Category: 3D/4D/5D Selves

A Bridge To The SOULstice: Return Of The Sol

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I have been spelling the word ‘solstice’ with ‘soul’ for obvious reasons. Even feeling to capitalize it to emphasize its importance at this time. When you hear or see that word what comes up for you?

For each of us, it has a slightly different meaning, but overall it encompasses something that feels bigger, deeper, and more expansive than our concept of it suggests. It houses our passions, our essence, our multi-dimensional story. It feels ecstatically beautiful and divinely tortured at the same time.  

I feel this time of year brings us closer to that infinite source of our being. People around the world are celebrating, contemplating, and fighting and dying for it. How we relate to it comes packaged with a cultural lens but underneath it is a deep desire for unity and individual expression and service within it.

I feel that when this sacred time has passed, there can be a depression that enters some of our fields as this emphasis on Soul and Spirit leaves the collective consciousness. It is as if New Earth is at its closest point in its orbit to our hearts and bodies. The question becomes how can we cultivate that more consistently on a daily basis? How do we begin to embody this magic and depth of soul so that it just IS what is without it just becoming normal and typical like we have made 3D?

Connecting to our spiritual body in the form of the Higher Self is a practice. One that needs and desires attention just as much as our hearts, minds, bodies, and loved ones. For some, it is like breathing. For others, it is a challenge and/or resistance. If there is a lot of soul wounding, then the connection to It via what we call the Gatekeeper, can be closed down or limited. This aspect of us that was only ever meant to be a guide, has found itself in a guarded protective stance when it comes to connecting to Source, The Divine, and Star Family.

Going into guided meditation to meet, connect, and relate to this aspect of you is a beginning step in that process. Finding out what Its story is and how it relates to your Soul can illuminate so much about its history and its influence in your daily life. What once felt dark and dreary can become joyous and fruitful. This is what I feel we all long for in our deepest core.

Here is a link to a guided meditation that can be used to meet the Inner Protector that would serve as a starting point in that connection:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ciJIvrn0xA&index=24&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvL3_HIusq0GwJO4ziwlmioz&t=6s

We are a complex and simple story at the same time. Feeling and healing that story is what I feel we are here to do so that we can shine the Light of the Soul upon and into the hearts of the world. This is the journey and birth of the Christ in all of us. The return of the Sol.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Your Inner Thanksgiving

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Today is Thanksgiving Day in the US. This day does not have the same energetic impact on me anymore as I am not currently in those grids. BUT, it does bring up a lot of memories and reflections. I know that it is a day for feeling gratitude for all that we have and had. It is good to do that. To have a reminder; to take a breath and just be grateful for it all, even the not-so-good as it can lead us to the healing places where there is more good.

However, there is an authentic gratitude and a false gratitude. One that covers over the truth that parts of us hold about all aspects of our lives from the people we are in relationship to, to our jobs, to our health, or to the circumstances in our life. A part of you may not be so damned thankful. Maybe he/she is frickin’ irritated, hurt, angry, or just plain apathetic to it all. Whatever authentic joy that does exist inside can be neutralized by these parts unless they get a place at the table too.

Yeah. There is a Thanksgiving table inside you. Around it lies all the aspects of you that have all sorts of opinions, truths, reactions, and joys. Your inner child can be relegated to the kid’s table by the parts of you that don’t want to feel certain things from pain to joy. They can be judged and ignored. There is an inner patriarch or matriarch that has it all under control and knows what is best for everyone. There is a protector at the door making damn sure it doesn’t get too out of hand or that no one accidentally slips and tells is like it is. A gatekeeper that is holding the cap on a plethora of metasouls that are popping in and out of consciousness. Wow! This day is full of so many trans-dimensional dynamics! No wonder we just eat like crazy and fall asleep!

I know this is a general and typical representation, but it is a great way to feel what may be happening inside of you on this day and the days to come this holiday season. It is actually the best time to really feel what is real and true inside of you. Making contact with this inner family is the gift that keeps on giving. It leads to the real source of inner peace and gratitude. You get to be the Head of Household and create a new way to celebrate on the inside. Listening, feeling, and holding these parts and making new choices of relationship, vocation, and geography that are more aligned with this healed and more authentic state of being.

To get in touch with these dynamics inside of you that may be creating a lot of stress, anxiety, or depression inside of you this season, all of us at SoulFullHeart are here to hold space and offer a heart-open reflection of the aspects and lives within you. To help bridge to a new world of self-love and self-leadership. I send you much love and blessings on this day and may it be the most real day of them all. That is something to be grateful for.

Painting by K. Amelia Bates

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The 11:11 Gateway As The Portal To Metasoul Healing

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It has been a week of letting in and acclimation. The energy here on Vancouver Island is just stunning. Geography has always been a big part of my awakening. That is true probably for most, if not all, of us. The land energy around us holds so many keys to the Metasoul, what I like to refer to as the planet of our soul. This planet contains the accumulation of our dimensional experiences, past, present, and future all in the Now. It has its light side and its shadow side.

As I spent some time the other day just taking in my immediate surroundings, I could feel the dimensional doorways inviting me to enter. To feel what soul consciousness lies on the other side to be felt and to receive guidance and support from. The area that I was walking in was once inhabited by a FIrst Nations tribe called the Saanich. Now, I just read a little bit about them on a board in the park that I was walking in. Mostly, I wanted to connect to the energy that was there and experience it for myself through my heartmind.

As with any other local native community, it was overrun by mining and commerce. Concrete structures found there way into what once was a very organic environment. An old smokestack still remains as a memory of this encroachment. I began to feel a voice inside of me that wanted to connect with me around this time. He wanted me to help him heal from this timeline of suffering and sadness. He felt to be a 4th dimensional consciousness stuck in the muck of the 3D paintrix, and understandably so.

As we enter into these coming days, months, and years I feel there will be an increasing vibration of these 4D Metasoul “brothers and sisters” that are going to be seeking a release from this old frequency and into something higher and healed. In order to serve this growing call and need we need to heal our own personal 3D timelines to make room for this. If there are a lot of 3D anchors living inside, these incoming 4D energies can be experienced as a lot of emotional heaviness, frustrations, anger, as well as physical symptoms such as sleepiness, headaches, stomach aches, and maybe even some “accidents” that are meant to be knocks on our heart doors to get with the healing and releasing.

This communion with our Metasoul can bring us much in the way of soul gifts, higher intuition and perspective. This soul brother of mine, who wants to be called by the name of the tribe itself, wants me to feel what life was/is like in the Lemurian Dimension. He can feel how I would benefit from his wisdom and passion as much as he can benefit from my open heart to feel and heal with him. It is a symbiotic relationship where we will eventually integrate and merge with each other in a more pure way. Less fused to the denser energies of the pain and suffering.

There is still a healing that happens inside of me as well. In the past, without feeling and clearing my own “this life” wounds, I would attach to the pain of my Metasoul and find myself in deep bouts of depression with drugs and alcohol as a way to manage and get medicate it. With all the inner work, I can now hold a different space around it that will allow for a reachoring in a higher dimensional frequency for all the Metasoul lives that are alive inside of me, yet to be felt and experienced. This continues to support and open my heart to the service of love to others.

As more comes up around this relationship I will share more. The main thing I wanted to express was how much we are being invited to go into our hearts and make room for all the spiritual refugees that are seeking a safe haven inside of our Being. It leads to a growing bridge to our Star Family both Gaian and Galactic. This 11:11 is the gateway to this brand new world that is right under our feet and in the Now. I invite you to join me on this ride of your life.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Your Caravan Of Love Awaits

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I see a vision of an etheric caravan. One in which our integrating selves are crossing a Rubicon into a new timeline. A New Earth. While there are thousands of souls that are seeking something new outside of their current home, the same could be said from within each of us. There is a desire for a brighter future, a brighter Now. They are the hidden, veiled, and wounded parts of us that are seeking asylum in the heart of our Higher Self, our closet connection to the Divine that we are currently aware of.

If we ignore this inner migration of Self-union, then we are still in a polarized state. We are still in separation and dissonance. We are scattered and confused. To open the doors of your heart you invite all the aspects of you that are judged as Unwanted. Untrustworthy. Misunderstood. They live in timelines and emotional geographies that are hard to accept as a part of you. Yet there they are. Inextricably connected to you for they are you.

As the continued external energies bear down and shift UP, the inner disclosure of your shadow will be illuminated and exposed. This can be a difficult time for those that have not chosen to do the inner work that is needed to heal and glean from all that has been shielded from our consciousness. It may begin to show up as emotional and physical symptoms. This is the march of your inner caravan making itself known even as they are not even sure how to digest what is going on.

Checking in with our inner world IS the work. It is the most important thing we can all be doing. This can be such a hard thing to do when we are inundated with images and energy. It is sad and triggering. It stirs the collective pot and yet there it is for us to bear a heart witness to. We all have a part to play in these world events. Coming from our healed hearts and clear minds we can make a difference, and a home, for all the lives that live inside each one of us. This is where Love can flow from purely and do its Divine Work.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Our Beloved Bubbles

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Our consciousness is a bubble. It can be a small one or a massive one. It can be comprised of fear, anxiety, and depression, as well as joy, peace, and knowledge. We can use anything to create a bubble. We need the bubble in order to be in this dimensional frequency. It provides the necessary veil for our growth within Experience. In my opinion, even the most non-dual enlightened or galactically-activated individuals still exist in a bubble. Even The Infinite needs The Finite in order to experience Itself.

Bubbles are both mental and emotional. Our knowledge of what is ‘real’ and ‘true’ continues to shift and evolve. This happens as we continually ask questions such as “what if?” and “why?”. The same holds true for our heart bubbles. Our protective layers that are there for their own reasons and purposes, yet keep us from fully letting in the bliss mess of aliveness and love.

As this Gaian ascension process continues, we reach the boundaries of these bubbles as they are meant to be popped in order to enter the vastness of our new bubbles. New energetic frequencies that can only exist beyond the confines of the old. These moments of experiencing the boundary of our assumptions and comfort are the moments where Love is the one thing we need to lean into so that we can be born into what we signed up to experience and be. The bubble is meant to grow and become more transparent even when it feels so good to be in one sometimes.

I have become acutely aware of my own bubbles in my process that lead to new phases of questions, curiosities, forgiveness, compassion, and action. Feeling the parts and aspects of me that are coming to the surface of my emotional and spiritual reality. It is not about hunting, fixing, or shattering the bubbles, but rather about just continuing to feel where we are being invited to go into so that we are not just suffering or hiding in the world we have created for ourselves.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Feeling The Existential Part Of You To Heal Beyond Medication

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I felt to share a response I gave to someone around the use of medication to alleviate deep depression and even thoughts of suicide. There is a lot that has been done to help many with this crippling and tragic dynamic inside, yet it is a way to get on rather than truly go IN and get to the deep roots of this very existential situation. I honor what medication has meant to those that have needed it, I had my own. If the desire is there to be curious and courageous then that is the first step in living a life of authentic feeling and joy:

“You are tapping into some deep existential territory. In my personal opinion, psychology has a hard time grappling with this existential quandary, so drugs are prescribed as a runaround. I don’t feel it as evil per se, just the only way to provide relief and a sense of control. But ultimately we need to reconcile this within ourselves so that we can feel what is the root in our souls around this.

The particular story is different for everyone, and we all have our own bone to pick with God. A fear, a rejection, persecution, abandonment, etc. We are to feel what our relationship is to this feeling if we want to ‘get back to God’, so to speak. If we truly believe or even want to believe that God is Love and that It/He/She exists in all things and has never abandoned us, then there is a story there. A reason for this feeling of being tried, tested, or played with. It is up to us to ask the questions, hold the space, and go into the murky territory that is this sacredly difficult place.

I believe that true awakening is a challenge but not one that we are in alone or outside of God’s Love. I feel this burden of proof from God needed by a part of you. Feeling our Higher Self and tapping into its own knowingness is what can bring us the much-needed space to go into this journey if we are willing and ready.”

Gabriel Heartman
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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Unanchoring Your 3D Self To Fly The Skies Of Your Highest Timeline

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By Jelelle Awen

In two weeks from today, I will be flying with my BEloved Raphael Awen and daughter Raianna Shai on an airplane from here in Puerto Vallarta to Victoria, Canada. Honestly, it has been YEARS since I’ve flown and I’m so curious how it will feel now with more multidimensional and galactic perspective. We are flying at night, so the stars will be close…the higher elevational frequencies just outside the window. I can already feel my star seed child so excited to be in the air again in the physical (even with many journeys to visit light ships through meditation recently)!!
 
While there is a TRUE sense of excitement about this life shift (which is about following Divine guidance to be in a geography that supports more in person service through sessions, retreats, and groups) there have also been rumblings in moments of tensions inside me…mostly brief and calmed with an inner connection to whichever part or Metasoul aspect is feeling them. Then, service of love calls again to write, share, sessions and I am elevated to the bigger picture sense of reason around it ALL.
 
Letting go of the comfortable and the known to step into more leadership/service/outedness of our soul gift expression always causes some tension for the parts of us that have become comfortable/safe in the familiar. It’s like we have to unroot these parts of us…….unanchor them with MUCH love and be open to feel their anxieties too without judgement in order for more joy and surrender and bigness to open up and become accessible.
 
In a session this week, a 3D self of a facilitant came through and this part of her was SO clear about what 3D consciousness thinks about all this awakening/ascension/spiritual ‘stuff’ as represented by her ‘science-minded’ and practical birth father. The 3D self has been conditioned to ‘maintain the status quo’, to ‘do what everyone else does’, to ‘climb the ladders’ and ‘fit in the boxes’ just like others. To be different is to risk being called crazy…..to reveal your awakening consciousness is to risk being totally alone. There are VERY real fears in these parts of us about being abused, becoming a ‘moving target’ and (in our metasouls) even being killed or persecuted if we step up and out into our gifts. We felt much love for this part of her together (who she really has known herself to BE most of her life) and she began the process of differentiating from this energy in order to continue her process of BEcoming more of her service of love self in ALL areas of her life without compartments and bubbles.
 
The versions/parts of you still anchored to 3D consciousness have good reason for being so. They’ve been supported most likely by your birth family, by schooling, by society/cultural standards. They may still be connected to relationships that are more resonant in 3D frequencies.
 
These parts of you are waiting to be ‘freed’ from the prison of expectation and conformity. They are waiting for your open heart to invite them out of the prisons and into the free fields of the awakening soul and the expanding heart. To directly connect with these parts of you allows you to separate from them….to become more of your 4D/5D self in that moment that you feel more compassion than judgement toward these energies inside yourself.
 
You are being invited to step up and step out. To become a bridge to those who are newly awakening through (firstly and primarily) becoming a bridge to all parts of you that are still clinging to 3D consciousness out of fear and familiarity. This inner differentiation work is critical right now and ongoingly. Gaia/cosmic/SOULar/lunar frequencies support this shifting to higher consciousness and can provide upgrades on ALL levels to ease this shift into flying your highest skies with all parts of you coming along for the ride!
 
Jelelle Awen
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1:1 sessions over zoom for women with me and for men/women with Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman are available now. See link above!
 
I talk more here in this video about the 3D self and the 5D self: 
Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about bridging and ongoing individual/group sessions over zoom with her for women and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators with men and women, events/retreats, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

The Galactical In The Practical

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After a blissful weekend with my beloved, I found myself immersed in the practical dimension yesterday. Filled with traffic, money, and sundry technicalities. Sometimes I could find myself starting to get prickly inside. From where I was energetically over the weekend, it could feel like a clash of dimensions. Sitting in dense traffic, I could feel how maybe there was a larger dynamic at play.

As Gaia continues Her ascent, so do we by proxy, or in proximity to Her. We are all inextricably entwined in this mysterious unfolding. The galactic cloud that we are passing through is creating all sorts of consequential havoc. It is triggering so much in the psychic soup we are all a part of. If we are fortunate enough to be aware of this, through reading and/or our own inner guidance system, we can get a perspective on it all and move through the emotional reactions as they come up as well as give them a context.

It is this context that carries us into new lands of consciousness. To just sit in a traffic jam, letting the irritation build and fester is a recipe for a frequency downer. What if instead you could feel the parts of you that have the irritation and feel what the bigger issue is? Underneath you may find a galactic aspect that is getting a bit worn down and tired of it all. The clash of dimensional dissonance. You both belong here and don’t at the same time.

Then when you see that we are all having that same experience at different consciousness levels and different rates you begin to see how extraordinary we truly are as humans. This is why we are so fascinating to our galactic ancestors, and frankly ourselves. We are all Star Beings trying our best to make sense of what we are truly doing here, some more clear than others. How we end up reconciling all of this is the Divine Mystery. Even God has Its popcorn out curious how this Grand Netflix show called Ascension will play out.

Here is where you get to feel the how the most mundane practicality can be the gateway into the most awe-inspiring reflection of your own greatness of BEing. Go meet yourself again for the very first time. It will surely take you beyond the practical and into the Galactical.

Photo by TheJudge310 on Flickr

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Owning And Transmuting The Prison That Lies Within

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When one has been denied freedom, whether in the form of prison or being captured, for a very long time, there is something that happens in the mind and heart of said soul. It is like a form of The Stockholm Syndrome where you have identified with the captor/imprisoner in the name of survival. Only, in this case, the bars are no longer in front of you but they continue to exist energetically anyway. They were all that was ever known.

I have been digesting this inside of myself the last couple of days, where I can feel aspects of me that have been used to a particular consciousness, or way of relating to the world both inner and outer. There are goggles that are placed on them that were not put on them against their will, but so that they could ‘deal’ with the very real reality of True Freedom that stands right in front of them. They are not oblivious to this reality. It has been a necessary part of a healing process.

If there is no matrix, or if there was never one to begin with, we are left to address our own ownership of that which we feel like is imprisoning us. We are left to reconcile that we are the captor and the captured both. We are highly efficient and powerful creators that can manifest more than we are able to let in so we can use the power of our projection to devise all sorts of excuses that can buffer us from that reality, that I hold as my personal truth.

As the dawn of the New Era is shining is a powerful Divine light upon us, the shadow of those prison bars is becoming increasingly clear. The truth behind their existence needs to be taken responsibility for or else they will continue to stand right where they are at. I hold that these limitations, these projections, these fears have all been necessary but no longer serviceable. They are held inside by parts of you that have a long and varied history with both persecution and being persecuted. Captor and being captured. Find, feel, and release the chains of these heart and soul beings so that they can be transmuted into the grandeur of love they truly ARE.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Art As A Mirror And A Doorway Into The Heart And Soul

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Bringing outside what lives inside can be the beginning of a vast exploration of the myriad energies that make up the wholeness of You.

The picture below was done during a time (around 2014 I think) when I was feeling a deep depression that felt almost immovable. While I was in it I feel like I needed to get it out rather than letting it envelop me. I can remember the feeling of barely getting the paper on the table and grabbing the charcoal stick. It needed to be charcoal because it looked just like I felt. Dark and grey.

I remember having no clue what I wanted to draw and just let the feeling travel from my heart to my hands and it translated to a swirl of grey in the center. I was swirling on the inside so it matched. Then it got darker and darker. I smudged the charcoal because that is what I felt like too…smudged. As I stared at the picture a began to feel how I was in this tunnel like environment, on the inside looking out. Wanting to feel something different than what I was feeling. Wanting to feel lighter. Freer. Less confined and dismal.

Then as I felt this energy leaving my being and bleeding its way onto the paper, I felt to draw the figure sitting on the floor of this tunnel staring out. Looking…watching…waiting. I could feel this being as different than me at that moment. He was me and not me at the same time. He was a part or aspect of me that felt this way. He was looking for someone to connect with him so he didn’t feel so hopeless. This is when the depression became not who I was, but held by a part of me that had a story and a reason.

This act spurred on other pictures that were not all that detailed. They were simple yet had emotional substance and a reality held by something inside of me that was not all of me. It became less about depression and more about self-discovery. The sunrise of curiosity was breaching the infinite ocean of despair and I had a relationship to it….to him, or maybe it was always Her. My hidden and disowned feminine wanting to be claimed by her King. Either way, it changed my relationship both emotionally and physically to my depression.

Even if you don’t fancy yourself an ‘artist’ the act of moving something on paper, canvass, or computer screen, can open a doorway to your heart and soul that invites a relationship, a curiosity, and a compassion. This is more than just art therapy, but a beginning to discovering the lost and hidden aspects of what and who you really are in both the shadow and the light. It moves from the paper back into You in a whole new way that doesn’t just provide relief but a new consciousness that can lift you into new technicolor timelines.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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