You Are The Love Magma Of New Earth

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Shifts and rumbles.  All making way for what is wanting to move from a deeper layer of your being into the light of day.  Into a more outed, genuine, and expressed version of what you have come to “know” yourself as.  That “you” that you didn’t realize was a place holder for the more real you.  But how were you to know? Even the “me” that is typing this is not the most authentic version of me.  It is an ongoing process that takes desire, curiosity, and whole lot of courage, for there are things that are not what we may want to see or feel along the way.

That is the awakening. The remembering from the deep sleep of our journey into this dimension.  The feeling of the protection and falseness that we have been used to identifying as “the good guy”, “the one who has it all together”, “the healer”, or any other labels a part of us have been using to make our way through this life….until it just doesn’t hold water anymore.  The soul is aching to come out into the light and like magma from the depths of the earth, lots of stuff gets shaken up.  Sacred goo among the cracks.

It is only your desire for real love and the essence of your true creative power that keeps these heart and soul tectonics in continuous motion.  There is no guarantee that life will look and feel like it did a year, a month, or even a week ago.  If it does then you can be assured that there is a part of you that is resisting this awakening and maturation process, and that it has its damn good reasons! What feels the same to you inside yourself from a year ago? With sincere reflection you can feel what still lies at the core of what needs your love.

For me it has been the way a part of me relates to change, abundance, and love.  It comes out in physical manifestations that block fully letting in due to a focus on the issue itself. I find myself in the midst of major changes in my body, new timelines, and relationship. It is intensified by the new altitude of energies we find ourselves in.  To truly let go and let in I am feeling Metasoul lives and their relationship to it all.  The inner parts of me that can really no longer survive in this new environment.  I am heading into new waters of romance, soul expression, and service leadership. What a time to be alive! Healing what once was and moving into new territory of divine MEness.  This is hot stuff!  I have things to do, see, and be!

I feel this for you too. To keep feeling what lies underneath your tectonic plates and what wants to arise new and shower itself upon your world for all to experience and learn from. You are hot stuff waiting to be birthed into the New Earth atmosphere! The plates are the parts and aspects of us that have been formed to keep us safe in response to all that our souls have been through.  Love is what sets them into rumble and eventual collapse when held in the cauldron of your sacred heart.  They all become an integrated part of the new.  New abundance, new timelines, new community, new relationships.

It all starts inside with that fire of desire.  Ask it what it truly wants and the rumble begins…..

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Re-Anchoring Out Of The 3D Matrix And Into Your Awakening, Divine Self

By Jelelle Awen

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Re-anchoring is going on huge it feels like right now, especially during this mega time of energy shifts and influxes. Re-anchoring into higher vibrational frequencies and higher consciousness states of New Earth into 4D transitional consciousness and away from the 3D matrix which anchored us into its projected and collaborated reality. The 3D matrix dissolving as it is in the now WITH love ‘drops’ people then into their own native soul expressing body frequency and into the discovery of what that actually IS outside of the collective vibe.

The matrix has created a sense of unity consciousness, yet it has the lower vibrational agenda of modulation, conforming, control, following the ‘rules’, and has run on fear-based frequencies of avoiding rejection, unfelt abandonment and unworthiness woundings, power over others, and codependence. As souls, we all agreed to the collaborative creation of this matrix as it helped with the 3D experiment that we all felt was an important one on a soul level and to purge out the shadow in our collective unconsciousness. And so, it has been as we have learned MUCH during it and are continuing to learn so much as it is dissolving.

This matrix is becoming obsolete, no longer needed, and hugely limiting to our soul frequencies now coming into our bodies and emotional bodies. The human species in this current ‘modern era’ timeline is now ready to BE without this matrix on a collective level. The collective emotional body is ready to be healed through the receiving of love frequencies to transform the stuck and blocked places of fear into love. The Reptilian Star BEings who have collaborated and agreed to play the role of ‘suppressor’ and enforcers of this matrix have also now grown beyond it (on their leading edge) and this role. They are in a collective choice point of love over fear, letting in forgiveness from the Divine for all they have ‘done’, and seem to have been gifted a planet of their own to settle down in and continue their awakening journey as a species.

As we can no longer anchor into the matrix, there is this collective ‘floating’ feeling as each individual soul finds their new bearings inside of themselves rather than outside of themselves. For some souls, parts of them will be slower, stubborn, or even outright refuse to re-anchor into themselves in a higher vibrational frequency during this current timeline. They will continue to create a matrix from inside of themselves, pulling from their unhealed emotional bodies and undigested karma from their Metasoul lifetimes too. The ‘hellish’ frequencies of the matrix will still be reality for them as they are free will choosing it. They will remain ‘hooked in’ completely by their own free will choice on a 3D level and, of course, on a higher self level too. They will continue to manifest body illness, dis-ease, toxic relationship patterns, suffering loops…whatever they need to continue to grow and learn. Although it will become increasingly uncomfortable for them to be at this lower frequency and remain on Gaia, so they will most likely leave the body eventually with their Metasoul having sovereignly learned what it came here to learn.

For those of us who are re-anchoring already in a conscious way and maybe have been for many years and have been awakened to our Metasoul frequencies, we will flow along WITH the matrix-free Gaia as She moves UP in frequency. An important aspect of the process for you in this is the 4D transitional phase, the deaths and rebirths, the Dark Nights and the Light Day awakenings, the de-conditionings and the re-conditionings too, the shedding and molting off of so many layers. This re-anchoring into self is the discovery process of what ISN’T your authentic self and what IS. To say ‘no’ to very many previous beloved ways of being in the world in order to say ‘yes’ to the unknown NEW way that is based in love. It is the process of letting go of 3D anchors that are OUTSIDE of you in ALL areas of our life so that you can anchor INSIDE of you. In this phase, you discover and FEEL yourself as a fractal from Divine Source AND as the Divine, both, and let go of the ‘outside of self’ God picture as offered by 3D religious pictures.

One of the deepest sources of 3D anchoring can come in the form of relationships (both romantic and friendships) and especially those that are long term or from the ‘past’ or birth family. These long-term relationships have mostly been running on a momentum of subconscious and underground hook-ups between parts of you and an agreement between 3D selves to stay connected ‘no matter what’. These relationships may have served as a crucial anchor to 3D reality when it was most needed, especially those formed during childhood and as a teenager. Your inner child and inner teenagers aspects deeply NEEDED this anchoring to come from some where and found solace, relief, in the other providing it. The souls and higher selves agree to this anchoring together to support each other through the incarnation process of BEing in the vibrational denser 3D frequencies.

These relationship agreements based on 3D reality anchoring are now being shaken up by ascension energies and Gaia’s frequencies shifting into 4D and higher and the matrix dissolving.  As your higher self frequencies come into your physical body and your emotional body, you begin to feel how these anchors (while necessary while they were) are now limiting your consciousness from expanding and growing. The transactional ground of the relationship gets narrower with less common values to share, unless both souls have agreed to awaken together and in similar ways. If you are the one awakening though, you begin to realize how sensitive you are to the lack of resonance in the relationship, missing curiosity from the other in awakening, and just lack of ‘common ground’ between you and them. It becomes quite painful for you to BE in the relationship as it just doesn’t offer the nourishment anymore of what your soul and heart most want and need.

The ascension energies are inviting us to shift from anchoring into another person, yet rather to begin the process of anchoring in OURSELVES and to the Divine as a source experienced from WITHIN us. As you drop these anchors to 3D life, your soul is freed UP, your heart is opened UP, your mind is expanded UP, and your body is lightened UP too. The NEW anchors do not weigh you down, yet rather invite you to let IN, grounding you in yet not limiting your consciousness or capping it in any way. As SoulFullHeart facilitant Seraphina said recently of this process, “The anchor is lost at sea but I am floating free!” And so it IS and so it becomes more and more as you let go in order to let in the NEW.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Reconciling Our Soul Stories As We Heal and Grow

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Being invited into more love. More goodness. More Self.  It is all right there for us to embrace and embody.  It is not some fairy tale that we live, in this moment, in abundant joy.  We ARE it.  Even when you feel less than it, you are in it.  Always. So how can that be if we feel less than that feeling of joy?

We have all been through much as souls this life and others.  We are coming to terms with all that we have experienced. For those that have chosen to partake in this grand ascension of humanity, we are being asked to balance the books, so to speak.  What in the shadow part of our ledger are we needing to reconcile? To feel? To forgive ourselves for? To let go of? Can we let in the light and love side with reverence and awe? I feel a grand accounting happening for us all.  It is not a “good” or “bad” reconciliation.  That feels too elementary to me.

We are being asked by our Divine parents to grow up and grow open. Leave the chains of suffering behind and fully inhabit our true gifts.  But to do that we need to take responsibility for what is real inside of us.  To own that we are the ultimate creators of our experience.  I have felt intense waves of thought patterns that translate into a lowered frequency.  I have felt fear and self-judgment wanting to find some way into my being.  Without having a conscious way of holding or releasing these energies, it can be so easy to project them onto something else outside of us and fuse to the din.

These energies are a part of a story.  My story.  The one that I am creating in this moment in multiple lives and dimensions.  I feel the Metasoul aspects of me that need to be integrated into my open human heart.  To be felt in their brokenness and weariness.  To change the timelines with them and invite them into greener pastures.  Into more light. This is the reconciliation.   The maturation of our hearts and souls into a new dimension of responsivity to what is moving through us in real time.  From this experience of our fractiled selves we pick up the pieces and bring them back into wholeness.  We remember the gifts that we had long forgotten were ours from the beginning.

All of this is accessed consciously through our imaginations. We have it all in our inner Akashic records.  The DNA of our souls experience.  I feel like a little pod floating around my inner galaxy ready to give love to all the carbon that has been there as a way to experience this dimension.  The crystal palaces within start to shine and glisten with new hope of a new human on a new Earth.  The joy starts to come back.  It starts to fill the empty spaces where there was once fear.  A hum starts to reemerge inside my body and I feel higher and lighter again.

The soldier of another life lets go of his orders, his need to march on, and his compulsion to strategize and  mentalize.  He is looking forward to going home.  To reunite with the love of his life in a paradisaical valley of evergreen and wildflowers.  The gift of persistence and dedication remain, but in a flow of choice and stillness.  An example of wounded masculine energy that finding his way out of the trenches and into the gentler and yet passionate lands of the sacred.  He has reconciled himself to this new life and will only come out for the pursuit and loyalty of Love.

Okay, so I had no idea where this was going and it all feels so perfect to me.  Writing from where my heart and soul is wanting to go.  This is new for me.  Not having a particular direction or certainty of what the heck I am writing about. I like that. Something arose for me and it is a beautiful example of what I experience in SoulFullHeart.  It is a magical world that has all the makings of an epic movie directed by you for an audience of you.  Oh…and you get to help heal the collective on top of that! Not bad for a day’s “work”.  🙂

 

This Saturday at 11:11am CST on Zoom there will be a virtual group call to digest all the influxes in ascension energies and how to be with that on an emotional body level through our parts work process: https://www.facebook.com/events/141617019749771

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Feeling Our Way To Rose-Colored Glasses

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“You are invited to feel. Invited to let IN. Invited to choose. You cannot be convinced or forced into anything your soul hasn’t already chosen as its learning ground. It is all created by you for you. Your own special remembrance program. All the difficulties, challenges, pain, fear, anxieties, terrors, pleasures, glories, and accomplishments, et al. They have been placed before you to as a reminder of what you needed to bring love to in order to feel the love of.”

Not sure where these words are coming from. They are there for me to take in. Maybe meant for you as well. I am feeling a part of me today that is wanting to let go of an old way of relating to life and self. Seeing and feeling things through a weathered and worn out pair of fear glasses and ready to adorn those rose-colored ones that we all want to wear but were told they didn’t see the world “realistically”.

I clearly needed these 3D glasses. And you did too. They got me to realize how much more I want to inhabit and feel about this life I chose to live and create. They are like the old worn out pair of jeans that you just could see yourself getting rid of because they felt so comfortable and reliable. But they just aren’t me anymore. It is time for something new. Something bigger that comes from withIN. A choice to feel the reactions to that come up from response to that bigger, to that experience of life and love that feels so elusive to a part of me. This is an unfolding and unfurling. With each healed layer there comes a new one to feel at greater depths of wanting more love, more authentic expression.

Maybe this is you too. Tired and worn out. Ready to move on and move UP. To feel the part of you that is ready to surrender the guard, the fight, and the struggle. To lean into a fuller brighter you that this part of you sees as just a pair of those rose-colored glasses. It is not as simple as replacing the old ones. That is not how it works. It is about feeling all the ways in which we have kept ourselves from letting go of the old ones and feeling worthy enough to adorn the new ones. The ones we know are way more realistic, and way more magical!

We are approaching a time when we are all going to start feeling this more and more. This inner passion and truth that will seek out its own way to find its birth and requisite death. Yet we get to choose how this unfolds every step of the way.

I have chosen to lead myself and others through this magical portal called SoulFullHeart. It is what I came here to be a part of and experience. It is what brings me to more and more of an expanded sense of self, of Love, of community, and of a glorious new Golden Earth. It is here for you to choose as well when you feel ready and resonant.

Here’s to those rose-colored glasses and to what we have always meant to experience beyond what we have been willing to feel.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

‘Golden Earth Now’ – New Vlog Series with Raphael Awen

By Raphael Awen

I am very excited to announce my new video blog series entitled ‘Golden Earth Now’. The first installment is the video below.

It’s been in the idea stage for a while now, the idea being a place to share via video, the teachings and the flow from my own heart with others who are drawn. In 2016, I experienced a deep visitation experience to Golden Earth that left me longing for more, and left me irreversibly changed. That longing I was told would be fulfilled as I naturally gave myself to sharing freely what I was given and am being given.

This is the beginning of that…

From the video’s description:

The times we are presently in and entering deeper could not be more alchemical and changing, both for us personally and us together as a collective. With deep change comes both the fear on one hand of tipping over into chaos that doesn’t resolve and leaves us diminished and small, and on the other hand, the exhilaration of the possibility of truly changing and moving beyond what has felt like impenetrable barriers. Staying the same is no longer an option. How do we ride such waves?

In this first video of a new series called ‘Golden Earth Now’, spiritual teacher Raphael Awen launches an intention and makes an invitation for others to hop on this bus that is about to leave the station.

This series will explore heart, words and energy on a regular basis that will point us all in the direction of our true heart and soul home – Golden Earth or New Earth or 5D Earth -, while letting us feel and heal fears that keep us living below our birthright.

 

I invite you to connect with me and see what’s to come.

~Raphael

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Golden Earth Now

By Raphael Awen

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Golden Earth Now.

Feel those 3 words for a moment.

What do they stir on your insides?

I feel golden earth is real. It’s a place. It’s a dimension. It’s a dwelling place…and you can validate it for yourself. And, sadly, you, and only you can exclude yourself from knowing it as well…but why would you want to?

The realm you live in now, the one you are aware of, that you have no doubt exists, that doesn’t seem in any way to require any faith to see as real…..I’m going to ask you to rethink, refeel…

New science is proving that the world around us that we feel as real has the properties and experience that we feel it to have precisely because we see it and feel it in the way that we do. We’ve become really good at it, so good in fact that most of the time it appears seamless. Let’s call it 3D reality.

If there’s one thing that 3D living leaves us with, it’s unanswered desires, aches and a hunger for something more. If you disagree with that idea, can I ask you why you are reading this article? Even the desire to disagree is a desire to contend, to fill a need.

It all points us to something. That ‘something’ is profoundly true and it can’t be contained in any one of our religions, spiritualities though they all point to it. It’s bigger than that.

At the danger of diminishing it (in my own perception at least) I relate to this something by the name of Golden Earth. Naming something is always a dangerous thing as labels can so be used to minimize awe and wonder, but this is equally true of everything.

Golden Earth is here now. It actually exists in its fullness and entirety inside of every single atom of your and my being. There is actually very credible science for this, and yes, it changes everything. The divide between science and the mystical is evaporating.

If this heaven is a future hope that is real, it actually can’t be true unless you can access it in the now. If the hell that many live in, (and I’m deeply sorry for any deep pain that you may be living through right now) in the present moment is real, that reality is only real to the degree that it’s opposite of much greater glory is also real.

Even our pains and our distractions point us to our pure centre of infinite love and connection for ourselves and every living thing, time and space.

And God forbid that you spend another moment reading about this at the expense of feeling it inside of you. In glorious fact, if you forgot I existed and the world around you currently clamouring for your attention, and instead placed your awareness on this inside of Golden Earth Now inside of you, and let it find its way in and through you, that orgasm of your being would be your greatest address of your deepest response-ability to your world around you.

I’m going to go back to my own orgasm now, and leave you with a song that comes from a Christian source.

I invite you to feel past that label and see if it opens you out. This song captures the feeling of letting go of deep karmic pain in order to let in, and I’m feeling that so many need this is a first step to enter their own Golden Earth Now reality.

Just be re-membered to the fact that all this song is speaking to is all you. The river, the water, the lord is all you….

Enjoy, and thank you for joining me in a stunning orgasm of heart and soul and reunion….

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Navigating This Time Of Transition From 3D To 4D Consciousness

By Jelelle Awen

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If you are reading these words and drawn to them, you probably already experience most of your reality from a fourth dimensional or higher consciousness state or are in transition to being this. Dimensions are a vibrational frequency and what we have known as earth life has been mostly in the third dimension, denser frequency for a long time now.

Third dimensional frequencies are of separation, isolation, competition, sense of survival and lack (scarcity), five sense reality processing (only what the body and mind can see is ‘real’), logic dominating, attachment to religious and other belief systems, focus on differences, etc. Fourth dimensional consciousness offers more sense of Oneness, community, communion, beyond five sense reality experiences, soul remembrances, heart-based relationships, sense of abundance and gratitude, intuition leading, and openness to all while awakening your inner soul and heart wisdom. Fifth dimensional consciousness (as I have experienced in moments and more and more as daily reality) is an experience of telepathic communication, inhabitation of our light bodies rather than our carbon-based bodies, multi-dimensional overlapping, no linear time or space, Oneness sense of ‘one mind’ yet individual soul sparks too transacting in conscious relationshp, etc.

It feels like Gaia (as a consciousness in planetary form) is moving out of the third and into the lower fourth, which is shaking out many of the shadow playouts, government and financial corruptions, mass protests, etc. This seems to be the ‘event’ of December, 2012 in which it was the end of the world in the sense of the 3D consciousness that had held such dominance over Gaia began to shift. Many star beings and Ethereal beings are supporting this shift as they have long yearned for Gaia and her human inhabitants to shake off the suppressive and limiting consciousness of 3D to remember our essence as sacred humanity through more inhabitation of our 5D and beyond consciousness as Divine selves or light beings.

The ‘underbelly’ of human consciousness is turning over to be felt and ultimately healed. To whatever degree you are still connected to 3D reality, this turning over is going to push up perhaps strong feelings and reactions for you. The recent political presidential election, for example, seen through the perspective of a part of you that has been conditioned in 3D reality of government dominance and superiority, would feel hopeless, outraged, distraught, and many other feelings. This part of you has been conditioned to ‘believe’ in the need to turn over your authority to another and to be governed. You have been conditioned to project your parental needs onto outer authority (started with our birth parents) rather than feel your own inner authority being watered. You can feel this part(s) of you as a 3D aspect (which includes most of our mental activity and minds as well) and give it lots of love, curiosity, and non-judgment, and we offer in SoulFullHeart a healing process and supportive community to assist with your ascension process.

The re-minders that come from 4 and 5D consciousness to help the 3D aspects of us that are still in transition are that no one can govern or have power over us. If we ‘let’ them, that is still our choice. We create our own reality; we are our own Universes in that way. We are not powerless to anything, but rather have access to Infinite Power (heart-based) that is connected to our essence as Infinite Love. In the frequencies of Infinite Love, nothing that is not polarized to love can survive or is ‘real’.

As Gaia moves into higher dimensions of consciousness, many souls will choose (still their choice) not to go with Her as that is their path and process. They may leave their bodies, go to other 3D realities on other planets or reincarnate again with a new focus and openness to higher consciousness. I am not offering this lightly as I have felt for many years the intensity that this time of transition is going to bring to our world. I have shed many tears over the cries of the world and the suffering that exists in 3D consciousness. Holding what is going to happen with compassion and sobriety is important while not letting it bring down our own vibrational frequencies or spiral us into suffering loops. There will most likely be many body deaths, much violence and upheaval, and perhaps even the collapse of the industrial systems that we have become dependent on in many ways for our ‘survival.’

Those of us who want to stick it out through this time of transition and continue to ascend and awaken our consciousness to experience the New Earth are in for a very bumpy ride at times. But we have buffers in the form of our own choices toward raising our vibrational frequencies through service of love to others in whatever forms that looks like for each of us. We are wayshowers and here to help humanity get through this transitional time. The biggest gift we can offer ourselves and humanity is to claim this, continue to heal our hearts and souls to vibrate at a higher frequency, and decondition from 3D reality as a continual process.

New Earth or what we call “Golden Earth” already exists as a consciousness and can be ‘visited’ whenever we want to. It offers a watering of the world that our hearts and soul remember is possible from our previous experiences of Atlantis and Lemuria and in other dimensions such as Avalon and from other planets and galaxies. Golden Earth is more our home frequency and connecting with the tones of heart-based love, Ethereal guidance and love, going within always to look first for our answers and path will serve us during the experiences ahead that are going to be challenging and at times painful. Ultimately, trusting love as the only ‘real’ thing that there is offers a beacon to us, stirring us through the fogs and clouds of reactions and triggers, and landing us safely on the shores of our true heart and soul homes.

Jelelle Awen is co-creator, teacher, and writer of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about the SoulFullHeart ascension assistance process. 

 

Golden Earth Is Waiting For You

By Jelelle Awen

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There is a world beyond the current one where things such as politics, greed, and war do not exist…it is this Golden Earth world that our hearts know is possible and our soul remembers…

We can invite others to join us in this Golden Earth and experience it ourselves in moments as our self worth and self love rises. As our connection with the Divine deepens. As our sense of being Infinite Love increases. As we surround ourselves with others who resonate and feel us deeply.

This Golden Earth is waiting for you and it lives already in your heart and soul.

The journey to it is through your shadow, your pain, and your suffering.

The journey to it is guarded by protective parts of you that are afraid for you to increase your frequency because they have been conditioned to fear love by a fear-based culture. These parts of you are afraid for you to feel too much of your woundings because they don’t want you to suffer even more.

The journey to it requires guides that can walk with you through your shadow land to reach the place where the golden rays of love rain down on you and emanate from you.

The journey to it invites you to risk the known for the unknown; to let go in order to let in; and to be dedicated in all ways to serve love for yourself, others, Gaia, and the Divine.

The journey to it is ultimately embracing the realization that you ARE it and that, in this way, you are already there.

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Jelelle Awen is co-creator, facilitator, and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. For more about our awakening process that leads to experiencing Golden Earth life visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com

A Keynote To Selves: Golden Earth Tales

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(This is Part Twelve of the ongoing blog series: Golden Earth Tales.)

(Raphael delivered the following address on Saturday, May 7, 2016)

I would like to begin by thanking each and every one of me for your presence here this afternoon.

I am especially grateful for your curiosity, your desire, along with your hopes and your dreams.

I called this private meeting by specific invitation to each and every one of you as the personalities that make up what is tragically and all too simply referred to as ‘me’, as if ‘you’ didn’t exist. I know we all too often seek to be seen as one, understandably so, given our culture and the cults we are inescapably a part of, but we are in fact a glorious ‘we’ that I seek not only to address today, but desperately also need to get to know.

I know that you as distinct persons live in me as I often experience two or more of you as a tension or a polarity between two choices or energies inside of me. When I am less present to that tension, one of you willingly and sometimes willfully steps in to hold that tension. Here I again see your presence, your reality, your power, and your being. I could go on with example after example of your distinct and separate reality, but that would be in service only of convincing others, not present here today. You, I sense and feel, need little convincing.

I wonder what it is like being a part of me. I wonder what it is like for you when in my partial or full absence, you are left with doing life as me and in my name. What is it like for you to feel the power of my life; the identity of my life; the realized and unrealized dreams and potential of my life? What is ‘my’ life to you? How much of it is a shared reality of yours and ‘mine’, and in what ways? When and why were you born? Who in me did you rule over or submit to, and why?

Though we share one body, one brain, one physical history, and the illusion of being only one, we are in fact many. We are each different. We are each unique. As the Apostle Paul tried to convey in his teaching about the body of Christ when he said ‘Can the hand say to the foot, I have no need of you,’ we must recognize that we are a ‘we’, both separate, distinct and an inseparable oneness at the same time. Both are true. The folly would again be quite plain if when asked, “How are you?” to reply, “I am doing great. My liver has cancer, but I am just great, thanks.” As Paul went on to conclude: ‘When one suffers, all suffer. When one rejoices, all rejoice.’

I would like to not only recognize the fact of our distinct beings, but go on to get to know and feel the distinctions among us. I cannot say that I know you unless I am allowed and afforded a way to feel what you feel, to see what you see, to hear what you hear. I can no longer overlay my view of life onto you and rob you and myself from the sensational pleasure of mutual curiosity.

If one of you is not well, ‘I’ am not well. One of you, or I, may wish to hide another part of me that is in pain for a variety of reasons, as I know too often is the case for most of us ‘humans’. But let us be much clearer here in this private place than we are in the public place; ‘I’ am not well when one of you, one of ‘us’ is in pain, or disconnect, or has a deep unmet need.

All too often, ‘I’ have presented the conclusive “I am fine, thanks,” in response to an inquiry about how I was doing. I was quick to divert the lie by returning the presumptive non-question back to the other ‘person’; “And, how are you?” We have for so long co-signed this co-dependent perception of self as being a single personality that it is truly stunning that any functionality and sanity remains in us. We have even gone so far to as to culturally outlaw the very idea of being more than one with labels such as ‘multiple personality disorder’. I would like to go on record in this meeting, in this place with each of you present, to say that the term we must now accept into our lexicon is in fact ‘single personality disorder.’ The source of so much of our neurosis and the suffering of people is found here in this denial of being.

Before I wax too strong in my convictions and again fall prey to an old focus on others, I must apologize to you, the parts of me that I present as ‘I’. I deeply and profoundly apologize for my complicity in this appearance of being well when I was not. I was wrong. I am sorry. I am sorry for all the pain I caused to each and every one of you in a multitude of ways that it will take some time to fully feel. I wish to end this cycle now. I wish to take all the time it takes to feel it all, even if it extends beyond this life, or to alternative realities of what I’ve thought ‘life’ to be. I want to feel what you feel. I want to experience life from where you experience it. I must also ask each of you to join me in this apology to one another; to accept the end of this façade along with all of its attendant maladies that take away from our true and glorious wellbeing.

Both I and we have lived a long time in a picture of reaching out to others. I and we identified strongly with attaining a picture of being a leader with influence over others. Here, we felt and thought and imagined would be our fulfillment to the full. Others would convey and reflect back to us our worth, our sense of a life well lived. Today, I am inviting each and every one of you to see that the others I sought to help, that I sought to gain the favor of, are in fact not ‘other’, but WE are the ‘they’ we sought to heal and help. The realization of self that we sought to attain inside of a picture of being a healer to others is now dawning on our consciousness as the realization of our selves. There is no other to heal. There are no others in need of healing for me to offer or affect healing to.

Just as Jesus said, ‘I am the door, If anyone enter in by me, he shall find rest,’ so too each of us must find the grace and power to say the same thing of our-selves. Each singular one of us, in this multiplicity of being, is responsive to and responsible for our own healing. We must each own our own healing. Each one of us is responsible for our own conditioning, our own beliefs, and our own relationships to all of life. Each of us must now find the door to our hearts to search our souls deeply to determine what is worthy of remaining and what must be let go of in the sacred domain of our lives.

What we previously imagined to be the good life of being known by others must now be transformed into the much deeper and more glorious good life of knowing our selves. Our sense of meaning and purpose and gift to the world must also now originate and complete inside of our selves. Our fame must spread deep and wide to all the ends of our own kingdom.

How could I have imagined that we could have been of service to others while there was violence to our selves? How could I have dreamed of a world at peace while our own world was not even acknowledged? I want to sacrifice these imaginations and dreams on the sacred and holy altar of this new calling that is here now. I now know however, that unlike I thought in the past, I cannot mandate anything. I have no mandate today.

I have a desire. I have a dream.

In my dream, I awoke. I awoke to the presence and personality of you. In my dream, I was pierced by acute curiosity of who and why and what you were and are, and will become. This dream has overtaken me. I wish to yield every remaining breath and sunrise to this dream.

I surrender my future to us. I will love you in every breath. I will long to get to know you in every joy and in every sorrow.

I long for this day to begin now.

May we enter a new world now,

world without beginning,

world without end,

Amen.

Thank you to each and every one of me.

Raphael Awen hails from SoulFullHeart Sanctuary. You can also track him on twitter via @raphaelawen, or on facebook: ­­­­­­­facebook.com/raphaelawen1. Please visit our Patreon Page if you’d like to support SoulFullHeart Sanctuary. We’d love to receive some of your money!

The Magic Of Your Power Combined With Your Vulnerability: Golden Earth Tales

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(This is Part Eleven of the ongoing blog series: Golden Earth Tales.)

By Raphael Awen

Life is about growth and change. Not even death affords an escape from this reality; for death is not a cessation of being, but only more change.

Our journey into and through a physical life is a great metaphor and reflects this reality. Our soul being accepts the journey of taking on human flesh. This journey into human flesh begins as the microscopic combination of sperm and egg, which gives way to a time of exponential growth and change, becoming comfortable and familiar with a home environment, only to be burped out into a brand new world, and then another. Infancy gives way to toddlerhood, which gives way to childhood, then adolescence, teen years, adulthood, mid-life, and into our fullness of life, and completion of a life.

Our soul chose the change of taking on human flesh, human emotion, human gender, and human experience.

You chose to incarnate.

You chose to change.

You chose to surrender to having needs and desires.

Most of us forget this for much of our lives or even for many entire lifetimes. Most of us become attached to belief systems and ways of life that enable us to maintain this forgetfulness of the power and presence of our choice. We do this at almost any cost.

This is not without good reason. In our power, we chose human life; we chose vulnerability. We are unable to escape human vulnerability with any obtainable thing or relationship. In fact, every desirable thing you obtain only heightens the fear of losing that good thing. Even life itself, we fear losing. Most of us can barely stand to feel the utter susceptibility we find ourselves in. We’d rather effort a myriad of feelings and distractions to not have to feel this vulnerability.

Strangely, we put our power in service of denying our vulnerability. In so doing, we miss out on the magic of both.

You have most likely structured your relationship with life to provide you with a sense that life is happening to you. Like a monk who has chosen life in a monastery, you surrender to an arrangement of what you can expect in return for what you are expected to give. Life is fearfully bigger than you. You make a deal for some predictability, some security, and accept the monotony that comes with that. All of this as an exchange to maintain the sense that life is safely bigger than you.

Now, you get to feel like you are riding the waves of life as best you can with the choices you have. You have outsmarted life. You have surrendered to it. You have made yourself smaller than life. You let life circumstance direct and lead you. Aren’t you spiritual? Aren’t you surrendered? You have given yourself to God (in some form) and God will take care of you.

What if this is only a set up perception of life from this part of you that hasn’t reconciled itself to the vulnerability you find yourself in?

What if life isn’t actually happening to you, but instead, you are happening to life?

You are not the victim of another person, or an illness, God or any devil, a slowing economy, aging or any other of the multitude of things that are felt to occur to us.

What if life is only and ever reflecting back to you the power of your choice?

What if life is in such deep and reverent gratitude to you for the gift of your power filled surrender to human vulnerability that life only wants to reflect back to you your power and greatness?

Victor Frankl, author of Man’s Search For Meaning, shares his experience in the hell hole of a nazi concentration camp where he came to the deep and profound realization that it was he and only he that could interpret and apply meaning to his experience. His captors, he came to realize, had not even the slightest ability to take that power from him unless he gave it to them.

What meanings are you applying to the circumstances you find yourself in? Are the circumstances happening to you or are you responsible for creating and drawing these circumstances to yourself? What is life and its never ending change wanting to awaken you to?

What courageous step is life asking you to take now in this never ending discovery of who and what you are?

What are you done with that’s time to let go of? A relationship? An identity? A habit pattern? A way of life?

What are you ready to embrace and allow entrance into your life?

What courage are you in possession of that can fuel your next step?

Life only and ever wants to take you into more of you. Life understands your fear, for it has felt its own fear of the life that it finds itself in. Life invites you out to play, to discover, to be curious of who and what you will become around the corner of your next choice.

Raphael Awen hails from SoulFullHeart Sanctuary. You can also track him on twitter via @raphaelawen, or on facebook: ­­­­­­­facebook.com/raphaelawen1. Please visit our Patreon Page if you’d like to support SoulFullHeart Sanctuary. We’d love to receive your support.