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Forgive Me, Father, As I Forgive You

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By Jelelle Awen

“Forgive me, Father, as I forgive you…” This prayer came to me today as I was tuning into Divine Father frequencies in preparation for our women’s group call with Kasha this Sunday where we will share about healing the false father wound to let in Divine Father.

The religious version, “Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned,” is what originally came through today, feeling like a relic from many lifetimes of confessional, shame-based worship and self inquiry rooted in unworthiness.

Feeling sinful and asking a punitive Father God for forgiveness/to be deemed worthy enough for ‘Heaven’ is a program that can be challenging to deprogram from, as wired up as we are from the Matrix to believe that we are bad, wrong, and sinful. This programming actually blocks us from receiving TRUE and pure forgiveness frequencies from the Divine Father that empower us to experience Heaven within us.

As we unplug from this False Father programming, we are able to have and embody growing autonomy, self love, self worth, and our own goodness…and experience of our OWN Divinity. Yet, this programming runs deep. Beyond the religious programming, it has also been showing itself in the rampant abuses on all levels between mostly male gurus/spiritual teachers and their followers. This abuse is being exposed more, yet still so many vulnerable wounded daughters especially are drawn into the seduction of a holy father in the flesh that finally accepts, sees, and wants them (even if in very inappropriate ways at times.)

I am still digesting, even years later, my own experience of this kind of false father/teacher relationship with a former teacher of mine. I will share more about this in the women’s call… how I recovered, what I learned from it, and my process of forgiving him and myself.

While connecting with Divine Mother is very natural and fluid for me, it has been more challenging for me to commune with Divine Father. The blocks have also come from the woundings/traumas from an absentee birth father and series of mixed step-father experiences. I’ve also had some lifetimes as a nun in devotion to the Holy Father and as a devotee to male gurus/teachers that I have needed to heal and reconcile.

Letting in Divine Father has deepened for me over the years as I clear and feel these blocks/fears/resistances within parts of me and soul aspects. Divine Mother has been a bridge to this as She shows me how to love Him again and receive His love. As my Divine Daughter arises to accept love and embrace from the Divine Father, I often find there is more forgiveness to be exchanged from my heart to His and to then receive from Him.

So, today it was, “Forgive me Father as I forgive you,” and my Inner Daughter is still in process of this, for which He readily forgives….and offers His ever ongoing love to allow the healing process to deepen and continue.

Join us on Sunday, March 30th at 5:00pm BST/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT for the two hour women’s group call to explore the false father wound through teachings, a guided meditation journey, and sharings. You can offer whatever donation amount you would like to (usual is around $10 CAD) at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will email you the zoom link and the recording afterwards. More info at soulfullheart.org/events.

Love from Avalon,

Jelelle Awen

The Love Language Of Divine Father: Women’s Group Call May 30th

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by Kasha Rokshana

His sacred ROAR clears the room. His bright beacon of Truth shines our way through all darkness. His compassion holds us, infinitely, though we feel challenged to hold ourselves.

Divine Father is an energy that, in its purity, is MUCH different than the punitive he-god of religions. When He appears in different forms and faces, our projections place lightning bolts or swords in His hands, yet when you feel His tender heart, you realize that He could never and would never weaponize his love for all of us. 

I experience Divine Father through the energy of my heart and soul’s connection to Yeshua most often, yet sometimes I also feel Him just as Fatherly energy without form that simply does not caretake or want to coddle me. Instead, I feel how He challenges me to grow, to arise, and to lean-in to Him. 

He is much different than my experience of my birth father in this lifetime, who was seldom fully present to me, barely ever watered me as a young and budding woman, and didn’t know how to offer affection and direct love without the runaround of β€˜providing’ and having that be his only β€˜love language’. When my father passed away, I know he helped me see some of the patterns he passed down to me. I deeply got that he wanted me to heal from them while also overcoming them as behaviors inside myself. 

In some ways this relationship with him blocked my true relationship with the heart of Divine Father, yet also, it offered me something to differentiate it from. 

As woman, Divine Father can be especially challenging to let in and feel. It’s as challenging as letting in a true soulmate. It’s as challenging as understanding that indeed, some men are deeply GOOD, even if they choose not to caretake or coddle you. Men who are on their own paths to wanting to see and feel themselves, to recognize with humility their own imperfections and need for healing may be rare in a way yet they are emerging. They represent the love of Divine Father who also feels humility and who infinitely supports our ongoing Ascension as Sacred Humanity arising… as a humanity that is learning to love itself again just as the Divine loves us and longs to feel our love return to them as well.

The healing that is possible for men and women through genuine connection with Divine Father from within is immense… His light shines so brightly and his love even brighter. He holds with tenderness our experiences in His heart. He feels us all deeply in his infinite capacity for feeling. He is a guide, in whatever form you’re ready to let in, and He will not push or force his way into your life and your own heart… patiently, he waits for your attention, intention, and desire, with such an embrace that spans the whole world. Even your own whole world inside, as complex and complicated as it’s become.

Jelelle Awen and I will be offering a women’s group meditation call this coming Sunday May 30th at 5pm BST on Zoom, focused on healing the father wound inside to let in Divine Father. It’s by donation and you can attend live or receive the recording to take in later. 

You can find more information on this upcoming call here: soulfullheart.org/events

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing The Father False Wound To Let In Divine Father Women’s Group Call May 30 | Jelelle Awen & Kasha Rokshana

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By Jelelle Awen

Hope you can join Kasha Rokshana and I for our last women’s group call here in Avalon before we leave for Portugal! The focus of this group in one week on Sunday, May 30, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm BST (London, UK time zone/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT) will be healing the False Father wound to open up connection more to the Divine Father.

Healing the father wound to let in Divine Father is a new ground for us to cover in a group call and was requested by recent participants. This call will complement the powerfully tender women’s call we did recently on healing the mother wound to let in Divine Mother. This feels like a timely place to go as the sacred masculine becomes more available within and with the Divine as the False Masculine/wounded patriarchal Matrix continues to be exposed and collapse.

For most women, our fatherly experience has been either one of domineering, judgement, outright abuse, possessiveness, etc.…..or disconnected, absent, and vacant. Our daughter inside (especially our Inner Teenager) is often left uninitiated and invalidated by an outer masculine father figure, which impacts our sense of our own worthiness, sexuality, desirability as women and our romantic relationships as parts of us may be seeking a replacement father figure or pushing away from the masculine due to our father wounding. This can leave traumas and wounds within parts of us that block our receiving and letting in of the Divine Father energies that keep us plugged into the Matrix as well.

We will also talk about how the punitive False Father God of mainstream religions and the False Teacher/Guru (with hidden abusive patterns) of many spiritualities has also been traumatizing on a soul level and left a deep void and unknown around the experience of pure frequencies of a Divine Father. We will share our personal journeys around healing the false father experiences from this life and other lifetimes in order to let in Divine Father and also be in deepening sacred union grounds with our beloved masculine partners.

During this call, we will guide you in a meditative space into a healing sisterhood circle with all the souls on the call.You will connect with the part of you that has most experienced the fatherhood wound (your inner daughter or whatever soul aspect that wants to come through) and invite them to move into the higher-dimensional God chamber to experience unconditional love with Divine Father. We will be joined by various Divine Father faces/forms such as Yeshua, Joseph of Arimathea, Father Sky, etc. We will also repeat “I Am” mantras that recode the Father experience.

You can receive the link/recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop.

Or you can purchase it here through paypal and we will send you the zoom link via email. paypal.me/jelelleawen

Please make a note that you are purchasing the May 30th women’s group and check that your email is current.​

Love,

Jelelle and Kasha

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SoulFullHeart Museletter: May 15, 2021

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This issue of our Museletter offers many messages and transmissions from Lemuria, especially the Inner Earth Lemurians who have been waiting for us to feel through and sort out things here on the surface. Featured this week is a poetic transmission that moved through Jelelle, inviting us all to feel the love the Lemurians continue to have for us and the many ways in which they support us during this and every phase of our Ascension.

On Sunday, May 16th @ 5pm BST, Raphael and Jelelle will be leading a group transmission and guided meditation experience on Zoom which will bridge these Lemurian energies to you and invite you to feel and embody New Lemuria in whatever ways feel authentic to you at this time. More info on this. and other upcoming group calls for men and women here: soulfullheart.org/events

There is also a recording of a recent livestream with Raphael and Jelelle where they talk about the upcoming call.

A few new articles wait you this week, including more transmissions from Lemuria, connections with Divine Mother, and a digestion of a recent crop circle spotted here in England!

For more information on 1:1 sessions, group calls, and our community, visit soulfullheart.org.

You can read the latest Museletter here.

Much love!

~ The SoulFullHeart Community

Bridge To New Lemuria Group Meditation Call May 16th | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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By Jelelle Awen

Rather than relating to Lemuria as an β€˜ancient civilization’ that existed for millions of years a long time ago, we can connect in an intimate way to the energies of Lemuria within us and with Lemurians who live currently within Inner Earth. Lemuria or Mu (which means β€˜Motherland’) provides us a template of embodied, vital, and even practical spirituality that is connected to all living beings and our home as Mother Gaia.

Inner Earth Lemurians are available as bridges for us during this intense completion of the dark night phase of humanity within the Matrix….as we emerge into the light again. Lemurians provide the codes we need to upgrade our DNA, move into our β€˜super human’ gifts (such as those displayed by Avatar Lemurians such as Yeshua), expand our consciousness in all areas of life, and heal traumas on emotional/mental/physical/spiritual levels. They remind us of our capacity for updates in all areas of life…such as immortality, living on light, highly conscious relationships and community living, intentional procreation, etc.

Raphael and I are co-hosting our monthly group call for women and men over Zoom to provide a transmission of Ascension codes from here in Glastonbury/Avalon (the heart and third eye chakra of Gaia) where we have been receiving activations from the Lemurians, especially through the ancient standing stone circles here. The focus of this group next Sunday, May 16th, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm BST (London, UK timezone/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST) will be opening up to connect to the Lemurians as guides, templates, and sacred initiators.

We will talk about how the Lemurians have been waiting for thousands of years for those of us on the β€˜surface’ to raise into a higher consciousness so that they could emerge out of Inner Earth (where they live in 5D communities) and join us. We will share our personal journeys and experiences with them and the guidance we have received around leaving Glastonbury in July to form a NuMu sustainable community in Portugal.

During this call, we will guide you in a meditative journey to Inner Earth to visit with the Lemurians and bridge to your aspect/guide/ambassador as well. Our Inner Earth Lemurian soul aspects/brothers/sisters named Ruma and Ruhaniel will join us as a template of the sacred human ascension process and providing messages/guidance to us all. We will also repeat β€˜recoding’ affirmations as mantras together as a group that assist in this healing.

Here is a recent Lemurian transmission and message from Ruma and me: https://youtu.be/iaYhHu8LNkI

You can receive these frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us.

This group is open to the public and to all women and men over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawenand we will send you the Zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the May 16th group and check that your email is current.

You can also join this call for free if you are a member of our online community Portal on Mighty Networks where we also provide a safe online digestion and sharing space after the call. Membership is $14.99 USD a month with info at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.coThere is more info at soulfullheart.org/events.

Love from Avalon and New Lemuria!

Jelelle Awen

SoulFullHeart Museletter: May 1, 2021

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The energies of the past two weeks have been bringing up more to feel for all of us individually and the opportunities to awaken and to continue unplugging from the Matrix have been plenty. In today’s issue, we have a featured article that sends an invitation from Divine Mother to all who are ready to deepen in relationship with Her at this time. She offers both a balm and a reality check around what you most need in this and any moment.

Jelelle and Kasha are co-hosting a women’s call focused on healing the ‘mother wound’ to let in Divine Mother on Sunday May 2nd at 5pm BST. You can find more information in this Museletter and also via soulfullheart.org/events.

There are many energy updates and current events digestions as well for you to take in as a support for you at this time.

You can check out the Museletter here.

Much love from all of us!

~ The SoulFullHeart Community

Post Supermoon: Invitation From Divine Mother Into Deeper Connection With Her

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By Kasha Rokshana

Feeling Divine Mother strongly this morning, especially as we exit the full/super moon (and its mixed energies). Feeling Her vast and deep heart that is always active and present, Her embrace, Her stillness even when She must stir up storms within and without.

Feeling how She invites all of us into deeper trust in Her… in Her shadows and light, in all purposes She holds beyond what we can comprehend in every moment. She is always gently yet also firmly encouraging us to go inward and move forward, with a profound love that many of us have no reference point for from this lifetime or many others.

It’s Her realness I’m leaning into this morning, as I feel my own vulnerable fears and tears that live in parts of me and Metasoul aspects at times… the feelings of going forward with a momentum fueled by so much Divine trust, while also letting in the heartbreak of letting go of a world we all once knew, that I have had my own attachments to, that is all now burning up and crumbling into Divine ashes. It’s not enough to trust the Divine without also feeling the pain that comes up in our hearts… the pain of our inner world letting go to let in, but also the pain of the much larger world that is also crying out for Her love and, as we are all Divine ourselves, for our love too.

I’ve felt over and over again the leaps of faith that the Divine invites me into and the arms them outstretched to catch me as I also catch myself. I feel how this is the invitation to the whole world… to let burn what needs to burn, to let play out what needs to play out, even as we also need to speak out when we feel to… to cry the tears that need to be shed… to let go, even of what or who was once considered beloved if the resonance is not deepening.

I feel Her encouragement, now more than ever, to let go of any β€˜false gods’ which include β€˜false mothers’ and β€˜mother-figures’… authorities that once felt trustworthy, birth parents that you have now outgrown in consciousness, friendships that serve your smallness and not your bigness.

All of this, as She is well aware, needs time and space to process and yet, there is a cost that can accumulate as you waver in your resolve while parts of you who are afraid to let go of what is known, continue to lead your life’s decisions and indecisions.

Mother has so much patience for it all, yet will also offer us a prickly nest as needed… to help us fly, at last. To help us truly see and take ownership of our own journeys, no matter what the hills and valleys are that we may face on the way.

Join Jelelle Awen and I this Sunday, May 2nd @5pm BST for a women’s group call focused on healing the false mother wound to let in Divine Mother. We have both had such deep journeys in our own processes around this and look forward to helping you activate, deepen, or reboot your own connection to Divine Mother in whatever face, form, or energy you need Her to show up with the most right now.

You can donate via our shop: soulfullheart.org/shop

or PayPal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Healing The Mother Wound To Let In Divine Mother | Women’s Group Call W/Jelelle & Kasha on May 2

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SoulFullHeart Teachers/ Facilitators/Divine Feminine bridges Jelelle Awen and Kasha Rokshana co-host this group call for women over Zoom to provide a transmission of Divine Feminine activation codes from their physical location in Glastonbury/Avalon (the heart and third eye chakra of Gaia) to assist you in your ongoing process of sacred feminine embodiment. The focus of this group on Sunday, May 2, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm BST (London, UK timezone/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST) will be healing the False Mother wound to open up connection more to the Divine Mother.

Healing the mother wound to let in Divine Mother was a popular women’s group call topic that I, Jelelle, offered in a previous call last year, so Kasha and I felt to revisit it again now. It feels so timely as well with the False Mother/Feminine matrix programming (what we call the ‘Ursula consciousness’) collapsing for so many women on the awakening and self-healing journey.The ache and longing for a nurturing, compassionate and responsive mothering energy in our lives often runs very deep within us and within parts of us such as our Inner Child and Inner Teenager.

The need for a template of healthy queen leadership, sacred union lover/mate, and powerful sorceress/priestess are also frequencies that parts of us are longing to express and be initiated into by a loving Divine Feminine energy.

The actual experience of the mothering and templating we received from female caregivers is often an invalidation, judgemental, disconnected, and toxic frequency. This can leave traumas and wounds within us that block our receiving and letting in of the Divine Mother/Feminine energies that keep us plugged into the Matrix as well.

We will talk about how so often what expresses as mothering is actually based on codependence and a deep wounding within the feminine caregiver that is not actually ‘feminine’ in an authentic way, yet wounded masculine frequencies. Healing our mother experience with our inner masculine and feminine parts allows for more receiving of the Divine Mother frequencies that support us to embody more of our own Divine Feminine essence. Also, opening up nurturing motherly bonds with feminine aspects of yourself and with Metasoul sisters (soul aspects from other lifetimes) creates an experience of increasingly fulfilling motherhood from within that then flows to the outside and helps to heal the matriarchal family line as well on a Quantum level.

During this call, we will guide you in a meditative space into a healing sisterhood circle with all the souls on the call and with the Magdalenes, a sisterhood/motherhood 5D consciousness lineage with Mary Magdalene, Mother Mary, and Divine Grandmother Anna to help heal the generational motherhood wound inside and outside. You will also connect with the part of you that has most experienced the motherhood wound (your inner daughter) and start to offer them love and light. We will also repeat “I am” mantras that recode the Mother experience.

You can receive the link/recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email atΒ soulfullheart.org/shop.

Or you can purchase it here through paypal and we will send you the zoom link via email.Β paypal.me/jelelleawen

Please make a note that you are purchasing the May 2nd women’s group and check that your email is current.

More info at soulfullheart.org/events

​Love,
Jelelle and Kasha

SoulFullHeart Museletter: April 17, 2021

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There have been huge waves of upgrades moving through in the last week or so, adding on extra boost to all of our Ascension processes and the bliss mess that brings.

Jelelle offers a thorough energy update this week to support you in your ongoing process and in everything you may have been feeling through and moving through recently.

Tomorrow, April 18th, there will be a group meditation call with Raphael and Jelelle, focused on digesting the COVID narrative one year later. More information is in this Museletter and also at this link: soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

There are many new writings to help guide you on your journey. There is also a new video of our time visiting the Stanton Drew standing stones here in the UK and another video from an Ascension update livestream hosted by Raphael and Jelelle.

You can take in the new Museletter here.

Love,
~ The SoulFullHeart Community

Context, Content, And Deeper Feeling

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There is a sacred process happening on this planet. I feel it, you feel it, we all are feeling it. But are we reacting to it or REALLY feeling it?

There is a way that parts of us can go into a particular ‘modus operendi’ when it comes to deep feeling. When I used that word above I am getting I really meant ‘sensing’. First, there is an intuitive or even an obvious sense of what is happening. And then there is going into feeling.

How we respond to that feeling is varied. We can research, protest, get paranoid, paralyzed, positive, or proactive. I find myself doing a little of bit everything depending on what part of me is in the forefront.
All of it is a natural flow of our emotional body. It is all welcomed and necessary. They are all portals to access our Divine Self. That essence of each of us that has a larger perspective and understanding, while at the same time hold space for the deeper feeling that emanates from our fractured selves.

Finding context in the midst of it all can open some more space to breath. That context is one that lives in you that may find resonance in different places. It gives parts of you something to lean into. That context is really You. Your Higher or Divine Self lens.

Yet, context also provides the space to feel. When we are locked in content, we are fusing to the more wounded aspects of us. They lose sight of a bigger heart and soul picture that takes them to sobriety and even hope.

When you can feel or at least see from a wider or higher vantage point, those deeper feelings (parts) are given permission to unfurl and unpack. They let go into deeper vibrations of loss, grief, fear, and rage while not getting wrapped up in them. They become rivers and not dammed up energy. Interesting…dammed and damned.

I continue to feel deeper layers of my feeling that lie under my reactions and responses. The clouds look thick and foreboding from a certain vantage point. There is also infinite sun shining on the other side of those clouds. Both are true in our full spectrum of awareness. It can be hard to see the forest for the trees, especially when it feels like the forest is on fire.

If you or someone you know is struggling with finding context and getting caught up with the plethora or content, please get in touch for a free 45 minute consult/intro call with me or any one of my beloveds here at SoulFullHeart. We can work together to feel the parts of you that are in need of context, and more importantly You as a Divine Self. Visit www.soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info.

Raphael and Jelelle Awen will also be hosting a Group Call and Meditation around the Covid narrative on Sunday, April 18th at 5pm BST. Visit www.soulfullheart.org/events for more info.

Sending much love to you and your inner world as you navigate the content to find your context

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/