Category: Ascension

How To Be The ‘I’ Of Your Inner Storm

Published on by Gabriel Heartman4 Comments

I am going back into my writing vault to bring back a series I did about art and my healing journey. It was a time of going deep into the bowels of my pain and using a charcoal stick to bring out what was lying within. Though the subject matter looks and feels unsavory, the light of a new awareness and relationship to myself was unmistakable. It has taken the time it has taken, but it all began with a movement, a choice, and a desire to own and love my pain. What I am now discovering as my inner feminine seeking her place within the court, and core, of my heart.

You don’t need to consider yourself an ‘artist’ to simply draw what you feel. It is energy and energy expresses itself in a multitude of ways that doesn’t always look like something in particular. The stick figures I drew were perfect for what I needed to express what I was feeling. If I let a punishing or critical voice expect something more I would not have gotten to the real purpose of the drawing.

This one specifically centered around the inner critical voice I had at the time. It was one that had been with me for as long as could remember and does come out at times to be felt. This was an energy that I deeply desired to tap into as it created extreme energy drops and reactive fusions. As we awaken to the largess of our being, we inevitably wake up our inner demons and dragons. The way we relate to them is what brings about the deepest change. Here is a guided meditation I did to meet and love your inner critic/punisher:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0cTe6ayIAWk

When this energy would come up it would kick up all my other parts inside me and whirl through me like a tornado wreaking havoc. I did not see that at the time but needed the eyes and open heart of another (through Jelelle and Raphael) to reflect that back to me so that I let that in because I WAS the tornado and not the ‘I’ of the storm. If you wish to read more you can go here:
https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/healing-art-day-1-critical…/

Art is a powerful tool to access the nooks and treasure troves of our heart and soul. It is the feminine act of creation and intuition that births the mirror of what it is that we are meant to look at and receive with our heart-eyes. It is not just drawing but any form of creative expression that is the gift of our humanity to cultivate and explore to the depths of our being. If you are curious to feel more into the integration and exploration of your own creative healing journey, please contact me or visit the link below. It is a journey that promises to take you to where you need to go, not necessarily where parts of you may expect to go.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Power Of Creation Through Words

Published on by Raphael Awen2 Comments

By Raphael Awen

I’m feeling how our thoughts take on the power of our words.

The words that come off of our lips and tongue are literally a waveform of vibration that go on to manifest according to the seed of those words. The root word of The word ‘language’ is ‘lingua’, which roughly translated means ‘flapper’. Strangely, or maybe not so strangely, this same root word is present in the word, ‘lingham’ which is another waveform flapper that probes and beacons into the world to create new realities that didn’t exist before.

Both of these ‘flappers’ or waveform generators need the fertile ground of the feminine dance to actually create new worlds, but this feminine is the abundant ground of desire and feeling, that readily takes this sleepy power and alchemizes it into a waking reality, regardless of our awareness of it or not.

What all this means has something to do with the fact that you are creating a whole lot more than part of you has been willing to recognize. And what’s getting more intense, is that this subtle power has moved even more intensely not just to the creative power of our words, but also of our thoughts. Our words are seeded by our thoughts, and our thoughts arise from parts of ourselves and their reality.

What we are invited to feel is how our thoughts are all the waveform vibrations of specific parts of ourselves, that make up what we’ve thought of as ‘us’. You are a make up of parts and those parts each have a signature waveform vibration of relating to reality, and when you tune in this waveform, you give them the gift of feeling felt – a rich feeling of landing in a warm heart.

Now, this waveform vibration of thought is no longer just manifesting haphazardly and running amuck in our lives. We get to filter with the heart of our emerging Higher Self awareness each of these thought waveforms and love them, feel them, transmute them into new waveforms to manifest according to our Higher Heart.

What thoughts flowing through you are asking your attention and love?

Raphael Awen
soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

You Are The Law Of Attraction In Motion

Published on by Raphael Awen3 Comments

By Raphael Awen

The dawning realization that we are the creators of our own realities, leads us to accepting response-ability to and for that created world. It’s both a made up world and a very real world at the same time. (What reality is there that isn’t ‘made up’?)

Many people attempt to jump from this realization to the idea of creating the world that a part of them really wants, usually made up of externals like things or relationships that make them feel good – a seeking of a kind of medication to numb their deeper pain. The law of attraction teaching comes to mind. Good truth for sure, but in service of what, is my question?

What about instead seeing that your present reality is already been perfectly created by you and parts of you, very much including the things you, or parts of you, like or don’t like.

The law of attraction isn’t something any one of us needs to ‘get working’ in our lives. The law of attraction explains our lives. We are the law of attraction in motion.

‘Real’izing this, we get to accept response-ability for what we have created, rather than seek to use the law of attraction in an ill fated attempt to pave over what we have created.

In facing and loving the unlovable is how we go on effortlessly to create new worlds that didn’t exist before.

Raphael Awen

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

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Being Sourced In Love

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By Raphael Awen

Until you accept that every want and every desire is coming ultimately from love, you are unable to see the forest for the trees.

Even the so-called ‘evil’ desires for self-gratification, power, control, destruction are all part of love’s reality that provide contrast and comparison for love to be seen and known for what it is.

Our deep rooted fears of imprisonment in a matrix that we cannot escape from stem from this staggering oneness in love that we are inescapably embedded in.

Our collective and personal attempts at hate, evil and greed are only escape attempts from this essence we are. Existentially, we have a need to press the boundaries, test the edges, and to see what actually is or isn’t. We simply cannot believe the immensity and power of love that we are informed from and with.

Looking at the big trees standing so strong before us of our separation, our tendency for war, our corporate greed, etc. only obscures the forest of love that these trees have their place and rightful lease in; the forest of love. There is only one forest.

This picture is equally true inside of you. You wouldn’t claim to be ALL love as far as every motive and act is concerned, would you? There are the parts of us who are in conflict with other aspects of ourselves who must control, suppress, dominate, obscure, hide, lack integrity, and manipulate with an agenda. There are other parts of us who would of course work hard to keep these aspects hidden even from our own acknowledgment, let alone being called out by others.

But these very aspects of our being are also sourced and rooted in love. There is no other essence in the universe for them to be coming from. They are only doing and being what made perfect sense to them to find their way in the service of love to protect, to manage, to survive in the context of life as they know it and experienced it. Our being chose the experience of the convincing illusion of not-love as a way to come to terms with the love that we are.

The war is over. Love has already won. It wasn’t really a war actually, as there was only one Sovereign behind this war playing both sides to the middle; the center of everything; the center of love. Parts of you just don’t know it yet.

And herein lies the meaning of what we call life.

Life is simply a story of you, me, along with every last bit of super intelligence finding this out for ourselves; for our varied selves; the parts of us marooned on distant islands, loyal to their posts, hunkered down for the long haul who never got the memo that the war is over; that the war was never even a bona fide war in the first place.

Love is knocking on your door today, official signed and sealed memo from on high in hand. You are inescapably and completely love. The post war reality is now to embrace every part of yourself for whom this is not yet true and find ways to accustom them to this new reality as they are ready, willing and wanting.

Raphael Awen
soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

I open my heart to serving you to choose your next growth places. What is next on your heart and soul trajectory? What are your desires and frustrations trying to tell you? Please check out the link above, and be in touch soon.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Routine Is An Illusion

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By Raphael Awen

Routine is an illusion created by aspects of our being. A very real feeling illusion for sure. Real enough to create despair and longing, and herein lies the power of this illusion called routine.

Routine is living our lives on autopilot, feeling little, if anything, going through motions that ensure we are being good enough humans despite our being checked out, checked out of our hearts and deeper desires.

But in a super intelligent universe of which each of us are totally a fractal part, even this disconnect from our hearts is purposeful. We go through despair which re-opens us to the innate courage of our own hearts and souls.

We subconsciously choose paths in life because we think that path will spare us from ever having to choose ever again. We go all in, our passion surrendered not to choice, but instead to fully embracing what we chose; to the idea that we won’t ever again be troubled with such grand choices. Commitment, duty, obligation, ‘married for life’ now take up the space where adventure, discovery and true journey once lived.

This however is also a powerful expression of our power to choose, even if it is expressing currently in an attempt to avoid our choice and power. The more we shut down, the sooner we are faced with potent despair and longing, the stuff which our souls are made of, that lead us on to our next places; our goodbyes and our hellos.

My guess is that your life and desires in a whole bunch of areas of your life are rumbling like you hadn’t quite imagined they would. Part of you feels like everything is falling apart. I offer that you are right where you need to be, right in the midst of rumbling routine, with new choices being backlit for you to see and embrace.

I offer a process of finding your own internal guidance through these places and more in a Bridging Session. More here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session I’d love to help – that is if your choice is leading! More T the link above.

Much love, and I so hope to meet you in the journey of courage and adventure that you are!

Raphael Awen

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Dropping Into The Emotive Ground Of Your BEing

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By Jelelle Awen

Dropping into the emotive ground of our BEing…really feeling feeling….is like a crawling, a purging, a beyond the mind letting go into PURE emotion. This emotive ground offers SO many riches when you finally allow yourself to walk on it. Here, you harvest the awakenings offered by the experience of those traumas moving. Here, you harvest the gifts that happen when the heart gets broken open.

Diversions and sometimes necessary bypasses are created by your vigilant Protector to ‘keep you away’ from here. The taking of things (anti-feeling drugs, careers/jobs, busyness, relationships) in so many forms that will effectively numb and blind. What wants to bubble up though….always will, and even the Protector feels the calling of this blessed release into feeling.

Your essence arises from the rich, fertile soil of this ground. Watered by the tears that are finally shed. Fertilized by your willingness to be vulnerable. Compassion and forgiveness providing the necessary rays of sunshine to help this feeling garden grow.

This emotive ground of BEing is discovered through the inner negotiations with parts of you like the Protector, who stands at that gate guarding. Holding the hands of your precious Inner Child and Inner Teenager, you show up to FEEL and to be real. You look around and see through eyes without judgement what lurks in the shadows there. Inviting it come out and be embraced again by your loving heart.

This is not suffering over suffering. It is the BEing IT finally in order to have it go, to move, and to transform from fear into love….and from pain into joy again!

More about parts/metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-sessions
1:1 bridging session w/me for women to move into this ground are available. See link above!

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Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about bridging and ongoing individual/group sessions over zoom with her for women and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators with men and women, events/retreats, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Art As A Mirror And A Doorway Into The Heart And Soul

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

Bringing outside what lives inside can be the beginning of a vast exploration of the myriad energies that make up the wholeness of You.

The picture below was done during a time (around 2014 I think) when I was feeling a deep depression that felt almost immovable. While I was in it I feel like I needed to get it out rather than letting it envelop me. I can remember the feeling of barely getting the paper on the table and grabbing the charcoal stick. It needed to be charcoal because it looked just like I felt. Dark and grey.

I remember having no clue what I wanted to draw and just let the feeling travel from my heart to my hands and it translated to a swirl of grey in the center. I was swirling on the inside so it matched. Then it got darker and darker. I smudged the charcoal because that is what I felt like too…smudged. As I stared at the picture a began to feel how I was in this tunnel like environment, on the inside looking out. Wanting to feel something different than what I was feeling. Wanting to feel lighter. Freer. Less confined and dismal.

Then as I felt this energy leaving my being and bleeding its way onto the paper, I felt to draw the figure sitting on the floor of this tunnel staring out. Looking…watching…waiting. I could feel this being as different than me at that moment. He was me and not me at the same time. He was a part or aspect of me that felt this way. He was looking for someone to connect with him so he didn’t feel so hopeless. This is when the depression became not who I was, but held by a part of me that had a story and a reason.

This act spurred on other pictures that were not all that detailed. They were simple yet had emotional substance and a reality held by something inside of me that was not all of me. It became less about depression and more about self-discovery. The sunrise of curiosity was breaching the infinite ocean of despair and I had a relationship to it….to him, or maybe it was always Her. My hidden and disowned feminine wanting to be claimed by her King. Either way, it changed my relationship both emotionally and physically to my depression.

Even if you don’t fancy yourself an ‘artist’ the act of moving something on paper, canvass, or computer screen, can open a doorway to your heart and soul that invites a relationship, a curiosity, and a compassion. This is more than just art therapy, but a beginning to discovering the lost and hidden aspects of what and who you really are in both the shadow and the light. It moves from the paper back into You in a whole new way that doesn’t just provide relief but a new consciousness that can lift you into new technicolor timelines.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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To The Precious Parts Of You

Published on by Raianna Shai2 Comments

By Raianna Shai

To the part that protects: 

Thank you for your service

And for keeping me from harm

I love the way you care for me

And how you work so hard

But it’s time to rest now

And let me lead my heart

For now you have a brand new job

To feel your bigness soar

 

To the part from the “past”:

You show up as my inner teen

The part of me that questions

Just what and when and how things work

And why we aren’t all honest

I love your flow of truth and passion

How truly you want change

But now we choose to heal ourselves

To forge the path ahead

 

To the youngest of parts:

Your precious laugh, tears and smile

Fill my heart with joy

The way you see the world around you

As an extension of the heart

I love the magic in your being

The fears and worries, too

I am here now, to protect you

And let your love shine through 

 

To the keeper of the soul:

The work you do is magical

And really quite a feat

I stand in awe of your grand grace

But wonder how you are

The time is now to journey on

Into the Metasoul 

And then you will be done on earth

To carry on your heart

 

To the part that judges:

I understand how you must feel

When people say you’re “bad”

We’re told to push and shove you down

But you just want to help

Thank you for protecting me

The only way you know

But now it’s time to learn from love

And lower down your sword

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Quick Chakra Cleaning Meditation W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

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SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator, Ascension Guide, and Author Jelelle Awen takes you through a quick white light cleaning of your chakras. In less than ten minutes, you connect with and clean your main seven chakras plus your Personal Sun chakra. She also shares sunrise codes and ocean energy from Puerto Vallarta, Mexico.

She introduces you to your Inner Protector, a part of you that guards and protects you and makes the transition from overly protective to Divine guide/channel opening up access to your Metasoul/other lifetimes.

For another guided meditation to activate your ascension chakra vortexes, go here: https://youtu.be/qBb3eBzv70A

For more information and another guided meditation to connect with your Inner Protector: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ciJI…

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The Death And Rebirth Of Your 3D Self

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By Jelelle Awen

Has the death aspect of ascension been validated enough? The necessary process of letting go of the old, the dying, and the mourning that accompanies it? I feel this aspect of the process deeply in myself as I have experienced it so often over the years/lifetimes, in my own Metasoul, and as connected to the Universal soul/Divine Source too. Rebirth CANNOT happen without death, as nature and Gaia show us and remind us. Just wanting the rebirth and the ascension without the necessary death process is to limit the infinite possibilities that TRUE transmutational alchemy brings.

More and more recently souls (and their 3D selves) are just needing to share with me that they definitely feel like their worlds are collapsing, their lives are changing so much, and it feels like they are dying. And, I feel this with a deep compassion as the Divine has offered to me so many times….not able to take the pain away, yet validating that YES, this is the process and you’ll ultimately be OK.

In a VERY significant way, our/your world IS collapsing…..the 3D world anyway and the 3D self that has formed in so many fragmented aspects is too letting go, unanchoring, and this feels hugely like dying as the energy transmutes to a higher frequency.

What has previously been and felt alive….what has been kNOwn as a LIFE…..is going through death throes as the soul’s higher frequencies come through, shine through, and rumble through. These parts of you feel sad and lonely and like no one else in your world ‘gets it’ because, in many ways, they don’t. Those people so beloved to you in your 3D life (and even to your 4D transitional self too) are suddenly not able to resonate on the same ground as you. You are speaking now a foreign language and are forgetting the one you used to be so fluent in. You are compelled to attend inner funeral services that they don’t see the reason for. You are becoming a ghost to them even as you become so much CLEARER to yourself.

I am shown by the 3D Self/Protector aspect esp. scenes of rubble falling from previously solid ceilings…..ash thick in the previously clear air…..blazes lit to clear the excess away. The 3D self wants to be felt in all this letting go and change and it NEEDS to be. You can provide so much comfort to this part of you as it falls and tumbles and loses so much. As your 3D self is negotiated with and felt by you, it can so much more easily let go with MUCH less resistance and fear. More love can flow within your BEing to hold space for this process!!

The beautiful thing that seems to be happening right now is that the gap between the dying and the rebirth is shorter and, in some cases, happening in the same now. The old is being let go WHILE the new is coming in and there is very little ‘time’ left then to mourn. This also seems to be true the more 5D self or higher self coming into your body that you have within you AND the more you have surrendered to the death and rebirth process and already let go of so much of what needed to be let go of. Then, trust grows inside of all of your parts that whatever is being released will be replaced by something better that is based in love and reflection of your soul and service of LOVE here!

Jelelle Awen
In SoulFullHeart, we offer sweet comfort and connection to your 3D self and help you to form a bridge inside with this energetic frequency through 1:1 and group sessions: more info here: Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about bridging and ongoing individual/group sessions over zoom with her for women and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators with men and women, events/retreats, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.