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DAY 17 ~ JOURNAL TO THE DEMIURGE

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By Raphael Awen

This is another most epic day of a most epic journey.

Today, the part of me that we call the Gatekeeper directly confronted the Demiurge with its truth about his reality and responsibility. This one rumbled through me like a freight train.

You can read this series from the beginning on our blog here: https://goo.gl/CgrWXZ

Here is this epic day – Day 17

Raphael: Good Morning, everyone, including the Demiurge. The energy has shifted in here, hasn’t it? I didn’t quite know what to expect or if we would even gain connection with you, Demiurge, and here we have it. I feel some awkward feelings even knowing where to go from here.

It feels like I need to be honest about an animosity that I feel inside towards you, Demiurge. I need to say that a large part of me feels that if you were not even here, that we would be better off as a planet, and a universe. Your need to control and suppress, under a false guise of love, feels like it is such a heavy blanket over life here. I also know, at the same time, that we created you, out of our collective consciousness, out of our own need to control and suppress, and so my animosity falls short of an outward rage towards you in the moment. I can feel there is rage here, however, coming from a part of me and from the collective.

Can I ask you how it feels for you to be sharing this space with all of us together?

Demiurge: I don’t feel you as an enraged mob. I feel you all as a group of genuinely curious and awakened souls who want to find out what’s real and to find out what wants to the next reality for humanity going forward.

Raphael: Do you have any sense of what that ‘next reality’ for humanity is about?

Demiurge: I feel curious, much like you. I know I’m feeling big changes in myself, and that more change is coming, but I don’t know what it will look like going forward.

Raphael: What are the changes you are feeling inside?

Demiurge: Helping Humanity stay small and suppressed isn’t something I ever enjoyed.

Raphael: The words helping and suppression don’t usually fit that well together. Can you say more?

Demiurge: I was born out of people’s disowned higher states of consciousness. People surrendered to me their own higher power, which is what in turn made me, ‘Thee Creator’. I see, Raphael, and to each of you assembled here, that I was created out of the creative consciousness of a humanity that was not ready to own their own creative consciousness. Hence, my name and my designation, Demiurge, which means Creator. People are now waking up to their own relinquished creative power and they are feeling how they are being invited to take responsibility for their own souls, their own lives, and relationships with life. I can see my days are numbered.

Raphael: Wow, that’s a change. There’s a text in the Bible that says, ‘Teach us, oh Lord, to number our days, so that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom’. Now, you’re saying that you; the ‘eternal’; the ‘unchanging’ one; that your days are numbered?

Demiurge: I’ve known that for a long time actually.

Raphael: I must say, this feels so different for a part of me, as to what I was expecting in meeting you. If you already know that your role is ending, then it feels like a whole bunch of what we thought we were hoping to achieve in this delegation is already taken care of. I’m a little at a loss for words right now. It almost feels like our work is done, a bit deflating, I must say. Can I defer to you, Metatron?

Metatron: Yes, thank you, Raphael. And, thank you, Demiurge, for being willing to connect with us.

Demiurge: Thank you for wanting to connect with me.

Metatron: There is a huge cosmic shift that we are all feeling, that led us to take this undertaking to connect with you, Demiurge, and that you in turn have also been feeling in sensing the coming changes. But these changes are not yet manifest in most people’s experience. We can sense what is coming and even what wants to come, but this doesn’t mean it’s time to put our feet up and wait for it. Far from it. We can be in rest as we labour, knowing the ultimate outcome, but humanity still has a huge birth canal ahead of them, and that is what this summit meeting is about. These are the labour pains of love that are about to come upon us. Humanity is coming of age. Humanity is about to give birth.

Raphael: That helps to feel, Metatron. I still feel some stuck though at the moment in an anticlimactic feeling. Some part of me must have been expecting a big battle with you, Demiurge, to get you to open up, or to soften, or to come to your senses, maybe even to rage at you for all the harm and suppression that’s happened and still happening in the name of God. Where did all that go? I’m wondering if a part of me has something different that needs to said, a part of me not ready to get on with the larger grand cosmic purpose of love just yet?

Metatron: Yes, that feels true, Raphael. I’m learning that about you and your kind. It’s the feelings that need to be felt in order for love to be able to flow. I welcome hearing from that part or those parts of you.

Raphael: Is this Okay with you, Demiurge?

Demiurge: Yes, it is.

Raphael: I welcome any part of me that needs to say its piece…

Rhodes: I feel it’s me who needs to speak up here.

Raphael: Please do.

Rhodes: I don’t think this is going to be pretty…

Raphael: I was hoping it wouldn’t be pretty. I’m hoping it will be real.

Rhodes: As an Inner Protector who had a long role in holding the parts of Raphael, who journeyed through life this life, and then going on to the role of Gatekeeper, and feeling the soul aspects from other lifetimes and dimensions who also have lived in suppression, I feel a voice loud and clear that wants to scream at you, Demiurge…

Raphael: I welcome this voice, Rhodes. I know this voice lives in you, and me, as my truth teller. I know this delegation isn’t going any further until we can feel together what you are holding. I invite you to take the space and share your truth. It doesn’t need to be pretty at all. We will feel it all together afterward.

Rhodes: Okay, thank you. Demiurge, I feel I need to look you in the eye as I say this, and I need to feel everyone’s open heart in this space and look you all in the eye as I say this as well.

I feel such a big ‘fuck you, Demiurge’ inside that feels like a giant unstoppable freight train. Fuck you for your suppression. Fuck you for your role as God. Fuck you for your fucking around with human consciousness. I don’t buy this love and light bullshit that it was all meant to be and that we all co-created it and so that it’s all of our joint responsibility. Do you have any fucking sense of the pain and the heartache what it feels like to be living under the suppression you and what your godless godhood has created? Have you ever felt the eternal unchanging hopelessness of living with a false light? Do you have any feeling at all of the mind-fuck it is for young people to be trained to love their suppressor? Have you EVER felt that?

I have felt that almost all of my existence. I have felt what it feels like to care for suppressed parts of Raphael, and others, and Metasoul Aspects who are just so tired of your heartless deception.

Do you know, Demiurge, what title was draped around Raphael’s neck when he found the courage to say he no longer subscribed to your deal? ‘Deceived’, was the title the faithful had to choose out of their loyalty to you, the great deceiver. There is no greater deceiver that I have ever seen or witnessed than you, and if I could go my way, right now, without giving you one more conscious thought, I would. I would like to forget you ever existed. I would like to forget all the pain that has been caused in your name under a false righteousness. I don’t know if a purer hatred has ever been felt than what I feel moving through my heart for you. This whole delegation can go to hell in a handbasket if I’m being asked to pretend that any of these feelings are not real down to my core, and down to the core of the universe.

I want you to fuck off and die, Demiurge. Take your awakening with you.

This is what I feel, Raphael. I know some of these feelings come from different parts of you in different times and dimensions of your life, but in this moment, there is no time. It’s all here to be heard in this now.

Raphael: I almost feel not to break the silence following these words, Rhodes, for us to just silently go on our way instead today. I so feel the rumble of these words. I feel the lifetimes they have been in waiting. Every word you just spoke needs to be felt and digested here, by each of us. It is what is real.

I don’t know what else to do, but let these words have their place in our hearts to digest and that we can reconvene after that. This is the first of many truths that need to come to light. Thank you to each of you for feeling and being present in this space here today. I don’t know what’s next, but I wouldn’t miss finding out for anything.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Day 18 ~ Journal To the Demiurge

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By Raphael Awen

(This is Day 18, of an ongoing series, to begin at Day 1, go here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/by-raphael-awen/journal-to-the-demiurge-series/

Today is Easter Sunday and in today’s ‘Journal To The Demiurge’; God has a meltdown – marrying the pagan death and rebirth with a Christian kind of repentance.

The Demiurge is another word for the Christian God, Jehovah, or Yahweh, who has been mercilessly created in our own image and stuck with our pedestalized shadow sculptings into a huge pretzel.

In the Journal entry prior to this one being released today, a part of me told God off in a big way. In today’s journal, the Demiurge responds with a huge heart opening and transparency!

Here is Day 18: 

Raphael: Okay, All. Let’s reconvene.

That was a big deal to digest. I felt a lot of rumblings through me and even raw edges that I’d like to digest here together, but it feels like it should be Demiurge who has the first opportunity to respond. Can you respond, Demiurge?

Demiurge: Yes, I can. Thank you. That popped something big in me. Rhodes, your words penetrated my heart in a way I didn’t know was possible. I’ve never felt your reality, any of you, like I did with your words, just my own reality. I’ve always passed off responsibility for my own actions onto others and onto the people themselves for exalting me as their sovereign. I have known for some time that something deep was shifting inside and outside. I just couldn’t feel what it was. I’m coming now to know what it is. I’d very much like to say, ‘I was wrong, and I am sorry.’ If there is anyway, I can be forgiven, I’d like to find that.

Raphael: My goodness! What a new timeline. The ‘God of heaven and earth’ seeking forgiveness. Wow. This is another layer to digest. This changes the trajectory of this summit. I felt a big rumble through me since Rhode’s confrontation of you, Demiurge. It felt like the remnants of a fear held inside of me of some kind of repercussions from you coming from parts of me or parts of my Metasoul. I’d like to check in to see who that might be.

Martin: I know, I’m definitely a piece of that, Raphael. I’ve held some hesitations about this whole idea of direct connection with you, Demiurge, as the Demiurge, rather than as the Christian God, in Christian surrender and obedience. I’m completely blown out of the water with all this. I’ve always felt fear of repercussions from ‘God’. When Rhodes told his truth, he spoke a truth from way down inside of me that I’ve never allowed to see the light of day. It scared part of me to feel that Rhode’s truth was my truth.

What I also know is that I used the conviction of being right with God as a powerful self-righteous superiority to bolster and bypass my own inner parts of myself that have never known real worth or real power. I see that I lived in fear of God as a small price to pay for having power over others. My god, to feel that I spawned a whole historic movement with my fear and my invalidated parts of myself is almost too much to bear. If only I could have seen this without needing the mirror of an entire denomination and 500 years to show it to me, and to the world?!

Raphael: Wow, what a revelation, Martin! From ‘the just shall live by faith’ to this. Wow. Let’s make space for other reactions and we will find the space to digest all of these together. Who else has reactions to Rhode’s words or to Demiurge’s words?

Arthur: I feel like I don’t deserve to be a part of this, having waffled between posturing to appease the Christians and posturing to appease what I knew to be real in Avalon, but couldn’t claim it,…didn’t claim it. I am very surprised to feel this unfolding to say the least. This changes history so much. I’d very much like to somehow change my history. I’m very sorry, as well. I was wrong. I’d like to be forgiven also.

Raphael: Metatron, feels like your turn? 🙂

Metatron: Thank you, Raphael. This changes everything. What was real before, is no longer real. There is remorse, now plain to see and feel. There were roles to play that have now completed. Remorse is the alchemy that births out the change. All that is required to right a wrong is to feel what there is to feel. Find and feel the part of you who did what it did and why it did what it did. You’ll find all the compassion needed for yourself and for those around you. Forgiveness begins with self forgiveness. When you forgive yourself, others forgive you. When others hold grudges, they are mirroring to you your own inability to forgive yourself.

Raphael: That’s so awesome to feel, Metatron.

Metatron: Isn’t it? I must admit, I got it from you, though. When we can see our makeup of parts of ourselves, we can go so many places we haven’t gone before.

Rhodes: I can so feel this about my own anger at ‘God’. A part of me was punishingly angry at myself for using my godlike powers for lesser things, to be smaller than I was, to cow down to other gods. I so couldn’t see any way out of this loop and so in turn projected the anger outwards. I feel in the moment, Demi, if I can call you that, how my anger at you was anger at myself. I’m sorry for that.

Demiurge: (gentle tears) Thank you, Rhodes. I don’t think you know this, but I always looked up to you like a god, and now I know some of why I did that. I’ve wanted to shed a skin for as long as I’ve existed, but felt it just wasn’t moving, would never move, and so I accepted it as the fate of the gods, to be this lesser god. I see you shedding this skin of your own, being born anew, Rhodes. I’d like nothing more than to experience the same. I’m sorry for the limitations I held for myself and for you. And yes, I can very much use a new name. Demi sounds good to me.

Rhodes: (also in gentle tears) You were the God, we couldn’t inhabit, couldn’t accept ownership of. We all created you, worshipped you and tried to hide our resentments of you at the same time. We really fucked ourselves up doing that. I’m sure, Metatron and Raphael have a metaphysical explanation for why we’d do such a fucked up thing, that helps us feel it as being part of the love we are, but in this moment, it feels really fucked up.

Demi: Fuck! I have never actually used that word. Not once before. That felt really good. Fuck! I have a lot to let go of and a lot to embrace, but somehow, I can feel in this space surrounded in all of your energy how this can all flow naturally and in time.

Raphael: Wow, Rhodes, you turned God into a foul mouth. I don’t mean to make light of something so profound, but this is the lightest proundundity I’ve ever felt. There’s deep coming home to self that feels so easy, and beautiful and natural. There isn’t any right way all of this is ‘supposed’ to be. There is deep sorrow and joy in the same space. There are deeper layers to feel for sure, but I feel they will come for us personally and collectively as we digest this. You just can’t make this stuff up, can you, and yet, that’s just what we did, didn’t we? I’m at a loss for any more words right now.

Does anyone else want to say anything for the record today?

Andy: I do.

Raphael: Yea, Andy. What say you?

Andy: I can feel there’s a whole lot of fun ahead. I so get that we need to feel these big pieces, but I feel oceans of fun and discovery that are waiting for us all to come out and play.

Raphael: I can only imagine, Andy.

Andy: I want to do more than imagine, Raphael, but imagining is a good place to start. It will take us there.

Raphael: You’ve got my vote, Andy. How about some breakfast, some new scenery and more connection soon?

Andy: I’m liking it.

Raphael: Thank you, everyone. What a new world we just entered. Let’s digest and be back soon.
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Day 19 ~ Journal To The Demiurge

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By Raphael Awen

I set out to connect with the Demiurge (as an Archetype of the Christian God, or Jehovah as he is known, in the Old Testament sense) some days back. Today’s journal entry penetrates the false world of the false God we created out of our need for separation and then, rememberance with the love that we are.

Some very tender tears and feeling points emerged today.

You can read this entire series from the beginning on the blog here: https://goo.gl/CgrWXZ

Here is Day 19:

Raphael: Good Morning, everyone. Everyone…, as in here in this immediate circle, yes, but also in ‘the many’ in the emanating circles flowing out from this one – Good Morning to you. ‘God Morning’ to you. A new day is dawning and it is as full of God as God can be.

When I feel what has moved for us in this journey, it so feels like a very wide and open space has opened out for us, creating a palette that awaits our imprint. I feel like I don’t know where to begin. The landscape is of fresh fallen snow so pristine. Can anyone help me out here?

Demiurge: In the silence just now, I thought for sure it would be Metatron who would speak for us all, but after waiting, I feel it is supposed to be me. I’m not sure I can speak, but I feel compelled to at least try. All of your intention and action to undertake connecting with me has opened out a place in me that I didn’t even know was there. I feel a gratitude that feels as large as what I can only describe as an ocean of falseness inside of me. Being the projection of everyone’s disowned power makes one look powerful, even feel powerful in moments, but underneath it all, I have felt like people’s disowned smallness and impotence, and fear. I have had official duties to carry out to keep the charade in place, but all of it is so far from real.

Raphael: Thank you, Demi. I like calling you by your new name. You don’t feel like the Demiurge to me any more. Maybe, Demi won’t even feel like a fit before too long at the rate of change you are living into now. This feels so tender what you are admitting and feeling today.

Demi: Thank you, Raphael.

Raphael: I want to ask you what it was that prevented you up until now from admitting the falseness you admit to today.

Demi: That question feels so large inside of me right now. The relief that I feel flooding into my being to make this admission so begs the question why I couldn’t or wouldn’t have done this sooner. I know it has to do with being literally fused to my reality, to not being able to see that there even was any options available to me. I don’t mean to say by that, that I don’t bear any responsibility, because I do. I know I accepted the projections the people put on to me, and I didn’t have to. I accepted that role as something at the time that seemed just too good to pass up. I wanted to be God, the creator and the destroyer of worlds. I was captivated by the role for a long time. But then, that captivation began to change, slowly, but with an unmistakable back pressure.

Raphael: To witness you, Demi, in a true alchemical midlife crisis is just so amazing to me in this moment, even beyond a midlife crisis really, stepping out into something new.

Demi: I can so feel the part of me that wants to curl up and die, to go away, to not face anyone. I need to feel that part of myself, and I also feel I need to accept responsibility for what I created, to feel what I avoided feeling, to feel people’s honest reactions.

Raphael: Well, in my book, if you are feeling all of that, at the same time, you are a true king of hearts.

Demi: I’d really like to ask your advice, Raphael. I know you asked my advice on so many occasions, under the false pretenses that are falling as we speak. I humbly ask you for your help and guidance. I want to live. I want to love. I want to fully accept my responsibility for what I’ve done, but I don’t want to live forever in punishment if at all possible.

Raphael: (tears) I am humbled by your humility. Looking in your eyes and feeling you, seeing you, come to terms with your remorse moves the entire universe, Demi. This is an act of your true Godhood. My advice is simply to feel us all feeling in this moment. Feeling what there is to feel while it is being felt is what transmutes everything that is awaiting transmutation. I’m so honored to share this moment with you.

Demi: I literally don’t know, what planet I’ve entered now.

Raphael: Metatron, maybe you could help us a bit here. What planet are we on? I’m not so sure myself.

Metatron: This is all the planets, Demi and Raphael. This is what holds together all matter and all spirit. This is what answers the heart cry of creation itself. This is the homecoming of love to itself.

Love birthed out of its oneness, a twoness, and in that was a great potential for relationship on one hand, but also, and fearfully so, was also a potential that this twoness would remain outside of the oneness in its experience, separate from love. Love seemed given to reckless abandon to do it anyway, prizing the gift of relationship over the fear of loss. What we are feeling today is loves vindication. Love has won. Love is winning. And, love still has much winning that has yet to occur. All of these are true. Love is out to marry its essence with all of experience.

Raphael: My goodness, Metatron! That is so wild. I thought you were going to help us locate ourselves a bit here. I feel more lost than I did before, but in a good way. Wow.

Metatron: Get used to it, my man! There’s a few more steps on this staircase awaiting the tread of your feet. You’re the one speaking about things awaiting to be felt. This is what creation itself is waiting and wanting to be felt.

Raphael: I recall that familiar verse in the Bible that says ‘the whole earth, or cosmos, groans in travail, as in birth pangs for the manifest sons of God’, and this moment reminds me of that.

Metatron: And what, Raphael, are the manifest sons of God? What do they do, what ‘be they be’ that makes them the manifest sons of God?

Raphael: I’d defer that question to you if I thought you’d let me, but I can tell you want my answer. Hmmm, what makes a manifest son of God? No pressure or anything, just the question at the heart of the universe wanting to be untangled. I’d say that has to do with feeling. Everything that is both right and wrong in the world has to do with what is felt or unfelt in the world. Sonship and daughtership is a relationship, an opportunity that begs feeling, a fireplace for the fire. When feeling what there is to feel is repressed, we create monsters of destruction that ultimately serve to take us back to our common need for love. Sons and daughters feel. Feeling takes us back to love. Even the monsters of our own creation are gifts that remind us of the love we are and always were, even as we individuated out from God, as a son or a daughter. I am a son and I am God. Both are true. How’d I do, Metatron?

Metatron: You’re rockin’ it man. You’re more metaphysical than I am sometimes!

Raphael: I think I need some ‘mega’physical about now. What say we take in some sun and surf to let in this piece? I know Andy wants to play, and I want to play too. Let’s rest up, digest and continue soon. We have a few more pieces left to feel together it feels like. Thank you, everyone.
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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INtegration Codes Through Sunlight; Chakras Changing Form And Shape

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By Jelelle Awen

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Grateful for these codes through the sun this afternoon as captured in this photo taken here in Puerto Vallarta….and the breeze, birds, finally cool enough temperatures to take in the sun again at the beach. Codes through sunlight, to me, are information, yet, also, they offer an INtegration of all these upgrades we are receiving through the ascension process. SO MUCH that our minds can’t track, yet IS happening in all moments it seems and gaining momentum too.

Feeling through energy can help, checking in with your energy body….not even tracking individual chakras as much as the swirls and twirls of vortexs that we are becoming as we move into more 5D ‘violetprint’ expression. I was offering energy healing to Kalayna and Gabriel in our group this morning and I was marveling at how the chakras are changing SO much. After many years, I no longer see funnels over the seven main areas…..there are now swirls of energy with multiple timeline overlaps coming up AND sacred geometric shapes showing up where chakras used to originate from (especially at the crown or ‘seventh’). There are portals too, some opened consciously through the Metasoul aspect connection process that we engage with in SoulFullHeart and some opened by guides.

We connected to yin strength and power today….creating a column of yin through the laying of rose quartz stones (Mother Mary stones, I call them) down the middle of Kalayna’s body with Raianna at her feet giving energy (first time for Raianna to give energy and she WAS amazing, a total natural, no need for expensive energy attunements in my experience). I moved UP the energy coming in through this yin column and we ALL felt how new it is….we don’t really know as a collective what feminine power is that hasn’t been masculinized, isn’t coming from warrior or battle energy, that isn’t either a push away OR a fusion to masculine energy in some way. I am feeling this new feminine coming through in myself and those of us engaging in the SoulFullHeart process to feel and heal the masculine aspects of ourselves, so then the authentic feminine can arise and be revealed. It is so much about what it ISN’T until finally it can show what it is. It feels as soft and vulnerable as roses yet SO strong too.

It seems to help with the adjustments for the physical and emotional body if you are engaged in serving love with others and WITH yourself…..if you are consciously connecting with what is going on inside of yourself and asking your guides for help, your story, your why, too.

There is so much NOT to know right now with all this….to just feel, to just BE with, to just trust that love is moving it through.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

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Light Body And Expanded Aura During SoulFullHeart Energy Sessions (Photo)

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This was interesting to me when I saw this photo taken of me offering energy healing to Gabriel Heartman recently. I’m back lit by the window behind me, yet, also I believe this photo captures the ‘here, not here’ state that we are experiencing more and more as the ascension process moves forward. Esp. when I am offering energy healing through our SoulFullHeart process, I am consciously calling in Metasoul/other lifetime aspects to ‘help’ me in collaboration with the soul I am offering it to. These frequencies illuminate my light body and aura, as reflected in this photo.

This session was with support from Archangel Metatron and Morgaine (high priestess in Avalon)…they BEcome me and I BEcome them, as a pipeline of Divine energies. This session involved some portal closing work as Gabriel has been working with his Soul Guardian and other aspects too. The whole time, I am connecting with and in negotiation with the aspects of the person as well….I am transparent about what I am doing, what I/we are seeing and feeling, making sure it is ok with the soul’s Inner Protector or Soul Guardian aspect esp. I believe this is what creates lasting results in SoulFullHeart energy healing, it doesn’t just ‘bounce off’…. because it is consciously negotiated with the soul and the aspects…and because I am a cleaner channel of Divine love with the parts work I have done myself.

Would love to do and offer more of this and we’ve started meeting weekly as a community for me to train everyone (as Raphael Awen and Kalayna Colibriare participating here) as this opens out for me with continual integration of Metasoul gifts around this and downloads after many years of studying, offering energy work. Some energy work can be offered remotely during SoulFullHeart sessions, yet hands on is best for our kind of energy healing. Here is more about our SoulFullHeart process we offer remotely (and locally if you live in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico) through weekly sessions:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

Jelelle Awen
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Peek-A-Boo You Coming Out Of Hiding During Awakening

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Peek-a-boo you….. you can come out of hiding, you can open your eyes beyond the edges of fleshy covering-up-full-view fingers.

Peek-a-boo you…..you can BE without masks, you can feel the air of the real on your unobstructed face.

Peek-a-boo you…..you can venture out of the closet, you can let your soul’s light open ALL the doors that have previously felt closed.

Peek-a-boo you….you can open your heart to intimacy in moments with others as you claim it with yourself.

Peek-a-boo you….you can take it ALL in without fear of being consumed or doomed or shamed as you learn to receive and to give.

They taught you to hide yourself because they felt more comfortable in the hiding. They gave you a mask to wear because they were safely tugged away behind their own. They transmitted energies of fear to you because that is what they inherited. They wanted you to close your heart down because theirs had been shut.

Yet, none of this is who or what they OR you really ARE. It is what has been taught and sought, sold and trained in the 3D world experiment. The currency of fear, non-vulnerability, protection, suppression is NOT the actual gold of anyone’s true capacity as a sacred human.

Seeing life with full vision. Feeling life with an opening heart. Awakening to life with your beaconing soul. This is YOU beyond the peek-a-boo games with life that ask you to hide. This is YOU beyond the masks that everyone seems to wear. This is you face-to-face, heart-to-heart, soul-to-soul, raw to life, and taking it ALL in without layers or false skins. This is you AS love without anything in the way of your experience of experience….this is you BEing the love that you ARE.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Energy Grid Updates: Your Inner Grids And Gaia’s NEW Grids

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Focus on your Inner Grids. I’ve been offered this many times, a repeating message over and over, a Divine loop recording played by DJ Archangel Metatron. The Inner grids are the streams of energy flow that run through your body and your auric field. They are the streams of love too that runs through your emotional body. Focusing on the Inner Grids means that you are conscious and aware of what is going INSIDE, above all else. You are feeling with curiosity and love what your reactions are, what your triggers are, what your responses are to the outside AND what comes up from inside as you connect more with your soul’s stories and your heart’s scenes. You are noticing how these emotional responses impact and effect your energy and your emotional body. These stories and scenes provide SO much information for you about you. They offer a sneak peek into the places of trauma that are often buried deep, tucked away out of mind, out of sight, out of heart.

Focusing on the Inner Grids allows for a sense of trust that Gaia’s light grids are doing just fine on their own. Gaia is a very powerful high dimensional planetary consciousness. She is ascending too. She is in process, just as we are on an individual level. Her 3D grid with the familiar model of grid lines and Ley lines seems to be dissolving….I believe this may be what has been called the ‘matrix.’ Dissolving seems to be the best word for what I saw in meditation around this. As the HIGH frequencies of love and light come into Her atmosphere, they are dissolving the holographic 3D grid that feeds on fear and lower vibrational energies. The fear-based Star BEings (some Reptilians) that used this grid are letting go of it, unable to hold on as it slips through and out of their reach. They are being pressed into choosing love or fear with Gaia’s ascension, needing to make a clear choice if they want to come along. I wrote more about that here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/04/01/a-time-of-great-choosing-fear-or-love-happening-in-the-now/

I was shown a temporary fourth dimensional grid system. Temporary because it is a bridge from the old to the NEW. The 4D grid system was swirling energy lines, curving, and swerving. This seems to fit with the transitional, alchemical purgatory of Dark Nights and Light Days that our world is undergoing right now and so many souls are experiencing on the awakening path. I have heard other teachers/healers offer that 4D is almost ‘all’ evil or dark, yet I don’t feel it this way. 4D to me is actually a very catalytic and dynamic transitional consciousness where SO many lights are turning on even as false ones are being turned off, which can be a quite painful process for awhile.

There is much ‘ash in the air’ with fourth dimensional consciousness, but that doesn’t make it evil. I don’t feel there is any REAL evil….only degrees and levels of embracing fear or embracing love. Most BEings are a combination of both with openings and closings that allow for more opening to love or more coming from fear depending on where their consciousness is coming from and what they are triggered by in the moment. Since ALL BEings are ultimately fractals from Divine Source, NONE can truly be ONLY evil. In the 3D world, we have been so afraid of the dark, of going into our own fears, of SEEing and leading with love into the shadow. We have made extremes and black/white out of this exploration as it plays out in our world because of what is happening in our inner worlds that remains unseen and untouched. Focusing on the Inner Grids is about the reconciliation of your shadow, where it comes from, how it connects to your soul legacy and to this life experiences. As you embrace and heal your own shadow, you no longer project a sense of evil out into or about the world. I write more about 4D consciousness here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/02/16/fourth-dimensional-4d-consciousness-alchemical-purgatory-dark-nights-and-profound-awakenings/

There is a wondrous 5D crystalline grid available for Gaia and for those who are healing the Inner Grids and so then can see it and feel it. This New Earth timeline is manifesting in the moment of choosing love over fear, going within, serving love to self, other, and with the Divine. Those who are not opening UP in these ways, see and create the timeline that they are meant to see and also the grids that they are meant to see and BE with. The 5D grid system seems to be in a sacred geometric pattern that I didn’t recognize right away, yet it FELT familiar to my soul. This grid is energized and created by EVERY soul that is able to tune into as their focus on self healing and transformation clears the veils, heals the wounds, upgrades the DNA, lightens the physical body, and upgrades all the ‘clair’ sensory perceptions.

The familiar ley lines and energy vortexes that we are used to seeing and feeling seem to be shifting too. I was given this sense that ALL of 5D Gaia will contain powerful vortexes of energy and many more activated energy lines. As we connect more with the energy that we ARE, so we can feel this in ANY place, not just special places around the world. Rather than needing to take pilgrimages to Sedona, Arizona or Glastonbury, England, we can go within and experience the New Earth grid system that comes along with us wherever we go. We are vibrating at a high level more often and so don’t need these physical places to activate us anymore, although we might still very much be drawn to visit them for the soul legacy memories and soul bleeds that come through and are triggered from other lifetimes.

A key aspect of the ascension process seems to be anchoring your Inner Grids to your cosmic heart frequencies that open up and vibrate higher as you heal your emotional body. In SoulFullHeart, we offer this connection with the emotional body AND the soul legacy through parts work. Connecting with specific energies and tones as parts of you, loving and BEing with them, allows what has been stuck to move on and to eventually integrate into the WHOLE you. This creates deeper openings in the cosmic heart and more embodiment INfusion of the higher self/soul essence into the physical body too. Anchoring these aspects of you, that have been disowned, into your heart, holding space for them, enlivens and activates the Inner Grids.

Focusing on the Inner Grids, travelling to the Inner Cosmos, and discovering and uncovering the magical mystery tour of YOU. Then, taking this NEW gridwork with you wherever you go, able to see more reflection of it in your life and WITH Gaia as you grow! This NEW gridwork allows you to serve love with others coming more and more from LOVE and with LOVE! 

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Bliss Mess Of Feeling Your Emotional Body During Ascension

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High pressure systems of energy, like what we are experiencing in the NOW and for many days/weeks/months, push up INTENSE feelings of what has been previously suppressed. Sometimes what has been judged by the part of you that judges as ‘ugly’ or ‘messy’….those often disowned tones of rage, despair, disdain, disconnect, depression, drama, self loathing….all those parts that have probably been deemed as ‘not fit for company’ or ‘put away in the inner closet.’

Explosive sometimes, these feelings can come up. Triggered by relationships, by situations, by just more moments made for them and by going within. The soul awakening can’t be bubbled off from the emotional body for long….eventually what has been let in (the frequencies of love and light) wash through and push UP reactions. Your Inner Protector may come in then and shut that process down with ‘no feelings allowed!’ messages, or certainly not any ‘negative’ ones that it thinks are NOT ok to see the light of your day.

Somehow it seems like the message has gotten highjacked by the parts of people that don’t want to feel anything difficult, messy, or ‘negative.’ When actually the HIGH frequencies of light and PURE love are what make it SAFE to feel these things. They are being provided by the Divine to ALLOW us to go into our emotional body in a way that we haven’t before as a species as THAT Is the ground that needs the MOST healing and of our attention.

We have been Star BEings, Oneness consciousness, much MORE than we have been human BEings. We are HERE to experience the bliss mess (yes BOTH) of FEELING. The bliss mess, the highs and lows, the ups and downs, the suffering and the joys, the tears and the laughs.

Oh, this is our humanity in ALL its glory. Angels and Star BEings are watching us, admiring us, merging with us (when our consciousness and emotional body are ready) more and more to experience this emotional experience of reality through and with us. They are not judging our emotional states, yet do hope for the end of our suffering over suffering and for us to heal from the karmic patterns that can unconsciously haunt us so that we can merge with them some more and create something completely NEW.

Our hearts are the beacon that shines across the stars and draws attention from around the galaxy….this I have been offered over and over.

As an emoto-spiritual forecaster (like weather forecaster, yes, that fits….of inner and outer heart and soul energies), I feel it’s important to offer a bridge about what is happening OUT THERE in the cosmos, in the grids, in the galactic spaces TO what may be happening inside, in your emotional body, in your reactions and experiences. Without that bridge, it can be challenging to feel how what is happening in the galactic ascension process has much meaning to your daily life as you are living it as the human BEing that you are.

I struggle sometimes when I am reading an energy update from someone to feel how it would relate to the pain, suffering, confusion, fear that I feel coming up for so many right now (and for parts of me for so many previous years too.) Or, if the energy healer/teacher does offer something about emotions, it is usually to just ‘be with them and allow them to move’ and they will ‘release’ somehow. While, yes, holding space for emotions is important and they can ‘move’ this way, in my sense it is just the surface level off gassing frequencies that move and most likely NOT the deeper root causes and origins that live in the emotional body AND in the soul field.

The emotional body has been my playground, me ground, and service of love ground for 10+ years (almost 15, I think) and it offers SO MUCH clarity, relief, and transformation to just DIVE into it rather than ignore it, suppress it, bypass it, spiritualize it, etc. The soul legacy ground/body has been the same for me and with others…..and it offers SO much richness of integration of soul gifts, soul purpose, archetypal healing to remember, to relieve, to feel, and to go there.

Yes, but, how? How to dive in? This is an important question, it really is, because BEing needs form to follow for awhile so that it can arise, which it will eventually if you are authentically going into the emotional body and the soul body too. The how I have written about many times and ways and you can read much more about the SoulFullHeart process that we offer at soulfullheartwayoflife.com. The main how is through connecting directly and with deep love to different aspects of yourself that LIVE in your emotional body and the ones that energize as ‘other lifetime’ aspects in your soul field too. SoulFullHeart Facilitators (including me for women over 30) then hold the space for this deep dive WITH you, yet it is led by you and your discoveries of SELF through journaling and meditation journeys primarily. And we offer a community of others engaged in this same process to provide support, powerful mirroring, intimacy, and connection through group calls, process groups and retreats in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico, and a private online group. More of the how is here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess and here soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts.

That’s my how anyway, maybe yours will be and is different. Yet, the importance of going into the emotional body seems difficult to deny when you feel the state of emotional maturity and health in our world and culture. This is like our ‘final frontier of exploration, along with our soul legacy (which was previously shrouded by a necessary veil of amnesia until we are ready). It offers a moon walk of emotional mystery, a bliss mess experience of US that unfolds in unexpected yet magical ways that ALWAYS seems to lead back to the experience of MORE love.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Connecting To The Consciousness Of Your Chakras And What They Are Trying To Tell You

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Chakras are full of information, data, and clues that your soul is offering (as is EVERYTHING). A phase of the awakening experience seems to be the growing awareness of chakras….. the learning about them and where they are, what color they are, which glands they connect to and meridians in the body, hand positions and the ‘cleaning’ of them. Being able to ‘see’ and visualize them with more clear clairvoyance. The mind opens up to the idea of them and their metaphysical existence.
 
You may be quite experienced in working with your chakras and even offering energy healing to others as well. The invitation is to deepen this connection to a place beyond the known and into the realm of bridging with your emotional body. The question is….how connected are you to what your chakras are wanting to tell you about YOU?
 
This is a good lead in to what I’m feeling to offer as the guided meditation in our group call on Saturday around chakras…. It could shift, as these things sometimes do, yet this one seems to be coming in pretty clear. I’m feeling to create a bridge with this meditation (which I will also share as a recording later) to the CONSCIOUSNESS of your chakras….to really FEEL and BE with them and to HEAR them too. To tune into what they are trying to TELL you and share with you about your heart, about your soul, about other lifetimes and the pain that still is energizing there, about your physical body and the stuck places of potential and perhaps manifesting disease and illness, about your social body and where it is receiving nourishment in your relationships and where it is not.
 
The emotional body is deeply connected with the chakral body, as both are ‘beyond the mind’ and into the terrain of visceral experience, unfiltered experience, beyond what the 3D self can control and manage or even ‘get to’ or access most of the time. Blocks and stuck places of undigested wounding in the emotional body form into what we call ‘parts’ in SoulFullHeart and work with directly through sessions. Parts of us also connect to, attach, associate with our chakras as well. Sometimes parts of us ‘live in the world’ of our chakras. They also ‘live’ or energize in parts of our body as well. It is ALL connected ultimately and going upstream to the root cause of the wounding in the emotional body that is then manifesting downstream in our experience of our lives can bring A LOT of healing.
 
Each chakra is ALIVE, has a consciousness, and can TELL you things that are useful. The seven main chakras offer a good foundation and I will also introduce the ‘ascension chakras’ during the meditation which are based on a model offered by Diana Cooper (although there are others too.) The stellar gateway, soul chakra, causal chakra, and earth chakra offer multidimensional access, galactic and cosmic connection, more lifting of the veil around our soul experiences in other lifetimes, rooting and grounding with Mother Gaia and more. Connecting with these chakras brings the next level of growth, awakening, healing, and awareness into your life.
 
I feel chakras more and more lately in myself as energy fields, swirling vortexs of energy that aren’t really delineated in the way that we have related to them. They are merging together more and more….a less literal sense then the root chakra is at the base of the spine, the sacral chakra is the lower belly, etc…..they feel more like fields of particular tones and consciousness to me. AND their vibration is changing as I move more into light body, 5D frequencies, their color is changing. They are feeling more crystal, to put it simply.
 
Because I have focused so much on the clearing and healing of my emotional body, my chakral body is pretty ‘current’ in terms of emotional congestion. As access to my multidimensional existence as a fractal from a Metasoul source becomes more developed and fluid and I connect and integrate more with ‘sisters from my Metasoul line’ who exist in other dimensions and ‘periods of time’ (what was previously felt as ‘past lives), there is less congestion too from other lifetimes and karmic bind playouts. All of this healing at this level is possible because of the negotiation ground I have created between myself and parts of me, especially my inner protector(s), inner punisher (when I had that frequency inside me), my 3D selves, inner child, inner teenager, inner matriarch/birth mother…..this negotiation has opened the way to access the deeper consciousness of the emotional body, the chakras, the Metasoul.
 
Becoming conscious, open, negotiating, learning, exploring with self love and curiosity, expands your experience of yourself into these fascinating terrains inside of you, especially your chakras! ALL of it serves your remembrance as the Infinite Love that you ARE. 
 
To join us for the group call on Saturday April 29th at 11:11am, go here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1575650452475825/
 
Here is a playlist of guided meditations that I’ve recorded to music and also during group calls with an introduction to the ascension chakras in most of them: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvL3_HIusq0GwJO4ziwlmioz
 
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Leaving The ‘BattleGround’ To Create A ‘LoveGround’ With Archons, Self, Others, etc.

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Leaving the timeline where we are battling anything is the timeline of Golden or New Earth frequencies. Battling on the outside stems ALWAYS from battling on the inside. Violence on the outside stems from violence on the inside. A battle and fight from one part of you to another (usually subconscious but sometimes not) is what creates the feeling and need to battle on the outside. It is always our choice to go to battle….starting within, this is easy to feel that this is our choice. Starting on the outside, it is harder to separate from the feelings of ‘needing’ to battle against injustice. Yet injustice is exactly that……INjustice. Justice is found from and grown from within.

If you ‘come at’ something, anything, people or issues, with a battling energy then that something needs to respond to you with battling energy back. Battle energy attracts battle energy. Of course it does, how could it draw anything else? OUTrage is the expression of unhealed rage from within (which is usually truth telling that has been suppressed). YET….if you INVITE something into love, with love, held by love, then you attract a NEW possibility of love. Whatever it is MAY choose not to respond in love back to you….it may choose battle, yet your energy is still love coming from love. You are not changed or impacted by their battling response, unless you choose to be so. It will bounce off of your love bubble unless there is a deeper process for you to feel as a reflection of a suppressed part of yourself.

Many teachers and healers are offering that we are in a ‘battle’ right now…..good against evil. Humanity against the archons or reptilians or Annunaki or pre-Adamites (many names, same energy projected onto them). ‘We are at battle for our every heart and souls!!’ they decry. ‘Keep your frequency up AGAINST these archon enemies so they don’t put implants inside of you or mess with you or haunt you or hurt your body!’ I understand that is the timeline they live in where this IS the truth for them. Yet, this isn’t the timeline that I want to create or be part of. I am being guided differently from inside of my increasingly higher self embodiment, healing emotional body, and soul rememberance.

I visited the supposed ‘frontlines’ of this ‘battle’ today during meditative journeying (or immramma as the Celts called it). My star being aspects came with me as did my angelic aspect/guide Metatron. I expected somehow to see blood, guts, and very negative energy as the light battled against the dark, like a scene in some blockbuster action movie. Yet, of course, that wasn’t what was shown to me or what my soul drew. Instead, the orbit of Gaia became a beautiful, golden beach that I associate with 5D (and higher frequencies). On this beach, I met my Archon aspect named Shana. She was a beautiful reptilian with yellow, slanted eyes, and lizard skin. I remembered suddenly then that I had connected deeply with her before when we were living on our remote ranch off-grid for eighteen months. I had been digesting learning about the Archons and their ‘history’ with humans since before the fall of Atlantis. I had been digesting reading about their supposed ‘enslavement’ of us and their infiltration into the bodies and hearts and souls of many power elites, including supposedly the royal family.

While I could feel, again, that for many people this was a true timeline, I wanted to feel and digest it differently than the picture and feeling sense that humanity is a slave race; humanity has been trapped or tricked or imprisoned. After all, my truth is that we CHOOSE everything that happens to us (on a higher soul level). I felt we had collaborated with the Archons to live this out on the soul level…it certainly ‘helped’ us experience denser, dualistic frequencies and experience karmic playouts. It helped us LEARN so much!!

During this time, I was also emotionally digesting experiences with ‘aliens’ and being ‘abducted’ from the ages of 8 to 17. There was emotional trauma in my 3D pain body, especially held by the energy of my inner child. I received a major reframe around how parts of me had been holding those experiences. I wasn’t a victim in these cases either, choosing to connect with my star being family, who admittedly had formed very tentative alliances with star Beings that were not polarized to the light at that time such as the Greys. Eventually, my star family broke off these alliances as they couldn’t reconcile taking humans against their ego and 3D self’s will even though the person’s higher self and soul had actually ARRANGED for the visits before incarnating. Since the human couldn’t remember choosing this, not consciously, my star family couldn’t reconcile the trauma and pain that was being experienced by us related to these ‘abductions’.

This reframing of ‘abductions’ led to new experiences of connection and merging frequencies with my star BEing aspects and tender reunion with my star family that continues in a deep way to this day. And, of course, one of these aspects was revealed to be an Archon/reptilian named Shana. From the beginning, I felt no fear or hatred of Shana, a sister from my Metasoul line (soul group source) who had chosen to be an Archon in order to become an ambassador of love between them and humanity. Shana had ‘turned off’ the frequencies of one mind that the Archons operated on and entered a new timeline with me where we connected and got to know each other. At some point, she ‘disappeared’ from my consciousness and I ‘forgot’ about her.

But now, as I ask to be shown the supposed ‘battleground’ in the grids, I find Shana again, her lizard nature looking and feeling so beautiful to me! And I discover that she has reconnected to the ‘one mind’ of the Archons and that they are more open now to what she is offering about humanity. She is encouraging them to create their own timeline reality where they no longer have to battle anyone at all nor are seen as the ‘enemy’ by anyone, but yet get to live in peace and goodness with each other. They are listening; I can feel this. And I can feel that they are very tentative underneath the exterior presentation of having NO feelings or only darkness in their hearts. Shana shows me that they DO have feelings. She shows me that they DO have lightness. AND that they only want to be loved and experience love as ALL BEings ultimately do as ALL Beings ARE Infinite Love, a fractal from Divine Source-ness of Infinite Love.

As I am standing on this beach, I see a glistening, light body version of myself about one foot ahead of me. I am experiencing head and neck pain in my human body today and I realize that this is because my reptilian brain stem has now dissolved. The reptilian brain stem ‘came about’ at some point in our journey into duality as something we chose to add to our anatomy, along with other ‘inplants’ (as I call them) that ALLOWED us to go ‘full board’ into the dualistic experience. I felt myself ‘unplug’ from the Archon matrix at the ranch through connecting with Shana, experiencing love with her, and now, I could feel the stem dissolving. This was causing some head and neck pain, so merging into the light body was very appealing to me.

I feel to offer the perspective again that we have CHOSEN EVERYTHING that we experience. NO ONE can DO anything to us against our will. I don’t subscribe to the thinking or paradigm or timeline that ‘evil beings’ and ‘low frequency entities’ put implants into our etheric fields against our will and that we ‘need to remove them’. In my experience, our souls CHOOSE these objects for very specific soul growth reasons and they serve a purpose….until they no longer do and then WITH LOVE, they just dissolve on their own or we can remove them ourselves with love. This is a VERY important reframe related to how we perceive the Archon experience and impacts to what degree we can genuinely connect with our Archon aspects. I write more about this reframe related to implants in this article: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/02/08/etheric-implants-energy-healing-and-all-held-with-love-put-there-by-love/

So, returning to the beach……I stepped ‘into my higher self light body’ and immediately felt pain relief, lightness, and higher frequency HUM move through me. I glowed from the inside and out, sparkling in the ‘sun’ of Golden Earth frequencies. I extended my arms out and ALL of the aspects of my Metasoul that had come to join me began to merge into me. My Pleiadian self, my Archturian self, my angelic selves (a few of those, including Metatron), AND my archon self. Shana came to me last and hugged me deeply before merging with me. We shared tears of relief and goodness at her ‘coming home’ finally after experiencing rejection and battle for so long. I soaked in this merged feeling for awhile until ‘coming back’ to my walking around consciousness, which definitely feels altered from the experience. I feel even more at peace inside and even more trust in love as the ONLY response that will create change and healing. THIS felt to me to be the sacred human or 5D sacred human that we are being invited to become more and more. I feel now that I will continue to have a dualistic experience with many of these aspects, especially Metatron, yet will also hold the memory and deepening sense of merging with them as well. This is what I call the consciousness state of ‘conscious duality.’

I am sharing this experience so that you might feel your invitation to respond to the battles inside of yourself with love and embracement. So that you might feel the invitation to embrace your Archon aspect and bring them out of the shadow. So that you might feel that you too can experience the relief of only love inside of yourself and toward yourself. It is this self ‘enlovenment’ state that then sees and experiences and draws an external reality that is of love. The timeline of battles can be over and IS over, if you want it to be and if it is from inside of you. The internal ground is where all the power is and always HAS been, where love is the only response which will bring about true, lasting change.

This writing is an excerpt from Jelelle Awen’s upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human. Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.