The Process Of Uncovering Gratitude

by Kalayna Solais

Feels strange and yet somehow ‘right’ to have ‘Canadian Thanksgiving’ tomorrow, even though in my life I feel like on a multi-dimensional level, gratitude is continuing to deepen and expand out from me and parts of me at every turn.

This year, I feel like it’s a time to really, soberly, look at, see, FEEL my life as it is and not force my parts into an ‘attitude of gratitude’ but to really feel them in where they might still be tripping over the whole concept of being grateful and why.

I know that inside of me and in my process over the years there’s been a lot of layers of entitlement to feel and heal. I’ve felt though, with each part that’s had this disposition, that underneath the entitlement is a sense of a lack of worthiness. A sense that they won’t get what they want unless they fight for it and ultimately too, a belief that they won’t actually EVER get what they want and that others will instead.

I’m still feeling into what’s truly underneath that meme that’s been ringing and pinging inside for so long and on a soul level too, yet it’s being uncovered with effort and desire to heal it. And, it feels like this ‘Thanksgiving’ celebration day tomorrow helps to bring in some sort of intention around it… around truly and viscerally healing the entitlement that still lingers and moving it into even deeper gratitude than I already feel.

Really feeling our gratitude is actually quite the process. Any bypassing that’s had to be done in order to ‘get there’ actually just buries the parts that feel like they aren’t getting what they want or even what they need, especially from you to you, you to them, parts of you to other parts of you in their relationship with each other.

There’s a lot to feel about this in the collective too of course, and it’s evidenced by our overuse of natural resources, lack of feeling and compassion towards one another and being competitive instead. Even in our domination of animals. Any sort of ‘Thanksgiving’ holiday is really just another reminder to have a look at all of this and how it’s been configured inside of each of us. What IS your personal relationship to gratitude and how does it live in you?

I feel this question as a meditation for myself… and one that I ongoingly want to feel deeply into as I DO have so much to be grateful for, always. And so much that I have earned through personal process, through ‘crawling through glass’, and also, through following with courage what my own soul and heart have wanted more than anything else. In other words… I think the deepest source of gratitude for anything in our lives HAS to be rooted in feeling grateful, ultimately, for our own journeys and where they have had to go, where they are now, and where they seem to be leading.

Much love to you… and if you’re celebrating this weekend… Happy Thanksgiving! 

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

The Aliveness And Love In Feeling It ALL

by Kalayna Solais

As I look out at the horizon, the abundance of natural gifts around me, I feel the vastness of my own future and the potential for all in this human family.

I feel the realness of our struggles. The ways in which we try to bypass but not feel. The feelings that we’d rather not have to experience or relive in order to grow. The past which we would rather forget about than realize parts of us are still living in.

Our true sense of presence is not from obscuring or falsifying our memories of life experiences from this or any lifetime, but from feeling the parts of us and Metasoul aspects still resonating and literally living in these timelines and stories, that still feel the pain we thought we’d healed by now, that still bring all of these feelings of living in these situations into where and who we are now.

As I breathe in and out, feeling my body fill up with prana and light energies, feeling my parts and Metasouls who are vibrating in this and any moment, I feel how alive FEELING makes me. How distinctive this love for myself that grows with each process is from any ‘love’ I’ve been taught or talked at about. I feel this love expanding into the horizon I take in and breathe in. Echoed back by nature, shared with my beloveds, offered to anyone who is ready to take it in and let it support their own journeys.

The love of this world far outweighs the severity of the turmoil… Holds space for it… And IS bringing it into something new, with all of the permission we can give it to do so starting from deep within each of us.

Much love! ❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Support To Breathe & Digest Through Lion’s Gate Momentum

By Kalayna Solais

It’s good to sleep/rest as much as you can right now to help ease the activations in… taking space for yourself feels so necessary and IS so necessary to give you space to feel and BE even if your life is typically ‘busy’. This breathing and feeling space is meant to give you the opportunity to heal AS the activations continue, because what they are activating is not meant to make you or parts of you suffer, though the ‘pressure cooker’ feeling of these activations that can spark some sense of urgency about your next steps is very real too.

This urgency though, is not about something outside of you giving you an ultimatum (though that may manifest if necessary to help you move into something new). Rather, this urgency is coming up from inside of your heart and soul. It’s showing you that what you’re living right now is not enough in many ways. Parts of you may feel guilty that their loyalty to different things, jobs, people is being challenged by new desires arising and being REALized too.

The arising of the truth of what you’ve come here to do and become is not something easily ignored, especially during such activating portal phases as Lion’s Gate. What feelings about your life have parts of you been working so hard to bury or put aside? Reactions of anxiety and depression, if they’re coming up rather strongly right now, are also pointing you in a direction of feeling the GOODNESS of feeling these emotions! They are such spectacular markers of what’s not going the way your soul needs and wants it to go in your life. These feelings are from the rumble within and the fears of parts of you that either things are always just going to be the same, or change will come too quickly. The best thing you can offer them is space to feel with you, to be loved by you, in all they’re feeling… every ounce of fear and disdain, resentment and hope.

There’s always deeper to dig and more layers to feel.

A lion’s ROAR cuts through the din and exposes the truth. And the roar of our Sirian beloveds is here to encourage us to keep going inward to find the truthiest truth within.

Your truth of heart and soul longing and needs is being brought forward, supported, amplified in ways unexpected. There’s so much support available to bridge you to your new timeline. All of the grieving and potential loss is worth the discovery of your vulnerable strength and resilience that comes from deep within… places that have often not yet been explored or felt.

MUCH love to you on your journey… my beloveds and I are here should you desire support for the continued illumination and living out of all of these pieces (and parts): soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Healing Heartbreak Guided Meditation: ‘Discover’ Vlog Series With Kalayna Solais

By Kalayna Solais

I decided to create a video about healing heartbreak through parts work/the SoulFullHeart process, highlighting how it has been helping me and offering a guided meditation to help you connect to the part of you that is the most heartbroken right now (if you’re going through your own mourning process). I share openly though not in great detail yet (I’ll do more of that in another video and in some future blogs, I think) about what I’ve been processing around my recent completion of a Sacred Union romance.

I focus more on the healing of heartbreak when a relationship completes, yet this meditation can apply if a beloved in your life has passed. It’s all about connecting within and letting in the support and LOVE you’re surrounded by through guides, the Divine, your Higher Self, and even life and love themselves in order to move through the pain in all of its many layers and waves.

There are SO many dynamics moving inside of you at all times and it does sometimes take phases of big life changes in order to stir the pot and help you deeply feel what’s been going on this whole time. I’ve found it so helpful and empowering to take everything I’ve been moving through in my life back inward to process it all with parts of me… even and especially when this feels challenging to do or take space to do.

With much love,

Kalayna Solais

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling & Being Felt Clears The Way To Your New Reality

By Kalayna Solais

The heart space clears as tears fill the chambers that were once closed off and sealed.

Sometimes giving yourself space to cry, to just let out what’s been pent up or buried for so long, is the deepest gift.

Frustrations need space to come out from parts of you who feel they’ve been used and neglected, who’ve needed to be incredibly walled-off and protected from a world that has seemed quite heartless and cruel in their experience of it.

To be able to trust another with these tears as they hold space for you to have them is powerful… to be felt deeply and tenderly by another who is qualified to hold this space by their capacity to hold space for themselves and who hold a NEW legacy from their own space-holders who have felt them deeply too.

It can take a long time to trust this shared heart space and there are so many very good reasons why this has been true.

The new sense of what it means to be empathic and to feel another, walking with them on their way to healing as they become more and more empowered to hold that space for themselves too… and eventually others… this is what makes the journey of refining who you are as a ‘healer’ in this world worth it and the journey of serving love that constantly challenges you to keep serving and receiving love from yourself, from the Divine, to yourself, worth it.

I’ve been moved so many times by those I’ve held space for and it always helps me find movements within too. To me, the part of serving love that fills me up the most is to hold and offer the energies I give myself and also receive from those I love and trust. Feeling the love move through and from me to someone in a session, helping their cup fill back up again, is not only rewarding but always clears my heart space out too, making room for me to feel whatever is next for me to feel for myself and my own parts/Metasoul.

And so is the new INvitation to heart-led, vulnerable leadership and healership too… so is the journey into 5D/Golden Earth reality. Though the road can seem long and winding, we ARE in this together, and we are moving upward with every sober yet alive step inward…

And every vulnerable, aching tear our parts are willing to feel as what hasn’t been that reality moves more and more out of our fields and current reality.

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I would love to serve you in session space if what I’m describing resonates for you! My beloveds are available as well… http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Awakening To Your Abundance Within And The Protection Of It Too

by Kalayna Colibri

When I feel the abundance alive inside of Gaia, of water, nourishment, life, energy, that in 4D awakening experiences often seems deficient or on the decline and frighteningly so, I feel how this parallels our own inner abundance that continues to create and recreate itself continuously, that wants to be remembered and fill us UP! Of course, all of this focus on depleting resources is actually a concern about the depletion/scarcity of love… and there is no stronger source of love than that which can be cultivated, experienced and then overflowed from within.

You are not deficient… you are not in lack or scarcity. You are not in a place of “not having”, though it can feel like this to parts of you who have truly and deeply felt as if life and love itself tend to turn the other way when they are in need or want. Some parts of you may have become “beggars” in a sense of it, desperately wanting, praying, affirming, grabbing at what they feel they do not have already. In some ways, this is what they’ve needed to do. This is what you’ve needed to inhabit in your 3D life, where the conditioning is that you need something, someone, outside of you at all times in order to keep you fed, clothed, embraced, loved. This conditioning does not tell you to go within and feel where this sense of separation first started and ultimately received the most encouragement to go on in your consciousness.

You ache… your parts ache. To be felt above anything else. To be seen and heard and even challenged to start feeling the “deficiency” within… a deficiency that doesn’t really exist, but has seemed to. The lack you’ve felt has actually been about something much deeper inside of you that has gone untapped. There are bottomless wells of everything you need within you. For example, the body knows what it’s doing, yet hasn’t always been given permission to be in its intelligence, its knowledge of self-healing, and hasn’t been given the space to do so either or the foods, the energies it most needs in order to boost its abilities. The heart knows what it feels to be true, where your personal and soul timeline stories have come from and why they are there/here, why and how you are connected to those you are connected to, or why perhaps you aren’t. Above all, it knows what you most need. And, it knows that the only place where this can truly come from in a steady and ongoing way is within.

The abundance you have inside is like the Cave of Wonders from Aladdin. Or maybe it’s the intense Inner Protector energy inside of you that makes it feel that way and is offering me this picture now! Your Inner Protector seems to vibe to you that if you touch the lamp of your abundant flow within, everything will collapse… and in a way, they’re not wrong! The golden lamp is your deepest sense of inner power and worth that is accessed through feeling parts of you who are not only the pain they present to you once you begin to feel them, but who also have many, many gifts to offer and can unlock the doors to your soul gifts and service-of-love 5D Self. Once you start to realize your true power and everything you can provide yourself from within by being with these parts of you, all the areas of your life DO experience a collapse of this cave that has served to compartmentalize and hide away your brightest light within… yet, it’s a death and rebirth cycle, not your ultimate demise, as your Protector and other parts have felt it to be. It’s an invitation to keep going, growing, wanting something NEW, something more fulfilling and nourishing and alive within you, that then creates and draws the relationships to others, to life, to work, to service of love, that you most deeply want and are ready for. The best way to walk out this collapse and reboot is with a hotline to your Inner Protector, who has had very good reason to protect your Cave of Wonders and treasure trove within it of previously suppressed parts of you and ultimately self-love and worth too.

You are more than enough in the deepest sense of it. You are the one who gets to experience shifts in your life that don’t always have to be experienced the “hard way” if you do choose to negotiate and walk it out with parts of you. By taking self-loving steps, you get to feel everything that you have within and everything you are bringing with you into each new life phase. And, along the way, you will discover that life is NOT looking to deplete you or run you down and is, in fact, pressing you inward to find the resources you already have waiting to be claimed. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.