Surrounded By Love

By  Raphael Awen

We are so surrounded by love, full of love, made of love, that we needed the ongoing experiences of stepping outside of it, and then returning to it, as a way of perfecting perfection.

Love was willing to create a deficiency of itself, a shadow partition to cordon off some of its overbearing light to afford itself; and you and I actual experiences of this love.

We couldn’t experience love were it not for a deficiency of this love. Love couldn’t flow if love was the all in all, filling all things to the full. Flow and experience required a vacuum, something missing. Love ventured into an experiment with experience, for experience was another thing it couldn’t know, feel or have inside it itself.

Every desire, anxiety, joy and fulfillment that moves and shapes your life is part of this vacuum.

Love ventured into the business of lack and harm and wounding because any step outside of itself would require an opening, a portal, a wound.

We live and carry these wounds. They are our greatest challenges. We carry them personally, in our relationships with ourselves, with every other we’ve ever known or will come to know, and we carry them collectively. These portal wounds are everywhere. They not only remind us of our seeming separation from love, but also invite us to return to love at any moment. The access to this love is beyond instantaneous, for not even an instant is required to make its connection. It just is. You are it. You never lost it.

The duality we find ourselves in is the way home. I am, therefore I want. I am, therefore I am vulnerable to not having my genuine needs met or fulfilled. I am, therefore I am afraid. I am, therefore I need.

To not have need is to not exist in this experiment of experience. You get to be needy. You get to admit your vulnerability. You get to feel how deeply you yearn for fulfillment. You get to admit what you like and what you don’t like.

You get to return fully to the love that you are, where all the costs and outstanding liabilities on this balance sheet of duality will be reconciled.

You and I literally are this reconciliation, as well as the separation, both.

Love to you and through you,

Raphael Awen

SoulFullHeart.org

Pic above: Jelelle and I got to enjoy 3 magical sunny days on the coast here in Portugal last week, while making the trip to pick up Raianna Shai from the aeroporto.

Please consider joining us for our intimate and upcoming group call Saturday, November 7th. Sign up info in the comments below.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Exploring Your Depth & Full Expression Through Your ‘Shadow’

by Kasha Rokshana

What lies in the depths of your ‘shadow’ is so many things, so many energies. Suppressed rage, passion, desires, distaste, mistrust, and fears are all a part of the package… yet so are other hidden compartments that hold access to your deepest soul gifts which haven’t been safe to express, and also your ‘truth’ which you’ve likely been encouraged (or demanded) to keep to yourself. Any energy that hasn’t felt ‘safe’ to come out, whether born of the dark or the light or anything in between, can live in the deep caverns of what we call our ‘shadow’.

Our shadows are meant to be our ‘bass tones’. They are the instruments in our inner orchestras that hold the bass line and beat intact. Without those honking tubas and heavy drumbeats, “the bottom falls out”, as my high school music teacher would often say. What we’re left with is the tinny screeching of the higher octaves being played by themselves without anything to ground them back to the true melody line. Higher-frequency energies and dimensions don’t make any sense, at least not for very long, when the bass/shadow/inner darkness is left out of the mix.

This metaphor applies the other way around too. There is no ‘alto’ without a ‘soprano’. The higher frequencies you have access to can support the shadow journeys, to retrieve whatever has been hidden there, for however long. Sometimes this shadow exploration is so sticky, so challenging to move through or beyond, that it can feel as if we’ll stay there forever once we land there. This can make the journey intriguing or intimidating, yet every reaction or hesitation you feel is valid for different parts of you and is all an important part of the journey itself.

There is a middle ground available of negotiation with yourself… with your parts and soul aspects, especially your Gatekeeper who has been watching over your Metasoul and either bringing in or preventing your soul journeys specifically, and your Inner Protector who has been allowing or disallowing your connection to different parts of you. The ground of journeying into your shadow with your Inner Punisher alone is a process that takes a lot of time, space, and love to unfold. The soul journeys into your shadow have a timing all their own. All of this requires ongoing inner negotiation, a deep and solid commitment to showing up, and a profound desire to love absolutely everything within you no matter what it looks like, the impact it has had, or how it might change your life to go there.

Raphael and Jelelle will be offering a guided meditation group call this coming Sunday, November 7th, focused on Shadow Exploration. Even if these are grounds you’ve been exploring for a while, or if this is fairly new to you, this guided meditation call may offer you a new perspective, a beginning place, or an entryway into deeper waters.

Attendance is by donation and if you can’t make it live, you can still receive the recording in your email.

More info/details about this call and how to donate here.

Wherever you take your own shadow journey, the invitation from the Divine to be held and supported in it is always with you. With everything shaking out in the world today, there has never really been a riper time to dive into your own depths of feeling, expressing, and discovering.

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Shadow Exploration Guided Meditation Group Call w/ Raphael & Jelelle Awen: November 7th, 2021

by Jelelle Awen

“The shadow is a tight passage, a narrow door, whose painful constriction no one is spared who goes down to the deep well.” ~ Carl Jung

Your shadow – or that which is currently not conscious to you – often contains aspects of you that have been disowned, put away, judged, rejected, protected, forgotten about and suppressed. The shadow is not evil or harmful, yet it can contain ‘backed up energies’ that have been judged as not appropriate such as rage, shame, suicidal thoughts/tendencies, sexual impulses, and more. In this backed-up unconscious state, these shadow frequencies can bleed through in patterns of destructive behaviors toward yourself or others, suffering loops, heaviness and depression, anxiety and panic attacks, addictions, and much more.

Also in shadow can be your soul gifts, soul purpose clarities, and your ‘power’. There are always ‘good reasons’ for this putting away into shadow based on conditioning you’ve received from 3D life and even other lifetimes/timelines, in addition to undigested traumas and karmic patterns.The Ascension process invites you to uncover, feel, and integrate your shadow aspects with love, compassion, and curiosity. Rather than bypass the shadow, it is about embracing it with self-love and Divine support. It seems very timely to be exploring it with so much of it coming UP in our collective right now!

Raphael and I will co-host a Shadow Exploration group meditation call over Zoom on Sunday, November 7th, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm WEST (Lisbon, Portugal timezone)/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST. Gabriel Amara and Kasha Rokshana also join us to share their experience of the meditation, along with their own personal deepenings in shadow exploration.

We will talk about how we define the ‘shadow’ and how the SoulFullHeart process opens up access to these previously inaccessible and veiled grounds through a gentle yet powerful negotiation with your Inner Protector or Gatekeeper. The Inner Protector and Gatekeeper are hesitant to go into the shadow as they don’t want you (or other parts of you such as the Inner Child) to become overloaded and overwhelmed by these energies as they come through. Through a negotiation with your Divine Self leading, the Protector will then allow you to connect with these shadow aspects as needed, from this life and other lifetimes, in a way that is empowering and manageable. We will also share about our personal experiences with deepening grounds of shadow exploration from this life and other lifetimes over the last 15 years together as a couple and as individuals in our processes.

During this group call, we will provide a guided meditation journey in a safe energetic space to meet or connect with your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper. We will then go on a ‘deep dive’ into your consciousness with powerful and proven imagery/visualizations that allows for new revelations of whatever wants to come through of your shadow to connect with you. We will also repeat ‘recoding’ affirmations as mantras, together as a group and with the Divine, that assist in this exploration and healing.

You can receive these frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us.

This group is open to the public and to anyone over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy/money exchange of whatever donation you feel to give ($15 CAD is the usual amount). You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can purchase it here through PayPal: paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will send you the Zoom link and subsequent recording via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the November 7th group and check that your email associated with PayPal is current.

More info at https://www.facebook.com/events/171567888429264 and soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

Love,

Jelelle

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Oct 22, 2021

The season of Samhain/Hallowe’en is upon us and the thin veils are helping us to feel ourselves and our souls anew. There’s no doubt that this time of year can stir up a lot inside of us and also spur us on into a deeper sense of soul purpose and passion too, even if there is a lot to feel in the meantime.

This issue of our Museletter features a NEW guided meditation from Jelelle Awen, featuring an appearance by Mother Mary, whose energies are very active in this small village in Portugal where we are currently living. This meditation helps to relax and soothe the physical and emotional processes that you may be experiencing, partly due to the thin veils, and also due to the ongoing process of awakening and healing that humanity as a whole is going through. It’s truly a balm of love for your heart and soul to take in.

There are some new writings from each of us this week, including energy updates and other sharing that may stir your soul and remind you of the Divine love supporting you. Jelelle also mentions in her recent writing that she is back to offering 1:1 sessions to women over 35.

You can read this most recent issue of our Museletter here.

If you’d like to subscribe to receive our Musletters in your email inbox, you can scroll down to the bottom of the Museletter itself and click on “subscribe”, or you can subscribe on our website, soulfullheart.org.

Lots of love to you!

~ The SoulFullheart Community

Dear You…

Dear you…

What comes up from that deep well of your soul inside of you can feel like so much to hold sometimes.

It can feel like you’re going crazy trying to understand it.

It can feel like your heartbreak is so soul-deep that you’ll never overcome it or move through it; like you’ll never see the shoreline for the waters that surround you, that feel like they are drowning everything inside of you.

So, how is it that you’re still swimming, still breathing, even when it all feels like it’s rising above your head?

There’s a voice, whispering, telling you of your strength, even if you cannot consciously hear it; even if all other voices (many that aren’t actually yours) tell you that you aren’t going to make it (because they never did, did they?).

You’re writing a new story for yourself now, especially as you feel and begin to heal the parts of you that have been formed from so much Matrix trauma, so much birth family legacy and influence, so much 3D conditioning that has been layered over top of your big, big soul and naturally open heart.

You are offered only what you can carry. You are given a mirror only for what you can look at; what you have the power to see, digest, and even heal.

To opt-in for the feeling-way, the way of the heart, as a means to reconcile the many layers of necessary falseness, is humbling but also freeing.

It is an empowered sense of surrender even in your most disempowered-feeling times.

It is a tender way, always, to welcome in Divine Love and Support.

Dear you…

It is time to awaken and remember that the bright shoreline is just as real as the rough waters; that you know this terrain in ways you don’t yet realize; that even in the highest of highs and the lowest of lows, you will always be given what you need… and no more than you can possibly carry.

Love,
Your Divine Self

Take in the recording in Kasha’s voice

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

What We Think We Own

By  Raphael Awen

When we fight, push and press to own something, that thing possesses us. What was gained by force must be maintained by force.

Nothing can really be owned in this way without it owning us. The energy of the currency we used to buy it, is then the current that flows into our relationship with the thing. We possess the thing and the thing mirrors that possession back to us.

It breaks down and demands maintenance or it refuses to work. It threatens us with being stolen and calls for more time and energy to protect it. It gets neglected and then shames us for spending all that and not using it like we intended too.

How could something be called ours and not be owned in this way?

It begins with realizing that you already possess all things. You are the thing. You can’t actually be separate from anything. The vendor and buyer are playing a game of forgetting, thinking that one can rightfully own something at another’s expense and that this other must pay a ransom to transfer that ownership. Many others join so deeply into the game that it becomes a reality of its own. Thieves, police, prisons, security systems and so much more support this illusory game.

Then there’s realizing that any material thing is in its essence matter. It came from Gaia, our matter/mother. Our mother provides all things necessary freely without price. All matter is mother. Gaia is the original and only rightful owner.

Grasping to own Mother Gaia doesn’t work. It’s like trying to own love. Love can’t be owned, only let in and received. The one who receives her does just that.

And if something came from Gaia which is conscious, then a thing formed and framed from different bits and pieces of Gaia, retains that consciousness.

And consciousness wants to be experienced, known and felt. There’s no such thing as an inanimate object with this deeper awareness of what life and matter is.

All of this invites us into new feelings of reverence and appreciation, feeling how provided for we actually are, how our grasping is a resistance to that infinite and quite scary provision.

It invites us into feeling how ‘things’ want to be held in our open hands and bring their goodness and abundance to us. Things don’t like being passed on from rightful slave owner to rightful slave owner, they want to be free where they can be and express all they are.

Owners become stewards of living things and nothing more, being gifted with the relationship exchange of care, blessing and goodness (god-li-ness, god-like-ness) that the thing brings.

I’d so like to keep experiencing this more and more, letting go of chasing money, chasing things, chasing more spiritual sounding practices of ‘how to attract abundance’, when abundance is trying its best to find a way into my heart and life.

Raphael Awen 💚

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

“Miss Without Possession, Hold Without Grasp” | Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

Authentic and higher dimensional Divine Mother and Father energies can “miss without possession, hold without grasp, and claim without ownership.”

This message came through during a recent session where I felt Mother Mary/Divine Mother offering this in contrast to what most of us have experienced as parenting and co-dependence in relationships. This was our role models in 3D of relationships from our parents…and also programmed to us by the Matrix.

The distinctions of these frequencies (missing versus possessing; claiming versus owning) become real to us as we experience them from the inside FIRST. From one part of us to another, we feel and heal the polarized and fearful dynamics that lead to grabbing, clinging, and controlling. Our inner masculine and feminine can find a balance, a celebration of differences, a common ground.

To move out of False God experiences of projected, fear and trauma based relationship with the Divine and others is a very challenging, long-term, process. There are SO MANY layers here from this life and other lifetimes within the Matrix to move through, connect with, process, and heal. We need to be willing to go into our deepest shadows, lift the protective veils, move through our most stubborn resistance, feel our most acute pains. Letting go in order to let in more love can be the most difficult aspect of the journey. We need a lot of resonant support and LOVE for this process….from the Divine, from our Divine/Higher Self, and from others.

The SoulFullHeart process and way that we have lived our life in community and been in relationships for over ten years is the WAY we offer to navigate this ‘cleaning up’ within and with others. You increasingly experience a healthier ground of relating to yourself, to your soul aspects, to your beloveds, and to the Divine that can commit, can be intimate and vulnerable, can let their love IN while being real about the resistances, shadows, and fears that come up in response to that.

You can experience the SoulFullHeart frequency through many videos, group calls (next one is happening on 11/7 with recordings available of previous ones), and books…especially my recent one Free To Be 5D which is an overview of the process. 1:1 sessions with a SFH Facilitator offer the deepest ground of initiation into this way of experiencing yourself, your life and others. More information at soulfullheart.org.

Here is my recent guided meditation to music offering a high frequency of healing and relaxation on physical and emotional levels w/Mother Mary:

Love,

Jelelle Awen

The Sacred ‘Pregnancy’ Of Humanity During This 10/10 Passage

by Kasha Rokshana

I feel the ‘pregnancy’ of this time we’re living in. So much urgency to respond to as things shift and change from one moment to the next and there’s an apt restlessness in that experience too. You might also feel a push-pull within as parts of you sway and toggle between feeling like they are truly ready to move on from the ‘old, known normal’ and also like they want to cling to every last bit of it that they can. Every aspect of life as we’ve known it has been shaken up in the last couple of years and like expectant mothers and fathers, we know intuitively and logically that life can never go back to the way it was in humanity’s ‘youth’, before the added sense of responsibility for our own collective and individual shadows entered the birth canal.

I feel this year’s 10/10 passage as a Divine opportunity to respond to what’s real and to lean into guidance and Divine love too. It’s a gift… as even the hardest times are. We aren’t being caretaken or coddled by the Divine on our growth journey right now, though at the same time, we’re also being gently cradled as we experience the grief, tears, mourning, purging, in our letting go of a reality that was once precious to some parts of us… and resented too, by others. In humanity’s young-ness on a consciousness and galactic level, we were afforded certain ‘passes’ for a time. We were given the grace to ‘grow-up’ on our own accord and make choices that have now led to our Great Learning/Awakening. But now… now we’re in the pressure cooker of our own evolutionary story and being asked to truly take it seriously.

The truth always remains that Divine Love is holding us through it all. Even during these times where we may feel energies/lifetimes in our souls crying out and feeling anything BUT connected to this reality. The Divine is as ‘pregnant’ as we are, holding our hands and hearts in Its own. We are the parents, the stewards of what’s next and what’s new and as-yet unknown, just as we are also being parented and stewarded. This collaboration with the Divine is as sacred as sacred can be, and an invitation to feel our rebirth is being invested in at all times.

Though the dark and darker agendas keep coming to light, we are being empowered to look at them with the divinely discerning eyes, to let in all the textures of reactions and response to the truth of what’s emerging. We, as sacred humans, are not all ‘one-note’ after all, and this emotional range, our capacity to empathize and to care deeply about ourselves and others, is being called upon to help leverage and launch ourselves into the newly arising chapter that can only come out of the ashes, the incredibly humbling learning and re-learning experience that ‘life’ has been and continues to be for us ALL here on Gaia.

Divine love supports us all, surrounds us all, holds us all now and always. Letting in your own Divine connection however you feel to and can, is, as always, so vital to what’s real now and what is becoming real for all of us as walk out this 10/10 passage.

Join Raphael and Jelelle for a by-donation Zoom group meditation call this coming Sunday on 10/10, focused on Divine Love and deepening your own Divine connection. More info here: soulfullheart.org/events

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Emerging, Renewed, From Retreat & Recovery In Gaia’s Arms

by Kasha Rokshana

This retreat to Nature has been a retreat into myself, collapsing and letting go of so much that I didn’t realize I was holding, that I didn’t consciously realize I wasn’t letting the Divine in on, and that I didn’t realize was creating a widening chasm inside between what I felt I needed to do or become and what I wanted to do and become. I feel more ‘awake’ now in a soul sense and yet in deep sleepiness too as the rest and recovery from what has been true about life and service for parts of me continues to heal and transmute.

Over the last 5 years I’ve shared many words of poetry, offerings of Divine love as I’ve personally experienced it, and many transparent writings about my personal process. In the beginning of that, there was tenderness about sharing. As the years went on it became about something else though, maybe more ‘ego-based’ at times, but always with the intention of helping, supporting, offering love to others in the mix as well.

It’s humbling to take a step back and look at all of this, especially while also feeling the pain of what’s moving in the world of shadows and light known as ‘Gaia’. It’s humbling to let nature hold you while you feel it all out with the heart rather than figure it all out with the mind, wonder what your place of contribution to the NEW truly is, and remember that absolutely every piece felt on a heart and soul level IS the contribution.

The yelling-matches, virtually and not, can do something but won’t do everything. The self-righteous energies catalyze something, but eventually run out of ground as they don’t truly let the Divine/love itself in. Conflict has its place but also has to find its resolution through curiosity. Truth revelations are inevitable. The acceptance of them in the mainstream is not. The only way that I can feel we can move through these humbling times is to truly be with ourselves in them, surround ourselves with resonant others, and explore the themes emerging in the world from within our own inner worlds where we can take responsibility for our part in the play out of the current human shadow show.

I feel so grateful for these months immersed in beautiful Northern Portugal, for the clarifies that are still dawning and moving through, and the rebirth of the grace within to hold it all.

I’m sharing a photo from a hike with my beloved Gabriel, where we took in the vast expanse of the valley we’ve been camping in for the last couple of months. I felt the hugeness of the beauty we’ve been surrounded by and the Divine love codes downloaded through the mountains, trees, and flowers.

Really looking forward to experiencing what emerges next as we move on from here and feel into what SoulFullHeart, and all of us, become next.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Living In A Deeply Altered Reality

By  Raphael Awen

We all live in a deeply altered personal reality that we have needed to normalize to a large enough degree to make it bearable and doable.

We added a balm layer of amnesiac forgetfulness to help this altered reality hold together.

The specific location of this altered reality does have a location and coordinates on the larger map of reality, but even that larger map is yet another altered reality.

All realities are sub realities/royalties of love. Love created infinite number expressions of itself in a bid to know and expand itself.

You and I are one infinitesimally small expression of that, while at the same time holding all of the infinite fullness of that grand endeavor, being and expression.

As awareness of our origins arise for us in felt, feeling toned experience, we make more and more conscious reconnection with that origin. That is coming to know and feel our divine love essence. This is the update of love that is experiencable and felt, a ‘to:’ and ‘from:’ kind of love, like in valentines, not just a love ‘isness’ that just is, but can’t be transactionally known outside of itself. Love stepped outside of itself to know itself. You and I are that outed love kind of reality.

Even though we were outed from love, we never lost that connection to love, nor did we lose our essence of being love, for it was impossible to lose. So impossible was it to be lost, that love needed to go to these lengths to create make-believe realities mixed in with so much forgetfulness to allow for these places of experiment, discovery and expansion.

In it all, we all suffered from feelings of being cast out, of falling from grace, of assuming a personal guilt for such a felt tragedy.

These were experiences the divine was unable to have within itself were it not for you and I as modified expressions of the divine capable of this layer of creativity, forgetfulness and even suffering. But what is the point of this suffering, if not as the spiritual texts refer to, ‘a greater glory to be revealed’ in us?

As all of this is coming into our awareness, we are invited to reopen our quest and questions from a new place of childlike reverence, awe and wonder.

We can certainly see when we look at one another, or look at divergent parts of ourselves, how each of our personal realities is a specific sub reality, and all of that within a larger shared reality layer here on Gaia. But what if this Human/Gaian/Earth reality is only yet again, one of innumerable other realities, and other locations?

We can also see and feel how this ability to create sub realities is so embedded in each one of us, and how we do that from moment to moment, or from phase to phase in our lifetimes, and soul history.

If any of this feels true, then it really invites us in our awakening to humble ourselves to this background reality generating dynamic within to become reverent and curious about what it is doing and why.

How could we possibly awaken to its workings and invite it to go into new directions that our heart and soul wants to consciously take instead of living out the realities dropped on us from our environment or past conditionings?

How could we love, feel and bridge to the past conditioned realities in a way that completes them, and moves them from fear to love?

Are there ‘portal moments’ where we are ripe and ready to shift realities? How do we recognize and embrace those kinds of moments?

How do we relate to those who we have so deeply shared and created a reality with when they don’t seem done at all with the reality like we are?

Is the asking and living out of these questions possibly the return trip back to love, the completion of love’s experiment and expansion?

You are love where you are now, where you were, and where you are headed. Try as we may, this is one essence we can’t shake, for it is the only essence from which all other essences arise.

Even your shame, fear and anxiety are all a part of this expansion, experiment, experience, seeming departure and return to love. So is your unbounded joy, desire, delight and love of life, the divine and one another!

Deep, rich, unfathomable love to you,

Raphael Awen

Please join us for our 10:10 Divine Love Transmission Group Call on Sunday, October 10.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.