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Love Is Magic: A Message From Avalon

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by Kasha Rokshana

‘Magic’ doesn’t need to mean anything other than the powerful ways in which you can arise for yourself, life, and love, and others can arise for you.

‘Magic’ doesn’t need to be stirred by a hand or wand. Magic is a flow of intention, fueled by love, watered by love, lived into from the love within you.

‘Magic’ is who and what you are beyond the 3D anchoring, the protective 3D shell of existing in only the day-to-day without much energy to reach beyond into the beyond. Yet, magic exists in 3D too, grounds there, when received as such.

‘Magic’ lives in your beholding of yourself and others. The intimate love relationship with parts of you. The ways in which your inner work opens you up to more love experiences with yourself, with others, with the Divine.

Thank you, Avalon, for your lessons in this that are already integrating and grounding IN… being sacredly remembered! ❀

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Life Phase Completions From The Inside, Out

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by Kasha Rokshana

Sincere ‘goodbyes’ and epic ‘hellos’…

We don’t really ever ‘complete’ phases of life or relationships with others unless the cycles of reaction to the completion and the relationship or phase itself completes with parts of you.


This only really happens when we INvest in relationship to them, which is a deep love relationship with ourselves. It’s the end of suffering loops and telling the same stories over and over again to try and digest what happened. Looping tells us that parts of us haven’t moved on yet. And from there we get to ask ‘why?’ and feel their reasons for hanging on so tight.

For a ‘goodbye’ to be sincere, to a geography, relationship, job, etc, there’s a need to feel the ‘goodbye’. This is what lets in the next ‘hello’. This is what sets the tone for the next phase of truly letting in the new. That doesn’t mean that old reactions or stories won’t come up. But it does renew our commitment to continuing to show up for ourselves and our parts in all of that.


Feeling this as I continue to complete with my geography and householding life phase here in Canada, as well as complete some loops that parts of me are still going into in moments with souls I’ve recently completed my relationship with. It’s all a deep journey and even in the emotional waves, my god, I wouldn’t want to be doing, being, or feeling anything else!


Much, much love to you during this epic time on this epic planet, where suffering within all of us is invited to come to deep completion and new waves of the realization of the love we all ARE can come in anew!


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Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Lion’s Gate Energies Activating Higher Timeline Process From WithIN

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by Kasha Rokshana

BIG Lion’s Gate LOVE to all!

This is my favourite time of year, even though (and because) it comes with some profound and growthful challenges, inside and out. We’re always invited into our next steps for our growth, healing, and Ascension during these intense waves of energy during Lion’s Gate and beyond too.

Your beloved Sirian-Lyran/galactic lion(ess) aspects are here to help anchor you into your highest timeline… which always starts from within. Your highest timeline isn’t something that can be grabbed onto, though it can be claimed, and this claim happens from deep within. This claim of what you most desire to become and live into comes not from anything flashy or any outer mark of ‘success’, but from inner work, being willing to feel what is often challenging to feel, and being in your humanity while you also let in your Divinity.

There have been some big activations of our Divine Selves coming through lately, reminding us of our magical essence and capacity to hold the context of what’s happening in our inner and outer worlds, while also navigating the content and being with any pain within that needs us. Doing this through working with parts of you and also Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes is effective and deep. It is a matter of committing to your expansion and awakening through the heart and through some big shifts in lifestyle and relationships which support that ongoing awakening and take it all from ‘theory’ to ‘practice’ and eventually into ’embodiment’.

When I feel my Sirian aspects, which for me are a male and female lion and and lioness named Ortho and Ineerah, they are so embodied and majestic from the inside out. They sparkle and shine with a blue shimmery light. They offer a grounded energy that is also always connected to the Cosmos. They bring my parts and I a lot of comfort and vast empathy, yet they also are very CATalytic. Every year at this time, they invite me into my next level of leadership and service-of-love embodiment while encouraging me to keep detaching from what that looks like or what the outer ‘results’ could be. They are the epitome of royalty and stately presence without flash or glamour. They simply just ARE this energy.

I feel the template they and all Sirian aspects offer all of us in this way. The heart-based leadership and compassion that is always an example of what’s possible for all of us, we just need to keep choosing to move towards it in whatever ways feel accessible to us personally at this and any time.

If you want to digest more about Lion’s Gate and take in a guided meditation/activation as well, Gabriel Heartman and I led a livestream last weekend and the recording is available here: https://youtu.be/7yo6PQgtd2w

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Energy Update: Lion’s Gate ‘Roar’ Of Clearing & Truth Moving Through

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by Kasha Rokshana

The ‘Roar’ energy of Lion’s Gate is here and deepening too. It’s clearing the way for so much truth. In the wake of that clearing is the process we’re in now, of feeling the suffering cries of the children who have been trafficked who reflect to us a lost innocence INside too. It’s a process too of feeling the suffering of the perpetual ‘battle’ energy that has been necessary to energize for a phase yet we are always invited to move BEYOND it, especially within where the battles are often the most challenging to face, own, and heal. The ‘Roar’ is not a declaration of war but a declaration of the end of war and heralds the deepening of that process.

As more information comes out about child-trafficking and the horrors of it, it reflects to us humanity’s lost innocence that is in recovery. These children and their precious souls, hearts, bodies, have been subjected to unspeakable acts, yes, yet, to only be outraged by this doesn’t take into account the whole picture of what their souls signed up to be a part of and doesn’t encourage us to be accountable for our own reactions to it either.

Humanity cannot change at its core through outrage, shaming, blaming, chaos. Only once these frequencies have come home to our hearts through the tears and remorse of how in some ways we’ve all been a part of this unfolding narrative, can we start to feel what this has all really been about… reclaiming our own innocence and discovering the layers within us that have pushed away or suppressed it for the sake of ‘survival’ in 3D and even 4D; supporting the parts of us that have been victims to different life circumstances to move more into healing and genuine, vulnerable empowerment and even forgiveness/amnesty. It’s a VERY sobering time to be on this planet and we are all being invited into deep humility where we can admit we do not have all the answers but are doing the inner work necessary to feel and heal in many unfolding steps and layers with LOVE.

The ‘Roar’ energy of Lion’s Gate invites us to see and feel the deeper truths and process the reactions not just become them.

The ‘Roar’ is about the illumination and possible completion (if we truly choose it in our sovereignty) of suffering cycles inside and out.

The ‘Roar’ blows off any masks you’ve held in place, that have represented a fear of revealing the real you beyond any over-identification in parts of you with the trauma they’ve experienced.

The ‘Roar’ is here to ultimately support YOU and your ‘Divine Self’ that is waiting for you to ask for it to come in more, to find the context you need in order to process the ‘content’ moving within and in your life.

Your sacred process around all of this is yours to be in and hold. You are the Lion/Lioness ‘King/Queen’ of your inner Queen/Kingdom and all of our Sirian-Lyran counterparts, our humanoid lion(ess) members of our Star Family, are here and accessible especially through this Lion’s Gate passage. Their energies are available as a support for finding and embodying your own ‘Roar’ right now. They’ve been where we are now in their own Ascension process and have so much to offer, I’ve found.

There’s a lot to feel and process at this time… yet there’s even more to fall in deep love with, especially within you, with each sobering yet alive revelation.

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

All Current ‘Death/Rebirth’ Cycles Are Necessary For Awakening, Disclosure, Ascension

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by Kalayna Solais

So many souls are exiting the planet at this time. They’re leaving legacies as they go and inviting investigations into deeper and deeper truths as well, especially when their deaths are suspicious. They’re choosing (even if it looks like they didn’t choose because their lives were β€˜taken’) to leave during this time especially when more of the underbelly of our culture and the underground machinations of our human world are coming to light. They’re not coming along for the ride on this plane for the rest of our current phase, and are choosing instead to assist through another. I really get this sense of how it’s all about strong soul choices and being drawn to transition into an energy that is able to assist with disclosure, which is a huge part of our global awakening and ascension, and the process of digesting it as well.

To me, this is what β€˜death’ is meant to offer, whether it’s a death and rebirth cycle in your own life and healing process, or a transition into another phase as a soul without a physical body. Both shed a consciousness that isn’t needed in the same way anymore. Both require space for mourning and grief for those impacted by our soul’s choice, and in the case of a life phase change, our parts need this same space to mourn and grieve what was lost so they could truly be found, felt, and healed. 

What we’re experiencing globally right now is death and rebirth and the awakening that affords us all. It’s both beautiful and terrifying as our parts digest it all and our Metasouls ping around the unfolding because it’s so similar to what they’ve experienced in other lifetimes of war and collapse. 

I feel that some souls right now are awakening into polarities and it’s just as sacred as awakening out of them. Energizing what you are and are not, even if it’s not taking into account the whole picture, is a play out of your individuality journey and sometimes you’ll find yourself in contention over this and maybe this is new. Maybe it’s good that parts of you are advocating for something they feel is righteous or a Metasoul sister or brother of yours in another lifetime is walking out and trying to resolve some karma through YOUR lifetime. This is necessary for a phase and IS an essential part of awakening and ascension for many. This is what then leads to more desire for peace inside and out, but a peace that doesn’t cost you anything and instead is authentic and organic and so deeply rooted it can’t really be shaken.

Awakening beyond the polarity picture is NOT often easy, especially with how much contention there is around and inside of you, until you can find the genuine desire for this to shift in your inner world. There are numerous parts to work with if you want peace and deep inner love flow that overflows to others. There are numerous Metasoul aspects to work with too, who also need this experience of something new, without the same cycles of recapitulation of endless battles and war over differences that aren’t even real at the end of the day.

This is the gift that death in the physical and in our healing and ascension phases offers… illumination that leads to awakening. This phase on our planet in this β€˜year’ called β€˜2020’ has offered us all so much to feel into when and as we choose to. It’s a sacred time of messiness and chaos leading us to whole new ways of being if the steps can be taken from within.

Love,

Kalayna 

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing From Fear/Reactivity Into Love & Genuine Compassion

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“Raised by fear, you’ve forgotten about love… until your soul is ready to remember in its own sacred timing.” – the Divine

I felt this move through my heart just now with a mix of hope and heaviness. There’s a sobriety I feel about the world and everything that’s shaking out and coming to light. I feel the tensions and the ecstasy of rebirth. I feel the sadness of mourning and the love that wants to offer a balm for it all. I feel the bittersweetness of much-needed awakening experiences happening alongside deep and painful realizations of what’s been kept hidden from mainstream consciousness.

Fear is more familiar and reactivity more known. Acting outward in outrage is impulsively considered the ‘best course of action’ whereas bringing your reactions back inward, feeling them with the parts of you and Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes who are experiencing them, is somehow not considered at all as something even more necessary.

When I feel my compassionate heart towards this, I feel my own journey that’s unfolded around it… the impact of self-righteousness on myself and others and the parts of me that really needed ME that whole time but were sending so much energy and defensiveness outward, actually creating a push-away and resistance to love in the process.

You may have empathy and sensitivity, yet the journey into deep compassion for others is very real and always starts within. And, these times we’re living in that are challenging this deeply right now, are meant to birth us all as Sacred Humans with great humility and yet self-worth too while we feel our sensitivity AND the blocks to genuine, full-hearted compassion. Chaos doesn’t have to be the only reality that we live in, inside or outside of us. The process of “out of chaos comes order” no longer needs to be true, for you can choose something different, especially within.

Taking the sacred space YOU need to feel YOUR parts that are in reaction and fear is the invitation and the one thing that really can change the world as we know it and bring in new perspectives that hold compassion for yourself and others. It is a process in which you’ll find your heart opening without (much) hesitation anymore, layer by layer, with parts of you now feeling held by you in their overwhelm and reactions. This then leaves so much more room for discernment of what’s real beyond the mainstream digestion and so much more room as well for the healing of fear layers inside of you that so want to return to Divine trust and surrender.

I offer free 45min consultation calls for women who are curious about going deeper into a process with SoulFullHeart and have many openings this coming week! More info here: soulfullheart.org/sessions ❀

Much love!

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Birthday Love Exchange Celebration

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by Kalayna Solais

I am still in SO much glow this morning after celebrating my birthday with my beloveds yesterday. Actually, it wasn’t JUST with my beloveds here in the flesh… it was also with all of you who wished me a happy day from your hearts. ❀

Every year, my birthday tends to bring with it a birth canal or even a series of birth canals, in the plural, for me to move through in order to keep becoming the being that I most desire to be, in the relationships I most desire to hold dear, and in the purest energy of service of love possible. Last year, my marriage and longterm relationship with my dearest soulmate so far completed and that whole process was bringing up SO much for me to feel every single day. This year was actually the most celebratory for me, as I wasn’t moving through ‘loss’ so much as deep inner ‘gain’ and feeling how much more capacity I now have to let that IN.

Jelelle reflected to me yesterday that in previous years, it felt like no matter what they ‘gave’ me, for parts of me it was never quite enough. Entitlement on some level was covering over deep unworthiness to let in love. And that’s true. Yet I never felt it as ‘not enough’ coming toward me. I actually distinctly remember feeling that I couldn’t let it in, especially the positive reflections of who I am that my beloveds tried to share with me. Their love couldn’t land because I couldn’t land inside of myself and my parts could barely, even after years of working with them, let ME in, let alone my nearest and dearest.

This year… I’ve been moving more into a flow of letting go and letting be while also letting in. I’ve still needed to set boundaries with others, letting go of explorations and connections so that they can arise again anew someday if they’re meant to, yet the sadness of this is flowing alongside a new sense of inner peace with myself, as I am now, even in all of my learning curves and imperfections. There’s a new conviction about who I am and what I’m here to offer, yet also a softness in my heart that though healthfully protected, remains open and in self-love overflow and compassion towards others that seems to grow every day.

This is new. And while I’m letting in such deep appreciation for myself and my own journey that has led me here, I’m letting in those who I can exchange deep and meaningful love and resonance with more than ever before, knowing that this is really all I need. It’s a tall order relationally to show up for on all sides, but it’s worth it to be in the journey of letting it in, not settling for what isn’t this (yet) and trusting that everything and everyone you need right NOW is with you and within you too. ❀

Thank you to everyone who celebrated with me/us yesterday, in person and in energy. Your hearts all land in mine in big ways.

SO much love,
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Humanity’s Return To Innocence

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by Kalayna Solais

Believe it or not… and I’ll bet parts of you feel skeptical (and reasonably so) right now. Yet, I’ve been offered that a huge aspect of the process we’re in right now on Gaia is a great ‘Return to Innocence’. It’s not a simple process by any means. Yet laid out for us, it is. And invited into it deeper, we are.

This ‘innocence’ means seeing and feeling the world through the eyes of wonder and trust, even though there may be tears sometimes when you feel what is burning away in your own life and in the lives of others. Actually, this innocence means there is a renewed sense of your own heart’s purity, which despite the trauma you’ve experienced, remains deep within you. This is what you return to when you’ve healed through so many of the defences parts of you have needed throughout your life. This is the place you interact with others from more than ever before when the younger parts of you who are now much wiser because of life experience but not bitter (anymore) are able to feel this innocence within themselves.

Even all of the purging going on with Cabal, illuminating collective darkness and shadow so that we can dig deeper and move away from this timeline of suppression of love and truth (which can’t ultimately BE suppressed really), is leading us back to our innocence. These darker energies that have influenced and held the larger spaces of politics and fame and even spirituality, are loosening their grip and returning to their own reconciliation within. To meet and match these energies and defend against them as well, parts (especially your Inner Protector) and Metasoul aspects in other timelines have had to adapt and defend, become fiercer than they truly are or want to be, and forget about their realest vulnerabilities and the core of their heart’s desires. This is leading us through a BIG detox of what has NOT been us, individually and collectively, and is challenging us to feel our hearts again.

It may seem sometimes during this purging process that things are getting worse… but when it comes to toxicity, quite often things get worse before they get better. Storms happen before rainbows. And even rainbows happen sometimes while the sky is still clearing of rain and clouds. So it is that our innocence, our Divine Child light, can still find ways to shine through, even though there is still so much churning in the world.

It’s a deep, many-layered process. As I feel my own empowerment in my own process to feel all of this emerging in my own being, I feel how much work it’s taken to get to a space of feeling more of my innocence again. More of the desire to genuinely and heartfully connect, to bring vulnerability even when it feels iffy to do so, is able to emerge now. I can feel this as a new form of leadership that gets to arise now from within me and invite others to find the same within. It’s worth all of the shadow processing to get here and I trust too that this feeling of my own ‘Return To Innocence’ will help hold the space for any more shadow explorations that follow.

And so it can and will be for you… if you keep choosing the curiosity, the inner work, and the desire to hold space for yourself and others as we continue this transition to the most ALIVE-feeling life that we could ever have imagined.

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Star Family Reunion Message & Invitation

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by Kalayna Solais

I’ve been remembering more, putting more together, about my Star Seed essence and how it’s come to express in this lifetime, or be buried too in phases just as sacred as the remembering.

I wanted to write and share more about that, and I likely will in a future writing, but for now, this message wanted to come through. It’s from my Star Family, your Star Family… OUR Star Family, to your ever-awakening and integrating Star Seed essence (and mine!). ❀

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Beloved Star Seed YOU,

Are you starting to see, beginning to understand, why you’ve been invited to inhabit this planet at this time? Are you putting together the pieces of what has been at the heart of humanity’s suffering, feeling the pain of the world move through your sacred heart space with more and more compassion every day? Are you feeling your place in that suffering, as an unconscious contributor to it and the pain YOU hold as well?

This density you’ve lived in, been a part of co-creating and perpetuating, has felt sometimes to parts of you like a game of β€˜seek and find’ to locate your next portal of awakening. It has felt sometimes as if we, your Star Family, are far away, waiting for your worthiness to catch up to you in order to BE with us again. Yet, instead of seeking and never really finding, or not finding what can truly last and integrate inside of your being and your life, we want to invite you into the energy of β€˜arise and remember’. Not a game, but an opportunity. An invitation that remains for the rest of your days on this planet, this arising and ascending Gaia. 

We are only ever as β€˜far away’ as your next quest inward. You’ve often related to us as being β€˜outside’ of you, yet this is also 3rd-dimensional conditioning that tells you we are β€˜other than’ you. Yet, inside of you, inside of the beacon and portal of your Star Seed essence, there is where we live, for in our dimension(s), we are able to reside inside of you.

We ARE you and you ARE us. Your neighbour, your friend, the person in the next room or next home, the homeless man or woman you pass on the street, the addicts who are also trying to find their way back to the dimension they came from, they are all you too as you are them. Yet, the separation energy, the duality of your 3D life, tells you that you must remain in a consciousness that tells you that they are NOT you. That we are not you. But Star Seed… we ARE. 

You’ve been given choices, to continue to venture inward and find us through finding your essence, through healing deeply, through choosing to look into life’s mirrors even and especially when that feels hardest to do. You’ve been given reminders of your power, manifesting so often in shadow, in things that parts of you would rather not see until they are ready to see them.

These choices to heal instead of cope are what open the doors back up to US again. To feeling, truly feeling, the depths of your precious Sacred Human potential, the compassion you must learn to have for yourself just as we have for you. Choosing you, choosing inward, choosing stillness and quiet, choosing action when needed, choosing love, bring you back to the truth of your Star Seed essence and story in this lifetime and others. You can begin to put together the pieces that build your pathway back to us from within you. 

We LOVE you… and every step of your journey, no matter how it looks or feels or manifests. We understand the messy process you’ve undertaken, to ascend not only as one being, but as all beings at once. We offer our support, our love, our compassion, as a human parent would to their child learning, nay, remembering, to walk… again.

In some ways, this message is simple. Yet for some of you, it will feel complex. You are complicated beings with much pain to feel through, yet feeling through it you are, healing through it you are, with an array of many more choices to make as to what unfolds next, with how much consideration of you, yourselves, and how much healing of your inner worlds you feel to commit to in each sacred moment.

With so much love, beloved Star Seed…

Remember who you are.

Remember why you came here.

And remember, as often as you can, that we have never left you. We will always be here for you and with you. And someday, when you’re ready, you’ll feel us expressing AS you. Your β€˜homecoming’ is imminent and is really a coming home to yourself… and with each step you take, we offer fathomless love and invite you to call on us, to remember us through the depths and challenges of coming to remember yourself.

Love,

Your Star Family

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Sacred Journey Of My ‘Black Sheep’ Inner Teenager

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by Kalayna Solais

I harvested some photos from an old Facebook account the other day, at the request of a part of me that you’ll hear about in a moment. The last time I used this account was when I was 25 and walking into it feels like walking into my teenage bedroom, my dorm at university, and all of my ‘first apartments’ I lived in. There’s a treasure trove there of past romantic and would-be romantic connections, creative endeavours, and friendships that my parts then thought were very deep.

This ‘self’ I used to live in, the ‘me’ part of me was constructing, vibrates with so much need to be seen, heard, felt… loved. There was so much performance and not just creatively. There was so much energy around who these parts of me thought they needed to be, what they needed to look like, how they needed to act in order to draw a guy’s attention, to get ‘picked’ for a gig, to become the healer I was driven to be from a very young age, to fit in yet stand out.

Underneath all of that, lies so much sadness. So many feelings of ‘I’ll never make/have it’ despite doing ‘the work’ that I was told then I needed to do.

Underneath all of that, lies so much loneliness. Feelings of ‘I’ll never be loved the way I want to be’ and choosing to try and become a fun party girl and sleep with whoever came into my field for that evening, to feel somehow validated and seen and like people actually did want to be around me…

The ‘me’ I see, the ‘self’ I feel as I share that, is my Inner Teenager who was essentially uninitiated into true femininity and womanhood. Who learned from media pressures what it would take to become anything at all with any real presence in the world, and therefore, what it would take to be loved and to feel like she belonged.

Her name is Katie. And this was the name I went by for all those formative years in my birth family, in early adulthood, and when I first began my SoulFullHeart journey.

Katie struggled with feeling like the ‘Black Sheep’, as have other young parts of me. She felt this way, always, with birth family. She often felt this way too among other young women but also with young men. I haven’t had many relationships with men or close friendships with women my own age. It was very painful for this part, for my awakening Star Seed and Inner Child self too, to really feel any sense of deep connection or belonging with the crowd.

Katie tried many things to cope with these feelings, but none of it ever felt like her… the emptiness and depression remained. When I feel into those ‘Katie’ years, I feel such a soul lineage coming through, of being sometimes the youngest of women in a group, tribe, community of healers and priestesses, or a young, budding, feminine being that couldn’t quite find the initiation she was seeking into true womanhood and Sacred Union, though she so longed and ached for that! It almost feels as if I/Katie would have been diagnosed as manic depressive at the time. The highs were SO high but the lows were nearly catastrophic.

The ‘Black Sheep’ feelings now feel to me like an ache for initiation that our souls actually know very well, for better or worse. The answer to that has to start within and keep coming back to what isn’t happening yet within… the space that isn’t being taken to really feel and honour who you ARE in all the breadth and depth and textures of that. It’s a deep journey of finding the answer to that ache more and more within your Metasoul and in relationship to your parts. Self-initiation, self-belonging, becomes the focus and the desire and also the reality even as you may be drawing resonance and belonging, finally, on the outside.

This is still an ongoing journey for everyone, it feels like, until the veils of separation really vanish for good. It ultimately feels like a pain of ‘not belonging’ with the Divine and a deep desire to move beyond duality. There’s no one person or being outside of us that can do this work for us. Just us being dedicated to ourselves and to being with every single step of this sacred journey back into oneness.

Katie agrees!And is grateful for your heart and soul taking all of this in… πŸ˜€

Much love! ❀

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.