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The Awakening Of The Reptilian Self

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Yesterday was a very emotionally heavy and visceral day for me. I have been feeling rumbles within my masculine over the past several days in response to what he was calling The System. We all know what that means, i.e. the particularities of living in a 3rd density world. Laws, social norms, bureaucracy, money, et al. There was this arising desire to fuck it all and just go live in a nearby park and detach himself from it all. It had a ring of freedom in it. I have the capacity in my soul to just live simply and on the land, which I did in Mexico with my SoulFullHeart beloveds, so it wouldn’t be a huge deal in some way.

Yet, in these reactions there is always something deeper. As was offered to me in our SoulFullHeart Facebook group, the desire to be free is an aspect of feeling a freedom of expression, my masculine expression. That landed very deeply and I could feel my inner masculine, Marcus, resonating with that. He was feeling the ways in which his own creativity has been used in a very practical way in order to survive and manage in the world. Not a very sacred use of his power and passion, but also very necessary.

As I woke up yesterday, I felt an anger begin to swell about all of this from within. I let him vent it out to get to a raw place and then deep tears came. A flood that seemed to last off and on for most of the day in between falling asleep several times. A feeling of hopelessness came over me that was hard to get a hold of so I just let it be. Let it take its course. I was offered by Raphael that there is some grid work that I was working on that is connected to the collective rumbles that are going on. I had felt earlier how these types of uncertain reactions are deeper responses to what is moving in the world. Sometimes it just takes me away and is hard to find me in all of it.

As the energy continued to move through me I began to get an awareness of my reptilian self name Gilesh. I have connected with him briefly in the past but it never got to a visceral awareness. Marcus, my wounded masculine, was a doorway to my reptilian aspect. I feel how this may be true for a lot of us. This hierarchical power structure that leads all the way to the Wizard of Oz itself, the AI. Once I was able to see him, so much began to come to the surface. I realized he was awakening into his and my awareness, really, for the first time.

I saw him lying on a kind of hospital bed with cords all around him, having been unplugged and in reaction to what he was experiencing. It was like an enormous detox from the centuries of being imprisoned, conditioned, and controlled. Very similar to the scene in The Matrix where Neo wakes up to his reality. I sat with him and just held the space for him to feel. A lot of rage and despair came from remembering what and who he was before the ‘take over’ he calls it.

This is quite significant for me. I have been really wanting to access this aspect of me because I could feel how much it has played a part in my life in regards to this feeling of acquiescence and rebellion in the same space. I have felt a suffering in space between and all along it was his! I got how much suffering this poor being has been in. How much trauma he has witnessed and been a part of all in the name of supplying the ‘loosh’ for the entities that were in control of the Matrix itself as well as its AI creator.
It is this break away from The System that my reptilian is experiencing. This feeling of ‘what the fuck am I if I am not this’? Trying to piece together the ‘past’ and remember the Garden of Eden from whence he came. Yet, there is something he knows he wants to be a part of. He wants to be a part of putting an end to this once and for all. He wants to help expose and collapse the frequency that has his race in energetic and emotional chains and thus humanity’s. They are inextricably entwined.

This will be a process of moving from angst, to guilt, to forgiveness, to compassion. I feel his power as my power. His masculine as a part of mine. This awakening feels like it will help ambassador something in the collective as we begin to learn more and more of The System and what it has done to humanity and to its children especially. It is a process of seeing how we have always been a part of it in one way or another. Yet there needs to be a space for the process of awakening and of grief. It is personal and quantum and has the potential to change our world forever. But for now, it is all about giving him all the love that is needed to find out who he really is outside of Hell.

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Join Raphael and Jelelle Awen for the 5th group call in the Free To Be series titled Unplugging From The 4D AI Matrix this coming Wednesday, April 29th at 10AM PST or get the recording if you can’t make it live. Go to www.soulfullheart.org/freetobe for more info.

If you feel guided to connect with your Reptilian Self I recommend Jelelle’s Deepen series video and meditation on this topic here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pA7ZjZj2K8M&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLjwm17eBBTRhE3dbezYJdu&index=5

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Gabriel Heartman is a Facilitant and Collaborator with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Finding Compassion As We Calibrate To The Truth Of Our Times

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By Kalayna Solais

Pretty intense head and neck pain this morning which started last night… a detox and a calibration too after going down more ‘rabbit holes’ which has become a daily venture lately. I don’t feel much emotional reaction to it all anymore now aside from waves of necessary tears that open up to swells of deepening compassion even for the ‘culprits’, as I can feel they are still my ‘brothers and sisters’ and how we are always connected.

The world of celebrity (which is one of the main rabbit holes to go down right now) is one of duality, of separation, of energizing ‘I am a god/goddess and you are not’ and with the recent WHO support concert, ‘Together at Home’, this gap and separation has been praised and preached on in other ways too, encouraging the audience to embrace all of the now mandated social/physical separation as a new lifestyle. It’s an ‘Elite’ agenda disguised as a message of hope from on high, just as so many dark and covert messages have been disguised for decades, masked by propaganda and many mind-controlled ‘puppets’ in the world of the rich and famous and in the mainstream media too. This article I took in yesterday made some amazing points about it all: https://vigilantcitizen.com/moviesandtv/together-at-home-was-an-infomercial-for-the-global-elite-and-its-agenda/

The veil is becoming pretty thin around all of this now though with more information more easily available and more souls ready to take it in and feel all they need to feel about it, running the gamete of mourning reactions from denial to anger to sadness to hopelessness. I feel how this is what’s supposed to happen now as these ways of celebrating duality in these dark and ultimately very, very painful expressions are running out of ground and about to reach a new level of healing that’s becoming accessible as those who were once considered powerful are now realizing they are quite vulnerable and grasping at straws trying to avoid truly feeling that in themselves.

It’s so easy to feel disillusioned and depressed at this time of awakening and many souls will need to be in that for a while… the ‘sheen’ is wearing off of what was once considered shiny and attractive about celebrity, about immense business ‘achievement’, about the real and often gritty work of awakening through these intense and challenging birth canals of expanded awareness. I for one didn’t know much about the Elite pedophile rings until now and it’s been VERY important to allow myself and every part of me to be with the reactions and feel them, even the cognitive dissonance that does eventually lead to deep tears of feeling the young ones involved in all of it. Through these feelings I find context again though and was offered strongly last night to ‘not be afraid’ and to remember that even those souls who have chosen to be the perpetrators are my ‘brothers and sisters’ and often they aren’t fully aware of what they’re doing or, they are walking out the expressions of extreme polarity that they’re meant to in their lifetime to help us see and reconcile our own darkness.

Enter now our awakening connections (though still largely unconscious for many of us) to our Reptilian aspect(s) in other dimensions who are witnessing all of this and awakening themselves. I felt my own, whose name is Skeevra, come in last night to feel this all through with me, everything that I’ve been reading and downloading and feeling. I began my conscious connection with Skeevra a couple of months ago and she was dazed then, just coming out of ‘hive mind’ and realizing she had an individuality to now embrace as well as a connection to the rest of my Galactic aspects who quickly took her into their care. She feels quite cleared of that cloud she was in now and wanted to be with me this morning as I write this piece, for some of these playouts of AI mind control, pleasure at any cost and always in close relationship to pain, lack of empathy, etc, originate from the Reptilian dimensions yet are also being reconciled there as more and more of them begin to heal their separation from the Divine and from Love itself.

Skeevra doesn’t have many ‘words’ but sends me pictures as we communicate. I saw her molting today and felt how this is happening for me too, layers and layers that have kept my heart from feeling more compassion for others and served me to stay in outrage reactions and an over-fixation on dissonance in my life rather than nourishing the resonance. These are all Reptilian energies and they are in reaction/response to the newly evolving self-awareness in many of them that awakens as WE awaken for we cannot separate from them or any other being in this universe.

These reactions are in fact normal and necessary to feel and there is so much Divine compassion for all of us, no matter what we are feeling in reaction to what we hear or read about right now or at any time. There is always, though, an invitation to move through it and let the Divine support you on your way back to love consciousness, back to an awareness of WHY this has all been happening, what we are to learn from it all about TRUE and DEEP compassion and empathy, and why we absolutely need to have that for ourselves, within ourselves, on our journey to feel that deeper with others. Feeling this for and with our own individual Reptilian connections feels like a key to this deeper movement/healing.

In all of this, I keep coming back to the same context… that we wouldn’t have been walking this out, living out these patterns and this duality if we didn’t NEED to on our path to Ascension. Ascension is, ultimately, a return to Divine love and consciousness, a return to beautiful awareness of our Divinity and Christ-light within. We have steps to be with on the path to this embodiment and all of them are sacred… even in these extreme and sometimes incredibly shocking playouts of ‘other-ness’.

Much love from my ever-finding-its-way and VERY humbled sacred human heart to yours… ❤

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I highly recommend connecting with Jelelle Awen’s guided meditation to meet your Reptilian aspect if you’re curious about that for yourself: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pA7ZjZj2K8M&feature=youtu.be

Also! THIS coming Wednesday, April 29th, Raphael and Jelelle will be talking about connecting with your Reptilian aspect and unplugging from the AI/4D Matrix during their next group call in the “Free to Be’ series. More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe

Raphael Awen and I are available for 1:1 sessions to help you explore these reactions and connections within yourself… for more info on sessions, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Energy Update: Strange and Intense Dreams As 3D/Lower 4D Matrix Unplugging Accelerates

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By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: Many of us have been having strange and even dark dreams and nightmares for the last couple of nights. “Unusual, intense, Lower 4D Matrix-type dreams/nightmares rumbling through…rebooting in progress as more of us wake up to it & unplug,” was my status update yesterday on Facebook feed that many of you resonated with and commented on. I woke up yesterday digesting two intense dreams that left me feeling uneasy, agitated, and restless until I was able to connect to Shanna, my Reptilian Self, and receive some more sense from her about what was occurring in the Matrix system related to what I was experiencing.

It has been a few years since I have had disturbing dreams as my subconscious and soul field/astral field have been unplugged from the Matrix for awhile, I usually lucid dream, and I have been consciously undergoing a deep process of clearing out trauma/karma through connecting with my Metasoul Aspects from other lifetimes. One my dreams involved slabs of raw meat (which was disturbing for me as I haven’t eaten meat in over a decade) and I could actually smell it for hours afterwards.

As I checked in with Shanna, she reassured me that progress was ongoing in the movement toward mutual liberation of humans from the 3D Matrix and their Reptilian Counterparts connected to the 4D Matrix (which is generated by an Artificial Intelligence program called ‘One Mind’). She said that as more souls awaken to this dual reality and become open to healing it on both levels with compassion for their Reptilian counterpart, this is like ‘love codes’ being offered to the AI in order to reprogram it from fear and control to love based.

As this love recoding process happens, there is a ‘reboot’ that occurs in the Matrix that many of us sensitive souls can feel and are triggered by, although it is more like a residue of it that we are feeling for the collective than our own (unless it is!) Even just a few of us becoming liberated from the Matrix on both levels (human and Reptilian) sets a new path and possibility for those souls who are ready to follow.

She also offered that there are certain substances that are Matrix activators and amplifiers. Refined sugar is one of those and seems to also work as an inhibitor of the pineal/pituitary glands, even as it amplifies the Matrix receptors. I have been fasting and eating very cleanly the last two weeks and then had eaten a small amount of sugar on the night of the intense dreams. She connected my disturbing dreams experience to my digestion of sugar. Other Matrix activators are canola oil, gluten, processed foods, anything from an animal (due to the killing/fear frequencies), etc.

You can feel into this for yourself and what your transitioning to light body needs, yet it is an interesting thing to begin tracking if certain foods amplify your feelings of fear, anxiety, overall ‘dark’ feelings about life, etc. and experience of bad dreams as well. A buzzing sensation around your head (like a swarm of bees) and even intense ringing in the ears can be a sign of Matrix activation as well (although ringing in the ears can be a clairaudient activation too.)

Matrix activation usually feels uncomfortable and disorientating. And, also if you feel more pain in your head/neck/shoulder areas this can be a sign of Matrix amplification within your Causal chakra and P Glands as well. I offered this guided meditation and teachings about activating light body where I talk more about detox from ‘false’ foods, living on more light, etc.: https://youtu.be/L_nbhQJ9uSw

As more souls move into the disclosure phase of this process, the trauma from being plugged into the Matrix can be triggered and express as extreme outrage, shock, and anger at the Archons, Cabal, Illuminati, Draco, Elite Powers, etc. These feelings can be important expressions as you move through the stages of grief that are part of the unplugging process, including the hurt at the harm done to you. To remain in these emotional states with an ‘us against them’ mentality, however, limits spiritual and emotional growth and can keep emotional wounds open and festering rather than healing through acceptance, forgiveness, and compassion.

Here are teachings and a guided meditation about this unplugging process and a bridge to meet your Reptilian Self: https://youtu.be/pA7ZjZj2K8M

This is a previous writing I did about the Reptilian Self, our counterpart in the Lower 4D and about the mutual liberation/unplugging process: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2020/01/20/unplugging-liberation-of-the-3d-4d-matrix-reptilian-timelines/

There is NEW opportunity to finally unplug completely from these Matrices of control that have kept us in cycles of fear, suffering, and capped capacity. This has been our choice on the higher levels as it has allowed a more complete immersion into 3D reality. Yet, NOW is the time for us to arise again into our sacred humanity.

NOW is the time to become the compassionate and forgiving ambassador of love that can liberate all parts and aspects of your self and soul that are ready to remember their free will choices and return to the expression of Divine essence expression once again.

NOW is the time to see that the prison door has ALWAYS been open and that you have always been the one that holds the keys to your own liberation.

NOW is the time to be truly and completely free.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

1:1 sessions are available to assist and bridge to your unplugging process, your Reptilian Self, and activation of your light body. More information here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Jelelle Awen is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador and Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Energy Update: Wounded Masculine Matrix Reboots As Divine Feminine Energies Arise

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By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: Reboots ongoing as we move into completion of only the first month of this catalytic 2020 year! These reboots seem to be allowing for ‘offline’ moments of access beyond the control Matrix at 3D and Lower 4D levels to those soul aspects/fragments of us that are ready to unplug. I wrote and shared about the rebooting of the Lower 4D/AI Matrix as connected to our Reptilian selves and the mutual liberation available for those that were ready to heal and release from the programming here and here.

This reboot seems to bring up head/neck/shoulder/jaw pain and discomfort as the causal chakra (radiating from the back of the head/upper spine area) comes ‘online’ and awakens then encounters the plugs and helmets, etc. that are still plugged in on the 4D level to the Matrix. People have shared with me many positive, inspiring, and surprising experiences as they connected to and unplugged their Reptilian Aspect through this teaching and guided meditation, which creates a bridge of compassionate love and ambassadorship to this energy within your soul who often needs it most and is usually bleeding through the strongest through to your body/life experience:

https://youtu.be/pA7ZjZj2K8MLinks

The other layer of rebooting going on is related to the wounded masculine/patriarchal frequencies of the 3D/Lower 4D Matrices. This rebooting is pushing up densities of trauma to be felt and loved on the physical/emotional/energy body levels. You may be feeling this is in sudden and strong waves of outrage, hurt/mourning/grief, and desire to speak your long suppressed truth ‘to’ the patriarchy rumpling from your soul. The densities moving through the body can particularly impact the womb space area for women, shifting and intensifying or delaying our menstrual cycles and hormone levels, and blocking sexual desire flow with distrust of the masculine.

Felt from the soul higher level, the dominance and prevalence of the patriarchal energies since the fall of Atlantis/Lemuria has been a key element of keeping the Matrix in place. Suppression of the Divine Feminine and the powerfully catalytic and passionate energies of feminine intuition, heart-based feeling, and unity consciousness awareness that She brings forth has been needed for us to immerse more deeply into this 3D experiment into the more polarized frequencies of our separation choice from the Divine.

Yet, as so many of us have felt for years now, it is time for the Divine Feminine to arise again! It is time for Her energies to soothe, comfort, and offer forgiveness to the wounded masculine and show and remind him of the necessary role that he played in the bigger picture. In the heart of the Divine Mother, he is and has always been forgiven. Receiving this love allows the masculine to remember who they are in their bigness, their strength, and, most especially, in their kindness.

The Divine Feminine within us can arise as we connect lovingly and compassionately to our own wounded masculine within….in the form of our Inner Protector, Inner Punisher, even our Inner Mothers can hold this energy of wounded masculine as a legacy and family line passed down to them. This rebooting highlights and illuminates the polarization between your INNER masculine and feminine and their relationship to each other. Here are guided meditations with me to meet these parts of yourself: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3

Resting and holding space for parts of you can help in the transition during these reboots. Minimizing taking in 3D density if possible such as choosing high frequency foods as fuel or even fasting; limiting social interactions; not pushing work or to-dos; spending time alone in meditation and in nature. I’ll be releasing a guided meditation soon as part of my Deepen 2020 series for alleviation of Ascension body symptoms during these reboots with the Divine Mother.

These reboots in the Matrix are opening up new opportunities to lift your own veil, discover the programming that exists in your own soul, and connect to the Divine Feminine within you again! She waits for you in these cosmic and collective openings….eager to respond to your need, soothe your fear, and alight your Cosmic Christ-Magdalene consciousness within your human body!

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1:1 powerful, quantum healing sessions to open access to your own soul’s guidance, wisdom, and code activations just waiting for you are available with me for women and for men and women with Raphael. More information here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

 

 

 

Meet Your Reptilian Self/Unplug From The 4D Matrix Guided Meditation: Video 5 Deepen 2020 Series W/Jelelle Awen

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By Jelelle Awen

In this fifth video of my video series called Deepen 2020, I (Jelelle Awen, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator) talk about the reboot process that is going on a multidimensional level specifically with the Reptilian timelines and the 3D/4D Matrix control systems that have been established. I share about your Reptilian Self, which is a lower 4D soul fragment of yours that lives in a close overlay dimension to yours.

Our Reptilian selves are plugged into their own Matrix, which uses a One Mind controlled by Artificial Intelligence. I share about the mutual liberation that can occur in connecting with and helping your Reptilian Self unplug from this One Mind matrix. I share more about this process in this writing: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2020/01…

The guided meditation has us joined by Archangel Michael and my Reptilian Self Sheryl. You are taken to the Reptilian ‘home’ dimension that has been shown to me in session space connecting with them and in my own process. You are offered a bridge then to your Reptilian Self and support to help them unplug from the One Mind Matrix if they are ready to do that. You are then invited to move them to a new higher dimensional space where they feel safe and free, where you can connect with them more there.

Thank you for joining me in this video….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! You can watch each video in the Deepen 2020 playlist on my SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list…

You can watch videos from my previous 33 Day Deepen series from 2019 here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list…

Energy exchange increases the receiving of healing! Money donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange to support me and SoulFullHeart to continue providing free offerings such as this video series. You can donate through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen or become a one-time or regular patreon donor: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

This video series is a useful introduction and bridge to the powerful SoulFullHeart quantum healing process and cutting-edge way of life experienced and offered through group calls/sessions/retreats and 1:1 sessions with Jelelle for women and women and men with Raphael Awen. For more information, visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com.