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Ascension Update: Intense Clearing Energies As Lower 4D Becomes The “Mainstream” Consciousness

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By Jelelle Awen

Ascension Update: Intense clearing energies as 3D ‘mainstream’ collapses, 4D Karmic healing intensifies & 5D upgrades come in. This is such a truly unique time to be alive here now with ALL that is happening on physical/emotional/spiritual levels for humanity both in terms of what is releasing, collapsing and what is upgrading.

You may be feeling these intense energies on the physical body level, prompting a need for fasting or eating very lightly. It can be of great assistance to put all of your energy toward this clearing/upgrading process rather than toward digestion of physical food. Eating just fruit (with high light/water content) can also be helpful. Being very sleepy, need for rest and long naps, passing out and going ‘off line’ are also happening now along with various aches and pains occurring too.

Chronic illness and deep toxicity may be coming up now too…feeling ‘worse before better’ as the cells clear it out and there is no longer need for it. Our immune systems are also being upgraded to ‘survive’ whatever is coming next.

What we are experiencing now since the C and V narrative began to accelerate two years ago feels to me like it is the 3D mainstream collapse that so many of us have been feeling will happen, yet in a different form than perhaps we imagined it would. I’ve been seeing ‘collapse’ scenarios for over ten years now. I was attached to the Lower 4D picture/program of industrial collapse for awhile… we even relocated to Mexico for a time to create a sustainable sanctuary to live on an off-grid ranch in community. We were motivated then by the sense that it would all fall down and wasn’t sustainable, sensing that it was being fuelled by energies that were more about control and dominance than they were about balance and love in tune with Mother Gaia.

Then, during my time on the ranch, I awakened to the false AI-generated Matrix reality that has created our 3D ‘mainstream’ culture for so long. I felt that it would collapse, yet I didn’t initially see the bigger and darker agenda going on around it at first that was actually controlling THROUGH the technologies and dependency on energy grids. Understanding more now about the motivations of the Cabal and how it connects to the overall Ascension process for humanity, I could ‘place’ it more into that picture with trust in the Divine plan around it all….and include support/technologies being released eventually from Star Beings as part of the solution to what seemed like insurmountable problems otherwise.

3D culture has created a numbed and drugged sense of false safety, where self preservation and material attainment are the number one goals. Social media, mainstream media, education, and easy streaming entertainment 24/7 lulls us into compliance, easily programmable by all that we watch and take in. It was hard to imagine how it would collapse without ‘pulling the plug’ of the electrical and technology grids that fuelled it.

Yet, C has been a mercy in that it has woken us up out of this slumber. It has interrupted the routines of eat/sleep/work repeat; threatened financial security (as the money systems need to collapse too); and put physical ‘safety’ and the fear of body death as the most pressing motivation for ALL personal choice and governmental decisions so we could reconcile and heal our fear of it. C and the ways that it has been created, used and leveraged by the Cabal has brought us into the Lower 4D, collapsing the 3D world that was an addictive dream one in comparison. The ‘true’ dark Lower 4D agenda of depopulation, AI-control, transhumanism and genetic/DNA modification is being revealed now…aided hugely by poisonous mass Vs bioweapons being pushed on us all.

Being in the Lower 4D reality now AS our collective consciousness for the last two years has dropped many awakening souls into deeper states of depression/suicidal temptation, ego death, dissonance with their families/friends, chronic illness/body toxicity, soul karmic bleed throughs, difficulties/separations in relationships, and overall despair over how it will all resolve. This has been so challenging to navigate.

Yet also there is a sense of liberation going on here as the Dark timeline gets ‘so bad and so obvious’ it finally motivates many more to change. Being tuned into the Divine Mother, I always felt it would be an intense death/rebirth process that would be necessary for us to wake up and choose New Earth realities. It would take A LOT of collapse and deconstruction for us to choose something that is unknown to us, unsupported by the mainstream, and draws so much resistance/fear projection from others. It felt important to stay soberly grounded in this, even as I experienced a lot of joy and bliss on an ongoing basis as I embraced this process.

Yet, also, in this willingness to die and let go of something old in order to experience something new….we are met with so much love and support from the Divine that it is always ultimately worth it. We are increasingly coming to trust that loss is part of the process of being reborn. We are able to grief and mourn as needed, celebrating the new as it arises.

This is then what the death of 3D culture, our rebirth out of the Lower 4D transitional grounds and into 5D New Earth realities from WITHIN us looks and feels like. The densities of 3D toxic living and eating need to clear out and be released; the karmic soul patterns and traumas need to be consciously connected with and integrated; the 5D and higher energies that most support our light bodies, our Divine Self to embody and our heart open/expand need to be brought in and allow for upgrading.

It is challenging right now not to get stuck in the sticky web of the Lower 4D as it moves into mainstream collective experience. This can lead to over focus on the ‘outside’ and what is happening or not happening. This can lead to engaging in battles over the old rather than focus on creating the new. This can lead to ongoing suffering over being rejected, misunderstood, and vilified by others.

Most souls are not yet able in this moment to be conscious of how this shift into the Lower 4D is impacting them; the timelines that are opened out and now bleeding through: the karmic patterns that their soul has engaged with life after life. They have gone to others, such as mediums/psychics/spiritual teachers/channelers for this ‘information’ about themselves with mixed results and sometimes abuses occurring as they hand over their sovereignty to others with more ‘awareness’ than them.

We are meant now to go within for this information about ourselves. We can lift our own veils. We can channel our own Divine guidance. We can connect to any lifetime and timeline that is relevant for us to know and feel. We can hold the space for our own healing. These awarenesses and this access is becoming more available to us through the activations that are happening on DNA/cellular/body/heart/chakra levels that move us into deeper embodiment of our sacred humanity.

Awareness of how our ‘base reality’ as a collective is shifting can help with navigating this. Finding resonance within yourself and with your soul family provides a support bubble (of the truly best kind) to buffer you as needed from the intensities going on while you access this information for yourself. Discovering ‘outside’ help that is in integrity and empowers your sovereignty can assist in reconnecting to your higher knowledge. Seek out temporary bridges as needed and models in human and etheric form as you are guided by your higher heart to.

Surrender to the overall process that is happening here and Divine love can flood into your being…offering the sense that love is holding it ALL and always has.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

We provide in our 1:1 sessions a bridging to and opening out of these awarenesses and consciousness states to allow a navigation of soul frequencies AS they come through, healing of traumatic patterns from this life and other lives, and integrate/reunion of previously very shattered/fragmented energies into wholeness. This space is held in collaboration with you, supporting your Divine Self to lead the way here on all levels. More info on a free intro and the sessions at soulfullheart.org/sessions.

Pic is of 5D upgrades through sun codes coming through in a powerful New Earth grid here in Portugal

Video: Caring For Yourself & The World (Teachings & Guided Meditation)

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SoulFullHeart Teachers/Facilitators and Sacred Union soulmates, Gabriel Amara and Kasha Rokshana, led this livestream on March 30, 2022 to talk about care for our inner and outer worlds and how there’s such a deep process around living into it. 

They share about their own experiences with the process of activating their own care from deep within themselves and how their different templates/models for what it means to care about yourself and the world around you has had to be deeply felt and moved through to find authentic care expression. 

They also offer some different ways in which to view this concept of being truly caring, the way it’s been hijacked by the Matrix through the ‘Woke’ agenda, and the difference between filling a role/expectation versus genuinely feeling empathy and compassion.

After the teaching and digestion, Gabriel and Kasha led a guided meditation to meet with your Love Ambassador self before entering the ‘care room’ inside of you, where there are different situations playing out and different parts of you feeling their attachments or reactions to these scenarios. 

Here is the link to a guided meditation led by Jelelle Awen where you’re invited to deeply enter a process of healing the cries of the inner and outer world: https://youtu.be/EsKv4XwV7ME

Kasha’s writing about the Great Passing: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2022/01/23/the-great-passing-taking-place-during-this-time-of-the-great-awakening/

And the recording of it in her voice: https://youtu.be/TKtMzVlPKSg

Meet Your Gatekeeper guided meditation: https://youtu.be/bGqTeeaYpwc

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

The Ongoing Journey Of Healing Our Worthiness, Collectively & Individually

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by Kasha Rokshana

In your conscious worthiness, desires and needs are answered, and the journey is embraced. ~

What a journey finding and feeling our truest sense of self-worth is!

I’ve never managed to find anywhere outside of myself, in any outward validation or through mastering the exercises in any self-help book. The only place I’ve continually found a way to answer each layer of unworthiness that is revealed inside of me is by feeling. Not through force, but by feeling. Not through a silver bullet, but through an ongoing process. This process at times is very sober yet all the time it’s alive and moving through me with so much messiness and grace, both.

Our collective worthiness has so much feeling and healing to do too… our worthiness as all of humanity, as a Sacred Human family, and as powerfully big individual souls.

It’s the unworthiness of healing our deep existential fears and separation pain from the Divine, showing up so strongly now with the power of these times we’re in with peaking and eventually collapsing Matrix-based narratives.

We are worthy of the tears and fears of all parts and soul aspects of us being heard and felt.

We are worthy of opening our hearts to the Divine and to others and feeling their hearts open too.

We are worthy of the challenges along the way of letting in this love that is always available to us. It’s the challenges, after all, that remind us that it IS the journey that hold us in all of the letting go so we can let in what we truly desire and need from the Divine and others…

…with our worthiness continually healing and growing.

The process pays off in dividends… the love received lands deeply and transforms so much from within which it couldn’t touch before. We are worthy of this and of trusting this process.

We are worthy of letting in that we are loved through it all.

It’s up to each of us how we choose to embody this process, live into this ongoing journey, and embrace that it truly IS a journey which we are all on together… one humble step inward at a time.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Finding Your Soul Tribe

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By  Raphael Awen

Do you see yourself in some ways as different and unique from anyone else you’ve ever met?

Have you ever looked out upon the sea of spiritual offerings and spiritual teachers and the people in those communities, and just honestly said to yourself, I just can’t see myself being a genuine part of anything I can see out there?!

I have.

Prior to that, I have also found myself in long term settings and groups thinking I was there for life. I’d found the truth and that felt good to be settled around that, until that ‘nest for life’ became evident that the mama eagle was again making the nest prickly, preparing me to make a do or die leap from the nest, into a new world of flight.

Belonging and being a part of something larger than just myself was wired in me. That part I didn’t question. What I did come to question in community experience very deeply was where was the transparency, the vulnerability, and sometimes just where was the garden variety honesty in everyday life.

I knew I was being invited to become more and more honest with myself, but I wasn’t so sure the group I was a part of wanted that like I wanted it. The culture that we had created up till then was a different kind of social contract between us, and now, I was the one seeking to revise the unspoken agreements and sub-agreements within our dynamics.

I knew all too well, just from looking within myself, that people who believe they have thee truth are set upon preserving that truth, exporting that truth, feeling good about themselves for having found such worthy occupation and even divine calling.

I knew I was breaking a contract. The words of ‘I’m here forever’ had to be revised to mean that ‘you are in my heart forever, but I am called to journey outside of this precious home that has held me and you and us so beautifully for the time that it has’.

Not one person from within my known world wanted to join me in that kind of exploration. They remained true to the culture we had upheld so faithfully. And It wasn’t their time, simply like how for me, in a couple decades worth of belonging within something, it hadn’t been my time to look beyond its comforting confines. I grew and bloomed where I was planted; until I simply no longer could.

What came next however, was a deep despair.

I knew that if I found anything that just felt real, really real, transparently real, I’d be wanting to be a part of it. But whatever I checked out in the worlds of spirituality that I previously felt were way off in my watertight convictions about what was really true, I came to feel that the same kind of hiding from my former worlds was going on relationally and emotionally in the social fabric of these communities I considered being a part of. The frequencies may have been higher, and more evolved, and more sophisticated, and even more resonant in many ways, but I was stuck on this inescapable bottom line point of that unless we get real, with ourselves and in turn with one another, there really isn’t any hope for meaningful change, or any hope for truly having any fun for that matter.

I thought about how it might look to go forward in life, without really being much a part of anything deeper community wise. I didn’t like that feeling.

That’s precisely when I felt called to lead something new and to be a part of something new. I was surprised by seeing my lifelong focus of finding the right group led by others, within which I could really shine, in someone else’s container, seeing that arrangement have to be let go of, in order to say yes to something new, in order to say yes to a calling. As destiny would so beautifully have it, I was given a mate, Jelelle, with which to share and fuel that dream, and things unfolded to today.

But back to you for a moment, if I may?…

Where are you at? What are you feeling in your truth as you so graciously take in my truth? What are you doing with your own version of feeling (if that is in fact what you are feeling) that you can’t find a place you could fit in, with your honesty, with your transparency, with your truth, with your feelings of having outgrown previous settings and previous ways of being? What is it that you really want? I believe there is something apparent to you that you really want, and that something answers the rest of the somethings that need answering.

I’m saying all this to extend an invite to you, but honestly, it’s not really an ‘everyone welcome’ sign like the one that so unconditionally lovingly sits out front many churches, communities or spiritual groups. I know too much about what can’t work for me to make that kind of invitation. Everyone is welcome in my heart as my equal, but not to have in my active connection as it’s only through shared resonance around shared values that makes for a real connection. My invite is more exclusive. All of us, I feel, kind of self-organize into where we find deep and true resonance.

My invite today is more exclusive to those who share this honesty piece, this despair piece, this yearning for something different piece. My invitation is to come in closer in deep resonance and transparency in community.

What could shared resonance in shared community look like for you? How could your sovereignty be enhanced rather than sacrificed by being a part of something meaningful?

I may well be speaking to a single soul right now. I know this is meant for someone and maybe some more ones beyond that. But one is really all that matters, because the all is contained in the one, and the one is contained in the all.

On one hand, I don’t need you to be interested in my offer, as I feel a deep trust in the divine within that this desire in me, is destined to continue to be fulfilled, but on the other hand, unless a you, if not you, shows up to play, I have less with whom to play. I can’t be fulfilled as an island to myself. I need you. I want you. I’m not complete without you.

Ok, this is getting a bit deep. I’ll try not to apologize for my passion, and instead simply ask you to check into who I am, who my wife and I are as a couple, what we lead and offer, and beyond to who we are as a community, to feel if what you’ve felt rumble and resonate in you in my words today has any legs beyond remaining in a distant orbit in our galaxy.

I really do hope you find where you are meant to be where you thrive, flourish and grow like a weed, but with the beauty and bounty of a rose. I hope you get smelled and appreciated often, up close and personal, for your true fragrance. I hope a year from now, that you and those around you hardly recognize you for the aliveness that’s unfolded in you.

But please choose. For your sake, for mine, and all of ours. Nothing changes the world like your choice does and ongoingly finding your place.

There’s a few places to check deeper into my world, here on Facebook, on our website, YouTube, group calls, etc. I’d be beyond delighted to hear from you personally and I promise most of all to be real, and treasure your reaching out! 💚🌹🏄🏻‍♂️🙏🏻

Thanks for feeling this and allowing it to take you where it will.

Much love,

Raphael

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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A Love Story: Part Six (Self Discovery)

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This last, and final, part of this love story shows the process of finally choosing myself. I gave my relationship everything I had, heart and soul, but ultimately I had to choose what I needed to feel whole, empowered, loved and supported. Love stories don’t always end in separation, and sometimes they even come back together. But the most important love through any kind of relationship is the love you have for yourself.

I have learned so many things about myself in each relationship cycle that I go through, but the biggest one I learned this time around is how I have related to my romantic partners. The biggest energies that present themselves are my inner mother and inner teenager. I have found that it’s so easy for me to feel like my beloved is my best friend that I can have comfortable fun around. The other moments are filled by my inner mother who wants nothing more than to make others feel loved and taken care of in every given moment.

These are beautiful parts of myself that have done nothing wrong, but limiting myself to these energies have prevented me from expressing fully as a woman in all of my layers and gifts. I’ve been more teenager and mother than I have lover and because of that, it’s been easy to keep others from becoming truly intimate with me. I’ve been working with these parts of me so deeply the last four months and I’m feeling such an incredible difference already.

I’m a day late to international women’s day but this felt like the perfect time to celebrate my decision to choose myself, to heal the parts of me that desperately need it, and to open myself out to the many layers of my sacred femininity. I’ve taken in the templating from empowered, caring, passionate, loving and incredible women around me to discover what being a woman means to me.

From now on, I will always be choosing me so that my heart can heal deeply enough to love others even when it requires boundaries, truth, patience and compassion. The divine sees all of this within us and knows we deserve it all, so now I’ll see it for myself ❤️

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Trusting Through The Transition (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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In this video, Raphael and Jelelle Awen talk about accessing and embodying trust through the intense transition that we are all have been going through and which is mostly likely to continue from life as we previously knew it in 3D.

We share about the process of navigating all the changes we’ve experienced during the last two years of the “C” narrative with increasingly less anxiety and more trust and more Divine surrender as you connect/bridge to parts of yourself and soul aspects/lifetimes.

We also invite you to join us live or via recording for a group meditation call with us on the Equinox, Sunday March 20th at 5:00/17:00pm GMT/1:00pm EDT/10:00am PDT, where we will share much more about what this trust through transitions can look like and support you to adapt your own version of moving with the shifts that are underway for you.

In the guided meditation portion of the call, we will create a bridge to the changes you feel in and around you, and connect to the parts of you and the reactions and needs they have in response to cooperating with this transition. We will also connect to, feel and hold space for the collective shift we are going through as one being. We will also connect to divine support and guides who so want to aid each of us. More information at soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

This group is open to the public and to anyone over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy/money exchange of whatever donation you feel to give ($15 CAD is the usual amount). You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can purchase it here through PayPal: https://www.paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will send you the Zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the March 20th group call and check that your email associated with PayPal is current.

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

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“You are NOT Alone,”: Message From Your Divine Self & Soul Aspects

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By Jelelle Awen

These messages of support are coming through right now for those of us who need them! This one is from Your Divine Self, Higher Dimensional Soul Aspects, Galactic Aspects, etc: ❤️🌹

We know it has been hard and IS hard in so many moments. Moments where you want to give up.

Moments where you want to ‘go home’. Moments where you are consumed by pain.

Moments where your heart feels like it is breaking. Moments where your tears fall and sobs shake your body.

Moments where the sky feels so dark and cloudy and overcast with unexpressed pains.

We feel you in this and we see you in this. We are with ALL of our hearts with you in this.

It has been so hard for you at times, this journey of forgetting, this traveling road of separation. This road has many curves and dips and turns.

We see all these with you, we witness how you crawl at times. How you lay low at times. How you feel like giving up at times.

Yet, your heart beats on. Your desire lives on. Your need for love echoes strong inside of you. You do not give up. Your soul carries you forward.

We watch you crawl through glass at times and yet you keep going until the way is clearer. You fight your way ‘back’ to your heart over and over and then, the fight rests and you are just moving forward because it is what you are called to do on your way to remembering.

We know that you often feel like you are alone. How you feel sometimes that no one else understands and no one else gets what is happening to you and how you are changing from who you used to be.

We feel for you and this struggle that you sometimes go through alone. We feel your loneliness and we ache for you in it.

Yet, this we offer……that you are NEVER alone. Your eyes may see no one else. Your heart may feel sad and alone. Your birth family might reject your changes and who you are becoming. Your friends may not come along. Your mate may not come along or get what you are awakening into.

But, you are NEVER alone. As we are always with you and we will NEVER leave you.

We feel how you sometimes think you are wrong or unworthy. How you feel that the struggle and suffering are what you deserve. And we want to offer to this part of you that this is NOT the truth.

You cannot do anything wrong. You cannot BE wrong. We want to offer to this part of you that you ARE worthy of love, you ARE worthy of awakening, you ARE worthy of connection.

We feel how you forget that you ARE love. You forget how you ARE infinite possibilities. You forget that you ARE infinite awareness. This forgetting was part of the process, the experiment, that we all agreed to.

We are here watching over you in the forgetfulness and we feel how you ache to remember again.

And, it is TIME for you to remember again.

If you are resonating with these words, then we invite you to connect with us. Reach inside for us. Find us INSIDE.

You don’t have to look outside of yourself. You don’t have to look to others, unless you feel that you want and need to. You don’t have to be at a special place of attainment or have special gifts. You are special just as you are. We are RIGHT HERE inside of you, ready and so eager to connect with you.

We are the aspects of you that you feel are ‘too much’ or you have forgotten or you have disconnected from. We are the aspects of you that are from and of your soul.

We are the multidimensional aspects of your BEing. We are your angel selves. We are your star BEing selves. We are your spirit guide selves. We are your Divine selves. We are your other lifetime-Metasoul selves. We are your shadow selves.

We are your councils of light selves. We are your star gates inside and your portals inside and your star dust selves inside. We are your crystalline body selves and your crystalline chakras merged into one. We are your merkaba and your inner gridwork connected to Mother Gaia’s new gridwork. We are your soul family waiting for reunion.

Connect with us and we become you. We merge into you more and more and in that merging the feelings of loneliness, the feelings of pain, the feelings of separation, the feelings of unworthiness, the feelings of despair and suffering, the feelings of wanting to die….ALL of it can and will move with this embracement.

And someday, we will become ONE, more and more, and your sense of you will keep changing and changing until you don’t really have a sense of you anymore as you just ARE.

You just ARE the Infinite Love and Possibilities and awareness that you were meant to be in human form.

We love YOU and we wait right here for you, inside you. Come and get us with an open heart and we will become one again.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

More info on 1:1 sessions, group call events, writings/books, online community to lift the veils/remember connection to your Divine selves at soulfullheart.org.

A Love Story: Part Five (A Choicepoint)

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By Raianna Shai

This part of my “love story” is more of my own side of things as I was realizing that my spirituality and my 3D life were struggling to coexist. I was in a limbo space around this time trying to be two things at once: human and divine. I could feel how there was still some life left to live and sort out before I could really choose to integrate my connection to the divine.

I had one foot in both worlds and wasn’t able to give my whole heart to either. I felt like I didn’t truly belong in either and that I could never be enough for my relationship or my community. This was the moment when I realized I had to go fully into life in order to live into whatever was left for me there. In that, I chose to take a break from soulfullheart and soon found my way back with more clarity about who I am and what I want than ever.

Today I feel a much deeper union with my both my humanity and divinity and a greater knowing of my soul’s purpose. Everyday is an inch closer to integrating these two parts of my being and feeling more comfortable to express both of them. Sometimes we have to let go into one reality in order to end the suffering of trying to be everything for everyone else. In this choice, we find who we really are.

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A Love Story: Part Five
A Choicepoint

Why does it feel sometimes like my divine self and human self are at odds? As if I can only experience one of these truths at any one time. There’s a part of me that feels like I have to choose one or the other and when I do, I lose one.

What if I choose the Divine path and lose my self in the process, unable to turn back? What if I choose humanity and forget who I really am and what I’m really capable of? What if I end up living for everyone but myself, constantly choosing what they think is best for me.

I don’t have clarity inside of my heart and soul right now. I don’t have the answers or the ability to go with the flow anymore. I’m at a crossroads in this moment and it’s one of the most uncomfortable places I’ve been in a long time. The nest is prickly but I don’t know where it wants me to go next.

Who am I? What do I really want? How do I want to get to where I need to be? Where do I even need to be? I’m scared of making the wrong choices. I’m scared of every little thing I do coming from the wrong place.

It’s hard to evaluate each thing you feel as if it has the potential to be wrong. I’m in this awkward spot of being able to see when I might regret something but wanting to experience it anyway. Like I haven’t caught up with my own awareness so having the awareness is painful.

I feel as if I need to have clarity and a choice that I just can’t provide right now. So how do I reconcile not knowing what I want and feeling like once I make a choice, I can’t go back?

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Seeking To Understand Rather Than To Fight

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By Jelelle Awen

“When you seek to fight that which you don’t understand or fear inside yourself and with others, it will come back again with each new form worse. If you seek instead to compassionately understand, you can mutually discover your truer purpose of serving love,” Yeshua and the Magdalenes

This message came through two years ago, when I was just initially exploring my Christ/Magdalene lineage. In their lifetime, the Magdalenes could have felt highly persecuted, heavy with revenge and hatred in their hearts towards those that harmed them, especially with the crucifixion of Yeshua and murder of others. Yet, repeatedly and ongoingly, they (including Yeshua in light body form) held forgiveness in their hearts and saw every ‘player’ serving a part in the Divine unfolding to seed Ascension consciousness.

They sought to understand rather than judge. They felt ALL were serving love in the form chosen by them and the Divine. This allowed them to forgive eventually and even appreciate those who served the necessary and difficult darker roles.

I feel the truth and invitation in each word….both inside and out. Becoming a love ambassador to ANY and ALL energies within us, helping create a bridge to invite those aspects in shadow (often stuck in shame and blame cycles) plus karmic loops, this IS the embodiment of Christ consciousness within us. This is how the true Divine loves us and how we can receive that love.

These words feel even more true now with our ongoing experience of the Matrix narrative taking us into increasingly polarized places.

We can become more divisive, taking sides, resisting and judging both inside of us and outside of us. Or, we can seek to compassionately understand ALL through the Divine’s heart. Inner peace is experienced from this state.

Outer peace is seeded from it too. ❤️🌹

Love,

Jelelle Awen

This is a teaching and a guided meditation video from our Deepen 2022 series with Raphael and I to move from the warrior to the 5D love ambassador:

Soulfullheart.org/sessions

Living Between The Time And No-time Dimensions

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By  Raphael Awen

I live in a village where church bells chime on the hour, every hour, reminding us of the dimension of time.

In time, there are many urgencies of what should and shouldn’t be. What would our lives be if it wasn’t for such urgencies? How could we maintain a sense of what life is and who we are without such parameters?

Outside of time, there are no urgencies, for all is both waiting to happen and has already happened. Both are equally true outside of time where all potentialities and outcomes equally exist.

If that’s true, and if it’s also true that you and I span the time and the no-time dimensions in the larger sense of who and what we are, then that opens up a whole other way of seeing and feeling our lives than we normally do in the more familiar time dimension.

Maybe the point of the things I want to do today in the time dimension, as well as the pretzel of sorting out what best deserves my time, and then sorting the next pretzel of finding the time and energy for such worthy doings; maybe all of that wants to be informed by the no-time dimension where it’s already all done, where doing doesn’t happen.

What we’d be left with would I imagine be something resembling play, like kids building forts with tea sets inside. It wouldn’t be a ‘real’ grown up house and a real grown up tea time, but as I recall, I never quite found something in all my adult years as simply fun and engaging as true play to the tune of what I did in childhood.

Maybe your and my inner child hasn’t actually become adapted to all these hourly reminders all around everywhere, the ones on our wrists, and the devices in our hands, keeping us here in the not so fun territory, in a world that feels overdosed on real.

Maybe it’s our inner children that hold the portal back to our essence and are inviting us into what they actually never lost, thank God, but only forgot, in our rush to grow up.

I recall the hour spent in church strangely as the most imprisoned and boring hour growing up, where time surely could not move any slower, like we needed to suffer in the time dimension, like we needed to shed a whole essence of our being and conform to something we were not.

Maybe we did need that. Maybe the church, like all of our institutions are still reminding us of how boring time is, when play is lost, how boredom is like a drill that bores vacuums in our lives that create space for new things to come in, which things are aching something out in us like a kid attempting to to sit still in church, an ache that precedes new creation.

How did we expect to find what we want if we didn’t encounter what we don’t want? Both are equally sacred and both took a lot of courage to choose. You are this courageous, for you chose to be here in both, both the longing and the realization of remembering and expanding on the divinity that you are, even through the comparison of discovering what it isn’t.

You and I are so surrounded by so much divinity on all sides that the things that don’t feel or look very divine are just dimmer switches and moderators allowing for the stuff we are learning and unlearning. This is all happening in the gap that is created in our perception between what is seen as divine and what isn’t.

I’m going to see if I can breathe in a whole big breath of no-time love from the no-time dimension side of my being in order to be with the time pretzels I feel around me in the time dimension, let the two of them get to know each other more.

Maybe as you and I figure this out, we solve this conundrum and deposit the answer/download somewhere in the no-time databank where it’s actually already solved somehow.

And here is where not only you and I get to be part of the deposit and the withdrawal from the time side of our experience, but so does everyone else get to be part of it. There is only one of us after all for whom all of this is and is being sorted out for.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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