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The Tipping Point Of Our Pain

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By Raphael Awen

The simplicity in the complexity is stunning.

When we look at anything troubling us, we can see its roots in the loss of love, or said another way: fear.

We came from love, we still are this love, and yet we are also returning to this love. We attempted to step outside of this love to see and feel its edges. We gave ourselves the experience of what it would feel like to be away from love.

We had to form a resistance to love in order to do this. Like a sail hoisted in the wind, it is the resistance action that creates the movement and motion. Like a baby exiting the familiar womb, the time comes to push against. From the vantage point of our original estate of being so secure in love, of knowing nothing but love, we had no fear of losing love. We knew that growth would require at least the perception of the loss of love.

Actually losing love forever is no doubt the worst fear scenarios that our fears of eternal damnation stem from. But strangely, as great as this fear is, the greater fear we could not abide as consciousness beings was being imprisoned by love, with no way to escape it, with no way of knowing anything different. Without difference, there can be no deference, and thus, no reverence. What good is being a millionaire if you don’t know or appreciate that you are one?

Now, we can really feel the great dilemma that all of our everyday dilemmas stem from. We want love so bad, yet we must resist it in order to create the motions and e-motions necessary to learn of this love. We need fear in order to know love.

If this is true, then the whole point (especially the tipping point) of our pain is the willingness to feel it. The whole point of money is in the spending of it. It can’t do you any good until you spend it. Likewise fear can’t do you any good until you feel it.

We could say that everyone of our souls journeys is all about the willingness to feel our fears. All the dramas and stage sets of our lives are all directed by our souls need to feel, even at the most outlandish of production costs.

Yesterday, I felt a deep collision inside of myself, of feeling one part of my being so wanting to make big things happen, and another part of me so refusing to move a single muscle. I can feel how both of these aspects of my being have always been there, but we’re just wired up effectively to gain certain movements at different times and places. Now however, that wiring configuration isn’t what is working anymore. As I felt into the ache below it all and the triggers surrounding it, I was able to feel with and be with both of these parts of myself and deeply empathically feel their realities – how both wanted, and still do, to help me return to love. Waves of tears were able to move through as I was able to reach out to the universe, my Higher Self and particularly the Divine Father and Mother, for comfort for taking on such a wild ride.

This wild ride was and is the ride of being a being that is all love who needed to go in search of the edges of that love, only to discover there are no edges. We are nothing but love, where even our not-love is contained within the love that we all are.

There’s nothing left but reverence, tears and awe. You can draw upon this love, as this love is in total awe of you for taking on such a wild ride, for your willingness to undergo every feeling scenario that is moving through your circumstances, every bit of your history, from this life and beyond, every gain and every loss, every sorrow and every joy – all of it comes home to this hearth and heart of infinite love.

We needed to resist it in order to discover it, and to be forever changed by the journey.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Returning To Money Earning

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By Raphael Awen

This may be of interest to a few sweet souls here.

Late last month, Gabriel and Kalayna put me onto an app-based online English teaching company called Palfish from China that is seeking to expand their teacher base to serve the huge market of Chinese children and their parents seeking to get their children ahead with English.

I downloaded the App, got familiar, applied, and was easily accepted. In the 4 weeks since I’ve been with them, I’ve been teaching English through the provided app to young Chinese children and have earned over $700 USD by working a few hours in the early mornings each day. The pay works out to $18 USD per teaching hour and goes up from there. Teachers also receive a $30 bonus each time a student/parent makes a purchase following a trial lesson. I’ve ‘sold’ 4 of these already, 2 in the last 2 days! Raianna is about to jump onboard with Palfish as well, leaving another company that didn’t feel like a fit for her.

Palfish is quite entrepreneurial as each teacher must create an attractive profile within the app to draw students and build their student base. The company also books the teachers chosen and available ‘slots’ with the trial classes that they offer to their customer base. Students, parents, company personnel and fellow teachers, readily communicate directly with one another through the app, providing a strong atmosphere of everyone winning together.

If you feel drawn to working online, for decent pay, in a supportive atmosphere – you can take this opportunity with you wherever you may go! This is particularly workable for us here at SoulFullHeart as we transition to England this year. For me, I know this will be a fairly short term involvement as serving people in session space is picking up, but the gifts of serving these kids and re-inhabiting money earning after leaving behind career a while back is a HUGE gift.

If you’d like to jump right in, or just check it out further, you can through this link and I’ll receive 30 USD as a referral bonus just because you did (in the event you also become an approved teacher)! Other teachers that you in turn refer/draw to the company once you become an approved teacher will also net you a $30 bonus.

Note: The company is only accepting native speakers from the 5 following countries: US, Canada, United Kingdom, Australia and New Zealand. TESL (Teaching English as a second language) certification or college degrees are an asset, but ARE NOT required for Palfish. I have none of those, personally.

If you’d like to know more, please message me and I’ll help point you in the right direction.

Like I said, If you’d like to jump in, or wade in, you can through this link and I’ll receive $30 USD as a referral bonus just because you did!

Here is the link to download the App for Android or IPhone:

https://www.ipalfish.com/klian/web/dist/teacher/mobile/invite/teacher_invite.html?uid=5202379

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Love From Mystery Admirers

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By Raphael Awen

It’s been an interesting experience for Jelelle and I hearing from several people recently who have been following our blog or facebook page for a long time, but who we had never before heard from.

And what was so interesting was that the level of interest was so much higher than casual. Several people have told us that the tone and energy of what we were sharing was something that they readily saw as unique and different. One man told me in session yesterday, after contacting me for the first time the day before, that he immediately related to us because we were not ‘just loving and lighting everything’ in an ungrounded way, yet being REALLY loving to all aspects of the self. I was so amazed as he shared an intimate relationship with us through our blog that went back for three years, but that we had no knowledge of!

We digested together how this was a necessary phase of his process, to go it alone, and how this seems to be changing for him as well. I feel these kinds of changes are happening more and more for many others as well.

How about you? Are you one who has needed a sacred phase of holding your own process close to your chest, so to speak? Are parts of you becoming more comfortable and feeling it is time to issue your trust to an ‘other’ who can be mirror and guide, who can possibly earn your full and grounded trust, to assist you into what is dawning in your life now? Are you by chance one of our ‘mystery admirers’? 🙂

I’d love to be a mirror for you. Your esteem for me or Jelelle or the rest of us here in our SoulFullHeart club is actually a mirror of your esteem for yourself. You were seeing you! You are seeing you!

I offer a 90 minute bridging session for a minimum donation of $55 USD. The flow and results are amazing as you harvest the work that your soul has led. We just get to hold a birthing time together and see where it leads next.

I have time available this week coming up. You can follow the link below to make it happen! 🙂

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Returning To Stillness

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By Raphael Awen

Just spent an hour and a half sitting in a creek that flows into the ocean – never felt so relaxed this life! Jelelle, thank god, found the energy to break out the phone for a pic….. haaaaaa…..

All activity and motion is sourced in and returns to stillness.

The ‘trick’ for us is to be able to feel and resonate with this stillness in the midst of any of our activities. What better way to do THAT, than by feeling and holding the part of you who feels anything but still,…who feels stressed or anxious. We all have access to our Higher Self’s frequencies of stillness, infinite love and clarity, but we need to bridge this access to the parts of us who feel anything but.

Both are true.

One doesn’t negate or cancel the other. One cannot be accessed actually without the polarity and presence of the other. So stop waiting to become ‘spiritual’ and ‘attained’ as some condition from knowing the bliss you already are. Ascension is a come-as-you-are party, people! The universe doesn’t want your polished got-it-together self, as the universe would feel quite out of place with you showing up like that, looking all out of place. The universe is finding its way through you, through your struggle, through your desire and through your trial and what you’ve called ‘error’!

There aren’t any errors, not any more!

There’s YOU doing a sacred journey!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Your Dreamer App Is Requesting Permission To Access Your Desires Folder…

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By Raphael Awen

We’ve all heard that for most people who win a big lottery, it ends up being a major negative effect in their life.

I heard there is actually a class action lawsuit in California of big lottery winners suing the state for the damages and havoc that the big money ‘did’ to them.

But why then does the idea of winning the lottery feel so appealing? I can dream quite easily about what I’d do with the first million, and the second, and keep going from there.

I feel it has to do with how we are meant to dream, but lack the permission to dream.

For many, they find the permission to dream in a lottery ticket. ‘I have a chance, even if a very small chance, but a very real chance nonetheless of really changing my circumstances.’

What we are missing in this is feeling how the lives we are living right now have been dreamt up by us previously. Everything that is created, is created twice, first in concept or picture, then in ‘reality’. We ‘real’ize things in the personal ‘fact’ories of our creative essence. Even someone who is reputed to be the most uncreative person has created that reality.

We are the creator, and we can’t escape that.

Life is asking us to dream. But to do that, your dreamer app needs permission to access your desires folder. This is why dreaming is a no go area for many people. Accessing the desire body and all that lives there, feels like opening Pandora’s box.

And it is.

Possibly there is nothing quite as life changing as the willingness to feel what you really want. This is how life itself is wired up, and this is how it lives in every cell of your body, in every dimension that your life exists in.

~

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our sessions and process to jump start your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Love Is Always A Choice

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Art by Regina Lord of Creative Kismet

By Raianna Shai

It’s not easy being here. It’s not easy being in a human body, in a 3D world.

You may feel lost sometimes. Scared and alone. You may lose all hope of ever finding your way back to love, back to you.

Getting help is always an option. But the best thing you can ever do, is come back home within.

You are strong. You are capable. You are bigger than parts of you are even ready to understand.

You may hear a voice inside of you telling you you’re not good enough. That nothing you do is right. That you’re not worthy of love.

This voice, this part of you, is not evil. If anything this part of you is doing everything in its power to protect you. To keep your precious heart from feeling the pain of judgement from others.

You may want this voice to go away, to stop treating you like you’re small. And saying no to this is important. But what if we give it something it has never known before. Love.

Love is something that every cell in our body responds to. Love is something that can heal all wounds. All pain, suffering and anything we have made to be “bad”.

Because everything IS love. That voice inside of you that cannot bear to believe it’s worthy of any goodness. The people that judge you because their parts are judging themselves too. It’s all love.

In the grand scheme of things, we can be nothing but love. We can act in fear. We can protect onto others, we can get angry, we can harm, but we are still love. No matter what.

So why give yourself anything other than that? Why remain in situations that serve anything but love? Why stay in something that makes your stomach churn, that hurts your heart, that doesn’t align with your truth and passion?

Our soul knows what we need in order to heal. We draw situations that allow us to grow as souls and we need them in order to wake up to this reality. But we still have choices. We can still choose love. We can always choose love.

From my guides, heart, and soul to yours.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, programs, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Advocate For Your Highest Timeline

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What would you passionately advocate for inside yourself to manifest the timeline you want and deserve so deeply? A timeline that may feel like a fantasy to a part of you even as you exist in that reality already because you can imagine it!

It borders on a contention. A compassionate contending for something new, bold, and alive in love! If you can feel the fear, the despair, and the overwhelm then you are being shown that you possess the polar opposite. The courage, the joy, and the surrendered management. You ARE this!

Timelines are flowing in and out like like sparrows on a new spring day. SWOOP! BANG! Right into the third eye and into the emotional body. It shakes and rumbles your inner world and life gets soupy sometimes. Like walking through mud. But what if you could turn that soup into a salad? You could see the parts that make up the trudging, yes?

You could have a relationship with each one and love them the way your heart is meant to love. If they get all stanky and rotten on you, you have the power to say I love you, but do not want this anymore! I want you to be the beautiful heirloom variety your seed was made from!

There is a challenge in this holding. You are no longer melded with the soul soup but now the aware recipient and advocate of an inner emotive world that spans lifetimes and dimensions. You are the hub, the center, and the One. You are your own saviour. Your own chooser.

The suffering is no longer an option anymore. It is an echo of what has been falling away, and, really, has already fallen. The echo feels like reality but it is all a distant memory in its end times. It is like the light we see from the stars is old light. The star that it came from may already be dead. This is what the suffering is. It just takes processing, feeling, and integration into your new true you.

I feel this in myself as I write this. The old way of being and hiding is falling away. I want to advocate for my Higher Self and the parts and soul aspects that need my attention. I want to advocate for you and your parts. I compassionately contend for them within the arena of your own authority and choice, one felt, loving, challenging step at a time.

Where I go, you go. Where you go, we all go. Let us do this together in Love, for Love, with Love. Amen.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Authenticity Of The Heart

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By Raianna Shai

I’ve been feeling into authenticity lately. What it means, what it looks like, how it feels. To be authentic, to me, means not only to be real but to be transparent. To be honest with where you’re at even if part of you feels like you should be somewhere else.

To serve love in authenticity requires a level of vulnerable transparency. Even the most healed, most in 5D and the most genuine of us aren’t at that place 100% of the time. And why would we want to be? That means you’re done growing, you have nothing left to learn, your soul can no longer expand. We are far too infinite for that to ever happen.

So instead of seeing where I want to be as an end goal, I am choosing for it to be a reflection of where I am now. There is nothing wrong with where we are in this moment. Whether we are in pain, in deep tears, in what feels like an uncontrollable rage, completely neutral or in bliss – it is all sacred.

Today, I feel so so sleepy. Yes, I woke up at 4:30am to teach English but I’ve already taken a nap and barely left my bed since. My authenticity in this moment is not my ideal 5D self. Part of me feels judgement about being so tired, part of me feels resistant to being curious about my tiredness and another part of me just feels plain content and pretty comfortable at the moment.

Feeling where I desire to be, how my highest self exists right now, I am okay with where I am. I am not in bliss in this moment. My parts don’t feel completely comfortable nor are they overflowing with happiness. I am not heart wrenchingly sad, I am not going through a deep process. I am where I am and that’s okay.

I had no plan of where this was going but maybe someone out there needed to hear this. I know how much pressure there is in 3D to feel happy and light. To not be a “downer” and to make situations more comfortable for others. But it’s okay to feel the parts of you that are so not okay. I invite anyone reading this to breathe, close your eyes, go in, and just feel. Just be. You ARE enough, you ARE loved, and you ARE worthy.

The heart is always authentic, whether you and your parts are open to it or not. It will always be real.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, programs, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Quest For Your Authentic Heart Opens Up New Earth Now

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Your Heart is a gauge of authenticity, a giver of over-flowing self-love, and a receiver of Divine Grace. It is the container of your multi-dimensional experience where lifetimes of trauma and karma are stored lessons for your journey back to wholeness. It has been shattered and scattered into many different moments wherein lies the parts of your Being. You are the nexus, the hub, the awakening center of your soul’s mandala.

The dissonance, the dis-ease, the physical, emotional, financial, and spiritual turbulence is a calling card back to wholeness. You are being summoned by your soul bigness to move on and into new territory of consciousness that takes into account this largess of being. This arising King and/or Queen of your inner dynasty. The reemergence and remembrance of the power and depth of your soul’s True North.

There are precious parts of you that have been awaiting your readiness and willingness to go into the depth of shadow and time to rescue, recollect, and reintegrate back into your sacred heart. You can hold it scientifically or poetically. The poetry of experience is what makes it a living, breathing, and alive journey. This is where your inner cast of characters we call your Protector, Inner Teenager, Punisher, Inner Mother/Father, Gatekeeper, and Metasoul aspects and guides create a rich experience of self-love that leads you back to the Ambassador of Love you truly are.

That journey begins with a feeling of missing, of lack, or of clarity. There is more to you, to life, to existence than meets the eye. You are a bigger story within a bigger story. It is not happiness you seek but the quest for enlightened discovery that leads to the birth of your Sacred Alignment. This comes at a cost to all that parts of you have held dear out of fear, so very much understood.

New Earth starts with a New You…or the Real You to be more specific. The question is…who is that really? THAT question is the first domino. Dare you knock it over? Trust it is all held in Love.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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‘You Are Ascending’: Holding Compassion And Curiosity In Your Journey

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You are ascending…

If you had a deep cry, a thrashing fit, or a sense of Oneness… you are ascending.

If you feel lost, like the world is going to hell, or you see the arches of the New Earth….you are ascending.

If you can’t get out of bed, can’t wake up, or can’t get to sleep…you are ascending.

If timelines are colliding, collapsing, and being challenged…you are ascending.

If you feel like you are swimming upstream, downstream, or not at all…you are ascending.

The only key is to be curious, keep asking, and keep feeling

-Message from the Angels

In my last Facebook post, I shared a message from what felt like an angelic/divine/star-being source. A message from ‘the other side’ a part of me would call it. . It had a lot of resonance with people. It struck a chord in many hearts in many different ways. It came to me after I was checking in with my emotional body. A coming together of my inner 3D and 4D aspects that have been a part of my healing journey lately. Calling them to the Round Table of my Higher Heart, my inner Camelot…a very 5D New Earth vibration.

In that check-in, I could feel a part of me that had a question about whether or not we were ‘ascending’. Even a question as to what Ascension really is. I felt to hold that in my heart and give it to my Higher Self, the Divine, and my angelic/star family. I let that go and just felt all the timelines in which being ‘not enough’ was a theme. Inviting my metasoul aspects to join me in a sacred space of Enough, Full, and Perfect. In that space, you can feel both Presence and The Gap.

In that higher space, whatever feels ‘missing’ or ‘lacking’ becomes a journey and a discovery. It becomes a quest of compassionate curiosity that is not devoid of feeling but going full-frontal into it. The feeling is something that resides within us and can also have external expressions. Many people remarked of not being seen by others, coping with intense emotional swings, and just needing to hear and feel some words of validation and encouragement. It became so evident that we need others in this quest of self-discovery, healing, and becoming.

Going into my emoto-spiritual body was my ‘how’. It was using imagination, intuition, and heart to create the sacred space…along with pen, paper, and music. This creative concert of feeling myself as a sum of parts and transmuter of timelines is the heart and engine of how I heal myself in this divine work that we are co-creating. It is an ongoing process that finds all the places where we need the healing to expand and grow into what our divinity is waiting for us to show up for. Sometimes the healing is hard, but this is why having another to lean into, not rely on, is so important.

I offer my heart space to you to feel what wants to be expressed and felt within you that may be hard for you to feel on your own. We offer bridging sessions that apply what we do in our own healing to see where you may have parts that are resisting, for good reason, the love that wants to come to you through these ongoing waves of ascension energies. 

My love goes to all that are moving through major shifts and changes right now. It can be a very bumpy road for some and I feel you in all of that.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.