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All Are Loved: A Poem

Published on July 14, 2022 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kasha Rokshana

The divine holds the risk-takers
And the planet-shakers.

The divine holds the play-it-safers
And the ‘I-would-never’ players.

Each holds their sacred place in our play out of consciousness.

Each bring their sacred needs even in unconscious-mess.

Reconciliation with the Divine is more of a reunion than making amends
For in all things we are already forgiven, we are already loved, even in our strongest defence.

We are all invited home again
Even if it takes lifetimes to let that in…

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Healing Perfectionism With Divine Love

Published on July 13, 2022 by Raianna ShaiLeave a comment

By Raianna Shai

Perfectionism is expressed by many different parts of us, in varied ways and for so many reasons. I’m sure many of us can relate to the constant need to control the outcome or appearance of everything we do. The fear of doing something wrong or being judged for it is running in the background of our minds even in everyday, simple tasks. We often feel tension and anxiety when something unfolds in a way we did not expect or control. Maybe it comes up when you have reactions you don’t want to have, or there’s conflict you wanted to avoid, or you chose to do something that you realize others would judge.

Perfectionism is often used as a way to protect the most precious and vulnerable parts of us which has been so needed in certain phases of our lives. Overtime it becomes so ingrained in us from messaging by society, matrix coding from as far back as birth, personal desire to appear a certain way, and to avoid judgement and loss. But it gets to a certain point where it prevents those vulnerable parts from growing into their bigness and recognizing that they don’t need that protection to the same degree anymore.

Perfectionism for myself has been so strong my entire life. I strived to be a perfect student, perfect friend, perfect girlfriend, perfect daughter, perfect community member. And slowly but surely I’ve come to unwind this ingrained desire to avoid any and all judgement and conflict. Much of this has been rooted in the idea that I’m not good enough and that I’ll lose everything I love so much. The moment we separated from the Divine, we were given an underlying feeling of guttural and tragic loss of our home frequency of love and connection. So much unworthiness stems from that loss and everyday we try to prove we are good enough to the divine in some way, shape or form.

Freedom can be found in the moments when all parts of us are nourished and aligned: heart, body, mind, soul and spirit. When we allow ourselves to let in true divine love, we are then able to realize that we can truly do no wrong from the perspective of the Divine. This is really the only place we can find unconditional love and acceptance. When we let go of expectation, obligation and self consciousness – we find liberation.

Freedom for me was felt in the picture I’ve attached to this post. That week I felt the words from the Divine rumble through me when she said “You are my everything”. The energy and truth of these words started to unlock this strong hold parts of me had on the idea of not being good enough. We truly are everything to her – everyone of us and in every way. In the moment of this picture I stepped away from something that was bringing me tension and took in beautiful nature and sunset codes with my beloved Kasha and every part of me felt nourished and aligned.

Freedom is found when we take the time to remind every part of ourselves, even the ones that are hard to love, that they always have been and always will be good enough. Even when there’s room to grow, even when there are regrets, even when the future is unknown – they are good enough and more. And the more we see this bigness in ourselves, the more we can see and feel it in others. And from there, the love spreads like wildfire.

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Being With The Ongoing & Catalytic Sacred Union Journey

Published on July 13, 2022July 24, 2022 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kasha Rokshana

Part of me used to relate to Sacred Union as a sort of ‘ultimate destination’, wrapping it in romantic ideals and not necessarily understanding how deep of a process it truly is to be in it, let alone draw it to you. It was a feeling that it was some sort of ultimate reward for inner work well done, answering a deep soul-based longing to experience this sort of visceral reunion with a Divine counterpart.

In my lived-inexperience of it though, I’m getting that it’s actually an ongoing journey and a powerful and catalytic one at that. Though drawing a Sacred Union to yourself does show you a ‘graduation’ step (if your soul truly needs and desires to be in one), with every graduation comes a new beginning… and within Sacred Union it sure feels like it’s a near-constant feeling of completing and beginning again, with self, the Divine, and of course another soul or several along the way.

Preparing for and being in Sacred Union seems to not be so much about knowing anything, having mastery over anything, or really understanding what it’s truly about. The unexpected is meant to find you and bring you back to you as well as the Divine Beloved while in intimate connection with another soul.

Sacred Union seems to not be about anything predictable or controllable, including if it lasts for the rest of your lifetime, if it has its phase(s) of stops and starts, completions of old grounds between you and the embers of a new one being born, or if it needs to complete entirely.

Divine Surrender seems to be THE invitation… it’s a romantic bond where the unpredictable is held in the arms and heart of the Divine, wanting you to have the sometimes tough growth edges and mirrors of your goodness too (sometimes equally as challenging to let in) that seem to be offered in this lush ground of discovery. Plus, the Divine wants to express in an overflow of the love between your souls in order to SERVE love to and with others.

The Divine Beloved acts and moves through both of you, encouraging you to wade into the deeper waters of real love… a multi-dimensional love that doesn’t just want to move in with you, but wants very much to rearrange your furniture.

It’s a love that, when allowed to catalyze your growth, offers so many waves of bliss and laughter, along with so many mutual tears, both this-life and existential fears percolating and expressing, and sometimes explosive moments of truth-telling. Indeed, it IS the Divine expressing in sacred human form, learning about all the edges, swerves, and deep-dives there are to experience along with the highest highs imaginable…

There is no perfect way to be in Union… and perhaps that’s what makes it such a beautiful and enticing growth path!

As women, we seem to be especially activated around the desire for Sacred Union and everything it entails… craving the growth, the bliss, the love, the transaction ground that keeps deepening, and of course the yummy sexual grounds that can open out too. I’ve had quite a journey of my own to be able to even remotely let it in, and my journey continues to deepen in sometimes very surprising ways.

It’s such a sacred path that is always unfolding it seems, both inside and out. There is no real “end game” where you can feel like you’ve totally arrived, or so it seems to me so far. It’s actually far more humbling than that and even though the humbling can feel like looking into a mirror from a very awkward angle, I wouldn’t actually trade the mess, or the bliss, for the world.

Join Jelelle Awen and I for our women’s group call this coming Sunday, July 17th @ 5pm WEST (Lisbon)/12pm EDT/9am PDT where we will share about our journeys with Sacred Union and lead a guided meditation to feel and/or activate your own. It’s by donation and already looks like it’s shaping up to be a VERY warm womb-room! I look forward to meeting/feeling you there with us if you feel drawn. Feel free to DM me if you have any questions. For more info on the call, visit soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

You can donate for the call on our Shop: soulfullheart.org/shop or via PayPal: paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will email you the link to join. If you donate via PayPal, make sure you let us know your current email address so we can contact you. The average donation amount is around $15 CAD yet you can donate anything that feels good to you.

Lots of love,
Kasha

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Sirius Gateway Energies and Importance Of Connecting To Your Gatekeeper

Published on July 5, 2022July 22, 2022 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

We are beginning our alignment with our ‘Spiritual Sun’ Sirius as we continue in the Sirius gateway this week and bridge to the Lion’s Gate 8/8 activations through this month. This is a powerful time of soul awakenings, insights, clarities, visions, lifted veils, inspired thinking and more.

With these soul awakenings also comes an intensity of karmic frequencies moving into our auric fields, chakras, physical bodies and emotional bodies. It’s important to feel how we ARE with these frequencies, how we relate with them and accept them and allow them and what our relationship is to them.

These energies can ‘blow out’ the body in the sense of big detox reactions as some people are sharing about feeling lots of dizziness and vertigo, unable to sleep or feeling very fatigued, and even more extreme ‘illness’ that really wipes them out for quite awhile. This detox process for the ‘transitioning body’ is greatly served by a very clean diet or even fasting and a daily celery juice cleanse. I share more about that here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/light-body-body…/

Your soul field can become backed up with the codes that are trying to come in right now. I see this in energy healing work where the space above the crown chakra (where the Ascension chakras of soul star, Personal Sun and casual are located) is just pulsing and full with light codes that aren’t being brought into the field. This can cause more body pain, especially head/neck pain and even severe migraines. Along with emotional pain and ongoing suffering as many awakening souls are experiencing…intense feelings of heaviness, hopelessness, and not wanting to ‘be here’ in the Earth Plane anymore.

Connecting with your Gatekeeper, a soul aspect that we bridge to in our SoulFullHeart work, allows for much more flow and integration of these energies. As you consciously feel your Gatekeeper, this allows them to share with you their experience of guarding your soul and keeping the veil down on your awareness of other lifetimes/soul ‘history’, etc. They are holding back often deep persecution wound experiences as they fear it would harm your ‘human’ and be too much for you to bear.

I was connecting to my Gatekeeper this morning and I could feel a resolution to her ongoing push/pull about opening up these places for me and flowing into service with them. She has admittedly given me access to many places of remembrance and to service over the years, yet not as much to connect with her as directly, until the last year or so. She was in teary confession this morning about this and deep gratitude for my human heart and Divine Mother’s heart that has opened up HER heart and not given up on her. It is not easy for these eternal beings to let in love and care and warmth as they have not known any of that usually, choosing to be cut off from it to large degree.

Gatekeepers live in complete isolation, by choice, as they are the only conscious entity aware of the Metasoul’s (as I’ve been guided to call it) many projected versions into different lifetimes/timelines/eras. They are acutely aware of the karmic energies, the trauma and the pain being worked and experienced by EVERY lifetime, yet they are unable to do anything to relieve it. These ‘keepers of the veil’ within our soul have taken on the often thankless task of remaining awake to track and protect us while we go into necessary sleep states to fully experience what each lifetime wants to teach us.

I have met and connected with many Gatekeepers in sessions over the years and they are universally lonely, often heavy and sad, skeptical and distrusting….at least in their ‘trailing edge’ of expression. In their ‘leading edge’ expression, they are wise, compassionate, and open up access to Divine channels, other lifetime access, integration of light codes and upgrades, and much more. Yet, they are often anchored to lower frequencies, especially of lower 4D ‘False Light’ which they can get lost in for many ions (no time really.)

It feels like the Sirius frequencies are inviting the Gatekeepers to consciously come forward and make themselves known to you. I cannot describe to you how much relief and goodness can come into your life through connecting to yours and feeling them…and clair activations, access to other lifetimes, emotional healing, completion of karmic cycles FOR GOOD, openness and draw of your sacred union mate and soul family community, etc. Often what we feel as ‘guides’ is actually the wisdom of our Gatekeeper coming through channeling our soul yet not in a direct way.

And ALL of this is opened from inside of you, not from an outside source reading you out or providing activations for you. We can only be a mirror for another, lighting the way and shining the light based on what we have journeyed. And this is my light illuminating this path of connection to soul aspects such as the Gatekeeper and parts of the self too and all the gifts it offers!

love,

Jelelle Awen

Here is a guided meditation and more teaching about the Gatekeeper, really good timing to connect with yours during this Sirius gateway: https://youtu.be/bGqTeeaYpwc

I offer free intros and 1:1 sessions with women to open up access to your Gatekeeper and deepen this bond to allow much more of your soul consciousness to flow and move through. I am experiencing Gatekeepers coming forward in someone even during the intro recently, wanting to be seen and felt! They are def waking up now! More info about sessions with me and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators at soulfullheart.org/sessions or PM me.

I share much more about the Gatekeeper as well in my book Free To Be 5D, with links to purchase audio book, ebook, PDF, print editions at soulfullheart.org/books

One Year Living In Portugal: New Earth Codes, Community & Soul Remebrances

Published on July 3, 2022July 13, 2022 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

One year ago, we arrived here in Portugal with very little sense of how it would be here or even much orientation to this country at all before then. We had received guidance in April last year that it was time to move on from Glastonbury, UK and yet to stay in Europe to serve here, especially to connect to the soul grids and soul family here. Portugal came up as the ‘doorway to the grail’, more sustainable/affordable living, better weather, and to connect to it as a beloved coastal and mountain landing space for the Magdalenes.

We followed this guidance as we always do when major life changes come through from the Divine….(ten major moving shifts in 14 years and five different countries!) with a sense of surrender and a bit of tension/fear in parts of us too that we needed to be with and respond to. Raphael and I had envisioned that we would spend the summer moving throughout the country, camping and staying in places as we were guided until the fall when we would settle somewhere as a community.

Instead the strong frequencies of Gaia here along with a deep need to digest our karmic healing and soul activation experiences in Glastonbury/Avalon guided us to spend the entire summer in one campground in Northern Portugal and to live there as a community. We humbled to living in tents for three months, letting Nature teach and guide us. The purity and high frequency of the river; the sheer beauty of the mountains; the warmth of the people…all of it worked on us at deep levels of clearing and healing.

We did very few sessions during this time and took pretty much a full break from posting online as well. Bey joined us in August at the campground after doing remote sessions with us off and on for a few years. She has become a beloved member of our core community since then.

After summer was over, we moved into the two beautiful spaces in this village in remote central Portugal that we live in now…Raphael and I are about a five minute walk up the narrow village road to Gabriel and Kasha’s place with Bey and Raianna living in a nearby town together. Settling into this mountain valley has felt like being held in Divine Mother’s nest as the deep Marian frequencies here invited us to go more monk like and inward. We’ve held several two-day long healing groups here as a community exploring emotional, soul, and energy healing together.

As soon as we moved into our ‘yellow light ship’ house, we experienced a deep reunion experience with a local stray black cat who claimed us immediately and we named Ravyn. We were taken on deep soul remembrance journeys with her as we invested in her health (and a bit costly vet bill) and committed to caring for her the rest of her life. She has become our beloved temple cat, offering so much loving to us, activating our heart chakras, and in sessions now too. We couldn’t imagine our life without her! And recently, Gabriel and Kasha welcomed a black cat of their own named Kaia.

In the last month there has been a shift inside us and as a community to more outbound activity, sharing, and timeline shifts of deeper service again to those souls who are drawn. Raphael and I get another honeymoon living together alone phase as Raianna has moved to live with Bey in the town of Coja. We will be moving to Coja in October, along with Gabriel and Kasha, where there are more opportunities to connect with others and it is a bit less isolated and remote.

In this moment, I feel a deep appreciation for Portugal and how it has embraced us, supported us, and held us through a necessary digestion and retraction phase. The culture shock has been real at times plus the challenge of the language. Yet, the energies here are both ancient and progressive.

New Earth is seeding here too, which is why it draws so many ‘ego-immigrants’ to come here and live off-grid. I have the sense that this country really is planting the possibilities of New Earth/New Lemuria in a way that is unique in all of the world.

We are blessed to have been guided here as it has been ‘easy’ to be here and I look forward to the deepenings to come here as a community and within myself! Many more sharings to come from here!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

More info about 1:1 sessions, group call events, online community portal, and writings/books at soulfullheart.org.

Karmic Persecution and Obligation Coming Up For Healing

Published on June 30, 2022July 13, 2022 by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

Karmic persecution and the flip side, karmic obligation, are coming up for healing right now! The experience of being persecuted is very familiar to those of who have spent many lifetimes awakening, being healers/teachers, leading new edges of consciousness forward and been ‘ahead of our time.’

We trip the Matrix programming, we create anomalies, we offer new codings. The response to this from the ‘mainstream Matrix’ can be fierce, unkind, painful, and even life threatening. Reconciling and healing this soul wounding can cause us to draw more of these persecution experiences this life. This usually manifests in relationship struggles and conflicts, particularly with birth family members, in romances, and in friendships where they are more anchored to 3D consciousness still.

Parts of us can feel quite hurt, rejected, abandoned by these repeated experiences of condemnation and judgement from those who claim to love us. I have felt how deep this wounding can go so many times in sessions and within myself too. The heart of our inner child is blocked by the Inner Protector in response to this, shielding them for future hurts (or so they hope.) The light of our soul bigness shining can be dimmed too, hidden ‘under a bushel’ for a time that feels safer.

Karmic obligation is another side of this dynamic where your soul aspects and parts have taken on responsibility for these family members, friends and mates even when you no longer resonate with each other and even when there is judgement and harm/abuse from them toward you. Instead of feeling the pain of this, parts of you feel responsible for them, you take care of them, you become the ‘holder’ of their pain at the cost of your own growth. Parts of you feel guilt if you experience joy and love because they cannot in the same way.

These karmic binds are important to feel and be with as there is a healing opportunity to complete them…now more than ever! To go deeper than the triggers and reactions to how people are treating you (or not treating you) and into the emotional body and soul field. To explore the dynamics going on within you from one part to another that mirrors this same persecution/victim dynamic (such as between the Inner Punisher and parts that feel shame.) To go into your soul field to discover the soul themes playing out there lifetime after lifetime with these same souls.

In these explorations lead by curiosity and an open heart, you discover forgiveness and compassion…for yourself, for your soul aspects, and for them. This is what allows for completion of these karmic binds as the polarity they create is no longer needing to be experienced for your growth. Only authentic, felt out and emotionally digested compassion allows for this completion…not affirmations or mental analysis or spiritual beliefs.

You (and parts of you) may be giving still much focus and energy to the reactive experience you have during these relationships….rather than turning inward to explore WHY these dynamics are happening. Going directly to the source of them within your soul field and emotional body is possible now, rather than just looping over and over. Gratitude for the gift these other souls have provided you in this experience arises as well from this ground.

Going into these deeper grounds is, yes, now more possible than ever. The veils are so thin, the walls around our hearts are weakening, and our defenses are getting so tired of holding up any more blocks. The ache to move back into Oneness again is getting stronger and stronger! Any frequencies within us of separation are being illuminated, brought up, and amplified….seeking wholeness by receiving and becoming LOVE.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

More information about a free intro over zoom with me for women to talk about 1:1 sessions to explore these karmic grounds for healing and completion at soulfullheart.org/sessions.

The Important Process Of Sharing Your Truth

Published on June 20, 2022June 30, 2022 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kasha Rokshana

So many times you’ve forgotten that your truth is important.

It doesn’t actually matter if your truth is ‘right’ or ‘correct’ based on facts, figures, or socially accepted assumptions. It also doesn’t matter if it’s the truth of a wounded part of you projecting shadows onto those around you. Whatever is true, feels true, or could be true for you and any part or soul aspect needs to be shared some way, somehow.

We deny ourselves the real virtue of being messy and coming out the other side with more understanding about ourselves and others, and a deepening capacity to feel ourselves and others when we shut ourselves down. Getting to the real heart of your real truth takes digging and flowing inward yet also outward, expressing what you need to when you need to, whether or not it feels rational or even very ‘loving’.

It’s in our most controversial moments at times, our most fiery outbursts, that we reclaim ourselves and our own realities while inviting others into it too. At the same time, if we can keep our hearts open, the realities and truths of others then get invited out onto the same dance floor.

We invite others to feel us while we open our hearts to feel them. This is intimacy.

This is why intimacy is scary… the mirrors we offer are also offered back to us.

I am SO wary of any ‘spiritual teacher’ that doesn’t invite in true intimacy with self and others in this way. You’ll never fully be shorn of shadow, nor would striving for that be particularly healthy on any level. You think we would be in this intense shadow dance with the rest of humanity at this time if it was possible, truly possible, to be 100% virtuous and enlightened beyond the need for any more mirrors and inner deep dives?

I don’t feel you would be here if that were the case.

I feel like I’m on a very deep journey personally, of showing up with my fire in tow and not mincing words unless a sense of genuine compassion asks me to be more tactful or even careful. Without my fire, the desire to be truly compassionate dies, however. Or at the very least, it isn’t quite allowed to breathe and be where it’s at. My care doesn’t get to come out and offer a balm and my own Divine Mother channel doesn’t get to become truly activated.

Denying myself my own fire doesn’t do me any good, and it doesn’t serve others either. I might ruffle feathers along the way, yet my heart is still in the space. I have emotional range and porosity at the same time as spiritual expansiveness. There’s no reason in my heart or mind that I can think of to avoid this because now there are new mirrors to take in of not only what I need to feel and look at next within myself, but also mirrors of my bigness.

This is what I feel inspired to share because I desire to inspire others. Let your truth out and sort it out as you go. There’s often a great cost and also a deadness that results when you don’t bother, when you sacrifice your truth for the sake of false light and love and dare I say, ‘tolerance’. Who the hell wants to be only tolerated anyways? And why would that ever be enough on either end of that equation?

As a sensitive and empathic soul, I’ve struggled to share my truth (not saying it is THE truth, yet sharing it out loud anyways) out of ‘not wanting to hurt anyone’, yet what I’ve learned through serving and also in my own intimate connections recently is that none of us are truly able to deepen our relationship with ourselves or each other without being real.

It’s uncomfortable to be real in a world that has told you over and over again NOT to be and to be compliant with whatever is ‘accepted’ instead. Even spirituality has told us all not to be real… or that to be really real is to share misery only.

In the realness of sharing our fire and our hearts, our bombs and our balms, we invite in a powerful humanly spiritual experience that connects us so deeply to our souls.

May you walk in realness and love today and always…

Burning up what needs to be burned up with love.

And cleaning up whatever needs aftercare in the aftermath.

Love,

Kasha

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Healing The Inner Punisher-Shame Dynamic Within You

Published on June 20, 2022June 30, 2022 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In sessions with women recently, the Punisher-shame dynamic has been coming up for feeling and healing as it is illuminated in the loving and safe healing field that we create together. It can be SUCH an ingrained and deep dynamic that is largely unconscious and ‘off the radar’ for most people, even those awakening for quite awhile. It can create an ongoing sense that life is hopeless, heavy, confusing, bleak, and without consistent inner/outer movement.

There is ongoing suffering looping that happens when the Inner Punisher part of you is continually criticizing/putting down/creating doubt in other parts of you that respond in shame reactions, usually the Inner Child and Inner Teenager. This punishment/shame loop is an effective way of keeping you safe from moving into your soul bigness, risking hurt/rejection, and is a way to ‘match’ the punishing frequencies around you so that they do less harm. Many Inner Punishers over the years have confessed to me that creating this inner punishment/shame dynamic is the only way to survive it happening on the outside with others (usually caregivers/parents.)

I have discovered that it is one of the MAIN ways that Protector and Punisher parts keep us safe and is actually done out of an intense love for you (even though it can feel anything but loving). It is also a necessary acclimation to the Matrix reality, which runs hugely on polarized energies of judgement of self and others. The Matrix is about division, separation, and push-pull frequencies, so we are programmed and conditioned to them from birth, in addition to our social, educational, and family systems often energizing these frequencies as well.

In the SoulFullHeart process during sessions, we connect with your Inner Protector and eventually your Inner Punisher to create a feeling-based compassionate bridge to them. As you more deeply embody your Divine Self through the process, you are able to truly come to love this part of yourself and understand/feel WHY it has been creating this punishment-shame cycles within you. This allows the Punisher to relax into its TRUE essence of humble discernment and truth telling with love. Also, your Divine Self becomes loving parent to your inner child/teenager, and the Inner Punisher can relax into that as well and stop shaming them, allowing their natural joy, magic, and innocence to express more.

Many healers/teachers also operate from an unconscious ‘fusion’ with their Inner Punisher, which can create ongoing shame loops in their clients/followers. They are sharing truths yet there is a shaming frequency in them that leaves a residue for those receiving them. Usually they have not worked with and connected to the punisher/shame energies within them in a conscious way or unplugged from the judgement Matrix either. This is part of the False Light Matrix in spirituality that can keep it ‘capped’ in polarized energies and abuse cycles between teachers and followers.

I had a very strong Punisher-shame dynamic within me that took a conscious focus over the years to heal, including working with an Inner Mother/Punisher aspect for awhile. I was very self conscious with large amounts of self doubt and ‘drew’ Punishers on the outside to be in relationship with and as my teachers. I now experience little to no self judgement of myself and others in the charged frequencies that I once did, can share my truth/gifts without self consciousness, plus I am surrounded by others and in relationship with a mate who lovingly accept/see/get me. It can be challenging to love these Punishing parts of ourselves, yet with support and some necessary separation/differientation, they can transform to become very beloved aspects of ourselves.

Another Punisher/Shame dynamic can be from the False feminine punisher aspect that we call “Ursula”, named after the evil sea witch character in the Little Mermaid movie. Ursula is hugely plugged into the Matrix, energizing hijacked false feminine/evil queen energies, competitive, jealous, possessive, and very difficult to separate from unless consciously connected to. Through more Divine Self embodiment and connection with Divine Mother, she is able to unplug from the Matrix and express her unique and powerful energies of the Divine Feminine, plus open up more soul access/activation for you.

If you’d like to dive into these grounds in a deep yet gentle way, 1:1 sessions with me or another SoulFullHeart Facilitator are 90 minutes over zoom and start at $77 USD, yet we are open to negotiation around that rate, especially if you are wanting to meet more regularly (which we recommend.) We offer a free 30-45 minute intro session beforehand to discuss with you about the process, answer any questions you may have, and give you a sense of who to meet with and where we would go in a session. I meet with women, as does Kasha….Gabriel and Raphael meet with women and men. There is more info about sessions and each of us at soulfullheart.org/sessions. PM me if interested or email through soulfullfullheart.org.

Here is a meditation to connect with the Punisher-Shame dynamic within you:

Here is a meditation and more teaching about your Inner Ursula with Kasha and I:

I share much more about the False Light Matrix and Inner Punisher in my book Free To Be 5D, available as an audio, ebook, print and PDF editions with links at soulfullheart.org/books

With much love and direct/conscious connection with these aspects, you can experience much more love and compassion for yourself and others….along with healthy discernment, passionate truth telling, soul gift embodiment/expression and loving boundary setting.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

How Some ‘Spiritual Truths’ Dull Divine Passion & Personal Soul Truth

Published on June 2, 2022June 23, 2022 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

By Kasha Rokshana

So many popular ‘spiritual truths’ feel so empty and tinny to me, and they can sometimes be used by parts of you to quell your genuine passion and divine fire. They become such dull platitudes and yet they are revered and held as THE irrefutable Truth for so many souls.

There are so many different ‘truths’ that indeed ARE true in different ways, yet just like affirmations, they can so easily be used in a manipulative way that also dulls intuition and raw instinct within yourself and others. It’s about how they are related to, not about the words themselves…

Taking the “high road” that some of these sayings offer really isn’t as interesting to me as going into the messy road, the one that has brambles and needs some bush-whacking, for that is where realness is and also some very catalytic Divine energies. It’s not that being elevated enough to see the bigger picture isn’t important, but sometimes it’s the grind and grist that leads us to our deepest growth AND our truest exit from the need for grist to appear in the same way.

These ‘truths’ which are so often hijacked by the false light matrix, can be used to gaslight, to divert attention away from a need to actually own what’s rumbling in yourself or another, to keep you from dropping into a realization about a shadow play-out that’s been happening in your life or your spiritual healing/writing offerings.

And, they do anything BUT support you to go into more intimacy grounds within yourself, to truly cultivate and embody your Divine Self, and in that same way they do not support a deepening intimacy ground with others built with true compassion and love.

On my own awakening and Ascension journey, I haven’t personally been drawn to very many of them or the leaders/teachers who spout them off and justify the abuse they dole out through them. Yet, I also feel in my heart why some souls would be drawn and even ignore any intuitions they may have about them, especially if this to them is what love is or must be and it sure seems much more alive than what they’ve endured in the past.

There are so many I could highlight today, yet I’ve chosen just a few to share about that seem to really show up a lot.

“If you’re triggered by me, it’s not about me, it’s all about you”.

While this is true to some degree, this so often gets used to divert away from your own accountability, the mirror of your own shadow showing up. Even though you may have innocently triggered someone, sometimes there is still room to own your own side of things, to see and feel someone in their trigger, and discern if this is a reflection you truly need at this time or not. None of us are perfect, and we DO get to choose whose opinions and reflections of us we value the most, yet there is so much data in all of our triggers for ourselves and our relationships to absolutely everything and everyone.

Also, where is the heartfelt care in saying this to someone that you supposedly DO care about?

“Make sure you heal before you enter in romantic relationship so you don’t project your wounding onto your partner.”

Rare is the soul who is fully done with projecting. It is so challenging at times to be the receiver of projections and sometimes, again, we can innocently trigger someone into this ground, yet this is ALL a sacred part of our exploration of deeper intimacy with others. Sometimes parts of us HAVE to project in order to see and feel themselves from a different light. Without allowing each other to have ‘stuff’ we are working when in relationship, we have missed the point of even going into it in the first place.

In the past it was hard for a time for parts of me to get that we have this permission inside to get messy with others or to let them get messy with me without any true ‘winner’ in the situation, without anyone needing to be ‘wrong’ or ‘right’, and without anyone needing to pretend to be perfect and have it all together. Yet what gets me through the pretense and old conditioning around conflict, is the reminder that we’re all in this together, we’re all imperfect, and if we can at least hold a common ground of doing deep inner work and wanting the mirrors that true intimacy offers us, then we will be just fine and heal in ways we never imagined possible.

And here’s one more which has recently been on my radar: “It doesn’t matter if someone steals or takes credit for your writings or creations made in the service of love. It never truly belonged to you anyways”.

If you have created something from the fires of your inner work, your passion, your hard-earned Divine access inside and out, and someone takes credit for that who has absolutely NOT done the same work you have and may actually be using your words/creations to seduce and create their own platform and following (something many ‘leaders’ do, unfortunately)… why would that be considered ‘ok’? If you genuinely feel unattached, I would say there’s a missing Divine passion in you that some part of you is afraid of and concerned about what it could do if untethered.

Advocacy and reasonable self-defence are not separate from Divine passion. You can keep your heart open, refrain from getting nasty, and stand solidly in your truth all at the same time. I’ve done it, my beloveds have done it, it’s possible and it’s accessible. It also shows that instead of trying to control your emotions, which aren’t ultimately controllable, you are willing to explore what is actually happening in this scenario from all angles possible.

“What’s the lesson I need to learn here?”

Whenever I hear someone say this, I immediately feel an Inner Punisher playing disciplinarian inside of them. It can feel so harsh to say this to yourself or to have a beloved ‘teacher’ say this to you. It takes the humanity out of the equation or worse, tries to discipline your humanity and make it bad or wrong or off or even ‘not ascended enough’.

I don’t feel that the vast majority of ‘teachers’ out there are even remotely qualified enough to ask such questions or make such judgements of you or anyone else, but that’s another piece I’ll share more about soon…

When something goes sideways in my own life, I don’t ask myself if there’s a ‘lesson’ to learn because I’m not in school anymore. What I do is look into the mirror that’s been offered and ask my parts/aspects, “what do I need to feel in myself that’s been off my radar but that I couldn’t see without this situation?” Even with this question sometimes I’ve had to feel a shame spiral my parts have fallen into… yet grounding it back into them and feeling where that comes from helps so much, as well as feeling the situation from as many angles as possible, truly ‘milking’ it for my growth and inner reconciliation while inviting the Divine in to support and love me through it, and then moving on. Nothing will help you move on the way real love does and that is always, without any doubt in my heart, seeded first within.

There’s such an important discernment that is being asked of us in spirituality and beyond. It’s as simple as asking questions about what is truly real, what your heart and intuition both tell you is possible, and feeling how the Divine is guiding you in every moment… whether this means you are able to ‘follow the crowd’ and wherever the current fanfare is around this or that ‘truth’ or ‘teacher’, or if you’d rather stay in your own lane for a while, feel it all out from deep within, and continue to find your own empowered connection to yourself and the Divine.

This has been such an important place to go for me personally and I imagine that we have all struggled at times to find our way to what’s pure, true, good, and loving amidst all of the din.

If my truth stirs or inspires your own in some way, please do be in touch and if you’re curious about 1:1 sessions with me (for women), we can meet for a free intro call to talk about the SoulFullHeart process and community and if it might be a fit for you at this time: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,
Kasha

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Celebrating Pre-50th Birthday W/Beloveds

Published on May 28, 2022June 23, 2022 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

After quite a full day of responding to the responses to my post yesterday, welcoming dozens of new followers and friends to my page, setting up some intros and sessions…I THEN got to go to a pre- 50th birthday celebration party with my beloveds!

My birthday is actually next Wednesday, June 1st, but we celebrated early as a group because Raphael and I will be out of town on vacation next week to visit the coastal town of Nazere, Portugal. We haven’t been to the ocean since October, so we are def looking forward to taking in the negative ions and ocean codes there, plus just spending some sacred time alone together to bond and connect. Nazere has the highest and biggest waves in the world, although not this time of year!

It was so lovely to be honored last night by such an intimate circle of souls who resonate and know me SO well. Every gift, whether material or not, was just so perfect. My daughter Raianna Shai made me one of her stunning macrame creations that I proudly put on immediately! Bey Magdalene gave me a beautiful pashima scarf and other sweet items.

The highlight was Gabriel and Kasha singing me a song that they wrote about me! My goodness that was a lot to let in, I cried through most of it and then felt a flood of love afterwards as well. Letting in, breathing, letting in, crying some more to let in.

I really feel like I am rebirthing into a New me, esp with this ongoing fasting that I am doing that seems to be purifying my whole being and opening my heart up quite wide. Cellular cleansing and rewiring is going on, along with necessary detox too as my body upgrades.

I feel truly blessed and grateful for my life and those beings in it! And for YOU too, taking in these words and images, and celebrating along with me!