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Finding Your Soul Tribe

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ByΒ  Raphael Awen

Do you see yourself in some ways as different and unique from anyone else you’ve ever met?

Have you ever looked out upon the sea of spiritual offerings and spiritual teachers and the people in those communities, and just honestly said to yourself, I just can’t see myself being a genuine part of anything I can see out there?!

I have.

Prior to that, I have also found myself in long term settings and groups thinking I was there for life. I’d found the truth and that felt good to be settled around that, until that β€˜nest for life’ became evident that the mama eagle was again making the nest prickly, preparing me to make a do or die leap from the nest, into a new world of flight.

Belonging and being a part of something larger than just myself was wired in me. That part I didn’t question. What I did come to question in community experience very deeply was where was the transparency, the vulnerability, and sometimes just where was the garden variety honesty in everyday life.

I knew I was being invited to become more and more honest with myself, but I wasn’t so sure the group I was a part of wanted that like I wanted it. The culture that we had created up till then was a different kind of social contract between us, and now, I was the one seeking to revise the unspoken agreements and sub-agreements within our dynamics.

I knew all too well, just from looking within myself, that people who believe they have thee truth are set upon preserving that truth, exporting that truth, feeling good about themselves for having found such worthy occupation and even divine calling.

I knew I was breaking a contract. The words of β€˜I’m here forever’ had to be revised to mean that β€˜you are in my heart forever, but I am called to journey outside of this precious home that has held me and you and us so beautifully for the time that it has’.

Not one person from within my known world wanted to join me in that kind of exploration. They remained true to the culture we had upheld so faithfully. And It wasn’t their time, simply like how for me, in a couple decades worth of belonging within something, it hadn’t been my time to look beyond its comforting confines. I grew and bloomed where I was planted; until I simply no longer could.

What came next however, was a deep despair.

I knew that if I found anything that just felt real, really real, transparently real, I’d be wanting to be a part of it. But whatever I checked out in the worlds of spirituality that I previously felt were way off in my watertight convictions about what was really true, I came to feel that the same kind of hiding from my former worlds was going on relationally and emotionally in the social fabric of these communities I considered being a part of. The frequencies may have been higher, and more evolved, and more sophisticated, and even more resonant in many ways, but I was stuck on this inescapable bottom line point of that unless we get real, with ourselves and in turn with one another, there really isn’t any hope for meaningful change, or any hope for truly having any fun for that matter.

I thought about how it might look to go forward in life, without really being much a part of anything deeper community wise. I didn’t like that feeling.

That’s precisely when I felt called to lead something new and to be a part of something new. I was surprised by seeing my lifelong focus of finding the right group led by others, within which I could really shine, in someone else’s container, seeing that arrangement have to be let go of, in order to say yes to something new, in order to say yes to a calling. As destiny would so beautifully have it, I was given a mate, Jelelle, with which to share and fuel that dream, and things unfolded to today.

But back to you for a moment, if I may?…

Where are you at? What are you feeling in your truth as you so graciously take in my truth? What are you doing with your own version of feeling (if that is in fact what you are feeling) that you can’t find a place you could fit in, with your honesty, with your transparency, with your truth, with your feelings of having outgrown previous settings and previous ways of being? What is it that you really want? I believe there is something apparent to you that you really want, and that something answers the rest of the somethings that need answering.

I’m saying all this to extend an invite to you, but honestly, it’s not really an β€˜everyone welcome’ sign like the one that so unconditionally lovingly sits out front many churches, communities or spiritual groups. I know too much about what can’t work for me to make that kind of invitation. Everyone is welcome in my heart as my equal, but not to have in my active connection as it’s only through shared resonance around shared values that makes for a real connection. My invite is more exclusive. All of us, I feel, kind of self-organize into where we find deep and true resonance.

My invite today is more exclusive to those who share this honesty piece, this despair piece, this yearning for something different piece. My invitation is to come in closer in deep resonance and transparency in community.

What could shared resonance in shared community look like for you? How could your sovereignty be enhanced rather than sacrificed by being a part of something meaningful?

I may well be speaking to a single soul right now. I know this is meant for someone and maybe some more ones beyond that. But one is really all that matters, because the all is contained in the one, and the one is contained in the all.

On one hand, I don’t need you to be interested in my offer, as I feel a deep trust in the divine within that this desire in me, is destined to continue to be fulfilled, but on the other hand, unless a you, if not you, shows up to play, I have less with whom to play. I can’t be fulfilled as an island to myself. I need you. I want you. I’m not complete without you.

Ok, this is getting a bit deep. I’ll try not to apologize for my passion, and instead simply ask you to check into who I am, who my wife and I are as a couple, what we lead and offer, and beyond to who we are as a community, to feel if what you’ve felt rumble and resonate in you in my words today has any legs beyond remaining in a distant orbit in our galaxy.

I really do hope you find where you are meant to be where you thrive, flourish and grow like a weed, but with the beauty and bounty of a rose. I hope you get smelled and appreciated often, up close and personal, for your true fragrance. I hope a year from now, that you and those around you hardly recognize you for the aliveness that’s unfolded in you.

But please choose. For your sake, for mine, and all of ours. Nothing changes the world like your choice does and ongoingly finding your place.

There’s a few places to check deeper into my world, here on Facebook, on our website, YouTube, group calls, etc. I’d be beyond delighted to hear from you personally and I promise most of all to be real, and treasure your reaching out! πŸ’šπŸŒΉπŸ„πŸ»β€β™‚οΈπŸ™πŸ»

Thanks for feeling this and allowing it to take you where it will.

Much love,

Raphael

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Now Free: We are now offering for free our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

A Love Story: Part Five (A Choicepoint)

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By Raianna Shai

This part of my β€œlove story” is more of my own side of things as I was realizing that my spirituality and my 3D life were struggling to coexist. I was in a limbo space around this time trying to be two things at once: human and divine. I could feel how there was still some life left to live and sort out before I could really choose to integrate my connection to the divine.

I had one foot in both worlds and wasn’t able to give my whole heart to either. I felt like I didn’t truly belong in either and that I could never be enough for my relationship or my community. This was the moment when I realized I had to go fully into life in order to live into whatever was left for me there. In that, I chose to take a break from soulfullheart and soon found my way back with more clarity about who I am and what I want than ever.

Today I feel a much deeper union with my both my humanity and divinity and a greater knowing of my soul’s purpose. Everyday is an inch closer to integrating these two parts of my being and feeling more comfortable to express both of them. Sometimes we have to let go into one reality in order to end the suffering of trying to be everything for everyone else. In this choice, we find who we really are.

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A Love Story: Part Five
A Choicepoint

Why does it feel sometimes like my divine self and human self are at odds? As if I can only experience one of these truths at any one time. There’s a part of me that feels like I have to choose one or the other and when I do, I lose one.

What if I choose the Divine path and lose my self in the process, unable to turn back? What if I choose humanity and forget who I really am and what I’m really capable of? What if I end up living for everyone but myself, constantly choosing what they think is best for me.

I don’t have clarity inside of my heart and soul right now. I don’t have the answers or the ability to go with the flow anymore. I’m at a crossroads in this moment and it’s one of the most uncomfortable places I’ve been in a long time. The nest is prickly but I don’t know where it wants me to go next.

Who am I? What do I really want? How do I want to get to where I need to be? Where do I even need to be? I’m scared of making the wrong choices. I’m scared of every little thing I do coming from the wrong place.

It’s hard to evaluate each thing you feel as if it has the potential to be wrong. I’m in this awkward spot of being able to see when I might regret something but wanting to experience it anyway. Like I haven’t caught up with my own awareness so having the awareness is painful.

I feel as if I need to have clarity and a choice that I just can’t provide right now. So how do I reconcile not knowing what I want and feeling like once I make a choice, I can’t go back?

Love,
Raianna Shai

~~~

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Living Between The Time And No-time Dimensions

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ByΒ  Raphael Awen

I live in a village where church bells chime on the hour, every hour, reminding us of the dimension of time.

In time, there are many urgencies of what should and shouldn’t be. What would our lives be if it wasn’t for such urgencies? How could we maintain a sense of what life is and who we are without such parameters?

Outside of time, there are no urgencies, for all is both waiting to happen and has already happened. Both are equally true outside of time where all potentialities and outcomes equally exist.

If that’s true, and if it’s also true that you and I span the time and the no-time dimensions in the larger sense of who and what we are, then that opens up a whole other way of seeing and feeling our lives than we normally do in the more familiar time dimension.

Maybe the point of the things I want to do today in the time dimension, as well as the pretzel of sorting out what best deserves my time, and then sorting the next pretzel of finding the time and energy for such worthy doings; maybe all of that wants to be informed by the no-time dimension where it’s already all done, where doing doesn’t happen.

What we’d be left with would I imagine be something resembling play, like kids building forts with tea sets inside. It wouldn’t be a β€˜real’ grown up house and a real grown up tea time, but as I recall, I never quite found something in all my adult years as simply fun and engaging as true play to the tune of what I did in childhood.

Maybe your and my inner child hasn’t actually become adapted to all these hourly reminders all around everywhere, the ones on our wrists, and the devices in our hands, keeping us here in the not so fun territory, in a world that feels overdosed on real.

Maybe it’s our inner children that hold the portal back to our essence and are inviting us into what they actually never lost, thank God, but only forgot, in our rush to grow up.

I recall the hour spent in church strangely as the most imprisoned and boring hour growing up, where time surely could not move any slower, like we needed to suffer in the time dimension, like we needed to shed a whole essence of our being and conform to something we were not.

Maybe we did need that. Maybe the church, like all of our institutions are still reminding us of how boring time is, when play is lost, how boredom is like a drill that bores vacuums in our lives that create space for new things to come in, which things are aching something out in us like a kid attempting to to sit still in church, an ache that precedes new creation.

How did we expect to find what we want if we didn’t encounter what we don’t want? Both are equally sacred and both took a lot of courage to choose. You are this courageous, for you chose to be here in both, both the longing and the realization of remembering and expanding on the divinity that you are, even through the comparison of discovering what it isn’t.

You and I are so surrounded by so much divinity on all sides that the things that don’t feel or look very divine are just dimmer switches and moderators allowing for the stuff we are learning and unlearning. This is all happening in the gap that is created in our perception between what is seen as divine and what isn’t.

I’m going to see if I can breathe in a whole big breath of no-time love from the no-time dimension side of my being in order to be with the time pretzels I feel around me in the time dimension, let the two of them get to know each other more.

Maybe as you and I figure this out, we solve this conundrum and deposit the answer/download somewhere in the no-time databank where it’s actually already solved somehow.

And here is where not only you and I get to be part of the deposit and the withdrawal from the time side of our experience, but so does everyone else get to be part of it. There is only one of us after all for whom all of this is and is being sorted out for.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Now Free: We are now offering for free our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Energy Update: Powerful 22:02:2022 Portal!

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By Jelelle Awen

A powerful day today 22:02:2022 (if the day of the month comes first)…a palindrome (same backwards as forwards) and an ambigram (reads the same upside down as well) AND it is TUESday as well. ALL of these ‘2’s provide a potent activation of union codes from within, with others, with your soul aspects/Metasoul, collectively, and with the Divine.

In meditation today, I went into the multiples 2s portal and my Inner Earth Lemurian Guide/Aspect Ruma came forward to connect with me. She met me in etheric space at Fraga Da Pena, the heavenly natural gorge with waterfalls near us that I shared about a few days ago. I felt this place as a portal between our surface world and Inner Earth Lemuria.

They are many such portals on the surface to Inner Earth, usually near or on Mountain ranges such as ones here in Central Portugal where several ranges converge, Mount Shasta, the Rocky Mountains, Mount Bacharach in France, Andes mountains, the Himalayas and many others. There are usually Inner Earth cities within these mountains with much galactic activity coming and going from the peaks and summits of them.

We mostly engage with these portals during meditation, through etheric and astral visits, although sometimes in the physical body as well. I felt the invitation from Ruma to open up the portal to Inner Earth Lemurian today for those drawn to go there to feel the possibilities they hold for us to some day experience Lemuria again on the surface. The Inner Earth Lemurians who went into

‘hiding’ during the fall of Lemuria can return to the surface when the frequency of humanity is high enough to support their 5D consciousness.

Ruma’s message today was one of opportunity to heal the separation consciousness within us as we connect to the places/parts/aspects that feel and experience it in often deeply profound ways that can lead to ongoing suffering and pain. Being in the Matrix reality since the Fall has amplified the emotional trauma from fragmenting out of the Divine, out of our Soul Family Monad, out of our pairbond/twin flame, out of our Metasoul, and even within us as parts of us form to reflect this fragmentation. All this fragmentation has been a necessary aspect of Divine Play and experiment, yet has left undigested wounding in our emotional and soul fields.

All these 2 codes feel like an invitation into wholeness again, into unity, into completion and to remember what it FEELS like to be in these Unity Consciousness states. Being willing to FEEL the separation is what allows it to heal, being a bridge to the parts/aspect that feels separate over and over again as needed. until they no longer do.

Raphael and I shared much more about this in our recent group call and a meditation to connect with Union consciousness, your bridging self (what we call your Divine Self) and with your separated self. We created a bridge to allow space for this energies to connect with each other. You can purchase the recording via offering a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen.

I also highly recommend any video that draws you today from our recent 31 day Deepen guided meditation series: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y…

This TWO day invites us to bring whatever energies are feeling separate (and the tension and fear that creates) INTO Union again. Perhaps your Inner Earth Lemurian is waiting to connect with you to assist in that movement from within you!

Happy TWOsday!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

This photo was taken yesterday while we were exploring the nearby town of Coja, near an ‘idyllic’ feeling creek and park. It’s amazing what Gaia and the sun can transmit to us when we are open to receive!

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Energy Update: 2/20 to 2/22 Offering Unification, Union & Feminine Codes

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By Jelelle Awen

The energies this month have been INtense! They have been Inviting us into deeper inner spaces of our heart and soul for quantum healing at levels not possible before while still remaining connected to the body. All this “2” energy of unification, union, feminine frequencies and the portal of 2/20 to 2/22 feels especially powerful and important for this inner healing and transmutation.

You may be experiencing some body detox symptoms as these sacred feminine frequencies flush out whatever is needed, especially in the yoni and womb spaces for women. Period cycles can be heightened, yoni irritation/UTI like symptoms coming in and clearing as the feminine power centers are cleared and reclaimed. Men may experience these energies in their hara with digestive issues and not being able to eat what you usually can.

I SO needed some Divine Mother/Gaia codes as I’ve been in an intense ongoing karmic process with my medicine woman Metasoul aspect Ingrit from a middle ages timeline. She was both ostracized and ‘needed’ by the townspeople and eventually betrayed by them as well. These kind of persecution wounds are coming up now too for healing as the feminine empowerment activations occur.

We are blessed to live in a beautiful natural area in Central, Portugal surrounded by mountain ranges and rivers. Raphael and I went to a truly magical place today Fraga da Pena about 25 minutes drive from where we live…..a small gorge carved into one of the mountainsides here with beautiful, pristine waters flowing through it creating many natural waterfalls.

Waterfalls are always magical as the force of the water reminds us of the power within us that can also be given up to and surrendered to the Divine. These pictures capture the truly amazing light codes coming off these waters filtering through sunlight. These waters are full of quartz crystal rocks…very common here and why we spent three months camping right next to a river here last summer. I haven’t seen codes like these before in photos and the video in nature and it shows the high frequencies that are available to us in these magical places.

The energies were Pixie/Devic, Lemurian, Galactic/Arcturian…a heady mix of very ancient and cutting edge. Enjoy the transmission from them!

Oh, and you are invited to join Raphael and I today for our monthly group call transmission at 5:00pm GMT, exploring the separate wound and bridging to Unity codes from within…you can join us live and receive the recording! More info at soulfullheart.org to offer a donation of any amount to attend at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

The Portal Of Our Separation Wound

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By  Raphael Awen

Deep, potent, powerful transformation is available to all of us, but this accelerated and conscious version of our growth, only occurs as we are willing to go inward to transparently and vulnerably feel our fears.

Growth and forward momentum is guaranteed whether we choose this accelerated path or not, as we are all immersed in the learning and growth vehicle we call life, and it’s wired for growth and the ultimate and ongoing reconciliation with the divine that we are. But some of us are just impatient!

We have so many levels of growth and learning that await us, but for now, our primary familiar level of conscious awareness on this earth plane is our gateway to the higher ones we crave and yearn for. If that’s true, then what you have probably felt was a hindrance to your awakening is actually instead the opportunity for it.

If we can choose a surrender over a success kind of mindset; reconciliation over attainments; stewarding over possessing, then we get closer to where what before felt like blocks, hindrances and missing capacities, are now readily transmuted into portals to the real and truer thing that’s underneath the attachments to the false thing. Here you are presented with what you really want.

This should be a big sigh of relief as you toss out all the technique based how to manuals that only ultimately helped you run out of gas for the self discipline (torture) picture of spirituality. Your time of slaving in return for breadcrumbs of your essence is over if you are ready for it to be over.

Somewhere next in here, you are faced with the challenge of having what you really want, which you before assumed was instant bliss, goodness and happiness and instead are surprised to see that even here, negotiation and adjustment are needed.

Parts of you are losing a familiar territory where they learned to live in some dimension of lack, and they need to be embraced and honored for the service they’ve given and the posts they’ve held. Their reactions are actually the keys to the portal through these reactions – reactions are movements, not something to be overcome or worse yet, β€˜mastered’. The only place the word mastery deserves a place in your lexicon is the mastery of surrender, which is not the attainment of personal power over something, but instead the letting go of that now false, and maybe once treasured power, into the power β€˜under’ something, the power that underlies and animates all things, that can’t be attained, only surrendered into. That’s good news because falling is a whole lot easier than climbing, yes?!

It’s crazy making to get so much closer to the bliss you wanted and chose only to find more formidable blocks that make you wonder why you set out on this journey in the first place.

I believe what you and I are carrying deep within us is 2 divine programs, if I could call them that. These are benevolent programs that we actually not only agreed to, but were also the creators of, and also the why of why we were willing to be individuated from the divine from oneness into this twoness/duality where we retained everything we once were, but also agreed to these 2 paths or journeys of forgetting and remembering in it all.

The forgetting and remembering that you and I are playing out, we are playing it out together, with each of us at different stages, but all dependent and connected to one another. No one arrives home until all arrive home.

The forgetting program involves a deep wound, an ache that calls for our attention. This wound is the separation wound, where both consciously, but mostly unconsciously, we carry and express an inner knowing of something lost, something so precious that we almost wish we never knew of such goodness, for the pain that a single ounce of this remembering piques in us.

But this program alone without a countering program would be pure torture. The other program we have and possess is the program to remember. I believe your and my full remembrance of everything we lost is not only baked in the cake, but this remembrance even excels the original state we forfeited and takes it into ongoing creative expansion of more. This is the what and the why our souls embraced this plan with such abandon.

We knew that for the divine to have the opportunity to meet and get to know itself for the first time would be a sacred union like no other. The divine couldn’t do this without forgetting and remembering, and it decided to do it billions of times over and over with individuated consciosness’s called you and me.

The heights of our tension though is at these crazy making points where our surrender into the crazy is asked for. This is the process of death and rebirth. Something that once lived, breathed and had purpose and meaning is dying, concluding, wrapping up, preparing to breathe its last and it needs someone to hold space, a hospice kind of space, an open heart space for it to wrap up. This is pieces and parts of you that are transmuting through death and rebirth even as your physical body and name address on the planet has continuity.

This is where time spent in palliative care and the nursery of your inner hospital often occurs on the same day as you participate in goodbyes and hellos to old you and new arising you.

I invite you to embrace the separation wound as it lives in you and however it is currently expressing in your life circumstances.  Here you will find is where the remembering is also happening in the fullest swing you can self lovingly handle, where every piece has time and space to be savoured, honored and transmuted.

Here is your greatest service of love, which helps you recognize your unique youness, which is integral to reuniting fully with the divine without losing yourself in the divine. The divine wants union which is about 2 coming together, over and over again. This means you never lose your individuality. It only keeps shifting and changing into more. You’ll need more you to be in this kind of union.

We need each other to get on with this more and more as each of our attainments are a co-op kind of shared agreement of ownership. Your gain is mine and vice versa.

I hope this lands in you as an answer to some deep questions you’ve been asking. I felt some distress calls as I was writing this today.

Jelelle Awen and I are hosting a group call this Sunday to connect more around the separation wound which will get into more of this, in a heart and feeling space with others, where something magical always occurs for everyone present. I’d like to invite you if this calls to you. Details here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/events πŸ’š

And there’s also our free SoulFullHeart Portal to climatize more to these energies and fellow inclined people. You can join here:

https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Thank you for reading and thank you for connecting.

Much love,

Raphael

It even got cool enough this week to break out the toques, which has been a rare thing this warm winter here in central Portugal. This is at the Mondego river which runs through Coimbra city, Portugal’s third largest (if I’m not mistaken), a place we go for some adventure at times and new shoes, which we found for Jelelle!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Now Free: We are now offering for free our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

A Valentine From Divine You To You

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ByΒ  Raphael Awen

May the valentine you receive today be the best one ever, from the divine in gratitude for your participation in time and space and this density – for your willingness to be in the game of awakening and lifting veils and discovering what wouldn’t and couldn’t be discovered without your part.

May the valentine you send be addressed to the All of which you also are as an individual – in-divi-dual – an undividable twoness – both one among many and inextricably undivided from the All.

You are both the one and many, hence you can write your own Valentine’s – you are the to and the from in this greatest, and ever greatening love story.

May not one ounce of the suffering you experience in this experiment be left unclaimed for the pound of gold that has your name on it! The love here is overwhelming and love itself needs takers in this infinitely expanding reality. Fret not for the temporary limitation you perceive, for even the limitation is born out of and created out of the abundance.

Even the dark ones currently pulling the big levers of power are equally a part of this grand unfolding. Their amnesia of who they really are will turn to amnesty as they awaken to their roles, receive the built in forgiveness for the playing the necessary dark roles to this love story. Our hearts will recognize the darkest deeds are in service of the light. Our hearts will recognize that the slightest offense to love differs not to the grandest one. Love forgives all.

If you can be forgiven, so can Justin, right? And his dad too, and Hillary, and Bill, and the whole lot of them. There’s only one lot, and they are a lot to love, but you have this lot in you and this is the lot you are a part of.

Happy Valentine’s Day to you, Jelelle! For being so deeply and profoundly joined with me, busy being in love’s overwhelm and calm, love’s forgetting and remembering.

Happy Valentine’s Day TO you, FROM you and THROUGH you!

YOU are the hot stuff the world waits for.

~ R ~

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Now Free: We are now offering for free our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

You Are Love In The Process Of Remembering: Message From The Divine

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By Jelelle Awen

This was written today in an afterglow state following sacred union/sexuality connection with Raphael. I felt these words come to me as we continue to heal the separation consciousness experience within our pair bond together in many lifetimes. Our souls seem to chose the impossible configuration of ‘good king during hard times’ and ‘powerful yet cautious priestess’ as a way to experience this separation. Our Metasoul aspects have always been attracted to each other, yet not able to claim a sacred union and actually BE together out in the open in a committed, long lasting way or at least not very often within the Matrix lifetimes.

As we celebrate the anniversary of our marriage vow renewal and with Valentine’s day coming up tomorrow, I feel so grateful for our capacity and ability to BE together this life in an ever deepening way…here to heal this separation experience and remember union!

These words offer a recoding for you to take in as well….and you could put ‘I am’ to replace “You are” for some powerful affirmations! ~

“You are an infinite being living within a finite body.

You are a beloved member of a soul family anticipating your return.

You are one half of a pair bond/twin flame partnership inviting you into eventual reunion.

You are unity consciousness temporarily experiencing separation. 

You are unconditional love limited only by illusionary fears.

You are light seeding your beacon into the darkness.

You are a power force…stoppable only by your own choices.

You are FREE with no other being/energy/forces able to truly enslave you.

You are the Divine surrendering into the experiment of being human.

You are LOVE in the process of remembering.” 

Reminder from the Divine and your Higher Self ~

Hope you can join us for a group call on Sunday, February 20th to explore healing the separation wound to move into Unity Consciousness. More info at soulfullheart.org.

A Love Story: Part Four (Enter At Your Own Risk)

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By Raianna Shai

I finally made it to part four of my love story series! This is a full on post instead of a poem, so I’ll keep this preface short and sweet.

I had a moment last year while trying to rediscover myself and my purpose when I realized that the part of me that I’ve judged and kept protected is actually one of my greatest gifts. I’ve been so held back by fear of my own emotions and what other people may think of me that it’s been so hard to let myself just be honest and real.

Even when I would share my feelings in a relationship, I would try to soften it to not make it sound β€œtoo much” or β€œtoo unfair”. But I’m finally reaching the point of realizing that risking judgement and blowing up a relationship is worth it when your truth could actually bring you and the other person into something new and meaningful. Yes, truth can hurt and harm others – but so can holding it back. At least the former allows you both the opportunity to show up and grow into new ground.

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A Love Story: Part Four
Enter At Your Own Risk

So much of our lives are spent worrying and fearing what might happen. We close ourselves off knowing we could potentially be hurt if we don’t. We don’t tell people how we feel, we don’t open up our hearts to one another, we don’t commit to something that means a lot to us, we sabotage ourselves in the name of safety, comfort and preservation.

But when I think of all those beautiful moments in life that we’re constantly searching for – have we ever gotten there without risk? Have you ever fallen in love without being vulnerable? Or felt a deep sense of connection with someone without the risk of being rejected or judged? Has there ever been a moment of true and real emotion that hasn’t come with an underlying fear of abandonment?

We try so hard to avoid the mess – the heartbreak, the judgement from others, criticism – but with that, we avoid the bliss.

Something I’ve realized about myself over the last few months is that I am incredibly sensitive and emotional and for maybe the first moment in my life I 100% love that part of me. I’ve spent so long worrying that I would be seen as too much, as pushing people in my life to be someone they’re not in order to match me, as being overly sensitive and insecure. Insecurity can come with sensitivity but so can strength.

When I let myself be me, I have the strength to sit with someone and pour my heart out to them. I have the strength to feel my feelings on full blast without having a wall up to protect myself from others. I have the strength to love with such depth that I genuinely worry I’ll get lost in it.

And sometimes I do. Sometimes I forget how beautiful my heart is and how much it deserves to be loved back just as powerfully. I just want to be seen and felt in all my glory.

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

A Digestion Of The Deepen 2022 Video Series

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By Raianna Shai

This SoulFullHeart video series is such an incredible way to get to know yourself to an incredible deep level. They’re full of teachings and meditations that are so valuable for discovering who you are, why you feel and react the way you do, what your gifts are and how to heal even your deepest wounds. I’ve been doing this series for the last two weeks or so and even the more β€œbasic” videos have been so enlivening and core to my current healing process.

There’s something special about connecting to 31 different videos that slowly but thoroughly help you dive into any and all places that need your attention. They can be taken in at any pace and at any time which allows you to go deeper into any process that feels relevant.

I have been on a deep journey of discovering my divine empowered woman and these videos have brought so many connections to light inside of me. They have taught me how much my inner mother wants to care take everyone to the point where it doesn’t allow others, or other parts of me, to live into their bigness and grow into the person they’re capable of. They have taught me that my inner teenager is ready to blossom and become a woman capable of setting boundaries and advocating for herself and the capacity of others.

They have woken up my inner protector enough for him to realize that he can’t keep me small and locked in my bedroom anymore. This journey has strengthened belief in myself and what I have to gift others. I have been able to dive into my shadow in a way that I was way to scared to before and recognize patterns that have been so detrimental to my own growth as well as those around me, even if for a good reason.

So thank you Jelelle, Raphael and soon Kasha and Gabriel for providing me with the tools I need to love and care for myself in a way that serves both myself and the collective ❀️

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days, a playlist featuring each video released so far, and information about the two Deepen 2022 group calls, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

Love, Raianna

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.