Category: Inner Teenager

Energy Update: Emotional Body Purges Leading To Maturation, Along With Physical

Published on by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

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Is your body finally ‘catching up’ with ALL the codes that are coming in and the surge of energies that seems to have occurred around the 11:11 portal? It is challenging for the physical body, being necessarily such a dense vehicle needed all your life for 3D navigation here. You could think about it like an outdated (but beloved) computer that is ‘in the shop’ receiving a NEW operating system and exterior too. Being in the shop is all that sleeping and sleepiness; all that feeling of drowsy and groggy; and, in some cases, ‘illness’ and physical pains too.

My body seems to be settling in now to the NEW, integrating and integrated what is able to be received. I’ve been feeling intuitively what it needs right now, which seems to be continuing ‘light-based’ diet of raw fruits mostly and easing into yoga practice. It helps a lot that I have negotiated deeply inside for many years with parts of myself (and my body) that might understandably resist this process and cling to 3D anchors, as I’ve been writing about lately. This ascension process is a MEGA upheaval of all our 3D aspects have known of reality IN the body and in our emotional bodies too. This is a MAJOR renovation projection happening on all levels with Gaia leading the way here. Being able to be WITH the parts of us that are in resistance to fear of this process allows for a more trusting and surrendered navigation of it. And, more capacity to let go of what needs to be during this time of transition.

I am experiencing full, deep sleeping now with intense dreams that seem mostly emotional in what they are offering to digest and look at. This feels more collective than personal for me and a calibration to what is moving through the collective emotional body as it continues to be purified and cleansed by shadow coming into light. The next ‘body’ you may notice getting cleansed, detoxing, and purification is your emotional body, which is also happening on the collective level too. This may come out in sudden emotional ‘outbursts’ (which are really INbursts, meant to take you withIN); being really quite ‘triggered’ by others (which, again, represent YOU and parts of you); conflicts and clashes; and just swells of emotions that seem to come from ‘deep down.’

I feel that the capacity to digest these emotional body purges is usually at a more immature level in many souls. We just aren’t educated, prepared, templated, or trained in how to BE emotionally mature with our feelings. The role modeling you received from your caregivers around how to BE (or not BE) with emotions sets a big template here inside of you. How emotionally mature were they with their feelings? Did they allow them to be with vulnerable and transparent expression (and healing) of them? This isn’t to shame or blame them; it is to understand what and why 3D-based parts of you developed as they did in relationship to your feelings. Maybe you are actually more your Inner Teenager frequencies when it comes to emotional processing that leads to choice points and decision making? Or maybe your Inner Protector, whose main ‘goal’ is to protect and guard and keep safe? More about various parts and Metasoul aspects that we connect with in the SoulFullHeart process here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

I’ve been offered much loving compassion from guides and Star BEings toward this emotional immaturity in us as a human collective. They admire our hearts and our capacity to FEEL. They admire our tears and our spontaneous expression of them. And, they have offered (over and over) that the cutting edge of our next consciousness evolution is around the maturation of our emotional bodies WITH the integration of our spiritual and soul frequencies. This is an important aspect of what these current codes/information/downloads in the 11:11 portal (through 12/12 feels like as the main surge) are offering us.

To show UP for this new criteria of emotional processing maturity is NOT easy. We offer in our SoulFullHeart process much support, guidance, and empowerment WITH you to bridge to your emotional body WITH integration of your soul downloads too….creating a NEW template inside that is just springloaded inside of you to arise as another expression of you as a fractal from Divine Source.

I feel so much LOVE holding this process with us and, as I said, so much admiration for us too. So much SUPPORT as well in our Metasouls and with Guides and with the Divine for what we are going through, feeling, and healing in this now on ALL body levels!

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This is a photo of the sunset codes last night. Raphael and I consciously gazed at and took them in as ‘food’. This is about just breathing them into you for at least 10 seconds or longer, whatever feels right. The best ones (most easy to digest) seem to be when the sun is close to setting. LOVELY food there, yet also catalyzing growth! You might notice that these codes look different than the photos I shared on 11/11….without the striking horizontal band that was in the others and gave the appearance of an ‘eye’.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Β Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Β Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: The Role Of Your Inner Protector

Published on by Raianna ShaiLeave a comment

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It’s the release of our weekly museletter, packed full with all of our writings and audio blogs for the week!Β http://mailchi.mp/5103fc7a8d4d/soulfullheart-weekly-museletter-the-role-of-your-inner-protector

In this week’s featured article, SoulFullHeart Facilitator Kalayna Colibri describes what connection with an Inner Protector, an aspect of your 3D self, feels like and what it looks like as that part transforms with you through feeling them and healing other parts of yourself.

β€œAs you heal, the need for a strong Inner Protector lessens and dissipates. Impenetrable walls and defensive reactivity turn into healthy, porous boundaries held with love and self-worth. The Protector changes form, helping you to transform as well, allowing for greater, sweeter intimacy with self and others that may challenge you in good ways at times. Ultimately it’s a process of letting more love in, for that is really what the Inner Protector is afraid of… love flowing into you and permanently changing all that it has worked to maintain up ’til now.”

SoulFullHeart Facilitator Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna both connect with their 3D selves in this week’s writings, as well as their Inner Teenager (another important aspect of the 3D self.) The past few weeks we have been focused on a reboot of the SoulFullHeart Process that we offer through weekly sessions with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, including reconnecting with the main 3D self primary parts that we find come up very often and strongly and are often overlooked or suppressed in spirituality.Β We now offer a 30 minute FREE introductory session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator for you to connect what we offer in the SFH process with your life and journey. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information.

Other writings in the museletter describe the beauty and importance of connecting with, loving, and healing these parts of you, emphasizing the desire and need for love that exists within all of us. SoulFullHeart co-creator and facilitator Raphael Awen beautifully describes how we can have what we want, as soon as our higher selves and our parts are ready for it. SoulFullHeart co-creator Jelelle Awen offers an emoto-spiritual energy update this week about finding balance during the equinox amidst the upheaval caused by weather patterns and internal processes.

Our next upcoming event is a livestream Q & A with Raphael and Gabriel answering your questions and responding to your comments on Sunday, October 1 at 11:11am CST. We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy to receive whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offering.Β You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate.http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest and support for SoulFullHeart Way of Life!

Here’s another link to this week’s museletter:

http://mailchi.mp/5103fc7a8d4d/soulfullheart-weekly-museletter-the-role-of-your-inner-protector

We Want To Belong Without Feeling Trapped

Published on by Raphael Awen3 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

β€˜But, I don’t want to sign up for your deal!’

While it’s true that by nature, we don’t want to be trapped, it’s also true that we want to belong.

We want to belong without feeling trapped. This however means different things for different parts of us. If you are at a phase in life where your Inner child is showing up in our emotional body, then there’s likely going to be a deep desire rumbling through you to find and maintain a sense of home socially, a family in which to belong. If however, a Protector Part of us is running the show, as they often are, there can be a sizable protest around belonging to anything. The internal civil war we are left with really explains the shut down so many people live in.

I found myself usually wanting to go deeper into the family at hand I found myself in, and then deeply wanted to change it, until that felt controlling or too pushy and then I was left with leaving, without anywhere else to go. Eventually, however, my soul has always brought me to a new place of home and family, even if that meant creating one from scratch.

What I’ve learned for myself is that none of us really get to not be a part of something. Even the choice to be alone and live like a hermit, is a choice to tune into an archetypal frequency, a belonging of sorts to a community of non-belongers who share commonalities.

I like to say that none of us in this way is exempt from belonging to cults and cultures, we only are able to take responsibility for the cults we choose to be a part of. You get to pick your cult(s), you just don’t get to pick whether you will participate in cults or not! β€˜Cult’ is the perfect charged word to describe this too, because it gets us to see how deeply the subconscious ways of life we all participate in shape and dictate our lives.

Coming back to the bigger mysterious picture of who and what we are, It’s like we are individual and that individuality also both dissolves and is manifest in every moment through oneness. We are paradoxically one while we are individual. Talk about being roped into something! Belonging! We are all doing something very similar at a deep core level. Hence our needs for often vain attempts at differentiation through labels and brands. It’s only when our higher self shows up more and more that a consciousness awakening to this β€˜what is’ can occur, and we can then take responsibility for our innate needs around belonging. If I can’t actually β€˜not-belong’, then I can consciously choose and feel all the what’s, why’s and how’s of my belonging.

This is also true on the personal level of our emotional body, as an individual. What we think of as simply us, and feel to be us is actually just the active part of us in any moment thinking and emoting through us, in the absence of any higher us; a healthy parent kind of us to offer real relationship. What we are left with can be likened to a band of teenagers running the household in the absence of any loving and heart open true parental presence. Even these parts of us form a working club or family of belonging, a hierarchy of roles and means to survive complete with valiant attempts at getting needs met. Even the most obviously dysfunctional among us are really amazing multi-dimensional beings who find a way to function where there simply was no way.

β€˜We’ are also β€˜the one’ who is comprised of β€˜the many’, who awaits a higher consciousness to arise that can hold an ambassadorship to the outermost regions of our being.

This is our true belonging, where any deal we sign up for, even if it ends painfully, cannot take away from us, but only add to us, as we now live from an emerging true sovereignty of being. Our vulnerability is now returned to us as our greatest gift.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit Β www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Visiting With Your Inner Teenager

Published on by Kasha Rosa3 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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Our creativity, our ideals, our passions, our angsts, our desires, our despair, our romantic ideas… these are often all aspects of your Inner Teenager – a part of you that has wanted very much to be heard, to be seen, to rebel, yet also to be hidden, to run away, to sneak away, to be a lone wolf, yet be a part of something important too perhaps. There are a lot of conflicting aspects to this part of you. Some of them are represented by other parts of you too, yet so much reaction to life and love happens inside of this one part of you and sometimes it can feel like the biggest polarities are present there too. This is the reality of trying to find your way in a world that you still have an inherent sense of not belonging in… your childhood is not so far behind you and you can still see it in your rearview mirror. Your childhood, that held so much wonder and a thinner veil to the existence of other realities and the realities you came into this life from.

The desire for a romantic partner that ‘checks all the boxes’ on a long list of desires, is one of the biggest pieces here. Maybe you’re still trying on different ideals, exploring different approaches to sex and sexuality, experimenting with drugs that lift the heavy veil that never used to be there before. Maybe you’re still holding life in the 3D sense as something to either be avoided or over-inhabited in some ways without much balance in between. Perhaps you’re still trying to reconcile why you feel certain ways about your birth family and perhaps even your friends and other social or work connections and you aren’t sure why or how this is even possible with the moral standards you’ve been taught your whole life. There is a whole big ‘mess’ here to sort through and often it can feel more like an impossibly tangled ball of yarn than something that is even remotely possible to sort out. These seem to be the common experiences of Inner Teenagers, even in adults who have reached middle age and beyond… they are the place where your emotional immaturity often lands and lives, and the part of you that wants to learn how to grow up yet in a way that feels okay to them and not necessarily to anyone else – the ultimate place of your rebellion and your conformity both. It’s complicated, this world they live in… and they are often stuck here in many unconscious loops and patterns until you can go inward to find and be with them.

You will often find your Inner Teenager still living in your childhood bedroom, or any other room or place that they consider a ‘sanctuary’ for themselves. This place has become a box that holds so many traumas, so many stories of abuses, so much hope and despair, both. It is a place where they can still find and be in their creativity, however it expresses, often as a way to cope with life instead of really be in it and heal through it… they don’t have a guide for that, at least until you can show up and be with them, until they trust you enough to let you in the door and sit next to them, to eventually cry or thrash with them, as they express all they’ve likely bottled up or hidden. Perhaps if they have been over-expressed in your life, you can now feel them in their real vulnerability and likely self-consciousness. There is much pain that they hold that is equal to the joy they have access to as well, not unlike or far from the Inner Child inside of you.

Healing the Inner Teenager means offering this space inside of you for feeling deeply all there is to feel. The process for them often means bringing them back, little by little, step by step, to a place where they feel their ideas and ideals are welcome again, where they can be in their creativity from a non-medicative place that doesn’t numb but instead evokes. My sense of it is that they can evolve in this way too, from a 3D part of you to a 4D and eventually a 5D, integrated part of you. Most Inner Teenagers, at least for those of you reading this, will somehow straddle 3D and 4D in their aches and rebellion and hope too. They may or may not have a sense of spirituality, yet they do seem to have an investment somehow in this domain that can express itself in different ways.

Being with and feeling your Inner Teenager is a process that brings you access to many gifts and new ways to feel all of the different areas of your life.

If you wish to explore this further, you can have a look at our process that we offer in SoulFullHeart, that includes feeling and healing your Inner Teenager along with other parts of you: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.Β VisitΒ soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.Β Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Our Inner Teenager: The Heart And Soul Of Our 3D Self

Published on by Gabriel Heartman3 Comments

 

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The Land of Confusion. Β The volatile teenage heart. These are the years of many of our intense experiences with our fading childhood and impending entry into adulthood. These are the times that many of us can go back to and see a scene that our inner teenager lives in. Β Those poignant moments that this part of us still lives in that shifted the direction of their life and has yet to fully process it all. Β So many different social and familial pressures that left us in a state of tug of war…or just plain war. Those on the healing journey are on it to recover from these very times. Those very moments still burned into the lining of our heart. They are the heart and soul of our 3D Self.

Our inner teenager houses so much of our passion, desire, and dreamer. Β Many chose to roll down the rebel road and set fire to whatever could be set fire to, looking for anything that was real in a very unreal world. Others found themselves playing by the rules, suppressing anything that would go against the direction of the greater wave of what was expected of them. Β Then there were the in-betweens, never quite comfortable with either. This part of us is so prevalent in our lives. Β Without a mature template to walk us through the valley of this very trying time we were left with an imprint that carries on to this day in the way we hold our own 3D health and maturity.

The inner teenager can be seen in our rebellion and our conformity. Β It can be found in our relationships and our sexuality. Β In the way we need to be by ourselves or the need to be with others. Β They are in the closed door bedroom with headphones on, or in the late night party trying to see if they will be noticed by anyone “important” or “hot”. They may even be the default parent and is nowhere close to being like the “others”. Β All of this is a part of their heart story that is so needing and wanting to be felt in the depths by someone who is able to deal with the gravity and levity of a teenager.

Going into the world of our inner teenager brings us closer the passion, imagination, and creativity we had to set aside for various reasons. Β It is about feeling the loss of innocence that led us to so much serious. They are the bridge from our youth to our maturity. Β They are truly seers of new worlds. Healing our inner teenager brings a new vision of life that has technicolor rad-ness and infinite vision. Β It brings a joy and lightness that seeks to learn and have fun at the same time. So not like school!

My inner teenager wants to say, “It was never about what I wanted to be when I ‘grew up’, it was about what I was feeling about myself in the moment that mattered most. Having someone I respected feel it with me, not to fix me, just to feel me. I just wanted to live and experience life from place that I felt comfortable in my own skin and didn’t have to impress upon anyone to be accepted, for I hadn’t accepted myself. I wanted know what real masculinity was that wasn’t false bravado. I wanted to know what true love really was that wasn’t based in what I had or didn’t have. I just wanted to feel the courage to be me and not an image to hide behind.”

The gifts abound form this relationship within and we can find ourselves being the parent our inner teenager always wanted us to be, even as we are being challenging with a compassionate heart. The healed teenager integrates into our maturing heart and leads us to new vistas of brave new worlds they always wanted to visit.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Β Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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