Category: Emotional Body Healing

Being Re-Membered To The All You Already Are

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By Raphael Awen

Everything you desire in this dimension you already have on another dimension.

Any longing or ache or desire that lives in you aches because it is a remembrance in some way, shape or form of the essence of your being.

If you are journeying through poverty or lack and you are willing to feel your desire for nicer things, what you are actually feeling is your connection to the essence of all there is that you actually are.

If you are longing for a heart and soul mate, and the inhabitation of your sacred sensuality and sexuality, it is because you are wanting on a deeper soul level to experience fully what you already are. Sex is simply and so unsimply the edge of deep reverence.

You were only willing to take this epic journey into this land of comparative difference and contrast to this essence that you are because you were assured and felt this essence that you are could never be lost from your possession. You possess it now and you always have. Feel this present possession inside of your being.

But wait, where’s the gain possibility in that you ask…if I didn’t give up anything, didn’t invest anything into the equation? If I already have it all, to what purpose is the human experience?

The human experience is the land of seemingly not having it all.

What you gave up and had to give up, as the price of admission was the conscious knowledge of what you were and are, in order to reawaken to this essence. You see, you always were this essence, and even as this essence, you were not actually awakened to it. You just were it, but without reverence for it, and without experience of it. You couldn’t get outside of it to see it or feel it or value it.

So you agreed to enter a contractual binding agreement that made perfect sense that you would forget in order to be re-membered to and with what you actually are. You are like an adult that agreed to a de-maturation process. You surrendered to early onset alzheimers dis-ease as a portal into an awakening that you never had. You agreed to re-enter the birth canal and womb in reverse direction in order to be born again into a much deeper dimension of that all that you never actually lost, but also never actually experienced yet. You agreed as the god you are to take on human flesh.

You ‘had’ this essence, you still ‘are’ this essence, but you just now for the first time are awakening to this essence. You entered the time zone to have a timeless experience, where the magic of your being could play out in front of you to be seen and felt, into a very real story, and a very true story.

Can you see and feel in all of this that the only attainment here is a reverence awakening to what already is and NOT the material attainment of any thing, be it a spiritual thing, an emotional thing, or a thing of physical matter. The ‘matter’ of it is already manifested material that exists now. The only thing wanting to yet be attained or enlightened or awakened to is the reverence for what already is!

What is materializing now is not the material itself, but the actual awe and reverence that undergirds and creates all matter. It is in being the observer and in being the observed that life is profoundly changed, where we are reparented into a new reality.

So get out your curiosity….get out your sacred QUESTions….get out your hunger for the more that you are. Give yourself the gift of your sacred desires.

You came here to experience every ounce of what is already under your feet.

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com

We’re ( Jelelle, Kalayna, Gabriel, Raianna, Angela, Toni Woods) getting on the phone for some deep reverence this coming weekend again with another of our group calls if you’re ready to take a step closer to our energy, which is actually the energy of your own higher self calling you out to play. It’s a great place to meet and feel together. Details here: https://www.facebook.com/events/254241058395276

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Post-Eclipse Transmission Of Transformation

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It is 3:33. Guided to start typing and transmitting. Just feel what is in the space. Newness. The fresh scent of air after rainfall. The sense that something is on the horizon. On the dock for delivery. Tuning into its Here-ness when it feels Over There. What is here? Abundance in all its forms. Material, spatial, relational, spiritual, sexual, romatical, geographical…all of the ALLs.

Connective bonds of heart and soul that gather in vibratory unison at the meeting points of sacred location and reverence. Transforming and transmuting the body as that mobile sacred location. No need to travel for you are already there. You are all ready It. The portal is in you. INside that healing heart. That plugged in, juiced UP, love engine that propels you into dimensions that were only ever imagined, become realized by the turn of the dial.

Oh….but it is not that easy.

Oh…but is that what we have convinced ourselves to believe? Since we don’t have it, don’t see it, don’t feel it then it doesn’t exist. Shut down the wanter, the feeler, the giver and the dreamer. Keeps us safe, contained, comfortable, and in stasis.  What happened to alive? To riding the edge of the known along the chasm of the free fall surrender into Holy Shit? We forgot about that quasar pulse of excitement that rushes into your being when left replaces right, and up replaces down.  Poking the bear of our deepest fear to find our deepest love right underneath it.  

Who will recognize you on the other side? Do you want to be identifiable or unpredictable? The answer is a pinball of back and forth among the inner walls of your being.  What will this New Earth-New You-Not You bring to the table of this no holds buffet bar of powerfully creative love livers? The ones that can’t stop inviting the dark into the light.  The ones building bridges of inner guidance systems that direct them to the gates of the stellar bliss banquet of conscious unity. Inviting and integrating the multidimensional layers of expression into the cells of this uniquely human temple.

What a world we have chosen to create and hide from ourselves in this strangely pre-planned game of forget and remember?  Peek-a-boo moments and starry-eyed gleans. We have the power of choice to locate ourselves again. To clear the forest of the brambles of our deepest wounds that lead the way to our most treasured tunes.  The dusty scrolls of our soul’s ancient wonderings. Take the road less traveled on your way back to the heart of your heart.  The one that is not defined or maintained.  It can be uncomfortable and bumpy, but the most life lived is in the one lived IN and not through.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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We Get To Be Real

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By Raphael Awen

We get to be real.

In fact, all of life is a ‘real’ization of something from one dimension being manifested into another dimension – being ‘realized’. The etymology of the word ‘real’ stems back to the word ‘royal’. We are all royals awaiting deeper and deeper levels of our manifestation of the sovereign beings we are.

All of life is also a resistance of this birthing into reality as well. Realization doesn’t occur without intention, choice and action. So It’s wired into the system, yet it doesn’t occur until and as we are ready for it to occur.

A big integration piece for me in the last number of years has been integrating a much deeper level of my own power and passion that contained my anger and my truth-telling in relationship. In some ways, this aspect of myself was cordoned off from all of my relationships including my relationship with Jelelle. Epic sorts of judgments lived inside of me that no relationship could sustain the presence of my truth-teller, and so this part of me was only allowed presence in certain measured ways. Looking back, his energy was channeled into my self-employment, business days. That worked well while it did.

What’s coming up for me and this integration with this part of me now is feeling how I want more real transactional grounds in all of my relationships. I found myself challenging an amazing woman who had come all the way to leave home and join our community here in Vallarta with my sense that I couldn’t feel any curiosity in her about me and my story. I found myself challenging someone in the Facebook comments stream the other day when they simply commented an innocuous sounding ‘this too shall pass’ and I replied with ‘hey, that feels diminishing and caretakey’.

Underneath it all is a surge of ‘get real or go home’. In my days in Christianity, a bold preacher once said ‘I feel we should shove a microphone in everyone’s face and say WHY ARE YOU HERE?’ This part of me so resonated with that then. Let’s cut the churchy ‘everyone’s welcome’ crap and get to whatever it is that we really want.

I know I’m moving more and more to this ‘more’ that I want. I’ve been gifted an amazing audience to teach into giving me back deep affirmation and a place for my words to land. I feel now however to inhabit the comments stream with a new pressing of ‘what is it that you want?’ and what sounds like a store clerks clarity of ‘and how can I help you today?’ The feeling in this is that I’m here for more than the affirmation, as good as that is. I’m here for transaction, reciprocity, and reward. There’s a 5d sense of ‘show me the money.’ Truth is that anything less is fading fast in its ability to hold my interest.

This part of me would say that there is a ton of love and light smokescreen bullshit passing itself off for spirituality today, and it’s just plain boring as hell. This in retrograde and that in 5d, can all be a huge pile of steaming horseshit when used to not feel or to not get real, and I’ve lost all ability to form any kind of bond around it with someone.

So, in giving this part of me space after having been afraid of it for so long, I want to shove the microphone in your face and ask you ‘why are you here and what is it that you want?’

That’s a ton of energy, I know, but I suspect you can handle it, or you probably wouldn’t be drawn to me, and you have a part of you that resonates deeply.

Gabriel and I have been talking this one through a lot lately as we share this dynamic in our history, feeling where we are being given opportunity to drop any nice guy roles, open our heart and go direct. It so feels like the universe is wanting to take us collectively and individually into these new places.

I’m here because I want to help people and I want to be exchanged with (paid) in a variety of ways for what I offer. These writings and other offerings that I share for free in SoulFullHeart are intended to draw the people who want more to pursue more. For those who are served by the writing and don’t engage further, I am grateful to have had that opportunity, but my intention is for engagement beyond that. I’ve set up my shop and now it’s ‘So, how can I help you?’ How can I help you get past the love and light bullshit that stands in the way of you inhabiting all that your sovereign higher self is inviting you into?

I’ve let go of a ton to stand in and be in this place of claiming a heart and soul integrity sufficient enough to assist you in realizing yours. We get to be real and we get to be real together.

I leave you today with a link to dive into as deeply as you are drawn to. I’d like to serve you inside of deepening ‘real’ization and ‘real’ationship.

With heart open love,

Raphael Awen

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Arising Sacred Masculine Within A Sacred Feminine Offering

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

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This is what is means to be in SoulFullHeart community.  I am inspired, awed, and amazed at what I get to be a part of.  What I have chosen to surround myself with in order to heal, grow, and create.  I see the world through a lens that is so unlike anything out there and is constantly shifting and evolving.  I get to see myself in a way that is unlike what I have seen or felt myself to be in the old dimension of consciousness.  There is not a day that goes by that some thing alive is happening to others that sparks a corroborating energy in me. It is community on HIGH and is just keeps its dedication to more, to real, and to love.  To More Real Love.

But this Love is not just bliss and sparklers.  It is about feeling the edges and depths of what is next up on the healing docket.  This is not shadow hunting but a real time bubbling up of emotion that is not supported to be repressed, but lovingly guided to arise in its own time.  As one person is feeling something there is an effect among the group as we are all connected.  As my good friend Raphael is moving through arising layers of suppressed truth-telling, it begins to activate mine.  This one entry way then opens itself up to a greater QUESTion of what it means to be masculine in a very feminine offering. It brings up some angst and curiosity along the way.  It rumbles and shakes something in to uncertainty, of which the unhealed masculine is not native to.  It has chosen certainty in the name of control.

But underneath that maintenance lies a caged animal.  A fire that is wanting to make shit happen and blow things up in an attempt to get to a bedrock of something real.  There is a violence in that when not tempered by the feminine within and without.  Hence being in community with the sacred feminine is what brings a clarity to it as well as the hashing out.  I had personally sent my animal into a quarantine when my daughter was a young age so as to not have that energy in my field as a father.  Before that I had a very huge temper and was pissed off a lot.  As a child it was an embarrassment to my family when it came up in very immature ways.  It was a soul angst and a learned behavior from my father, who had the legacy of it from his father.

The essence of this energy is passion and truth-telling.  It is about alchemizing and manifesting.  It is about being in union with the feminine to light up the Love Shack we call Gaia.  But the suppression is wounded and angry.  I chose to find a more Zen part of me to assuage the energy so that I could be more acceptable to another part of me seeking something nice and normal.  Well, as this part of Raphael has been done with this dynamic, I feel it rumbling this part of me too. It exists in many men I believe as well.  I know there are many that are more outed than others, but I feel this reverberates through all masculine hearts, both in men and women.  What we experience in community is also happening in the collective heart of humanity.

So this is a post about the arising sacred masculine, that is in a continuing birthing state in us all.  It is a journey from an old way of doing life to a new way of being in life.  It does scare some parts of me as the unleashing of the animal within does bring an concern of what will come out, but this is all held in a heart that has been working the shadow for the sake of love, so what does come out will be felt in its entirety and hold itself accountable.  It will not harm but it may just hurt.  Hurt is mendable with an sincere and open heart.  This is the reminder I give to this part of me.

This is also about community and relationship where all of this gets to be played out and realized in its fullest breadth.  I get to engage in romance that brings out different tones that go deeper that just soul friendship, as powerful as that is.  I feel like I am showcasing what it means to be in this SoulFullHeart community.  It is what is possible for all humanity.  There is a huge desire among us all for more hearts and souls to add to this incredible wealth of healing and loving.  It is why we continue to write and offer to others. We want more tribe members that just feel what it is that is possible even if there is uncertainty on what it all means.  Others are doing the same taking their questions and fears with them.  We want the passion of others who want to serve it to the world first from within and then out.

In this new era of letting in more of what I want, I want to serve this love to you.  I want to invite you experience what I experience everyday because it is out of this world…literally! I want others to reflect to me and inspire me to be more than a part of me thought I could ever be.  New hearts bring new vision that we didn’t otherwise see or feel before.  We get to play in a safe container that allows for real growth and real love, even if it may not feel that way to parts of us.  The vulnerability of that is the safety.

Okay, so that is what was in my heart today.  It is what comes through being in this incredible union of heart and souls.  It is the energy of the eclipse making its way through my veins and into my heart.  I claim me as I claim you to be a part of this epic ride called SoulFullHeart.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Eclipse Energies Bring A Renewed Sense Of The Sacred Masculine Dance

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by Kalayna Colibri

 

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The Eclipse energies are bringing out something NEW in the masculine. It is trying to birth a new sense of what the ‘sacred masculine’ is, which has felt elusive and puzzling, not to mention hard to define. Any definitions we’ve tried to say are ‘it’ have tended to fall short most of the time, for it is still being rediscovered, along with the sacred feminine. It calls for men who are able to embody its messiness of heart and truth on this path of rediscovery. It calls for women to feel it within themselves as a counterpart to the budding inner feminine. The wounded masculine is alive within us all to some degree, until it has really been felt for the protection it has wanted and needed to offer and the tiredness it is feeling more and more as it realizes it IS wounded and does need our love and healing…

This healing can and does happen, the more we hold the desire for it too. It is so much of what needs to be felt and healed in our world as we ‘kNOw’ it today. It is expressed in the ways we claim to ‘know’ what we cannot in many ways, mental approaches to spirituality that do not ask us to embody it and feel it deeply inside of our hearts as arising sacred humans, and it is our okayness and also thirst for war and battles in any way, shape or form. It is expressed too, through our outrage, through our self-image creation and maintenance, through our push-aways from our hearts and the hearts of others, through the walls parts of us have built around us, wanting to contain and protect was is precious within, wanting to keep itself from being felt for what it truly is.

We see and feel it in our leaders and our leadership inside of us too. We feel it in our sexuality, our desires for dominance (though as woman, perhaps this is more subtle or takes a different form than it does for men), our pushing and action-based lives we’ve led. It is something that shows up often in our daily lives, especially when we have not begun to really see it and feel it.

Perhaps this current Eclipse will help bring in more illumination of this inside of you and inside of others. I am feeling it for myself today and these words are what I want to offer the masculine inside of me, inside of you, and inside of all men…

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To the renewing, emerging, strengthening Sacred Masculine, within AND outside of me…

I invite you into a dance. A dance less structured than a waltz, and as passionate as a tango. I want to fill my dance card with the names of men (and eventually, only ONE man) who feel the pull, the desire, for themselves, for me, for us. I want unchoreographed, spontaneous steps, sometimes in alignment with each other, at other times not. I want the mess of the self-discovery that has us at times wondering how on Earth we’re going to navigate this one, though we both have the gumption, the desire, the courage to keep going inside as the only option.

I want something I can grab a hold of, without tugging or being tugged on. Something that is concrete yet has breathing and fluidity and room for what IS along with what could be and what we both want, starting with what we want inside of ourselves.

The games of old, those ones we never wanted to play anyway, they are being asked to crumble inside of us. They are being set to fall away in avalanches of pure love and sacred union codes coming in, that so do not resonate or match the currently embraced picture of romantic relationship, which is steeped in much emotional and spiritual immaturity and unrealness.

I want to let it all, all we’ve thought we ‘knew’, fly away with the wind in poignant moments of sorting through this from that within each of us and within ‘us’ too. I want to unlearn and relearn it all with you. I want to feel it all bubbling up and bursting within me and within us, and play it all like notes and chords on piano keys, bringing it all to the fore of our relationship ground, that place where it’s safe to do so and yet the precipice of where it could all fall apart (and in phases, needs to) is always there too.

I see you, I feel you, I know you… I trust the heart that is arising and reconciling inside of you, sometimes with contention and male ‘UMPH’. Ugh. YES. The line of abuse cannot be reached by a heart that is working towards its purity and holds deep reverence, respect, love, care, for itself and me too.

I want any resistance that’s here within you, within me, to BE pushed up, to be felt, to be held, to be loved, to be ultimately moved. I do not want the resistance to become the relationship, the reason to slow it all down. I want our parts to know, feel, understand that you are there for them, for your own, that I am there for them, for my own.

I want the genuine, the real, the incredibly HOT sacred masculine that arises from deep within the shadows and caves of the real, the soulful, the heartful, that doesn’t caretake, the penetrates in all the ways it needs to, that mates and creates and brings its truth, even if its truth isn’t polished or perfect or even UNDERSTOOD fully. I want the shit storms. Yes. The masculine in ME wants that, wants to be pressed up, pushed on, noticed, healed, moved, so that the feminine that so wants to dance with it and with YOU can arise more and more as the climate shifts to one where it can, where it is safe to, where it isn’t expected to battle, to be an Amazon, to outrage, but to encourage, to be, to heal, to offer

I want the ‘shit storms’. Yes. The masculine in ME wants that, wants to be pressed up, pushed on, noticed, healed, moved, so that the feminine that so wants to dance with it and with YOU can arise more and more as the climate shifts to one where it can, where it is safe to, where it isn’t expected to battle, to be an Amazon, to outrage, but to encourage, to be, to heal, to offer healing, to LOVE, to have her stillness that is born from an elegant blossom grown in mud and fun too. I want those portals the masculine and feminine are meant to create together, to bring out from each other, to step into in love that is made in the physical and other levels too. And you’ll know if you can do this, by your reaction to these words, that yes, I do feel are coming from a masculine AND a feminine inside of me too. Somehow, I trust that if you’re meant to, you’ll get this. Your maturity will resonate with it and your heart and soul that desire to FEEL and to HEAL and to make genuine, heart open love that travels to the Cosmos and back again with a woman is what you’ll feel now.

This is not coming from a woman who has solely been burned, been victimized, been abused, though of course that lies in this woman’s heart and body’s history with men who haven’t embodied the sacred masculine before or really even tried (save one, who to this day I still heal with consistently and we help each other move a lot, even just as dear friends). My stories of these experiences are not an attachment, though they also live in my Metasoul as well as my emotional and physical bodies. Nothing inside of me is asking you to heal it for me. Nothing inside of me needs you to be something you’re not, for what you ARE, IS the journey for me and for you.

I feel ready. I feel ready to take on something new. I feel ready for what can only move and heal in monogamous, romantic relationship. I feel a new relationship arising to my own inner masculine that wants to become more of the sacred masculine too, and at the same time, I feel my feminity wanting to arise more and more, to be in the space with me more, to feel safer there than she ever has. To share this with a man, who is also feeling inside of himself a feminine counterpart that wants to arise and heal and be, along with a masculine that wants to do the driving, to lead himself to more healing on a REAL level, to be in deep sacred union mateship with a woman that he sees and feels as body, heart, AND soul and wants to claim with all of his being as she claims him with all of hers, THIS is the dream, this is the desire that is bursting from me today. And this is the ongoing invitation, perhaps right now more than ever before with these Solar Eclipse energies coming in and illuminating, shifting, driving us to more and more healing on levels that maybe we could not have imagined before.

My inner masculine and feminine, who are trying to reconcile something with each other in this moment, it feels like, thank you for taking this in right now. They thank you for welcoming their passion, their unknown about themselves that they are looking to discover, their desire to feel it all. Thank you… and I welcome you into this powerful sense of passionate discovery and rediscovery for yourself too.

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Importance Of BEing With And Integrating ‘Lower’ And Shadow Aspects Of Yourself During Ascension

Published on by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

 

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“I’m not sure that I fit in your world. I am too ‘low’. I am at times too ‘negative’. I still have pains from the past and wounds too. I still ache in deep places. I struggle to forgive at times. I struggle to feel compassion for myself and for others. I chase ghosts and shadows too. How can I find a place in your bright world? It feels like sunshine after so much darkness to me. I really need the love but I don’t know if I am worthy of it. I don’t know if I fit in.” These words are from the aching hearts of the parts of us that suffer, live in shadow, have journeyed so far and so long in this 3D experiment. They are wanting to be in the ‘world’ of our growing and awakening 4D/5D self, yet feel a deep unworthiness around how they can possibly fit into this high vibration. Inner Punisher energies inside just ‘reinforce’ this message and waves of shame shut down and suppress the desires for love.

I heard and felt this in myself the last couple of days as I am BEing with a part of me that has taken in much, been through much, many death and rebirths as my soul/higher self continues to come into my body through the awakening process. Many tears came up as I felt this energy inside myself. This part has textures of my 4D self…..this part of me is named Jillian, which is my birth name and the name I choose to go by when I began my awakening journey through parts work in earnest about 15 years ago. I was called Jill before then, who I now feel was more my 3D self. These distinctions of 3D from 4D matter much less than just BEing open to feeling all there is to feel with these aspects of ourselves.

Jillian ‘came up’ strongly yesterday in response to conflict energies flushing out between Raphael and I as we move into a deeper co-leadership phase together offering our service of love through SoulFullHeart and as we are also feeling a geographic shift from Mexico to the United States as a community. We are being called to deeper, wider, bigger service together and this new ground and call is bringing up ‘older’ frequencies in our relationship for us to feel. Raphael and I have been together for nine years…..years marked by much change, transition, letting go, healing of gender wounding, and awakening. Our process together (held by a deep love and respect for each other) is to feel where parts of us have fixed into ‘work arounds’ with each other rather than arising into the new. This is can be challenging to navigate together and parts work is a huge heart line, life line for us, along with the loving support of our community and our Metasoul aspects/guides.

We feel a part often comes up as it is ‘triggered’ or ‘constellated’ (as Carl Jung called it) by an outside source or mirror (especially in romantic relationship.) When I felt ‘old’ reactivity come up in me with Raphael, I went in and felt Jillian, who I had not connected with consciously in a while. The frequencies of Jelelle/soul self coming into my body have been the strongest energy over the last year and I have made much space for this integration of them into my BEing in order to step more fully into my service of love here. Inviting Jillian back into my space did not mean that I was ‘going backwards’ or suddenly ‘falling behind’, yet rather that there was enough love and light in my heart and soul to hold her and make space for her now.

In my experience, no aspects of us can really be suppressed or avoided. If they need us, their energies will flood our field when our emotional bodies are triggered to release them and push them up. If we are open to feeling and BEing with these energies and NOT suppress them or transcend them with bliss/higher frequencies (which is very tempting to do), then we get the gift of integration. THIS integration is what I feel is the ultimate reason and purpose of ascension…to become sacred human, to bring our humanity and the most trailing edge expressions of it into the love light of our Divinity.

In SoulFullHeart, we support you in this up and down integration/bridging through sessions, group calls, retreats, community, and a process that we have spent many years living out as our daily reality. This integration process is very challenging at times and it feels to me nearly impossible to do by yourself. More information here about what we offer if you are drawn to go on this journey with us at your side and you at ours:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/services

Ascension is not just about upward movements…..not about a grand sweeping ‘moment’ of deliverance where ALL we experience from then on is bliss. It is an integration of the tough and the painful with the healed…… the difficult and the barely recovered from with the moved beyond. It is the going down in order to let in more UP. The loving of what we have been with ALL of our hearts in order to invite it into something new and beyond. Bridging to our emotional body WITH our soul frequencies and receiving of the gifts of our heart in the process of this. Making room for these parts of ourselves in our ‘higher’ world brings us in touch with the core of our humanity, which is what we came here with Gaia to experience in this now of ascension where we experience more and more our essence as Infinite Love in sacred human form!

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Raphael and I are hosting a group call on Sunday, August 27th about sacred union where we will share more about our experience together of parts work/differentiation inside and with each other:https://www.facebook.com/events/254241058395276/

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Life As Our Personal Creation

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By Raphael Awen

Your life as you know it today, and even as you don’t know it, has been imagined into being.

Nothing comes into being that hasn’t first been seen and imagined by a consciousness that holds the desire and intention for the created thing.

It feels strange to our normal waking consciousness to see this as true when we feel our lives and our circumstances to be a mixture of fate, good or bad luck, missed opportunities, and ‘if only’s’, etc.

But when we take into account our very real subconscious reality, that parts of us, exist outside of our normal waking consciousness; everything changes! Here we come to see and know that aspects of our very selves, not god, not fate, not circumstance, are what has created our life as we know it. Here we come to discover that parts of ourselves had very good and understandable reasons for creating the dimensions of our lives that we, as a conscious self, didn’t like at all.

AND, on top of all this wild ride, is your life as you DON’T yet know it, that already exists in your soul template, in no-time reality, that wants and waits to manifest here in the time dimension more and more as it is allowed into being.

This dimension is also off of most people’s conscious reality and radar, and THIS forgetting, is also by design and creation of the powerful subconscious aspects of their being that prefer to hold the soul consciousness aspect of being for them. As above, so below.

In other words, all of us have one great big coping mechanism for being such big souls expressing in human form. These coping mechanisms, held by aspects of ourselves, can be negotiated with and even come to be known and loved in a magical process of curious self discovery as you expand out more and more into deeper and fuller aspects of the infinite love that you are.

This so raises the quest and questions that are aching to come onto our daily radar more and more.

The very intimate circumstances of your life, relationships, limitations, resources, are ALL aspects of your own creation…awaiting recreation into the domain of loving conscious imagination that is willing to feel all there is to feel.

If these words resonate for you, know then that they contain YOUR truth, and your truth and my truth are finding resonance together. How cool! You are onto your own soul path taking you to new places no matter how stuck you may feel in a present life-as-you-know-it-reality.

Simply admitting your own truth to yourself is that powerful of a transformational reality bridging separate universes of reality into new timelines.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Embracing Descension As Part Of Ascension

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By Raphael Awen

All this talk about ascension and nothing about descension…

My path this week took me into several 3D expressions, one of which was working some marathon hours for an online gig that paid really well, after hardly ‘working’ for like 3 years. Another of which was getting a personal cell phone up and running after doing without one for years, and getting tripped up on some of the functionality. Another of which was researching how to get access back into the US after being refused entry to open up possibilities of future green card status. What a PILE of 3D realities all combined into 1 week!

I so felt a frequency lowering energy with some questions inside about why am I feeling so dense and so obsessed about all this? Where is my bigger trust? Etc.

When I came up for air to breathe and feel last night and this morning, I so feel a larger support team around me and a larger trust place that is right here. The ‘problems’ are yet to resolve, but they feel more like opportunities than setbacks.

A big piece in all of this is feeling the me who lived in these frequencies full time not that many years ago and loving that me. This is the descension we are being invited into in our ascension process. The universe doesn’t want to just take your higher frequency you into a new place, but rather all of you. This includes the you who can’t quite trust like the rest of you can. This includes the you who holds any self judgments and self criticism. This includes the you who has come to be so well adapted to living in the 3D matrix of reality that now struggles to let in a new and foreign reality.

Embracing a path of ascension IS embracing a path of descension at the same time. They are one and the same. Ascension is not an escape, but a rescaping and inscaping of the full landscape of our being into the all we desire to become. The frequency lowering experiences as well as all the we created in the third dimension all wants to integrate into what is arising now. It’s all sacred.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Embracing Our Multi-dimensionality

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By Raphael Awen

When we put a cap on what we think we know, we reveal ourselves to be the fools that we are.

For we have been fooled, mesmerized by the one dimension at hand to the exclusion of the infinite other dimensions that are.

Herein lies our ennui, or complete lack of awe, wonder and reverence. Truly, in a single dimensional world, there is little to revere for creatures as multidimensional as us.

Our human expression in the 3d reality is real, but only as far as one reality among many, many more.

Doesn’t this want to make you cry for how we have been hoodwinked as long as we have? Doesn’t this want to make you cry for the masses that are not yet ready to see and feel this?

Before I get too depressed about this state of affairs, I hear my guides saying that this was the way it needed to be. There is all the time in the world actually for as long as we need to be mesmerized by a single dimensional ‘reality’. This can’t help but run out of gas for us in time, and when we do awaken, we will awaken fully, having invested so fully, that we are ready to divest and let in our next ‘realities’.

I am at present being introduced to a metasoul aspect of mine from Sirius, named Ceylon, a counterpart mate to Jelelle’s metasoul aspect named Sela, both of whom feel feline, a lion and lioness. They both embody an attainment of being that feels so much ahead of my experience this life, that now wants to integrate with my conscious ‘reality’.

As I write these words publicly, I feel a hesitation from a part of me to sound this ‘out there’. This so highlights our hesitation to go to any of our multidimensional capacities…in that we fear no longer belonging to the world around us that we made our beloved home in for as long as we have.

Of course we fear that! Did you think embracing our multidimensionality would be a walk in the park? It’s not so much a spiritual attainment of some guru like status at all. We’ve made it out to be that in order to obscure our real fear…our fear of no longer belonging.

We all have a bunch of strange experiences to have and then to find others to share them with. Choosing to embrace all of our selves, whether a metasoul aspect, or really getting intimate with an inner emotional aspect of ourselves will have repercussions in our social world, beginning of course with our most intimates.

Here we come to see how deeply all of us are en-cult-urated and how those pointing fingers and crying ‘cult’ are the ones deepest in their own cult. We get to be multi-cult-ural!

I’m liking my cult, and I’m admitting it’s a cult (just not a harmful one), what about you and your cult?

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Straddling The Old And The New

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By Raphael Awen

When you consider how we are energy and then consider the fact that energy never dies, but only changes, and let the feeling vibration of this picture seep more and more into conscious awareness, this alone changes life as you know it.

There still is the inertia of life as you’ve known it, as you created it from the perception that didn’t include seeing yourself as energy that cannot die, but this inertia is losing steam.

For the present then, you are in both the old and the new. Parts of you will be aching to be more fully in the new while other parts of you will be wondering who’s tearing down their precious house. This polarity inside isn’t the problem however, as many would suggest it to be, but rather it is the denial of this polarity that creates high levels of stress. Feeling the part of you who so wants full steam ahead AND feeling the part of you who doesn’t want to change a thing, thank you very much, is critical to finding the movement that your higher self/authentic self has on the board for your time in the timezone.

In SoulFullHeart, we intentionally get to know these distinct parts of ourselves by giving them a name, journaling (with pen and paper) with them in back and forth dialogue and feeling them throughout the day in synchronistic flow of circumstance that mirrors the intention. It is in the magic of feeling our selves, our distinct parts of our makeup that magically moves us into new timelines that our soul has for us.

Desire is energy. Imagination is energy. Despair is energy. It’s all energy. Where does the energy you are want to move you today amidst all of the other energies in your field?

If you are anything, you are one big opportunity out waiting to happen. No failure or negativity is outside or opposed to this grand opportunity. You get to be as fully you as you are ready for, more and more and more. With no cap on the more.

That’s daunting isn’t it, that there’s no end to this? It kind of takes the pressure off in one way, feeling how you will never be ‘done’. In a very real way, you are already done and are just playing with manifesting your doneness in this dimension at hand. It’s all play, and it’s all for the funnest fun and learning our way to more reverence and awe.

I’m in! And you?

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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