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𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐌𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 – 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐈𝐕: 𝐒𝐡𝐞 𝐖𝐡𝐨 𝐖𝐡𝐢𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬 “𝐈𝐭’𝐬 𝐓𝐢𝐦𝐞”

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by Kasha Rosa

We come now to the final part of this series, released as the wheel of the year turns toward Samhain.

The following is a transmission of Dark Mother’s energies… the core of the re-coding I’ve been offering these last few weeks. 💜

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I see Her.

She is cloaked,

yet Her hood is sliding down.

She invites you to know Her better,

beyond the victimhood narratives 

and goddess war stories.

Beyond the need for enemies.

She has been called “Destroyer,”

but what She truly offers 

is so much bigger…

She aches for the need for battling to be over.

She aches for the pull toward suffering to lose its glamour.

She invites, with open arms,

your surrender…

your WHOLE surrender.

You, and every one of your parts 

and soul aspects,

are welcome to lean into Her.

She is infinity and the void.

She is the grace of the feminine capacity to hold space for every nuance of her being.

She is the fire of change and rebirth.

She is the voice that whispers,

“It’s time.”

She is the hand extended

as you tremble 

at the edge of transformation.

She is the warmth that catches you

when the fall becomes 

too much to bear.

She is the encouragement 

to get messy

if it means getting real.

The reminder that everything 

can be cleaned up

if your heart is in it.

She is the balm of calming love

after the lessons have landed.

She is raw sensuality…

the sacred invitation into intimacy

with self, with other, with Life.

She is commitment and investment.

She is the holding of fear 

and moving forward anyway.

She is the walk into the underworld

and the rise back out with gifts in hand.

She is the Dark Mother.

And she has always, 

always loved you. 💜

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Kasha Rosa is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐌𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 – 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐈𝐈𝐈: 𝐌𝐲 𝐃𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐖𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐇𝐞𝐫

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by Kasha Rosa

She’s held me as I sobbed.

Let me rage without judgment.

Stayed when everything burned down.

And helped me rise again.

This is what it means to know the Dark Mother.

And this is my story. 🕯

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In my own soul’s experience,

Dark Mother is the death knell and the birthing pool.

She heralds both endings and new beginnings.

She invites us beyond victimhood and into our empowerment, always guiding us into our raw vulnerability and our deepest truths.

So many times, She’s woken me up to my own depths of feeling and need for healing. She’s provided the catalyst at times to push out my soul’s angst but also the pain underneath it.

She’s held my hand as I cry the deepest tears of grief and ache and heartbreak.

She’s given my voice air when I’ve been angry, never judging it as right or wrong. She always understands it on a deeper level and invites me to feel what’s underneath it, always.

She’s been the steadiness rising once again in my chest, in my feet finding new ground after a rumble moves through my life.

Her compass of compassion is always what brings me back home to myself.

Her unconditional acceptance of me in any state I’m in is what templates my own unconditional self-acceptance and everything I could possibly need to feel.

She’s been the fireplace, the sacred container in which I can put it ALL… everything my priestess aspects, my inner teenager, my Queen, never got to say because it wasn’t safe enough inside or out.

Her capacity to hold that intensity with me and even poultice it out is what has earned Her the crown of “Dark Mother,” for She then holds our rebirth in Her own womb as that process unfolds.

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What has She invited you to feel lately that has been uncomfortable to move through?

The answer may not come easily, as Her call into that territory can feel like a siren beckoning you into depths which parts of you fear they’ll never emerge from again.

Yet, if there’s anything She promises over and over again, it’s this:

You will ALWAYS be reborn, though not always in the form parts of you have pictured.

You will ALWAYS experience grace, even if it’s hard to let in.

You will ALWAYS be DEEPLY loved through any of your expressions and experiences, inviting you into deeper love within that can then flow to others and back again.

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Kasha Rosa is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐌𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐈𝐈: 𝐓𝐡𝐞 (𝐑𝐞)𝐁𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐡 𝐂𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐥

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by Kasha Rosa

This second part of this Dark Mother series takes us into the poetic truth of darkness, which is not punishment or absence of anything, really… but is rather the birthing place of everything we’ve ever truly needed to face, feel, and become.

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There has always been darkness.

It is the birth canal that moves you into this world.

It is the sacredness of nighttime before a new day dawns.

It is the exploration of shadow, of suffering, of carnage.

It is the womb of Divine Mother…holding, nurturing, offering life unconditionally.

It is the burying of a seed so that it can spring forth with everything that’s been encoded within it.

Darkness is not the absence of light.

It is the birthing of it.

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Our souls all have a relationship with the dark.

It’s the void of loss,

the experience of rupture,

the feelings of shame and blame,

the doubts,

the witnessing of “evils” that beg to be understood.

It’s also the feeling of letting go with willingness and need…

the trust fall into the waiting arms of the Divine

when all else seems to fade away.

It’s the feeling of long-suppressed truths finally coming forward,

sometimes with charge,

sometimes in fragments,

and the digesting that follows.

It’s the pull of necessary life experiences that crack us open and shape us…

that bring us to our knees

not to break us,

but to reveal what was always meant to be born.

There is nothing that Dark Mother, in all of her vastness, cannot hold.

No shadow too great.

No sorrow too deep.

No part of you unlovable.

To Her, there is no evil that cannot ultimately be loved.

There is no transgression that is unforgivable.

There is no fragment of your soul beyond her grace.

And that is what makes Her so hard to let in.

Because Her love will see everything.

This is what,

For parts of you,

(Especially the protective ones)

Feels like the end of life…

Because it is.

It’s the end of strategy

And the beginning of authenticity.

When Dark Mother lights her match,

When her candle is shone at just the right angle,

That’s when life as you’ve known it

Starts to rumble

And old ties, patterns, and relationship grounds

Begin to crumble.

Beloved, 

Though this is scary for parts of you

And soul aspects who have known the ending of golden times,

This is part of love’s journey…

Dissolution leading to rebirth.

Taking something apart

To put it back together

With more wisdom,

More healing,

And more love leading. 

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She does not walk away from your pain. 

She holds space for it, knowing that it will always lead you to your rebirth.

And as a result, she templates for you how to hold space for yourself as that process deepens within and in your life. If you are experiencing a time of transition now, you can feel into what wisdom she may be waiting to offer you and which parts of you may feel afraid of her presence…

I’ll be recording a guided meditation in the next couple of days which will support you in that process, especially honouring and feeling the inner masculine protector energies which may especially be in reaction to her. 

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Kasha Rosa is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐌𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 – 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐈: 𝐑𝐞-𝐜𝐨𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐇𝐞𝐫 𝐏𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐈𝐧 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞(𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐬)

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by Kasha Rosa

As October opens, the veils begin to thin… and She approaches.

This is the beginning of a devotional series I’ve written for Her, the Dark Mother, whose love I have come to know in the fire and the tenderness of transformation over many lifetimes.

This first part is a prelude: a remembering, a re-coding of Dark Mother’s face and frequency.

It’s an extension beyond the distorted face projected by fear or dogma, and the face I have come to know in the shadows of my own soul.

This is for Her, for myself, and for you… if you too have touched Her cloak and heard Her whisper your name.

My soul holds a deep relationship with Dark Mother, not only as an archetype but as a living, breathing energy who continues to guide, challenge, and love me in ways no one else can. Writing this feels like a re-weaving of narrative… not just the collective story that has been projected onto Her, but a personal one… a recoding that my own soul has been longing for.

In the feminine heart and soul is a connection to all aspects of Divine Mother and to varying degrees, an embodiment of her different frequencies too.

As we free ourselves from within,

so we free her expression in this world once more:

Her energies of worth and compassion for self and others.

Her love that ripples through your being and backlights the broken pieces of your heart. Her passion that frees the suppressed voice and invites in the intimacy of change.

Dark Mother in particular is an aspect that has held so much projection.

She has been feared, misunderstood, and politicized.

Connecting with Her has often been associated with rebellion, with rage, with condemnation, especially in narratives that pit the feminine against the masculine.

Sometimes, that fire is needed as the feminine rises and roars and reclaims. But that isn’t the whole story. It isn’t meant to sustain. And it certainly isn’t meant to become The Truth that all women must abide by and all men must fear.

She has long been seen as steward of shadow work, especially as the one who holds space for descent, for the unraveling, for the “dark night of the soul” experience that all souls experience at some point in their awakening journey, to whatever degree is needed. 

She is the womb in which the pain is not bypassed but is embraced instead… held, honoured, loved. She is the echo chamber where truths hidden by trauma and life’s dramas resurface to be felt.

To dance with Dark Mother and truly let Her in often means dancing with what has been long buried or denied, often out of necessity for survival. Parts of you have fears about what the cost could be if pain or even genuine joy is no longer layered over.

Yet so little is said about how instrumental She is in leading us to the other side of pain, where light shines into the wound, cauterizing what was infected, and gently applying a balm.

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Have you met Her too… in the places no one else could follow?

I’ll be sharing more of this series throughout October, in rhythm with the turning season and the long shadows that lead us toward Samhain.

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Kasha Rosa is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Sacred Feminine Upgrade Codes: Feeling Your Fear As You Move Into LOVE

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by Kasha Rokshana

“There’s a lot of fear…”

Tears fall as I feel this with parts of me this morning, feeling what seems to be on deck for this coming year, feeling all that’s happened this year and could happen in the next one. Just naming it, feeling it as a fear pocket being shown to me helps move it more into love and openness, especially as I hold the parts of me who have been churning inside around it.

These words, “there’s a lot of fear,” tumble from my mouth and as I say them out loud, the words “there’s love here” come as well. I realize then how similar these two statements are when we say them, how similar they feel in our mouths, in our breath, as they move from deep inside of us to be expressed.

“There’s love here” is what has been offered to me by my beloved guide, Mary Magdalene, who I’ve been connecting with in sacred surrogacy for a while now, and also from the Divine Beloved who then squeezes me, holds me tight as these energies are transmitted, seeding within my feminine healer’s heart. I feel so supported in my love embodiment as I feel these energies surrounding me, so anchored in my propensity to ultimately return to love, always, even when fear is still moving through and needs to be validated as well.

I feel this as a vital theme as we head into 2024 and a powerful opportunity for upgrades on a soul, heart, and body level. Shifting from fear to openness, then to love and allowing this to be an ongoing process too, holding it all with so much self-care and compassion yet also challenging yourself and your parts too. Being willing to feel it all can feel like a tall order, yet the invitation is always to take it one step at a time. 

Love,

Kasha

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Equinox Codes: Healing Deep Suffering Loops (Video)

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by Kasha Rokshana

https://youtu.be/wMefxZdBc1c

“Am I genuinely, truly ready to let go of past suffering and move into new and unknown soul and heart bigness?” — this was a powerful question that continued to arise in different ways for all of us at our SoulFullHeart Equinox Gathering this weekend.

Soul turns and healing trajectories moving us through birth canals… letting go of suffering on whatever level we feel ready for that (and to be in the genuine, deep, real, and multi-layered process of that) has been a profound theme for this Equinox passage.

In this video, I share about this theme of letting go and healing the relationship to suffering and how I relate to it personally at this time. I also share about what it means to be with it through your open and curious heart as you feel parts of you and Metasoul aspects (soul expressions in other lifetimes) too. 

I hope you’ve had a blessed and very real Equinox experience, truly moving you into a new sense of yourself, your soul, and what it feels like to be supported by the Divine through absolutely everything.

Love, 

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Transformational Journey Of Your Inner Mother/Matriarch

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by Kasha Rokshana

One of the many, many expressions of our feminines is the Inner Mother or what could also be called the Matriarch. 

There’s quite an arch of healing for this part of you. As you get to know and feel her more, you feel her tendencies and life strategies; her ways of dealing with other parts, with life circumstances, and with outer relationships too. 

At first, this part appears an awful lot like your birth mother or another female caregiver/authority figure, or a mix of many feminine influences in your life. In my case, she was a mix between my mother, my older sister, and even my sister-in-law sometimes. This can definitely make feeling this part very challenging at first, especially if your relationship with your mom/these feminine influences in this lifetime has been particularly difficult or abusive, even subtly so at times. It can feel like another level of being invaded by her/their energies and feeling how deep the imprint has gone into you, even with parts of you (usually the inner teenager) trying to rebel against being like ‘her’.

She can have the energy of being quite punishing or pushy, protective, dominating, and critical. She can also, on the other hand, have an energy of passivity, of overly people-pleasing and even martyrdom. This all becomes a complicated mix at times too, coupled with resentful giving, caring and also not caring about self and others, competition, etc. This part can truly represent your trailing edge as a feminine.

Yet, this part of you has also had a reason to be this way, as have all parts of you. She learned these behaviours, strategies, and ways of relating to life and even love through the influence and invasion of feminine authority figures and what they haven’t felt or healed in their own parts. She also hasn’t been shown another way to be, especially with being more plugged in a times to the Matrix and the mixed messages there about how to BE a ‘real woman’. She can be understandably reactive to these Matrix energies, overwhelmed by trying to hold and lead life as well as take care of other parts of you in the only ways she’s been modeled how. 

She’s also had to become a more matriarchal/masculinized feminine energy because of all you’ve had to respond to in your life as a woman, including being a single mom or in general having an absence of a steady and trustworthy masculine on the outside. So often this part of you is also compensating somehow for a gap there, especially if you haven’t had a loving birth father experience or a soulmate who is truly willing and able to show up for himself and in the bond. Even as I write this, I feel the feminine ache we all share around this, no matter what degree we’ve healed or felt it at this time. It’s truly a pain that lives in many parts of us, yet this part in particular usually needs quite a bit of digestion around it.

This is where you come in. As you feel her and begin to exchange love with her in deeper and deeper ways, she has the opportunity to lean into your open heart and even your own boundaries you set with her (as she so often hasn’t had boundaries set with her before). You invite her to feel her deeper pain with you over time and step by step, moment by moment, she begins to heal and open up to her own transformation – a true becoming of who she actually IS, well beyond the pains and unfelt trauma of your own mother. 

As this part of you transmutes, she begins to soften and become more feminine. Her judgements heal to discernment, her passivity heals to passion. She still may have a ferocity at times, yet it’s led differently and isn’t so much about attacking of defending or even dominating. She wants collaboration and resonance more so than to be willing to just stew in dissonance, never really resolving her suffering or pain inside or outside of you. She begins to heal into a whole new expression of what it means to be a ‘mother’ and may even begin to feel herself as another expression of Divine Mother.

The whole arch of this part of you also often requires you to take space from your own birth mother, as it’s the only way she can really be felt by you and begin to differentiate. This is also how you as a woman can begin to truly feel who you are beyond your mother’s influence… a very sacred part of your own becoming, your own embodiment of Divine Mother.

Join Jelelle and all of us for a women’s call all about the Inner Mother/Matriarch process. More info here: soulfullheart.org/divineselfseries

Also, 1:1 sessions are available with me for women and I also offer free intro calls. More info here: soulfullheart.org/sessions   

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

A Bigger Purpose For Your Healing: A Poem

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by Kasha Rokshana

The gift of your healing efforts
Is the revelation
Of your own healing gifts.

Those divine energies
That support you
Are also invited
To move through you to others.

What else could our healing be for
Besides nourishing ourselves enough,
Reuniting with our souls enough,
Embodying our divinity and humanity enough,
So that we can truly support others
To find that they too
Are ‘enough’,
And arising together
In purer and purer
Heart frequencies?

Expressing our gifts
In an egoic,
False light,
False God way,
Tells us that ‘enough’ doesn’t exist,
That perpetual suffering is ‘normal’,
That in order to lead
We must be worthy,
We must be infallible,
We must be elevated
By projected perfection
And pictures of
‘Enlightenment’.

In all of this
Parts of us forget
That being humble,
Real,
Transparent,
Desirous of our true selves,
Needy for the Divine,
Hungry for pure love,
And messily striving
For more intimacy
And resonance
With others
Is the truest,
Deepest path
To healing
And
To offering healing
In all ways,
In all relationships,
While living into our capacity
To be that heart that others lean into
As they rediscover
And purify
Their own.

The wounded heart and soul
Within
Is meant to move
To softer, gentler
Landing places
Where love truly reigns
And the suffering you’ve felt
For oh, so long…
Can finally find its way
Back to the bliss
And blessed joy
That your soul remembers,
That your parts ache for,
That your Divine Self
Is anchoring
And wanting everything within
To ask for,
Need,
And let in.

Beloved,
This is your birthright…
To heal and let heal,
To love yourself
So you can truly love others,
And to expand
Your consciousness
As you wake up
And shake off
The sleepy lullaby
Of the Matrix world…
Remembering
And rediscovering
Everything that is truly amazing
About life,
About love,
And above all…
About you
And all that lives within.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

As True Courage Lives In You: A Poem

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by Kasha Rokshana

Encouragement
Is allowing courage
To live in you.

A journey of embodying
What it means
To live from the heart.

Truly living heart-fully
Means the filled-up heart within
Speaks its truth,
Holds steady its overflow,
Makes space
For filling up again
From that infinite source
Above, beyond,
Around,
Within you.

To become encouraging
Your own courage must be ripened,
Sharpened by the edges
Of sometimes challenging choices,
Darker-feeling phases
And still finding the light
That shines always upon you
Through the tunnels
Of the unknown.

If what you always
Return to
Is your filling-up heart space
Then you, beloved,
Are feeling the Great Beloved,
That Divine Love always reaching,
Always offering bridges,
Always loving you deeply
Just where you are.

Yes… just where you are.

In that exact place,
In that sense of lostness,
In that longing to be found,
In that yearning for love.

Perhaps the greatest courage
You will ever feel
Is the courage to be met
By this love always wanting you,
Always offering to carry you,
Always creating a resting place
For you
For your soul
For your parts
For everything that has ever
And will ever
Live inside of that vast being
That makes you both ‘you’
And somehow ‘One’ with ‘All’.

Receiving takes far more courage
Than resistance
For once this love has been tasted,
Nothing else compares,
Nothing else inspires,
And nothing else
Could possibly satiate
Every longing that has ever lived
Inside of every cell
That lives in your ‘self’.

So choose your courage,
Stay in your light
As you bridge to your shadow,
Love yourself in every moment
With support from that
Which will always,
In all ways,
Support YOU
As the brave arising One
Who continues to be challenged
To choose your soul bigness,
Your expression as Love embodied,
And your incredible courage
To be here now.

Love,
Kasha and the Divine

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

A Message To Gatekeepers: Unification/Forgiveness/Reconciliation/Light Codes And Yeshua/Magdalene/Christ Consciousness Available Right Now To Tap Into And Download

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By Bey Magdalene

In my last session with Jelelle we met my actual/new Gatekeeper as she wanted to bridge me to my higher dimensional Gatekeeper for support. Who came forward was an energy that in the course of the session would call himself ‘Sampson’. We found him in a scene very similar to the Matrix movie. He was staring at thousands upon thousands of those pods from the movie, all representing an incarnation into a Matrix timeline in my soul. I could see many of them actually awakening from their slumber, sitting up and becoming aware of themselves, unplugging and rinsing off the Matrix waters. My soul awakening. 

He was watching those pods and seeing and feeling all the pain, trauma and victimization all of these metasoul aspects of mine were experiencing. It was as if he was experiencing those timelines himself, through my soul aspects, just by witnessing them. He was caught in a sticky web and couldn’t see anything else. 

Jelelle asked him to take a step back and to try and project this experience onto a screen, so he could start to differentiate from them and breathe. He projected those timelines onto a screen and there were many others, showing all the traumatizing Matrix timelines. It looked like a control center with all those monitors. That gave him some distance to these experiences and he could start to differentiate from them and not feel as if they were happening to him. 

Jelelle was inviting him to turn to nature to further help him unplug from his fusion to those matrix timelines. He was dialing in a big tree with a very thick trunk with deep roots and a sizable, overarching canopy. He touched the textured bark and started to rest by the tree. Then, magically, little light sparkles came through the tree that felt like Divine inspiration coming through. He started feeling and becoming lighter and started feeling hope. Tears could stream as well through Divine love and support.

That was pretty much all he could let in at that time and then he needed to go rest and retreat again. 

I have been connecting with him since and I could feel that it was him who had already unplugged so much in my process over the past few months, plug after plug. I started to get answers to questions I’ve been having about this life.  

I’ve had many deep tears with him since, sometimes he would cry for an hour straight, when I would feel with him the Love and loyalty he has for me and my soul and how he has tried to protect me this life through some really thick veils of keeping me naive/uninformed about core issues in this world or by suppressing my awakening that tried to happen ten years ago already and still has been controlling/capping it to this day. 

There has also been a lot of shame and guilt in him and unworth too, about not being able to really do anything for me or protect my metasoul aspects from trauma.  

Initially, he would show up like light shaped in human form and he was a bit elusive. He felt he didn’t deserve a face or shape because he couldn’t protect my soul, he couldn’t help my other expressions/incarnations in other lifetimes.  

A couple of days ago then he actually took a form and represented himself as a (Roman) warrior with helmet, shield and sword. His protection had become overprotective I could feel and he could feel that too and he started to loosen his grip around it, as he started recognizing my bigness and the power of my heart and of feeling. 

Since I started awakening on a deeper level to how our world is set up and works since the beginning of this ‘pandemic’, I have felt very drawn to the mind control aspect of it all and particularly the trauma based programming that celebrities receive in order to have them fall in line with the elite agenda, whose darkest expressions include satanic rituals. After having needed a break from taking in anything related to that kind of thing and generally alternative/actual news/facts on world/current or historical events, my interest in them has been sparked again since meeting Sampson. 

I have started to take in some comprehensive articles again that are very well researched and explain in detail about all the Cabal structures, events and expressions in the entertainment industrial complex (a good site for this is The Vigilant Citizen, if you are curious yourself). I have been particularly drawn to the MK Ultra programming in the music industry and even more specifically the Beta/Sex Kitten programming that creates sex slaves for the elite. 

Two nights ago, something peaked for me in that area and I could feel that my heightened interest in this topic was actually what we call in SoulFullHeart a ‘bleed-through’… I could feel a Satanic timeline coming through. It felt like a portal was opened through taking in these articles and I could see and feel the female human sacrifice on the altar and a ceremony master whose incantations of certain words opened up a portal to the underbelly of humanity and invoked very dark spirits. I could feel that Sampson was living there too, with my metasoul aspect, trying to help her by being there as a support/to witness, and because he’s loyal and just sucked into the trauma too. 

I was realizing afterwards that this timeline/portal had already bled through in the past for me. It was about 2.5 years ago and I remember feeling completely fused to that bleed through and being terrified to death. Back then, I was living a very nomadic lifestyle, moving from workaway to workaway (a type of work exchange for food and shelter) and my Gatekeeper was drawing quite some intense drama/trauma as well, to get my attention and look on the inside where that trauma lived. My inner and outer circumstances were not providing a save space to explore this timeline in. Now, I am settling deeper into my own little 1-bedroom-apartment/sanctuary here in Central Portugal, I am in a much more loving place on the inside, having felt and moved so many parts of myself from hell to heaven, and I’m surrounded by community who can support me in my inner explorations.

Yesterday was a very powerful Yeshua/Christ Consciousness portal day and the codes were streaming in undeniably. In my check-in with him yesterday morning, I didn’t feel that it was timely to go into this timeline because he felt very beat and in despair. That is also the kind of timeline I’d want support with, so it would be perfect for session or group setting. Instead, I felt to bridge him to some Divine love and support, like I have tried in many of my connections with him, but he hadn’t been ready for it thus far. I needed to feel more of his pain with him first.  

Yesterday morning, I needed to feel with him first that trauma, the matrix and even Satan is more real to him than God. It is really interesting, I have to say at this point, that the fear of feeling something is always, always more disempowering and rendering our parts and aspects impotent than actually feeling the feeling. As soon as I felt that feeling with him, it dissipated and the hopelessness and despair that accompanied that notion, too. 

I saw a staircase made from light that was leading up to the Divine/to a higher dimension and it felt like an invitation for Sampson to move into his higher timeline and into Divine support. I could feel his reticence and him not wanting to abandon my soul and leave my soul aspects alone in their trauma.  

Then I felt next to me very clearly Yeshua and that he wanted to talk with Sampson. So I took a moment to feel into him and his message more as I really wanted to help Sampson and myself too and end this cycle of suffering inside of myself. 

When I tuned into him, he had this to offer to my Gatekeeper: ‘I feel your precious loyalty towards Bey and her soul. Thank you so much for all your love and protection for her! But you actually don’t have to hold the soul anymore, you can‘t even, really, especially if you are in so much despair over it. You have been fused to Bey’s Matrix incarnations, living them yourself, feeling they are you. That way, you haven’t been able to see Bey’s soul bigness and trust and lean into that. You are in a trauma bond with Bey‘s soul… Is that fair to say?’ 

He came through very clearly, directly and very embodied too, which was a first for me. When I took a step back and was trying to feel Sampson and how he was taking in what Yeshua was offering, I could feel him a bit confused and disoriented. He didn‘t quite know who was talking. He asked: ‘Is that you, God?’ It took a little while for him but eventually he could let the Divine in the form of Yeshua in and had tears. His tears are just so precious! He responded: ‘Yes, that’s fair to say’… Yeshua reached his hand out to him and invited him to come with him up the stairs to anchor in a higher dimension, to rest, recover and receive support and Love from the Divine. I saw the shackles around his ankles that have tied him to the Matrix opening through the light. 

Before stepping on the stairs, he looked back at me and started to cry again because he didn’t want to leave me and my soul alone. But I actually need him to go with Yeshua now, I need him to leave my body and my field as I want and need to feel myself more and become more solid in myself.  

My guides can also offer him many other things and give him the kind of support that I as a human can’t give him. There’s only so much that I can feel with him and my human heart can support him in but eventually there comes a time where he has to go off and get Divine support, support from my soul and the soul family monad.  

Gatekeepers as disincarnate beings are also not made for the human realm. It is not their environment, their natural habitat if you will, they are not relational like humans either and they just have different needs than we do. So this dimension does not suit them. They do belong to a different one, they have just forgotten. They can still come back and be the Divine muse for their humans and be in a collaborative relationship with them. So, if they decide to differentiate from their human, they won’t ‘lose’ the connection to them. On the contrary, they will have a much more nourishing one with them, or even have one to begin with. 

After reading Raphael’s Golden Nugget from yesterday (77 words of Raphael wisdom every day, here is the link to the one I‘m referring to), I am realizing that Sampson has been able to come up and out because my light as Bey has been shining onto my shadow where he had been hiding. He couldn’t come out with Bianca as he was way too fused to her and thinking he WAS her, living life AS her. 

I feel I am telling you all this and letting you in on my very intimate connection and relationship with my Gatekeeper because I feel there are SO many gatekeepers out there who are in the same position as mine had been. They are living in this dark, parallel world, that is eerie and is only made up of trauma. That world is not connected to your heart, your love and the support that you have access to. In that world, they only see a repetition of yet another lifetime in the Matrix that is the same as all the other traumatic ones and they can’t actually see that you are making different choices this life and that there’s support available this life that hasn’t been there before. 

I want to reach out to them and leave a seed of hope for them and to let them know: I see you and I feel you. And whenever you are ready to let your human go deeper with us, there is support here waiting for you. 

The place they are in is like an echo chamber of trauma and programmed consciousnesses and reactions. It’s like they have Soul PTSD. For me, it has expressed this life as being easily spooked and having deeply visceral body reactions to any situation that scared me easily. I have also been expecting punishment/persecution every corner I turned or with every e-mail I received or from certain people or in my jobs. I‘m also feeling that a LOT of body issues, especially chronic migraines for me since I was a pre-teen, has been connected to him. There has been a combination reaction going on with my Solar Plexus churning and simultaneously my Third Eye which gave me migraines. 

Their world/echo chamber also projects out into this life and filters every situation, relationship, anything really, through that PTSD filter and skews and colours your experience of life and others this way. 

Gatekeepers are also quite loyal to the matrix pain as oftentimes it is the only home they have known, for eons! So that way, it actually needs some negotiation with them to let go of pain home and experience something else. There is tears for them and deep mourning of letting go the Matrix home and they have to be ready for that. Not many Gatekeepers have done that before either! So that‘s also about creating a new template and anchor it in the grids for others to tap into and follow. 

It is also fascinating how one aspect of you (or you yourself) can be so connected to the Divine, yet another is seemingly cut off from this connection, even though that aspect, you and the Divine can be in the same room together. It just needs a little bridging from you to the Divine for that aspect and it needs your trust in your own heart and conviction of your worth and that you are worthy to connect with the Divine and that Divine connection is readily available, if we really want it. It is about trusting your ability and gift of connecting to the Divine. 

It really comes down to the Gatekeeper’s own pacing around awakening as they can be an aspect that is actually quite programmed themselves. This life, my GK was definitely plugged into the social justice warrior consciousness for a short yet intense time. I can feel him needing to recover from that and from the last few years of intense workaway experiences too, that really were all a from of False Light. But that is fodder for a whole other post! 

So, sometimes, it is just holding this energy, connecting with it intentionally and then hanging out until they let you in. Before they show themselves, they can put you through a few tests though, sometimes for years even, so they can be sure you can handle what they need you to feel with them and that you have the support this life as well, inside and out, to respond to their pain. 

Through my connection with Sampson and many other Gatekeepers over the years, they have a special place in my heart and I have so much love for them all. They are such courageous energies/beings and have seen, felt and held so much. They have seen the darkest expressions of humanity and other races. When I feel Sampson, I get teary because I love him so much and I’m so glad he finally decided to trust me, after all the testing he put me through, and the community too, to trust the community and to show himself. I’m SO glad he was feeling to put an end to being in this matrix vortex that kept him sucked in trauma and that he started to let in the possibility of something else for him. A new experience. A union and collaboration with me and with the Divine. A re-membering of his Divine essence and connection. After all, Gatekeepers are the aspects of our soul that are Divine Muses ❤️ 

Love to You and your Gatekeeper! 

Bey Magdalene

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*** Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Apprentice Facilitator and Community Member. She offers sessions in German and English. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org.