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The Role Of Your Inner Protector

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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Artwork: The Wanderer Above the Sea of Fog by Caspar David Friedrich

A voice inside that tells you to be careful, and may even encourage you to have your guard so ‘up’ that relaxation feels impossible. A feeling of complete or nearly complete distrust of anyone, maybe even without much explanation or logical reasoning. A heightened sense of needing to protect yourself, that in some ways you may be so used to feeling that it becomes unconscious when it comes up and it comes up so automatically most of the time. A sense that there is a lot ‘out there’ to be wary of in terms of 3D dangers in your everyday life, but also in terms of ‘psychic attacks’ and ‘influences’.

This is the experience of having a sharp and astute Inner Protector, always at the ready, always standing at the helm, always on the lookout. There isn’t much room for feminine softness in this picture if you are a woman, or vulnerable sharing of your inner world if you are a man. There is a sense of finding ways to be in control of the situation you’re in, no matter what, even though underneath that you may feel the rumblings of actually feeling quite the opposite most of the time. In women, this energy tends to express as quite masculine, sometimes calling itself a ‘goddess’ or ‘warrior woman’. In men, this energy tends to express as overly ‘masculine’ in a way that is direct without heart, and penetrative without feeling. In both camps, there is so little vulnerability accessible, that it can feel impossible to feel anything but defensive in interactions with others.  Maybe when you are at home alone can you finally let this guard down and just be… yet for those of you who have families or a husband or wife, maybe this guard never really drops or relaxes to make room for a real ground of intimacy and love transaction with others.

Your Inner Protector has so needed to be there. In all of those interactions you had as a child, it began picking up on strategies other Inner Protectors were using, ways to control you and other parts of you, while also perhaps controlling others, however, whenever possible. Feeling offended or the need to defend against something that has been said or someone who you’re interacting with is so often a knee-jerk, automated sort of reaction from this part of you. This part has needed to be this way in a world that encourages either intense defenses and fear for one reason or other, or the complete dropping of all protection in order to access sexual or etheric experiences that you are told you are ‘supposed to’ get to. You may gravitate towards peak experiences like taking Ayahuasca or Peyote or other less natural drugs, or workshops and retreats that get you out of the normal day-to-day grind in order to elevate above the protection and find something different. The protection can be a veil on different levels of your being, wanting to keep you from feeling, from accessing YOU and your parts in a deeper way, which would lead to a more profound awakening experience.

As you heal, the need for a strong Inner Protector lessens and dissipates. Impenetrable walls and defensive reactivity turn into healthy, porous boundaries held with love and self-worth. The Protector changes form, helping you to transform as well, allowing for greater, sweeter intimacy with self and others that may challenge you in good ways at times. Ultimately it’s a process of letting more love in, for that is really what the Inner Protector is afraid of… love flowing into you and permanently changing all that it has worked to maintain up ’til now.

If you would like to perhaps try and meet your Inner Protector, you can listen to this SoulFullHeart group call and also try the meditation:  https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc

If you feel you’d like to venture further into this energy, we offer ongoing sessions and a profound process around getting to know and healing your protector and other parts of you: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

From my heart to yours, sending lots of love to your Inner Protector and all they’ve held and continue to hold… ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Your 3D Self: The Gateway To Your Runway

Published on by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

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3D has been related to in such a varied way.  What comes up inside can range from a prison cell to a school or playground.  Such a wide spectrum of ideas and emotions.  It is also seen and felt as energetic frequency.  We are ultimately energy and the vibration of that energy is contained in waveform. Not a very sexy definition but it can be translated emotively.  When you feel particular emotions in comparison to others you can feel the difference in energy.  The difference in your emotive density.  When you are in a more joyous and blissful state you feel a lightness of being and a connectivity that is beyond mental expression.  When you are in depression and/or rage, the felt energy is clearly different than that.  This energy creates more of the same as like attracts like.  Joy wants more joy.  Misery loves company.

Okay…still not feeling sexy or alive.  This frequency of mental explanation may compel some part of you, but another part may be looking for a refund.  Let’s go into our 3D lives and feel what is going on.  We have bills to pay, places to go, deadlines to meet, children to educate, and relationships to show up for.  You may have it all dialed-in to a science and all areas are humming on all cylinders.  My guess is if that is the case you may not be reading this.  But for the rest of us 99%ers there is an ache whether it is completely felt or not.  You don’t have that dream job or vocation, you are not in the relationship of your dreams having all sorts of incredible sex and romantical moments, you may not have all the money you want to buy the things and experiences you desire, and you are struggling to feel your passion, purpose, and power that light you up like a Christmas tree during Chinese New Year.

But what the hell does any of this have to do with ascension?  Well, to your 3D self it means everything! It is the one that has invested so much time and energy in creating a world that is trying to do the best it can to survive and be loved, and hope like hell things just get better with some focused spiritual practice.  That really doesn’t do anything for them but to kick the can down the road.  No matter where you go there you are.

When we start to awaken to energies and ideas outside our 3D conditioning, there is a rumble that begins from opposing energy frequencies.  If I am feeling this inside me, and my outside life feels quite a bit different, then how do I reconcile the two?  The only way to do that is to get honest with yourself.  Both frequencies can’t exist simultaneously without creating rumble.  This rumbling is being reflected from within.  It is the contrast between your 5D/4D self and your 3D self. The higher the frequencies experienced, the larger the gap.  This creates a suffering loop that must be addressed by being real with what is happening.  You are changing.  Your soul is coming in and knocking on the door and it is looking to change everything your 3D self has held so dear.  This is can be a really difficult time to negotiate.

It really isn’t about ignoring it, because it is there.  This part of you needs to be felt with all the heart open compassion possible while feeling the epic changes that are so evident to your Higher Self, but not so evident to your 3D self.  Seeing, feeling, and healing this aspect of you is a crucial part of the ascension journey. It is feeling all the anchors that keep us tethered to 3D by negotiating with this beloved aspect.

When one begins with the SoulFullHeart process this is the self that we begin to feel and connect with as it holds the keys to the doorways of our growth and healing.  While a part of you may be ready to soar among the stars, the runway may need some clearing on the ground.  Writing a letter to your 3D self may provide some illuminating truths about what it really feels in relationship to all that is occurring in your life.  From there you have a doorway to walk through should you feel compelled to go deeper.  It is a journey that promises to change your life, but only by negotiation and choice.  This is the beginning of a whole new experience your 3D self has actually been waiting for.

For information on our free 30-minute Intro Session visit:  http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

This Saturday at 11:11am CST on Zoom, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be leading a group call that will introduce the 3D self through the SoulFullHeart lens with a meditation to meet your 3D self. For more information, head on over to
https://www.facebook.com/events/110934986279085

or http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

The Multi-Dimensional Man

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

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As I have been going through an exercise of connecting with my 3D, 4D, and 5D selves I began to realize that I have noticed women tending to call themselves “multidimensional” more then men.  I don’t know if this is because women tend to be more multidimensional or is it that men just haven’t considered their multidimensionality as being on par with women. I know that in my past I have had a part of me doubt that I have access to this “ability”.  That it seemed exclusive to women or some chosen men.

Yet when we view ourselves through these 3 lenses of 3D, 4D, and 5D we get a clear picture that we are all very much multidimensional (MD) and it is in our permission and desire to feel this in a very conscious and daily way that we can really let that in.  Men have generally seemed apt at staying very focused on one task. I guess we can really call that a masculine trait as women have it too.  So to hold this MD reality, it takes the ability to see and feel it all at once, or at least to some degree. This has always seemed like an attribute of the feminine.  So maybe it is in our connection to our more feminine side that men can access more of the permission and potential of claiming our MD gifts.

Who is the multidimensional man? What are his needs, motivations, and gifts? This feels like an unknown yet I think there are some very common themes that may run across many experiences.  I can tap into my own MD selves and see if they resonate within the collective.

My 3D Self says, “I want to be seen as sexy to women.  I want to be perceived as a good man, a fair man.  I need to be valued and accepted by others.  Following the “rules” of society will reward me with all the gifts that it has promised to offer. I want to feel secure and comfortable and have all the pleasures of the physical reality. I have a hard time speaking my truth as it can upend everything I have put in place and worked so hard to protect.  I want to be right most of the time.  It is hard for me to be “wrong”.  If I am wrong I am bad. I want to know all the facts of a topic to make informed and wise choices as to what is true and what is not.”

My 4D Self says, “I do not want to be a part of the system anymore! I do not believe that it is in my best interest OR the interest of others. I see how I constructed so much around me that was not based in my ultimate truth.  I compromised something inside myself to fit into a mold that I felt like I needed to out of duty and obligation.  I feel a greater purpose and passion that is not being expressed because of feeling stuck in a world that I don’t feel resonate with! I have a lot to say and it wants to blow shit up! Yet I also want to just go away into the woods and live in peace.  I sense a greater consciousness that exists that I am a part of yet still feel very separate from at times.  I feel in between worlds and I can’t seem to find the bridge.  I am beginning to see that I have the power to change it all but it is so hard to focus with all that is going on around me.  I keep trying to find love outside me and it is just not working.”

My 5D Self says, “I AM the power.  I AM the change. I AM the love that comes in from the heavens and infuses the heart with desire to go IN. To heal all the parts within that feel scared, angry, and alone. I create the safe container to be vulnerable and withstand the fire of transformation and healing.  I  AM the bridge and the other side.  The place where self-love comes first. To be empowered with worth and courage to continue to heal and share the open heart with another in sacred union romance.  I AM the dreamer and visionary of greatness and beauty.  I AM the King of my Kingdom and the seeder of this Divinity into the hearts and souls of others on the way UP.  I am the receiver of Higher Dimensional consciousness and embody and integrate it into the human vessel.  I AM the constructor and builder of worlds in co-mingled dance with the divine feminine inside and out.  I AM hot star stuff!”

With this felt reality, I can begin to feel myself in a whole new way. I can feel where I need to go in and feel what needs to be felt in order to let in more love through my healing heart.  I find the courage to make the next steps, to say the words that need to be said, and feel what it is that I truly AM and desire to be.  I am not a victim to my circumstances and I invite the mirrors I need to keep going and growing. I take my experience and offer back to others that are feeling the same.  I am a beacon, a leader, a lover, and a King to a Queen. I am a fisher of men…..multi-dimensional men.

To feel more into what SoulFullHeart can offer your awakening or healing multidimensionality, you can visit our website, join in group calls, and watch upcoming live stream events on Facebook and YouTube.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling Is Your Stairway To Heaven

Published on by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

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There is a path that has been worn down. Worn out.  It leads and you follow.  But you begin to realize it keeps taking you to the same location that you have seen a hundred times.  Feels like this path is just running in circles.  A numbness settles in…maybe a frustration…a growing need to veer off into another direction.  To see some new territory that you never knew existed.  To respond in ways you never knew you had in you.  But it has all been such a conditioned response to do the same thing over and over and hope for different results.

You realize the path can’t change unless you do.  Unless you make a conscious effort to do something you never imagined you could do…until you found the courage and desire to do so for the sake of feeling alive and new.  But it is not an easy decision for the part of you that is used to the path, regardless of the cost to your soul.  The fear and judgment set in and it makes it difficult to really FEEL where YOU are in all of this.

But there is one there.  A YOU that holds the blueprint of your greatness and joyful delight.  So gifted to you by YOU.  Yeah, man!  You are the creator, the chooser.  Not the victim or the loser. It is feeling all these reactions from within as we take a step outside the path.  Maybe just outside the old one but a new one nonetheless.  Saying something true, seeing what is hard to see, feeling what hurts to feel.  Building a fence made of compassion that keeps you from drawing back into the old, and forgiving yourself if it does.

The more and more you feel and heal all that has kept you from YOU, a new path is created.  A new set of circumstances come your way that were not a part of the old scenery.  You can’t respond to them in the same way for the game has changed, the physics have been altered and you are on a trajectory toward a new planet.  A new NEW that keeps renewing itself if you keep letting it.  You may wear another path and that is okay. You will remember what that is like and readjust, refeel.  Recalibrate to all that is coming your way.

Each shift brings a rearranging of your inner program to let in the one program that you can never quite know or control.  Love builds you a spiral staircase for you to climb, to ascend.  To discover and remember.  The greatest fear is the fear of falling and the only safety is your willingness to feel it to its deepest core.  The willingness to descend is what permits us to ascend.  Gives us the courage to make that next step UP and IN.  A spiral stairway to heaven.

This is not a solo journey but one that is supported and guided by a universe of all the help and love you can possibly let in.  This is probably the hardest part to accept for the part of us that has been so used to doing it alone.  It is not just our ethereal support but the ones provided by our human soul family that can be the very thing we have been looking for all along.

If you are feeling the desire for more of YOU and to be a part of others who are desiring the same I am available for space holding sessions for both men and women.  It is a hero’s and heroine’s journey and I would love to feel it all with you as you ascend to greater heights within yourself through feeling parts of yourself.  The stairways to your personal and universal heaven.

Please visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more.

Much love to you on your journey and unfolding

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Open Your Heart To Feeling

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By Jelelle Awen

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Open your heart to feel the pains there, the fear there, the tears there. FEELing this, letting it BE, holding yourself and parts of you in the mourning, the letting go. Over and over, I invite this and in my sessions it comes back to this so often too with every woman that I hold space for. It is really a space being held for feeling, for reconnection with the emotional body while bridging to the soul. A self permission I reflect back to feel, to allow the TRUTH of your emotional reality to come up, to hold space for yourself and parts of you to FEEL.

Why does this self permission to FEEL need to be offered over and over? Our 3D conditioning is to suppress, to numb, to cover over, to protect, to guard, to settle, to repress. Energies form inside of you to block the natural and organic arising of your emotions because it is judged as TOO MUCH. So it is judged by your culture, by your birth families….your sensitivity is too much, your emotionality is too much, your heart breaking sense of life is too much.

Yet, actually, is it JUST RIGHT. That sensitivity is your heart porosity and your capacity to LOVE. And, as it heals from being allowed to be and flow, so it floods out more and more from healthy compassion, empathy, service with others. You can then feel what others are feeling while they are feeling it because YOU have embodied this WITH yourself and your own parts over and over.

Open your heart to feel the pains and the joy can come into the space that is made. Vulnerability can come into the space that is made. Love can come into the space that is made. And love can be the FEELING that flows most in most moments. ❤

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

BEing Called Into Sacred Marriage Union From Within

Published on by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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You are called into the sacred marriage. You are called into the union from within.

From within, you can feel the aspects of you that are masculine energies of activation and pursuit, guarded at times and defended. These aspects created out of the void of birth father, as he can only give what he has healed from within himself. Without this healthy father, the void of a lovingly protective father to lean into, parts of you BECOME the father you need even as they grip too tight, protect too much, guard too fiercely, becoming overly critical of self and others. And, if you are a woman, these masculine aspects too much BECOME your expression in the world which then is leading with this masculine energy even if you ‘seem’ feminine.

From within, you feel too the aspects of you that are feminine energies of stillness and receptivity…often covered over and layered over with matriarchal frequencies which are, again, masculine in feeling tones. These aspects created out of the void of birth mother, the void of a nurturing responsive mother to hold you, so parts of you BECOME the mother you need even as they control too much, are overly protective, go on the ‘side’ of others too often. The authentic inner feminine is uncovered and revealed through negotiation with all these aspects that have been protecting her…in both women and men.

You are called to connect with Divine masculine and feminine guides and energies that offer a higher vibrational frequency of sacred gender expression. The Divine Feminine frequencies – such as with Mother Mary/Mother God, Magdalena, Kali, Kuan Yin, and others – provides templating and modeling as She emerges out from the patriarchal shroud. The Divine Masculine frequencies – such as with Christiel/Yeshua, Metatron/Father God, St. Germain, Merlin, Buddha and others – provides templating and modeling as He arises from the claiming of his inner feminine and healing of the wounded masculine.

ALL this inner work, this inner marriage that occurs as you re-unionize the gender frequencies from within you and connect with Divine Masculine and Feminine guides…..this overflow of self LOVE then can draw a sacred union with your sacred union mate to your experience and into your world. As you separate and differentiate from the wounded frequencies and expressions of gender inside, so you can BE with the polarity dance with a partner in a very NEW way.

You are called to go within, as ANY shift in your external experience originates from this inner ground. Focusing outward, fixating outward on ‘drawing a mate’ can serve as a distraction and diversion from this inner work. ALL relationships that you have experienced are a reflection of you anyway, often the aspects of you that have been in shadow and that you have suppressed…..both your bigness AND your trailing edges of being.

SO MUCH LOVE is needed for this inner work sacred union dance. Love to hold the exploration from within, to not resist what seems to persist about your previous relationships. Love to allow the healing that is needed at the emotional body level and in the aspects of you that had the experiences that were intense and often traumatic too. Love to have you see YOURSELF in your current or previous mates and re-own, re-claim, re-lieve the aspects of you that have been previously disowned. Love, if you choose, in the form of a spaceholder to help guide you through the inner terrain (such as what we offer in our SoulFullHeart sessions: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions)

You are called into the sacred marriage. You are called into the union from within and then, to experience the union WITH OTHER that comes as a result. It is this inner union for which the sacred human can arise in a beautiful, high vibrational twining of masculine and feminine expression in gender form.

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Raphael Awen and I now offer sacred union sessions for couples! Read more here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sacredunion

Please join us for a group call this saturday, May 13th at 11:11amCST with Raphael and I exploring this ground of sacred union through teachings, a guided meditation (to connect with your sacred feminine and masculine frequencies within and with the higher self of your sacred union mate), and individual sharings: https://www.facebook.com/events/1320873934656373/orsoulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book,Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.