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Feeling Raw, BEing In Our Emotional Body Movements

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By Jelelle Awen

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Feeling raw in the moment…thought I would write when I am raw rather than when I am ‘clear’ and see what comes through. The rawness is the after effects of a deep emotional body movement yesterday. The rawness is how it feels after a purging that comes from so DEEP within that you wonder how could ALL THIS have possibly existed inside of me somewhere? It has been truly fascinating to me over the years HOW MUCH can actually be IN us, stuck in us, stored in us, and how deep and vast the emotional body and our subconscious actually ARE.

STRONG tears came through for me and I sent a lifeline request out to one of my most precious Metasoul sisters/guides to hold space with me for it. Her love, combined with my embodying higher self’s love, held the space while the pain moved through. When such strong tears come through….those body wrenching sobs, it is like when we throw up. It feels uncomfortable, uncontrollable, and we just want it ‘to be over’. We just want to be ‘on the other side’ and the mind is trying desperately to make sense of it all even as it COMPLETELY transcends the mind (as it is meant to.) We can’t contextual it, it doesn’t matter what the ‘energies in the cosmos’ are doing or not doing or what astrological sign we are moving through. The TRUTH is only in the tears and what is coming through and, in these moments, we are completely present to ourselves and this is the gift of them.

Life brought me recently the perfect situation and trigger to push this oil up, this residue of wounding from a chosen legacy of rejection by older women (starting with my birth mother) who don’t ‘see’ and also resist the LOVE that I am offering them and serving to them. This came to a head yesterday for me as I am bridging what is manifesting of my gift expressions in the virtual to the physical now. I could just be a teacher/waySHOWer, writer, facilitator remotely and virtually (so many are and this is good service)….yet I’ve known and felt for a long time that I am here to co-lead a commUNITY, to be IN relationship with many BEloveds, and to feel the specific love energy that we call SoulFullHeart to spread to many others. This invites others into my world and I am called to bridge where I am at in consciousness (which seems to be mostly anchored in 5D since the first of the year) with others. To allow the fluidity of our hearts and vulnerability to LEAD in every moment is the new paradigm leadership. I’m only qualified to lead in this New Earth energy to the degree I am willing to be vulnerable and transparent about what I am feeling.

I INVITE triggers into my life and emotional purges like this too. I WANT to feel ALL that there is to feel inside of myself. I haven’t had a big movement like this in several months as the goodness and flow of service has been my primary experience with seemingly not as much to feel on the emotional body level (after MANY years of focusing on this ground inside myself.) I felt something so GOOD about the movement and I’m sharing today because maybe it will inspire you to make SPACE for these movements in your life too. To work whatever triggers or emotional reactions life gives you and GO IN to feel whatever there is to feel with the parts of you that need that.

Our 3D culture is all about drugging and numbing these movements and our emotions. Tears are hidden and covered over. Being vulnerable is NOT acceptable and we are felt to be ‘weak’ if we are. Even in spirituality, there can be a push to bypass the ‘negative’ or darker emotions in favor of ONLY love and light and positive all the time. The problem with this is that we didn’t actually EXPERIENCE as humans here just light and love so how can approaching our own healing that way possibly heal what lives inside of us? Being open to ALL of it with love to hold it is the way I have found brings the most transformation, healing, openings, and death-rebirth DEEP transmutation. There are no rainbows without rain is the metaphor that comes to me in the moment.

I DO feel that a very important aspect of New Earth/5D reality is the complete embracement and healing of our emotional bodies, and the energies coming in seem to be supporting this exploration in a big way. We could see it as the ‘next frontier’ to our evolutionary path as moving into our sacred humanity. And this frontier is SO natural to us that once we stop resisting it, we receive the bountiful gifts that our emotionality has to offer us….and feel the beacon it is to ourselves and the entire Universe as well.

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Join us on saturday for a group call with me and Raphael Awen offering teachings about bridging to your emotional body and your spirituality and a guided meditation to connect with your emotional body (plus individual sharings): https://www.facebook.com/events/271320303342295

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

What Love Wants

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I want you to feel free my beloved

Free to be real, to be vulnerable, to be open

Free to be cautious, uncertain, and afraid

I want you to be able to let in more, not less

To let in that you are desire and desired

That you are alive and living

That you are right and not wrong

I want you to remember your value and worth

Your beauty and sensuality

Your capacity and ability

I want you to trust that you ARE lovedust

That it cannot be taken from you

Only hidden and buried

I want you to know that I know it is hard

That true and pure love can burn and hurt

That it can pierce and collapse

All you thought I was, but turned out I wasn’t

I remember how you never got what you needed

What you wanted

What mattered the most

And I remember how you needed that to remember

What you truly are

I am not going anywhere

For no matter where you go

What you do

I…will…be…there

Always

Fovever

Patient

Persistent

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Sail Away: A Poem To Beyond

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Sail away
Away…. beyond the gravity and into your levity
Where nothing holds court other than your own limitation
Your own deprivation

You are not to be denied
Unless you feel the need to decide
That it is all too much for you to let in
The truth of your own creation

It is all so there for you to have
For you to own and mold
Into the image of your long lost dream
You buried so long ago

Don’t give up my beloved
My glorious angel and magician
For you own the key AND the door
It is a matter of choice….of believing….of trusting

Do you want to continue letting it all define you?
Instead let the possibilities imbibe you
Refine you
Deconstruct you into constructing you

Back, forward, up, and out
Beyond what the chatter is claiming of you
Of clinging to you
Afraid to losing you….unable to protect you

For you are Free
If you choose to Be
Spread that mind’s canvass to it fullest length imaginable
Open that heart to the widest aperture enjoyable

Tell the world that you are here for more
More than just what you have continued to settle for
More than the picture that was painted….
Debated…. Indoctrinated

The end of this world is the beginning of You
The unending surprise of your fear’s demise
Into the vast ocean of surrendered devotion
To the broadcast of your heart’s limitless evocation

 

Inspired by my beloved teacher and friend Raphael Awen

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The INvitation Of Our Truth

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There can be nothing more difficult yet relieving than owning your own truth. This can be a truth that has been illuminated about yourself by some outer reflection, or it can be a truth in relation to another. To come to these truths can be a process for some, an open flow for others. Our truth, which is really about our needs and desires, may be grounded in an unhealed aspect of ourselves but that does not make it any less authentic or real for us.
 
It is letting that truth out into the space of expression that allows us to really feel how that truth resounds in our hearts and in others. This is where parts of us may balk at this truth-telling as it has many rippling effects. It can hurt hearts and shatter self-image. It can lead to suppression in the name of care-taking, which is far from Love. Love of self and of others.
 
If there is something “off” about our truth, or if it does hurt, we can be with that in the aftermath, in a way that is held with compassion and self-forgiveness. It is about taking responsibility for it in what ever way that means in a given situation. But to disown our truth, no matter how hard it is or how afraid of it we are, is to disown the part of us that holds that truth. That is to disown ourselves as being alive and real.
 
Being honest with truth has been one of the hardest parts of my process. It IS the single most important aspect to ascension in my view. By not fully feeling and expressing what is true for us, including parts of us, we are only bringing a limited version of ourselves to the Grand Ballet of Love’s Infinite Dance. Matter of fact we can’t really get through the door with only this version. We can’t really get to see ourselves and what it is that is still in our healing path to be felt. Without BEing in our truth we are still separate and ultimately in suffering. Not on the recipe card for Unity Consciousness.
 
Feeling the parts of us that relate to truth-telling from a fear place helps to unlock the doors of our deepest and truest self. It does not come without consequence and self-reflection. It is being with any guilt or self-punishment that may arise, knowing that if you are committed to being in your heart every step of the way, your truth will always lead you someplace that it wouldn’t have just sitting in the wells of your inner terrain.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Gifts Of Exploring Conscious Romance

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Our intimate relationships are sacred grounds of getting to feel and see ourselves.  We GET to experience what is rumbling inside of us that has been kept at bay in our subconscious.  These parts of us that have been living is a safety zone of incognito through the protection of our comfortability.  When our deepest desires begin to ring out into the cosmos, the mechanics of manifestation begin to offer their services.  But when they do, it is meant to bring up what is needed in order to let in what is wanted.

We aren’t completely aware of what lies in the space between what we feel consciously and what is in our unfelt wounding until we enter the arena of conscious relationship.  In unconscious unions, there are many reactions and emotions that are left untouched and unexpressed in our part’s desire to maintain image and safety.  These are sacred unions in there own right as they are meant to serve us into a new dimension of relationality when we have chosen that other sacred journey of growth and deepening.

These conscious relationships will manifest in ways that may or may not come in the ways or forms parts of us may have expected.  They come to us to help elucidate the woundings and projections that are still residing inside of us that, when held in conscious relationship inside of us through parts work, can bring us to new depths of both inner and other intimacy.  However, there can be a LOT to feel and integrate along the way.  There can be a tendency for parts to exit, to go back to what was more comfortable to them before.  This is a point where, if true growth, self-love, and intimacy are the ultimate desire, we hold these parts within us and feel what the fear is truly about.  What experiences in this or another life are contributing to the need for retraction?  These can be difficult yet necessary to feel if we are to continue on our way to more authentic, conscious, and intimate transactibility.  The way to Love!

Our vulnerable truth in any moment is our guide in this dance.  There is no guarantee we won’t step on our partners toes and cause some pain.  We aren’t meant to be perfect or “right” in the way we reveal ourselves.  In these moments, we cross bridges previously left uncrossed to change the timelines of the old and create something new.  It may not be pleasurable, yet it could lead to something more pleasurable than what parts of us were expecting or ironically afraid of in the first place.  For if the bond deepens and rises, what more is there to experience and how far might we fall as it keeps going?  This is what is really at stake for these parts of us.  Being left with the pain of being hurt once again.  Yet with a true sense of an authentic, centered self, we are big enough to feel and hold our way through the process.

Conscious romance is the next frontier for our evolution as a species.  Both inner and outer. It starts inside of us first and extends outward.  It is why we are here in many ways.  To explore this deepening and expanding that can create a new world of possibility, creativity, and aliveness.  Whatever happens in the process you can be guaranteed that you will experience and discover more about You and what it is you really want from Life and Love.

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We will be teaching more about sacred union, offering a guided meditation, plus space for individual sharings during a Sacred Union Group call this Sunday at 11:11am CST if you would like to join us for a $11 min. donation:www.facebook.com/events/275463096260878. If you can’t join us live, we’ll be sharing a recording of the teachings and meditations here on FB.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Feeling Your Inner Princess Or Prince To Experience Sacred Union

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The prince and the princess….so many images and associations come up when we feel into these archetypes and energies. The princess wanting and waiting for her ‘Prince Charming’ to come and claim her, the prince going on grand adventures and ‘fighting evil’ to find her…..this frequency is so IN our collective consciousness. I feel it represents a deeper desire and longing within us for sacred union with a courageous mate who truly claims us (not binds us, yet bonds with us) on all levels of heart, soul, mind, and body despite whatever fear-based obstacles come forward to get in the way. And, our souls and heart seem to know that this is not just a fantasy, yet IS actually possible to experience and is our birthright as sacred humans to experience too.

The Inner Prince and the Inner Princess, from a SoulFullHeart perspective, represent the parts of us that we were as teenagers and our feelings about romance and sexuality. Often, this has idealized tones inside of us (the grand romance scenario) until disillusionment sets in based on what these parts of us actually experience of relationships ourselves personally and what is templated and modeled for us by our parents’ relationships. How our parents respond to our budding sexuality and our growing curiosity about sexuality (either overly energizing it or under energizing it) also impacts if it blooms and flourishes inside of us (is watered by healthy love) or if it is suppressed.

There is something preserved in the soul it seems until this phase of ‘great disillusionment’ during teenagehood for most of us, that it also feels like is a form of Dark Night of The Soul before a deeper sense of amnesia sets in. This disillusionment pushes up feelings of depression as we realize, on an existential level, that we are ‘stuck’ here in 3D life and even a grand romance (which we are beginning to feel is highly unlikely and maybe even impossible) is not going to make it bearable to be here.

Rebellion kicks in too during this phase as parts of us may try to push away from 3D conditioning that we receive in schools and in our family cultures. The push away usually just leads to more suffering, though, and acute shame and unworthiness as parts of us just feel ‘bad’ or ‘wrong’ for being so different from ‘everyone else’. At this point, a strong Inner Protector energy may come in to create a buffer between us and the world, to help us fit in and survive being here, and start creating 3D-based personas and masks to ‘get us through it.’ The rebellion, disillusionment and especially the original seeds of hope and dreams for romance get pushed far away into the emotional body and the Inner Protector stands at guard over them, over the heart, and over the soul too.

It then becomes likely that it is our unfelt Inner Teenager who is underneath the way that we engage in romantic relationships as we get ‘older.’ This leads to emotional AND sexual immaturity, regardless of how much life experience we have in relationships. This immaturity is what can manifest push-pull, abuse, toxicity, codependence, suffering patterns, being in loveless and sexless marriages, and even being a lone wolf/monklike/celibate for long periods of time. The Inner Protector goes into ‘lock down’ around sexuality and romance, not allowing for the prince and princess energies to mature into the Queen and King that they are meant to BEcome.

I have felt these energies in facilitants and in myself over the years, connecting with and working with various teenage aspects and ultimately allowing my Inner Princess to receive the water of love that she needed from me and from the Divine to bloom into my queen. Being in sacred union with Raphael Awen, who has done similar process and feeling work with his Inner Prince, allows for the FULL expression of my mature Queen and his mature King and the deeper healing of any immaturities in both of us. I feel that without this ability to connect with parts of ourselves that are usually subconscious to us, we would probably not be able to show up for this relationship and the frequencies of deep soul, heart, body, and mental resonance in a mature way as parts of us would probably block it or sabotage it.

Connecting with your Inner Prince or Princess is such a tender and wonderful ground of exploration. We have tended to look down against ‘teenagers’ and our own teenage experience especially can be suppressed and denied, put away or ‘locked away’ because it is too painful. Going into it, exploring it, remembering it, feeling it allows us to get back in touch with our hopes, dreams, riper soul frequencies. BEing the loving energy that these parts of us have been waiting for opens up the possibilities that this can then be experienced with a mate who is engaging in the same process!

Raphael Awen and I will be teaching more about the Inner Prince and Princess, our experience with these aspects of ourselves and also offering a guided meditation to connect with your Inner Prince and Princess, plus space for individual sharings during a Sacred Union Group call this Sunday at 11:11am CST if you would like to join us for a $11 min. donation:www.facebook.com/events/275463096260878. If you can’t join us live, we’ll be sharing a recording of the teachings and meditations here on FB.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Women’s Group Call – Emotional Body And Inner Feminine Connection, Guided Meditation, Sharings With Jelelle Awen

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Here is the recording of our wonderful, touching AND powerful women’s SoulFullHeart call on Saturday! I offer (with contributions from SFH FacilitatorKalayna Colibri) about how masculine frequencies become ingrained and solidified into stuck energies (or what we call ‘parts’ or aspects’) of self as an adaptation to our environment, our families (esp. our birth mothers), our culture, etc. These masculine energies then protect our inner feminine from arising in full expression and bloom until it is ‘safe’ to do so through negotiation and healing with the Inner Protector part esp. Also, our soul gift expression and sense of soul purpose can be blocked or overly inhabited by masculine energies. Connection and surrogacies with Divine Feminine guides helps to open up this access for us and to our soul legacy or Metasoul line.

I also lead a guided meditation in this call to connect with your Emotional Body, symbolized by a river. You experience this river however you are meant to and are invited to submerge in it as well, feeling whatever feelings come up, visions, images, messages, etc. You also connect with your Inner Protector, the guard of your emotional body and inner feminine, to begin the negotiation with this energy that allows more access to both.

There are also personal sharings from two women who are currently engaged in the SoulFullHeart process through regular sessions with me, which you can read more about here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions. I feel so grateful to include their sharings as they offer so vulnerably and genuinely what their experience is with their emotional bodies and their Inner Protectors from a place of deepening into the process.

If you would like to join us for our next group call, we are hosting one on saturday with ALL of us and for women AND men. Raphael Awen and I will be teaching more about the SoulFullHeart perspective, process, community, and way of life as it connects to the overall ascension process, emotional body awakening and healing, sacred union, sacred masculine and feminine expression, body health, etc. We will be coleading a guided meditation as well to connect with Divine Guides and your Inner Protector – to start that connection or to deepen it. Go here for more information about joining us after offering at $11 min. donation:https://www.facebook.com/events/1888602498020451

The next women’s call is July 15th, if you would like to join us! Go to soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls or https://www.facebook.com/events/470353563318653

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Feeling the Inner Child, Healing the Inner Father

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As men, our fathers represent, or have represented, so much of what we have been “taught” about what masculinity is.  They were a template for us at an early age.  Our model for what we could expect to embody as man in a masculine world.  They also influenced us in how we see and feel the feminine through their eyes and hearts.  They taught us how to fight or run away.  To speak the truth or keep it all buried.  Our worldview has been formed through their own, in response to his father and his father before him, whether in agreement or opposition.

We were meant to be shown the doorways to our own unfolding through his guided wisdom and open heart.  We were meant to be initiated into our own individuated masculinity with a healthy “F you” to him.  He would have honored that had he been taught the same.  I have a sadness in my heart actually on this day.  What is it that is being truly celebrated?  What has happened to our sense of healthy masculinity and how it lives inside of us, both as men and women?

My sadness is both personal and global.  A desire from a part of me to have had a different relationship with my father that wasn’t based in fear or unhealthy idolization. How boys everywhere are looking for an authentically loving and guiding force to shape and challenge them to thrive in an unknowable world.  But in this place there has arisen a passion for something new.  A desire to heal that inside myself for all boys and fathers.

It is about traveling inward to find our deepest truths about ourselves and feeling the inner boy, or girl, in us that was affected, not victimized, by our father’s actions and choices.  To hold space for them within us as a new model for healthy fatherly guidance and security.  To bring our truths and boundaries to our fathers that allows for an invitation for something different and more authentic, if the space for that is possible. Regardless of the relationship outcome, something has moved in the collective heart grid between father and child that allows space for others to do the same and shift a dynamic that has long been overdue.

Our relationship to our parents can by murky territory.  It is full of karmic binds and contracts that have long served there purpose.  It is time for something new and alive. This is true even with my own daughter as she comes back into my life after a few years separation.  A new ground in which we have let go of the old conditioning to build something new as two distinct individuals.  I am sure old energies will surface and that is what we are here to work together.  I look forward to how we navigate this new dynamic between us and what arises between us both.  She is a teacher to me as much as she is a student.

I invite you to feel on this day the relationship you have or had with your father and feel how it lives in you.  We can have such a healing experience within ourselves when we are able to see it and feel it that way.  Our inner father has a voice and it is meant to be a guide and a teacher when we are able to feel him in all that he needs to be felt in.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

In Your Heart Gaze: Poem Celebrating Sacred Union

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By Jelelle Awen

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Nine years ago, I wrote this poem as I was newly falling in love with BEloved man, my Counterpart soul mate Raphael Awen for which I am so blessed to arise into life with and who celebrates the day of his birth today!

For you, my love, my joy, I am SO grateful for you and for US…..I am still falling….


You said: “How uncluttered our playground,
Swept clean by the unknown and
Free from the grasping that secures love,
But closes the heart.”

As you said, in your fashion that gives
Way to a rising flight of desire
Inside of me

And in your heart gaze, I feel delicate as
An orchid’s fastly fresh season

Between us,
The quiet is
So loudly gentle, a heat-filled
Riot of alive silence

And in your heart gaze, I feel still and strong as
The tide’s force on water

My love, I ache to wrap around you
You in your leading,
Without any contortions
Or otherwise obvious struggle

I am claimed, not caught,
Free to finally let go into
A woman’s legacy of leaning….

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

When Love Comes Knocking

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It is HERE.  It is NOW.  The offer and invitation to fully embody all that we chose to embody.  There is no limitation other than the one that we have decided to subscribe to.  There are no obstacles other than the ones we put in our own way.  The ones that we have INside that are reflected on the OUTside.  It is a tough pill to swallow that we have all the power in the world to create the world that mirrors us.  It is so easy to merge with the feeling of powerlessness as that has been the pervasive force in this third dimensional playground.  It is us hiding from our own true power that creates this Land of Confusion.

When you choose a path of healing in earnest, you are asking the universe on a quantum level.  Not just in some ¨give me some peace and tranquility¨ sort of way.  That is what a part of you may want.  Usually the part of you that has been working damn hard to keep you from getting into too much healing.  The kind that turns worlds upside down and inside out.  But just enough to be in a sweet spot of enjoyment and fulfillment.  And that is certainly good medicine and sacred healing……until….something comes knocking on your door that wants to challenge that comfort zone.  In almost every case it is Love that came to remind you that you signed up for something different.

¨Oh,  hello, Love.  Nice to see you again.  Did I mention that things are good now and I don’t think I will be needing your services anymore?¨

¨Hmmm….really?  Okay, well it is hard to separate yourself from your essence, which is me, but I get why you may need some time to let me in a bit more.  I’ll just be waiting in the car.  Don’t mind me if I come back.  Just sort of my job to remind you once in a while.¨

¨That feels a bit pushy.¨

¨I get that.  It is hard to let in that you were meant for love and that you are love, even if it shakes things up a bit.  I have compassion for that. That is why I love you.  But I am also persistent because you ARE me and I am YOU and we were meant to find each other.  It is all up to you on the timing.  But before I go back to the car, can I ask you one question?

¨Hmm..okay.¨

¨Can you ask the heart you are protecting how THEY actually feel?¨

¨I don’t know who you are talking about.¨

¨Hmmm…okay.  I think you do but I can wait.  I’ll be back later to check in with you. I’ll just be sipping my green tea.  Good for heart you know.¨

¨Yeah…that is what I have heard.  I appreciate your visit but I am good thanks.¨

¨Sure..,see you soon.¨

Love doesn’t want us to suffer or remain in a status quo.  It want us to feel our deepest desires and respond to what arises, even if it pushes on some long standing sore spots.  The ones that rightfully created a wall to protect the wound.  They are sacred walls and served a purpose.  As Love’s frequencies are being dialed UP,  its wind starts to buffet these walls and the soldiers at the gates get at the ready.  It is a sign of the power that is HERE and NOW.  Not an enemy to be thwarted but the truest Joy and Passion that we have kept locked up in the vault of our wounded heart.

It is through feeling the part(s) of us that have felt the need to protect us from this ¨INvasion¨.  This unstoppable force of our highest expression and desire as sacred human hearts and souls.  These parts of us are dear to us and have served us well and can guide us on our further journey into the heart of Love.  The one we signed up for ¨so long ago¨ and yet have been experienced into forgetting.  If you are feeling a rumble in your life that is causing you to feel some anxiety or defense this could very well be Love coming to knock on your door.  It tends to come at the most auspicious of times and in the most unlikely of ways.  At least to the conscious self.  Your Higher Self sits back and just keeps on doing what you have asked it to do, even despite the protest and fear.

SoulFullHeart offers a way to go into this rumble and support you to feel it one negotiated step at a time.  We have been through many of these rumblings and even experience them today, and use the container of parts work and space-holding as the way to open up to our next vistas of purpose and letting in more love.  To learn more about this process you can visit here.

Answering the door is the first step.  Letting love into your house is what you came here to experience….after you have some green tea of course.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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