. Yet, we were taught and conditioned to be insensitive. To numb and to dull down. To cover over. To push away and deflect.
Our Inner Protectors learn to lead with this insensitivity as a main way of protecting us. Better to be insensitive than SO open to feeling and being impacted by it all which could, potentially, lead to harm and hurt. Connecting with your Protector and other aspects of your 3D self can help to navigate this sensitivity remembrance…with reassurance and compassion for what they have had to guard against.
Honoring your sensitivity again is holding space for it, responding to it, not letting a part of you judge yourself as ‘too sensitive’ as you might have heard from others. This world transitioning from the insensitive, often VIOLENT frequencies of 3D to the increasingly sensitive and compassionate ones of 4D and higher NEEDS your sensitivity to keep coming back online. It needs your feeling sensing alive and vibrating, as do parts of you as well. Your sensitive response to yourself firstly allows an increasingly sensitive sense to ALL of life…and, ultimately, to more experience of life and yourself AS love again.
Each dimension of our ‘self’ feels and experiences love in different ways. The many parts of us that have formed in order to navigate and be in life as we’ve known it so far, each have their own relationship to love. As we continue to awaken and heal, their perspectives shift and heal too, especially as the growing authentic you that holds and feels them, lets in more and more real, pure love and learns to trust it and what it wants to offer you in every sacred moment of your life.
The 3D self, says, “Love, I don’t trust you and I want to control you, though I also feel you get the better of me and we are constantly at odds. I feel like I will never get what I want, though sometimes I can’t even feel what I truly want… and am pretty afraid to find out. I don’t feel I deserve you in any form and I conspire to push you away. What I have known to be ‘love’ is not something I find very appealing or gratifying in any way.”
The 4D self, says, “Love, I want to trust you more and don’t always get how. I feel you offer more than I have ever thought or felt possible. I feel I want to serve you and be with you and flow more easily with you, though sometimes this feels so frustrating and hard too… this world I live in mostly seems not to have caught up to the reality of YOU yet and what YOU really offer all of us and beyond… I get somehow, or am starting to let in, that you are something very different than what I’ve been conditioned to think you are. I feel something different about you, though I’m not sure what that is exactly.”
The 5D ‘self’, says, “Love… this is what ‘I’ am. And as ‘I am’, ‘I’ serve love in constant, unending flow. The container is ‘me’ as the container is NOT ‘me’… the ‘me’ of before, that related to love as not my very substance, has been healing and tastes of higher dimensions where it all simply is in is-ness… this is REALity. Love is the only real. Life-giving, ever-flowing, always showing us the way inward and back out again. Love melts all ‘I’s’ into oblivion and heat-warmth, in the sweetest way, though the storms of love’s lightning flashes of where it cannot flow within must also be weathered. Love dies not, withers away not… only IS, only ever loves. ‘I’ trust love above all else. ‘I’ can hold the truth of this unendingly, without the need to transcend any doubts of this in parts of ‘me’ that remain in lower dimensional frequencies still. ‘I’ can’t always see the bigger picture, as ‘I’ also control none of it, but ‘I’ can feel it, hold it, tap into it. ‘I’ AM it, ultimately, as ‘I’ AM part of the love that makes up all aspects of it, dark and light…”
As you heal the parts that make up each of these ‘selves’ within you, the level and depth of love you are able to experience shifts in a big way. To actually feel and own that there is something very real about swinging between sometimes all three of these perspectives in a short period of time, is to humbly let in that there is more to go into, inside of yourself… and that there is no ‘perfect’ way to be with love or to be love itself, especially as we grow and learn as sacred humans arising.
Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visitsoulfullheartwayoflife.comfor more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
More underbelly it seems of 3D human consciousness coming up to seen, felt, experienced…to move from and out of the shadows into the light. During this transitional phase, this death and rebirth…there is loss, there is pain, there is chaos…..as we have known this for so long and it is stored in our collective consciousness, it has to come up to purge, to move, to be reshaped and reformed with and into love.
This is when and why the choices of love over fear means so much…on a personal level, very personal, and in every moment. To love the fear that comes in response to the violence on the outside (that always stems from the inside). To offer love to the parts of you that have been baked in this violence and are just so USED to it that it has somehow become a form of love. To love the violence inside so that it will transform into love…this is the personal act of BEing that shifts the world too.
The outer terror-ism is sourced in the inner terror-ism…the emotional states inside fueled by undigested shame, trauma, self punishment; and the soul states in the Metasoul of unintegrated shadow, karmic binds, other timelines playing out of suppression, dominance, war, battles. Consciousness states of terror that can live in the most innocent of places inside of us…not causing it, yet experiencing it, and ultimately deciding to learn from it and move beyond it.
It can be hard to see in the aftermath of violence that every soul signed up to experience it and had a ‘role’ to play. Difficult to reconcile that each soul is in the process of learning and growing and, this, is their journey of ascension.
With compassionate heart, we can feel how difficult this choice is, yet, honor, that all are powerful creators of these play outs. All will return to their love essence eventually. All will return to Divine Source ultimately. All will chose love inevitably.
There have been many ‘times’ we have danced to this tune
One that seemed to be missing a note we kept looking for in the other
But could never seem to find for it was always in our own hearts.
Times that we found ourselves in desperate need of a key that we had all along.
This ‘time’ around we found us in ourselves.
We have opened the doors to the universe within and we found us…..inside.
You were never ‘out there’ but always in here
A reflection of my own self-generated love glow
As I am unto you, my love
I reflect the timelessness of your aged soul
That shines brighter than any star in the canvass of the heavens
The golden ray of your glistening love-eyes
That pierce the veil of any hardened surface in my heart
The eloquent weaving of your masterful words
That lay rose petal paths to the depths of my poet’s muse
You offer me a mirror of my own inner courage and strength
To lead a thousand souls to the glory of our human story
Of the passion of my creative spinnings and inkings
That find their way upon paper made planes
Of my own unlimited journey into the depths of your infinite love
We shall sail this one…this time, my love…on the waves of our NOW
Keeping our hearts attuned to the loved-up Self within
To spill its abundance of treasure and pleasure upon our hungry shores
Letting each moment become like a forgotten remembrance
Of the love we never left behind
Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
In each moment with you
with us…
a place of golden hues
and sinews of silky love tones
uniting our hearts, souls
and bodies too…
Years, lifetimes
and no time
bring poignant everythings
and love flow
like crashing waves upon a hungry shore.
In you I see me and the mateship within
With you I feel us and the starships of all
and in constancy the ceiling above
continues its upward flight
on cotton clouds of whispered rememberances
and newly arising constellations.
May we love until the stars fall backward
into laps of ancient gods unknown.
And our inward glances
bring new tidings
of a love that is meant for all!
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visitsoulfullheartwayoflife.comfor more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
I feel sometimes like I am looping…saying so much “these HIGH frequency energies right now are offering us…..” When I feel into an energy update to offer, this is what always comes…there are ongoingly high frequency energies of photonic light, the Schumann Resonance is rising higher and higher, ongoing solar flares coming in from our sun and the cosmic sun that just KEEP coming in. There are high frequency waves of PURE love too…they are golden, pure white, rainbow, whichever colors you are meant to see and feel and receive that is uniquely for your soul. You may feel the reception of these energies in all your bodies…emotional purgings and detoxes, physical manifestations, social shiftings too, and chakras morphing as well.
And, these energies are ongoing because, boy, do we NEED them right now! The grip on 3D life and the matrix that is created from mainstream consciousness can seem so strong, prevailing, with sllllllooooooowwwwww progress being made in loosening it. So many millions, perhaps billions, of souls still in the process of it, needing the 3D reality as their growth and learning ground….until they don’t anymore.
I feel there is a fourth dimensional (4D) matrix too….it is less solid perhaps, less structured, with less conscious purpose or collaboration. It is more likely created, arising, from the personal UPheaval that happens when the soul starts to wake up, the veil of amnesia is lifting, the higher self connection deepens, and the aspects of your multidimensional self/fractals from your Metasoul come into your consciousness. It is triggered by ‘peak experiences’ brought on by near death, drugs, soul mate clashes and goodness, kundalini and non-dual frequencies. Souls engaged in the valley of dark nights and peaks of light days all contribute to the creation of the fourth dimensional awakening bliss mess storm.
The 4D matrix (if we could call it that and at least in the definition that we offer in SoulFullHeart) has both firestorm energy and calming/balming energy too. It is back and forth, up and down, openings and closings….chaos and finding center BOTH, sometimes in the same moments. It is made of both fear and of love, with the modulating choice points toward each represented in every moment. With the 4D matrix being such a tumultuous experience, it makes sense that parts of us would want to remain anchored to 3D reality…to the known, the safe, and the comfortable even as it feels also flat, dead, and limiting to our awakening soul.
These energies of love and light, though, they want to pull the 3D anchors out that show themselves in guardedness, defensiveness, anxiety and tension, conflict, self punishment. We feel in SoulFullHeart that these anchors are represented by primary parts and energies that we’ve identified as the Inner Protector, Inner Punisher, Inner Teenager, and Inner Mother/Father (depending on gender.) These aspects can be quite dominant in a personality or less so, depending on what our conditioning has been and stages/phases of awakening. They definitely seem to operate at some level in all of us as we all have needed for our own survival to create them. We’ve created a process to identify, connect, and differentiate from these core 3D energies (that often get bypassed or tried to be with spiritual frequencies) that we offer through weekly sessions with a SFH facilitator. I’ll be sharing the map of the process outline soon….More here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
The main frequency differences from 3D to 4D seem to have to do with the signatures of the soul coming into your awareness in 4D and that, ultimately, it WANTS to grow, change, and transform. It wants to see life differently and beyond what is offered by the 3D limited screening. It wants to be more than entertained and distracted and finding the next things to do as the 3D self is….it wants to go within, discover, BE, feel what is real, and let go of the anchors that densify reality. The 4D can be both the cocoon and the discarded carcass too….as the butterfly of YOU takes flight, finds wings, and experiences more and more the Infinite Love that you ARE.
Painting by Vicki Ross
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